Thursday, April 01, 2010
I know it is mainly an emotional thing right now, and stress related as well. But what I don't understand is it is the exact opposite.. normally I would be wanting to eat everything I could get my hands on, but instead I just don't want to eat. It's been 5 days now. Don't get me wrong, I am eating, the first 2 days it was just once a day, I have been forcing myself to eat twice a day.. and today I am trying to get back to normal.
I am sure my body is in starvation mode... at first it let me get down to 250.4, but my body is stayed at that weight to the *ounce* this entire week. I know my body is freaking out and I am trying to get back to normal. I have just never had it like this, I have had emotional eating issues, but I've never had them where the result is me not wanting to eat. I'm doing my best to force myself to eat, and start exercising again, and hopefully some more weight will come off.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Last week, I started off SO WELL. I was exercising, eating right, I was on a roll. Towards the end of the week, I just stopped, for no reason. I started eating fast food again, and 1 "cheat day" turned into 4. Now I am back at work ready to start a new week. It came down to 1 of two options... 1. Order delicious food with the rest of my coworkers, and continue down this path that will only cause me harm. or 2. Push forward, and eat the healthy stuff I have brought with me.
I'm glad to say I chose #2. I did not order food, I am happily eating my soup, and popcorn while they pig out on all the grease. I will be walking on my breaks, and getting back into the swing of things.
I have accepted last week, and I am ready to move on... but I can't help but think that had I followed through, I would have probably broken the 20 pound barrier I haven't been able to break, instead of gaining .4 pounds. But this week, I am in it for the long haul, and I will not let this sabboteurs get to me this week!
Friday, March 12, 2010
It seems that I can do fine, but work always ends up getting to me. I work 12 hour graveyard shifts... I have no problem bringing my food and enough snacks to last throughout the night. I would say it's 50/50 at my work.. 1/2 of my coworkers are overweight, the other half or not. Regardless, they do a "chow run" everyday. I can usually resist maybe 2 out of 3 days, but I always end up giving in. What I am thinking of doing now is leaving my wallet in the car. Where I work it's locked and very secure, so no one will steal my car or wallet... What happens is one or two people go on the "chow run" and go around the room and collect the money and take orders... so by leaving my wallet in the car, I will not be able to place an order. This last week was horrible, I only gave in one day, but then during my days off the past 2-3 days I've been continuing to eat fast food. When I have it once, it just sticks with me and makes me want the next day and the next day. I was doing so good for about 5 days, and then all of a sudden I realize I'm doing what got me fat in the first place.
I just feel like if I don't get a handle on this soon, without even knowing it I will throw in the towel, and I refuse to let this happen.
Anyone else have trouble eating healthy at work, or is it just me? LOL
Saturday, March 06, 2010
This comes a few days late, as I just got back from a trip to Vegas to see my Grandma. I had a blast, and over 4 days we ate out for 2 meals, as opposed to the normal 4-7 meals out. I know weight takes a little while to show up... so I'm not positive about the damage. As of right now I haven't gained any, but who knows what plans to show it's ugly face in the next couple of days!;) My goals for the rest of this month are all routine based. Once I get into a routine, I do well... but GETTING INTO the routine is always hard for me. I am not going to focus on losing a certain number of pounds, but instead the following little goals.
In March I want to...
*Drink at least 8 glasses of water a day.
*Track my calories on sparkpeople.com at least 5 days a week (ideally 7, but sometimes I forget)
*Do at least 1 mile per day using my Walk Away The Pounds DVD's.
*Take fish oil tablets daily. I've been told that those are good for you, I'm only putting this on here because it is another thing to help me get into a 'routine' mind set.
*Not eat any fast food the rest of the month. I had some delcious food in Vegas, but now it's time to get down to business. This is going to be the hardest one for me... usually during a work week I can *resist* ordering food 3/4 days. I always end up cracking about once a week. I know once a week isn't a big deal, but for me... I have it once... and then I want it again the next day.. and the next.. and well.. you see where this is going;)
I know that I'm only human, and mistakes are going to be made... but I just want to develop a routine. I really think of I can pull this off during the month of March, it will set the tone for April:)
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