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Friday, June 25, 2010

So I have a super dooper-ly awesome spark friend, she rocks. She's lost 50 pounds and she always listens to me and my nonsense. I am very thankful for her, without her I probably wouldn't even be logging into the site at this point.

I keep saying, "I'm not throwing in the towel"... but the REALITY is that I have already thrown the towel judging by my actions. I was just eating whatever I wanted, and not doing anything. Honestly, I've been in a huge funk lately, and to be honest, I haven't cared about anything. I mean yes, I get up and go to work... but that's pretty much it.

My spark buddy told me to think about what I did before when I was losing weight, and maybe I should work on getting back to that. Well it seems like forever ago that I have actually seen the scale go down. I looked at the cute spark people chart, and it was like nov-jan where I was consistently losing weight. So I had to go back and see what it was that was working for me.

It's pretty simple really. I was exercising about 30 minutes a few times a week... and eating about 1200 calories. (1200 is the lower end of my calorie range). I would put together all my food for the day, and add up the calories. I would make sure it was within range, and once that food was gone for the day I stopped eating. The things I was eating probably aren't the best, but it worked for me. I was eating things like lean cuisines, lean pockets, granola bars, yogurt, 100 calorie packs etc etc.

I will be the first to admit that I am lazy LOL! I work 12 hour shifts, I have to leave at least an hour and a half before work, it takes me 40 minutes to get home, and I work night shift. So by the time I get home it's almost 6am and I just want to sleep. I would force myself to exercise when I came home, even if it was just 20 minutes. I really want to get to where I can get up early before work and exercise, but I have yet to accomplish this. But I wonder why I didn't just stick with it?

I take full responsibility, I am the only one who controls me. But I was getting a lot of garbage at work about lean cuisines, and how that isn't going to help, the sodium content etc etc. Everybody threw in their two cents, and I tried all sorts of stupid stuff. I even tried the "cook your meals for the week" thing, but I'd do it for a week, then it'd become a hassle and I'd stop.

So my spark buddy has made me want to give this another go... and just go back to the basics. If it worked for me before, it should work for me again. :)

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STEPH-KNEE 6/25/2010 6:00AM

    Thanks! :D I never even thought about that, that is a great idea!:)

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CHICAT63 6/25/2010 5:51AM

    May I suggest looking up on Sparks a team of members that work night shifts for suggestions ? Just a thought, I know it is not easy working shifts my husband does. You can do this and we're here for you. emoticon

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So uncomfortable, all the time! =/

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Before, I would only be uncomfortable in certain situations. Like I am always uncomfortable when I'm out (pretty much) because of the looks I get. Grocery store, out to eat, the mall, anywhere pretty much ha ha! But I've noticed that now that my weight is even higher then I'm *used to*, I am honestly uncomfortable all the time.

Even as I sit here. My *two stomachs* are in the way and I just hate it. When I roll over in bed in the middle of the night, it seems like such a production. Going up and down the few stairs in my house feels like a marathon. I am only 24, it shouldn't be like this.

I just can't believe I let it get this far. It's such a strange feeling to be at home, where I am supposed to feel good and safe and all of that, yet I still feel so uncomfortable. The two stomachs need to go. I want to lose enough weight that rolling over in bed is no longer an olympic event ;)

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STEPH-KNEE 6/9/2010 8:20PM

    Thanks so much for the comments guys! I do have everything I need right here and front of me, now I just need to do it. I keep forgetting I have lost a few pounds already, so I can't say I don't know how. I do, I just need to quit being lazy. :D

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PIR8CHIK 6/9/2010 11:30AM

    This is VERY do-able! You've already taken the most important step! You're on Spark! AND you want to make a change! That's what you need! The right mindset!
Take it one day at a time and be patient. You are a work in progress and you must give your body time to make these adjustments and to change, but it's certainly worth the investment of your time & energy!
Before you know it you will look forward to going out and about and getting noticed for a completely different reasons!
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WEIGHTING4BABY 6/9/2010 10:41AM

    Olympic event!
You can do it! you've lost weight already! One day at a time!

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CHICAT63 6/9/2010 9:14AM

    You can do it, you have access to all the tools here on Sparks, your Sparkfriends, etc. It's does take: determination and dedication to do this, we're here for ya !

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JUSTA123 6/9/2010 6:50AM

    You have all the tools You need right here, use them and you will be amazed at how great you begin to feel, even with a long way to go each day feels better then the last. emoticon

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TKDGIRL49 6/9/2010 6:19AM

    I hear ya! One day my father in law said in front of company.. " Oh look ! Nancy has two stomachs!".. of course I wanted to die right there.

In the beginning I thought my stomach would never go down.. but once I started doing the sparks, combined that with Tae-bo my tummy(s) started shrinking!

! How good it feels!

So dont despair, expect wonderful changes coming* emoticon emoticon

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FITKAT2010 6/9/2010 6:04AM

    Let this body issue be the fuel for the Spark of self-improvement. Do something about it kiddo and keep doing something about it. Don't wallow, take action NOW.

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Isn't It Ironic, Dontcha Think?

Thursday, June 03, 2010

I think it is at least a *little bit* ironic. So I am the first to say "I've ONLY lost 24 pounds." At this exact moment, it's more like 21 unfortunately... but I started this weight loss journey at my all time highest weight of 272. I got down to 248 and honestly couldn't really tell a difference. My work uniforms were no longer so tight that I could barely breathe LOL, but that was pretty much it.

So I've been totally slacking, no exercise, and not eating like I should. It's like I eat really healthy for 3 days, and then it goes to crap for 2-3 days. The thing I lack most is consistency. So the other day on the scale I was 252... and let me tell you... my work pants got tighter, and I just started to feel uncomfortable.

I find it so ironic that losing 24 pounds felt like pretty much nothing to me, yet gaining back just a few made all the difference in the world! It is definitely a good thing and an eye opener. It's a reminder that I don't want to go back to where I was... and it shows that even if it was "only" 24 pounds, it definitely helped and made me more comfortable in my own body.

Enough talk, I need to put up or shut up lol. I don't want to continue to live like this. I'm done-sies.

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    It took about 30 pounds (starting from 293) for me to need smaller pants. That was also the point where people started noticing I was getting thinner.

Your observation about your pants getting tighter with just a few pounds matches something I just stumbled on; I'm coming off two weeks of making "negative" progress to the tune of 5 lbs, and I swear my midsection is noticeably bigger than it was, even after losing the 5 lbs again. Is it possible that when we are losing steadily, we are losing from all areas, but when we put weight on quickly, it preferentially goes to our midsection? If so, that would be another reason to avoid the dreaded yo-yo effect.

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STEPH-KNEE 6/3/2010 7:11PM

    Thanks for the comments!

Miranda - I know whatcha mean. I hate that it's a uniform, because I want to buy these new shirts, they are polo shirts instead of button up and they are so much more comfortable.. but I keep saying I don't want to buy them to fit me now cause then they will be too big soon. But then sometimes I think it's just wishful thinking =/

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WEIGHTING4BABY 6/3/2010 7:25AM

    That happened to me too. I am still wearing the same work clothes I was wearing in Nov. I suspect I will still be wearing them until atleast 25-30 more lbs...

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ROWDYRILEY 6/3/2010 6:41AM

    Another way to think of the 24 lost 9% of your body weight!!!! That's emoticon emoticon even! Maybe gaining those couple of pounds is just what you needed to help solidify that you don't want to go backwards ever again. emoticon

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WATRUMP 6/3/2010 6:11AM

    go to the store and take some pictures of things that weigh 24 pounds....20 pound bag of dog food.....five 5 pound bags of sugar....etc....24 pounds is amazed..woohoo

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So who has a WII Fit?

Monday, May 31, 2010

I honestly don't know much about them, but I keep hearing about people who just love them. So if you have one, do you like it? What kinda games did you get for it? I don't even have a WII, I mean I could buy a video game or two if I went through with it and got one. But if I did get a Wii, the wii fit is the primary focus. I'd have to save it for a big reward though, cause that is kind of a big purchase. But I thought I'd get some feedback on it first, and who better to ask then my fellow sparkers? :D

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WEIGHTING4BABY 6/3/2010 7:22AM

    all i know is that I want

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STEPH-KNEE 6/3/2010 5:45AM

    Thank you all for your input!! I think this is something I want, but I kinda feel I need to "earn it" first. Maybe this will the jump I need to get going again on this weight loss. :)

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NEWNAC304 5/31/2010 1:41PM

    I have one a absolutely love it. It doesn't burn as many calories as doing a regular cardio workout, but it's fun and it does burn some calories.

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FITKAT2010 5/31/2010 7:50AM

    I purchased the Wii fit + and all the bells and whistles. This is the next thing on my fitness program Fun and fitness bundled together.

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DANIELWIFEY 5/31/2010 7:13AM

    We have one. We actually got the Wii a few years ago as a toy for my husband. I slowly built up a arsenal of exercise games (my favorite was My Fitness Coach 1...still a great game), but we got the Wii Fit Plus this month. I like it a lot. I have a strength training routine set up, and I like the free step option so I can step while watching TV. I don't think it's a substitute for other regular exercise---I still run 3x a week---but I think it's a good, and fun, supplement.

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HAPPYMAPY 5/31/2010 6:31AM

    We have the Wii Fit Plus with Balance Board. I love it (when I use it)...There's an obstacle course that really gets the heart rate going, obstacle courses/races that simulate a running race, biking race, and use a Segway on a beach, even a snowball fight!!!The bowling is fun, but it doesn't get the heart rate up and neither does the golf. But they are pretty neat games anyway!!

Good luck making your decision!!

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STRONGERLEANER 5/31/2010 12:58AM

    We have one but rarely use it. It's fun but I feel like the exercises have a lot of stopping and starting. My son loves it!

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ROXY415 5/31/2010 12:48AM

    We have one. we love it, the games we have are the WII FIT PLUS with Balance board, Bass pro shop fishing game, we have the game that came with it, i love the Bowling game and my friends have Rock Band for WII and Guitar Hero. This game system makes you use your body.

I LOVE IT!!! emoticon

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Beyond Done-sies (And TMI Alert)!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

I just got back from 10 days visiting my Gammie (grandma) in Vegas. We had a blast. We went to a Carrie Underwood concert, and gambled, shopped, did puzzles, it was fun. I didn't hit one buffet while I was there... surprisingly I don't care for those too much LOL. I'd rather just have my burger and fries or whatever and call it a day. Needless to say I didn't bother sticking to any plan. We ate out a lot, almost to the point where nothing sounded good ha ha!

Here comes the TMI Alert though. So the squeemish (spelling?!) can turn away now ;) I felt sooooooooooooo icky. I had burgers, and chicken and french fries.. it was all pretty much fast food. What is funny is, the reason I am so overweight to begin with is because I constantly ate fast food. So I don't know how this was any different. But my stomach hurt and I had the worst gas ever. (Told ya, TMI ;) It was out of control. Luckily it was just my grandma, so she doesn't care, but it was ridiculous.

On top of that, I had some hardcore realizations while I was there. I always joke with my Gammie (who is overweight herself) that Vegas is the only place I feel skinny. I live in LA, and although it depends on where you go, you typically see nothing but skinny people. So I always end up sticking out like a sore thumb. Well if you are on the Vegas Strip, it is a lot of those skinny stick people. But my Gammie and I go to the casino by her house, and that is where the "locals" go. I would never make fun of another persons weight, so please don't think I mean it like that... but that is why I have said in the past it makes me feel skinny. But the reality of it was, seeing all these people who outweighed me by at least 100 pounds, I was terrified. I felt bad for them knowing they are going through the struggle that I am. But it was also an eye opener for me. If I throw in the towel now at around 250ish.. (started this journey at 272) I will be right up there at 300 pounds and beyond. It just scares me because I crumble easily. I have known people over 300 pounds who have fought their way back and lost amazing amounts of weight, and continue to do so. But I worry about that if that were *me*, I would never find that strength to change. I have a horrible time even now being 250. I always go back to when I was 200 for so long, and if I had tackled it then I wouldn't be in the position I am in now.

So needless to say, I am done-sies. I can't go on living like this. I was shocked that I didn't really enjoy the food I was eating. At one point I was sick of the fast food and just wanted a frozen burrito lol. I felt like I had eaten everything, jack in the box, carls jr, in n out, del taco... and I realized it was just food. Did it taste good? Sure. But the gross feeling I got after and the fact it honestly hurt my stomach made me realize it's just not worth it. Not to mention that the $$$ really adds up when you are eating out all the time.

I am going back to see my Gammie in the first week of November for sure... I might go sooner depending on a lot of things... but I want to lose some more weight before I go back there. I'm not gonna sit here and make all these goals because I have been really crappy about following them. For right now I just want to focus starting to track my food, and starting up the exercise again. Then I will go from there. But this trip really made me realize that no food is worth feeling the way I feel right now... and that if I don't do something now, I will be up over 300 pounds in no time at all.

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JLSAUNDE1 5/29/2010 7:56AM

    Good for you! Great blog. emoticon

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CHICAT63 5/27/2010 2:16PM

    Great realization isn't it? Myself the other day let myself eat something fried, whoa I was gassy and felt sick. Woohoo for being done, you can do this !!!!! Next time you visit your Grandma I am sure there will be less of you. emoticon

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WEIGHTING4BABY 5/27/2010 6:55AM

    I've been saying it for a couple of days long as the TREND is downward we're good!!:)

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EVILKLOWN 5/27/2010 6:42AM

    Looks like you and I started at about the same weight. The day I found Spark I started using the nutrition tracker to manage calories. Today is my 490th day. Good luck to you!

I had a daughter like you ... with the fast food/gas issue. Poor kid. Once we put two and two together she wasn't allowed anywhere NEAR the chicken mcnuggets on car trips.

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EARTHNUT 5/27/2010 2:36AM

    Yeah, I gave up burgers when I became a vegetarian many years ago, and the few times I've had them since, they just tasted nasty to me! I like the occasional french fries, but I can't imagine eating fast food every day, it would make me feel so bloated and sick! Funny how your tastes can change so dramatically!

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