Thursday, February 11, 2010
So, I am a mindless eater. I eat in front of the TV.
BREAKFAST: I enjoy getting to watch a few minutes of the morning news while sipping coffee. I fear I will never know what's going on in the world if I don't multitask. It also gives me an excuse to have the kids go play and entertain themselves first thing in the am. Generally coffee is had while in front of the boob tube. Actual breakfast will come later and it's a crap shoot whether it is consumed on the fly, at a table, or in front of said TV.
LUNCH: Now if it's a weekday--it's at the table with children ranging in age from 10 months to 5 years. It depends on the day. If kids 18months and under are here--I spend my time aiding the hand-eye coordination of the children, not me. My lunch will be scarfed when they are finishing theirs. If it's older kids, I could mark lunch as an all out cardio exercise. No matter how much I think ahead, I will still be required to get up from the table and get something for someone no less than 3 times over the course of said lunch.
DINNER: I push this event off as late as possible to stave off the evening munchies. This meal is not always consumed while watching TV. Sometimes I can make my 12 year old daughter sit with me and enjoy a meal together. She hates just about every food known to man, which makes the making of a 'pleasant dinner' nearly impossible. But it does sometimes occur. I simply have to make tacos, PBJ, cheese burgers (with an actual bun or its no good!)or grilled cheese. Sure this limits my calories for the 2 aforementioned meals, but a "family" dinner is a family dinner.
I wanted to throw in a comment about the pictures in the book. And tie this in with some thoughts about The Biggest Loser.
I have been watching the newest BL (couples) and was never so happy to see Melissa go home! I am happy to see that she kept up the program and has continued to lose--but PUH-LEASE give me a break about her lose/gain issues on BL!!! I just found her to be in such denial.
Okay. As I was looking through the pictures in the book (The Spark) of the before/after looks. I remembered thinking how the Pink Team (BL) never seems to look different to me week after week. Other contestants look very different-but to me , they do not. Then I realized that I do not accept that I am different either. I have lost 25 pounds, but still think I look the same as always. (but when I was 25 pounds heavier, I felt like I looked when I was 25 pounds lighter).
Isn't this weird? Do I have a magic mirror? Can we say distortion?
I then suddenly remembered a dress that I have hanging in the waaaaay back of my closet. The last time I remember tying on this dress I couldn't even get it past my hips! Let alone attempt a zipper closure. (I can't believe I forgot I own this dress)
The last time I remember fitting into this dress, I had not even conceived the aforementioned 12 year old. I do know that I weighed about what I am weighing in at now.
I ran upstairs, found the dress, and with much trepidation--tried it on. It went past my hips! The arms slipped on through! Then the zipper test. OMG! Could it be?
I'll post pictures later. I want to do my hair and makeup and have my BF take this picture! For now, imagine Jessica Rabbit sexiness. I hope it will translate in photo...
Still feeling the joy of fitting into a dress I haven't worn in nearly 13 years! But still not sure I feel the difference. I know I am thinner. But I still think FAT. I have always thought FAT.
I started a group where we would blog about a new body part to love each week. I know that this task transformed me. I feel a whole lot better about what I see in the mirror or in photos. I appreciate my body for what it is. But I just wonder if I will ever think myself THIN? Will I always love the FAT girl? Or will the FAT girl eventually turn into a pleasingly sized woman?
Monday, February 08, 2010
Weekends are my weak point. I have not been good about tracking or following the plan. Friday I wrote down what I wanted to accomplish over the weekend; and I'll be doggone if I didn't do it! I wanted to eat within my calories and exercise on Sat., but left Sunday as a day off. Fri. night it snowed around here. Which meant Sat morning I had tons of shoveling to do. I live in a condo, and have 2 non-covered parking spots to clear. I cleared my own, the visitor spot and my walkway and 2 of my neighbor's walkways. Oh Yeah! Go Cardio! Well, when I was done, I figured that I was already dressed for it, so I went sledding down my big back hill. I got to be the first on to make tracks! I was exhausted after and hour and a half of shoveling, but did manage 3 runs. Going down was great, but walking back up the hill was killer!
I did it! The snow was so heavy and I am sore, but nowhere near as sore as I would have been had I not been on this journey. All that cardio set a notion in my head to "not blow it" so I stayed in my calories by ordering from the fit and healthy menu at IHop, and watching the calories for the rest of the day. Sunday was kind-of bad as we went to Five Guys Burger to try it out. I did order the little burger (found out later it was 550 calories) and I did enjoy waaaaaaay too many fries (620 calories-YIKES!). We decided it wasn't worth all the hype--we have better non-chain burger joints around the city. I still managed to be fairly good the rest of the day. We did go walking around the mall and I did finally get a new pair of running shoes! I had a gift card burning a hole in my pocket and I finally found a pair I liked at that particular store. Can't swear to being within my range for calories on Sunday (went to a Super Bowl party and ate some "samples" of dips and some great chili).
Over all, I feel pretty good about my week and weekend. I am going mall walking to day and I am going to buy my reward for the week. (I picked lipstick or nail polish; I'll get one today-whichever I like more, and save the other for the next reward time).
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