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Biggest NSV Ever At Hollywood Horror Nights!

Saturday, September 28, 2013

For starters I love love love Halloween and horror movies... always have. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I had always talked about going to one of those Hollywood Horror Night events at Universal Studios, and I did actually go last year for the first time ever! I was around 220ish, and I got through everything alright, a little tired and very sore when I got home, but I did it!

This year though I was an additional 30 pounds down from last year (80 total), and I had a blast. According to my fitbit we walked just over 6 miles and I feel great. Not only that but I was amazed at how fast I could actually walk. I even left my uncle in the dust a couple of times and had to slow down. I am home now, and other than my knee that has been bothering me a little for a week (arthritis flare up), I feel great! I might be sore tomorrow, time will tell. emoticon

On top of that, I said a phrase like 10 times that night that I would NEVER say last year. "Take my picture in front of ____". Any time I saw a photo opportunity I took it. My brother didn't even get the strict orders to take the pictures "from the chest up" (you ladies know what I'm talking about! emoticon). I didn't care, I am me, and I worked hard to get where I am. And if my stomachs happen to take up half of the picture then so be it! emoticon

It was just the ultimate NSV and this is what it is about! I am the girl that could not walk the dog around the block 1 mile, I couldn't do it. I would walk up 7 stairs to my bedroom and be SO winded that I'd have to stop and rest. I am the girl that never wanted you to take my picture ever, and on the off chance I let you I only cringed at the results and would be down about it for days thinking "do I really look like that?" But those days are gone. I may not be done on this journey and I may still have a good chunk of weight to lose, but I am proud of what I have accomplished! I have come a long way and the ultimate reward is being able to live life, however I want, with NOTHING to hold me back. Gone are the days of "I really would like to go, but there is too much walking involved". I never ONCE stopped to look around to see if anyone was giving me looks (for being overweight) or talking crap about me. I used to hear people laugh around me and automatically wonder if it was a joke about my weight. I know that sounds super paranoid and it probably was, but when you actually overhear people commenting on your weight, it makes you paranoid! I just couldn't have been more happy to feel like a regular, plain ol, normal person that BLENDED in with everyone else. I wish I could bottle up this feeling and use it up when I'm not feeling so hot, because it's awesome! emoticon

If you are having a hard time or have a long way to go and have trouble staying motivated, PLEASE remember it is SO worth it. These are our lives, we only get one and we deserve to get out and live them however we chose! emoticon

Without further ado, here are some of the pictures taken tonight... you may not care but just the fact that I have pictures to show are a huge NSV! emoticon


^My uncle said "you guys don't smile!" So this is the result...





^ So fluffy!


^Biggest disappointment of the night, Chucky posed for me but that monster cut him off LOL.

  
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CATNCAG 11/14/2014 2:38PM

    emoticon Steph-Knee! I love all stuff scary too! Stephen King is my favorite author! I would love to go! When I reach a "normal weight" I am gonna hit amusement parks galore & ride everything even if I puke just because I will be able to fit!!!!!!!! U go girl! What an inspiration you are? emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LORIVIOLA 3/16/2014 1:04PM

    This is a great blog!
Thanks for sharing.

It's so fluffy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>Glad you had a great time.

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GRAMPIAN 11/22/2013 6:43AM

  Great! emoticon

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MCJULIEO 10/21/2013 11:50AM

    Your excitement is contagious, and your words are encouraging... Thanks so much!

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LADYSHERRY 10/16/2013 3:32PM

    Good for you!!!! I love Halloween and The Walking Dead!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WHITEANGEL4 10/13/2013 11:50PM

    Wonderful blog

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AMBER461 10/11/2013 8:28PM

  Congrats, thanks for sharing, its seems as though you were having a blast.

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MISSLISA1973 10/7/2013 2:40AM

    emoticon Thanks for sharing your joy. It is inspiring!

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SBARGANZ 10/5/2013 8:57AM

    Congrats and hooray for NSV!

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NANCYSINATRA 10/4/2013 9:55AM

    Thank you so much for sharing. You totally motivated me again. :)
I LOVE halloween too (as you can tell from my spark pictures). Actually got married as Frankenstein and bride of.
Last year we went to Universal too, and I was around 220 at the time. NOW I'm up to 270. Thank you for sharing your story and helping me remember why this is so important.
I did the IFly there last year (wha a blast) and now I couldn't because of weight. I WILL change that. :)

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1HAPPYSPIRIT 10/4/2013 6:03AM

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IMSOOZEEQ 10/4/2013 5:59AM

    I absolutely love the pics! I agree that you need to smile more in them! You have such a great smile! You are just amazing my friend and I love that you are getting out and having fun. Okay the scary stuff...that ain't my scene but it was probably lots of fun.

Keep going my friend! There is so much more out there for you to explore and enjoy!

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OFFICECHIK 10/3/2013 11:50AM

    Awesome!!!! You have much to be proud of. Save this blog to look back on when you're motivation is down. It will help you to remember how far you have come and what you have accomplished. It will bring to mind this wonderful high you were feeling and will help you push forward. You are beautiful and have no reason to cringe at your pictures.
Keep moving forward. emoticon

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1DRWOMAN 10/3/2013 6:10AM

    Congratulations! What a cool night! Wish I could go too! Fun fun fun!

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MRSRIGS1 10/2/2013 2:04PM

    You look GREAT!!!! You go girl!

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BETHIEBOOPS 10/2/2013 5:50AM

    You are incredible! You look just fantastic, but you don't need me to tell you that. Which is just the biggest victory ever! I can't believe the transformation you've made not just with your body, but with your emotional wellbeing! I am so proud to have been able to watch you throughout this journey! There is SO much pride in my heart for you girl!!

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BIGFAMILY9 10/2/2013 1:45AM

    Super cool!! emoticon

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KIM22211 10/1/2013 8:10PM

    lol! Good for you it feels great to know exactly a year ago you were heavier!

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BANDMOM2012 10/1/2013 12:57PM

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FIRECOM 10/1/2013 11:13AM

    Your beautiful smile tells it all. Congrats.

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GEORGE815 10/1/2013 7:40AM

    Great post with Chucky!

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G33K10V3 10/1/2013 6:06AM

    I love this post :D It sounds like you had a blast and were loving it and you look great! emoticon I can relate to so much of what you say about the paranoia and hearing laughter and automatically assuming it is about you :( I feel that way almost every time I go out in public. I'm so looking forward to being a "normal" person. emoticon

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K1TT3N 10/1/2013 12:29AM

    awesome

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KATIBUG49 9/30/2013 11:10PM

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PHYLISSCR 9/30/2013 10:09PM

    Thanks for sharing your awesome pictures, looks like fun.

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NEWKATHYNOW 9/30/2013 9:33PM

    Fantastic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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MLJSPARK 9/30/2013 8:27PM

    Love your pictures, you look emoticon You are completely right that all the hard work is worth it! You look so beautiful and happy emoticon

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PFARRAR65 9/30/2013 7:59PM

    Congratulations on the weight loss. emoticon Would love to go to Universal Horror Nights. But, nobody to go with me. emoticon

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AJB121299 9/30/2013 7:43PM

    nice

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PT.JEFFGIRL 9/30/2013 7:26PM

    You look so happy and at ease within yourself. It sure shows. emoticon

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CANDIGIRL4K 9/30/2013 7:13PM

    Loved the pics and lol'd at the chucky pic....so great! This was an awesome post and good for you! Congratulations on all the hard work and I am so glad that it has paid off for you...imagine where you'll be next year!

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MSROZZIE 9/30/2013 7:00PM

    Awesome blog and pictures. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SHKIRK 9/30/2013 6:26PM

  You Go Girl !! emoticon

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MOTIVATIONFOUND 9/30/2013 4:21PM

    Yay - congratulations!! I'm so glad you went, are living life and that you see this as the awesome NSV that it truly is! Great job!!

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OTTAWABOUND 9/30/2013 4:07PM

    Those are great victories. On the day I can surf (my dream goal), I'll be posting pictures galore! Thanks for the inspiration.

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UWPALUM 9/30/2013 3:44PM

    Congrats! Looks like it was a great time!

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SUZIPAM1 9/30/2013 2:12PM

    what a wonderful time you had

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OURLADYOFGRACE 9/30/2013 1:35PM

    I love Halloween, great post

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SUGEO1 9/30/2013 10:58AM

    I really enjoyed your blog. You've come such a long way! Very inspiring.

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MAJORLIE 9/30/2013 10:52AM

    Keep on keeping on! Your doing great!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WATERDIAMONDS 9/30/2013 9:54AM

    You look wonderful and you look happy and I am so glad. Thank you for the inspiration and for sharing your joy.

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Let The Games Begin! (BLC 23)

Wednesday, September 25, 2013


Super excited that BLC 23 kicks off today! This is my 4th consecutive round with the Sassy Shamrock Sheriff's! No disrespect to the other teams because they are ALL FABULOUS, but I couldn't imagine not being on this team with my Sassy Supportive Sisters! emoticon They always know how to motivate me and just when to give me that kick in the tush that I sometimes require. emoticon

Part of BLC is doing the dreaded "before pictures"... I have never taken pictures showing this much skin... and 80 pounds ago I wouldn't even take a photo like this for MYSELF, let alone post it. So that took a lot of courage... and I had to take a moment where I had to remember how far I've come to be able to post this. Just be lucky I spared you the rest of my stomach (if you saw that part, you'd understand exactly why I will be getting a tummy tuck down the line). emoticon And I didn't flap the flying squirrels either. emoticon

Starting weight for the round 192.4

And a flexibility pic... nothing ever flattering about that angle either lol.



My goals for the round:
emoticon: Lose 17.4 pounds which would get me to 175.
emoticon: Consistently get at least 300 minutes per week.
emoticon: Get as many participation points as possible to move up in the ranks.
emoticon: To not be afraid to ask for support or a kick in the butt from my fellow Sheriff's.
emoticon: To provide that same support and kick in the butt to my girls.

I know weight loss is the name of the game, but success for me isn't necessarily the number on the scale... it is making sure that I am putting my all into this for myself and my team. To be there for my team and for us all to reach (or at least come close) to our goals.

On a separate note, thanks for all the love and support this last week. I have taken every suggestion into consideration and I finally was able to turn my eating around! I am back on track and more important I'm feeling happy and confident again, and that is the best feeling in the world! emoticon

Just for giggles a reminder of how far I've come:


Edit: Results of Fit Test 9/29/13
Note: In the middle of arthritis flare up. Could not complete the wall sit, so took the time from my last fit test.

Wallsit: 110 seconds
(Wall) Push ups (60 seconds): 28
Squats (60 seconds): 38
Plank: 30 seconds
Crunches: 45
1 mile walk: 19:20

  
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FLMOMX2 10/3/2013 8:45AM

    Hoping you win, but like TEREMC--what is BLC?

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TEREMC 9/27/2013 7:27PM

  what is BLC? and if it is a contest spark where do I sign up?


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GEORGE815 9/27/2013 6:43PM

    Keep p the good work!

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DETERMINEDDE 9/27/2013 7:48AM

    You are amazing! emoticon

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HEATHERFREE 9/27/2013 12:20AM

    DUDE love that you posted the super duper before pics. AND holy crap that last pic REALLY shows what you've lost compared to the new pics!!!!! I totally pictured the tummy tuck YAY! Also, I think we should make a flying squirrels group video once we get to our goals weights lol

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SIMONEKP 9/26/2013 8:18PM

    I'm doing BLC this round too!

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MOTIVATIONFOUND 9/26/2013 6:09PM

    You're doing awesome! I know posting those pics is hard. Kudos to you for displaying awesome courage, once again.

Good luck! I know you're going to rock it!

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TOKIEMOON 9/26/2013 5:48PM

    You have remarkable courage and determination. I never took any before pics and still don't want any because I have been gaining weight since my lumbar laminectomy the end of May. The neurosurgeon was adamant that I not do ANYTHING for 3 months, Increased eating and decreased exercising (or simply doing any house chores) equaled 18 pound weight gain in the past 4 months! Kudos to you for sharing your journey. emoticon

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HEYRED221 9/26/2013 2:41PM

    emoticon Wow, you look fantastic, have done a great job. I don't doubt that you will reach your goals for this challenge!

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BARBARAROSE54 9/26/2013 10:30AM

    good luck with your challenge. emoticon

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BETHIEBOOPS 9/26/2013 6:20AM

    WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW! ---- that's all I can say! You are just SO incredible! Look at YOU! You're a hottie! And i'm so excited to see what comes from this BLC! I was so disappointed to drop out last round- hopefully I can get my act together and try for the next one :) Hooray for getting skinny!

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BEANIES_MOM 9/26/2013 6:03AM

    You have made amazing progress!!! I am sure you are going to do great with this round of BLC. emoticon emoticon

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KIM22211 9/26/2013 5:56AM

    bring it on! I am on the amazing amethysts and this is my first challenge ever so let he game begin!

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POUTINGPEGGY 9/26/2013 5:20AM

    What a change, so much progress. emoticon Enjoy your challenge

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MARMAERT 9/26/2013 12:53AM

    wow! you look so much better! you will rock the BLC23!

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WEEPINGANGEL74 9/25/2013 11:49PM

    You are doing FANTASTIC!!!! I am so proud of how far you have come and your GREAT attitude towards your health and weight loss in general. You are going to rock this challenge and take names later!!

On the team or not, we have your back!!

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IRRITATEDPILLOW 9/25/2013 10:16PM

    Amazing progress! Best of luck in your challenge :)

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JACOBSBELOVED 9/25/2013 10:07PM

    Wow! I remember when the first "before" picture was posted and it's amazing to see the difference between then and now!

Good luck on your BLC!

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COCK-ROBIN 9/25/2013 9:30PM

    Wonderful!

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 9/25/2013 9:15PM

    That is freaking awesome!!! What an amazing transformation.. amazing.. You so rock girl.. seriously.. I am soooo glad we're Sassy Sheriff Sisters!

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SLIMMINGSHAY 9/25/2013 8:24PM

    Great job on your accomplishment so far! Keep pushing hard through it all and you will see dreams become reality! Good luck!

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    Good Luck!!
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I Need To Fight The Fat Instead Of Fighting Myself...

Sunday, September 22, 2013


I know there is not one person here on Spark who doesn't already know that this losing weight stuff is hard. emoticon There are times of emoticon's and emoticon's where things are easy and breezy and nothing can get in your way. Then there are the times where nothing goes right, you eat everything, and you are your own worst enemy. emoticon

I have been like a rubber ball bouncing all over the place lately! One day I'm super excited about my doctor's appointment, the next day I'm asking for advice on how to hold my ground against the Binge Monster. I couldn't be on two more opposite ends of the spectrum from day to day if I tried. emoticon Today what I realized is the only person standing in the way of me getting what I want (getting to my goal weight) is ME. I am sure some of you can relate to this... there is NO worse feeling than knowing that you are self sabotaging and making things harder on yourself.



In the past my Self Saboteur would come in after I would lose about 40 pounds, and beat me down emotionally until I said "You are right, I CAN'T do this, I will ALWAYS be fat" and I would go back to my old ways and gain all the weight back. This happened 3 times in life. This time I got all the way to the 50 pounds lost mark before she tried to beat me to a pulp. But this time I knew her game, I knew how she worked and I fought her tooth and nail until I won. She is so sneaky that she left me alone for a while... but she's back, and she's not pleased! emoticon

Here I sit, what should be 80 pounds lost but is probably 78 because I've gained 2ish pounds recently emoticon, and she is back with a vengeance. I feel like I am fighting myself on a daily basis the last 9 or so days;. She has teamed up with the Binge Monster and they are the dynamic duo! I am eating too much, too many calories, my tummy is not happy with me and yet I have done it probably 5 of the last 9 days. Why now? Why 18 months into my journey is she fighting me again? I really believe she is scared, she is scared of what happens when I get to my goal weight. People around me are already starting to change and I have even lost friends that can't handle the "new, smaller, awesome-er me". What other changes are in store? It is scary, change is scary, but it is something that I want so badly and I can't give up on it.



This time has to be different, I can not, and will not gain back those 80 pounds. In fact I will do just the opposite and head towards 100 pounds lost instead. That will show my Self Saboteur who is boss! To do this I need to incorporate the tips from my fellow Spark Friends on how to deal with the Binge Monster, and I have to truly TRY to fight him. Telling him no and immediately giving in is not a true fight! So the gloves are on (or is it the gloves are off? I'm not a scrapper LOL) emoticon and I mean business. Self Saboteur is going down as well! You aren't going to bully me back into my old habits so I can gain the weight back and you can have the last laugh. It's not happening. I am going to work on forgiving myself for the mistakes I have made, and I am going to learn from them and even though I'm not perfect and will have many bumps in the road, I will continue to dust myself off and emoticon. I am going to take the energy that I have been putting into fighting myself, and start fighting the fat instead! emoticon I'm going to take it one day and more importantly one moment at a time, and I refuse to give up. So if Self Saboteur and the Binge Monster happen to be eavesdropping, IT'S ON SUCKERS! emoticon emoticon

  
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CATNCAG 11/6/2014 6:49PM

    Steph-Knee, we got this! I am in exactly the same boat as you but I too refuse to give up no matter what! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LORIVIOLA 3/13/2014 11:15AM

    thanks for sharing!

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TERRIJ7 2/20/2014 10:41AM

    Great self-analysis! Recognizing the patterns arms you for the fight!

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WOOFERCOALBOY 2/12/2014 8:01PM

    Good attitude.

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GRAMPIAN 11/15/2013 10:57AM

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NASFKAB 11/8/2013 4:32AM

  awesome inspirational blog so true thank you

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MISSLISA1973 10/15/2013 7:33AM

    I love that final graphic. emoticon

Something that helped me at one point was a phrase I learned somewhere on SP, and it goes something like this: "Just don't binge today. (Then do it again tomorrow.)" In other words, one step at a time. Hold out today for just today. Then tomorrow, you can tell yourself, "Hold out just for today."

You are doing great! Thanks for posting this honest blog.

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MCJULIEO 10/14/2013 1:38PM

    AMEN!

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LIULIANASKYE 10/3/2013 10:09AM

    WOW great blog you about made me cry. Why do we always fight ourselves so much. I am fighting myself all the time. I am infertile doc say's i went through menopause early, but when i was a teenager if i got below 150 my period came back. So that is my goal but my selfsabotager says what if you go through all that work and you still cant get pregnant. and now that i wasted the last 15 childbearing years to fat i wonder what happens if it does work. how will i feel knowing i didn't have to go through this pain of infertility for the last 15 years when all i just had to lose a little bit more weight 6 years ago i was at 157 less than 10 pounds and maybe it would have worked.
Well i have decided that even if it doesn't work i will we be able to keep up with my adopted daughter easier at 140 than at 190 or 220. I only have a couple more year that I could have a healthy pregnancy so I can not give up. Last chance to feel my baby kick, to go to ultrasound and find the baby in my belly not another persons belly.
never give up never surrender

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WHITEANGEL4 10/1/2013 11:34PM

    Grat blog....you are hal way there as you have identified yur biggest enemy

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JAIMESIZED 9/30/2013 9:01AM

    You go girl!! I can definitely relate to you... that Binge Monster comes to bother me all the time. And even though I've fallen for the past 2 weeks, I refuse to give up! Your blog inspires me! :)

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THESHELBSTER 9/29/2013 2:25AM

    Great blog. You are just a popular blog writing queen. :) Proud of you.

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KIM22211 9/27/2013 3:38AM

    you have won half the battle just recognizing the challenge!

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HEATHERFREE 9/27/2013 12:15AM

    Nice Great blog! The binge monster and that evil voice.........will always pop up and try and bring you down...as soon as we realize we will see them again at some point down the road, then we can be prepared to tell em to take a hike!

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GENRE009 9/26/2013 1:30AM

    There is so much involved with staying on track! It is hard. And my emotions, or boredom seems to get in my way. But the biggest binge is usually about fear, and loosing control.
Sometimes I feel like I must be an addict, cause why aren't most people more concerned about their health. That's the bottom line, it's just that every friend thinks you are really thinking about looking skinny! And if they have bad habits, they act like they can't enjoy themselves around you unless you are sharing their bad habits! I thought having friends was about sharing time together, not pulling someone down .

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KIMMIG133 9/25/2013 7:54PM

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Great blog!!!!

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LADYSHERRY 9/25/2013 5:39PM

    Thanks for sharing. You go girl. Never give up

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SJKENT1 9/25/2013 10:52AM

    emoticon keep up your determination!

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KML410 9/25/2013 8:39AM

    Wow great blog. It hit on so many points that worry me too. One thing you spoke about was the change and how it effect people around you, how you have lost friends that cannot handle the new smaller you. Change is scary and when we're afraid we tend to go back to a place where you feel comfortable. Unfortunatly in the weight loss journey we can't go back we must forge ahead face the changes that are going to happen. I know for me thats going to be hard but like you I will not give up I am going to face my fears and from this blog I know you will too! Good luck and thanks for posting. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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AAHMED61 9/25/2013 4:01AM

    get busy girl. My binge monster come in when I am free and have no responsibility. Make some plane to get busy and involved in any chore or task. Invite friend or get any sort of assignment or anything that suits u and u'll be better able to get over HER emoticon

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WEEPINGANGEL74 9/25/2013 1:16AM

    If you figure out how to get rid of that self sabateur please share because mine refuses to go away and has been bullying me for way too long!! We are definitely our own worst enemies in this fight and I am ready to KO the biotch inside me who won't let me succeed!!



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    nice

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WRITINGDIVA1 9/24/2013 11:07PM

    Thanks for the reminder! Fighting fat vs fighting myself.

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MJOP63 9/24/2013 7:08PM

  Self-saboteur has also been my own worst enemy for many years & although I am just starting my journey, it helps to know I am not alone with my struggles to stay on a healthier way of eating and also getting myself in an exercise routine. I really like this site very much and believe will help me reach my goal. mm

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SMARTPOET06 9/24/2013 6:42PM

    Thanks for a great blog! It really speaks the truth, as so many of us have been there! I was just contemplating having a big bowl of cereal for supper because I don't feel like cooking, instead of what I had planned that was super healthy. But now, because of your blog, I'm heading into my kitchen and fix my healthy supper that I planned! The binge monster is not gonna get me, and don't let it get you either! You are worth the struggle!
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PACKERMANN 9/24/2013 6:06PM

    what one thing can you do today that will make it better than yesterday?
visualize success. :)
hugs,
Pat


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HOTTIE41465 9/24/2013 4:16PM

    Great blog. emoticon

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SLIMMINGSHAY 9/24/2013 2:57PM

    This is one super emoticon written blog! I love it and it speaks truths that so many of us face day in and day out! Kick the binge monster and SS in the teeth and tell em to take a bit of unwanted 'fat' with them! You can do it! Keep at it!

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MRSRIGS1 9/24/2013 2:42PM

    I think you have the right attitude! emoticon

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TRIXIETEXAS 9/24/2013 2:40PM

    You could have been writing about me -- losing those 40 pounds and putting them right back on. I've never stuck to a health plan this long or lost this much weight, and I worry frequently that the switch could just turn back off and I'll start gaining.

But here's the thing...you KNOW that Saboteur is a BIG FAT LIAR! You don't have to listen to her.

You can do this. You have come so far. It's a new day, and a new you. Tell SS to pack it up!

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APICHUZ 9/24/2013 2:19PM

  When you get down, remind yourself of how much you have lost and have accomplished. Some people stick to that one emotion for months....not days and don't get anywhere. But you....you are a fighter and I believe in you. emoticon

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NGCHILD 9/24/2013 1:57PM

    Nicely said! I love your attitude. We are our own worst enemy. You will get thru this and be a better person for it. Just keep pushing thru.

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PGHP31CK 9/24/2013 1:19PM

    Well put!! Thank you for your words! The only thing that stands between me and my goal is ME.

Keep slugging it out! You're stronger than you think, and YOU CAN DO THIS!!! And we're right behind you, with the industrial sized, non-aerosol can of Binge Monster repellent!!!

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LOVINSHERRY78 9/24/2013 1:07PM

    same here...this is the first time in my life i've made it past a ceritan weight loss point. the sad part is...as long as we want to stay and keep getting healthy...we will always have to fight to keep our head above water. hang in there b/c u know have it in u to win!!!

the great part about the fight is that you keep getting stronger and your opponents keep getting weaker!!

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GRACILU 9/24/2013 12:37PM

    Thanks for your words of truth and inspiration. Now I more motivated than ever. Too bad I have to work today. LOL!

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FIRECOM 9/24/2013 11:36AM

    Words to live by, Thanks for a great blog.

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Looking For Advice About The Binge Monster...

Saturday, September 21, 2013

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First off, I feel the word Binge can mean so many things to so many people. When I think of a binge, I picture someone in the kitchen just eating everything and it's almost like they are on auto pilot and are not aware of what they are doing. I used to get so caught up on the labels and I'd think to myself "well that's not what I do, I'm not a binge eater." But I am definitely an emotional eater (eat cuz I'm happy, bored, tired, cranky, sad)... and I am definitely an over eater. You don't get to 272 pounds eating normal and healthy amounts of food. But I am done getting caught up on the labels, because the truth of the matter that whatever it is that I do from time to time, is not a healthy behavior. For me it is more of an "I'm bored, I want to eat". Or sometimes there are no emotions involved and it's a simple "I want to eat." I know that I am not hungry, I just enjoy eating and I enjoy food. I was doing a really good job at telling myself "you aren't hungry, you will eat later when you're hungry", but that hasn't been doing the trick the last few days.

This past week my Self Sabotaeur teamed up with the Binge Monster, and really got on my case. You see, even after losing 80 pounds, there is still that little Saboteur emoticon that does not want to see me hit my goal weight. She is really sneaky, because she will disappear for weeks or even months at a time, only to pop up and bring me down in the blink of an eye! When she pairs up with the Binge Monster, they are a dynamic duo that can not be stopped, until now!

I had heard suggestions before of doing activities or something to distract yourself. I've also heard tips for finding lower calorie foods to eat when the urge hits, so that you can come away from it with less damage. I never used those suggestions, because I was so caught up in trying to get rid of the behavior entirely, and telling myself to stop the madness. I think I am at a point where I know I am going to have to battle the Binge Monster for the rest of my life. I am prepared for the fight, because it is worth it, and sometimes I can beat him to a pulp and come out unscathed. But I am looking for any tips you have heard of or might use yourself to fight him when I'm not so strong.

I read about setting a timer for 20 minutes, doing an activity, and if you still want to binge you can when you are done. If that happens I want to make a list of lower calorie foods that I would still like to eat, but nothing that I love or consider a treat because that would really mess me up LOL.

The only food I have come up with is the 40 calorie fudgecicles when I am wanting something sweet. But I definitely to find more foods that would help when I'm wanting something more salty.

For activities I have:
Cleaning
Hula Hooping
Exercising
Painting Nails
Reading a book or magazine
Staring a movie
Spending time thinking about how I felt at 270 pounds
Coming on Spark and giving goodies and commenting my spark friends

My binges or overeating days have definitely lessened and lessened over the last year and a half, but I really feel like I need a plan of action for when those days do hit. I need to realize that the urge may always be there and that I can't simply trick myself into thinking it'll go away on it's own... so that is why I need your help in putting a firm plan in place. Any suggestions on foods, activities or any other tips. The goal here is to not have the binge happen at all, but the list of foods is the back up plan for when all else fails.

emoticon I have little/no interest in seeking professional help on this issue. There is nothing wrong with seeking help for these things and I think it could be very beneficial to some. I feel like I am really self aware and understand a lot about why I do this, which is why I am researching and looking for tips to help work on it. This has also gone from something I did all the time to something that I can go months without doing, so I don't think it's a huge enough problem to go that route. It is just something that happens from time to time and I'm looking for a plan of action when those days come. emoticon

Edit: emoticon Interesting tidbit, even when the binge monster hits I still track all my food. If it is something that would typically be weighed I will weigh it and eat one serving. The issue of course is sometimes I go back in for yet ANOTHER serving. So I am realizing that if I am in the frame of mind to TRACK it and physically weigh out the portion, maybe while I'm weighing said food I really need to RETHINK what I'm doing and work on putting back all or at least some of the food I'm dishing out. (This is just a note to self really, I really want to work on this. :)

  
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CHUBBY_MOM 9/25/2013 12:57PM

    OMG....I thought you were writing about me!! Thank you are putting this into words, it helps to know that other people are fighting those two mean little monsters! Keep us posted if you find something that works for you. I have tried the water and waiting, sometimes it works.
Going to the darn grocery store can set those two monsters working against me.....grr, which is really bad because we do actually have to eat!

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AAHMED61 9/25/2013 3:50AM

    Hi,
Chk out this link http://www.everydayhealth.com/diet-
and-nutrition-pictures/ways-to-
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TRIXIETEXAS 9/24/2013 2:52PM

    I really have to jump on Annie's bandwagon here. I eat low carb and I don't eat processed foods or sugar anymore, so I have a lot in common with Paleo eating (I can't give up my dairy, though, so I'll stick with low carb).

The binge monster visited me DAILY before. I was hungry ALL. THE. TIME. Even when I was trying to eat healthier foods, the binge monster would come and I could never fight off the sunuvabitch. I would go to get fast food on the way home from work, eat it, stop somewhere and toss the evidence, and go home and cook a meal for my family and eat that, too.

That gnawing hunger is GONE. Gone, gone, gone. The binge monster is gone, gone, gone. When something is tempting, I look at it and think, "I don't eat that kind of stuff anymore."

The more I research, the more I believe that low carb diets and Paleo are the way we should all be eating. I echo Annie's sentiments...give it a try. You'll be amazed at the binge monster's disappearance!

Whatever you decide to do, you always have my support! You are AWESOME!

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MOVEITMARY 9/22/2013 7:44PM

    Thanks for another super blog! emoticon

Probably the biggest key for me is keeping my trigger foods out of the house as much as possible. Thankfully, my family is pretty supportive most of the time.

The other danger is nighttime and feeling blue, which it helps to play my ukulele or pop in a movie and crochet, those keep my hands busy. Highly recommend handcrafts of any kind.

One nummy salty food is nori (the kind of seaweed that is wrapped around sushi) and it's now available in snack packs in various flavors. Another fave is wasabi peas because you can't eat them too fast! Trader Joe's has both.

After 10 months on SP, my binges are fewer and farther between, I binge on better foods than I used to, the quantity is smaller, and I actually notice how I feel afterward. All of these things help me to binge less and less.

So if it stil happens occasionally (as it did last night!), I'm not going to beat myself up over it the way I used to, I'll just pick myself up, dust myself off, and eat properly the next day.


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FLMOMX2 9/22/2013 5:58PM

    Lots of good ideas. We're in this together. emoticon

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MOURGIE221 9/22/2013 5:26PM

    Thank you so much for referring me to this blog entry, it's so smart to track your binges me on the other hand I track everything but that lol I'm going to try it next time hoping there isn't a next time but hey I'm a work in progress lol emoticon

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PEANUTSDOG17 9/22/2013 8:39AM

  Hang in there. Were all in this together. I hear what your saying and its not an easy journey. Take one step and one day at a time. I have been up and down myself we with. You are inspiration and a success story to me! I'm sure as well as others. Hang in and I am behind you all the way. You go girl! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Happy first day of Autumn a new season and a the changing of the leaves and we can change just as well and turn into more beautiful the we already are! Good Luck emoticon

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WEBEZE 9/22/2013 12:15AM

    I too have a self saboteur and binge monster. Since I quit smoking they have really spoke up and I am doing a poor job of conquering them as I have gained 15 pounds in the past 10 months since I quit smoking. Lately my plan has been having 1 meal a week that I eat what I want without worrying about salt, fat, calories. Within reason of course, that oh so stuffed feeling is not comfortable. I really enjoy salty the most when I binge so I always have popcorn on hand when I just want to eat uncontrollably. You can have a lot of popcorn with few calories and high fiber. Helps to fill me up so I won't eat everything in sight. Being 18 months into this journey I am trying to find a balance between my old life of eating anything and everything and my new of eating healthy. If everything is always no I will just get frustrated and want to go back to my old ways. You are so smart for wanting to have a plan in place when the binge moments hit. By having a plan you can lessen the damage and get back on track faster. Stay strong by Spark Friend.

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KML410 9/21/2013 7:54PM

    I too an am emotional eater. Sweets are the thing that gets me, usually right before I'm ready to go to bed. Two things I do - 1. If it's during the day I chew a mint flavored gum that helps keep the cravings a bay and also helps with my drinking water. If its at night I drink a hot cup of tea and allow myself a few chocolate chip morsels. That satisfies my sweet tooth and I don't overindulge. emoticon

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RAEMARIE13 9/21/2013 6:41PM

    Loved the post. I will try some of the suggestions. very informative. thanks emoticon

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BARBARAROSE54 9/21/2013 6:40PM

    I caved in after losing 75 lbs, its a daily battle, Stay strong.

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SIMONEKP 9/21/2013 3:32PM

    I'll think of some suggestions and come back and post

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ROZZIEOZZIE 9/21/2013 2:31PM

    I battle the binge monster too! He gets me usually when my emotions get the better of me, usually when someone pisses me off! And it's hard not to give in.....I drink water, take a walk, ride my bike - but even that sometimes doesn't help! When I really need something crunchy I have carrots, when it's something salty I use my air popper and air pop some popcorn. Sometimes you just have to have something more than a cup of tea or a glass of water. Good luck - he's really a devil to deal with!
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ADF1981 9/21/2013 2:13PM

    Hang in there! You have done so well and have come so far! Some things that have really helped me are the foods I eat, trying to avoid buying the bad stuff, reminding myself how far I have come, and planning. When I feel like I am wanting to snack on something but it's really not time to eat I will drink a big glass of water and make myself busy.

I thought that the theory of avoiding certain foods was bogus, but for me it works. I'm not on a low carb diet, because I don't think those are healthy but I chose to get my carbs from fruits and veggies instead of starchy foods and sugar. This really helped my cravings. Also, I make sure I eat foods that I like and pick a few things that are low in calories to bulk up my meals. I have found that if I enjoy my food and eat foods that really fill me up that saying no to the other stuff is easier.

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TWEETYKC00 9/21/2013 12:59PM

    Ah, the nasty binge monster, I know him well. Finding something to do can help alot, but I think finding the magic magnet in the fridge door and burying it in the yard would be great, too! lol Keeping a journal of how you feel can help, then you can spot a binge when it hits and maybe keep it from happening in the future.

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KATYDID412 9/21/2013 11:26AM

    I agree with the folks who mentioned keeping those trigger foods out of the house entirely. I have used the "wait 20 minutes" practice for years and sometimes it works for me. I love the idea of coming on SparkPeople during those times because of the support and strength you can get just b y visiting a few sparklers' pages.

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CERTHIA 9/21/2013 11:18AM

    Dynamic duo indeed! They have been visiting me lately, so they sure are keeping busy..

I really like your activity-list! You could add going for a walk to it?

When I get that salty urge I will usually have dried fish (Weird, I know..) or popcorn. Lately I have been craving popcorn like crazy, so I am actually considering getting an air-popper for damage-control!

I too make a point to track food when I overindulge. I feel better about it when I do. The truth hurts, but the shame I would feel otherwise would hurt me worse.

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SKINNYSTRUMMER 9/21/2013 10:59AM

    I like to use water and wait 10 minutes! And in that 10 minutes get distracted.....and get as from away from the kitchen as possible... Or I hear the food calling my name.

You have a good plan, and a healthy attitude about it. But remember the solution is not linear, and that it is gradual. Be kind to yourself !

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AMARILYNH 9/21/2013 10:47AM

    As for your list of things to do when in the midst of a craving, this is just me but I'd remove reading and watching a movie (for some reason both of those make me want to eat.)

For something to eat OTHER than 'goodies', first I'd do as others have suggested and keep trigger foods OUT of the house. Then how about eating something tasty but healthy like an apple, grapes, or other fruit? Or something crunchy like raw carrots? Or something I choose (because of the extra protein and because its pretty low carb) is the Dannon Light Greek Yogurt.

That said, I read through what Annie said and feel it has a lot of merit. I haven't gone full blown Paleo (yet) but I have cut way back on grains. I have a friend who suffers from both arthritis and gout and I recommended it to her (because I'd read here on Sparks of people getting relief from diseases that cause inflammation with it) and it has helped her AMAZINGLY! Just sayin'.....

Whatever you choose to do, I KNOW you are going to succeed because like me you have embraced Winston Churchill's quote: "Never, never, NEVER give up." And Babe Ruth's "Its hard to beat a person who never gives up!" emoticon emoticon

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KNYAGENYA 9/21/2013 10:03AM

    I am an emotional eater as well. My problem is that I let the emotions get to me rather than dealing with them. I do better if I deal with the feelings. I have also used knitting to help me manage it. I am keeping my hands and mind busy and the urge usually go away. Good luck.

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STONECOT 9/21/2013 9:26AM

    I am also a binger. I have come to the conclusion that it is part of my personality, and it has been with me since childhood. I don't binge often now, mostly I can distract myself by promising myself that I will eat that tomorrow, but I know then that a binge is coming. Therefore I plan it. I work out the things that I don't normally eat, and fancy, and I buy them. Salted roasted nuts usually, jam doughnuts, chocolate, beer. Whichever I chose. Then I sit back and eat them and enjoy them. Usually as if it was my main meal, so I have saved the calories of that. It's not as if I'm binging regularly anymore, so once in a while does no harm and is a 'release' of negative emotions. I need that safety valve, and I feel so much better if it's planned and I'm in control. the rest of the time I don't have these foods in the house.

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 9/21/2013 8:40AM

    Stephanie... this is probably not the answer you're looking for but it's my truth.. and so, I must share it with you.. I could have written your blog last year (without as much flare but the same content - wink).. I know you hear me taut eating along the Paleo guidelines but just give me one more listen.. please.. i have not had a visit from the binge monster since eating paleo.. could it be because I have not eaten the foods that chemists have *intentionally* combined the right amount of fat, sugar and salt to keep me addicted?? to keep me craving? to keep the binge monster coming to the trough?.. I used to think *I* was flawed.. that I just didn't have the same self control as the skinny girls.. that it was a character defect.. and finally I gave up and said "it's just something I'm going to have to battle for the rest of my life" but I was wrong.. eliminating sugar, grains and processed foods from my diet made me realize *I am not broken*.. it's not ME.. it's what I was eating.. and before you say "yeah, but....".. I am an emotional eater still.. but the cravings before were insurmountable.. it took SO much energy to resist.. that I would get worn down.. and then feel like a failure.. I've had none of that now.. I don't have strategies because I don't need them.. if I'm having an emotional day, then I eat healthy nutritious food and am satisfied.. un-freaking-believable.. and one more thing and I will stop (swear) .. but one of the tenets of eating the Paleo way is to reduce inflammation in the body (not just lose weight).. there are whole groups of people who eat Paleo NOT to lose weight but to treat their inflammatory disease - you know, inflammatory diseases like ARTHRITIS.. do you think it's a coincidence that you had a flare up right after you binged? I don't.. I think there is a *possibility* that you could control both the binge monster AND arthritis flare ups with Paleo.. or? I may be wrong cuz every "body" is different.. but it might be worth a 30 day try? I would not normally make this direct of a plea.. but you did ask.. and I do care... :-)

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MOLLIEJEAN2 9/21/2013 8:27AM

    I have the same problem that little monster sticks it head out now and then. So I have tried not to have the unhealthy things in the house and when I'm out I try to talk myself out of the stuff I'm craving. It isn't easy cause sometimes that ugly little monster gets in my head and says eat me it won't hurt you. Try to talk yourself out of it and if that doesn't help take a walk.

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JIBBIE49 9/21/2013 8:20AM

    I never have been a binge eater, but I did learn a lot from reading Roger Gould M.D.'s "SHRINK YOURSELF" and I recommend his web site. He has a 12 week course on emotional eating that many have taken and said it really helped.

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TAMNIOWA 9/21/2013 8:06AM

    I too suffer from the self saboteur. My salty suggestion to you is one that helps me when I need to slow down. I buy the snack size bags of microwave popcorn. Around 100 calories, but gives volume. For me the volume slows me down just enough to satisfy the urge to eat the emotions. Hang in there sounds like you are on the right track. emoticon

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POUTINGPEGGY 9/21/2013 7:59AM

    I haven't binged for 86 days, but I still know i could be ambushed at anytime and then the binge can last a few days. I am tracking everything I eat, I try not to have 'binge foods' in the house. I if I feel one starting I eat some protein. The only time I didn't binge was when I was following Atkins. I blew a whole year when I came off it for Christmas and was like an addict eating carbs. I gained a stone in just a few days. We are like alcoholics I think you just have to say I am in control one day at a time. I think you have done really fantastic. emoticon

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CHOCOHOLIC2276 9/21/2013 7:23AM

    You have some great ideas there! I am an emotional eater, stress, anger, sadness I eat. For me this is a work in progress but I have learned (not always) to just ride it out. Feel the emotion and repeat to myself a cheeseburger will not make me feel happy. They suggest you keep busy but when you're driving and these feelings overwhelm you and you spot a McD's you have to dig deep for that willpower and drive past and not hit the drive thru.

For me it's like going to the grocery store. If I don't put it in my cart I won't eat it because I won't have it.

I LOVE the idea of the saboteur. I have one of those!! I must name her emoticon

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ZELLAZM 9/21/2013 7:05AM

    Well, it sounds like you already have good self-awareness and a pretty good plan of action. Two other things - I try not to keep those famous trigger foods in the house. I tend to binge on odd things - certain kinds of cereal, for example. Other types just don't do it for me, so I can be satisfied with one portion. Another thing that has helped me with the evening snacking thing (which can turn into a binge) is to make a cup of tea or hot cocoa (around 100 calories) and sip it slowly. I sometimes get "mouth hungry." Even the preparation helps slow me down so that I become more mindful of what I'm doing. I have a couple of favorite cups that make me smile and remind me that I'm worth it.

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So happy! (Dr's Appointment)

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Back from the doctor... I'm healthy and awesome according to the doc... That's right, she said emoticon! Can I say I love my 20 dollar scale?!? emoticon At home 194.6 at dr 194.4. Booyah! A little bummed that I blew the 191 for overweight the last few days but it is what it is! emoticon

She congratulated me on the 30 pound loss since the visit last year, and about how my blood work improved. emoticon I have this thing when I first get to the dr and I get nervous and my heart will pound while they take my blood pressure. She said it was okay but borderline high. I told her about my issue and asked if we could try again and she said of course. So I thought about emoticon's and emoticon's and when my reading came back they said it was perfect! I would have never spoken up about that 80 lbs ago. I would have just let them lecture me because I was obese and they must be right, right? emoticon But now I know my body and know when to speak up! Yay me! :)

  
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TERRIJ7 2/20/2014 12:09AM

    How thrilling! I hate going to the dr. because the first thing they want you to do is step on the scale! YUCK--it's bad enough that I know how much I weigh! But slow and steady, right?

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GRAMPIAN 11/12/2013 3:57PM

  Great! emoticon

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DRTOVAH 11/2/2013 6:06PM

  congrats!

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VMMMAY 9/29/2013 1:30PM

    good golly, I get that way checking my blood pressure at home! it really works better if you get a few minutes to collect your thoughts and find your way to a bit of calm.

CONGRATS on the improving blood work! although my own blood work had not yet led the doc to begin to prescribe meds or talk tough about my weight and family history I knew each visit got me closer to that... which is why I am now sparking! and using my own little bp monitor occasionally I have already seen a big improvement so even though the scale is slower to move along I have confirmation of the results I feel each day.

keep up the good work, your health is worth the hard work! emoticon

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KAT808 9/28/2013 2:14PM

    Congrats!!! I get that way at the doctor too!! Good for you for speaking up!!
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WHITEANGEL4 9/27/2013 10:09PM

    Great blog....I have white coat syndrome and my doc is aware. They do my count when I come in and again later and then at the end of my consultation. Boy hat a difference in the readings

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AMBER461 9/24/2013 7:58PM

  Great job. Congratulations and continue the good work.

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KAB7801 9/24/2013 12:27AM

    Far out!

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CLAIREINPARIS 9/23/2013 10:39PM

    Woohoo, congratulations!!! Such an achievement... very happy for you!

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MRSRIGS1 9/23/2013 1:56PM

    Well done! emoticon

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JRRING 9/23/2013 10:46AM

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IZZZ33 9/23/2013 10:21AM

    That's fantastic! Congratulations! It seems like your hard work has definitely paid off. :)

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1DRWOMAN 9/23/2013 1:09AM

    WHOO HOO!!!!!! well done!

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SUSANELAINE1956 9/22/2013 8:33PM

    Great news. I have white coat syndrome also, but the good news is that as your BP gets lower the affect at the doctor's office no longer matter because you are still in a good range. emoticon on such a great visit.

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KIMBERLY_Y 9/22/2013 8:26PM

    Great job! Congratulations!!!

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RUNNINGYOGINIRE 9/22/2013 10:55AM

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SANDYPUDOFF 9/22/2013 10:16AM

   
The doctor's office freaking out is a normal, common reaction which is called "white coat syndrome." You handled it perfectly with a little mind over matter meditation. Didn't know you could meditate did you? Thought you had to be some yogi or something? It's your body and you are in charge of it. Keep that in mind and you will win every time! emoticon

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SMILINGEYES2 9/21/2013 9:32PM

    You have every reason to be happy. Just think what the report will read next year as you continue this journey. Whoooo Hooooo.

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SMILINGEYES2 9/21/2013 9:31PM

    You have every reason to be happy. Just think what the report will read next year as you continue this journey. Whoooo Hooooo.

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AJB121299 9/21/2013 9:02PM

    nice

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FITFRIT 9/21/2013 7:03PM

    woohoo!

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CICELY360 9/21/2013 4:51PM

  Good blog

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DIETER27 9/21/2013 2:35PM

  wonderful news. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SOAPSTRESS1 9/21/2013 9:57AM

    Just one word. emoticon and keep up the great work. It's great when you have confidence isn't it?

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NAVYMOM133 9/21/2013 9:28AM

    Keep Going!! You are rocking your plan!!
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SUZIPAM1 9/21/2013 9:13AM

    so how are you today?

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MOMMY445 9/21/2013 8:50AM

    that is wonderful news! congratulations!

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LKS2GAB2 9/21/2013 6:59AM

    Good job. Congrats on the great weight loss and health improvement!

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DREAMWEAVER1637 9/21/2013 6:56AM

    Good job!!! Keep up the great work.

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KIM22211 9/21/2013 4:39AM

    good for you!!

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LIVELYGIRL2 9/21/2013 1:43AM

  Oh this is wonderful! I hope she will be even more impressed next year. . I think you will blow her away. She might even have you write what you did and post it, next time. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MEDNICOLE84 9/21/2013 1:26AM

  Yay! You have done a great job :)

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KKLENNERT809 9/21/2013 1:22AM

    Yes, congrats to you and all of your hard work

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MARYJEANSL 9/21/2013 12:59AM

  Congrats! Nothing like coming out of a doctor's appointment happy!

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HEATHERFREE 9/20/2013 10:12PM

    dude that is so weird, my heart pounds everytime they take my blood pressure too lol

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FAIRHAVENQUEEN 9/20/2013 10:04PM

    I'm so happy for you! Way to go!

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TRYINGHARD54 9/20/2013 9:48PM

    well, good for you.. that's terrific....... clapping here. !!!!

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TONYAINTUCSON 9/20/2013 7:37PM

    Way to go!!!! I know you must feel SO proud to have actual, tangible results in those greatly improved numbers!!! Keep it up! That's so awesome! emoticon

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DUSTYPRAIRIE 9/20/2013 7:29PM

    Marvelous! This is a day to circle on your calendar! emoticon

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JSEATTLE 9/20/2013 6:44PM

  How wonderful for you!! Gold Star and Congratulations on your good report from the Doctor!!

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