Wednesday, December 16, 2009
I am in such a weight loss funk! Perhaps my friend buggirl is right and I need to shake things up. I think I've lost my focus. I have been trying to do the QuickFire challenges, but now they are repeating, I don't like that! I am going to create my own challenge daily. I will focus on core today. Crunches-here I come! I also haven't tracked my food for several days, I'm going to track today.
I am thinking this funk comes from a mis-perception about what 23 pounds is really like on the body. I have seen changes. But why is it that my pants can literally be pulled up and down fully buttoned and zippered, but I can't drop a size in jeans when I go shopping? I also tried on some corduroy's and they didn't work either. So seriously, when /how much does it take to make a REAL size change? Have clothing shapes changed? Am I not feeling the right thing when trying on pants? Am I just used to loose pants and therefore am not feeling the correct fit when it is on my body? What am I going to do if I can't fit into Lane Bryant's clothes (too big) but can't fit into other stores clothes either? This is really getting me down. Maybe I just wasn't born with the shopping gene! I HATE the hunt! I hate grabbing jean after jean and pulling them on and off again. It takes hours--and then I get no results! I'm also being a bit of a liar here, I actually have the smaller jeans I bought on my body right now. I don't LOVE them. I wanted to LOVE them. I have tried sooooo many places too! I even went thrift store shopping thinking that previously owned might be the way to go. No Luck. I know I am being a whiner. I know I am an seriously bumming you out. I want to feel sexy in SOMETHING I own! I am tired of the saggy-baggy elephant greeting me in the mirror everyday.
My BF is awesome. He says I am beautiful, sexy, cute, perfect. He also says there are worse problems to have: all my clothes could be too tight, or I could have no clothes.
I am blessed. I am happy that I've lost 23 pounds thus far. I am super happy about the way I feel (stronger, more flexible, more stamina).
This too shall pass. I will find clothes. I will feel sexy.
Thanks for putting up me and my whiner pants!