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Doing better

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Thanks so much to all of your for your love and support. I really appreciate your advice and kind words.

Yesterday I went for a long walk after I finally got out of work and I just came back from a quick walk at lunch. I am sitting at my desk, sweaty, but it felt nice to get out. And I've made plans with friends and "me" time, so that should help me with my depression.

This really is a process, right? I'm just glad that I am not falling back into old routines, where when I was really depressed I would binge eat. I guess I am doing better than I thought!

  
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DSPRTLYSEEKINME 5/14/2009 8:29AM

    I'm so very glad that you're feeling better and that you've made so much progress. Way to go! You're really doing great!

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NASCARGIRL3 5/14/2009 6:56AM

    Glad to hear your feeling better. I know you'll have your ups & downs, just remember it's normal and all part of the grieving process.
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~Wendy

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IMADAREDEVIL 5/13/2009 2:25PM

    My thoughts are with you. Hugs to you for staying on track.

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CURVYMAYA 5/13/2009 2:14PM

    I'm glad you are doing better. When ever I feel the need to binge I come on here instead and post a blog about my feelings and what I'm going through. It is definitely a process. Good for you for scheduling some girl time. I know I would go insane without "me" time.
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TITALADY 5/13/2009 2:05PM

    Hey girl, hope this finds you stronger every day. We have all experienced loss of loved ones so we can feel your pain. It lessens with time and eventually is replaced with the ability to remember the joy that person gave us over the pain we feel at their loss.

Enjoy your day.
love and hugs,
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I've been a little depressed the past couple of days

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

I have been struggling the past few days, struggling with my depression, lack of energy, and just not sleeping well. I am just so tired all of the time and I dont really have any interest in doing anything. The only thing that I can think of is that it will be a month this week that my grandfather passed away. Maybe the shock of everything is wearing off, and now I am really experiencing the sadness and loss.

Its just been getting harder and harder to function at work. I really do not have any interest in doing anything and its a struggle to do the normal stuff during the workday. I am doing my work right and competently, but I know I am not doing it as awesome as I could because of my frame of mind.

I think exercise will help me, and as soon as I am able to leave work today I will leave to go for a long walk. That usually helps. I dont know what else to do. I am just so tired and barely functioning.

Any suggestions?

  
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HARRINGTON5 5/13/2009 12:27PM

    Melissa, I do feel sorry for your loss and maybe you should go see a doctor because I think a month is quite a long time to be feeling like you are feeling. Yes, we are all sad when someone passes away and you can spend the rest of your life feeling sad or you can think about the good things that remind you of your grandfather and be happy about it. I lost both my parents; first my Mom and several years later, my Dad, so I do know what I am talking about. Don't baby yourself and get more depressed. You have the power to change how you feel. If it is clinical depression, then you need to go to a doctor for help. I hope you feel better soon!

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DSPRTLYSEEKINME 5/13/2009 8:53AM

    I'm so sorry for not having seen this sooner, just as I'm sorry that you've been down, Melissa. It does sound as though you have a full emotional plate right now. It also doesn't help, I know, that you've not been sleeping well. I know when I'm tired, things tend to get to me all that much more easily.

*HUGS*

It's times like these that we need to baby ourselves... Take time for you. The time that you need to heal. I know it, likely, doesn't help now, but while his physical body is no longer with you, his spirit always will be, and he wants you to be happy, I'm certain.

I hope you continue to have a better day, as it sounds like from your status update. My thoughts are with you today.

Much love and many hugs to you, my friend...

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NHGRL68 5/12/2009 4:49PM

    Hey There:-)
Sorry that you have been feeling so down:-( You probably are still grieving. It sounds like everyone has really given you some great advice:-) The only thing that I can add is you might want to try to start journaling about how you are feeling, if you aren't already doing that. Maybe letting some of your emotions out, and getting them down on paper, will help you with the grieving process. It might be something to try, along with all the other great suggestions:-) I hope you start feeling better soon:-) I'm here for you also, if you ever need to talk:-) emoticon

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RWETHAIRYET 5/12/2009 11:55AM

    emoticon It probably is part of the grieving process, after all it hasn't been that long. I'll echo everyone elses advice...find someone positive to do something with and again, the exercise will help...especially if you can do something that's as good for the soul as it is for the body.
We're here for you my friend.

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NASCARGIRL3 5/12/2009 11:42AM

    Melissa , Sorry to hear your not feeling yourself lately. I just want to let you u know that I've been there and it is normal and part of the grieving process. you will have your ups and downs and as soon as you think your all better you'll get down again. I agree with SMA that you should make plans with friends. Although you won't feel like going out, you'll be glad you did. Just want to let you know that I'm always here if you want to chat. I'm just a spark mail away.

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ETAGGEL 5/12/2009 11:38AM

    I believe you are going through the grieving process and it can take a while. if you are concerned go and visit your doctor. tell him how you are feeling. You may need some lab work done.
I hope you start to feel better soon. Keep in touch


Phyllis

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MAMASPARROW 5/12/2009 10:00AM

    Melissa, Just sending you a big hug from one friend to another. Maybe you should try to seek out a grief counselor...
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SMA123 5/12/2009 9:29AM

    Hi Melissa. It does sound to me as though you are depressed, and it's certainly understandable that losing someone close to you would bring you down. One suggestion would be to spend some time with people you love who have a lot of positive energy. Just call up a friend to go out for coffee. You may not want to, but try making the effort. This often works for me. Or take an afternoon off and do something that inspires you: take a bike ride, go to a museum, take a picnic to the lake, make a trip to your favorite out-of the-way lunch spot or shop.

I have been where you are and what has worked for me is to make an effort to break my routine and shake things up a little. If you aren't feeling better after a couple of weeks, I really think you should see someone about your depression and get some help. Please take care of yourself!

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My pants fit so much better!!!

Friday, May 08, 2009

Today is laundry day, and I was digging through my clothing to try to find something to wear. I found these pair of brown pants that the last time I wore I felt like I was going to explode out of them--I could barely zip them up and button them, and moving in them was painful. But, today, I was out of options. So I tried them on and....


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They are comfortable, dont feel like a seem is going to burst--basically, they fit like pants are supposed to! and i put on a cute matching top that before would let the muffin top roll on out, but, I must say, I look pretty good!

I am almost tempted to put some pictures up! (My husband and I took some pictures to document my progress!)

This just encourages me to keep going!

  
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HARRINGTON5 5/11/2009 3:09PM

    WOW, That is super! Isn't that a wonderful surprise? Thank you for stopping by my blog, I appreciate the encouragement and you can do it too! Look what a great job you have done so far. Take those pictures! That helps motivate you too.

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WHISKERS12189 5/9/2009 6:11AM

    Way to go!

Keep up the great work!
Ann

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SCARLETKTY 5/8/2009 11:11PM

    Aw that's so awesome Melissa! I totally know what you mean, I had one of those moments like a month ago lol where I was feeling really discouraged cuz I hadn't lost that much, but then I had a laundry day too so I tried on these pants that were WAY too tight the last time and they fit! lol isn't that the greatest feeling? Hope we keep on doing so well!! And I hope you have a good mother's day weekend!! whether you are one or you have one is what I've been telling everyone lol take care!!

- Katie

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COOLBEAN61 5/8/2009 3:32PM

    I love that too! The other day I was shopping and decided to break down and buy some capris! I brought in a 12 and a 10 and they both were big on me! I was in shock so I went and got an 8 and they fit! I have not been an 8 since I was 2 months pregnant! Doesn't clothes fitting feel good! Keep up the good work! soon you too may have to get some new clothes!!!

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GINA82478 5/8/2009 3:17PM

    thats awesome, congrats!

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PUMPKINHEAD29 5/8/2009 2:21PM

    THAT IS AWESOME emoticon. I am so proud of you!! Doesn't it just make you feel great inside to know all this hard work is paying off!!!

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RWETHAIRYET 5/8/2009 12:56PM

    Don't you just love when that happens??? Scales might often lie...clothing (unless you shrink it, lol) never does!
I got to put on a little knit dress that I haven't been able to wear in a few years today...and it looks better now then when I bought it! Hubby even remarked on how nice and shapely my legs were getting as I left for work. It really is great for those motivational levels!!! Makes it all worth it!

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MAMASPARROW 5/8/2009 12:25PM

    WOO HOO!! That's so great! Isn't that the best when your weight loss surprises even you?! Keep it up, girl. We're on our way! emoticon

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SPARKLESSENCE 5/8/2009 8:52AM

    What a wonderful feeling that must've been for you, Melissa! No more muffin top for you! I think "Muffin Top" is my middle name :) - Sara emoticon

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DSPRTLYSEEKINME 5/8/2009 8:36AM

    YAY, MELISSA! *bounces up and down* WAY TO GO! I'm SO happy for you!!! You're doing GREAT!

*chants* Pictures! Pictures! Pictures! lol

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Making myself work out--SUCCESS!!

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

So I have been really tired lately, stressed, and just not feeling 100%. Truthfully, after work, I just wanted to go home and go to sleep while watching tv.

BUT, instead of driving past the gym tonite, I had my gymbag already in the car and stopped at the gym. I worked out for over an hour and felt so much better leaving the gym than I did before I went there. I feel re-energized and stronger.

I'm so glad I prepared myself for the gym and gave myself no excuses not to go!

  
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GINA82478 5/7/2009 6:53PM

    Thats a good idea, I have days where I just don't want to go to the gym, but I go anyway and feel so much better afterwards. Getting there is always the hard part

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COOLBEAN61 5/6/2009 4:34PM

    Good Idea! Nothing renergizes you that working out!! Keep up the good work!!

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RWETHAIRYET 5/6/2009 10:52AM

    Good for you for just being prepared and doing it. It really is remarkable, that no matter how much we might not want to start...we almost always feel better after it's over.
If I go a few days without exercise, Hubby will say "Have you exercised lately??? You're really getting cranky" So the difference is obvious to others too it seems.

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DSPRTLYSEEKINME 5/6/2009 10:12AM

    Way to go! I KNOW it can be really difficult to workout when you just don't feel up to it. I've run into a few days like that myself, lately, but trudging through it... That's great! And I know end up feeling so much better after it too.

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SPARKLESSENCE 5/6/2009 8:30AM

    Y'know, I'm not one of those people who likes exercise. Nope! I have to make myself walk and work out at 8:30 AM...or I won't do it at all! Good for you, for getting out there and gettin' it done!! - Sara emoticon

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NASCARGIRL3 5/6/2009 8:09AM

    Awesome, I know how hard it is to get yourself to exercise, but isn't it great how you feel when your done. I try to think of my exercise time as a little me time. Congrats on fighting the urge to drive past the gym and go home. It will pay off in the end!

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I finally made it to ONEderland!

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

With all the craziness last week, I forgot to weigh myself.

So I stepped on the scale today, even though I like to weigh myself on Fridays....and

I MADE IT TO ONEDERLAND!!! this is the first time that I have been under 200lbs in over three years! I am so super excited!!

Now I feel like I can do anything and my goals are in my reach. Its so nice to see things starting to pay off. And its not just the weight--I have noticed some of my shirts fitting better and my pants are looser on my waist. I have had to cinch a couple of pants in a bit (they had buttons on the side to 'expand' them, now I need to move them in to the other button) and I am just so happy!

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I have met my first big goal!!

Thank you so much for being with me and helping me along the way! I love you all!

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Melissa

  
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SPARKLESSENCE 5/2/2009 6:57PM

    Yeah, MELISSA!!! That's "onederful" news!! Congratulations...and happy new clothes! - Sara emoticon

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VALTOLLE 4/30/2009 12:47PM

    Go Girl!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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COOLBEAN61 4/29/2009 7:21PM

    Way to Go!!! Keep up the good work!

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CT1954 4/29/2009 6:41PM

    WOW!! That's awesome!! emoticon

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DIANECANDOIT 4/29/2009 3:15PM

    WOOHOO!!

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You should be so very proud of yourself!!

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JLYNN851 4/29/2009 2:57PM

  Congratulations!!!!! emoticon

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IMADAREDEVIL 4/29/2009 2:05PM

    You're just doing fantastic, and I'm so proud of you. What a great feeling. Spark is such a wonderful place to be, with support and motivation to be found everywhere!!
I send you great big hugs, and send you love and support on the rest of your journey.
Thanks for stopping by my blog!
Hugs to you on onederland!!


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LKG9999 4/29/2009 11:59AM

    That's awesome. Hope to join you in ONEderland soon!

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RWETHAIRYET 4/29/2009 11:37AM

    Congratulations!! You're doing an awesome job!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GRAMMYEAC 4/29/2009 11:34AM

    Congratulations, Melissa!

It's an awesome feeling to reach such a major milestone. Keep up the GREAT work!!!

And set your sights on your next mini-milestone!

Emily

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NHGRL68 4/29/2009 10:08AM

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You are doing AWESOME!!! Your hard work is paying off!!! You CAN do it!!! You ARE doing it!!! emoticon Keep it up!!! You are getting healthier and healthier! emoticon

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SDTALLY 4/29/2009 10:01AM

    Super Dooper Congratulations!!

Sharon

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MYFEETHURT 4/29/2009 9:57AM

  Huge congrats to you, Melissa. You are so right...you can do anything! Keep up the great work. Keep sparking! mary

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