Wednesday, March 10, 2010
I am having a tough time this morning. Panic has set in. What if I can't do it? What if my feet are just too far "wrong" to be able to handle it? (I have a neuroma on the left, had a tumor removed and a faciotomy done on the right, and wear orthotics for bad arches).
I promised myself that I would go to my podiatrist before I actually started any running--but I already broke that promise. I just felt like running--so I did. Just a little. And, it felt good. And I didn't get all out of breath. I want this for my body!
So, today I will schedule the appointment. Get a proper okay. I'll feel better.
In the meantime, I will keep walking (maybe run a little) and keep building my strength.
Tuesday, March 09, 2010
I have gone shopping the past two days and have nothing to show for it. I have discovered that I can fit into a size smaller on the bottom half! Woo Hoo! But didn't find anything that 'fit' what I was looking for.
Now, I shop for the bargains. I am going to venture into the department stores next because tons of stuff is on sale. But I started at places like T.J. Maxx, and Stein Mart. Everything there was close, but not quite.
I am in the need of exercise pants. Not capri's, not shorts, exercise PANTS. And, I would like them to have pockets. As I walk for exercise and have to have somewhere to store keys and a phone. And I am short. I would like to find them size petite. I am starting to realize this is a tall order.
I was also looking for "cute" t-shirts. Or nice, somewhat dressy, tops. Again stuff was close, but not quite. I am challenging myself to shop for stuff with color and pattern. Normally I am a solid kinda girl. I also want a v-neck or a square neck. They are just far more flattering than a high, rounded neckline on me.
This morning I went to my closet to find a pair of pants and tried on some old ones only to discover that they fall off of me. Now I need to add new pants to my list. I would like casual khakis and maybe one pair of nice slacks.
I am tired of going to my closet and wearing clothes that look like they belong to my "older" sister, if you know what I mean.
As I have been thinking about all this new smallness, I have been thinking about what image I would like to portray to the World. Do I want to buy the same old same old, or do I want to try some new looks? Do I care to re-invent myself? Sometimes when I shop I try to imagine Stacy and Clinton (from What Not to Wear) are going to jump out of nowhere and bust me for fashion crimes. So I try to try things on even if I feel that they are not going to look good. And sometimes I get something that I never would have; and end up loving it!
So I want some shaking up in my wardrobe. I want color and pattern. I want fit! I want sleek. I want sexy. I want comfortable. (Can you have those last two in the same outfit?). I also do not want to spend too much since I don't think I will be wearing them for long.
Clearance racks, discount stores, second hand stores--LOOK OUT, HERE I COME!
Friday, March 05, 2010
I woke up feeling pretty darn good.
What a difference a day makes!
What a difference some physical activity and eating some healthy stuff makes!
What a difference asking for what I want/need makes!
What a difference getting support makes!
What a difference "the Flow" makes!
Ya'll rock! (I broke out my southern accent for ya--even though I was born and have lived North of the Mason-Dixon line my whole life :-)
Okay, So today I woke up wanting to do some yoga. After a slow start I finally broke out my yoga moves. I challenged myself to do some stuff I haven't done for a while (I tend to do the moves I like versus the stuff that challenges me). My hips groaned--but now I know I gotta work this into my day, every day). Stretching just feels good. Especially after. I have ENERGY again.
I swear, the few days (if not a whole week) before Aunt Flo, I am a crazy person. I have roller-coaster emotions, anxiety, tiredness, physical achy-ness. Then as soon as AF starts--it magically goes away. I used to be on the pill, but then had an IUC put in (Mirena). No pills=yay! Getting used to a new, unpredictable month=Boo! It's been 6 months since I got it. I'm trying to see if there is a pattern of increasing mood issues. It makes me feel so bad that I feel so out of control. But I am also trying to see whether my eating and exercise will help.
I haven't been good with tracking/eating/serious exercise the past 2 to 3 months. So, I start some serious planning now! And we will see what next month brings. Cravings? Craziness? Calm? Mix?
But for today--I WIN! Today, I feel good! Today, I AM IN CONTROL!
Thursday, March 04, 2010
My mood is deplorable! I am sure this is carb withdrawal (from my bad Monday) and Aunt Flo coming soon. I will get through this day. I will get through this day. I will get through this day!
I can't walk it out at the mall because I have kids arriving at staggered times and the out side temp is too cold to walk around here right now. I am going to get out the mini tramp and jump for a while (although this tends to make my calves really hurt). Some pain is worth a mood boost, no?
I will get through this day...
11:07 I feel so much better! Exercise is AWESOME! Mini trampoline and some strength exercises! (I did 3 reps of 5 "man" push-ups today--that's an additional 2 reps to my challenge to simply do 5 "real" push-ups by the end of Feb! Oh Man! Nothing like a little adrenaline push to get ya going!)
Thanks everybody for the kind words and support!!!
Now I know--I WILL get through this day! (and I won't take anyone's head off--LOL)
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