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So weird: I'm just not hungry...

Thursday, April 01, 2010

I know it is mainly an emotional thing right now, and stress related as well. But what I don't understand is it is the exact opposite.. normally I would be wanting to eat everything I could get my hands on, but instead I just don't want to eat. It's been 5 days now. Don't get me wrong, I am eating, the first 2 days it was just once a day, I have been forcing myself to eat twice a day.. and today I am trying to get back to normal.

I am sure my body is in starvation mode... at first it let me get down to 250.4, but my body is stayed at that weight to the *ounce* this entire week. I know my body is freaking out and I am trying to get back to normal. I have just never had it like this, I have had emotional eating issues, but I've never had them where the result is me not wanting to eat. I'm doing my best to force myself to eat, and start exercising again, and hopefully some more weight will come off.

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WEIGHTING4BABY 4/1/2010 10:29PM

    its so hard. a constant battle. just never completely throw in the towel....

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Today I had to pick a side... the good... or the bad...

Friday, March 12, 2010

Last week, I started off SO WELL. I was exercising, eating right, I was on a roll. Towards the end of the week, I just stopped, for no reason. I started eating fast food again, and 1 "cheat day" turned into 4. Now I am back at work ready to start a new week. It came down to 1 of two options... 1. Order delicious food with the rest of my coworkers, and continue down this path that will only cause me harm. or 2. Push forward, and eat the healthy stuff I have brought with me.

I'm glad to say I chose #2. I did not order food, I am happily eating my soup, and popcorn while they pig out on all the grease. I will be walking on my breaks, and getting back into the swing of things.

I have accepted last week, and I am ready to move on... but I can't help but think that had I followed through, I would have probably broken the 20 pound barrier I haven't been able to break, instead of gaining .4 pounds. But this week, I am in it for the long haul, and I will not let this sabboteurs get to me this week!

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MSKITTY81 3/12/2010 9:39PM

    Keep up the positive attitude. It is much better to move past a slip than to fall into it! emoticon

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Anyone else have trouble eating healthy at work?

Friday, March 12, 2010

It seems that I can do fine, but work always ends up getting to me. I work 12 hour graveyard shifts... I have no problem bringing my food and enough snacks to last throughout the night. I would say it's 50/50 at my work.. 1/2 of my coworkers are overweight, the other half or not. Regardless, they do a "chow run" everyday. I can usually resist maybe 2 out of 3 days, but I always end up giving in. What I am thinking of doing now is leaving my wallet in the car. Where I work it's locked and very secure, so no one will steal my car or wallet... What happens is one or two people go on the "chow run" and go around the room and collect the money and take orders... so by leaving my wallet in the car, I will not be able to place an order. This last week was horrible, I only gave in one day, but then during my days off the past 2-3 days I've been continuing to eat fast food. When I have it once, it just sticks with me and makes me want the next day and the next day. I was doing so good for about 5 days, and then all of a sudden I realize I'm doing what got me fat in the first place.

I just feel like if I don't get a handle on this soon, without even knowing it I will throw in the towel, and I refuse to let this happen.

Anyone else have trouble eating healthy at work, or is it just me? LOL

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DOODLESMAMA1 3/12/2010 7:08AM

    I had this problem at one of my former jobs, and I finally figured out that with me it was a habit thing... Once I managed to NOT do it long enough that my habit was to eat the lunches and snacks that I had brought with me, I didn't have as much trouble resisting. Stay strong and resist!

I have also found that there ARE people who want me to fail! I don't know if it is because they don't like me, or if they want to use me as an excuse not to do healthy things themselves. They want to say that nobody can do it for the long term anyway, so why try? Or they try to tempt me to eat something bad for me, and then they make fun of me if I give in, or get their feelings hurt because I turned down their special 'whatever' that they made "Especially for you, because you have been trying so hard, you deserve a treat". Yes, and that is what got me so fat in the first place! My rewards for "trying so hard" have had to become NONFOOD!

Bad food = emoticon

Good food = emoticon

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TATTY66 3/12/2010 6:32AM

    Luckily I don't have that problem at work but I do have saboteurs elsewhere in my life so I can empathise completely. With them it's chocolate because they know how much I love it. I used to give in and have some but not anymore, now I tell them straight 'I don't want it today or any other day thank you and I really need your support here so please stop offering!'

I'm hoping that at some point it will sink in!

You know you can go without, you've proved it, so just be strong and keep fighting those saboteurs.

Good luck!

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STEPH-KNEE 3/12/2010 5:59AM

    Thank you so much! They go to get food once a day, they also do a starbucks run more often then not, and sometimes at 2 in the morning they go for tacos and stuff. It's crazy. What I hate the most is the girl that usually goes is one of my closest friends, she is not fat by any means, but has probably gained 20 pounds and is feeling bad about it. I know she does not want me to do well... this is how it goes...

My "friend": Do you need food (and she tries to hand me the list to write down what I want)
Me: no thanks
friend: are you sure?
me: i'm sure
friend: do you have food?
me: yes i have food i'm fine...
friend: okay...

I guess we all deal with sabotage in one form or another, thanks for your kind words:)

Comment edited on: 3/12/2010 6:01:06 AM

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MFPRINCESS 3/12/2010 5:54AM

    I too work 12 hour shifts and have to fight to stay in my eating plan. Not only do they all eat poorly but they talk about food non-stop. So far I have been successful in fighting the urge to be in with the in crowd but I do sympathize with you, you are not alone. Fight the battle and win! You can do it.

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Determined to make March *my* month!

Saturday, March 06, 2010

This comes a few days late, as I just got back from a trip to Vegas to see my Grandma. I had a blast, and over 4 days we ate out for 2 meals, as opposed to the normal 4-7 meals out. I know weight takes a little while to show up... so I'm not positive about the damage. As of right now I haven't gained any, but who knows what plans to show it's ugly face in the next couple of days!;) My goals for the rest of this month are all routine based. Once I get into a routine, I do well... but GETTING INTO the routine is always hard for me. I am not going to focus on losing a certain number of pounds, but instead the following little goals.

In March I want to...

*Drink at least 8 glasses of water a day.

*Track my calories on at least 5 days a week (ideally 7, but sometimes I forget)

*Do at least 1 mile per day using my Walk Away The Pounds DVD's.

*Take fish oil tablets daily. I've been told that those are good for you, I'm only putting this on here because it is another thing to help me get into a 'routine' mind set.

*Not eat any fast food the rest of the month. I had some delcious food in Vegas, but now it's time to get down to business. This is going to be the hardest one for me... usually during a work week I can *resist* ordering food 3/4 days. I always end up cracking about once a week. I know once a week isn't a big deal, but for me... I have it once... and then I want it again the next day.. and the next.. and well.. you see where this is going;)

I know that I'm only human, and mistakes are going to be made... but I just want to develop a routine. I really think of I can pull this off during the month of March, it will set the tone for April:)

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SHOZZIE 3/6/2010 8:29AM

    You can do it!!!

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Time are a changin...;)

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Went out to dinner with the family tonight... for appetizers they had buffalo wings.. I ate a celery stick and two of the carrot sticks that were on the side. I ordered a chicken salad... the kicker though? I didn't even eat half my salad before I was full. Took the rest home. This is coming from the girl who could go out to eat, order salad before the meal, eat a burger and fries and half a dessert... Afterwards my uncle went to this bakery to pick up cupcakes for a friend for their birthday. The cupcakes looked amazing, they were big and fancy, they even had a peanut butter cup one that looked to die for! My brother said he would split one with me if I want back to the house with them.. instead I just said nah I'd rather just go home cuz I had some cleaning and stuff to do. I figured I had done the right thing by having salad, why blow it on a cupcake? I know motivation and resisting temptation is easier some days and harder other days... but I at least know that it *can* be done. I haven't felt like I could really do this in a long time... I'm glad to have that feeling back:)

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WEIGHTING4BABY 2/27/2010 5:20PM

    i like it:)

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