Saturday, April 27, 2013
I've always wanted to do the Color Run. (For anyone who doesn't know what that is, it's a 5K where you get covered in multi colored pigments. Google it. It's awesome.) I just got done looking through a photo gallery on a local news station website for one that happened today. So I think that this is going to be my first big goal. This time next year I want to RUN in this 5K. I've walked a few 5Ks in the past with no problem, I can walk and talk for pretty much ever. But I'd like to be able to do this event and actually run it! I think I'll try the C25K again, but not for a while. I need to get back in the swing of exercising first. I'm going to try it a little different this time. I'm going to do it outside instead of on a treadmill. I hope that this change will keep me interested. Now I just need to come up with some other fitness goals, I think I'll start working on that!
Friday, April 26, 2013
The last two days have been pretty good. I had joined a new gym, one that is a little nicer and had more to offer, including a pool. I went on Wednesday to have a introductory session and signed up for a few personal training sessions. I like my trainer, except that he looks like he is 18, and it's hard to take him serious. Nice though.
I went swimming yesterday, which is the main reason I picked the gym that I did. It went ok. I had to walk more than I thought I would have to, but I was able to keep a steady pace and my legs felt like jello when I was done, so I'm sure I was doing something right.
Food has been pretty ok too. I've had some ice cream, but kept in to a serving and having it be my only snack (unlike before when I would eat ice cream and chips and cheese and maybe something else, all after dinner)
I think I'm going to wait a whole month to weigh myself. That way if it doesn't come off quick to start, or I have a slow week in between I won't get discouraged. I am looking forward to seeing one big number. I'm hoping for at least a 10lbs. drop in this first month, but would like more around 15. I know that I will loose a lot at the start and then it will even out.
My trainer says that loosing 100lbs by this time next year is not unreasonable and I'm trying to stay positive about that. I want to also stay realistic so if it doesn't happen I don't get down about it.
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
I don't know if I'm actually ready to start over, pretty much from the beginning. I have gained most of the 70lbs. I lost back, maybe more. I will know later today exactly how much. I haven't weighed my self in almost 6 months, but I know it's pretty bad. I feel bad, I have trouble moving more and get tired quicker. Last week I joined (another) gym. Today I am going for the first time and having a assessment and mini training session. I am trying to stay positive. I have lost the weight before. I know I can do it again, I just worry that I'm not ready to give it 100%. I feel like part of me is doing it because I need to, not because I want to, and that will set me up for failure. I'm going to try to take it slow. Maybe focus on exercise and just do a little with food. Just try not to pig out as much. I'll try to be active on here again. Honestly, I credit a lot of my success the first time to Sparkpeople and I'm wearing my Sparkpeople shirt to the gym to remind myself of that.
Monday, October 01, 2012
I've completely lost control. My weight has skyrocketed to a level that I don't even know because I'm not weighing my self. I think that needs to change. I think I might need to see where I stand to snap some reality into the situation. I don't feel like complete crap, but I don't feel great.
It's starting to affect me in a lot of ways though. I feel bad about my self. I can't fit in any clothes and the one's I can I look horrible. I have recently made some pretty large life changing decisions when it comes to school and a lifelong career. I have picked a line of work that being overweight will play a negative role. I'm afraid that I might have a harder time finding a job. I won't be taken seriously.
I need to make a drastic change. I don't think small steps is going to cut it. I need to regain control...
Saturday, January 28, 2012
No matter how well things are going, no matter how much my views on food seem to have changed, I will always struggle with food. The last couple weeks have been great. I've been trying new foods a lot. I haven't had crazy cravings or even a cheat day. For that matter, I haven't even had a cheat meal. I've been focusing on portion control and making better decisions. I've had some food that's not so good for me, but I only eat a small amount of it. It's really seeming to work.
Tonight I find myself home alone. My husband has gone out for the night. With no one here to see me, judge me (not that he would ever say anything, but you know), its hard not to binge. I did eat a little more dinner than I should have, but not anything crazy. I did take a bite or two of my sons mac and hotdogs, but not anything crazy. So I'm not going to do anything crazy now. I turned some old Biggest Loser on Netflix and I'm keeping myself busy with homework and editing pictures.
It is bothering me that after doing so good I'm having so much trouble tonight, but I'm not going to give in. I have a wedding to go to in a few months and I need to fit into a dress I bought weeks ago. And most of all I feel really good. I don't want that to change.
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