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Doing This for {ME}

Friday, July 19, 2013

For a really long time I essentially avoided healthy eating and exercise. Twenty years, give or take.

Many people avoid those things... and I doubt my reason is unique. But it's not something I hear about very often.

When I was younger, I was in a relationship with a rather unkind person. It didn't start out that way. But I was his first real girlfriend, and at some point he became cruel. Like a lot of twenty-something girls, I was insecure about my looks. I thought I was fat. I thought I was ugly. And he played right into those insecurities, assuring me that I should be grateful for him because nobody else would want to date me.

It got so bad that he would expect regular updates on what kind of workouts I was doing. We would go out for dinner and he would tell me what I could and couldn't eat. It was never a physically abusive relationship, but it definitely let its mark emotionally.

The relationship eventually ended, but the scars remained. I got rid of him, but I let him stay in my head... in a reverse psychology kind of way. I would do the exact opposite of what he used to demand.

So I didn't exercise. I ate whatever I wanted. Just because I could.

It took a long time to break free of ALL those chains. I have no idea what happened back in January to make me want to take better care of myself. Subconsciously, I think I knew that the people in my life now would never hurt me like that. That knowledge gave me the self-confidence to realize that by avoiding exercise and portion-control, I was still letting him win. Just in a different way.

I was talking to my bestie this week about it. I get to make the choices for my life. And I choose happy! Hopefully, happy will stay for a nice long visit this time!

(I'm hoping the temperature drops a bit tomorrow so I can walk a emoticon. THAT would make me very happy!!! The Color Run is four weeks from tomorrow... really looking forward to it, and I want to be ready!)

Enjoy the weekend, everyone!
Stay cool!

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DEEGIRL50 7/22/2013 6:20AM

    "Doing this for Me"... the best reason in the world. I'm glad you finally washed his abusive voice from your head. Enjoy the color run!
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E1SPAG 7/19/2013 8:27PM

    I am glad you know what you need to let go to move on, thanks for sharing! emoticon

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I Feel Like the Wicked Witch in 'Wizard of Oz'

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Not because I'm a nasty person, but because I'm fairly certain that I'm melting!!! I'm really not handling this heat very well.

My comment today was that I only like the 80's and 90's when it's in regard to music!! Haha.

This is what I want:

I'm sure I'm in the minority. I don't even want to get out of bed because I feel stifled.

I did manage to go to the gym all week except for today, which was a planned "break" day... AND I completed week one of my "7 Weeks to 100 Push Ups" challenge. So I felt strong. We'll see what week two brings!


Keep cool, everyone!
Happy Thursday!

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DEEGIRL50 7/19/2013 8:00AM

    I keep hearing people say... "You'll wish we had this weather come January."
No, I won't. It's too darn hot. I'll take cold when you can still go outside and enjoy yourself. You can always put on more clothes.

emoticon Great job of meeting your exercise goals despite the heat.

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MKRETIRED 7/18/2013 6:28PM

  I know how you feel. Hotter than heck here.

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Seven Weeks to One Hundred Push Ups

Saturday, July 13, 2013

A couple months, as I was surfing around Pinterest...

Ahem... quick aside... surfing is cardio, right? emoticon

No? Blah. Anyyyyyway... I came across a link to a Plank Challenge calendar. It was fairly old so the dates didn't really match up to anything in real time, but the general idea was totally workable. You do a plank each day for a month, adding to the length of time you held it each day, working your way up to 90 seconds at the end of the month.

I have now been doing 90-second planks daily. Well, when I remember to anyway. But my rule is... if I think about it, then I have to stop what I'm doing and DO it. (Be back in 90 seconds...)

I just stumbled across a website that promises that you'll be able to perform 100 consecutive push ups after seven weeks. I like doing these incremental challenges. They motivate me and give me something concrete to measure my accomplishments.

I'm a girly push up kind of girl. But maybe as I progress, I'll be able to do the full push ups. And even if I can't... I have every intention of doing much better in seven weeks than I did today!

Here is the link to the program if you're interested:

Happy Saturday!!!

^ That's me! Even the colors are correct!

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DEEGIRL50 7/19/2013 8:03AM

    I love how you're increasing your exercise and strength in increments. Also, your "If I think about it, then I stop what I'm doing and Do It." Awesome!!
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VTORIA3 7/15/2013 5:48PM

    What an interesting challenge. I am looking forward to your blog updates on this. I must admit, I'm pretty lazy when it comes to strength training. I'm still hoping I find a lamp and genie and with a snap of the fingers I will have my flexibility back and be strong. emoticon Tween us.....I know you are onto something! emoticon

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Starting to Like What I See in the Mirror

Tuesday, July 09, 2013

As I was getting dressed this morning, I looked in the mirror and actually smiled. That hasn't happened in a very long time!

I've been watching the number on the scale go down, I've been getting happily annoyed that my clothes don't fit anymore emoticon (annoying because I simply don't want to have to spend a bunch of money on clothes only to turn around in a couple months and do it all over again!)

The one friend who talk to about this healthy thing assures me that you can see a difference just by looking at me.

I didn't believe it until today!

HAPPY DAY!!!!!!!

I'm a big believer in being yourself and loving yourself for who you are. And I think I'm a pretty fantastic person. I'm kind, I'm loyal, I'm a hard worker. I can be incredibly silly.

So when I decided back in January to jump on this healthy bandwagon, it felt weird. Because I've never felt like I needed to change who I am. It took a while to convince myself that I wasn't doing that. Deciding that I wanted to like what I see when I look in the mirror was a harder struggle than it should have been.

But doing it for me, and only for me, is what made it a possibility.

And I'm {HAPPY}


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DEEGIRL50 7/19/2013 8:07AM

    emoticon Loving Yourself... Priceless!
emoticon on creating a healthier, stronger, and great shape!

You can shop second hand stores for cheap clothes as you continue to downsize!

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MMILLER139 7/12/2013 8:50PM

    emoticon emoticon I am not there yet! But the other day, my Aunt asked me if I was wearing new jeans and said they looked good on me, so not to wear them to work or they will be ruined... she saw me in those same jeans a week earlier, I had to lay down to button them then, and she didn't say anything about wearing them to work lol. That was the best, and only, compliment so far! emoticon

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TINKSMOM1 7/10/2013 9:05AM

    I love your attitude! I'm so glad you wrote this blog! Keep up the good work, your awesome! emoticon emoticon

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KERRIELYNN719 7/9/2013 6:25PM

    It always takes a whole for us to notice changes in ourselves! S glad you can see them :)

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KSJ040 7/9/2013 6:16PM

  That is SUPER! I just had my day like you describe last week and was over the moon! It is SO rewarding to see the efforts of our hard work and dedication to our health...and the compliments of other's rocks as well! emoticon

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Elliptical Shmiptical

Monday, July 08, 2013

WHY do people like this machine?! I loathe it!


I find it to be such an unnatural movement. And after ten minutes on the stupid thing, I thought for sure I was going to die.

Stationery bike... good.
Treadmill... goooood.

Elliptical.... evil!!!

Time for some emoticon to calm my nerves!

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LOLAHH 7/8/2013 6:25PM

    I have come to love the elliptical. It was sooo hard for me in the beginning but when something is hard and I think i can't do it it gets me fired up and I work at it until I can! At least you have found something you enjoy! emoticon

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