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Saturday, February 11, 2012

Easy is over-rated.

Easy is lazy.

Not that I WANT everything to be hard. Some stress is good for the body. It is what builds bone and muscle and intelligence.

Easy doesn't get you results that you can be proud of.

So, lately, I have realized that I trend my life towards "easy". Or, do I?

I am 41 years old, back in school full-time, working, a Mom, a homeowner (almost), in a relationship (back together again). Nothing about my choices seems to be "easy".

I think I love drama. Perhaps that's why I never seem to lose weight.

Now, I want to try vegetarianism. I want to eat healthy, yummy, no animal based foods. Not the EASY choice. Certainly, I will have the folks in my immediate life in an uproar. Why would you do that? will be the first question they will ask.

Well, I just saw a documentary that gave some very compelling information/science about how Western diet is KILLING Americans. Animal proteins CAUSE disease. Plant-based diets reverse heart disease, diabetes, high blood pressure, cancer, etc.

I have been here before. Excited. Motivated. Scared straight.

Not sure how long this will last. I hope long enough for me to get healthy, results, off medicine, and truly happy about how I look and feel.

One day at a time...


Weight is always the last...

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Weight/health issues always seem to be the last thing on my list to worry about.

Isn't that what people who end up with catastrophic health issues say?

Am I waiting for a tragic issue to pop up before I can finally put this at teh forefront?

Why is it so hard to juggle all of the aspects of my life?

The good news is that I have received A's on every single one of the tests I have taken the past two weeks. so, as you can see, school has shifted to my priority.

Ah---then there is the break up.

Yep, that's right. I broke a five year relationship. He and I were never going to see our future together as remotely the same. I finally woke up to that realization. But, my God, my heart is very broken. This was not in MY picture of the future.

The anxiety and uncertainty of my future as a single person at 41 pushed me to get out and exercise last night.

See? Catastrophe pushed me (motivated me?) to move my body. I just know I had to do something to relieve the tension I was feeling. Hopefully I keep that up.

I guess I am not ready to connect all the dots yet. I do not have any pearls of wisdom for myself yet. Just needed to point out my tendency to put my health last on my list until dire circumstances force me to do something.

Knowing is half the battle, right?

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

FLORENCEANN06 10/25/2011 1:21PM

    emoticon Breakups are hard. I hope your heart heals soon. It is hard to make health a priority when there are so many other important things in life. I try to incorporate healthy decisions into everyday living, but it isn't easy. Good luck.

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MOMGABE 10/25/2011 8:30AM

    Exercise is a great stress reliever. Hopefully you enjoy it and consider it your "ME" time.
Congratulations on your excellent grades. emoticon emoticon

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Birthday Reflections

Saturday, October 08, 2011

UGH! I could so go on a rampage about how disappointed I am about my weight. But It's my Birthday and I do not want to cry.

I HATE shopping! Nothing ever fits right and all the demons in my head start beating me up. I have to seriously Mentally Armor-up to buy new clothes. So, that is NOT what I am doing with my day.

I am getting my hair cut. A new doo. If there is space on my computer I will try to upload a photo.

I am going out to dinner tonight. Can't wait!

And I am planning out weekly/monthly menus. That will help me immensely in the battle of the bulge. In the plan, I am going to ban some foods for the first time. Chips and salsa need to be "treats" not instant dinner. (bad habits have creeped back in-like, not cooking). Veggies need to be consumed with at least 2 out of 3 meals.

I will use my free Y membership! I will USE my free Y membership! I WILL use my free Y membership!!!

I will make a pact to meet up with my friend and workout at the Y at least 2 times per week. I have to do this to get a grip on stress and moods. It will only benefit my nursing plans-NOT interfere with them. (I haven't liked the person I've been at home lately. Issues with my daughter and her homework/chores are making me a CRAZY woman. A woman whom I hate. Mood management is in order!)

I really do love life right now. School is AMAZING! I am very proud of my achievements thus far. I get more and more excited to move on in the program. I am where I am supposed to be.

Happy "new year" to me. It's gonna be awesome!

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    Happy Birthday! Sounds like you know exactly what to do. Planning ahead and cooking in batches to have on hand throughout the week really helps get a handle on "instant meals". Good foods=good moods for me (as long as I'm not starving : ) You'll be stunning with your new birthday "doo".

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If you care to know...

Thursday, October 06, 2011

I am in freakin' Life Bliss right now!!!

Nursing school is friggin' awesome. I LOVE it when life throws you a curve ball FOR THE BETTER. (I didn't know I'd be kickin' some a$$ is school at age 40).

My DD's transition to High School has been just a wee bit bumpy, but she is adjusting. These next four years will most certainly make me bond even more closely with my hairdresser...

Speaking of hairdresser's, I have an appt with mine on Saturday. My Birthday. So excited to get my hair did! And then...

Wait for it.

My Dear Boyfriend (of nearly 5 years-which means we are waaaaaaay past the dinner date thingy) is taking me out for a real-life, actually in the night, dinner date! Reservations required and all!

Bella Luna-Here we come!

I've never been there. I hear rave reviews. It's Italian. What's not to love?

Things are good!

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DROWSYMAGGIE 10/7/2011 10:17AM

    It's wonderful that you are doing so well in school and feeling so happy. Have a wonderful birthday!

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JLITT62 10/7/2011 5:16AM

    Glad to hear everything's going well! Enjoy your birthday dinner.

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Weekly Blog Challenge

Friday, August 26, 2011

From Fierce, Fabulous and Unstoppable Warriors: This week's blog challenge is: What is the hardest thing about weight loss for you? What is the easiest thing about weight loss? What do you think this says about you?

(You sneaky gals putting in that final question!)

Hardest: Staying on the weight loss path. PERIOD

Easiest: Eating awesome, healthy food. Moving my body more. (really, it's not hard-but refer to "hardest" to figure out why weight loss doesn't occur)

I love food. It doesn't matter if it's healthy or not. I love it. I love all kinds and types of food. I used to say the only food I didn't like was a "fresh from the garden tomato" and moldy cheese. But I have even started to eat those! I even like to cook. I love to get cookbooks from the library and make up a new meal. I like to challenge myself. I love to scour the internet and find "makeover" recipes so I can enjoy a healthier version of a truly horrible for me food item.

Yet I am a self-diagnosed ADD human being. I can be very focused. Driven. An all-in kinda gal.

Then...And then, an all over the place, scatter brain.

I make an unhealthy choice and another and another.

I let those choices be the majority of my life.

Because of those choices I get lazy and that morphs into mild depression. More laziness. Emotional craziness. Apathy.

What DOES this say about me???

It says I tend to trend towards the "all or nothing" approach. That I have drive and determination, but that I allow a teeny tiny failure to rule my world.
It means that I did/do a ton of reading on Spark about this habit. It means that I try to remind myself to relax. Start new. Start right now. That I will feel less depressed and lazy by moving more and eating good stuff. By feeling better I will choose better. And that weight loss will come (kinda easily)

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CAALAN23 8/26/2011 9:40AM

    Girl, that was some of the best self diagnosis I've seen in a while. Print this off and stick it on your fridge or your mirror.

Fantastic job!

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