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I started school today

Monday, August 22, 2011

No turning back.

I went to my first nursing school class today.


I am thoroughly lost.

I will feel better after I get the textbook and can actully try to do the homework.

I will meet with the teacher if I still do not understand.

Math is not my strong suit.

Tomorrow I have Anatomy.

Tomorrow I will do well.

I love anatomy!

And, I already have the book for the class.

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DIXIED88 8/23/2011 2:53PM

    emoticon Keep your chin up and fake it until you make it!

I cried in high school physics b/c I was always so lost. BUT I aced the class. Just don't give up! And don't be scared to ask for help from the teachers or a bright student.

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TIGERLILLY5909 8/23/2011 7:44AM

    You can do it. Having your worst subject first is probably not a confidence booster. You'll do better today! Good luck!

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EDITOR 8/23/2011 7:06AM

    Math was my worse subject and even at that I never failed. I know you can do it!

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HEALTHYOTTER 8/22/2011 7:19PM

    How exciting! Congratulations. I'm totally with you on Boo Chemistry and Yeah Anatomy. Great job making a plan: do the work, get help as needed, keeping up. emoticon

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So what if my plans for the week blew up!?

Sunday, August 21, 2011

What is it they say about "the best laid plans"?

I had a beautiful start to the week, last week. I had fresh produce. A food and exercise plan. I was set.

Then, I was lazy on Monday. (I ate okay and I moved a ton at work-but still, it wasn't the day I "planned"). Oh, but I did get to spend time with my daughter (it was the day before school started for her and we went out to lunch and had a good time). And it was the day we killed a mouse at work, had just finished cleaning it up when the state inspector walked through the doors. (I passed inspection--go ME! But talk about ANXIETY!!!)

Tuesday was my school orientation. It went well and I got a TON of walking in. Plus a delicious vegetarian Mediterranean lunch. (I'm sure it was waaaaay over in sodium and fat, but it was good-and it was "good" fat). Yet, I had wanted to go to Zumba after work, but had to go home to see how my "baby's" first day of school went. (yes, there are times when loving on your kid is more important then loving on yourself, besides, I really did do a ton of walking).

Wednesday I meant to work out after the am shift at work, but I found out my MIA friend was back in the hospital with Pancreatitis (after having her gall bladder out the week before to cure the Pancreatitis). So, I went to visit her and find out what she needed from me in way of helping out with the family.

Thursday was a planned lunch with my co-worker and our boss. Before lunch I went shopping for food to cook for my friends family. Went to lunch (ordered super bad fried stuff--later, I experienced why I do not order stuff like that anymore
emoticon ) Went home cooked food for friend's family, went back to work, went home and tried to deliver food at my friend's and no one was home. Phooey!

Friday started off bad with total panic over whether the car pool was going to pick up my DD. (I got a voice mail questioning the need to pick her up that morning. OF COURSE you have to PICK HER UP! Yikes, I couldn't get a hold of the Mom and then called another person in the car pool who assured me they would get her. Phew!) Then I went to the hospital and had my TB test looked at (it's all good) But my best friend's Mom was getting her 2nd round of chemo in the same hospital I have school (and hence the TB look) so I went and sat with her for 3 hours) I went home for a quick minute, picked up everything I needed for our Summer Camp Party, and promptly locked my keys INSIDE my house behind me. Thank goodness I had my cell phone and my Mom was able to rescue me-car keys were with house keys. I was late for my last shift! OH MY, Friday was the LAST DAY of Summer Camp, so we were all emotional and crazy. I love working with kids for all the awesome stories and the pure lovin' you get. Parents and kids were singing our praises talking about how much their kids loved camp this year and that they want to come back next year. (which has made those of us in charge feel happy and sad all at the same time--see, none of us thinks we will be back next year--this was the summer of magic emoticon

Gosh, I feel like I am blathering on. What is my point?

My point is that I could have made better choices. (I didn't even mention the beer and White Castle evening I had with my bro Friday night, or the lazy Saturday with boyfriend.) Better choices. Will power weak this week? Or, perhaps I simply turned it off??? I start school Monday. I am going to force myself to exercise this week. I've got a game-plan for food. Knowledge is power. Denial is not. I own it.


My eyes-revisited

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

I wrote this blog a while ago. But I revisited it because someone else is taking the "loving your body one part at a time challenge" and I went hunting for the blogs I wrote about my eyes. I think this is probably the best blog I have ever written.

And now it's got me pondering writing another blog about my eyes. Stay tuned.


What does healthy living mean to me...

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Weekly blog challenge from:

What does healthy living mean to me?

I'd love it to mean a number, whether on a scale or inside my clothes.

But that seems too concrete and so unachievable. Scary even.

Healthy living can't mean a number to me. I get too caught up in it and it becomes my obsession. To the point of illness.

I had a goal of 140 at 40 and I missed it. Then I let it rule my emotions and I let it be my excuse to eat like a crazy fool and to sit around feeling sorry for myself.

Healthy living is NOT living like that!

It means understanding that life blows up-but I do not have to.

It means eating good, nutritious foods; Moving my body to the point of increased heart-rate, daily; Writing my thoughts down, or calling someone and talking them out, taking a deep breath and reminding myself that no matter how bad things "feel" right now-the feeling WILL change.

It means being very forgiving to myself. Drawing strength from small choices made right. Taking EACH day as brand new and not allowing yesterdays to rule my NOW.

Oh yes healthy living is many things, and can be numbers, but for me--it's all about emotions and the NOW.

I really was going to slip away. Allow the rest I took on Sunday and then Monday to snow ball into a long period of "rest" and horrible emotions. But then today was a brand new day. Today I walked a ton! Today I sat down and ate a home cooked, from-the-garden, meal with my daughter. Today, I lived like a healthy person.

Tomorrow... I will take as it comes, a smarter, more informed person. Healthier for the knowledge.

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DIXIED88 8/17/2011 9:46AM

    Great blog. I'm really glad you fought the blahs and came back strong! There's a picture out there with a quote that I tell myself everytime I think "this is too hard". Being fat is hard, losing weight is hard, maintaining is hard....Choose your hard.

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ELEVENTEEN1 8/16/2011 9:06PM

    I just got goosebumps while reading your last paragraph about not snowballing into that long 'rest' period. So proud of you, well done, it is so easy to do. Great post, beautiful.

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XFITSTRONG 8/16/2011 8:14PM

    Great definition! I agree totally... It's just hard to do sometimes. You are doing so well!

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Camp Pride

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Camp Pride is the name we gave our summer camp program at the Y.

It's about being in a group, together, like a pride of animals.

Next week is the last week.

I will be ending my career with children.

Well... actually I have learned that I never seem to be finished working with kids.

I fully expect that I will be doing some sort of pediatric nursing.

But camp isn't really what I wanted to blog about.

Pride (the other kind) is.

I am proud of the choices I made today.

I was more "hands-off" with my staff this morning. I wanted to let them really shine and do what they have learned this summer. And they did really well.

Then, I worked out.

I went back to the body sculpting class I took on Monday.

I have actually been really sore from from the first one, and had to really convince myself to do the Thursday class. But, I enlisted the help of my co-worker by asking her if she would take it with me. She did! We had a blast.

Every time I have been confronted with food today, I have felt like falling into bad habits.

But I forced myself to make good choices.

I really loved my dinner. (pasta)

I could have eaten the whole amount that I made, but I held back.

I used some advice (from CAALAN23) to "take a minute" and see if I was still hungry. You can read her blog here:

Well, I wasn't hungry after that "few" minutes.

I logged everything into SP. And boy was I glad I didn't eat the whole amount prepared!

I made a 2oz portion of noodles (which was the serving size according to the package) and I full-well knew it had nearly 200 calories, but I didn't think to add in all the little bits and pieces calories that comprised the entire dish. (with my glass of 1%milk-it was over 500 calories).

*Phew* Dodged a bullet there.

I really should have done that yesterday at Friday's. But then I do not believe in "should". The past is the past. And looky there-I did learn. I did make a better choice today!


That's my story, and I'm sticking to it!

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DIXIED88 8/12/2011 3:50PM

    You are FAAABULOUS, Darling! Perfect! Every one of these little choices are bringing you closer to your goal! Every single one!

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CAALAN23 8/12/2011 1:36AM

    I love the name of the Y Camp! Very cool theme!

I'm proud of you too. I knew you had it in you. Sometimes you gotta reach inside yourself and grab your inner self by her hair and yank her into the light. Give her a sword and watch her conquer!

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