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Admiring myself

Thursday, June 16, 2011

It's odd how in the past,All kinds of self hatred and loathing spewed out of me like poison.I would constantly berate myself,talk to myself in the mirror.Things like you fat hippo,you are so disgusting,why does anyone love you,you are the most ugly thing.You see,an Aunt on my daddy's side that looked after me,started saying those things to me as a 3 year old and I just took over when she was out of the picture.Even though I loved others with all my heart,I couldnt stand myself.After several duds I found a wonderful,strong,kind,loving therapist that greets me with a hug everytime!Now,when I look in the mirror I have the greatest admiration for myself!I am a great friend,wife,mother,Grammy,Aunt,Cousin...ET
C.I LOVE MYSELF TO THE HIGHEST LEVEL and always will!My aunt was the one that had the problem and she happily handed it down to me.I called her this morning and took back my power by forgiving her...She wanted to talk to me but didnt have the courage.It's okay and I feel like someone lifted a building off my shoulders.... emoticonSPARKERS emoticonSUSAN

  
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RAWINTEXAS 6/17/2011 4:35PM

  That's wonderful! I am glad you took back the locus of control to your life.

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BIGMELITTLEME 6/17/2011 11:34AM

    Excellent job! You are an amazing person and look what you have accomplish already. WOW!
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BETTERHEALTH123 6/17/2011 9:09AM

    Congratulations. Thank you for your blog. Thinking of your positive action will help me throughout this day. I guess forgiveness lifts a big burden off our shoulders...

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TERRIAM 6/17/2011 8:47AM

    Wow, when i read the part where you picked u[p the phone to talk to you Aunt- HUGE! You are strong and courageous, in addition to all your other wonderful qualities! WTG Sue!
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DIZZYDOC 6/17/2011 8:39AM

    Great Call.... You are fantastic and I am so glad you realize it. Keep up the great work.

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LHLADY517 6/16/2011 5:41PM

    WTG

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MARVEEME 6/16/2011 5:09PM

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Peace be with you!

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JESSICAKES88 6/16/2011 3:31PM

    You are an amazing strong woman. Good for you!

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ARCHIMEDESII 6/16/2011 3:23PM

    We love therapists who hug !! I'm glad you realize that what your aunt did to you was never about you, it was all about her and her issues. Forgiving her was a very powerful step !!



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DUSTYGIRL25 6/16/2011 2:06PM

    Wow! Very Powerful! Good for you for taking the power back and also being able to forgive.
You are so AWESOME!!
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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 6/16/2011 1:43PM

    emoticon You are amazing and I'm so glad you are learning to embrace that. emoticon

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can you believe?

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

That a thief is running around the neighborhood posing as a lawn service to steal lawn mowers?The city police stopped by my house to warn me not to leave my mower outside even for a minute.My neighbors have been victims!I just thought I'd warn you sparkers!!Because the thieves are getting bolder! emoticonSUSAN

  
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BIGMELITTLEME 6/17/2011 11:30AM

    Lawn Mowers are not even the worst of it. I have a junk pile out back that I have been trying to get the "junk dealers" to take. There are people who drive around in old trucks that will say, "We will haul away your stuff for free." This is because they will scrap any metal that is in the junk. We agreed to let this guy haul our "junk" but we told him, "You can't just take the metal you have to take it all that is the deal if you don't agree you can't take any of it." He agreed. Aluminum is high right now and I told him "DO NOT TAKE MY CHICKEN BROODER" I pointed to it and was standing right by it and he repeated it back to me so I know there was NO MISUNDERSTANDING. My DH had just had surgery so I went back into the house to check on him and make him lunch and a little bit later the guy was driving away with a truck full of "just" the metal and my chicken brooder and I will guarantee that I will never see him again to get the rest of the stuff! I was robbed same as if he had come in my house and taken my TV without permission.
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They are stealing the copper pipes out of the older abandoned / foreclosed on homes.


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RATFINKROB 6/17/2011 9:18AM

    I am going to leave mine out on the lawn and cross my fingers. I really want a new mower and my wife is not a fan of the idea as long as my old one runs :)

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MARVEEME 6/16/2011 10:27AM

    Thanks for the reminder.....this stuff increases when times are tough, and times ARE tough.

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MAYBER 6/15/2011 9:13PM

    We live in a world where nothing surprises me anymore
Why do people feel they are entitled to others property
We have a fenced in yard with locks on them but have had people jump the fence
The fence and locked gate is to keep my DH safe as he has alzheimers
Living one day at a time

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DUSTYGIRL25 6/15/2011 9:09PM

    Geeezz... some people with steal anything that isn't cemented down. emoticon

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 6/15/2011 1:10PM

    So sad.

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VHALKYRIE 6/15/2011 12:32PM

    How very strange! Be careful!

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ARCHIMEDESII 6/15/2011 12:29PM

    Now that is just plain bizarre ! Who steals lawnmowers ? And worse, is there a black market for stolen lawnmowers ? If so, that's just sad.

Of course, they could be stealing old lawnmowers for parts. That would make sense since more people are repairing their old lawnmowers instead of buying a new one to save money. Selling lawnmower parts could be lucrative.


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HANKENSTEIN 6/15/2011 12:10PM

    too bad you can't electrify one and leave it as bait. lol

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Kids left in cars!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

I would like to make this blog a shout out to all mom's and dad's that think they are just going into the store for a minute!!Thats all it takes for your child to get stolen,curious about how cars work,the car could catch fire(my cousins brand new truck burned up one week after getting it)Or be hit by another car!I would never wish that on any knot headed mama or daddy out there.Plus,its getting super hot here in Texas and your child could die in that car.I see on the news all the time another senseless death of a child or helpless person because someone was too much in a hurry to grab the kids out and take them along....If I reach one person out there that thinks ITS ONLY FOR A MINUTE?Think again and dont do it!Because if I come along and see your children sitting in a running car?I will call the police!!Even if the car is turned off and the windows are down,I will call them!It's against the LAW!!..... emoticonSUSAN

  
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BIGMELITTLEME 6/17/2011 11:23AM

    Good job. I too will call the police and there is no yelling or name calling that can make me feel bad for calling the police either. We are doing these parents and thier kids a favor by calling.
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BOHEMIANCAT 6/15/2011 12:30PM

    Yes, continue to call the police, you could be saving a life.
Kids are much worse, but animals in cars can die too.

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 6/15/2011 9:53AM

    This has always driven me crazy.

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SUECHRIS50 6/15/2011 8:58AM

    I'LL call the police for dogs too!It's inhumane!

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MRE1956 6/15/2011 6:45AM

    Just one more sign that people are really LOSING TOUCH WITH REALITY!



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ARLENE_MOVES 6/14/2011 9:34PM

    I get upset when I see dogs left in cars -- kids, I agree with you, I'll call the police.

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MIPALADY23 6/14/2011 9:20PM

    Freaks me out that people still do this!

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MARVEEME 6/14/2011 6:56PM

    Thank you for posting this.....an important reminder never hurts, but a slip of the mind can kill.

Blessings!

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CDNCASS 6/14/2011 6:51PM

    This makes me think of the one Oprah episode where a lady went to work and forgot that her baby was in the car sleeping. She was out of her routine so just sort of followed along with her usual morning (where she didn't have the kids) and her baby ended up dying. Breaks my heart every time I think about it. :(

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I have friends that are mad at me!

Monday, June 13, 2011

I feel sad that my friends that have chosen to stay on the same path,wont talk to me.They wont email or take my calls.We talked one time and they say we have nothing in common anymore(I dont eat my weight in pizza,fried chicken and donuts)We used to go in the mornings and eat at buffets,McDonald's for lunch and Icecream from baskin robbins.I still email them and ask how they are doing.I am too afraid to mention my weight loss!They get majorly pissed and call me names but,I wont stoop to thier level.My mama raised me better.I said we could go for coffee or lunch but,They texted me HELL NO!My heart hurts for our lost friendship and NO I've never thrown it in thier faces or even mentioned my journey!My husband says they are jealous of me because I have changed and they stayed the same,and if I told them I gained the weight back they would come running...Sorry,who needs friends like them?What do ya'll think ?Should I stop trying?Are they a lost cause? emoticon emoticon SUSAN

  
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BETTERHEALTH123 6/16/2011 10:26AM

    that was my first time sending a message. It looks like my message was sent two times....

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BETTERHEALTH123 6/16/2011 10:24AM

    I agree with everything everyone said. You need to find different friends where food is not a "fun" activity for them. They probably have no other activities to do that are fun besides eating junk food. They sound very emotionally immature by calling you names. Reminds me of how some teenagers act at times!!!

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BETTERHEALTH123 6/16/2011 10:21AM

    I agree with everything people stated above. I guess your friends only fun activity is eating. They actually call you names? How sad. It sounds like they have a lot of emotional maturing to do.

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GOOSIEMOON 6/15/2011 9:30AM

    True friends should be able to understand and support your decision to maintain your new healthy lifestyle.

Keep up the good work and find some new, better friends!

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JOHNSONWAY 6/13/2011 11:22PM

    To think that these people were your friends. They are just self centered and down right mean. I agree with what everyone has said. Your accomplishments have been awesome. Celebrate your victories with those who really love you. Be proud!

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HAPPYONE331 6/13/2011 10:47PM

    I agree with all the others' posts. These people aren't your friends, let them go and don't look back.

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SCOTTGARAN 6/13/2011 9:51PM

    These types of people can only do one thing and that is drag YOU down. They are really not friends if they are treating you this way. You tried, now dump them!

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TAMIK1964 6/13/2011 9:15PM

    Ditto to everything that has been said before me except for deleting their numbers. Keep the numbers so you know who not to answer if they do call you.

I've had to let friends go in the past who were not healthy for me (physically and emotionally). It is not an easy thing to do but I have never regretted it.

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MARVEEME 6/13/2011 9:09PM

    Don't waste more time chasing them, they're not worth it. You've worked hard to get your life aligned with your vision. Stay the course and keep your focus. Don't be surprised, though, if one day down the line, you hear from one of them. Even then, don't gloat, just LOVE YOUR LIFE!

My condolences on your recent losses, but you've got a VERY insightful husband.... FOR LIFE!

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MAGGIEMAY725 6/13/2011 8:51PM

    Jealous? I think so.. As I've heard over and over in that past and even the present, Misery loves miserable company. Sounds like they aren't really the kind of people who are very happy with themselves or they wouldn't be trying to bring you down and make you miserable.
I have to agree with everyone else... It's time to lose their numbers and make new friends!!! My hugs and prayers are with you! emoticon

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MELLABELLAS 6/13/2011 8:14PM

    I agree those are not true friends if they just drop you like that. Tell them you really care about them but you can't deal with all the drama and junk food anymore!

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MSNIKE 6/13/2011 7:59PM

    Oh man...you're husband was right on point! You do not need to be friends with people like that. I wouldn't even necessarily have called them friends for even acting like that....shame on them. They aren't happy with themselves so they can't possibly be happy for you! I'm so sorry that has happened but you need and deserve better people in your life. *hugs* Keep it movin... :)

Danielle

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MIPALADY23 6/13/2011 7:29PM

    They aren't true friends so there's nothing to hold on to and not much loss if you really look at it, hang in there.

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JESSICAMAE83 6/13/2011 7:25PM

    Time to cut your ties. REAL friends would never treat some one this way. Surround yourself with people that celebrate in your success!!

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TEENY_BIKINI 6/13/2011 7:20PM

    First, it saddens me that anyone would be mean to you. That is not cool at all. You are too nice to be treated that way.

I find the angry displays and lashing out at you offensive and completely unacceptable behavior.

You deserve better. I would drop them like a hot potato. But that is a tough thing to do - so just follow your heart and trust your instincts. Look how far those amazing instincts have gotten you, gorgeous.

Hugs.

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DUSTYGIRL25 6/13/2011 6:53PM

    Wow! It's too bad they don't want to follow along with you on this wonderful Spark journey of learning to live a healthy lifestyle. I guess there's nothing more that you can do. Hopefully they will come around eventually and want to join the fun! Good for you for sticken to your plan!!
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TXGRANDMA 6/13/2011 6:20PM

    I agree with everyone! They were not really friends to begin with! A true friend would be happy that you were improving your health so that you could be around longer. Your husband is right, they are jealous. It is too bad that they are this way, but they are just sources of stress for you now, and that is not good for you.

I have to say, delete their numbers from your contact list!
They are no good for you! Keep your chin up and make some new friends!
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RATFINKROB 6/13/2011 2:55PM

    All I can say is wow! Time to delete their numbers.

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ARCHIMEDESII 6/13/2011 2:48PM

    With friends like those, who needs enemies ?? Goodness, what kind of people were these friends ! A real friend would be supportive of you at all times. These folks sound just plain petty. Which is a dreadful shame.

Don't let them get to you. Whatever is going on, this is all about THEM, not you !! For some reason, they have chosen you as the target of their spite. Why ? who knows, but if they won't return any calls or emails, then perhaps it's time to cut them loose. This really is not a reflection on anything you have done. So, don't take their words personally. This is their loss, not yours.

As you've already corrected noted, you're above that kind of behavior.

Don't worry, you'll make new friends with people who will appreciate you !!!




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BARBAELLEN 6/13/2011 2:21PM

    What kind of people are these? If the only thing you had in common was a pact to stay fat, I'd say you probably DON'T have anything in common any more. I'm sure they are hurting your feelings, so why would you want to go back for more? Do you really want to waste your life on people who will only be around you if you eat alot? I don't think so! These people are not what friends are about.
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RAIN470 6/13/2011 2:18PM

    I am so sorry to hear that you are having so much trouble with your friends. Its hard to see people change especially when it comes to weight loss. People can feel left behind but that is not your problem. Let them have their pity party. If they can't realize that you are the same person in the inside then they aren't worth your time. You have decided to make a positive change in your life and you should be surrounded by people who bring you positive energy. I know the lose of friends can be hard but if they truly care for you they will come back to you in time. Don't let them ruin your major accomplishments. You should be truly proud of what you have done. Keep up the amazing work!!!!!

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MRE1956 6/13/2011 2:11PM

    Not worth the waste of your precious time.....h8rs are losers!

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BLH507 6/13/2011 2:09PM

    Stop trying, you don't need their toxic mess in your life.

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My daughter's going for her dental surgery monday!!

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Im hoping the surgery will release the pressure on her face, head and neck!!She has rightfully been grouchy and ready to blow up!I'm going to do some working out and watching tv at home a few days.At least until she's recooped a few days!! emoticon spark friends

  
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JESSICAMAE83 6/12/2011 11:48PM

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MARVEEME 6/12/2011 10:29PM

    She's in my prayers, for SURE!

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