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Is going to follow a good friends motto, "Just for today..."

Thursday, October 03, 2013

My super awesome Spark Friend (Tammy/Mamachambs) and leader of my BLC team the Sassy Shamrock Sheriff's emoticon has a motto, "just for today". When we think about all the weight we have to lose, or how we have to keep this up as a lifestyle (aka FOREVER) it can be so overwhelming and make it hard for us to get the job done on a daily basis.

But what she has taught me is that I have to do it "just for today". That's all I have to think about. I don't have to worry about tomorrow or next week, I just have to worry about today. Then when tomorrow comes, I will do it again, just for today. This week I am going to get back to basics, get my eating back under control, and remember that no matter how hard it is, it's okay, because it's "just for today!" Thank you so much Tammy for this motto that I am going to be focusing on this week! emoticon emoticon

  
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GRAMPIAN 11/28/2013 6:10AM

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LSPIZZA 10/9/2013 1:14PM

    Whenever i thin this way i do the best. One day at a time. Life sometimes is so overwhelming that it needs to be one hour at a time - my boss. a wonderful soul, reminds me of that sometimes - but one day at a time is all you need to deal with. I get so overwhelemed sometimes - and then I fall bac to this mantra - today, just for today, one day at a time. emoticon emoticon

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DREAMSEEKER9 10/7/2013 9:13PM

    My therapist keeps telling me the same thing. Take it one day at a time. Live in the present. I'm hoping it sinks in soon! emoticon

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    nice

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    emoticon emoticon Great words of wisdom! emoticon

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    Love you girl!! And not just for today! emoticon

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NORMAINIRELAND 10/5/2013 6:30PM

    Great motto! I must remember that!!

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MAJORLIE 10/5/2013 5:56PM

    It is the very same thing that I am trying to teach myself. As long as I don't give up I just take one day at a time. Sure can't do better then that. Keep up the good work Steph-knee emoticon

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    Great blog! emoticon

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SUZIPAM1 10/5/2013 1:46PM

    so true - in fact just for the hour sometimes

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MRSRIGS1 10/5/2013 1:35PM

    Great advice....one day at a time.

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FIRECOM 10/5/2013 11:29AM

    I really like this philosophy. If it works, DO IT.

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KKLENNERT809 10/5/2013 11:17AM

    That is the winning formula for success!! Be good to yourself

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    Love it just what I needed to hear..... emoticon

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  definitely worth a shot!

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    Very true

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    Thanks for sharing!

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  Good blog

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JAMER123 10/4/2013 10:51PM

    That has been my motto for a long time! Just for today!!
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TIRED49 10/4/2013 9:25PM

    That is some advice I can use. Sometimes I dwell too much on yesterday's failures. Hanks for sharing

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DIANNEMT 10/4/2013 7:06PM

    Very smart lady!! Cause one day is all we can really control!

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JSEATTLE 10/4/2013 6:58PM

  I love this concept of Just For Today. Yay!

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CHARTHESTAR 10/4/2013 5:56PM

    great way to look at
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  Great advice, thanks!

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MARYJEANSL 10/4/2013 4:03PM

  Definitely a good motto!

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NONNAOF2 10/4/2013 3:43PM

  One step at a time and one day at a time, how right you are! :-)

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September: A Brutal Reality Check

Tuesday, October 01, 2013

If I chose to look at JUST weight for the month of September it is a total fail!

Here are my weigh in's emoticon :
8/28: 195
9/4: 191.8
9/11: 190.6
9/18: 194.2
9/25: 192.4

As you can see it was quite the roller coaster. I was on track to bust into the 180's when the Binge Monster started to attack and I couldn't win. My weigh in for tomorrow looks to be around the same as last week. I started off the week strong and fizzled out towards the end. So I can mark September off as a total fail, or I can try to find some of the good moments.

emoticon #1: I reached out for help regarding the Binge Monster on Spark, and stayed accountable to all of my Spark Friends. In years past, I would have hid the fact that I needed help, and I would have run away from Spark and any form of accountability.

emoticon #2: Despite an arthritis flare up, I continued with my walking. In the past that would have been a huge excuse to take up residence on the couch. I believe my flare up is less painful because I am keeping it moving.

emoticon #3: I learned that life doesn't always go according to plan. I was on point doing my exercise plan and was well on my way to 2000 fitness minutes. The flare up threw me for a loop and I am learning that you have to have a back up plan. I am also learning that when something happens where you can't be as active as you like, it is that much more important to focus on your food. Had I put more energy into adjusting my food and fighting the Binge Monster, I would probably be in the 180's by now. But I am learning.

emoticon #4: I am working on a new plan for my way of eating. I am going to work on getting in more whole foods and stop relying so much on processed foods. I am also going to work on getting rid of the "refined carbs" again. I did it years ago and I felt a lot better physically, but I slowly got away from it with some of the convenience foods I eat. Getting back to that should be a huge help and I know my body will love me for getting in more freggies.

emoticon #5: I had some huge NSV's, from the doctor's appointment, to Universal! I had outstanding blood work, I am healthy and I am fitting into smaller clothes! Not too shabby!

So instead of looking at September as a total fail, I am going to look at it as a learning experience. I learned so much from myself and fellow Sparkers, and I am going to hang on to that knowledge going into October. Here is to making October an amazing month! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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BOODIGGETY 10/6/2013 8:28AM

    I think you are my long lost twin Steph! I had such amazing momentum and then the end of September fizzled out like a wet firework. With one stressful week the Binge monster came to visit. In one and a half weeks I gained 4 lbs back. All of a sudden I just stopped caring about myself. My ah-ha moment was when you and other virtual Spark friends wrote to encourage me. I realized that there are people out there who will care about me even when I don't care about myself. It literally sparked the will to shove the Binge monster out of my house and tell him to hit the curb. This week's goal.....back to the basics of smaller portions, thoughtful eating, and tracking my food. Accountability is so crucial to real change.Have fun on your trip! Eat wisely while you're gone and be sure to post pics when you get back! And if you are ever passing through Atlanta we need to hang out! emoticon

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KIM22211 10/5/2013 6:11AM

    October IS an amazing month! It is my total fav! I think exercise and everything else will be so much easier! New foods and recipes to try out too!

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AHTRAP 10/5/2013 2:13AM

    even the weight thing, you had one (count 'em ONE) bad week. That plus the rest of the middling wins, looks like another successful month for you, overall.

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DEBSZOO74 10/4/2013 2:06AM

    You definitely have a lot to be proud of! I know when you look back at the month of October, it's going to be another great one! emoticon

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HEATHERFREE 10/3/2013 12:19PM

    You rule, your doing great, this is how you have gotten as far as you have......from learning from what is not working and realizing that you are tricking yourself!

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FLMOMX2 10/3/2013 8:43AM

    emoticon Amazing attitude. Focusing on the positives and not the negatives will be the way to progress.

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ZELLAZM 10/3/2013 7:21AM

    I, for one, remember your one chin blog. I know that was early in the month but I've been following your blog since then - so that's another positive, right? emoticon

But seriously, the NSVs were great and the learning experiences that you're taking into October valuable!
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SKINNYINMYHEAD 10/2/2013 10:55PM

    Yeah!!! You know I love a good celebration.. and there is TONS to celebrate! You are in such a good mental state... a great foundation!

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CERTHIA 10/2/2013 4:41PM

    Not a fail at all in my book! And a huge cheer for freggies! I am in the same process, weeding out some of the white stuff to make room for more greens. After all, this really is the season for some truly yum treats!
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SLIMMINGSHAY 10/2/2013 3:54PM

    agreeing with Trixietexas! Love the attitude and how you have made september an accomplishment anyways! WOO HOO!

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TRIXIETEXAS 10/2/2013 3:33PM

    Your positive attitude and your great self-analysis are big successes. October will be AWESOME!

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SIMONEKP 10/2/2013 3:22PM

    here's to rocking out October!

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ROZZIEOZZIE 10/2/2013 2:16PM

    Everyone's weight fluctuates, so I wouldn't even worry about that one! You stayed strong, hung in there and didn't give up - that's what counts! I have arthritis too, but in my hip, which is why I'm out there walking my dog at least 3 times a day, every day. If I don't walk in the morning my lower back just aches all day long. I think if you keep moving it helps the joints lubricate themselves, and once the weight comes off, that also helps.
So you had a good month, just didn't lose as much as you had hoped. Hang in there, you will be in the 180's before you know it!
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FITNHEALTHYKAL 10/2/2013 6:26AM

    September was absolutely NOT a fail on many levels. Losses, lessons learned, GREAT NSV's. Sounds like a success to ME! emoticon

Keep pushing into what you have pronounced is going to be an emoticon month and keep on sparking. You've got this! emoticon

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BEANIES_MOM 10/2/2013 6:16AM

    September definitely not a fail for you! You are doing awesome and your attitude is inspiring. emoticon

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BETHIEBOOPS 10/2/2013 5:52AM

    You rocked September! Whatcha talking about?! You faced some serious setbacks, and you chose to KEEP GOING which is what it's all about. October is going to be excellent. Can't wait to hear your update on how awesome your halloween celebration is at 180 :)

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MADMIRANDA 10/2/2013 4:30AM

    You had a very good month. You learnt a lot, you kept going and didn't give in. In your last blog you wrote about the wonderful time you had at the monster event, well September was the month you started to really emerge from your crystals. October will be even better. emoticon

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CHRISGORGME 10/2/2013 1:39AM

    Your blog was a wake up call for me.....thank you so much! I need to start October with positive thinking!! Keep up the good work!
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TOKIEMOON 10/2/2013 12:58AM

    Your healthy successes outweigh the lb. fluctuations ( which you still made out ahead of anyways). Hooray! emoticon emoticon

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COCK-ROBIN 10/2/2013 12:25AM

    Wonderful!

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PSIMSON 10/1/2013 11:49PM

    Actually, it sounds like September was far from a fail! You lost a couple of pounds, you are a little smaller, you got a clean bill of health from the doctor and you kept coming back to it, just like the Energizer Bunny. And you learned a lot from the experience. It's one month of out a lifetime. Talk to yourself just as you would to your best friend. Be proud of what you did accomplish, learn from the rest and move on the stage. You are awesome for sharing your journey with your Spark friends. emoticon

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JAYDEE1211 10/1/2013 10:43PM

    You are doing so well. Keep at it! Congratulations.

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ROMANTILLY 10/1/2013 9:52PM

    We all have and need those learning experiences in our lives. It is what allows us to learn to be more successful in the future.

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VMMMAY 10/1/2013 9:51PM

    Well, you lived through a month of ups & downs and you learned from each bit of it.

Wisdom, gained, pounds, on the way out!

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BLUEANGELLK 10/1/2013 9:42PM

    Learning new things is never a bad thing. Here's to a great October!

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TIRED49 10/1/2013 9:35PM

    Thanks for sharing, I am experiencing something similar now and this spurned me on! emoticon

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ADF1981 10/1/2013 9:27PM

    You did end the month lower than the beginning so that is good! I think you will feel better by trying to eat more whole foods, less refined carbs, and less processed foods. It really helps me! Plus, processed food almost seems to have more calories and usually tiny servings and you can fill up on some a really healthy meal you made yourself. I try to cook large amounts of food and divide it into servings. Lots of small containers of shredded chicken, beans, etc. If I have too much I will freeze the extra for when I am out of something else. This really helps to keep from feeling like I am always cooking!

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MOLLIEJEAN2 10/1/2013 9:22PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon , it is good to see that you are starting a new month with a positive attitude.

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JACOBSBELOVED 10/1/2013 9:06PM

    There were quite a few set-backs this past month. I think you did a mighty fine job considering all that you were dealing with. I feel like a lot of us would have gotten ourselves into quite a bit of trouble but you didn't give up. I'm proud of you!

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WEEPINGANGEL74 10/1/2013 9:01PM

    Sounds like a pretty good month to me and the scale did show an overall loss of 2.6 pounds!

You are an inspiration and I think you are doing fantastic!

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Biggest NSV Ever At Hollywood Horror Nights!

Saturday, September 28, 2013

For starters I love love love Halloween and horror movies... always have. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I had always talked about going to one of those Hollywood Horror Night events at Universal Studios, and I did actually go last year for the first time ever! I was around 220ish, and I got through everything alright, a little tired and very sore when I got home, but I did it!

This year though I was an additional 30 pounds down from last year (80 total), and I had a blast. According to my fitbit we walked just over 6 miles and I feel great. Not only that but I was amazed at how fast I could actually walk. I even left my uncle in the dust a couple of times and had to slow down. I am home now, and other than my knee that has been bothering me a little for a week (arthritis flare up), I feel great! I might be sore tomorrow, time will tell. emoticon

On top of that, I said a phrase like 10 times that night that I would NEVER say last year. "Take my picture in front of ____". Any time I saw a photo opportunity I took it. My brother didn't even get the strict orders to take the pictures "from the chest up" (you ladies know what I'm talking about! emoticon). I didn't care, I am me, and I worked hard to get where I am. And if my stomachs happen to take up half of the picture then so be it! emoticon

It was just the ultimate NSV and this is what it is about! I am the girl that could not walk the dog around the block 1 mile, I couldn't do it. I would walk up 7 stairs to my bedroom and be SO winded that I'd have to stop and rest. I am the girl that never wanted you to take my picture ever, and on the off chance I let you I only cringed at the results and would be down about it for days thinking "do I really look like that?" But those days are gone. I may not be done on this journey and I may still have a good chunk of weight to lose, but I am proud of what I have accomplished! I have come a long way and the ultimate reward is being able to live life, however I want, with NOTHING to hold me back. Gone are the days of "I really would like to go, but there is too much walking involved". I never ONCE stopped to look around to see if anyone was giving me looks (for being overweight) or talking crap about me. I used to hear people laugh around me and automatically wonder if it was a joke about my weight. I know that sounds super paranoid and it probably was, but when you actually overhear people commenting on your weight, it makes you paranoid! I just couldn't have been more happy to feel like a regular, plain ol, normal person that BLENDED in with everyone else. I wish I could bottle up this feeling and use it up when I'm not feeling so hot, because it's awesome! emoticon

If you are having a hard time or have a long way to go and have trouble staying motivated, PLEASE remember it is SO worth it. These are our lives, we only get one and we deserve to get out and live them however we chose! emoticon

Without further ado, here are some of the pictures taken tonight... you may not care but just the fact that I have pictures to show are a huge NSV! emoticon


^My uncle said "you guys don't smile!" So this is the result...





^ So fluffy!


^Biggest disappointment of the night, Chucky posed for me but that monster cut him off LOL.

  
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LORIVIOLA 3/16/2014 1:04PM

    This is a great blog!
Thanks for sharing.

It's so fluffy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>Glad you had a great time.

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MCJULIEO 10/21/2013 11:50AM

    Your excitement is contagious, and your words are encouraging... Thanks so much!

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    Wonderful blog

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AMBER461 10/11/2013 8:28PM

  Congrats, thanks for sharing, its seems as though you were having a blast.

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    emoticon Thanks for sharing your joy. It is inspiring!

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SBARGANZ 10/5/2013 8:57AM

    Congrats and hooray for NSV!

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NANCYSINATRA 10/4/2013 9:55AM

    Thank you so much for sharing. You totally motivated me again. :)
I LOVE halloween too (as you can tell from my spark pictures). Actually got married as Frankenstein and bride of.
Last year we went to Universal too, and I was around 220 at the time. NOW I'm up to 270. Thank you for sharing your story and helping me remember why this is so important.
I did the IFly there last year (wha a blast) and now I couldn't because of weight. I WILL change that. :)

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IMSOOZEEQ 10/4/2013 5:59AM

    I absolutely love the pics! I agree that you need to smile more in them! You have such a great smile! You are just amazing my friend and I love that you are getting out and having fun. Okay the scary stuff...that ain't my scene but it was probably lots of fun.

Keep going my friend! There is so much more out there for you to explore and enjoy!

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OFFICECHIK 10/3/2013 11:50AM

    Awesome!!!! You have much to be proud of. Save this blog to look back on when you're motivation is down. It will help you to remember how far you have come and what you have accomplished. It will bring to mind this wonderful high you were feeling and will help you push forward. You are beautiful and have no reason to cringe at your pictures.
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1DRWOMAN 10/3/2013 6:10AM

    Congratulations! What a cool night! Wish I could go too! Fun fun fun!

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MRSRIGS1 10/2/2013 2:04PM

    You look GREAT!!!! You go girl!

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BETHIEBOOPS 10/2/2013 5:50AM

    You are incredible! You look just fantastic, but you don't need me to tell you that. Which is just the biggest victory ever! I can't believe the transformation you've made not just with your body, but with your emotional wellbeing! I am so proud to have been able to watch you throughout this journey! There is SO much pride in my heart for you girl!!

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BIGFAMILY9 10/2/2013 1:45AM

    Super cool!! emoticon

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KIM22211 10/1/2013 8:10PM

    lol! Good for you it feels great to know exactly a year ago you were heavier!

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FIRECOM 10/1/2013 11:13AM

    Your beautiful smile tells it all. Congrats.

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GEORGE815 10/1/2013 7:40AM

    Great post with Chucky!

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G33K10V3 10/1/2013 6:06AM

    I love this post :D It sounds like you had a blast and were loving it and you look great! emoticon I can relate to so much of what you say about the paranoia and hearing laughter and automatically assuming it is about you :( I feel that way almost every time I go out in public. I'm so looking forward to being a "normal" person. emoticon

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K1TT3N 10/1/2013 12:29AM

    awesome

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PHYLISSCR 9/30/2013 10:09PM

    Thanks for sharing your awesome pictures, looks like fun.

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NEWKATHYNOW 9/30/2013 9:33PM

    Fantastic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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MLJSPARK 9/30/2013 8:27PM

    Love your pictures, you look emoticon You are completely right that all the hard work is worth it! You look so beautiful and happy emoticon

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PFARRAR65 9/30/2013 7:59PM

    Congratulations on the weight loss. emoticon Would love to go to Universal Horror Nights. But, nobody to go with me. emoticon

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AJB121299 9/30/2013 7:43PM

    nice

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PT.JEFFGIRL 9/30/2013 7:26PM

    You look so happy and at ease within yourself. It sure shows. emoticon

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CANDIGIRL4K 9/30/2013 7:13PM

    Loved the pics and lol'd at the chucky pic....so great! This was an awesome post and good for you! Congratulations on all the hard work and I am so glad that it has paid off for you...imagine where you'll be next year!

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MSROZZIE 9/30/2013 7:00PM

    Awesome blog and pictures. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SHKIRK 9/30/2013 6:26PM

  You Go Girl !! emoticon

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MOTIVATIONFOUND 9/30/2013 4:21PM

    Yay - congratulations!! I'm so glad you went, are living life and that you see this as the awesome NSV that it truly is! Great job!!

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OTTAWABOUND 9/30/2013 4:07PM

    Those are great victories. On the day I can surf (my dream goal), I'll be posting pictures galore! Thanks for the inspiration.

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UWPALUM 9/30/2013 3:44PM

    Congrats! Looks like it was a great time!

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SUZIPAM1 9/30/2013 2:12PM

    what a wonderful time you had

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OURLADYOFGRACE 9/30/2013 1:35PM

    I love Halloween, great post

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SUGEO1 9/30/2013 10:58AM

    I really enjoyed your blog. You've come such a long way! Very inspiring.

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MAJORLIE 9/30/2013 10:52AM

    Keep on keeping on! Your doing great!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WATERDIAMONDS 9/30/2013 9:54AM

    You look wonderful and you look happy and I am so glad. Thank you for the inspiration and for sharing your joy.

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    Congrats on your accomplishment! And..the smile suits you! emoticon

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Let The Games Begin! (BLC 23)

Wednesday, September 25, 2013


Super excited that BLC 23 kicks off today! This is my 4th consecutive round with the Sassy Shamrock Sheriff's! No disrespect to the other teams because they are ALL FABULOUS, but I couldn't imagine not being on this team with my Sassy Supportive Sisters! emoticon They always know how to motivate me and just when to give me that kick in the tush that I sometimes require. emoticon

Part of BLC is doing the dreaded "before pictures"... I have never taken pictures showing this much skin... and 80 pounds ago I wouldn't even take a photo like this for MYSELF, let alone post it. So that took a lot of courage... and I had to take a moment where I had to remember how far I've come to be able to post this. Just be lucky I spared you the rest of my stomach (if you saw that part, you'd understand exactly why I will be getting a tummy tuck down the line). emoticon And I didn't flap the flying squirrels either. emoticon

Starting weight for the round 192.4

And a flexibility pic... nothing ever flattering about that angle either lol.



My goals for the round:
emoticon: Lose 17.4 pounds which would get me to 175.
emoticon: Consistently get at least 300 minutes per week.
emoticon: Get as many participation points as possible to move up in the ranks.
emoticon: To not be afraid to ask for support or a kick in the butt from my fellow Sheriff's.
emoticon: To provide that same support and kick in the butt to my girls.

I know weight loss is the name of the game, but success for me isn't necessarily the number on the scale... it is making sure that I am putting my all into this for myself and my team. To be there for my team and for us all to reach (or at least come close) to our goals.

On a separate note, thanks for all the love and support this last week. I have taken every suggestion into consideration and I finally was able to turn my eating around! I am back on track and more important I'm feeling happy and confident again, and that is the best feeling in the world! emoticon

Just for giggles a reminder of how far I've come:


Edit: Results of Fit Test 9/29/13
Note: In the middle of arthritis flare up. Could not complete the wall sit, so took the time from my last fit test.

Wallsit: 110 seconds
(Wall) Push ups (60 seconds): 28
Squats (60 seconds): 38
Plank: 30 seconds
Crunches: 45
1 mile walk: 19:20

  
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FLMOMX2 10/3/2013 8:45AM

    Hoping you win, but like TEREMC--what is BLC?

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TEREMC 9/27/2013 7:27PM

    what is BLC? and if it is a contest spark where do I sign up?


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GEORGE815 9/27/2013 6:43PM

    Keep p the good work!

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DETERMINEDDE 9/27/2013 7:48AM

    You are amazing! emoticon

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HEATHERFREE 9/27/2013 12:20AM

    DUDE love that you posted the super duper before pics. AND holy crap that last pic REALLY shows what you've lost compared to the new pics!!!!! I totally pictured the tummy tuck YAY! Also, I think we should make a flying squirrels group video once we get to our goals weights lol

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SIMONEKP 9/26/2013 8:18PM

    I'm doing BLC this round too!

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MOTIVATIONFOUND 9/26/2013 6:09PM

    You're doing awesome! I know posting those pics is hard. Kudos to you for displaying awesome courage, once again.

Good luck! I know you're going to rock it!

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TOKIEMOON 9/26/2013 5:48PM

    You have remarkable courage and determination. I never took any before pics and still don't want any because I have been gaining weight since my lumbar laminectomy the end of May. The neurosurgeon was adamant that I not do ANYTHING for 3 months, Increased eating and decreased exercising (or simply doing any house chores) equaled 18 pound weight gain in the past 4 months! Kudos to you for sharing your journey. emoticon

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HEYRED221 9/26/2013 2:41PM

    emoticon Wow, you look fantastic, have done a great job. I don't doubt that you will reach your goals for this challenge!

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BARBARAROSE54 9/26/2013 10:30AM

    good luck with your challenge. emoticon

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BETHIEBOOPS 9/26/2013 6:20AM

    WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW! ---- that's all I can say! You are just SO incredible! Look at YOU! You're a hottie! And i'm so excited to see what comes from this BLC! I was so disappointed to drop out last round- hopefully I can get my act together and try for the next one :) Hooray for getting skinny!

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BEANIES_MOM 9/26/2013 6:03AM

    You have made amazing progress!!! I am sure you are going to do great with this round of BLC. emoticon emoticon

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KIM22211 9/26/2013 5:56AM

    bring it on! I am on the amazing amethysts and this is my first challenge ever so let he game begin!

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MADMIRANDA 9/26/2013 5:20AM

    What a change, so much progress. emoticon Enjoy your challenge

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MARMAERT 9/26/2013 12:53AM

    wow! you look so much better! you will rock the BLC23!

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WEEPINGANGEL74 9/25/2013 11:49PM

    You are doing FANTASTIC!!!! I am so proud of how far you have come and your GREAT attitude towards your health and weight loss in general. You are going to rock this challenge and take names later!!

On the team or not, we have your back!!

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IRRITATEDPILLOW 9/25/2013 10:16PM

    Amazing progress! Best of luck in your challenge :)

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JACOBSBELOVED 9/25/2013 10:07PM

    Wow! I remember when the first "before" picture was posted and it's amazing to see the difference between then and now!

Good luck on your BLC!

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COCK-ROBIN 9/25/2013 9:30PM

    Wonderful!

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 9/25/2013 9:15PM

    That is freaking awesome!!! What an amazing transformation.. amazing.. You so rock girl.. seriously.. I am soooo glad we're Sassy Sheriff Sisters!

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    You are doing emoticon emoticon

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SLIMMINGSHAY 9/25/2013 8:24PM

    Great job on your accomplishment so far! Keep pushing hard through it all and you will see dreams become reality! Good luck!

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    Good Luck!!
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I Need To Fight The Fat Instead Of Fighting Myself...

Sunday, September 22, 2013


I know there is not one person here on Spark who doesn't already know that this losing weight stuff is hard. emoticon There are times of emoticon's and emoticon's where things are easy and breezy and nothing can get in your way. Then there are the times where nothing goes right, you eat everything, and you are your own worst enemy. emoticon

I have been like a rubber ball bouncing all over the place lately! One day I'm super excited about my doctor's appointment, the next day I'm asking for advice on how to hold my ground against the Binge Monster. I couldn't be on two more opposite ends of the spectrum from day to day if I tried. emoticon Today what I realized is the only person standing in the way of me getting what I want (getting to my goal weight) is ME. I am sure some of you can relate to this... there is NO worse feeling than knowing that you are self sabotaging and making things harder on yourself.



In the past my Self Saboteur would come in after I would lose about 40 pounds, and beat me down emotionally until I said "You are right, I CAN'T do this, I will ALWAYS be fat" and I would go back to my old ways and gain all the weight back. This happened 3 times in life. This time I got all the way to the 50 pounds lost mark before she tried to beat me to a pulp. But this time I knew her game, I knew how she worked and I fought her tooth and nail until I won. She is so sneaky that she left me alone for a while... but she's back, and she's not pleased! emoticon

Here I sit, what should be 80 pounds lost but is probably 78 because I've gained 2ish pounds recently emoticon, and she is back with a vengeance. I feel like I am fighting myself on a daily basis the last 9 or so days;. She has teamed up with the Binge Monster and they are the dynamic duo! I am eating too much, too many calories, my tummy is not happy with me and yet I have done it probably 5 of the last 9 days. Why now? Why 18 months into my journey is she fighting me again? I really believe she is scared, she is scared of what happens when I get to my goal weight. People around me are already starting to change and I have even lost friends that can't handle the "new, smaller, awesome-er me". What other changes are in store? It is scary, change is scary, but it is something that I want so badly and I can't give up on it.



This time has to be different, I can not, and will not gain back those 80 pounds. In fact I will do just the opposite and head towards 100 pounds lost instead. That will show my Self Saboteur who is boss! To do this I need to incorporate the tips from my fellow Spark Friends on how to deal with the Binge Monster, and I have to truly TRY to fight him. Telling him no and immediately giving in is not a true fight! So the gloves are on (or is it the gloves are off? I'm not a scrapper LOL) emoticon and I mean business. Self Saboteur is going down as well! You aren't going to bully me back into my old habits so I can gain the weight back and you can have the last laugh. It's not happening. I am going to work on forgiving myself for the mistakes I have made, and I am going to learn from them and even though I'm not perfect and will have many bumps in the road, I will continue to dust myself off and emoticon. I am going to take the energy that I have been putting into fighting myself, and start fighting the fat instead! emoticon I'm going to take it one day and more importantly one moment at a time, and I refuse to give up. So if Self Saboteur and the Binge Monster happen to be eavesdropping, IT'S ON SUCKERS! emoticon emoticon

  
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LORIVIOLA 3/13/2014 11:15AM

    thanks for sharing!

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TERRIJ7 2/20/2014 10:41AM

    Great self-analysis! Recognizing the patterns arms you for the fight!

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WOOFERCOALBOY 2/12/2014 8:01PM

    Good attitude.

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GRAMPIAN 11/15/2013 10:57AM

  Good attitude. emoticon

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NASFKAB 11/8/2013 4:32AM

  awesome inspirational blog so true thank you

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AOIFEH1 11/6/2013 2:49PM

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ALIDOSHA 10/21/2013 5:51PM

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MISSLISA1973 10/15/2013 7:33AM

    I love that final graphic. emoticon

Something that helped me at one point was a phrase I learned somewhere on SP, and it goes something like this: "Just don't binge today. (Then do it again tomorrow.)" In other words, one step at a time. Hold out today for just today. Then tomorrow, you can tell yourself, "Hold out just for today."

You are doing great! Thanks for posting this honest blog.

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MCJULIEO 10/14/2013 1:38PM

    AMEN!

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LIULIANASKYE 10/3/2013 10:09AM

    WOW great blog you about made me cry. Why do we always fight ourselves so much. I am fighting myself all the time. I am infertile doc say's i went through menopause early, but when i was a teenager if i got below 150 my period came back. So that is my goal but my selfsabotager says what if you go through all that work and you still cant get pregnant. and now that i wasted the last 15 childbearing years to fat i wonder what happens if it does work. how will i feel knowing i didn't have to go through this pain of infertility for the last 15 years when all i just had to lose a little bit more weight 6 years ago i was at 157 less than 10 pounds and maybe it would have worked.
Well i have decided that even if it doesn't work i will we be able to keep up with my adopted daughter easier at 140 than at 190 or 220. I only have a couple more year that I could have a healthy pregnancy so I can not give up. Last chance to feel my baby kick, to go to ultrasound and find the baby in my belly not another persons belly.
never give up never surrender

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WHITEANGEL4 10/1/2013 11:34PM

    Grat blog....you are hal way there as you have identified yur biggest enemy

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JAIMESIZED 9/30/2013 9:01AM

    You go girl!! I can definitely relate to you... that Binge Monster comes to bother me all the time. And even though I've fallen for the past 2 weeks, I refuse to give up! Your blog inspires me! :)

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THESHELBSTER 9/29/2013 2:25AM

    Great blog. You are just a popular blog writing queen. :) Proud of you.

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FOXXSMITH1964 9/27/2013 10:09AM

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KIM22211 9/27/2013 3:38AM

    you have won half the battle just recognizing the challenge!

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HEATHERFREE 9/27/2013 12:15AM

    Nice Great blog! The binge monster and that evil voice.........will always pop up and try and bring you down...as soon as we realize we will see them again at some point down the road, then we can be prepared to tell em to take a hike!

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GENRE009 9/26/2013 1:30AM

    There is so much involved with staying on track! It is hard. And my emotions, or boredom seems to get in my way. But the biggest binge is usually about fear, and loosing control.
Sometimes I feel like I must be an addict, cause why aren't most people more concerned about their health. That's the bottom line, it's just that every friend thinks you are really thinking about looking skinny! And if they have bad habits, they act like they can't enjoy themselves around you unless you are sharing their bad habits! I thought having friends was about sharing time together, not pulling someone down .

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KIMMIG133 9/25/2013 7:54PM

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Great blog!!!!

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LADYSHERRY 9/25/2013 5:39PM

    Thanks for sharing. You go girl. Never give up

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SJKENT1 9/25/2013 10:52AM

    emoticon keep up your determination!

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JRRING 9/25/2013 10:26AM

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KML410 9/25/2013 8:39AM

    Wow great blog. It hit on so many points that worry me too. One thing you spoke about was the change and how it effect people around you, how you have lost friends that cannot handle the new smaller you. Change is scary and when we're afraid we tend to go back to a place where you feel comfortable. Unfortunatly in the weight loss journey we can't go back we must forge ahead face the changes that are going to happen. I know for me thats going to be hard but like you I will not give up I am going to face my fears and from this blog I know you will too! Good luck and thanks for posting. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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AAHMED61 9/25/2013 4:01AM

    get busy girl. My binge monster come in when I am free and have no responsibility. Make some plane to get busy and involved in any chore or task. Invite friend or get any sort of assignment or anything that suits u and u'll be better able to get over HER emoticon

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WEEPINGANGEL74 9/25/2013 1:16AM

    If you figure out how to get rid of that self sabateur please share because mine refuses to go away and has been bullying me for way too long!! We are definitely our own worst enemies in this fight and I am ready to KO the biotch inside me who won't let me succeed!!



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AJB121299 9/25/2013 12:13AM

    nice

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TEENY_BIKINI 9/24/2013 11:49PM

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WRITINGDIVA1 9/24/2013 11:07PM

    Thanks for the reminder! Fighting fat vs fighting myself.

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RENATA144 9/24/2013 9:59PM

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MJOP63 9/24/2013 7:08PM

  Self-saboteur has also been my own worst enemy for many years & although I am just starting my journey, it helps to know I am not alone with my struggles to stay on a healthier way of eating and also getting myself in an exercise routine. I really like this site very much and believe will help me reach my goal. mm

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SMARTPOET06 9/24/2013 6:42PM

    Thanks for a great blog! It really speaks the truth, as so many of us have been there! I was just contemplating having a big bowl of cereal for supper because I don't feel like cooking, instead of what I had planned that was super healthy. But now, because of your blog, I'm heading into my kitchen and fix my healthy supper that I planned! The binge monster is not gonna get me, and don't let it get you either! You are worth the struggle!
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MSROZZIE 9/24/2013 6:37PM

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PACKERMANN 9/24/2013 6:06PM

    what one thing can you do today that will make it better than yesterday?
visualize success. :)
hugs,
Pat


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JRRING 9/24/2013 5:42PM

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HOTTIE41465 9/24/2013 4:16PM

    Great blog. emoticon

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SLIMMINGSHAY 9/24/2013 2:57PM

    This is one super emoticon written blog! I love it and it speaks truths that so many of us face day in and day out! Kick the binge monster and SS in the teeth and tell em to take a bit of unwanted 'fat' with them! You can do it! Keep at it!

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MRSRIGS1 9/24/2013 2:42PM

    I think you have the right attitude! emoticon

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TRIXIETEXAS 9/24/2013 2:40PM

    You could have been writing about me -- losing those 40 pounds and putting them right back on. I've never stuck to a health plan this long or lost this much weight, and I worry frequently that the switch could just turn back off and I'll start gaining.

But here's the thing...you KNOW that Saboteur is a BIG FAT LIAR! You don't have to listen to her.

You can do this. You have come so far. It's a new day, and a new you. Tell SS to pack it up!

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APICHUZ 9/24/2013 2:19PM

  When you get down, remind yourself of how much you have lost and have accomplished. Some people stick to that one emotion for months....not days and don't get anywhere. But you....you are a fighter and I believe in you. emoticon

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NGCHILD 9/24/2013 1:57PM

    Nicely said! I love your attitude. We are our own worst enemy. You will get thru this and be a better person for it. Just keep pushing thru.

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PGHP31CK 9/24/2013 1:19PM

    Well put!! Thank you for your words! The only thing that stands between me and my goal is ME.

Keep slugging it out! You're stronger than you think, and YOU CAN DO THIS!!! And we're right behind you, with the industrial sized, non-aerosol can of Binge Monster repellent!!!

Sending you a emoticon and emoticon day.



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LOVINSHERRY78 9/24/2013 1:07PM

    same here...this is the first time in my life i've made it past a ceritan weight loss point. the sad part is...as long as we want to stay and keep getting healthy...we will always have to fight to keep our head above water. hang in there b/c u know have it in u to win!!!

the great part about the fight is that you keep getting stronger and your opponents keep getting weaker!!

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GRACILU 9/24/2013 12:37PM

    Thanks for your words of truth and inspiration. Now I more motivated than ever. Too bad I have to work today. LOL!

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FIRECOM 9/24/2013 11:36AM

    Words to live by, Thanks for a great blog.

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GOALWTIN7 9/24/2013 11:31AM

  That saying which I never heard before, Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about is so so powerful! I am typing it out and putting it in on a vision board. I have never made a vision board but that saying has strike such a cord in me I'm now going to make one. Thanks so much!

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