Sunday, November 27, 2011
Today is the sunday marking the end of the turkey holiday although I am happy to spend time with the family, I'm also happy to be back in Milwaukee at my apartment getting ready for the oncoming week. I just cooked a delicious meal for my dad at my apartment for the first time!
I really like cooking, but I'm always complaining on how long it takes. I don't care if it took 8 hours, I enjoy every minute of it... but when I have so much homework and all the other things that college kids complain about, it's hard to say 'okay, time to cook' when you have a 20 page paper due.
I really enjoyed cooking for him, and I even packed a great healthy lunch! (I'm looking forward to that tomorrow :D) I am overall very happy with how my weekend went. I was able to talk to Evan, which is good, considering I haven't talked to him in about 4 days :( I really love that guy :)
Today, we talked about my battling addiction with caffeine. I am 13 days caffeine free. It's hard for me to say that I want to completely cut caffeine out of my life, but I want to. When I say 'maybe just one soda later', its really my addiction talking. I don't want to completely outlaw caffeine from my life, but I want to have control over it. and if that means not drinking it for a few months, so be it. I think if i can quit the soda habit all together, the amounts of positives will outweigh the negatives. It's just getting there that's the hard part lol.
So I have decided that I am allowed to drink natural caffeine such as what is found in teas. I TEA!!! hot or iced, I love it all. I think that i need to hone in on that if i'm going to quit the soda. I also need to start working out more consistently. I always want to do it, then i get ready, and (of course, SUDDENLY) i forget i had to do something very important. Do you think i could have waited 30 minutes? My gym is right down the street from me, but somehow my body is so use to excuses I don't even realize them until the guilt sets in 15 minutes later.
It's a cycle I want to break.
So tomorrow, I am going to work and then after work I have convinced my coworker to join a gym with me so that we can work after work together! We both weigh the same weight, and we both have PCOS, so I'm really looking forward to doing this together. Her name is Brittany, and she's an awesome 25 year old mother of a beautiful daughter named arista. We have a reward system planned out and I'm a pretty competitive gal. I hope that once she starts working out with my, my competitive but finally gets into gear and I can kick my butt into shape!
Well I'm also attempting to go to bed at a decent hour and even somehow try to get a full nights rest. Everyone says that it's better to go to bed early then early to rise and all, but sometimes things need to get done and they need to get done tonight. I'm hoping that if I start developing a better more routine sleeping habit, that I will sleep better, and be more awake during the day.
So for now, goodnight sp, and I'll see you soon!
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Yep, that's right. Almost a whole year from writing on here. Don't get me wrong, I've tried different ways to get my weight down, to motivate myself to exercise, so on & so forth.
Well it didn't work, or at least didn't stick.
alotttt has gone down this past year and now that it has all calmed down a bit, I feel like this is the long over due time I stick to my guns and get things going.
I have decided to writ a blog every day. I don't know if anyone will read it, and i'm not writting with that intention. I'm writing with the intention of helping myself understand what my body and mind will be going through on this long journey.
alot needs to be done, but the 'one step at a time' attitude is going to be the only way that things will get accomplished.
with this being said, I want to lose about 90 lbs. I know what your thinking, 90 POUNDS!!!!! well at least that's what I'm thinking!!
I know the amout of things I am going to have to learn and follow through with is going to be hard, but i hope that during this process i find a long lost ting called Motivation and Determination, that will become constants in my life.
Although SP is a great (and i mean a GREAT) site, It is only helpful to me if I'm on it. (I must admit if my computer could wake me up and force me to be on here for a few hours a day though, I wouldn't mind!)
I want to say if I complete a, b, and c, the answer will be an awesome bod, and great figure, but I don't think losing weight and learning how to live and LOVE being healthy is a cookie cutter recipe.
You'll be soon to learn that I struggle with self esteem issues. Its something that i've always struggled with. The biggest reason I am slowly starting to realize that I might not be as bad as i think is all thanks to my AMAZING boyfriend Evan. We've been together for almost two years (it'll be two on 3/4/12) and he is the largest reason for my happiness today.
I love him with all my heart, and plan on living a very long happy life with him. He is the kind of guy who loves my hair when i wake up in the morning, thinks I'm the most beautiful without makeup, and thinks all of my quirks are the cutest things ever. I am truely blessed for having him in my life, and he is one of the main reasons I want to love me more. I know that he loves me, but when he says 'you're beautiful' or 'you look great' I don't know what he's looking at!?! and that makes me upset. I want to look good for me, but I want to look good for Evan, because he deserves to have a bombshell of a girlfriend on his arm to showoff to all his friends!!!!
With that being said, my self-conscious self needs a B-I-G overhaul.
I've made alot of plans, and done alot of thinking in regards to working out times, what needs to go, and how I'm going to do this.
With each blog i want to write down events that are going on, and how I'm feeling about my journey.
I hope you enjoy this journey and reading about it!
happy turkey day to all!!!
I'd like to start off by admitting that I ate way to much food than I should have at one sitting. It was good food, healthy veggies and turkey, but there is only so much health involved with eating if you overeat. I don't want this blog to talk about how 'I wish I did' or 'I should have done' but today was definetely that kind of a day. But I don't regret it as much as I should. My family means alot to me, and as they are getting older and older I am realizing that I need to spend more time with them. Everyone should spend more time with their families. Not because it is the right thing to do around the holiday season, but because you never know if next year is going to be the same, and that means alot to me.
I was at my fathers side of the family's thanksgiving today, and I will be at my mothers side on Saturday (bring on the prime rib!!)
Alot of the holiday season makes me realize just how much I depend on food for my happiness, and that's upsetting to me. As a college kid, I sometimes don't know if i have enough food to eat, let alone if its anything that i want, or if it's healthy. With that being said, I really want to try hard to at least control my portions. portion control is one big thing that i need to work on, probably the most, along with keeping my calorie range in check.
So I've ranted a lot today, and I need to do homework (yes, homework on thanksgiving break) I hope everyone has a very happy thanksgiving, and I'll be back soon!
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
So this is the start of my change, the start of my stress challenge, and the start of the spark people life.
Everyday i will talk a little bit about stress, how my day was and how i feel. I'm hoping that i can find a simalarity in one thing or another, and maybe start to notice that things really don't have to be as hard as i make them.
so every day i want to talk about:
how my day was
how i'm feeling
how i slept
my energy level
and anything else i find.
it was a good day, i feel good starting sparkpeople and especially this stress challenge. I feel good, not to stressed, not to bogged down. i had a presentation for english today, that was a toughy, but after that i went home worked out for the first time and it felt awesome! although pain and sorness will ensue tomorrow, i'm looking forward to it.
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