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It's so simple--What would you add?

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Eat less. Move more.

So simple?

10 minutes a day.

So simple???

I struggle. I need some reminding. Here it goes:

Keep Going!
Action creates momentum!
You can do this!
You are worth it!
The rewards are worth it!
Good health.
Better flexibility.
A clearer mind.
Physical appeal.
Fantastic sex.
Higher energy.
Longer life.
Smaller clothes.
Skinny jeans.
Longer stamina.

What would you add?

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CRITTERMAMA912 3/18/2010 1:58PM

  Inspiring others! That's you!
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DIXIED88 3/18/2010 11:49AM

    Creating a better chance of meeting your grandkids one day...maybe even watching them graduate college!!

Being able to be excited about "active" activites!

Proving to yourself that you are better and stronger than you ever thought you were or could be.

And in your case, being a supportive and loving friend to someone you've never met all b/c you chose to start this journey.


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    Oh I forgot this one....

To see your weight loss ticker move move move in the right direction! I love to see that.

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SEWSHEKNITS 3/18/2010 9:30AM

    Running faster/farther!

Achieving goals!

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    It feels good and exercise releases happy hormones that fight depression and mood swings!!

I love your spring fun.

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BUDRFLY31 3/18/2010 8:25AM

    Improved self confidence!

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PURPLESPEDCOW 3/18/2010 7:11AM

    New clothes!

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My Body Betrays Me

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Sorry to post my status yesterday and not blog, but I was just so angry.

I went to the podiatrist, and well... Things are not good for me from a genetics standpoint. I now have a Morton's Neuroma in BOTH of my feet. This is caused by my 2nd and 3rd long bones rubbing together while walking/running and inflaming the nerve that runs between them. But this could also happen while standing and just existing--walking is just what happened to aggravate my nerve/bone connection. I feel pain and then numbness while walking that goes away after rest.

The podiatrist wanted me to go through a 2nd course of cortisone injections (I went through this last year) at a 4 injection round costing me $179.00 per round out of pocket. My next option was to inject the nerve with a chemical that would ultimately deaden the nerve (forever) that would cost me twice as much per injection and I would have to get 7 injections. Or, I can have the nuroma cut out at an astronomical price. (For those who don't know, I am self-employed and make below the poverty level in income. I pay for my own insurance, which covers very little at a high deductible, but I am not eligible for medicaid because I am self-employed).

None of these options have a 100% recovery/no recurrence rate. The best rate was 85%.

At this time I only feel pain/numbness while walking/running and it is something I can live with. I may inflame the area so much that it hurts all the time, but until then...

After much sulking and pity partying, I am feeling a bit better about the situation today. I am going to do some more digging about this condition and about treatment options (ie. other doctors, maybe seek advice from an orthopedist or a neurologist).

I am also going to continue walking mixed with a little running. I asked about permanent damage--but the doctor had nothing to say about it. She said that she doesn't see the patients who opt to do nothing, so she can't speak about that. (Ugh! That pissed me off!) She also said that she is not a runner and does not recommend taking up running to people over the age of 35 (I am 39) because we "are susceptible to more injury and fracture". She feels that power walking is just as good of a cardio workout and much better on the body.

I figure the treatment options include permanently damaging the nerve, so I can't really do any harm. I just may get to a point where the pain is unbearable. And then I have options.

I really, really, really really wish I hadn't been born with this. I really, really, really wish I could wave a magic wand and make my bones stop rubbing against each other.

I WILL still run for Esme. I WILL run when I want. I WILL keep walking for fitness sprinkled with running. (I will rest and not push hard). I feel too good to give it up!!!

(and I may buy a new bicycle...)

I do believe in miracles! I do believe in miracles! I do believe in miracles!

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BUDRFLY31 3/16/2010 5:34PM

    Wow, first I would get a second opinion with a doctor that isn't anti-running! I went to several before I found one that didn't tell me I would never be able to run again. I finally went to an Osteopath who is also a marathoner, and he gave me a thorough foot exam. He then put one little lift in my shoe in a weird place, and recommended Yoga and SLOWLY running again. And as you know, I am a runner again!

Have you tried Acupuncture and Chiropractic care? I found that it has helped a little.

I am also self employed and make next to nothing (dog and pet care) If you are self employed, do you have a trade that you could barter with? I barter with my acupuncturist and chiropractor with my pet care services. Many people are bartering lately because of the economy.

Just some ideas!

Your body can bring you many struggles and pain, but it carries your mind, heart and soul, and can provide much pleasure and happiness.

Listen to me babble, you must think I am a fruit cake. I never used to think like this, but something changed in me this past year, and I am so glad it did!

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    Oh no Jenn, I'm so sorry. I know how much you love to walk and I can't imagine what it must be like to deal with this kind of foot problems. ARG

Of course I instantly thought to myself...that girl needs a bike!! No impact on the feet when biking and I so love it!1 Actually biking is so low impact they recommend separate strength and weight exercises to keep bone density.


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AMYJO323 3/16/2010 11:55AM

    I am so sorry you are having such a bad time!! Keep up the great attitude, and positive thinking. I Believe in Miracles too!!

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DIXIED88 3/16/2010 10:46AM

    I'm so sorry, Jenn!! I know exactly what you are going thru. It's horrible when your body betrays you. My advice is to do as much as you can but if you are in pain, stop. We both need activites that don't pound the feet and I know it's hard to find them.

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DROWSYMAGGIE 3/16/2010 9:32AM

    I am sorry to hear that you are going through this. It is wonderful that you are keeping up with your exercise even though it is causing you pain and suffering.

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BRENDY_28 3/16/2010 7:27AM

    I love your attitude of not giving up easily. I wish you all the best :)

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USEANDLOSE 3/16/2010 7:25AM

    Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear - I don't know what to say! I am SO sorry that this has to be - it seems like just when you get going on something you're excited about - life throws you that proverbial "curve ball".

I guess knowing about it now is good so that you can make some choices for your future. I love your determination - and that winning spirit will carry you through even this.

Biking is what got me moving again - and I will always love it. Last summer I challenged myself to ride to the store and carry back home in a backpack everything I ate. It was a wonderful reason to get on my trusty bike every day - and I learned so much about myself and my community while doing it. I blogged a "Lessons from my Backpack" series which tells those stories - and I will always treasure them. I've already gotten my bike out this spring and headed to the grocery store twice, and the thrill is back! Best of luck to you on your new adventure - there is almost ALWAYS an adventure waiting if you just look for it! emoticon

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Figuring out how to be "free"

Friday, March 12, 2010

The church I am involved in/with is currently doing an "all church journey" about being Free. We are finding out what we are in bondage to; and how or what freedom feels like.

Some of the things I have discovered about myself have been quite revealing. I have fears with trusting people with my inner most "stuff". I am very afraid of being hurt. Yet, I crave love. In my mind, I have twisted love to equal hurt and pain; which is why I don't let many people "in".

One thing I have learned (or re-learned) is that perfect love does not hurt. Which is why, I believe, we are drawn to it. Why we crave it. Why we long for it. But then it gets all twisted because perfect love is so hard to comprehend. Can we really be loved for just existing? Not for our appearance. Not for our deeds. Not for our abilities. Unconditionally.

Can we love others like that? Do we?

Then there is worry and anxiety. They often creep into my mind and take over. Where does this come from? One thing I know is that all humans succumb to this kind of negative self talk. It is something that can permeate all living beings. Scary stuff. Evil. So how does one combat evil?

One passage (bear with me non-believers) says: "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." I take this to mean that we have to step back from this negative understanding and seek truths. No, we are not failures. No, we do not always do the wrong thing. No, "no one loves me". No, we are not ugly. Yes, we make mistakes. Yes, we learn from them. Yes, sometimes our perceptions are skewed. Yes, we have bad days. Yes, we have good things happen. Yes, we are loved.

Looking for Truth and shunning evil will "bring health to our bodies and nourishment to our bones."

Truth in all matters will set you free. Not allowing the negative thoughts to become truth will set you free. Being free is not being enslaved to anything but truth. Freedom is not a feeling. Just because something feels good, does not mean we are not in bondage to it. (So stand behind me Girl Scout Cookies!!!--LOL!)

Initially doing right may feel wrong or uncomfortable (ie. exercise, healthy eating and cooking), but will eventually seep into your fibers as a feeling of freedom because you did/thought the right thing.


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SWEETTOOTH10 3/12/2010 11:29AM

    Great blog!

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Runners Rule!

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Okay, my non-running friends RULE too!

I am just so thankful for the support I got on my blog from yesterday.

I especially like the advice to just go slow, run when I feel like it, not feel bad when I have to walk, and that I will work my way into running more than walking. Yippee!!!

***Sad Note***
A year ago, a friend of my sister-in-laws daughter was murdered while out for a jog. The trial of her killer is going on this week (the anniversary of her death). She was only 13 years old and this was the first time her Mom let her go alone. This wrenches my heart. The Mom is a close friend of my sister-in-law, and the Mom is a wonderful light in this World. This week is tough on her, but she has turned so much of this bad into a good. I'd like to think that I could handle such a tragedy with such goodness.

It occurred to me that I decided to start my running program this week. I'd like to think of myself as not wasting time. Using my body in a way that 13 year old never got a chance to.

I dedicate my running to her.

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JWENZEL723 3/11/2010 1:13PM

    what an inspiring thing to do! i am sure she is looking down from heaven and smiling at the way you are turning her tragedy into a positive light.

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-FEMALE- 3/11/2010 12:27PM

    What a great thing to do!

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DIXIED88 3/11/2010 10:46AM

    Sending out prayers for the girl's family. That hurts my heart. Very good for dedicating your running to her. That makes it that much harder to avoid exercise too.

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    Very proud of you for wanting to run to remember this young girl. Her Mom sounds like a wonderul special woman.

When is your foot Dr appointment? I'd really hate for you to hurt your feet and not be able to walk this spring and summer. That would be terrible because I know how much you love to walk and how awful it was when you couldn't. Sorry, I'll butt out now!! It's the Mom in me!!

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DRRAZZ 3/11/2010 9:07AM

    That is awesome that you are dedicating your running to that young lady!!!

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BUDRFLY31 3/11/2010 8:11AM

    Dedicating your running to her was a wonderful idea. You will always have an angel to run with you, especially if you don't want to run alone. She will cheer you on!

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BUTTERCUP76 3/11/2010 7:49AM

    I'm saying a prayer for her and her family. Glad you could dedicate to something so special.

Thanks for sharing!

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USEANDLOSE 3/11/2010 7:38AM

    Wow - love this blog and the whole idea of running for someone that never got a chance. I agree with the others - take it slow - I started out able to run only 90 seconds without catching my breath. I now run much, much further before walking and my walking recovery periods are getting shorter too! You can do this - I just listen to my body and it tells me when to walk and when to run! Running rocks!

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So, I'm gonna be a runner

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

I am having a tough time this morning. Panic has set in. What if I can't do it? What if my feet are just too far "wrong" to be able to handle it? (I have a neuroma on the left, had a tumor removed and a faciotomy done on the right, and wear orthotics for bad arches).

I promised myself that I would go to my podiatrist before I actually started any running--but I already broke that promise. I just felt like running--so I did. Just a little. And, it felt good. And I didn't get all out of breath. I want this for my body!

So, today I will schedule the appointment. Get a proper okay. I'll feel better.

In the meantime, I will keep walking (maybe run a little) and keep building my strength.

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BUDRFLY31 3/10/2010 6:28PM

    2 years ago, I would NEVER have dreamed that I would be a runner. It was a slow process, with an injury last year, but now I can say I like running. I take it slow because I don't want to re-injure myself, and I try not to be hard on myself when I have to walk, and I try to listen to my body and not do too much. I found that running really makes me appreciate what my body can do, and has helped me to get to know myself and like myself.

You are doing it!!


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HARVESTHILL 3/10/2010 5:29PM

    You can do this and you are doing it just right! Just keep walking, and whenever you feel like running break into a little jog. Go back to walking the minute your body tells you to. It may take months, but eventually you'll be running more than walking, then running the whole way. I firmly believe this is the only way to do it without injury and without dreading it (believe me, I've gone from couch potato to running many many times in my life). Good luck and happy running!

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WESTCOASTGIRL1 3/10/2010 4:57PM

    One small step at a time and you will get there. emoticon

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JWENZEL723 3/10/2010 4:26PM

    seriously, ANYONE can be a runner. have confidence in yourself!

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-FEMALE- 3/10/2010 4:10PM

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SHIPESTA 3/10/2010 12:35PM

    good luck!

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ROCKCHALKSPARK 3/10/2010 12:25PM

    Way to Go!! Hope you get the all-clear from the footsie doc!
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SATYAGRAHA 3/10/2010 12:19PM

    Woohoo! Running is awesome!

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DIXIED88 3/10/2010 9:56AM

    Good luck! I dreamed about running 20 miles last night....I think you may be rubbing off on me! emoticon

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SWEETTOOTH10 3/10/2010 9:55AM

    Isn't it great when you do something you didn't think you COULD, AND with good results?! Great luck to you, future runner ! emoticon emoticon

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MY4KITTIES 3/10/2010 8:08AM

    Good luck with running. I recently went to my podiatrist for foot problems and had orthotics made. I'm still getting used to them but my feet and legs are feeling so much better now. It's much easier for me to walk and not have the excruciating pain I had before.

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SKINNYPOWELL1 3/10/2010 7:39AM

    Good luck with your running.

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13DETERMINEDME 3/10/2010 7:32AM

    emoticon good luck

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