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Wow

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Strange, I overate yesterday and felt full & heavy this morning. BUt I am still another pound down. At this rate I will get my Immersion Blender soon.... LOL
Work has been so stressful and issues that called me back to the office at all hours (like 3:40am....) have kept me from exercising much, but somehow I must be doing something else right.....

  
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LOVINGAFRICA 4/26/2013 7:25AM

    Sometimes we need more cal to get into a losing phase again. Good for you!

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STEPHLOKI 4/26/2013 1:23AM

    Thanks everyone.

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TIMOTHYNOHE 4/26/2013 12:56AM

    Keep at it!

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IONA72 4/25/2013 6:38PM

    emoticon Keep up the good work!

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JASMINELOU 4/25/2013 4:16PM

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THINAGIN2 4/25/2013 3:52PM

    We are always thankful for every pound that we lose! Congratulations!

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NATPLUMMER 4/25/2013 3:40PM

    Yay for another pound!!

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DDOORN 4/25/2013 3:31PM

    Hopefully these aren't stress-induced pounds...but yep, sounds like you are on the right track!

Don

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LAURIE5658 4/25/2013 3:09PM

    emoticon Steph is melting!!!

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Another pound down

Friday, April 19, 2013

Hmmm strange. I seem to be another pound down. And I haven;t even had much time for exercise this week. Was totally stressed out at work and then disappointed with not getting a job I had good chances for, just because of the work permit issue.

Well will see how it developes. I really need that Immersion Blender I promised myself for getting down to 80kg, which is 4kg to go. My old blender is wearing out and I love my veggie soups. With cold season just around the corner I will be cooking some

  
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STEPHLOKI 4/21/2013 7:01AM

    Thanks guys, I am overwhelmed with the response....


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LOVINGAFRICA 4/20/2013 4:03AM

    Congratulations on the weight loss. When you get super busy it is nice to rely on NEAT- Non Exercise A? Can't remember Thermogenitics or something of the sort. It is from moving and being busy all day.
Your knees will love the pound gone.
Well done!!

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MJ7DM33 4/19/2013 11:23PM

  WTG!

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OUTDOORGIRL69 4/19/2013 10:34PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon & most of all God will provide you with the new blender.

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TRICIAE2 4/19/2013 2:43PM

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IONA72 4/19/2013 12:16PM

    You have been so busy, no time to eat emoticon
Enjoy the weekend and get ready for another week of tracking and losing!
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LIVE2RUN4LIFE 4/19/2013 10:25AM

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WILEE323 4/19/2013 9:37AM

    Good job!!

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NATPLUMMER 4/19/2013 8:58AM

    Yay for a pound!!
Boo for not getting the job :-( Darn work permit.

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DDOORN 4/19/2013 8:51AM

    Wow! Congrats on your plateau busting! :-)

Don

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LAURIE5658 4/19/2013 7:34AM

    Steph is melting!! emoticon

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Exercise

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

I love my exercise, but right now I have a real hard time to stick to any schedule:
1. I am overstressed at work, so I am so tired, i don't work out as much as I would in the mornings. BUt at the same time I don't manage to get out of bed in good time to exercise in the morning
2. I am suffering from RA, currently I am in a flare-up which has several side effects:
- I am very fatiegued
- I can't run the way I would want to and do not have enough time for walks long enough to burn the same amount of calories
3. It is rainy season in Kenya and this year the rains are HEAVY. Anyone who has been in Africa during the rains knows what I am talking about:
- torrential rains
- flooding
- burst sewers, or overflowing sewers
- traffic chaos - the usual eratic driving becomes worse when it rains
- no side walks (well we don't have them in most areas, and now with the rains often the trampled footpaths in the sides of the roads are impassable, so you are on the road with the cars, water puddles and floods from overflown drains, sewers etc.

and in addition to that in my neighbourhood they have been replacing the main water pipes for the last few months, so there are ditches, heaps of dirt & chaos everywhere, which with the rain spreads even more on the roads.

Right now I am havign a real tought time even getting in my usual lunch time walks, since I have been workign through most of my lunch breaks or it has been pouring during lunch break.

I really would need the exercise right now to be able to destress, but it is DIFFICULT

  
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STEPHLOKI 4/19/2013 5:46AM

    Thanks for all your sweet comments.

Can't really work out much at home, do stretches and such, but walk etc is cumbersome, since my house is TINY! am planning to create more space in sitting room by getting smaller custom made furniture, but no chance yet.
I moved from a much bigger appartment into the current one without being able to afford any other furniture.

Today there is sunshine at lunch time so I will get in a walk to the shopping mall. Haven't been able to carry lunch today.

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DDOORN 4/18/2013 9:41AM

    Between the RA and the rains it sounds like you have some tough, tough challenges down your way! Hang in there, keep pushing as you can...and kudos to the pound! You must be doing something right! :-)

Don

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IONA72 4/17/2013 4:32PM

    Check out some yoga moves on Google, it may help with the stress when you get home from work. When does the rainy season end? emoticon

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MIRAGE727 4/17/2013 4:16PM

    Hang in there, Girl! Hey, you ought to journal out all the great races you've done on the continent. That might distract you. Hope your flare up flares out fast.
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LIVE2RUN4LIFE 4/17/2013 10:01AM

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NATPLUMMER 4/17/2013 8:57AM

    I hope you manage to get something in soon. Have you tried any of the walk at home videos? That may work when you can't get outside.

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LOVINGAFRICA 4/17/2013 8:28AM

    I am sorry to hear that! I feel you, Sister!
Can you cross train?

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RAPUNZEL53 4/17/2013 4:24AM

  Good Luck!

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Down 1 pound!

Saturday, April 13, 2013

For the first time this year the scale has agreed to go down instead of up. It is little, only 1 pound or 1/2 kg, but it is something. together with the fact that my trousers are feeling loose and looking lose (colleagues have commented) this is success. Hope it continues.

This perimenopause things affecting my weight is NOT funny and I need a break

  
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IONA72 4/15/2013 8:02AM

    Well done -- on a roll now! emoticon

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TRILLIUM22 4/14/2013 1:08PM

    Woo hoo


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JUNEPA 4/14/2013 12:36PM

   
Yay !!

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STEPHLOKI 4/14/2013 4:10AM

    Thanks for all your support! Now I really feel like I have achieved something....

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MJ7DM33 4/13/2013 11:25PM

  WTG!

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FRANCIEVW 4/13/2013 10:16PM

    Take it and run! Nice job.

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TRYINGTOLOSE64 4/13/2013 10:08PM

    Congrats!!

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KENDRACARROLL 4/13/2013 8:46PM

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NATPLUMMER 4/13/2013 7:12PM

    Excellent!!! emoticon

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LAURIE5658 4/13/2013 3:56PM

    I applaud your HUGE victory, Steph. That is fabulous!!!!

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DAZZEEDOO 4/13/2013 3:50PM

    Yay YOU!
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Continued SUCCESS!
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DONDAIN 4/13/2013 3:44PM

    Holy Cow, maybe that is my problem too. I think I am in perimenopause too. Thanks for the insight. And emoticon

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I need a break!

Monday, February 11, 2013

Right now things are just tough once again.

1. At work pressure is so high
2. the engineers supposed to work with me on projects need to be reminded constantly
3. My supervisor is so busy, he doesn't get around to helping me sort out issues
4. Projects are sprung on me left right and center as if they were emergencies and if I want to delay the actual start to allow for planning, they are presented to me as "hypersensitive projects" that need my "personal input", "only" have 5 major projects like that
5. The Directors believe in shouting and screaming and general psychoterror
6. I have no time to check with the Embassy on some urgent papers I need to sort out my citizenship issues and can;t get through to them on the phone
7. I need a better job with bosses who treat you humane, but have not time to check for one
8. Weight is not budging, even I a trying so hard.
9. RA is flaring up once again and I have to reduce the amount of exercise I am doing
10. Perimenopausal symptoms are becoming worse again

Want me to go on????

Honestly i need a break. Oh, and then I have been send for some training. Will be 8 weeks every Saturday, no idea when I will study for this. And apparently I am supposed to still be up to date on all projects when I come back to work on Monday.....(that's what I was being shouted at for this morning).

When will I get a break?
Right now I hate my body, hate myself (break out in tears every minute, which I hate), hate my job and don;t see anything changing any time soon.

  
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STEPHLOKI 2/13/2013 12:56AM

    Striver,
that would work in the western world, here I tried, that's the reason why I get shouted at.
The situation on MOnday morning 9am, was that I didn't have the full update on a project yet. I had told the team to keep me posted if somethign goes wrong. but hadn;t managed to get the update yet, but the Director (who isn;t even involved in the day to day running of things, but likes meddling...) was upset I didn't have the update. I told him I will get the update and let him know but to him that was not good enough.....

Let me finish my certificate then I start looking for a new job intensively.

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STEPHLOKI 2/12/2013 10:10AM

    Hi everyone,
thanks so much for your kinds words. It is so wonderful to know there are people out there who care.

Kricket,
I think one of the things hitting me is that I work for a "typical" Kenyan company of the old school, with all those culture problems and people not owning what they do. While I have worked for several wonderful - very Western working Kenyan run Kenyan owned Companies in the past.

Today was a bit better, at least not Director shouting at me and kicking me out of the office.......

At least the GM HR & Operations I report to stands behind me. And we have developed some new strategies for the future. A new seniro Engineer is coming in in March to take charge of those engineers. Then the pressure will be a bit off me.

Let's hope for the best

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STRIVER57 2/12/2013 2:14AM

    Steph --
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what would happen if you just said no, occasionally? (like, to locking the office ... or by walking away from being yelled at ("if you can't talk to me civilly, i can't listen right now").
good luck.


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SCHNOOTIE 2/11/2013 9:20PM

    Oh Steph, that's just too much for one person. I know how hard you work and the moral code you come to work with. Trying to get everything done is just plain impossible under these circumstances. When will you rest and take care of yourself? And how can you, if you don't have a minute to spare to step back and regroup and make a good plan. I don't really know anything smart to say to help build you up, but just know that my heart is hurting for you and what you are going through. Let me know if there is anything I can do to cheer you up or make life easier for you!!!!
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IFDEEVARUNS2 2/11/2013 2:41PM

    Let's be patient with our bodies, OK? I really think that things will sort themselves out if we just continue doing what's right and stop stressing about it. The stress is really, really harmful.

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DDOORN 2/11/2013 12:20PM

    No wonder all your physical flare ups are happening with all those boatloads of stress in your life!

Whew! Sounds like you need to shoehorn in some time for you to step away for some self-pampering!

Don

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LIVE2RUN4LIFE 2/11/2013 11:23AM

    I'm so sorry you are going through all this. Stress and sleep disruptions can really hinder your body's natural ability to keep weight in balance. On top of everything else!
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KENDRACARROLL 2/11/2013 11:05AM

    As far as your work is concerned, and I've been seeing your status updates for a while now, I'm thinking that a huge part are cultural differences and values. After all you're half a world away from your original world. This is not a European run company, I gather. I've had enough culture shock just here in the US (and I work for a German company), I can only imagine what you must be going through.

The feeling of needing a break - I know it well. When everywhere you look there just seems no way out! As other posters said, you need to take care of yourself. That's all you can do anyway. Everything else is pretty much out of your control.

The only way I know how to cope is by exercising and feeding my body well. Actually I'm a lot better at the exercise part than I am at the nutrition part.

Not quite to menopause yet, and truthfully, I can wait...

On the plus side, you seem to have a significant other, which is a great thing as far as companion ship goes. I don't even have that :(

Take a deep breath, take a step back, don't let these people bully you.
Hope you can find some peace and eventually a way out of this tricky situation.

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STEPHLOKI 2/11/2013 9:41AM

    Thanks everyone, I treasure your support. Right now it is just too much.

Oh, and to crown a bad day, I was told at 3:30pm, that they guy who usually locks the office is not in and I have to lock ths office. Not "can you lock the office", but "you are locking the office".

My question to the guy who told me:
You knew since morning that the other chap is not on, why couldn't you tell me early. Well at least it looks like this will not be too much overtime, since no one of teh sale team has a tender they are working on, so maybe I will be out of here by 6pm, which is in 15 minutes.

Still delays my date...... Food is ready at home, so I wont have to cook.

Problem wiht my body is that, no matter what I do, I am piling on fat, all around the stomach, people have started suspecting again that I am pregnant. That adds insult to the injury, since it still hurst that I never was able to get pregnant......And I hate the way I look, especially since I worked so hard on exercise during the christmas break and did not eat treats or attend any parties (ok for other reasons), from my logging in food I see no problem area. aarrrggggh it is not fair......

Anyway, let me hope I can get home soon and try & relax.

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IFDEEVARUNS2 2/11/2013 9:27AM

    Your body is a superb one that is handling all of this the best way it can. Vent here, but don't hate your body.
I'm with you on the menopausal issues; it sucks, but remember that it will not last forever. Appreciate your body for everything it does so well for you.
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LAURIE5658 2/11/2013 9:12AM

    Oh Steph, I am so sorry you are going through this stuff. I really have no words of advice but I want you to know that I care and have many {{{hugs}}} to offer. Come here any time and simply brain dump.

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SEABREEZE64 2/11/2013 7:56AM

    Thankful for Spark and a place to put all of these feelings....

I agree - don't hate your body Steph! It sounds like it is (you are) one of the few beings you can rely on right now.

Your work environment and expectations do sound awful and it is definitely affecting your health. I wish I had some perfect advice for you so that you could change all these issues easily.

I know this.... You are important and as "selfish as it sounds" you are the MOST important person in your life. You are smart and, my guess, can handle the workload if it weren't for the "screaming" intimidation used by the directors and ineffectiveness of the engineers.

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STEPHLOKI 2/11/2013 7:52AM

    MSMANYLEE, thanks for your sweet words

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MSMANDYLEE 2/11/2013 5:55AM

    Don't hate your body, it's the only one you have.....work hard because you love your body. :)
Take a break because you love your body
I find that yoga is good for both the mind and body
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