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Self Sabotage & Tiger Stripes

Monday, November 04, 2013


Self Sabotage:
I'm not quite sure what it is about me and hitting certain milestones, or approaching the goal weight that causes me to shoot myself in the foot. I am on this roller coaster of emotions and I want to get off! One day I am celebrating a great victory of losing 85 pounds, the next I am discussing the demise of a plan I was trying, and getting a visit from the Binge Monster. This has happened many times when I hit different milestones, whether it's an amount of weight lost, seeing an all time low weight, or getting to another clothing size. I guess there is a part of me that is truly afraid to hit my goal weight.

I'm not sure why that is, because all I've EVER wanted is to lose this weight! I have been overweight my entire life and I can not remember a time from age 13ish on that I was happy with my body and wasn't worried about losing weight. My life has revolved around wishing and trying different things, but never succeeding. But here I am, I am finally doing this. I am getting there, slow and steady, never giving up... yet there is something inside me that is terrified of my goal weight. What is so scary about it? I don't think there is anything scary about the goal weight itself, I think what is scary is losing the layer of protection... my fat. I have allowed my fat to hold me back for years, avoiding many social situations, dating, etc. because of how I felt about myself and my body. Every boy that "didn't like me back" must not have liked me because I was fat. Now, let's be real... that probably wasn't true. Sure there were some that it probably was true, because we got along great otherwise, but it is highly possible that they just didn't feel that way about me, period. But I always felt that I was able to blame it on my weight. I never had to look at anything else, I would just write it off and move on.

So what happens now? Right now, this exact moment I still have just enough fat on me that I am still overweight. I can still hide behind it a little bit, I can still try to convince myself that is why that boy doesn't feel the same way about me, but what happens when that is all behind me? What happens when I'm just a nice, normal sized girl? That means I am going to have to put myself out there, and say take me or leave me... and that is a very scary thought! I feel better and more confident and I am hoping that will help me... but there is obviously something still plaguing me that is secretly gnawing at me deep down. I will continue to push forward and try to get to the bottom of this. This won't come in a day or even a week, but the good news is I'm conscious of this self sabotage and I'm going to try to continue to fight it, as well as the Binge Monster that always pounces when I'm second guessing myself.

This leads me to my next topic:


I have shed a lot of tears recently about the damage I have done to my body. I will be the first to say that I have always had very real expectations of what losing weight was going to look like. I expected the loose skin, I expected the horrendous stretch marks (mine are particularly bad), I expected jiggly arms... but I think there is still a part of us that thinks MAYBE it won't be as bad as we thought.

Well I am here to tell you for ME and my body, it is exactly as bad as I thought. I have stretch marks so deep and shredded trucks could drive in them. I have the flying squirrels as I have mentioned before... my stomach is hanging down so low that I recently went out to buy compression shorts to wear under my clothes to help give it support. My inner thighs are getting wrinkly and very jiggly... and I have an unsightly pouch on one of my inner thighs. I often joke that I am okay with it, and that I will just never be able to go through life wearing daisy dukes and tank tops. Okay so I am fine with that, the daisy dukes isn't happening no matter what, and I wouldn't be comfortable in those even if I could rock them. The tank top I can probably still muster up the courage to flaunt, but I am still very hard on myself. I think I am just mad at myself for putting my body through so much over the years, and it's sad to see that it can't recover from the stresses I've put it through.

It is just very hard to know you've worked this hard and to see all these various things happening. With that said, if I could have a do over with this life, and could have the perfect body, but be a part of a different family, and be a completely different person I would never do it. I have learned a lot, and while my body had to feel the wrath of my decisions, I am still so happy with the person that I am. So I will do my best to tone up my arms, and tone up my legs in an effort to help my jiggly thigh. I am already saving for a tummy tuck because it is honestly becoming a hazard the more I lose my weight... and I know I am privileged to be in a position where that is an option for me. That is going to lead to even more scars, and I am going to still have plenty of stretch marks, but as the picture says I earned those. emoticon They are my battle scars and I really think I am a much stronger person after going on this weight loss journey... and I have learned so much about life.

So no more tears, what's done is done. I can sit here and cry about things I can not change, or I can focus on what I can improve on and what I have accomplished. And to any of you ladies out there worried about your bodies after weight loss... this is what I have to say about it at the end of the day... I am going to look darn good in my clothes. 99% of people I come in contact with are ONLY going to see me IN my clothes and that 1% that actually gets to see me without them better consider themselves darn lucky and not have any complaints! emoticon

  
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HEATHERFREE 11/22/2013 11:27PM

    Hey girl, miss you. Catching up on your blogs. I particularly love this one, because I was just looking at every inch of my body this morning scrutinizing it, the deep stretch marks on the inner thighs, the stretch marks for some reason stretching more on my boobs....the scars from random pimples. But your right, whats done is done, and I'm so happy your still on this journey. I am still at 231 but Im happy with that considering all the joint issues I've been going through, and being on prednisone for over a month now. I still would like to get to 220 by the new year.....so we will see if I can make that happen despite all this medication and holiday temptation

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MCJULIEO 11/14/2013 2:03PM

    You have said it well.... hang in there and good luck!

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MAYBER 11/14/2013 12:02AM

    Thank you for sharing your journey this could be me writing this blog
At one time was one pound from goal and gained everything back plus a little more
And just recently in my journey was two pounds from goal and gained back ten so I begin again and too believe am afraid of reaching that number have set as a goal where do I go when I reach there
Continue to take one day at a time
Best wishes to you you are in thoughts prayers
Sending love and peace
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    Thanks for sharing.

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LEANMEAN2 11/11/2013 6:41AM

    Thanks for sharing.

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YOGAMONKEYS 11/10/2013 4:09AM

    I too struggle with self sabotage. It's good to hear your inner confidence, very inspiring.

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RESTORETOSANITY 11/9/2013 10:27AM

  The first time I lost the weight, in my twenties, I had major tiger stripes because of 3, almost back-to-back, pregnancies. They were something I decided I'd earned, proof I'd been to hard places and survived. I hadn't gained a lot in my arms even tho I was very heavy, and didn't have loose skin anywhere.

This time I'm in my forties and as I was making decisions about losing, I knew it would be different. My upper arms had blown up and I knew at this age I'd be in for a lot of loose skin everywhere. Finally, I told myself that this was life or death, and I couldn't let this fear keep me from losing. It would either bounce back or it wouldn't, but I'd be alive. To help me make the decision to go forward, I told myself if the skin was really bad and I really wanted to, I'd find a way to do surgery. So, I got one more excuse out of the way. My skin is pretty bad, but from what I've learned it takes a year or 2 before everything is stable, so I've decided to accept it for now. I'm lucky; I don't have any rashes or itches.

"What happens when I'm just a nice, normal sized girl?" I don't know. I hit goal weight and started maintenance a couple weeks ago, and I'm not nice and normal, LOL. I never was. I'm complex. I'm complicated. There are REASONS why I needed something to hide behind. I promised myself this time I would do whatever it took to stay in hiding when I felt vulnerable, just not use the fat anymore. If it takes wearing baggy clothes I do it. If I feel good in something that fits good, then I'll go with that. I don't have to become whatever anyone else or the past younger me thought I had to. I'm still strong, brave, and occasionally righteously angry. It serves me :) So, maintenance is confusing, but there's work to do inside or I won't stay here. It sounds like you are well on your way.

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TER_BEAR1962 11/8/2013 4:33PM

    We do tend to hide behind our protective layers and use them as an excuse to not participate in life. I also sabotaged my external image. Having been abused as a teenager and harassed as an adult, I made myself unappealing through weight, clothing, hair/makeup, etc. Once I realized what I was doing, I was finally able to overcome that last hurdle. I still have off days, but I did finally reach my goal weight, and have stayed within about 5 pounds of it ever since. Best wishes to you!

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    emoticon Great to see your blog featured in the Spark mail. What an honor.

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SMILES_CAN_DO 11/8/2013 9:48AM

  Nice blog! Congratulations on your success so far! You've come a long way! Way to go!

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AMBER461 11/7/2013 7:00PM

  Excellent blog. Well said.

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CHANGINGHORSES 11/7/2013 6:17PM

    Very well said. I have the same scars but I feel like a million bucks! I am just glad that I have a real sense of self now and pride in my body no matter how floppy my arms and belly are. And like you said, We look great in our clothes! The special person who sees me without clothes isn't looking at my flaws, he's looking at my heart.


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PROPMAN1 11/7/2013 3:12PM

  You have an amazing attitude! Wishing you nothing but the best!! Keep up the good work and fight on with pride!!!! emoticon emoticon

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FIRECOM 11/7/2013 2:24PM

    I have never in my life been a candyholic, but since I startred chemo, I absolutely crave candy -- all types.

Strange how changes in our life have unintended consequences;

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ANDYLIN90 11/7/2013 1:50PM

    Love it!!

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SUNFLOWERGIRL79 11/7/2013 12:09PM

    Great blog. We are our worse enemy. Keep your head up, you can do it.

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CALIDEE 11/7/2013 9:48AM

    Excellent! I can relate to this so well. Thank you for your honesty
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PATTISTAMPS 11/7/2013 9:46AM

    GREAT blog! Yes, we do have the scars of life. And as you grow older there are more scars. But your outlook is so EXCELLENT! Your health is so much more important than the scars. Many years ago I had a dear friend who had lost a lot of weight. About 75 pounds. And she had stretch marks. And saggy belly. And when she met Scott, he thought she was the most beautiful thing he had ever met, and when they got married they were one of the happiest couples ever. Sadly, she had a short life, and I will always miss her. But she is a shining example of how love does not care about the stretch marks, etc. Yes, the guys ARE initially attracted (mostly) to the body, but when you meet your soul mate it does not matter!

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SJKENT1 11/7/2013 8:32AM

    emoticon emoticon I think acceptance and determination points of our life are huge milestones. Congrats!

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XIALUDI 11/7/2013 7:50AM

    wow, yes! I can really relate to this, thanks for such an honest post :)

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CHERYLHURT 11/7/2013 7:31AM

  Amazing blog!

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DUSTYDOODLE12 11/7/2013 6:48AM

    emoticon emoticon Wear those stripes with pride!!!!! Who ever that 1% may be, should be considered extremely lucky indeed!! emoticon
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  great blog

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SUPERPSYCHED30 11/6/2013 9:51PM

    Well said!

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BETHLOVESBIKING 11/6/2013 7:33PM

    This blog is emoticon You've spoken for so many of us--we can all identify. Congratulations on your great work so far, and wishing you for courage for the remainder of the journey.

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HEALTHY4ME 11/6/2013 7:04PM

    YOu have hit the nail on the head for me. I think when I really get truthful that the main reason I don't lose is cos I dont want to be flabbier than I am now. I only have 30 lbs to lose but am and have been always flabby. When I read that people are 180 size 12 I am like how, I am an 16-18. mum used to say you are a marshmallow and that was when I was 13-140 and in my 20s.
So do I want to stay this size as I seem to go from 180-200 and fill my flab or have it hanging but then I see blogs on here, about people that have lost a fair bit and did strength and are not flabby... So then I think there is hope!!!!!
HUGS and hope you can remember there is hope!

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NO1LSUTIGERFAN 11/6/2013 5:56PM

  Just to let you know, I've struggled for the past year with the same exact thing - I'm down to my last 10 pounds and I've spent the last year going down 5 and back up 5. And I have no clue why I do it. No clue. Drives me crazy!

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NEWTINK 11/6/2013 5:35PM

    Find a punching bag and beat the crap out of it that works for me . and once you have done that you will feel empowered. Empowering yourself helps you to fight against the self destruction . You have to believe that you are stronger now than when you were fat bodied. emoticon

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SMILINGEYES2 11/6/2013 5:19PM

    I love your blog. I am also concerned with the wings and excess skin as I lose. I love the allusion to tiger stripes and battle scars. Thanks for giving me a new way to look at this body that is changing.

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MALAMI518 11/6/2013 5:08PM

    This really helped me today. I also have "tiger stripes" and so much loose, jiggly skin that I know will be with me forever. I remember saying when I started that I knew I would have loose skin and that I'd much rather have the loose skin than fat plumped skin. I still feel that way, and yet, I've been letting all that loose skin bother me recently.

I also agree about hiding behind the fat. I'm haven't fallen victim to self-sabotage, but it is scary losing that layer of fat that I've always wanted to lose.

Great blog! Thank you for your insights!

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JRICHART 11/6/2013 5:08PM

    Wow! Thank you. I stumbled upon your blog today after having a very tough day being motivated myself. I am only one pound away from my last mini goal and have been for about a month...it just won't come off. I also have lots of extra skin around my middle and just this afternoon I was upset about it. Your blog was a great reminder that we are all facing the same challenges. Thanks!

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TERRIMMIX 11/6/2013 4:12PM

    I've done the self-sabotage thing too, so many times. All I can really come up with is being afraid of not having the "I'm too fat to do that" excuse together with the fact that once the fat is gone, there will also be issues with getting hit on and having to have social self-control as well. When there's no temptation put in your path, it's easier to keep on the straight and narrow. Great blog!

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PURPLEBIRD63 11/6/2013 3:05PM

    Haha ... very true!
I worry about that also - extra skin, etc...
I started a tummy tuck fund a few years ago too -
just need to lose the weight so I can get it :)
Congrats on your awesome weight loss!

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SBARGANZ 11/6/2013 3:05PM

    I can relate. :) You rock!

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Waving The White Flag, Carb Nite Experiment Not For Me LOL!

Saturday, November 02, 2013



Let me take you back to a time, long long ago... October 25th, 2013. Well, ummmmmm, okay so it wasn't that long ago, but it feels like 10 years ago. In this week, I have gone from excitement, to physical exhaustion and feeling crummy, to feeling okay, to crash in burn. Before we go any further I must say that this is NO reflection of the plan... I obviously haven't been on it long enough to know if it is effective (and I betcha it is), but I have been on it long enough to know it's not for me.

So let's get back to the story, where was I? Oh, that's right, October 25th, 2013. You see, I had this idea that I should shake things up and try something new. My plan the last 19 months has absolutely worked and I have lot a lot of weight, but I was looking for something to do. I wasn't really prepared but I jumped in with both feet, only 30 net carbs per day. Okay that doesn't sound so bad right? At first it was great! I was at home and I had full access to my kitchen and could go in and cook up something super healthy and low carb every couple of hours. I had a little trouble getting in enough calories but that was okay. By Sunday night I felt sick, and had an awful headache, I have read about "induction flu" when it comes to low carb, so I thought I must be doing things right.

Cut to Tuesday night. I had to go back to work, I thought I had enough food, turns out it was only 1000 calories. I would never eat 1000 calories intentionally, but I was at my carb limit and I had no other options at work. Repeated this on Wednesday and then Thursday, Halloween, is when all heck broke loose!



emoticon Yep. It was bad. I went face first into SEVERAL slices of pizza emoticon at work, followed by a mini candy binge. I lost my mind. I had been hungry for days, I had wanted carbs for days, and I just couldn't stop myself. The thing is my first "Carb Nite" (where you intentionally eat a lot of carbs) was supposed to be Sunday. So I thought well I will just count this one as that and move forward. That was a good plan until today.

I ended up eating 3, yes you read that right, 3 donuts! emoticon In my 27 years as an overweight girl, I have NEVER EVER EVER eaten 3 donuts. 2 maybe, but not 3. That was the aha moment for me! This was bringing out the Binge Monster in ME! I haven't seen him in quite a while actually, and he caught me by surprise! He caught wind that I was doing this low carb thing, and he knew that after I had already eaten an insane amount of pizza & candy that getting me to eat 3 donuts would be a piece of cake! How evil is he? He truly is a monster.

You see, there is nothing wrong with this plan (I don't think), but there is something wrong with it for me. What bothered me most was that if I was doing it "my way" (everything in moderation tracking calories), I could have easily had ONE donut, tracked it and moved on with my day. In fact I have passed up donuts at work millions of times because I know they weren't worth the calories. But you tell me I can't have something and I obsess. I have had ice cream in my fridge for months and it is missing 2, 1/2 cup servings.. but if you told me I couldn't have it I would be right there eating out of the carton! This was bringing out the binge/restrict cycle in me and that is not good. There was nothing wrong with my counting calories and everything in moderation plan, but I am human, and I get caught up in wanting to try other plans. I said it when I posted about trying it that I was truly "going against myself" because I have always believed that for ME to lose weight it had to be my way and it had to be something I could do forever. I went on this plan knowing I would have to come off of it and that was the first mistake.

I think I had the right idea that I need to change up my routine, I need to make an effort to eat more healthy foods and to eat more veggies. This plan allowed me to find that I liked some healthier things and it really started to move me away from processed foods. I am going to keep that in mind as I move back to what has helped me lose 85 pounds, counting calories and eating what I want in moderation. I will just kick it up a notch so that I am eating more healthy, whole foods.

Anyways, if there is anything GOOD for me to say at the end of this is to remember that your weight loss journey is YOURS alone. What works for you may be pure disaster for someone else. Don't judge anyone else for their choices and more importantly don't let anyone judge you for yours. You know you better than anyone else, and sometimes we have to go through trial and error to find what works for us. So take whatever "your plan" is, and rock the heck out of it! emoticon emoticon


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JADED_CHICK19 11/6/2013 8:47AM

    I know exactly what you mean about binging when you feel like you are being restricted. I am the same way. Sometimes trying different things and realizing they aren't for us is just as important as finding what does work for us. Youre right everyone is different and we never know what works till we try it! Great job on figuring out what your body wants. Keep up the amazing work!

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ADARKARA 11/6/2013 8:24AM

    I am the SAME WAY! Tell me I can't have something and a dam breaks and I must EAT IT ALL!

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BRADMILL2922 11/6/2013 1:18AM

    Yea, finding out what works for us is a real key. We can try to copy someone else but in the end, we have to find what works for us.

Sorry to see that you had such a hard time. I almost think a crash like that is inevitable when we are doing this. We are so strict with ourselves and put so much pressure on what we are doing and trying to be perfect that a slip up is bound to happen from time to time. Best thing to do is just learn from it and move forward!

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PATTIEMCD 11/5/2013 6:55PM

    Loved reading this....Thanx

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SHANNONY84 11/5/2013 7:01AM

    I also feel crummy when I don't get enough carbs. I believe it is something our bodies become use to, and when we take it out, it hurts us!

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SIMONEKP 11/4/2013 12:14PM

    Steph, I was waiting to see how it worked for you. I know a lot of people say low-carb work for them but I find that I feel crummy when I don't have enough carbs.

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 11/4/2013 8:26AM

    Very insightful Steph... what you're doing now is exactly how I found what worked for me... cuz not only are all our bodies different but all our brains are different too..

Good on you!

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TREV1964 11/4/2013 5:29AM

    When you first said about doing this I must admit I was a little bit worried for you. You have already lost an great amount of weight and the loss DOES slow down as you near your goal weight.

Sometimes a change can re-set a boost to the loss and this is why I was looking carefully at how you got on. Nevertheless you found out some of the consequences quickly which proved so beneficial.

You will get there albeit like me slower than we first anticipated.

Cheers

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PSIMSON 11/4/2013 12:26AM

    I had exactly the same thing happen to me when I tried a low-carb diet a couple of weeks ago. I binged like crazy for a week after. But, I learned once and for all, that this type of "dieting" isn't for me. I just have to stick with simple and healthy. Thanks for another terrific blog and sharing your journey. emoticon

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JACOBSBELOVED 11/3/2013 1:23PM

    What a coincidence! I snapped and had two donuts yesterday as well!

Like you said, you tried it and it's not for you. I think it's great that you tried something new, especially since you were getting kind of bored with your routine, but now you know that it's not quite what you were looking for.

And way to go and to not compare yourself to others! It's so hard sometimes. :)

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SLIMMINGSHAY 11/3/2013 11:51AM

    LOVED this blog!

I can only imagine what eating low carb would do to me so I don't even try. I think I would be just like you in the reaction.

So what's the next step?

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EBONYSOL 11/3/2013 3:38AM

    Your entire blog emphasizes for me why I no longer believe in "dieting". The word makes me want to eat a chocolate bar and I don't even like chocolate bars that much anymore.
I believe that my eating habits have to align themselves with my design for living. My design for living is to live a balanced, healthy life - mentally, emotionally and physically. I choose to learn from, laugh with and love the friends and family in my life. The word and concept of "dieting" don't match up with my new life.

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TIRED49 11/2/2013 9:19PM

    Thanks so much for this! I am the same way! Tell me I can't have it and I'm going for it!

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1CRAZYDOG 11/2/2013 8:48PM

    You nailed it -- we have to be our best. There really is no one-size-fits-all plan. No matter how good a plan is, you have to tailor it to YOUR needs. Lesson learned, mission accomplished, right!?!

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MOVEITMARY 11/2/2013 8:37PM

    I'm with you - "diets" are NOT for me. Measuring, weighing, choosing, yes. Forbidden foods? OBSESSION TIME.

The only Halloween sweet I ate was a Little Debbie faux-Twinkie, because I knew if I forbid myself to eat it, I would obsess over it until I ate the whole two boxes that are in the house. Now I have had one piece and I'm over it. Definitely better for me.

All things in moderation.

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HEYRED221 11/2/2013 7:38PM

    I am with you - tell me I "Can't" have something - and that is all I want!!!! Yep, ain't gonna happen. Healthy options and everything in moderation - much better than specifically cutting out a whole group altogether. Great experiment though - hope you are feeling better today. emoticon emoticon

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SUNNYBEACHGIRL 11/2/2013 4:45PM

    I love the image of Face First into several slices of Pizza. Obviously the very very low carb didn't work but maybe there is something inside saying you need to find the right level of carbs for you. But there is no right level of donuts, something about surgary fried fattening is difficult to resist. I stopped eating them years ago. Did you have real sugar high after 3 of them?


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BABYBARNEY 11/2/2013 4:18PM

    You hit the nail on the head...DO WHAT IS RIGHT FOR YOU...I am usually over on my tracker with complex carbs. .I'd say 4 out of 7 days...The thing is I use them as additional fuel for my metabolism & manage to maintain my weight. Sugar alone however, is another matter entirely...particularly baked goods.

good for you in stopping the monster in its tracks.

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WILDFLOWERMA 11/2/2013 4:12PM

    Been there, done that. Glad you reinforced what you already knew at the end of it all. You've got this!

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PIGGYWAY 11/2/2013 4:00PM

  sound good but that`s not for me

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I_CAN_AMY 11/2/2013 12:17PM

    Listening to your body is a really important lesson. It sounds to me that in your 19 month weight loss journey, you cultivated a valuable skill. It will help you maintain your weight and healthy lifestyle forever. The "carb night" thing was just a test! GREAT JOB!!!
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MINEA999 11/2/2013 10:37AM

    I think it's great that you gave it a try and now you know it's not for you. I've tried low carb too and it created the binge monster in me too. Restricting foods from my diet makes me obsess about them. So I just don't do it anymore!

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HDHAWK 11/2/2013 9:56AM

    Do what works for you. Some people can handle low carbs and some have a hard time.Your body needs carbs to keep up with your workouts. emoticon

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WHOVIANGIRL23 11/2/2013 9:47AM

    At least you can say that you tried it! And now you know for sure that your plan is the best way to go! I'm sorry that you had a visit from the binge monster, how dare he make you eat 3 donuts?! He's such a bully. But it's Okay! Because you can swing yourself right back on that horse and keep going! We are almost exactly at the same weight right now, we gotta keep up with each other! Keep your chin up, you're such an inspiration!

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MOLLIEJEAN2 11/2/2013 9:35AM

    emoticon admitting it doesn't work for you, go with what feels right and what works for you. Everyone is different and what works for some doesn't work for others. Go with what you know works for you, emoticon . Glad that you are pushing the binge monster away, too. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BRENDA_G50 11/2/2013 9:09AM

    This was a GREAT blog. emoticonfor checking it out for me. I was seriously thinking about trying it, but now I don't have to. Your plan seems to work for you and that's all that matters. I LOVED the pictures!!! I can really identify with the ones of the cats emoticon but the one I really need to remember is the last one. Keep doing what you've been doing (moderation), you're doing emoticon

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AMARILYNH 11/2/2013 8:33AM

    Ouch - I'm so sorry this experiment didn't work for you. Or did it??

1. You now KNOW extremely low carb (and 30 net grams is LOW) doesn't work for you.
2. You now KNOW you CAN eat more freggies (and I don't think ANY plan doesn't agree veggies AT LEAST are good for you!)
3. You DID LOSE the vacation weight.

So I think it DID work! Knowledge is POWER and our weight loss journey is a LIFETIME journey, not a diet. So pat yourself on the back - JOB WELL DONE!!

I don't see this as a setback, just an experiment from which you gained more knowledge of yourself.

p.s. I'm SO WITH YOU on that 'don't tell ME I can't have it' thing!! There is NO food (including donuts and pizza) that I CAN'T have. I haven't chosen to have a donut in a very long time, but I have chosen to have an apple fritter which is basically the same thing. I have chosen to have pizza. I have chosen to have a LOT of foods that cause a temporary weight gain because I generally eat lower carb and sodium. LIFE is about choices - we just are choosing healthy ones!! Hugs!! emoticon emoticon

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DESERTDREAMERS 11/2/2013 8:24AM

    Wow - you stuck it out longer than I could have!

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TAMNIOWA 11/2/2013 7:51AM

    I too have experienced the restrict/binge monster. Good for you for recognizing it quickly. Keep up the good work. Do what works for you. You can do it. emoticon

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SMART4ANDREY 11/2/2013 7:44AM

    Effective, not really.
There're three types of plans that work.
1. Low cal diet, it word 100%, they all do...in two weeks minus 5 kg - all true.
But you can't eat like that longer then two weeks, so you gain it all back.
2. Low carb/fat/protein plans (beginning), they work because they don't provide an actual plan and people end up low cal, that happened to you too.
3. Low carb/fat/protein plans (normal), they work for some people, it it's low carb and you don't really like carbs - will work for you, if you don't like meat - low protein will work for you. For you low carb is insanity, for me low protein is, so it's just good amount of calories tilted away from one of the nutrients.

Punch line is that you don't need that tilt, you can spread your calories as you like.

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TIME-4-TINA 11/2/2013 7:39AM

    I don't think I could ever go on a low carb diet. Although I do try to not eat carbs for lunch on most days. I usually have grilled chicken and salad. But the rest of the day, I do eat carbs. I find that restricting myself doesn't work.

go back to what works for you, sweetie.



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COCK-ROBIN 11/2/2013 4:29AM

    I've also been trying to fight the binge monster. I'm glad you learned and moved on.

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TOKIEMOON 11/2/2013 4:27AM

    Steph. I think I would have reacted the same way. Thanks for trying this eating plan out for me. emoticon If you still want a change, what about trying something new with exercising, or tweaking an activity that you normally do? emoticon Denise

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CHRISGORGME 11/2/2013 3:24AM

    That sounds like the girl who talked to me earlier in the week! Remember.......we learn and we move on!!!
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WEEPINGANGEL74 11/2/2013 2:24AM

    Sounds like you are making the right choice for you and that is the best choice! I hear ya on the binge monster. ... I am trying to fight her for way to long! New day, new month, new chance to make the right choices.

We can do this Steph!!



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RUDITUDI2000 11/2/2013 12:47AM

    Very good blog! Spot on with not judging others, or comparing our success or failures to others.. Glad you came out on top with a great learning experience to move forward with! Less processed food, more veggies, moderation, is a good plan for you it sounds like! You have lost a lot of weight! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CHUBRUB3 11/2/2013 12:45AM

    Oh Yes!
I know exactly what you mean!
More power to you my friend. You figured it out quicker than I ever did. LOL! :0)
Hugs
Angela

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Celebrating 85 lbs Down! Initiate Puppies & Rainbows Sequence!

Thursday, October 31, 2013



emoticon When I started this journey 19 months ago, I didn't celebrate each little milestone. In fact I don't think I truly celebrated until 40 pounds down. After that I celebrated 50, 60, 70, and not too long ago 80 pounds down with all of my Spark friends! emoticon Those milestones were important to me because I felt like I was actually getting somewhere. This journey can be long and tedious at times, so we have to find the fun wherever we can. I have never celebrated a "halfsie" like this (Eighty FIVE pounds down), but these milestones are going to be coming to an end soon as I come closer and closer to the end of my weight loss journey. Now wait, don't get it twisted... the end of my weight LOSS journey... which will start the beginning of my life long MAINTAINING journey. emoticon It is a great feeling to be so close to getting to where I want to be... (I am thinking 160 sounds pretty good, 170 sounded okay in the past but I am ready for more I think)... but that also means my weight loss is slowing. I'm not getting to celebrate those milestones regularly, so I thought what the heck... let's celebrate 85 pounds down! But the more I think about it, it is NOT just 85 pounds down... I am actually celebrating:

emoticon 19 consistent months sticking to my weight loss journey and being consistent on Spark People almost daily.

emoticon The lowest adult weight in more than 10 years: 186.2!

emoticon Not giving up on myself for the first time in aaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllll my attempts at weight loss.

emoticon Feeling happy and confident in myself, the person I am, and my ability to lose this weight and keep it off.

emoticon Regaining control after 5 food-filled-days in Vegas where I gained 7 lbs of bloat... Not only am I home and back on track, but I have eliminated the bloat and an additional 2.6 pounds!

So I am not celebrating just a number on the scale, but all of the things that have changed in my life. I am still very much the same person, just in a smaller body... but my confidence has returned and boy did I miss it! emoticon Just 4.2 pounds away from celebrating 90 pounds down, what a treat that will be! With my body it could be as soon as two weeks or as long as 2 months... unfortunately while I do what I can, my body and that scale makes the final call. But I look forward to it, and I can't help but peek into the future and be ecstatic about that beautiful 100 pounds down! I never thought it would be possible, but this site and community has taught me that you can achieve your goals if you are willing to do the work, and boy am I willing! emoticon

Puppies, Rainbows, and a Cuddly Kitty for you cat people. emoticon


Countdown til 2014: 62 Days
Goal to lose 10 pounds: 179
Current Weight: 186.2 emoticon

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DRTOVAH 11/16/2013 5:57AM

  awesome and congrats!

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WHITEANGEL4 11/13/2013 12:15AM

    Awesome....amazing what a positive outlook, hard work and sticking to it can do for you. Keep it up

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  awesome job what an inspiration

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JEN169 11/7/2013 7:47AM

    Awesome!!! Congratulations!! You are an inspiration to me! I know it was a long time ago that you were in 260ville, but that is where I read the title of your blog on the team news feed and I see that you have stayed a member of all your "ville" teams. Congratulations!
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KIM22211 11/5/2013 8:46PM

    hey I count ever pound as a hue victory!!! Good for you!

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    emoticon Awesome Job!!

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KATHRYNDUANE 11/3/2013 12:42PM

    Congratulations!

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BOODIGGETY 11/3/2013 11:12AM

    Way to go Steph!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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    emoticon What a Great attitude, emoticon

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    Congratulations! You are such an inspiration to me! emoticon

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    Awesome blog. Thanks for sharing. Wow, what a positive and committed attitude! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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  Congratulations!!

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    Good job! You are amazing. Loved reading the success of your journey emoticon

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FIRECOM 11/2/2013 1:16PM

    The success of a very difficult journey is worth a high five. Thanks for your story.

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    Congratulations on your spectacular journey! And yes, it's all worth a huge celebration. I suggest a parade of puppies, unicorns and rainbows! emoticon

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MRSRIGS1 11/2/2013 11:20AM

    Way to go and CELEBRATE!!! You deserve ALL the BELLS and WHISTLES! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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RUDITUDI2000 11/2/2013 9:47AM

    emoticon Is right! You have accomplished quite much to celebrate! With that much weight gone, you can likely enjoy the party even more! I feel so much healthier in a smaller more compact body! emoticon

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TIFALVA 11/2/2013 8:29AM

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Great things to keep in mind for my own journey as I begin mine. You are a great inspiration!

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SBNORMAL 11/2/2013 7:50AM

  Wonderful journey! Wonderful story!

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LOUBUG1012 11/2/2013 7:27AM

    Celebrate good times come on!!!!

Well done you should be sooo proud of yourself. I have 189 pounds to lose and am 1 pound away from my first goal of 20lbs so hopefully come monday I will be celebrating right along with you.

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    Great blog. Celebrate, you've earned it. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MAREE1953 11/2/2013 2:36AM

    Great job! As your weight approaches your goal, and people stop noticing your weight loss because you're maintaining it, I think it's more important than ever to celebrate your accomplishment and feel that pride in taking care of yourself! It's a definite shift in thinking and it sounds like you are well on your way!

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  CONGRATULATIONS what great news your hard work is paying off

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    Congratulations!!!!!!! Wooohoooooooooooo!!!!!

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    Hugs

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JSEATTLE 11/1/2013 8:17PM

  Wow you have a lot to celebrate! Congratulations and thank you for the cuddly kittens!

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  You've come a loooooooooooooong way. So freaking exciting. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DIANNEMT 11/1/2013 7:06PM

    Fantastic!! It IS hard to maintain but you'll do it!

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  What an amazing job you have done! Congratulations!! :-)

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    emoticon So encouraging to see your effort and success. Motivates me!

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    Great things to celebrate!

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PENOWOK 11/1/2013 1:51PM

    That is remarkable!! You are solo worth it!!

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Going Against Myself: Carb Nite Solution (Countdown: 66 days)

Sunday, October 27, 2013



emoticon I am very reluctant to post this, because it goes against what I had decided for myself and the advice I give to others. When others ask for tips on how to lose weight, my biggest piece of advice is it's easiest if you make changes you can stick to forever. If you are leading a healthy lifestyle, you never have to go "off of the plan" and figure out how to survive once you aren't doing that certain plan. I am 19 months into this journey and my approach has always been counting calories and exercising. That is not the approach that works for everyone, but everything in moderation (except my blasted trigger foods LOL) was what I followed and I have never regretted it. So to post this goes against everything I've always said. If you want to criticize I will gladly take anything you want to throw at me. emoticon

So what is all this hoopla about you might ask? Well here's the scoop. 19 months in I'm bored to tears on my weight loss journey. emoticon My arthritis is flared up, my knees are swollen and sore and that has bummed me out. I was enjoying Hip Hop Abs so much and loved doing it almost everyday. I even bought Rockin Body to give that a try but my knees put a firm stop to that. It was keeping me on my toes, it was keeping me feeling like I was doing something new and exciting and it was taking the weight off of me. Since I am back to essentially only walking, I have gotten very bored.

Let's add on to that the part where I am getting towards the end of my journey. Now wait wait, hold the phone, don't jump on me yet! This is a life long journey that never ends, I understand that... but what I mean is I am at a place where I have lost more weight than what I have left to lose. Does that make any sense? Maybe not. What I mean is that I have lost 80ish pounds, and my goal weight on my ticker is 170. According to that I have 20ish pounds to lose. Between you and me, I probably will keep pushing til I got to 160 so that's 30ish pounds. emoticon While 30ish pounds is no small feat, it is a heck of a lot less than 80 pounds. Add on to the fact that my body has not forgotten that I've lost all that weight and is continuously trying to find that weight again. With that said the weight is surely coming off at a snails pace. I know my way works, but my body is just rebelling all the way. Too bad 190 wasn't my goal weight, because I can maintain that like a champ. emoticon

Anyways, if you are looking for detailed information on this Carb Nite Solution you are in the wrong place. I am not here to promote this plan in any way. In fact, I do not even have the book. I got the information online, and the rules of the plan were readily available as was some of the "science" behind it. One thing I really respected about it was that the guy himself said this is not a healthy lifestyle. It is a weight loss TOOL and that you should not do it for more than 6 months. I really respected the honesty behind that because I do believe a healthy lifestyle is the way to go in the long run and that is what I intend to do. But I thought this would be a fun little experiment. I am really bored and it has lit a fire under me. Granted it is only day 2 (completed) of this plan. Remember when you started your journey? That sense of shiny newness where you couldn't contain your excitement? I am looking to get that back almost 19 months later. I have a goal to follow this plan for a month to: 1. Give myself something new and exciting to try. 2. To be accountable to myself and show myself I am strong enough to do anything. 3. Possibly shed a few more pounds that my body doesn't want to let go of.

So there you have it, that is what I'm up to. If you want to call me a hypocrite I completely understand. I was reluctant to try any plan because I have never been big on "plans". This won't be something I do more than a month or two and it is not a lifestyle. But the difference between me following a plan 19 months in is that I know what to expect when I go off this plan. When I go off this plan the 3 lbs that disappeared in water weight will come right back. When I go off this plan it does not mean going back to eating fast food 2 times a day (sorry Burger King, I miss you, kind of...)... it means going back to my healthy balanced lifestyle of everything in moderation and counting my calories (which I am still doing on this plan btw) and getting the job done. I also thought this would be the extra push to me through some of these dreaded holiday gatherings. emoticon If I throw in the towel on this plan, I promise to fess up. In the past I just would never mention it again, but I enjoy the accountability so when I go off the plan I will let you all know.

Countdown to 2014: 66 days
Starting Weight: 193
Current Weight: 190 (just water weight, don't get too excited)
Goal Weight: 179 emoticon

  
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TINA5111 11/3/2013 12:00PM

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SUNNYBEACHGIRL 10/31/2013 1:29AM

    I think that doing something different to get through to Valentine's Day without gaining weight is a Success. Losing deserves a celebration. Hope it is going well and I am with you

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JUDY106 10/30/2013 10:27AM

    emoticon weight lost. I am so happy for you. I know how you feel about not being able to do the excises you really want to do. I do water aerobics because my joints are so bad. you will get those last lbs off to reach your goal. I have faith in you. emoticon

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MAMACHAMBS 10/29/2013 9:00PM

    I'm so proud of you! It sounds like you're off to a great start with your experiment of one! The one thing I'm learning is that every good plan seems to have the same basis, low carbs, whole food, lots of veggies, etc. I think your 2013 goal is very achievable!

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MRSP90X 10/29/2013 12:09PM

    Sorry it took so long to answer your question. I just changed teams this weekend in the BLC. I did notice that you and someone else was doing the diet in the chat thread, but wasn't placed on your team. It has been challenging to catch up with a new team.

ANYWAY, It is basically a cyclical ketogenic diet. Since the diet has been around for a while, he has changed his stance on being healthy. You just eat higher glycemic carbs of more a "healthy" type, or take a paleo approach instead of eating extreme amounts of junk on carb nite. His Carb Back-loading is the same and that one is a lifestyle "diet". I love the diet!! I do however need to watch my fat and overall calories, or I will gain weight, but that is true with any diet approach. I eat lots of salad and more healthier carbs on carb night, but at least I can have a cheat meal, and get to eat lots of air popped popcorn!! I love it!! If you or anyone else on your team has questions, please ask! I should be able to respond quicker now. Changing teams almost halfway is rough!

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SIMONEKP 10/29/2013 11:46AM

    I hear you, 19 months is a long time to keep vigilant. I feel that way sometimes and I'm only 10 months in. You are so funny "Add on to the fact that my body has not forgotten that I've lost all that weight and is continuously trying to find that weight again.
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I can't see myself off carbs but give it a whirl and see if it gives you a head start.

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BRADMILL2922 10/29/2013 12:08AM

    Boredom is a hard thing to fight. Like this thing isn't hard enough as it is but we can get a little lax due to success and/or injury and that sounds a little of what is going on with you. You don't need anyone to tell you what you have to do because you already know it. So, good luck with trying something new. Sometimes, that is all it takes!

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TIRED49 10/28/2013 11:35PM

    Thank you for posting this! It is good to know that those that are successful also struggle.
I totally understand why you would want to try something that will get that weight moving again, even if it is only temporary.

I am trying your approach of no foods off limit, this is a lifestyle change but when (you notice I said when) I get to a plateau, believe me I would try something new to "shock" my body into getting moving again.

Good luck and let us know how it goes.

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ZAPPATTACK 10/28/2013 4:26PM

    You're awesome!! I find myself in a bit of a slump too but am trying to get back into the swing of fitness... Here goes nothing.

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SLIMMINGSHAY 10/28/2013 3:29PM

    I absolutely loved this blog and how you were completely honest about what you are doing and why.

Have fun and keep pushing on! You can do it!

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MOTHEPRO 10/28/2013 10:19AM

    I'm about a year in and getting bored myself. I'm interested to see how you do with this.

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 10/28/2013 8:49AM

    Stephanie... no name calling from me... I'm pretty much sick to death of defending what *i* do... so I won't be casting stones on others.. nope.. I've said it once and I will say it a million times - everyBODY is different and everyMIND is different.. do what works for you! and I can't wait to hear about this because I'm intrigued.. and GONE are the weeks of losing 4-7lbs... if something doesn't happen tomorrow or Wednesday I'll be posting a 0 loss after last weeks dismal 1lb loss. that's why I'm looking to shake it up a bit too...

Those 66 days til 1/1 will fall like dominoes before you as homage to your commitment and success!!

Annie

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SMART4ANDREY 10/28/2013 7:00AM

    I have good news for you!
I'm like you all that lifestyle changes.
And you're the first one I'm telling this to, there's one more step, more complicated practice, that only can be mastered after you made these lifestyle changes!
You can call it "new and exciting experience" at this point it won't drive you off track!
For example, you should walk more, be more active, that's a lifestyle thing and you can practice it everyday for the rest of your life.
But you can go scuba diving, that doesn't mean that you need to scuba every day for the rest of your life, it's just new and fun experience.

Happy for you!

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MOVEITMARY 10/27/2013 11:14PM

    I think it's good to try it as an experiment and not a "magic solution". Have fun with it and if it doesn't work, you know what to do....

Does bicycling work for your knees? Maybe that would be less boring.

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TOKIEMOON 10/27/2013 9:42PM

    I have no idea what this carb plan entails (limiting and than binging?) But if it's working and it's something you can stick with for a short while - why not absolutely give it a try. Now that my curiosity is peaked, I'm going to see if I can find it and see for myself! Have fun!!

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AMARILYNH 10/27/2013 7:44PM

    emoticon Stephanie, I think it is a GREAT idea! I haven't heard of this particular plan, but assuming is has something to do with limiting carbs I say go for it! I lost the first 30 or pounds of my weight on a modified low carb plan (I modified it by eating fruit) and I am still VERY careful with carbs (try to eat mostly complex carbs and limit bread - even whole wheat bread).

Every body is different. Until I tried it I swore I'd never go on a low carb plan because I LOVE me some carbs! But once I actually did it? It was way easier than I expected. What is the worst that can happen? You hate it and go back to your previous healthy eating plan!! Well heck, that's what you are planning to do in time anyway!! And who knows, there may be a part of this new plan you choose to incorporate INTO that plan!! Its all good!! emoticon

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LOTUSBURGER 10/27/2013 5:32PM

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GEORGE815 10/27/2013 4:09PM

    Keep trying. You can do it!

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PIGGYWAY 10/27/2013 3:34PM

  good thinking good luck

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KATESQUEST 10/27/2013 3:02PM

    The willingness to examine your thinking, try new things and expand your experiences is a sign of intellectual wellness :) Although I have never tried the Carb Nite Solution, I am a proponent of limited carb plans for weight loss. They do help reset your metabolism and flip on your fat-burning switch! One has to be careful about how you reintroduce the carbs in order to prevent complete backsliding and weight gain, though. I say, good for you for trying something new! I find that when I limit my carbs I feel MUCH better!

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CHUBRUB3 10/27/2013 2:26PM

    WE all get bored, so don't beat yourself up. If you want to change up your diet do so, we live and learn. If it works for you even better!
You have done great and you will continue to do great.
Big hugs,
Angela


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JACOBSBELOVED 10/27/2013 1:49PM

    I haven't looked into the newer plan you're talking about but knowing you, I'm sure it's safe and healthy. If you need something to light a fire under you then by all means I think you should do it! Like you said, you're 19 months in and you need that spark that we all get when we start losing weight. Mix things up because it sounds like you need something new.

Keep us updated and let us know how you're doing! I'm sure you will but now I'm really curious to see how this works out for you. :)

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BRENDA_G50 10/27/2013 11:18AM

    Shake it girlfriend shake it!!! emoticon I'm with you, I'm getting bored with food and when I do that, I usually binge on what I've been craving (like potato chips, or sweets). So...go for it!!! If you find you don't like this plan, you can always go back to eating the way you were before you started it. Best of luck and be sure to keep us posted on how things are going. emoticon

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DRADDIE 10/27/2013 10:03AM

    Good luck to you! Sometimes we just have to shake it up a little for a little newness and excitement- our bodies just get so used to our routines! Well done! Keep postin'!

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1CRAZYDOG 10/27/2013 9:38AM

    EBONY said it best for me . . . not planning on taking YOUR inventory! Too busy with my own. That said, my advice (I know, you didn't really ask for it!) is realize NOTHING is written in stone. So, if this doesn't work for you, you can cease and desist! NO harm in trying. You never know till you do. And heck, if it's a mistake, you'll know and lesson learned.

Have you looked into reactive foods @ all? I found for me, red meat is a real bug-a-boo for my joints (osteo & RA -- that one undiagnosed, but 99.9% positive of it and it is WAY in the gene pool). Cutting down has really helped.

Peace.

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ADARKARA 10/27/2013 8:42AM

    I've been considering shaking things up myself. I have about 20 lbs to lose still as well (TWINSIES!) and I'm getting bored/impatient. The problem is that my brain is so thoroughly resistant to anything with RULES! lol

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CAT125 10/27/2013 8:01AM

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Keep tweaking....you'll get there!

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CHRISTASP 10/27/2013 6:40AM

    I really like your honesty. I feel we all need to make our own choices, you are the only one who can decide what's best. I am trying to normalize my eating patterns and have chosen to do so for 100 days but again and again I wonder if I should not do something 'drastic' and try a method that would help me lose weight fast. So I understand your reasoning, I think.

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CHICAT63 10/27/2013 6:22AM

    Thanks for sharing and posting this, in some ways I am at the same standpoint. I have been maintaining up and down for too long, I need to make some nutritional changes....Rock on my friend ! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MARYBETH4884 10/27/2013 6:16AM

    Sometimes we need to shake things up and keep our bodies guessing! I hope your plan works!

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EMPRESSAMQ 10/27/2013 5:59AM

    It's great to try new approaches to keep things fresh, good for you! Sounds like an interesting plan.

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COCK-ROBIN 10/27/2013 5:49AM

    Very good! It's wonderful to try something new, to keep your journey fresh and alive. Keep at it!

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HAPPYMENOW58 10/27/2013 5:44AM

    Best wishes...I think you should try whatever new things appeal to you...It makes sense to me...We shake things up by trying different exercises...Sometimes we need to shake up our food plans, too! Hang in there..keep trying, reading, sparking, and moving....We are all different and have to follow our own hearts on this journey... emoticon emoticon

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EBONYSOL 10/27/2013 5:12AM

    Thanks for sharing and for being honest.
I, for one, have no plans on taking your inventory; I have more than enough work trying to keep track with my own life and goals.
Might try some water exercises to help you get past those knee problems. If you are bored, find a place with good water slides just make sure you don't have any neck/back probs. OR try river fishing where you are up to your whatever in water trying to catch an elusive fish while the river wants to sweep you away. My brother loves it. I personally have not tried it; I haven't been that bored yet. Kayaking is a good workout and so is dragon boat racing according to my friends. Just a few different ideas:)

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Final Countdown: 69 Days - Lose, Gain, or Maintain?

Thursday, October 24, 2013



We are down to crunch time here... 68 days left in 2013! If I was forced to sit down and really decide if I am where I want to be at this point this year, I would probably say I came up short of where I wished I would be. But you know what, I'm not going to do that. This is a lifetime journey and I am moving forward, getting into smaller sizes and losing weight... at the end of the day that is a victory to me!

With that said, the year is flying by, and before we know it we will be ringing in 2014! emoticon But before that we have that dreaded time of year where the pounds try to creep up on you!



The holidays are great, it's a time of family and fun! But it's also the time of massive amounts of food, and every single get together revolving around it! If we just "ate poorly" ON the actual holidays, it would just be a handful of days. But it's not that simple. Everyone is offering you baked goods or candy, wanting to have you over for dinner on other days, and wanting to feed you all sorts of food. It can be really hard to say no to so much yumminess! It is so easy to get sucked into the mentality that "It's the holidays, and I'm going to ENJOY IT!" By all means we all deserve to enjoy the yumminess of the holidays with everyone else, but there has to be a line somewhere. Imagine if we started that attitude on Halloween? That is over two full months that we could have to pack on the pounds.

With 68 days left I feel like I have 3 options, I can gain, lose, or maintain. Gaining would be the easy and obvious choice, it's the holidays! They only come once a year, right? Why not enjoy and eat every yummy treat that crosses my path? But no, that path is not for me. Maintaining doesn't sound too bad, I can't lie to you. Indulging in SOME treats but keeping a good eye on it so that I can maintain... things could definitely be worse. But I will have a lifetime to maintain when I get to my goal weight... so now is not the time for that. I am choosing to take my power back and LOSE weight during the holidays. I am going to actually set some very realistic expectations for me based on some of the things I have coming up. With about 10 weeks left this year I want to lose 10 pounds. Some may say that is "ONLY 1 pound a week", but to me that sounds fantastic, especially during the holiday times. Not to mention I have another trip to Vegas coming up (still recovering from the first one), and I have a 3 week total vacation. The majority of the time I do better at work because I can't get up and eat whenever I want... but I also have a lot of tempting food at work that can make it hard. It will be interesting to see how I do when I am home for a couple weeks. But I am just going to push forward and do the best I can.

So how about you? What is your action plan to make it through the holidays? It might sound early to be worrying about but it doesn't hurt to plan! emoticon emoticon

Countdown to 2014: 68 days!
Current weight: 193 (Up a few pounds after vacation)
Goal weight: 179
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AMARILYNH 10/29/2013 7:20AM

    I missed this blog last week and am just now seeing it. I say GREAT PLAN!! I am in the maintenance phase of weight loss, but believe me when I tell you that doesn't make it ANY easier to resist holiday foods! And pounds come back SO FAST - one can never cease to be diligent!!

Before going on an 11 day vacation to Canada followed a week later by a 3 week vacation in Europe (yes, retirement IS good!) I worked extra hard and got to 5 pounds under my goal weight. As of this morning I'm sitting at 3.4 pounds under goal weight. And I'm back into weight loss mode - I was LIKING that weight and have decided I want to keep it.

So I'm WITH you!! We CAN enjoy a little holiday food - just in moderation!! I learned a couple of years ago that Thanksgiving dinner is MORE enjoyable when you just have a little of each yummy food. And that includes the punkin pie - a tiny sliver more than satisfied me! And what a FABULOUS feeling to not feel bloated and stuffed after dinner!!

So my method for handling holiday meals with family is to talk - a LOT (any friend of mine reading this will tell you this is an AMAZING skill of mine - I talk a lot!) With all that talking and a little eating I'll finish the meal satisfied and fulfilled!! Because it really IS about the people, not the food, right?

So HAPPY HOLIDAYS Stephanie!! We can DO this!! emoticon

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KEYTOSLIM 10/26/2013 11:05PM

    Great Goal! Go for it!

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WEBEZE 10/26/2013 2:10AM

    I am with you Steph. 10 pounds by end of year. 186 now so 176 by end of year.
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SKINNYINMYHEAD 10/25/2013 8:26AM

    Well, you go girl!! Love the attitude.. love the challenge... and have zero doubt you will meet your goal! My plan is to make stuff that I can eat and take it to all these parties ... but I'm not kidding myself, it's going to take some laser sharp focus to meet my ONEderland goal by the new year...

YOU GOT THIS!
Annie

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CHICAT63 10/25/2013 4:37AM

    Oh yes you can !!! emoticon emoticon

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WEEPINGANGEL74 10/25/2013 12:54AM

    Sounds like a plan!! I can totally relate to the people wanting to feed during the holidays but unfortunately I have someone in my office who is like that ALL the time..... she hardly eats and is skinny as a rail but the Italian in her (she says) makes her feed everyone else all the time.... I know she means well but it definitely makes it harder to lose weight.

I think you can kick those 10 pounds to the curb by New Year's Eve, no problem!!

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LIMITEDGRACE 10/24/2013 11:45PM

    I'm with ADF1981... I had to count the weeks myself as well!! LOL I really like the idea of shooting for losing 10 pounds by the end of the year. Actually, I set my goals for 5 pounds a month, so really if I stick to what I'm already doing (and actually measuring, weighing, and tracking EVERYTHING I put in my mouth) then I should be on track.
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JENRAQTAY87 10/24/2013 10:44PM

    I am taking part of the November challenge to work out everyday in November up until the day of Thanksgiving!

I even think on Thanksgiving I will make sure I walk for like 2 hours!

On Halloween I am going to chew gum which Trick or Treating so I don't gobble up any candy! emoticon

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TREV1964 10/24/2013 10:05PM

    I personally am chasing my mini goals one at a time. My long term goal is to loose the remaining 80 pounds by next summer.

Good blog and highly motivational reading.

Cheers

Trev

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1CRAZYDOG 10/24/2013 8:03PM

    Planning the work and working the plan. That's what it's all about. You have both covered. So, there you go . . . you're setting yourself up for success.

HUGS

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JACOBSBELOVED 10/24/2013 6:25PM

    It's not "just" 10 pounds. It's a very realistic goal! You're expecting something very reasonable from yourself and it's to ensure you do good during the holidays.

I've definitely been thinking about the holidays and I've already decided that I'm going to be good. I'm going to have the rest of my life to enjoy the holiday yummies and I think it would be good for me to resist as much temptation as possible this year. I'm not bummed about it at all. I think it's important for me to keep myself in check. That's my plan. :)

In my opinion, I can't have any regrets if I'm good during the holidays. I know I'm not going to think, "Ah, I lost 2 lbs this week, but I still wish I would have tried everything at the Christmas party last Saturday." There's no way you can regret being good, but you will definitely have different feelings if you ate too much. This is just my opinion. :)

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TOKIEMOON 10/24/2013 6:20PM

    Gosh Steph, 68 days! Right now I'm in the 2nd week of an 8-week 5% weight loss challenge. I'm shooting for 1.3 lb loss a week. My first week weigh-in I was down 2.2! I'm shooting for losing a total of at least 10 lbs by Dec. 7th finish date. Then maintain (or lose, but NOT regain) through the Christmas & New Year holidays.
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ZAPPATTACK 10/24/2013 3:51PM

    Wow... 68 days. I definitely need to kick my butt into gear!! I like your plan and I think likewise I am going to try and lose. For me, the biggest thing is going to be not engaging in the mindless eating around the tables during gatherings. My thought is that keeping my water glass filled and in front of me will keep my hands busy.

Thanks for posting and reminding us that we have to be conscious of our decisions during this journey to a healthier, happier self!

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RECREATING_ME 10/24/2013 3:39PM

    One of my action plans is to bring a plentiful veggie tray to all family gatherings and others that ask for a dish to pass. So often there is nary a vegetable to be found at these get-togethers, so I need to be responsible for bringing a healthy option that will nourish me, not fill me with empty calories.

I like your perspective in this blog post! We do have options during the holidays; keeping a balance (as we do during other times of the year) is very reasonable. emoticon


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MLLEMINOU 10/24/2013 2:24PM

    Hmm, I say try to at least get back to 193 *if* you gained in Vegas, and try to lose maybe 10 lbs bc if you're like me, during the Holidays, you're gunna have a lot of family dinners and I think it's a time to celebrate and give in a bit to some goodies (a bit!) and if you don't want to keep trying to lose, maintain!! I think u can totally get to your goal weight if not by Dec 31, prob mid January the latest!!! emoticon Congrats on all you have lost so far!!

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SIMONEKP 10/24/2013 2:14PM

    let's do this!

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ROZZIEOZZIE 10/24/2013 2:09PM

    Some great advice here! I also will plan my holidays very carefully, and maybe only eat one "holiday" type treat instead of a little of each like I used to do! Or maybe don't even have one treat, unless I can fit in an extra workout - just fill up on veggies and salad!
Thanks for getting me thinking, again!
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(And I love the fat cat that ate too many Thin Mints!!)

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HEALTHYHEIDI12 10/24/2013 12:19PM

    Both you and Chelle are smart to bring up this topic now! I love your plan. I think I'm going to decide ahead of time what my favorite things are and plan to indulge in a moderate serving. This way I can have what I like the best, but if I plan ahead and track it in advance, I should be fine.

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JADED_CHICK19 10/24/2013 11:59AM

    Great goal! 10 pounds is a good number to shoot for especially around the holidays. The holidays are a great time of year but we need to remember that we are on this journey for a reason. You have a great mindset heading into the end of the year!

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SLIMMINGSHAY 10/24/2013 11:53AM

    Is that all that is left of this year?! How did that happen?!

hmm... thought provoking. Planning ahead is a very good idea! Holidays are also not a great place for me, but since I"m pretty much at home all the time being a SAHM, I do have the choice of what I do and how I do it and how much I shovel in. Practicing self control will be my feat!

Good luck to all!

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ADF1981 10/24/2013 10:39AM

    I think 10 lbs is a great goal. Until I read your blog I hadn't thought about there being only 10 weeks for this year. I had to count it for myself LOL!

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ADARKARA 10/24/2013 10:28AM

    You can TOTALLY do this, girlfriend!!! emoticon

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CHOCOHOLIC2276 10/24/2013 8:01AM

    emoticon Go for it, you've come so far already.

I am determined to make this the year I don't gain weight. I would be ok with maintaining. Losing a couple of pounds would be the ultimate goal. Gaining is not acceptable!!


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SMART4ANDREY 10/24/2013 6:56AM

    We need some food free holidays! Society hear me!!!

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KIDMIFFY1 10/24/2013 6:05AM

    Thanks for the blog....it really sums up some of the issues Ive been dealing with. My plan is to loose (thank god for spending the holiday season on the other side of the world to my family so they arent forecing food down my throat)....but i took the maintain option over the summer while I was travelling europe, and it really made me realise the importance of having this third option in your back pocket .... and realise that if life doesnt work in a way that allows you to focus on loosing, then its not black or white, there is that grey inbetween thats maintaining...and lets face it we all need to learn how to do it anyway as we cant loose forever - we all have a healthy end point we want to reach!

Have a great holidays and good luck with your plan!!!!

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MARYBETH4884 10/24/2013 5:09AM

    Great plan and attitude! Why wait for 2014. One excuse usually leads to another! emoticon

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MOLLIEJEAN2 10/24/2013 5:00AM

    Where has this year gone, can't believe it is almost over. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon , good to have set goals than go head first into the holidays thinking I can eat anything and gain that weight back.

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POUTINGPEGGY 10/24/2013 4:52AM

    This is a real wake up call. Only 10 weeks. A lot of people out there, like me, have to tighten up if they are going to hit those end of the year goals. Thanks for this emoticon

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COCK-ROBIN 10/24/2013 4:41AM

    Good advice! One I need to take with me on the holidays!

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SUNNYRAYE 10/24/2013 4:21AM

    You go girl! I love that you are planning your responses to situations during the silly season.
For me it is pretty much status quo except turn beast mode on.

I know that I have an eating problem and that means I have to protect myself and fight fight fight every day of the year. Whether it is fighting others trying to give me food or my binge monster (which I haven't heard from lately) or myself trying to say that I don't need to gym because I did so hard during the year.

Every day is a fighting day because I want to be happy, healthy and full of hope. So for me, I have to do what I do every day and don't break my habit - no matter what the cost.

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CAT125 10/24/2013 3:36AM

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Current weight: 165
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