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Am I the only one who hates the food police?

Saturday, April 24, 2010

I hate them with a passion LOL. The problem with me is I am far too open. I have come a long way and have gotten better at trying to keep my big mouth shut. The problem is, I end up announcing my plans to people, and then when I break them, I get lectured. Now, I do totally suck for breaking plans... but I still haven't thrown in the towel for this weight loss journey. This is probably the longest I've gone without throwing in the towel. I'm at about 6 months now, and while I am disappointed I've only lost about 20 pounds (at my weight it should have been a lot more), I am proud that I haven't thrown in the towel. About this time I would just say forget it, and start reverting back to old ways.

My friend I mentioned previously, who lectured me on being strict, eating pretty much 0 sodium and no processed food is still on my back. I just want her to leave me alone, so I just told her I was so over it. The truth? I am not going to do it strict, but I did like the idea of eating 5-6 small meals, I did like the fact I'm supposed to have a protein, good carb and veggies. I did like trying to eat lower sodium foods... and I have just prepared (and am still preparing) red potatoes, hardboiled eggs (for breakfast) and veggies for the week. But I am not even going to bring it up, because even if she sees me eating those things I know she will say "You aren't going to do it strict, so what's the point?" She will never understand that just getting me to eat 5-6 small meals is a break through in itself.

Did I go out to dinner tonight? Yes. Did I splurge? Yes. I'm about to go to the food tracker and access the damage LOL, but the difference is that I am going to log the food... the "old me" would have just said don't worry about it, what's done is done. But I do want to see where I stand... I am now to a point where I want to *own* what I've done. I want to see it, learn from it, and do better.

So food police, leave me alone... I don't need a lecture, I don't need you to ask if I *should* be eating that... don't worry about me. I have come a long way... maybe not in *actual weight loss*, but in building and shaping a new *me*!

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ALITTLERUSTY 4/25/2010 7:56PM

    You have to find what works for you, not what works for your friend. If those restrictions make you head off the deep end, then it's not for you. emoticon

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JANEE12 4/25/2010 5:09PM

    I think 20 pounds in 6 months is great! You should ask her if she has gotten a job to be your new policewoman the next time she nags. Wow! What a control freak! Keep on going and good for you!

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CHICAT63 4/24/2010 7:38PM

    Ah, the negative people at times we have around us !!! Don't let this person affect you, one of my best friends is the same way her fiancÚ is a boxing coach ya think she'd be in shape or healthy often she gives me advice on cooking *lol*. You are to be proud, you've lost 20 pounds so far always look forward and not back. emoticon

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JUST_JENNA 4/24/2010 8:45AM

    What you eat is no one's business but your own! Besides, I think this overly attentive behavior can actually make us feel and therefore eat worse.

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WEIGHTING4BABY 4/24/2010 7:01AM

    well next time be like... "yeah, well I wanna keep this weight off FOREVER. Gotta do it the healthy way. Wink wink!" haha

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STEPH-KNEE 4/24/2010 6:47AM

    Love you!;) She drives me crazy, because she already has. But the difference is she honestly only has 20 pounds to "lose", and she loses and gains it constantly. She can't even zip up her work pants at this point ha ha.

And you are so right, if I can't do it for the long haul, it's essentially useless.

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WEIGHTING4BABY 4/24/2010 6:38AM

    wait til this chick gains her weight back because she stopped being "strict".....

it has to be something you can do the REST of your life.

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249.8... I'll take it LOL!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I started *this* weight loss journey at 272. I say *this* weight loss journey because there have been countless others. My body stayed at 255 for what seemed like ever. I finally got as low as 250.4 before bouncing back up to the 255 range. It was very frustrating, and time consuming, but this morning I got on the scale to reveal 249.8! I know I'm just *barely* under 250, but this is a huge motivator for me to keep going! Hopefully soon enough I will be posting about how I am 239.8 :) Oh and I'm still on TOM, so I'm hoping for the best.

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STRONGMELISSA24 4/22/2010 4:06PM

    Great job!!!

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DANIELWIFEY 4/22/2010 7:29AM

    Good for you! Hopefully you are celebrating the milestone with something nice for yourself.

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LAVON0673 4/22/2010 6:33AM

    I know that feeling, I am soooo happy to be under 250 again, even if it is by just a little. Plus, I can't wait to get back to 237, that will be a big deal for me as well. We still have a long way to go, but be sure to stop and celebrate the little steps along the way. We can do this.


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SUNMOONSTAR9 4/21/2010 10:41PM

  emoticon congrats on getting out of the 250 range. 230's here you come!

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SVELTINGTON 4/21/2010 10:33PM

    You give me hope! I have been stuck in the 250's so long!

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It only works if your *Strict*! Hah, she was wrong...

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

So my friend told me about this "diet" she does and you drop a lot of weight really quickly. Basically the guidelines were *no* processed foods, almost no sodium, eating small meals etc. She said 100 ounces of water, and she told me 2839028 times 'It's only gonna work if you do it strict, if you cheat even a little bit you may as well not do it!' She drove me crazy. She brainwashed me into thinking it was all or nothing.

I told her I didn't do it strict strict and she made a joke about the time she wasted telling me about it. What she doesn't understand is, I used a lot of her guidelines. I made boneless skinless chicken breast with Mrs. Dash marinade, so no salt... I ate whole wheat rice or red potatoes as my carb, and lots of veggies. I had small meals, etc.

However: It was Dispatcher's Week Celebration at work, luckily I only worked 3 of those days. 1 day we had pizza... I had two slices, one day we were given money to buy dinner and I had IHOP, which I had chicken strips and fries (very bad, I know;) and the third day was nachos.

Did I follow her diet *strict*? No, however I *am* 3 pounds down, and currently on my TOM which I typically gain 5 pounds during it. So I wanted to say to her 'I may not have done it your way, but I still lost some weight, and I was able to eat some yummy stuff.' But I figured it's easier just to let her think I've failed, I don't like having food police on my trail (I work with her btw). What she doesn't know is the food I ate today and yesterday was exactly what was on her strict diet ha ha. I don't mind eating healthy, but if I have to live off of this stuff, I'd never make it.

So I'm doing it my way, and tough noogies for her ;)

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ANGELAT125 4/20/2010 7:50PM

    Good for you! You have to do what works for you!

Keep it up! emoticon

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ANNIEW12 4/20/2010 7:31PM

    That's great 3 pounds!!! You definitely can still lose weight and still indulge occasionally. Congrats!

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WEIGHTING4BABY 4/20/2010 7:30PM

    hahahaha food police. you could dispatch for her! lol

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CAEDGETT 4/20/2010 7:29PM

    not everyone is the same so what works for her isn't necessarily gonna work for you so you should do it your way and stick with what works for you and what you can handle. good luck!

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ANNIEW12 4/20/2010 7:28PM

    That's great 3 pounds!!! You definitely can still lose weight and still indulge occasionally. Congrats!

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WALEB1002 4/20/2010 7:25PM

    good for you! and congrats on the 3lbs. lost!!! emoticon emoticon

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What do *you* do when your motivation goes on vacation?

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

I just will never understand me, one minute I am giving my brother some of the 'less healthy' food in my house so he can take it away from here... and the next I am debating whether or not to give into my craving for chili cheese fries.

It just amazes me that my motivation can change from minute to minute.

So I was wondering, what is everyones thoughts on motivation and cravings? When your motivation is missing what do you do to power through it? For cravings, do you give into your craving and just go with the flow? Or do you try your best to ignore it?

Lately I have different people telling me different things about how I should be losing weight... and I know I need to decide what will work for me. But I guess the problem is I'm not sure what that is right now.

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STEPH-KNEE 4/13/2010 8:24AM

    Thanks hun! I might have found it? 25 ways to get back on track?

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WEIGHTING4BABY 4/13/2010 8:15AM

    There is an article on Spark about restarting your journey. It is 25 steps. I'll have to try to find it!

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STEPH-KNEE 4/13/2010 5:28AM

    Thank you for all the comments!

Sugarbaby - I think what you said will really help me in the future. It's exactly what you said... so okay if I eat this, the result is this. I need to think of the consequences of my actions and decide if it'll really be worth it.

Carol - I am sorry you are feeling the same way. It just gets frustrating. I feel I can be my own worst enemy. I will do what it takes, and even be doing great, and then I don't know what happens. I would say I just stop caring, but I know that's not true, because I always care about my weight.. which is why I want so badly to change it. I know this time is different, because by now I would have just thrown in the towel, but instead I want to try to work through this. I know we can do this... we just have to figure out how :)

Breadoflife - Those are awesome suggestions, and I am going to try those :)

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CAFLETER 4/13/2010 5:22AM

    Great blog - you articulated exactly what I've been thinking! I don't know how I can be so motivated one minute, see progress, and then let it all go. I've been having troubles figuring it out. I'm not an emotional eater per having a bad moment sort of thing, but I do find when I'm exhausted over a period of time from intense work I tend to just want to eat and eat my comfort foods - whether I'm hungry or not. And then it's hard to get going again. Let's hang in there together and figure this out!


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BREADOFLIFE 4/13/2010 4:20AM

    I have been wondering the same things too....I suppose these feelings/cravings are always going to be there.....or maybe they fade in time?......What helps me;
sometimes I take myself for a walk and allow myself a treat afterwards by then I don''t always fancy what I wanted,
drink have more water,
a relaxing soak in the bath,
read something motivational,
write a poem,
write in journal
phone a friend
I see my surplus weight on my body as pushed down feelings trapped in the fat needing a release an expression but not more fuel ( food) I don''t think will let them go. So I tell myself I can do this and focus on what I can do.......facing the truth inside me being kind too.
You are doing well you have taken the right steps to give your brother the less healthy food but maybe you need a little of what you fancy?
Hope this helps

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SUGARBABY60 4/13/2010 3:56AM

    When MY motivation goes on vacation I whine and cry and write a blog the best thing I have found to do . First because when you write your thoughts down you often discover why your motivation left just by what is in your own thoughts and second: there is always another Spark person who has been there done that and you usually get some great ideas of how to locate that lost motivation.

We all get those crazy cravings at times for various reasons, lack of rest, vitamin or mineral deficiency, some trigger for us personally, some emotional reason.etc. As to weather to give in well that depends on WHO is in charge, you or your triggers. If you are then You are making a conscious decision and are ready for a conscious RESULT. You eat it now and your wt loss may be delayed by a week or more but you are willing to take that consequence.It is all up to you and how motivated you are sooooo stay motivated, keep blogging make healthy decisions.... and LOSE WEIGHT! emoticon emoticon

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Favorite healthy recipes?

Friday, April 02, 2010

So eating lean cuisines and other things are really getting old. I want to start cooking/preparing my meals for the week... I also live alone.. I don't mind making a big batch of something and portioning it out for a week. I thought I would see if anyone had any favorite recipes from or just in general :)

I really think cooking and trying different things will make it more fun and will help me stay on track :) At least, I can hope ;)

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JODI912 4/7/2010 7:32AM

    I think cooking for yourself is cheaper too ... Plus you're not ingesting all that extra junk (sodium, etc.) that is in prepared foods. One of the things I really like is Quick Pizza Margherita. It is easy and fast and it feels like a cheat. :-) Check my blog entry for 2/3/10 (there aren't that many entries to wade through ... LOL) for the recipe and a picture.

Bon appetit!

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JUST_JENNA 4/7/2010 7:03AM

    You could always go and get a rotisserie chicken. It's a great thing to eat through out the week. Eat in the first day with broccoli and a baked potato. Then add it in some chicken tacos the next day. Add it to a salad. It doesn't have to be hard!

I love cooking and it adds a lot of spice and variety to the week. Besides, cooking for yourself is cheaper!

I do love chicken tortilla soup. It's so delicious and easy. There are a lot of variations out there. You could pick a soup for the week. Soup and a salad or soup and a sandwich for lunch.

I'm all by myself, so I plan my meals out for the week so I always have delicious food and I always know what I'm going to eat without waste. I put my meal plans up in the Menu Planning team. : )

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STEPH-KNEE 4/3/2010 1:27AM

    Miranda - that sounds delicious, I can't wait to try it thanks :)

Frenchtosd - that is a great idea, thank you :)

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FRENCHTOSD 4/3/2010 1:20AM

    I eat a lot of varieties of beans and rice. Most of what I cook has come to me from the Spark Recipes area of the site.

Try setting up a cookbook and just add things that sound good to you. I did that, and now I have about 30 recipes I can try. I've probably only made about 5 of them, but at least I know where to find them!

Good luck.

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WEIGHTING4BABY 4/2/2010 11:07PM

    for me, i have grown tired of this recipe..(After 4 months) but i refer it to everyone!! lol

bacon wrapped chicken breast
take serving of chicken and pound out thin
put like..2 tbsp of reduced fat onion and chive cream cheese
I add some minced garlic. roll it up.
then wrap with 1 turkey bacon strip.
bake 35 mins on 375 then broil for 6 minutes to crisp bacon
i serve with veggies.

it came from!

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