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Thursday, May 20, 2010

Sometimes, nay, most of the time, I feel guilty for doing nothing. But ya know what? I deserve some nothing-time. I worked hard last week. I did good stuff! I can knock-off for a week and not feel guilty.

I'm still eating smart and moving more. I'm doing all that work.

I'm just taking a break from all the other stuff this week. I don't have to be Super Woman EVERY stinkin' day! I'm on a break from productivity! (and guilt)

I've got a study plan. I can do anything for 10-20 minutes a day, right? And, as we've all learned 10 minutes turns into 30 minutes and beyond in no time at all.

I'll start next week.

This week is all about doing NOTHING and LOVING it!

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DIXIED88 5/20/2010 11:07AM

    Enjoy your week of nothing. Take bubble baths and read that book that you've been wanting to finish. BUT make a deadline for starting again. Too much of a good thing and all that...

I wrote a blog yesterday about simmering. Sometimes your brain needs a little simmer time before you crank it up to boil!

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DLEE27 5/20/2010 10:59AM

    I love this! I totally get how you're feeling right now. Enjoy some much needed you time!!

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BUDRFLY31 5/20/2010 9:17AM

    Just make sure it doesn't lead to extended nothing-time. That is my downfall.

Enjoy your freedom!

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    That is a fantastic idea! Well deserved. You inspire me everyday and I'm really really really looking forward to seeing you this evening!!!!

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NAKIOMA 5/20/2010 7:26AM

    Congratulations - enjoy every minute.............

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FITKAT2010 5/20/2010 7:25AM

    I think that is fine, unless it turns into 2 weeks, 3 weeks, 4 weeks, etc. Then, you'll need to take another look to see if guilt is actually motivating you to do a streak of nothing.

It certainly does that to me.



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The let down

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Or, should I say the come down?

Really-it feels like both.

I had a love/hate relationship with that big project I just finished. I hated the anxious feelings of being so responsible. I hated having so much "free reign". And I even hated having to be the one to tell others what they were to do. I LOVED the work and the coming to fruition of the work. I LOVED being a part of something so much bigger than myself. I LOVED meeting new people. I LOVED bringing out their creativity.

But, now it's over.

At very first, I was glad. I was exhausted. I needed the down time. I needed the rest.

Now, I'm kinda sad. Kinda purposeless. I remember feeling this way every time one of the community theater productions I was in ended. So now, maybe I'm also a wee bit anxious about the fact that I now have to buckle down and concentrate on the exams I have to take before entering nursing school this January. No more great excuses. School Work! Study Time!

There is a greater good in all the school stuff. I will be so much more employable and I will be so much more skilled. I will have a great purpose in helping others. I am excited about the ends to the mean. Just not the means to the end. I will feel better once school actually starts and I don't feel so alone in my efforts. But for now, the exams I have to take are all on me!

Life goes on.

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JUSTMISHY 5/19/2010 3:54PM

    You are not being "purposeless", but rather being productive by having a bit of a rest, satisfied with the outcome of the last project before diving into the new one. Eventually, we all have to come off the mountain for a bit. So rest up, cause you have those entrance exams to study for...and you are going to do great!

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CAALAN23 5/19/2010 12:01PM

    Oh, I know how you apply yourself and you are gonna do smashing on those exams!

Enjoy the let-down/slow-down cause it's probably gonna get freaky after this. :) School/family life/working out/daily gotta-dos. Yeah...freaky! But we'll all be here!

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DIXIED88 5/19/2010 11:37AM

    Hugs! I know that feeling. After every great rush comes a great let down.

I know you'll do amazing on your exams. Get after it!!

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    When are your exams? I remember when I went back to school that once I actually got the books out and started studying the better. I was able to focus more and the material really sank in...but the longer I put it off, the worse I felt and be more distracted and anxious I'd be due to the time I lost.

You are a very wise listen to yourself because you have the best quote of all in huge letters on your SP and it's what has kept me going and moving forward because you are right...same applies with studying as diet and exercise!

"Action creates Motivation! Not the other way around".


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BUDRFLY31 5/19/2010 8:47AM

    Let downs effect me very hard also. I am making a plan to help it not be so painful after my half marathon in 3 weeks. I have been training 6 months, and when it is over, I have to stay positive. I become depressed when I feel like I have no purpose. Feelings of purposeless, as you said, sucks. I have to remember that God has me here on this Earth for a reason, so I must have a purpose. I just have to find it.
p.s. Good luck on your exams!

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ANDREWMOM 5/19/2010 8:04AM

    Gret work! Now you will do well with the exams because you KNOW how to apply yourself to a project!!

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MRSMCCULLY 5/19/2010 8:01AM

    Good luck with yor exams! You can do it!

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The Project

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Volunteering to lead in a large-scale effort is not my natural inclination. I had been a helper in this massive effort for the previous 4 years; but this year was different, I stepped up to lead a project. I signed up for either painting or artistic painting. I sort-of ended up with neither.

My first duty was to contact the head of the organization I would be working with and ask lots of questions about what they do. The guy I talked to was difficult to track down and always seemed to be busy. Yet, we talked. He runs foster homes for kids who are in the foster system but who are not placed in a family home. His heart is for children who are older (10 years and up). The home my project was in is for boys 16 to 21. His heart is also for allowing these kids time to get jobs, places to live, further education, and an overall ability to really take care of themselves.

The first time I went out to see the sight first hand, I was overwhelmed. I thought I was doing a mural in one room. I was actually doing a mural in two rooms! And then, just to verify my insanity, I asked "Is there anything else you need done around here?" So I added a landscaping/gardening project to do as well. (I had to get approval, but figured it would work out, and it did).

I recruited a friend to help with the outdoor stuff. She was my outdoor go-to person the day of the project. And, bless her heart, she picked up the plants and tools necessary to complete the job the day before. (I wish I'd gotten a picture of her 4 door Seabring stuffed with plants, shovels, hoes and a wheelbarrow!

The actual day of the event we had over 400 projects going. Over 40 churches involved in the effort. And approximately 7000 (5300 from my church-yes, it's one of those mega churches) people dispersed throughout the city of Cincinnati, helping non-prophets. We take "run to those in need" very seriously!



They did weeding (including poisonous stuff), mulching, planting, & trimming on all four sides of the house. It's really had to tell from the pics what they accomplished--but they did make a difference!



We ended up using graphic stickers that I got to order off the internet. We choose a sports theme. I chose black and gray stickers due to the color of the walls (I could not change them) and due the fact that this is for 16 to 21 year old boys. I did not want the rooms to look too cutsie.



^^^^^^BONUS ROOM^^^^^^^

The graphic's company I ordered the "art" from sent us extra so we were able to do 3 rooms. (God is great!)

We also painted quotes in the stairwell:


^INDOOR CREW^ (I am in the red shirt, my daughter is on the far right)

And, because she'd kill me for not including what she worked on, so here's what my daughter did:

And if you haven't had enough-here's some more pictures:the first is indoor shots and second is outdoor.

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RACHELRB 5/18/2010 10:41PM

    Very kind, beautiful and thoughtful. You and your daughter should be very proud- I'm sure your hearts are feeling very big emoticon

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AHEALTHIERME9 5/18/2010 10:29PM

    I just love this!

THIS is giving back.... THIS is living... THIS is God working through all of you!

Thank you for sharing this beautiful experience and for inspiring us all!

Debbie emoticon

Comment edited on: 5/18/2010 10:31:06 PM

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COLUMBINE2 5/18/2010 10:14PM

    Wow! What a vessel of God's love you are! What a great day for you, the young men and all in God's glory!

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CYCLINGSANDY 5/18/2010 9:48PM

    What a wonderful day spent serving others and God! Thanks for sharing.
I was blessed!

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FIDDLER4JESUS 5/18/2010 3:29PM

    Saw you on the Christian music lovers team and decided to read your blog! Great work you have done and Praise the Lord for all your endeavors!! emoticon emoticon emoticonall work done in the Name of the Lord is accomplished! Sally

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ALYFITN 5/18/2010 1:00PM

    emoticon These look great. And I like your word "non-prophets"--had never heard it like that before. Clever.

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GETFIT2LIVE 5/18/2010 12:58PM

    Well done!


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RUTHIEBEAR 5/18/2010 12:09PM

    WOW! What a wonderful experience. May the Lord bless you for blessing others! emoticon emoticon

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DIXIED88 5/18/2010 11:36AM

    You just get more and more amazing in my eyes. I'm sure the boys will enjoy their rooms that much more. You did a great job!!

Love you!!!

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    love it.

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RAINBOWFALLS 5/18/2010 10:55AM

    Very nice - great job!

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DENI_ZEN 5/18/2010 9:29AM

    Wow! Congratulations on a job very well done! You sound like a gifted organizer.

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CHUBBYPIE 5/18/2010 9:13AM

    Amazing!! You are so inspirational!!

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ROSIE777 5/18/2010 8:54AM

    I just love all the hard work you all did. . .it was emoticonThank you so much for sharing. emoticon
(`v) ♥`
.`.. ♥ Be Blessed, *`*..♥
..) .*).*. Rosie ♥.
(. (. . ♥.`.♥..`.

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MISSJACQUE 5/18/2010 8:25AM

    Great job! emoticon

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DEBBIEKAY1 5/18/2010 8:19AM

    emoticonyou are one of God's emoticon


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BUDRFLY31 5/18/2010 7:55AM

    Very cool!!!!

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Freaking Out!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

It's TWO days until my GO! Cincinnati Project. There is so much to do . Yet I am foiled at every step. I wanted to e-mail the people on my crew, but the link to their e-mail addresses won't work for me. The e-mail sent to them listed my 13 year old daughter as their Team Captain. How did that happen??? I have to run to church for project pick-ups tonight and tomorrow night. I have to figure out how to print maps without printer ink! I have a gazillion phone calls to make. I have to PRAY for no rain!

I also have school stuff to get done and I have to do some follow up on my kids summer camp plans. Then there is the feeling neglected boyfriend and daughter.

Okay, now that I have my list all organized in this crazy blog-I'm gonna get right on the stuff I do have control over. Have a great day. Have a great weekend. Please understand if you do not hear from me again for a few days.

Everything will be better next week!

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JUSTMISHY 5/13/2010 12:49PM

    Thinking of you, praying for sanity and peace in the midst of crazy life. So, superwoman, how about enlisting the help of DD and BF, then they get to spend a bit of time with you and you them, all the while they learn a little more about you in the meantime and your passions and helpful spirit.
You and the event will be blessed. Hang in there! "See" you next week.

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USEANDLOSE 5/13/2010 10:43AM

    I'll be thinking of you! Hang in there and you'll make it!


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CAALAN23 5/13/2010 10:36AM

    I hope it all goes well! I'll pray for no rain over your head too!

Good luck, you can do it!


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DLEE27 5/13/2010 10:14AM

    Good luck!!! emoticon

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DIXIED88 5/13/2010 9:54AM

    Breathe in, Breathe out, and then get it done!!

Next week will be less stressful and you can look back at a job well done. emoticon

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Big Thanks

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Thank you to everyone who gave me some rainy day activities yesterday. We ended up doing really cool stuff with magnets.

Thank you to everyone who has been supporting me on my Spark journey. Your words of encouragement have meant the world to me.

Thank you to those of you who have kicked my rear-end into gear. Some days I need it!!!

Thank you to those who have given me recipe ideas. The refrigerator/pantry and I come to a stalemate some days--but shaking things up with a new ideas sure makes cooking fun!

Thank you for allowing me to vent on those days when I HAVE to get it out! And thanks for not taking it personally.

Thanks for the insights to parenting and significant other relationships. You are filled with wisdom and I am grateful to have access to it.

Thank you to my body. You have suffered in silence for a long time. Although some days I suffer in pain from waking up some sleeping muscles, you have never all-out failed me. You have kept me moving. You have taken me to every destination I need to go. You have even taken me to destinations I didn't know I could go. You seem so much stronger and happier. I promise to keep that happening to the best of our ability as long as I live.

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DIXIED88 5/12/2010 10:23AM

    Love ya, girlie! You are what Spark is all about. Good friends supporting each other. emoticon

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CAALAN23 5/12/2010 10:00AM

    Oooo, magnets, that sounds cool!


Right back at cha, schweets!


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BUDRFLY31 5/12/2010 9:03AM

    I love your blogs! They are so inspirational and from your heart!

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    Love you Jenn emoticon

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NANCY1BE 5/12/2010 7:23AM

    well said! And I love your sunflowers!

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