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Anyone going to the convention this weekend?

Thursday, September 24, 2009

I was thinking about going this weekend, but I'm not sure of the cost. ( I live in Cincinnati, so I can drive) It sounds like it would be just the inspiration I need.


excited about healthy food

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

So, I knew I was joining a Biggest Loser contest. And I knew, from experience, what it was going to take to make my goal. I was soooo dreading the loss of the ability to eat whatever, whenever. The past couple of days (getting back into the lifestyle I need to be living to be healthy) have been good. I have felt the power of good food. I have made meals I enjoy eating. I have begun to have a dread of eating prepared food--since it generally lacks color, nutrition, texture... Only I can make my food the way I like it!

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ALYSIABUNCH 9/23/2009 12:38PM

    Good food does have power - it makes our bodies feel better, gives us more energy, can heal us. I love to learn about "super foods" such as almonds, fish, etc. and how they play a part in making us healthier. Have a blessed day! Alysia

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Bad self-image and sabotage

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

ooooo- I am so sore today! My legs HATE me! I am going to stretch with yoga. Then I'm gonna make my arms hate me by doing a great upper body workout. I will not sabotage myself today!

I read a spark page where someone mentioned being scared to lose weight. That she runs to the cupboard if she gets complimented. It struck a nerve with me today. I feel that I have never gotten back to my "skinny" self because I have been sabotaging. I have lots of excuses not to exercise, why I'm unable to lose weight at this time, why I can't eat healthy... What is this about?

I remember a time when I was in college (20 years ago!) and I was wearing a form fitting dress, walking to class, and heard cat calls. I kept walking, subtly looking around to figure out who the ENTIRE baseball team was cat-calling; Only to discover that I was the only one around! I couldn't believe it! I was made fun of all through high school for being "fat"--and here I was being ogled by a BUNCH of guys. It scared me. I never thought of myself as 'sexy'. I was the 'cute' funny girl. No one really wanted me physically. And, even if they verbally told me they liked me/"wanted me"-I never believed them. At least that's the horrible self-image I had of myself at the time. I look back at pictures of myself then, and I wonder why I ever believed the jerks in high school. I was a babe! I've never been model thin and never will be, but the 'thin' I was then was absolutely beautiful (just ask the baseball team).

I am going to pray for some better self-image attitude. For some reality checking when it comes to my physical looks and my mental well-being. For a sense of comfort and acceptance in the body I have now (in all it's metamorphoses). For a blending of my inner and outer self. For truth.

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USEANDLOSE 9/30/2009 1:07PM

Thanks so much for pointing me to your blog - and for writing this. I can see parts of myself in it, although some things are different.
For me, body image and self image seem to be two different things. Personally, I don't feel I look that bad - a few extra lumps and bumps I need to get rid of, but I don't beat myself up over those. That said, my SELF image is really struggling. I'm not sure I have the confidence, the staying power and the determination to make this happen and then MAINTAIN it. When it seems I'm about to prove otherwise and stay at it though the going is slow - I set out to sabotage my own efforts. I seem have great "drive" to get things done - but I don't have good follow-through to keep them in place once I've accomplished them.
I've lost 16 out of my 50 pound goal - and my mind is starting to slip into the "why bother, you'll just put it all back on" mode.
I am determined to do things differently this time. This time, I recognize the attacker - and it is me.

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MESKIER 9/24/2009 9:49AM

    Great blog! I completely agree... and it's something I'm desperately trying to work through too (as you know!). I think, for me, it has something to do with, as you said, being made fun of for being overweight, and you begin to develop a self-image that others created and begin to identify and form an image of yourself as being the "fat girl." So, here we are trying to make changes to our bodies to become "thinner" or "healthier" and "stronger," images we've never been allowed to see ourselves as (thanks to all those judgmental school mates...) and it's hard to wrap our minds around. Our minds are saying, wait, if you lose weight you won't be the "fat girl" anymore and how will people know you and how will you know you.... Plus the whole idea of being seen by the opposite sex as attractive is new for most of us and it's uncomfortable if you've never had to manage that and become comfortable with seeing yourself as beautiful, attractive, even (!!) sexy! I'm used to hiding myself and covering up as much as possible, and when you're thinner and healthier there is less of you to cover. I do not want to pass any of this on to my little 2 year old now or as she grows, so the work will continue!

I'm rambling here, but like I said, I'm trying to work through this myself. I know we can help each other!

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CHILIDOG2012 9/23/2009 9:55PM

    I know I am up and down like a toilet seat when it comes to my self image. Some days there is nothing I can do, nothing I can wear that will make me feel good. Other days I feel almost attractive again. For me, I think that the more time I have on track without slipups the better I feel so the better the mirror relection seems. I may still not be where I want to be by a long shot but some days it doesn't bother me as much. I seem to forget what it was like when I started this process.

We are always our harshest critics and we don't celebrate our little victories.

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RUTHIEBEAR 9/23/2009 8:05AM

    I, too, struggle with a poor self image. I have lost 100 pounds and have 80 to go. When someone compliments me, I tell them I am still fat. You have made me think about this. WIll I always see myself as fat - even when I lose all of the weight? Thanks for this blog.
Ruthie emoticon

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Potassium/exercise/Biggest Loser

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

I read a thread today about how to achieve the potassium levels asked of us. I never can reach it. Bananas, potatoes, v8 juice are all good suggestions--yet higher(ish) in calories and sodium (v8-even the low sodium version is high; IMO). So, now, I am trying my oatmeal with molasses. It's pretty yummy. It does add 60 extra calories. So does my additional wheat germ/flax seed stuff I add. I figure molasses and wheat germ are far better additions than maple syrup or brown sugar.

I already exercised for 40 + minutes this morning. I broke out the Wii Fit board and did a bunch of yoga (it felt good to s-t-r-e-t-c-h). I will have to do this every morning. Also did the step aerobics. Wish I had video for you--It is quite amusing--I have no sense of rhythm! Then I walked the kids to the bus stop. I really wanted to walk more, but had to get home to greet the next round of kids. (and eat my breakfast).

Tonight's my big Weigh-in for the Biggest Loser contest I am in. I hate weighing myself at night! I just know I'll be changing my start weight on my spark page. Boo Hoo!


I'm Baaaack!

Monday, September 21, 2009

I've been gone a while now. I am hurtin' for certain! I managed to find all the weight I lost emoticon I have joined a local Biggest Loser group and I am in it to win it! I have missed the support I get from here. I am so glad to be back and to know you are all out there! emoticon

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RUTHIEBEAR 9/22/2009 7:25AM

    Glad you are back.

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MRSFROSTY61 9/21/2009 11:26AM

    Welcome back!

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CASPER61 9/21/2009 11:25AM

    Welcome back

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