Thursday, March 04, 2010
I have a friend who is trying to start a business making cards. She spends hours of time consumed with this. I said I would buy 10 cards. She has given me some of my order. They are Okay. Then she posted pictures on the web with a really cute "wishing you birthday fishes" saying on it (it was two fish swimming around). I said I really liked it. She said she'd make me one. She sent me the picture of it, but it doesn't have the cute saying on it--it's just fish saying happy birthday. Not what I wanted. WTF? I feel like she puts in so much time and effort and I don't want to hurt her feelings. But.... I am never going to use the stupid card! What am I supposed to do?
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
So , I set a goal to be able to do 5 full-on, real, man-like, push-ups by the end of the month.
I DID IT!!!
Now, can I add 4 or 5 more to it by the end of March? I sure am gonna try!
Monday, March 01, 2010
Today, my baby was born, thirteen years ago. The 1997 Flood of Cincinnati. 25 hours of labor. 9 months of nurturing. 13 years of total love!
She is the BOMB! She loves art, creativity, writing, drawing... She is such a creative thinker that she often blows me away with her ideas and blank statements. She will go far in life!
We have so much fun together. We can joke and laugh at the stupidest things. I hope that we will always have that. It feels so final to me that she is no longer a kid. I know she's still young, but not a "kid". My little girl no longer exists. She is now a young lady. All hormones and emotions.
I hate knowing that she will be hurt. By boys, teachers, life. But I pray that the joys outnumber the pains. That she copes with it all with a positive attitude and a laugh at the ready. That she knows that I will always have love for her in my heart, no matter what happens. I also pray that she use the brains God gave her and not make too many bad choices. And, certainly not, any irreversible choices.
I'm not sure what the magic formula for raising a "trouble" free child looks like. But I hope love, discipline, care, respect, and more love are all a part of it. I hope I have built her self esteem to places it can sore. I hope I teach her that risk is worth some pain. That change is good. And that doing the right thing is always the right answer, even when it is hard to do. Truth will set you free.
I wish her a long life filled with joy, blessings, and love.
Friday, February 26, 2010
(I posted this on the Spark readers forum, but wanted to have it here too)
My 28 days was supposed to be about a reset. I've been on Sparkpeople for over a year and have lost, gained, lost again. I wanted to kick my hiney by following the 28 day challenge.
Several things have happened.
1. I found the book to be very thought provoking. Several topics I glanced over on-line, smacked me in the face in hand holding form.
2. The first topic of Ah-Ha moment was that of concrete goal setting. I really struggled to make them solid and measurable. I didn't feel comfortable at all. I wanted vague. I found that small goals are better for me than long term. At least for now...
3. Topic #2 was rewards. I have never followed through on rewarding myself in the past. I did this time. It felt really good. I have to keep this up!
4. I really failed at tracking during this 28 days. I was blindsided with an emotional challenge that I found myself focusing on far more than tracking. I have managed to maintain my 25 pound loss, but still have 35 pounds to go to my goal. I feel good about my emotional work. I feel like I had one of those "Biggest Loser" breakthroughs that really needed to happen. I just know the weight will start coming off soon.
5. I have made some steps outside of my comfort zone. ie. tomorrow I will be meeting one of my Spark buddies. She lives 3 hours away and is driving to me so we can have a "girly" day. This is soooo not like me. Yet, I find myself so incredibly excited. I haven't made a new friend in a long time. I love it!
6. I have other really good friends on here. I feel accountable and loved. This is BIG! My upbringing made me fearful of being accountable because there was no "safe place" to fall. Here, there is. the Spark community has been nothing but positive to me. You can't find many communities that you can say that about.
7. Finally--I had an idea that I would lose 2 pounds a week during this 28 days. That didn't happen. But I feel I was a success and that doing this was a success. Things didn't go as planned and I managed to not freak out. Not quit. Not run away. I found the strength to keep going. To make new challenges. To hold myself accountable. To be kind and loving to myself while I struggled. To be encouraging to others by looking beyond myself. To find new ways to measure success!
Thanks Spark! I love what this site, the book, the community have done and continue to do for me and everyone else.
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