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Thursday, June 03, 2010

I got 50% correct on trivia the past two days. Some of those questions are tricky!

I did about 50% of my workout.

I logged just over 50% of my food (severe rain/lightning stopped me from logging in after dinner last night).

I think 50% is okay, for the funk I've been in.

But today I am going for 100%!!! (except in trivia,as I have already gotten a 50)

What are you going for???

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CAALAN23 6/3/2010 12:19PM

    Today, I am going for water and pee. Yes, pee. I had such a bloat yesterday that I'll be looking forward to the loo...100%. :P

Already did the run this morning and if I can just find the time to log food, I'm good.

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DIXIED88 6/3/2010 11:36AM

    We can do it! Read my blog...I'm hoping it will make you smile.

You were simmering so you didn't boil over and create a huge mess. Now it's time to turn it up a notch and hit a boil!!

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WISEONE68 6/3/2010 8:50AM

    Go, go, go!! Yes, I am going for 100%, too. Getting ready to hit the gym in a bit!! 45 min on bike and then chillin' till time to get ready for work (already did dishes, cleaned kitchen)!!
Food is planned for the day...

It will be a GREAT day!! emoticon

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The Heavy

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

Yesterday was heavy. Putting my kitty to sleep. Cancer SUCKS! I'm glad he is at peace. That he is finally comfortable. We will be picking him up from the vet and burying him at my Mom's next to my last kitty. I know, weird. My Mom had to bury my last cat that died, Bucky, because she died while I was on vacation. It just seems fitting to have them at her house. My Mom is the animal whisperer. She handles their illnesses so well and she manages to keep her pets alive much longer than I do. We will be eating dinner with her and my step-father after a brief funeral.

This is actually a much bigger lift off my shoulders than I realized. Woodie had pneumonia a couple of years ago and I am still paying off the vet bill. He was on doctor prescribed food for a bladder condition. He was a costly little guy. I don't think I realized how much until today. This really will free me up a bit. Peanut, my other cat, is quite healthy-knock wood. He annoys me like no other cat, so I keep joking that he'll live forever! I'm just hoping for a reprieve from vet bills for a while.

I'm hoping that my back will now release. I pulled it Sat morning, but pre-aggravated by doing booty kicks the day before. (I pulled it wrestling Woodie to give him some water.) I'm pretty sure it's my psoas muscle because it hurts sitting or standing and seems to run from the inside of my thigh up through my pelvis to my back. It does start to feel better when I move around--so moving I will do! Just no more booty kicks!

I am ready to move forward in my life. I am ready to stop letting "life" stop my progress. I have got to get out of my FUNK! I'm ready.

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CAALAN23 6/3/2010 12:18PM

    I'm so sorry about Woodie. It's a hard thing losing a family pet. I remember when my previous dog Jasper died and we buried him in the backyard that I was fine until the next time it rained and then bawled because he was outside getting wet. I know, stupid, irrational, but that's what got to me.

Glad to know that a small burden may be lifted from you. Maybe the release from the stress will help with the back too.


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WISEONE68 6/2/2010 11:59AM

    Sad to say good-bye to a dear friend--furry or otherwise. My dog, JoJo, meant the world to me--he was with me through some MAJOR times in my life (death of brother, college years, move from college to MY first home, move to TX, etc.). He had seizures and the meds destroyed his liver--I had to put him down. SAD still today.
My cats--FOUR of them--are my buddies. Though I should get another dog--walking buddy--I am still too allergic to dogs (happened AFTER I got JoJo, and I wasn't going to get rid of him for THAT!!).
I pray you are able to get over this loss and your back issue!! Lots to deal with!! Take care of Peanut and YOU!!!!

Blessings and emoticon

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    I am so sorry to hear about your cat. Losing a loved one is never easy.

I hope your back gets stretched out. emoticon

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DIXIED88 6/2/2010 10:39AM

    So sorry about Woody. I know how that is; been there myself. He feels better now and that is something that you can comfort yourself with.

Sounds like your back needs a nice relaxed walk. I hope it loosens up some today.

Life has a way of jumping up at the worst times. Glad you are feeling ready to face the music again!

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JDYJMM2000 6/2/2010 8:32AM

  So sorry to hear about your cat but I know that it does get better. I pray that your back will be much better and that you can get going again. This will help you get out of your funk. I know at least for me that exercise sure helps with depressed feelings. Best of luck to you.

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Seriously? What else?

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

My big, fluffy, fur-ball of a kitty, Woodie, is now at the vet. I have spent the last week and half attempting the nurse him back to health myself. He stopped eating voraciously last Friday, I've been medicine dropping him water and fixing him ANYTHING I think he might eat. The vet asked for a $100.00 deposit. Have no idea how I am going to eat for the next week.

Pulled a muscle in my hip/low back on Sat. Still in pain. Cat is priority #1 right now. I am scheduled to go to my doc June 14 for blood pressure check. If I'm still aching then, I'll say something.

I am in sucha pissy mood. My state of being this whole holiday weekend was pretty precarious. I am irritable. Pain and money stress are never a good combo.

This is not to say that my whole weekend sucked. Actually, I had a pretty good holiday. I got free, fresh-from-the-farm produce. I went to Taste of Cincinnati 2 times (food choices were not exciting. The best thing I ate was strawberries and pound cake with chocolate fondue from The Melting Pot). I also had a great time with friends and my anti-social BF! Oh! And I got a kazoo at church, where my DD and I played them to the radio on the way home from said church, all in the spirit of just having FUN!

I need a good workout! I also need to let my hip/back heal. I hate it when my body and my mind are in contradictory states.

Sorry this is so uninspired. I want to get back to my "normal" self. I do. I do!

Vet just informed me that Woodie has lung cancer and there is nothing more they can do for him. He will be put to sleep today. I am so sad.

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CJKOMODO 6/1/2010 4:47PM

    I am so sorry. emoticon

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MBSKIT 6/1/2010 12:50PM

    I am so sorry to hear about Woody!

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    Such a sweet cat. I'm sorry to hear Woodie is being put to sleep. I'll be thinking of you and your dd today.

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IVYLIBRA 6/1/2010 11:10AM

    Much sympathy for you and your kitty!! I understand how things tend to pile on all at once. I hope you're able to get some time to just breathe very soon!


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CAALAN23 6/1/2010 10:56AM

    Awww, poor kitty. I'm so sorry Jenn.

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DIXIED88 6/1/2010 10:51AM

    Poor little kitty! Make sure to explain your financial situation to the vet up front. I used to work at a vet office and they can give great care and still limit financial debt. You'd be amazed at the mark up sometimes.

I hope your back feels better soon! Pain stinks!!


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BUDRFLY31 6/1/2010 10:22AM

    Oh, poor kitty! And pain, I am familiar with. Just hang in there! It is only temporary. A lot of vets agree to let you make monthly payments. Just an idea.


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CAALAN23 6/1/2010 9:25AM

    Sorry your kitty is ailing. Hope it gets better soon!

That back pain could very well be stress from the sounds of it. I get hip pain cause I unconsciously hold myself tightly when highly stressed. What did you do to pull your back?

Ooo, I had strawberries with poundcake too but sadly no chocolate. Poo.

Hope it all gets better soon, schweets. Take it easy.

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SNOWFLAKE57 6/1/2010 9:24AM

    Hang in there....this too shall pass. This is a new day and a new week. Go for it and reach your goals each day. We are all behind you, encouraging you to do your best.

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The Messy's

Friday, May 28, 2010

Life is very messy at times.

We seem to be drawn to making everything all neat and in balance.

What's the fun in that? It isn't even achievable.

You'd have to do laundry nekkid for it to EVER be really done!

And who really wants balance? I want a life that trends towards good. Not an equal portion of good and bad.

I know that when I step out on a limb, make a mess and feel everything is done for--That's when I learn the most!

It's when I grow.

I like growing. I may feel comfortable with a breather, in the stagnant. But never for very long. Restlessness enters.

My idle brain seems to want to create chaos-just to shake things up. Bad, I know. I must learn a better way.

I'm sorry men, but sometimes, niceness does not get me heard!

Or, is it that I simply don't like the answer he gave?

My bad! See, I'm learning. Why does it always seem that boys learn more slowly than girls? (cause I want to believe that!)

I have my own messes to clean up. My own lessons to learn.

I love seeking council along the way. Is that a woman thing? I really like to get input. And well, if the council is a wiser, more mature, been there-done that, kind of person-All the better! It's a good thing!

I'm gonna keep making messes. I'm gonna keep learning from them. I'm also going to keep forgiving and having grace, because I know that's how I want to be treated. We are all flawed. But if there is good and love at the core-I can live with it.

*Post Note*
I just read this in my e-mail, it's Today's Healthy Reflection:

"The foolish man seeks happiness in the distance, the wise grows it under his feet."

- James Oppenheim, short-story writer, novelist, poet

The key to happiness

The secret to happiness is not to get what you want, but to want what you already have. If you think about it, most discontent grows from want. We want more stuff, more excitement, more pleasure. When we don't get those things, we're resentful and unsatisfied. Take away the want, and you take away the unhappiness. When your quality of life is tied to your desires, fulfillment is a shadow that escapes your view. Like trying to imagine a new color, the harder you look, the harder it is to see. Does this mean you stop setting goals and striving for a healthy lifestyle and better life? No. It means you can appreciate life regardless of the outcome. It means you can relish the pursuit while accepting the possibility of failure. It means you can still enjoy the ride. Happiness is not a destination--it's a way of life.

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DIXIED88 5/28/2010 11:17AM

    In my recent experience, being nice all the time leads to resentment when you are being taking advantage of. Resentment simmers into a nice vat of anger. Sometimes you have to make a decent sized mess to avoid a blow up splatter covering everything type of catastrophe.

Plus I always say, If you went to play and didn't get messy, you just didn't play hard enough!

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CAALAN23 5/28/2010 10:23AM

    Just so you know, I have left the laundry room nekkid. Can I count that as a quirk?

How you doing today?

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PADRAIGHA 5/28/2010 8:20AM

    Adequate. I am going for adequate. Adequate can be messy, too, but adequate will keep me from doing laundry nekked in the midst of my messes. emoticon

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I can't

Thursday, May 27, 2010

I can't purposely hurt someone. Especially someone who loves me. I am forgiving. Perhaps too much. But then my Catholic upbringing taught me that we have to forgive "seven times seven". I offer grace.

I realized somewhere in the 157 minute talk, that I just couldn't walk away from this relationship. The good does outweigh the bad.

We have some more work to do together. We both want to do the work.

I want to know what it is like to be in for the long haul. We love each other. We are committed.

I can!

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WISEONE68 5/27/2010 11:02PM

    good luck and godspeed...I pray the Lord leads you in your relationship!! emoticon

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SMILESWITH7KIDS 5/27/2010 9:41PM

    Every night I go to the general blog site and visit a few newtome blogs to spread the spark. Tonight I clicked on yours. I see your Catholic and obviously it impacted you in a good way. Is he Catholic? Does he share your faith in God at all? If he does than you need to have a serious talk with him about your feelings. If he doesn't share your beliefs, what's the point? By spending time with him you're losing time with others and taking yourself out of circulation. Life is to short to just play around. Pray for a good husband and father for your dear little one. God will provide. Your a good soul, I hope He richly blesses you.

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CAALAN23 5/27/2010 9:36PM

    Well, now you know. That knowledge is a strength and that strength will be the power you both need to tap into to get the work done. I think you can too. :)

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RIPPEDPAUL1 5/27/2010 9:30PM

    Sometimes it takes someone else to help the two of you along to see the big picture without getting hurt. emoticon

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