Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Weekly blog challenge from: www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/team_mes
What does healthy living mean to me?
I'd love it to mean a number, whether on a scale or inside my clothes.
But that seems too concrete and so unachievable. Scary even.
Healthy living can't mean a number to me. I get too caught up in it and it becomes my obsession. To the point of illness.
I had a goal of 140 at 40 and I missed it. Then I let it rule my emotions and I let it be my excuse to eat like a crazy fool and to sit around feeling sorry for myself.
Healthy living is NOT living like that!
It means understanding that life blows up-but I do not have to.
It means eating good, nutritious foods; Moving my body to the point of increased heart-rate, daily; Writing my thoughts down, or calling someone and talking them out, taking a deep breath and reminding myself that no matter how bad things "feel" right now-the feeling WILL change.
It means being very forgiving to myself. Drawing strength from small choices made right. Taking EACH day as brand new and not allowing yesterdays to rule my NOW.
Oh yes healthy living is many things, and can be numbers, but for me--it's all about emotions and the NOW.
I really was going to slip away. Allow the rest I took on Sunday and then Monday to snow ball into a long period of "rest" and horrible emotions. But then today was a brand new day. Today I walked a ton! Today I sat down and ate a home cooked, from-the-garden, meal with my daughter. Today, I lived like a healthy person.
Tomorrow... I will take as it comes, a smarter, more informed person. Healthier for the knowledge.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Camp Pride is the name we gave our summer camp program at the Y.
It's about being in a group, together, like a pride of animals.
Next week is the last week.
I will be ending my career with children.
Well... actually I have learned that I never seem to be finished working with kids.
I fully expect that I will be doing some sort of pediatric nursing.
But camp isn't really what I wanted to blog about.
Pride (the other kind) is.
I am proud of the choices I made today.
I was more "hands-off" with my staff this morning. I wanted to let them really shine and do what they have learned this summer. And they did really well.
Then, I worked out.
I went back to the body sculpting class I took on Monday.
I have actually been really sore from from the first one, and had to really convince myself to do the Thursday class. But, I enlisted the help of my co-worker by asking her if she would take it with me. She did! We had a blast.
Every time I have been confronted with food today, I have felt like falling into bad habits.
But I forced myself to make good choices.
I really loved my dinner. (pasta)
I could have eaten the whole amount that I made, but I held back.
I used some advice (from CAALAN23) to "take a minute" and see if I was still hungry. You can read her blog here: www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
Well, I wasn't hungry after that "few" minutes.
I logged everything into SP. And boy was I glad I didn't eat the whole amount prepared!
I made a 2oz portion of noodles (which was the serving size according to the package) and I full-well knew it had nearly 200 calories, but I didn't think to add in all the little bits and pieces calories that comprised the entire dish. (with my glass of 1%milk-it was over 500 calories).
*Phew* Dodged a bullet there.
I really should have done that yesterday at Friday's. But then I do not believe in "should". The past is the past. And looky there-I did learn. I did make a better choice today!
That's my story, and I'm sticking to it!
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
This blog is a challenge from: Fierce, Fabulous & Unstoppable Spark Warriors! www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/team_mes
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Best Non-Scale Victory...
I would have to pick: Loving My Body, as it is, from a journey that began One Part At A Time.
I started this pet project a while ago.
I met really cool people who joined me.
We picked a part each week to love on, pamper, admire, or at least come to some kind of greater appreciation for.
It worked for me.
I really like myself better than I ever have before.
I do not hate on myself anywhere near as much as before.
I accept myself so much more as I am, in the moment, with an understanding that the thoughts/moments will change.
Loving myself for who I am right NOW is definitely my greatest victory!
But that doesn't mean I don't want to tweak a few things here or there...
Monday, August 08, 2011
My co-worker, who missed me very much while I was on vacation, decided to surprise me with a McDonald's Frappe Mocha this morning.
Bless her heart.
I drank half and had to give the rest away.
Why did I drink any???
I just couldn't hurt her feelings.
I did go to a body sculpting class after the am shift. 45 minutes of weight work. I am already sore. What am I going to do about that???
Seriously, I do not know when to say when.
I feel like I push myself too enthusiastically.
But then, I did leave the class when I could take no more. (shaking arms even without weights in them might be a clue)
I did as much as I could--and it was more than I do at home. I feel good about that.
And, I did only drink half the frappe. And, I made her promise to work out with me this week. (she committed to Thursday)
I guess all is not lost.
I guess I am learning.
I will take that. And I will be proud.
*I will never drink ice cream in the am again! My stomach is hating me right now. Healthy, yummy, lunch--here I come!
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