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Week 3 Eat to Live 6 week plan.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

I've been food journaling in a little book I keep on me everyday. Eating completely clean and 100% bites of the eat to live plan. Not sure I could have ever said that honestly before! With 4 kids I was always good at taking a bite here or there. This last year I ramped it up to eating non vegan things too! Plus finishing plates, started getting out of hand!
I'm so thankful a lightbulb went off and the momentum and my commitment is strong. It's my life, I'm taking it back and I'm finally seeing through the fog I've been in!
Writing helps, support helps more and our Facebook eat to live group that my sister in law started awhile back is booming with support!
Just wanted to say how thankful I am, looking forward to the next 3 more weeks, and never give up! Keep on keeping on!

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NEW_PARADIGM 1/13/2012 9:06AM

    Your commitment and focus show in your words!

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FRUITYCHERRY 1/12/2012 11:53PM

    So glad to have you as my ETL buddy all this time. We have been through it all together. You rock! I am so proud of you and inspired by your STRONG commitment.

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The Fat Trap.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

A good read: The Fat Trap.

"Another way that the body seems to fight weight loss is by altering the way the brain responds to food. Rosenbaum and his colleague Joy Hirsch, a neuroscientist also at Columbia, used functional magnetic resonance imaging to track the brain patterns of people before and after weight loss while they looked at objects like grapes, Gummi Bears, chocolate, broccoli, cellphones and yo-yos. After weight loss, when the dieter looked at food, the scans showed a bigger response in the parts of the brain associated with reward and a lower response in the areas associated with control. This suggests that the body, in order to get back to its pre-diet weight, induces cravings by making the person feel more excited about food and giving him or her less willpower to resist a high-calorie treat."

"“After you’ve lost weight, your brain has a greater emotional response to food,” Rosenbaum says. “You want it more, but the areas of the brain involved in restraint are less active.” Combine that with a body that is now burning fewer calories than expected, he says, “and you’ve created the perfect storm for weight regain.” How long this state lasts isn’t known, but preliminary research at Columbia suggests that for as many as six years after weight loss, the body continues to defend the old, higher weight by burning off far fewer calories than would be expected. The problem could persist indefinitely. (The same phenomenon occurs when a thin person tries to drop about 10 percent of his or her body weight — the body defends the higher weight.) This doesn’t mean it’s impossible to lose weight and keep it off; it just means it’s really, really difficult."

"Rudolph Leibel, an obesity researcher at Columbia University in New York, says. “We don’t want to make them feel hopeless, but we do want to make them understand that they are trying to buck a biological system that is going to try to make it hard for them.”"

This read is helping me understand why its not just the fight to loose but the fight to keep it off. Encouraging to know its not just me and my lack of willpower but science going on. With knowledge I can fight this fight!


Trying to figure this all out.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Just doing a ton of reading lately. Understanding where I went wrong with all the carbs, why all my "tries" failed, why its harder after you loose weight to keep it off than actually taking it off, why my body is in shock, etc. I'm happy to be informed this time instead of crying in a corner gaining more weight and not doing anything about it. I am encouraged to keep fighting this fight, for life! Silly to think I would be fine in 6 weeks, nope. But I am committed to the 6 week plan right now. On day 3 this morning of the eat to live plan. Feeling a little better already with the cravings of carbs and sugar, looking forward to week one behind me though. :)
Some changes I'm noting:
My face is clearing up from the breakout after sweets.
My eyes aren't puffy.
I am feeling less tired.


I feel lost and don't know where to start.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Well its been a hard run at this eating right and working out. I started out so well that I keep looking back and beating myself up at why I can't get back to there/ that way of thinking. I think I only did the 6 weeks Eat to Live a full 2 times and lost most of the weight and food addiction and then I got relaxed, ate some carbs, then some sugar, then slowly over the last 2 years my life has been struggling to keep it off to only slowly gain it back. I got down to 150 at one point and I'm now at 175. This is a low and a big blow for me, I know I will be back at 200 by 2013 if I don't start and finish this time. Over the last 2 years I've had SO so so many start overs, I get excited about being healthy, i jump back on the band wagon. At first I could stay on for 3 weeks, then 2 weeks, then a week, to now I can barely stay on for 1-2 days before going back to food addiction.
I'm struggling here mentally, I feel all alone in this but don't want to blame anyone but myself for slowly giving up.
Because of this I worry about "getting back at it", I worry I am just going to let myself down again! I've started SO many calendars over for it to stay on the fridge and stare at me. I know what I'm doing when I eat the bad things, but it still goes in my mouth.
I want to be rid of this addiction, I want to be healthy, I want to move forward, I want to move on, I want to live a happy life and not one in pain and sadness over this.
SO thats where I'm at right now.

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HEALTHYSLIM2 12/29/2011 1:15PM

    Hi dear Sparker! Okay, simple thing I want to offer... and that is another voice reminding you that you are NOT ALONE. It is part of being human and the fact that there are so many "unseen" things that inform our every decision that can trip us up even when we have the best of intentions.
So... give yourself a hug and start over. As many times as you need to. Use the excellent support here on SP and just do your best!!
In some way, shape or form, I would guess that we all struggle with this. Life is all about seasons. And for some of us (like me) the struggle is on more than one battle... like keeping the house neat and clean! Yikes. Have I ever started that battle over and over again. I could so relate to your comment "I'm struggling here mentally. I feel all alone in this..."
You have a full plate AND you also have all you need inside to be totally successful all the way. Just remember to believe in yourself, and make the tiny good decisions each step of the way. If you slip up, just start over. Simple, but not easy!!
Wishing you the best as we close out 2011 and enter into a new year. Perfect time for "starting over"!
Blessings to you on your journey.

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STINA474 12/28/2011 1:13PM

    I am feeling better today. I agree with you Julia, this was needed. I did a lot of reading yesterday on here and in Eat to Live, reflecting on how far I've come and how did I get back here. This is a long learning process and I think I'm finally starting to slowly figure it out. I'm only on day 2 but I finally feel like I am ready to give my body that commitment it has needed. Not this 90/10 that like you said is like picking up a smoke on the weekend. And honestly for me its been like 90/10 every day not weekly.

Thank you Karen for your comment and encouragement. :) I am a green smoothie girl too! I started over a year ago and drink them every morning! I read up about it on the green monster smoothie site. Thats when I knew life was going down hill because the last 2-3 months I've not been having them daily, more like a few days and a few days off. Haven't done that before! Yikes!

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FRUITYCHERRY 12/28/2011 2:13AM

    My sister, I love you so much and know exactly how you feel. Honestly, I think what we are experiencing is exactly what we need. We each have our own journey to two the same. I think of this 23 pounds that I acquired this year to be a gift, in a way. It is a red flag to me that I can no longer deceive myself in thinking that I can eat that 10% S.A.D./90% plant-based and maintain. That would be like trying to only smoke on Saturdays or something....eventually I would be back to a pack a day.
We should definitely keep in better touch. I never meant for us not to talk....I just need a break from "dieting". I was driving myself nuts. My behavior over this holiday season showed me how slippery the slope really is. The whole "one day at a time" thing is really true for me.

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ORGANIC811LFRV 12/27/2011 8:17PM

    #1: Stop beating yourself up right now! Give yourself a big hug for doing this blog, ok? Thanks!
#2: Most people who attempt a healthy eating program, including ETL-which is great-are coming into it greatly depleated nutritionally speaking. Kind of like needing to get a big glass of water when you are very thirsty and only getting a tablespoon.
#3: How many times did I do what you did? 2, 3, 4, 5 times since 1998. Vegan, vegetarian, standard american diet, eat whatever I wanted, etc. Then, I chanced upon something that turned my eating around overnight-literally: Green Smoothies! This is what gave me the big gulp of thirst quenching goodness my body needed to get itself in gear.

Ever since that day mid-November I haven't looked back, I haven't had cravings, I haven't strayed off program at all. My body is healing and I am a high 90% raw organic vegan!

So, take a look at and Victoria Boutenko on Youtube. See if maybe this is something you can and want to do and see the difference this nutritional wonder drink makes.

BTW: I am not subscribed to this blog, so if you want to answer this posting SparkMail me.


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STINA474 12/27/2011 4:03PM

    Ya, it's time to reevaluate my goals and make new ones. I've been in a fog of nothing and making a starting point with an end with some direction will help me. Time to start feeling better about good healthy choices!
I appreciate all the help/ comments. Support is SO needed!!!

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BRENDARK 12/27/2011 3:06PM

    Oh yes, and I know how you feel about "gaining it all back." After my last surgery I was down to 153, and then ballooned up to 170... then got down again to about 157, and now I'm back to 170. So I've started fresh, following in my girl's footsteps SALBATROSS... goal weight of 135 by my birthday, June 13. :D

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BRENDARK 12/27/2011 3:05PM

    I'm not sure of your spiritual beliefs, but my friend and I were talking about a book, "Made to Crave" regarding how emotional eaters (like her & I) tend to look to food as opposed to our Creator for help. I'm thinking about getting it... cause I can totally relate to you! Not the eating clean thing, but for my CARBS & Sweets are my killer...and of course, so addictive and crap for your body. I'm back "on the wagon" one more time...
A wise (wo)man falls six times and gets up seven times. :)

You can do this!

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STINA474 12/27/2011 2:53PM

    Not out of line for suggesting but not something my husband and I would do. We both greatly love what we do with the kids first when it comes to homeschooling. :) Not a negative thing at all. :) Just one of things on the list that keep me busy!

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MICROGIRLIE 12/27/2011 2:48PM

    I know thi might be out of line for suggesting, but do you have the option of your kids attending school? This would give you more time for you, which is something it sounds like you need. The suggestion of professional/ group help is a great one.

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STINA474 12/27/2011 1:09PM

    You know, I think it sounds like a great idea! I think I could use that sort of help. But I really have little time for myself. I have 4 kids, homeschool, own my own business, and I'm lucky if I get 30 minutes to run. If I could get out of the house longer I would go take up Yoga! :) But then we are talking 2 hours a day I don't get. :p
I hold on thinking my kids will get older and I will have more time one day.
Thanks for the info and encouragement. I know if I could just stay true to the 6 week Eat to Live plan again I could overcome those addictions again, just need to do it!

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SKYWATCHERRS 12/27/2011 1:00PM

    Have you ever looked into group therapy like Overeaters Anonymous or any other food addiction groups? Having some support in-person from people battling the same thing as well as the guidance of a professional counselor might help you a lot. I have a dear personal friend who overcame her food addiction via Overeaters Anonymous.

Have you talked this over with your primary care physician? He/She may have some resources to help you as well.

Sometimes doing what's best for ourselves requires that we ask others for help. While it's true that you must do weight loss for yourself and by yourself, you cannot and certainly should not do it alone.

Get some support. Get professional guidance and help if that's what it takes. Spark is great, but the support community here is not professional and in many cases cannot be in-person because we live all over the world.

Reach out. Find what helps you. Don't struggle alone if it's not working.

Never EVER give up.

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Almost 4 weeks of back to running!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

On my full 3rd week of runners bootcamp and on my 4th week of back to running.
I am so close to running 3 miles now and feeling stronger with my runs, breathing is getting better and I can't wait to make it to a full 3 and then 4 and then 5! hehe
Weight isn't coming off real fast and I feel like I look like I did at 210 pounds. I can't wait for it to come off. I am starting another calendar and hoping this one sticks and I really commit to 6 weeks of Eat to Live and cut out those darn carbs! I've been ready to shed the weight but seem to always let obstacles get in my way. I need to just get through it and not let them be excuses for me.
My kids are amazing and eating so good! Wow the changes they have made, so proud of them.
Husband has made it hard but after 2 years I think he finally just eats what I make and doesn't complain too much. :P
A hard part is being alone, weird huh? I want to go and eat when I'm alone. Its rare moments that are less than 1 time a month having such a large family but when it happens I wonder why? :/ Wish I were stronger than that and makes me realize how bad addiction to food is.

Well, keep on keeping on! :) Feeling good! :)

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FRUITYCHERRY 3/23/2011 6:02PM

    I am still struggling with food addiction issues, too!

I was thinking about making another 6 week calender! I need to focus on my fitness goals. I have been snacking on too many nuts and probably eating too many carbs. We just need to focus and get it done so we can get on with out lives! I have been maintaining really well for the last 2 months, pretty much eating what ever I want as far as nuts and grains are concerned. Looking forward to moving on from the weight loss journey and just enjoy the healthy lifestyle for the rest of my live long days! The calenders really helped me when I first started out on this journey, time to go back to basics to finish STRONG!

I am so envious of your running! I need a new pair of shoes. Thinking of just getting another cheaper pair to get me by for a while. What to do....? I think with the stuff I have learned about FORM, the shoes become at least a little less important. I want to practice what I have been reading about!

You are doing great!!! Putting all the pieces together! I am so proud of all you have accomplished. I also really appreciate all the efforts you have made with Joel and the kids! You kick ass, sister! Love you oh so much and can't wait to see you!

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KRIS4CRAIG 3/23/2011 5:22PM

    Great job on the running! That's what I love about running, it doesn't take too long to start to feel better and faster! Nice work!
As for the food part, it is the hardest part! I"m with you on that! Just keep working at it, you'll get there! I find when I'm running a lot it makes it easier to make good food choices. My body craves the fuel rather than the junk.
I can't wait to read your blog about running 3 miles, or 4 miles or 5 miles! It will be come!

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