Saturday, April 24, 2010
I hate them with a passion LOL. The problem with me is I am far too open. I have come a long way and have gotten better at trying to keep my big mouth shut. The problem is, I end up announcing my plans to people, and then when I break them, I get lectured. Now, I do totally suck for breaking plans... but I still haven't thrown in the towel for this weight loss journey. This is probably the longest I've gone without throwing in the towel. I'm at about 6 months now, and while I am disappointed I've only lost about 20 pounds (at my weight it should have been a lot more), I am proud that I haven't thrown in the towel. About this time I would just say forget it, and start reverting back to old ways.
My friend I mentioned previously, who lectured me on being strict, eating pretty much 0 sodium and no processed food is still on my back. I just want her to leave me alone, so I just told her I was so over it. The truth? I am not going to do it strict, but I did like the idea of eating 5-6 small meals, I did like the fact I'm supposed to have a protein, good carb and veggies. I did like trying to eat lower sodium foods... and I have just prepared (and am still preparing) red potatoes, hardboiled eggs (for breakfast) and veggies for the week. But I am not even going to bring it up, because even if she sees me eating those things I know she will say "You aren't going to do it strict, so what's the point?" She will never understand that just getting me to eat 5-6 small meals is a break through in itself.
Did I go out to dinner tonight? Yes. Did I splurge? Yes. I'm about to go to the food tracker and access the damage LOL, but the difference is that I am going to log the food... the "old me" would have just said don't worry about it, what's done is done. But I do want to see where I stand... I am now to a point where I want to *own* what I've done. I want to see it, learn from it, and do better.
So food police, leave me alone... I don't need a lecture, I don't need you to ask if I *should* be eating that... don't worry about me. I have come a long way... maybe not in *actual weight loss*, but in building and shaping a new *me*!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
I started *this* weight loss journey at 272. I say *this* weight loss journey because there have been countless others. My body stayed at 255 for what seemed like ever. I finally got as low as 250.4 before bouncing back up to the 255 range. It was very frustrating, and time consuming, but this morning I got on the scale to reveal 249.8! I know I'm just *barely* under 250, but this is a huge motivator for me to keep going! Hopefully soon enough I will be posting about how I am 239.8 :) Oh and I'm still on TOM, so I'm hoping for the best.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
So my friend told me about this "diet" she does and you drop a lot of weight really quickly. Basically the guidelines were *no* processed foods, almost no sodium, eating small meals etc. She said 100 ounces of water, and she told me 2839028 times 'It's only gonna work if you do it strict, if you cheat even a little bit you may as well not do it!' She drove me crazy. She brainwashed me into thinking it was all or nothing.
I told her I didn't do it strict strict and she made a joke about the time she wasted telling me about it. What she doesn't understand is, I used a lot of her guidelines. I made boneless skinless chicken breast with Mrs. Dash marinade, so no salt... I ate whole wheat rice or red potatoes as my carb, and lots of veggies. I had small meals, etc.
However: It was Dispatcher's Week Celebration at work, luckily I only worked 3 of those days. 1 day we had pizza... I had two slices, one day we were given money to buy dinner and I had IHOP, which I had chicken strips and fries (very bad, I know;) and the third day was nachos.
Did I follow her diet *strict*? No, however I *am* 3 pounds down, and currently on my TOM which I typically gain 5 pounds during it. So I wanted to say to her 'I may not have done it your way, but I still lost some weight, and I was able to eat some yummy stuff.' But I figured it's easier just to let her think I've failed, I don't like having food police on my trail (I work with her btw). What she doesn't know is the food I ate today and yesterday was exactly what was on her strict diet ha ha. I don't mind eating healthy, but if I have to live off of this stuff, I'd never make it.
So I'm doing it my way, and tough noogies for her ;)
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
I just will never understand me, one minute I am giving my brother some of the 'less healthy' food in my house so he can take it away from here... and the next I am debating whether or not to give into my craving for chili cheese fries.
It just amazes me that my motivation can change from minute to minute.
So I was wondering, what is everyones thoughts on motivation and cravings? When your motivation is missing what do you do to power through it? For cravings, do you give into your craving and just go with the flow? Or do you try your best to ignore it?
Lately I have different people telling me different things about how I should be losing weight... and I know I need to decide what will work for me. But I guess the problem is I'm not sure what that is right now.
Friday, April 02, 2010
So eating lean cuisines and other things are really getting old. I want to start cooking/preparing my meals for the week... I also live alone.. I don't mind making a big batch of something and portioning it out for a week. I thought I would see if anyone had any favorite recipes from sparkpeople.com or just in general :)
I really think cooking and trying different things will make it more fun and will help me stay on track :) At least, I can hope ;)
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