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Let The Games Begin! (BLC 23)

Wednesday, September 25, 2013


Super excited that BLC 23 kicks off today! This is my 4th consecutive round with the Sassy Shamrock Sheriff's! No disrespect to the other teams because they are ALL FABULOUS, but I couldn't imagine not being on this team with my Sassy Supportive Sisters! emoticon They always know how to motivate me and just when to give me that kick in the tush that I sometimes require. emoticon

Part of BLC is doing the dreaded "before pictures"... I have never taken pictures showing this much skin... and 80 pounds ago I wouldn't even take a photo like this for MYSELF, let alone post it. So that took a lot of courage... and I had to take a moment where I had to remember how far I've come to be able to post this. Just be lucky I spared you the rest of my stomach (if you saw that part, you'd understand exactly why I will be getting a tummy tuck down the line). emoticon And I didn't flap the flying squirrels either. emoticon

Starting weight for the round 192.4

And a flexibility pic... nothing ever flattering about that angle either lol.



My goals for the round:
emoticon: Lose 17.4 pounds which would get me to 175.
emoticon: Consistently get at least 300 minutes per week.
emoticon: Get as many participation points as possible to move up in the ranks.
emoticon: To not be afraid to ask for support or a kick in the butt from my fellow Sheriff's.
emoticon: To provide that same support and kick in the butt to my girls.

I know weight loss is the name of the game, but success for me isn't necessarily the number on the scale... it is making sure that I am putting my all into this for myself and my team. To be there for my team and for us all to reach (or at least come close) to our goals.

On a separate note, thanks for all the love and support this last week. I have taken every suggestion into consideration and I finally was able to turn my eating around! I am back on track and more important I'm feeling happy and confident again, and that is the best feeling in the world! emoticon

Just for giggles a reminder of how far I've come:


Edit: Results of Fit Test 9/29/13
Note: In the middle of arthritis flare up. Could not complete the wall sit, so took the time from my last fit test.

Wallsit: 110 seconds
(Wall) Push ups (60 seconds): 28
Squats (60 seconds): 38
Plank: 30 seconds
Crunches: 45
1 mile walk: 19:20

  
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FLMOMX2 10/3/2013 8:45AM

    Hoping you win, but like TEREMC--what is BLC?

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TEREMC 9/27/2013 7:27PM

  what is BLC? and if it is a contest spark where do I sign up?


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GEORGE815 9/27/2013 6:43PM

    Keep p the good work!

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DETERMINEDDE 9/27/2013 7:48AM

    You are amazing! emoticon

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HEATHERFREE 9/27/2013 12:20AM

    DUDE love that you posted the super duper before pics. AND holy crap that last pic REALLY shows what you've lost compared to the new pics!!!!! I totally pictured the tummy tuck YAY! Also, I think we should make a flying squirrels group video once we get to our goals weights lol

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SIMONEKP 9/26/2013 8:18PM

    I'm doing BLC this round too!

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MOTIVATIONFOUND 9/26/2013 6:09PM

    You're doing awesome! I know posting those pics is hard. Kudos to you for displaying awesome courage, once again.

Good luck! I know you're going to rock it!

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TOKIEMOON 9/26/2013 5:48PM

    You have remarkable courage and determination. I never took any before pics and still don't want any because I have been gaining weight since my lumbar laminectomy the end of May. The neurosurgeon was adamant that I not do ANYTHING for 3 months, Increased eating and decreased exercising (or simply doing any house chores) equaled 18 pound weight gain in the past 4 months! Kudos to you for sharing your journey. emoticon

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HEYRED221 9/26/2013 2:41PM

    emoticon Wow, you look fantastic, have done a great job. I don't doubt that you will reach your goals for this challenge!

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BARBARAROSE54 9/26/2013 10:30AM

    good luck with your challenge. emoticon

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BETHIEBOOPS 9/26/2013 6:20AM

    WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW! ---- that's all I can say! You are just SO incredible! Look at YOU! You're a hottie! And i'm so excited to see what comes from this BLC! I was so disappointed to drop out last round- hopefully I can get my act together and try for the next one :) Hooray for getting skinny!

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BEANIES_MOM 9/26/2013 6:03AM

    You have made amazing progress!!! I am sure you are going to do great with this round of BLC. emoticon emoticon

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KIM22211 9/26/2013 5:56AM

    bring it on! I am on the amazing amethysts and this is my first challenge ever so let he game begin!

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POUTINGPEGGY 9/26/2013 5:20AM

    What a change, so much progress. emoticon Enjoy your challenge

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MARMAERT 9/26/2013 12:53AM

    wow! you look so much better! you will rock the BLC23!

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WEEPINGANGEL74 9/25/2013 11:49PM

    You are doing FANTASTIC!!!! I am so proud of how far you have come and your GREAT attitude towards your health and weight loss in general. You are going to rock this challenge and take names later!!

On the team or not, we have your back!!

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IRRITATEDPILLOW 9/25/2013 10:16PM

    Amazing progress! Best of luck in your challenge :)

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JACOBSBELOVED 9/25/2013 10:07PM

    Wow! I remember when the first "before" picture was posted and it's amazing to see the difference between then and now!

Good luck on your BLC!

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COCK-ROBIN 9/25/2013 9:30PM

    Wonderful!

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 9/25/2013 9:15PM

    That is freaking awesome!!! What an amazing transformation.. amazing.. You so rock girl.. seriously.. I am soooo glad we're Sassy Sheriff Sisters!

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MELP06 9/25/2013 8:47PM

    You are doing emoticon emoticon

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SLIMMINGSHAY 9/25/2013 8:24PM

    Great job on your accomplishment so far! Keep pushing hard through it all and you will see dreams become reality! Good luck!

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    Good Luck!!
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I Need To Fight The Fat Instead Of Fighting Myself...

Sunday, September 22, 2013


I know there is not one person here on Spark who doesn't already know that this losing weight stuff is hard. emoticon There are times of emoticon's and emoticon's where things are easy and breezy and nothing can get in your way. Then there are the times where nothing goes right, you eat everything, and you are your own worst enemy. emoticon

I have been like a rubber ball bouncing all over the place lately! One day I'm super excited about my doctor's appointment, the next day I'm asking for advice on how to hold my ground against the Binge Monster. I couldn't be on two more opposite ends of the spectrum from day to day if I tried. emoticon Today what I realized is the only person standing in the way of me getting what I want (getting to my goal weight) is ME. I am sure some of you can relate to this... there is NO worse feeling than knowing that you are self sabotaging and making things harder on yourself.



In the past my Self Saboteur would come in after I would lose about 40 pounds, and beat me down emotionally until I said "You are right, I CAN'T do this, I will ALWAYS be fat" and I would go back to my old ways and gain all the weight back. This happened 3 times in life. This time I got all the way to the 50 pounds lost mark before she tried to beat me to a pulp. But this time I knew her game, I knew how she worked and I fought her tooth and nail until I won. She is so sneaky that she left me alone for a while... but she's back, and she's not pleased! emoticon

Here I sit, what should be 80 pounds lost but is probably 78 because I've gained 2ish pounds recently emoticon, and she is back with a vengeance. I feel like I am fighting myself on a daily basis the last 9 or so days;. She has teamed up with the Binge Monster and they are the dynamic duo! I am eating too much, too many calories, my tummy is not happy with me and yet I have done it probably 5 of the last 9 days. Why now? Why 18 months into my journey is she fighting me again? I really believe she is scared, she is scared of what happens when I get to my goal weight. People around me are already starting to change and I have even lost friends that can't handle the "new, smaller, awesome-er me". What other changes are in store? It is scary, change is scary, but it is something that I want so badly and I can't give up on it.



This time has to be different, I can not, and will not gain back those 80 pounds. In fact I will do just the opposite and head towards 100 pounds lost instead. That will show my Self Saboteur who is boss! To do this I need to incorporate the tips from my fellow Spark Friends on how to deal with the Binge Monster, and I have to truly TRY to fight him. Telling him no and immediately giving in is not a true fight! So the gloves are on (or is it the gloves are off? I'm not a scrapper LOL) emoticon and I mean business. Self Saboteur is going down as well! You aren't going to bully me back into my old habits so I can gain the weight back and you can have the last laugh. It's not happening. I am going to work on forgiving myself for the mistakes I have made, and I am going to learn from them and even though I'm not perfect and will have many bumps in the road, I will continue to dust myself off and emoticon. I am going to take the energy that I have been putting into fighting myself, and start fighting the fat instead! emoticon I'm going to take it one day and more importantly one moment at a time, and I refuse to give up. So if Self Saboteur and the Binge Monster happen to be eavesdropping, IT'S ON SUCKERS! emoticon emoticon

  
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LORIVIOLA 3/13/2014 11:15AM

    thanks for sharing!

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TERRIJ7 2/20/2014 10:41AM

    Great self-analysis! Recognizing the patterns arms you for the fight!

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WOOFERCOALBOY 2/12/2014 8:01PM

    Good attitude.

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GRAMPIAN 11/15/2013 10:57AM

  Good attitude. emoticon

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NASFKAB 11/8/2013 4:32AM

  awesome inspirational blog so true thank you

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AOIFEH1 11/6/2013 2:49PM

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ALIDOSHA 10/21/2013 5:51PM

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MISSLISA1973 10/15/2013 7:33AM

    I love that final graphic. emoticon

Something that helped me at one point was a phrase I learned somewhere on SP, and it goes something like this: "Just don't binge today. (Then do it again tomorrow.)" In other words, one step at a time. Hold out today for just today. Then tomorrow, you can tell yourself, "Hold out just for today."

You are doing great! Thanks for posting this honest blog.

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MCJULIEO 10/14/2013 1:38PM

    AMEN!

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LIULIANASKYE 10/3/2013 10:09AM

    WOW great blog you about made me cry. Why do we always fight ourselves so much. I am fighting myself all the time. I am infertile doc say's i went through menopause early, but when i was a teenager if i got below 150 my period came back. So that is my goal but my selfsabotager says what if you go through all that work and you still cant get pregnant. and now that i wasted the last 15 childbearing years to fat i wonder what happens if it does work. how will i feel knowing i didn't have to go through this pain of infertility for the last 15 years when all i just had to lose a little bit more weight 6 years ago i was at 157 less than 10 pounds and maybe it would have worked.
Well i have decided that even if it doesn't work i will we be able to keep up with my adopted daughter easier at 140 than at 190 or 220. I only have a couple more year that I could have a healthy pregnancy so I can not give up. Last chance to feel my baby kick, to go to ultrasound and find the baby in my belly not another persons belly.
never give up never surrender

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WHITEANGEL4 10/1/2013 11:34PM

    Grat blog....you are hal way there as you have identified yur biggest enemy

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JAIMESIZED 9/30/2013 9:01AM

    You go girl!! I can definitely relate to you... that Binge Monster comes to bother me all the time. And even though I've fallen for the past 2 weeks, I refuse to give up! Your blog inspires me! :)

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THESHELBSTER 9/29/2013 2:25AM

    Great blog. You are just a popular blog writing queen. :) Proud of you.

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FOXXSMITH1964 9/27/2013 10:09AM

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KIM22211 9/27/2013 3:38AM

    you have won half the battle just recognizing the challenge!

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HEATHERFREE 9/27/2013 12:15AM

    Nice Great blog! The binge monster and that evil voice.........will always pop up and try and bring you down...as soon as we realize we will see them again at some point down the road, then we can be prepared to tell em to take a hike!

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GENRE009 9/26/2013 1:30AM

    There is so much involved with staying on track! It is hard. And my emotions, or boredom seems to get in my way. But the biggest binge is usually about fear, and loosing control.
Sometimes I feel like I must be an addict, cause why aren't most people more concerned about their health. That's the bottom line, it's just that every friend thinks you are really thinking about looking skinny! And if they have bad habits, they act like they can't enjoy themselves around you unless you are sharing their bad habits! I thought having friends was about sharing time together, not pulling someone down .

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KIMMIG133 9/25/2013 7:54PM

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Great blog!!!!

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LADYSHERRY 9/25/2013 5:39PM

    Thanks for sharing. You go girl. Never give up

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SJKENT1 9/25/2013 10:52AM

    emoticon keep up your determination!

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JRRING 9/25/2013 10:26AM

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KML410 9/25/2013 8:39AM

    Wow great blog. It hit on so many points that worry me too. One thing you spoke about was the change and how it effect people around you, how you have lost friends that cannot handle the new smaller you. Change is scary and when we're afraid we tend to go back to a place where you feel comfortable. Unfortunatly in the weight loss journey we can't go back we must forge ahead face the changes that are going to happen. I know for me thats going to be hard but like you I will not give up I am going to face my fears and from this blog I know you will too! Good luck and thanks for posting. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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AAHMED61 9/25/2013 4:01AM

    get busy girl. My binge monster come in when I am free and have no responsibility. Make some plane to get busy and involved in any chore or task. Invite friend or get any sort of assignment or anything that suits u and u'll be better able to get over HER emoticon

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CORNERKICK 9/25/2013 1:36AM

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WEEPINGANGEL74 9/25/2013 1:16AM

    If you figure out how to get rid of that self sabateur please share because mine refuses to go away and has been bullying me for way too long!! We are definitely our own worst enemies in this fight and I am ready to KO the biotch inside me who won't let me succeed!!



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AJB121299 9/25/2013 12:13AM

    nice

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WRITINGDIVA1 9/24/2013 11:07PM

    Thanks for the reminder! Fighting fat vs fighting myself.

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MJOP63 9/24/2013 7:08PM

  Self-saboteur has also been my own worst enemy for many years & although I am just starting my journey, it helps to know I am not alone with my struggles to stay on a healthier way of eating and also getting myself in an exercise routine. I really like this site very much and believe will help me reach my goal. mm

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SMARTPOET06 9/24/2013 6:42PM

    Thanks for a great blog! It really speaks the truth, as so many of us have been there! I was just contemplating having a big bowl of cereal for supper because I don't feel like cooking, instead of what I had planned that was super healthy. But now, because of your blog, I'm heading into my kitchen and fix my healthy supper that I planned! The binge monster is not gonna get me, and don't let it get you either! You are worth the struggle!
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PACKERMANN 9/24/2013 6:06PM

    what one thing can you do today that will make it better than yesterday?
visualize success. :)
hugs,
Pat


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JRRING 9/24/2013 5:42PM

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HOTTIE41465 9/24/2013 4:16PM

    Great blog. emoticon

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SLIMMINGSHAY 9/24/2013 2:57PM

    This is one super emoticon written blog! I love it and it speaks truths that so many of us face day in and day out! Kick the binge monster and SS in the teeth and tell em to take a bit of unwanted 'fat' with them! You can do it! Keep at it!

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MRSRIGS1 9/24/2013 2:42PM

    I think you have the right attitude! emoticon

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TRIXIETEXAS 9/24/2013 2:40PM

    You could have been writing about me -- losing those 40 pounds and putting them right back on. I've never stuck to a health plan this long or lost this much weight, and I worry frequently that the switch could just turn back off and I'll start gaining.

But here's the thing...you KNOW that Saboteur is a BIG FAT LIAR! You don't have to listen to her.

You can do this. You have come so far. It's a new day, and a new you. Tell SS to pack it up!

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APICHUZ 9/24/2013 2:19PM

  When you get down, remind yourself of how much you have lost and have accomplished. Some people stick to that one emotion for months....not days and don't get anywhere. But you....you are a fighter and I believe in you. emoticon

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NGCHILD 9/24/2013 1:57PM

    Nicely said! I love your attitude. We are our own worst enemy. You will get thru this and be a better person for it. Just keep pushing thru.

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PGHP31CK 9/24/2013 1:19PM

    Well put!! Thank you for your words! The only thing that stands between me and my goal is ME.

Keep slugging it out! You're stronger than you think, and YOU CAN DO THIS!!! And we're right behind you, with the industrial sized, non-aerosol can of Binge Monster repellent!!!

Sending you a emoticon and emoticon day.



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LOVINSHERRY78 9/24/2013 1:07PM

    same here...this is the first time in my life i've made it past a ceritan weight loss point. the sad part is...as long as we want to stay and keep getting healthy...we will always have to fight to keep our head above water. hang in there b/c u know have it in u to win!!!

the great part about the fight is that you keep getting stronger and your opponents keep getting weaker!!

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GRACILU 9/24/2013 12:37PM

    Thanks for your words of truth and inspiration. Now I more motivated than ever. Too bad I have to work today. LOL!

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FIRECOM 9/24/2013 11:36AM

    Words to live by, Thanks for a great blog.

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GOALWTIN7 9/24/2013 11:31AM

  That saying which I never heard before, Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about is so so powerful! I am typing it out and putting it in on a vision board. I have never made a vision board but that saying has strike such a cord in me I'm now going to make one. Thanks so much!

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Looking For Advice About The Binge Monster...

Saturday, September 21, 2013

emoticon This is about as REAL as I can get on here... but I have nothing to hide from you fine people. I don't expect everyone to be able to relate, but if you can and have found ways to combat the Binge Monster, this one is for you. emoticon



First off, I feel the word Binge can mean so many things to so many people. When I think of a binge, I picture someone in the kitchen just eating everything and it's almost like they are on auto pilot and are not aware of what they are doing. I used to get so caught up on the labels and I'd think to myself "well that's not what I do, I'm not a binge eater." But I am definitely an emotional eater (eat cuz I'm happy, bored, tired, cranky, sad)... and I am definitely an over eater. You don't get to 272 pounds eating normal and healthy amounts of food. But I am done getting caught up on the labels, because the truth of the matter that whatever it is that I do from time to time, is not a healthy behavior. For me it is more of an "I'm bored, I want to eat". Or sometimes there are no emotions involved and it's a simple "I want to eat." I know that I am not hungry, I just enjoy eating and I enjoy food. I was doing a really good job at telling myself "you aren't hungry, you will eat later when you're hungry", but that hasn't been doing the trick the last few days.

This past week my Self Sabotaeur teamed up with the Binge Monster, and really got on my case. You see, even after losing 80 pounds, there is still that little Saboteur emoticon that does not want to see me hit my goal weight. She is really sneaky, because she will disappear for weeks or even months at a time, only to pop up and bring me down in the blink of an eye! When she pairs up with the Binge Monster, they are a dynamic duo that can not be stopped, until now!

I had heard suggestions before of doing activities or something to distract yourself. I've also heard tips for finding lower calorie foods to eat when the urge hits, so that you can come away from it with less damage. I never used those suggestions, because I was so caught up in trying to get rid of the behavior entirely, and telling myself to stop the madness. I think I am at a point where I know I am going to have to battle the Binge Monster for the rest of my life. I am prepared for the fight, because it is worth it, and sometimes I can beat him to a pulp and come out unscathed. But I am looking for any tips you have heard of or might use yourself to fight him when I'm not so strong.

I read about setting a timer for 20 minutes, doing an activity, and if you still want to binge you can when you are done. If that happens I want to make a list of lower calorie foods that I would still like to eat, but nothing that I love or consider a treat because that would really mess me up LOL.

The only food I have come up with is the 40 calorie fudgecicles when I am wanting something sweet. But I definitely to find more foods that would help when I'm wanting something more salty.

For activities I have:
Cleaning
Hula Hooping
Exercising
Painting Nails
Reading a book or magazine
Staring a movie
Spending time thinking about how I felt at 270 pounds
Coming on Spark and giving goodies and commenting my spark friends

My binges or overeating days have definitely lessened and lessened over the last year and a half, but I really feel like I need a plan of action for when those days do hit. I need to realize that the urge may always be there and that I can't simply trick myself into thinking it'll go away on it's own... so that is why I need your help in putting a firm plan in place. Any suggestions on foods, activities or any other tips. The goal here is to not have the binge happen at all, but the list of foods is the back up plan for when all else fails.

emoticon I have little/no interest in seeking professional help on this issue. There is nothing wrong with seeking help for these things and I think it could be very beneficial to some. I feel like I am really self aware and understand a lot about why I do this, which is why I am researching and looking for tips to help work on it. This has also gone from something I did all the time to something that I can go months without doing, so I don't think it's a huge enough problem to go that route. It is just something that happens from time to time and I'm looking for a plan of action when those days come. emoticon

Edit: emoticon Interesting tidbit, even when the binge monster hits I still track all my food. If it is something that would typically be weighed I will weigh it and eat one serving. The issue of course is sometimes I go back in for yet ANOTHER serving. So I am realizing that if I am in the frame of mind to TRACK it and physically weigh out the portion, maybe while I'm weighing said food I really need to RETHINK what I'm doing and work on putting back all or at least some of the food I'm dishing out. (This is just a note to self really, I really want to work on this. :)

  
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CHUBBY_MOM 9/25/2013 12:57PM

    OMG....I thought you were writing about me!! Thank you are putting this into words, it helps to know that other people are fighting those two mean little monsters! Keep us posted if you find something that works for you. I have tried the water and waiting, sometimes it works.
Going to the darn grocery store can set those two monsters working against me.....grr, which is really bad because we do actually have to eat!

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AAHMED61 9/25/2013 3:50AM

    Hi,
Chk out this link http://www.everydayhealth.com/diet-
and-nutrition-pictures/ways-to-
fend-off-food-cravings.aspx#/slide-1

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TRIXIETEXAS 9/24/2013 2:52PM

    I really have to jump on Annie's bandwagon here. I eat low carb and I don't eat processed foods or sugar anymore, so I have a lot in common with Paleo eating (I can't give up my dairy, though, so I'll stick with low carb).

The binge monster visited me DAILY before. I was hungry ALL. THE. TIME. Even when I was trying to eat healthier foods, the binge monster would come and I could never fight off the sunuvabitch. I would go to get fast food on the way home from work, eat it, stop somewhere and toss the evidence, and go home and cook a meal for my family and eat that, too.

That gnawing hunger is GONE. Gone, gone, gone. The binge monster is gone, gone, gone. When something is tempting, I look at it and think, "I don't eat that kind of stuff anymore."

The more I research, the more I believe that low carb diets and Paleo are the way we should all be eating. I echo Annie's sentiments...give it a try. You'll be amazed at the binge monster's disappearance!

Whatever you decide to do, you always have my support! You are AWESOME!

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MOVEITMARY 9/22/2013 7:44PM

    Thanks for another super blog! emoticon

Probably the biggest key for me is keeping my trigger foods out of the house as much as possible. Thankfully, my family is pretty supportive most of the time.

The other danger is nighttime and feeling blue, which it helps to play my ukulele or pop in a movie and crochet, those keep my hands busy. Highly recommend handcrafts of any kind.

One nummy salty food is nori (the kind of seaweed that is wrapped around sushi) and it's now available in snack packs in various flavors. Another fave is wasabi peas because you can't eat them too fast! Trader Joe's has both.

After 10 months on SP, my binges are fewer and farther between, I binge on better foods than I used to, the quantity is smaller, and I actually notice how I feel afterward. All of these things help me to binge less and less.

So if it stil happens occasionally (as it did last night!), I'm not going to beat myself up over it the way I used to, I'll just pick myself up, dust myself off, and eat properly the next day.


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FLMOMX2 9/22/2013 5:58PM

    Lots of good ideas. We're in this together. emoticon

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MOURGIE221 9/22/2013 5:26PM

    Thank you so much for referring me to this blog entry, it's so smart to track your binges me on the other hand I track everything but that lol I'm going to try it next time hoping there isn't a next time but hey I'm a work in progress lol emoticon

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PEANUTSDOG17 9/22/2013 8:39AM

  Hang in there. Were all in this together. I hear what your saying and its not an easy journey. Take one step and one day at a time. I have been up and down myself we with. You are inspiration and a success story to me! I'm sure as well as others. Hang in and I am behind you all the way. You go girl! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Happy first day of Autumn a new season and a the changing of the leaves and we can change just as well and turn into more beautiful the we already are! Good Luck emoticon

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WEBEZE 9/22/2013 12:15AM

    I too have a self saboteur and binge monster. Since I quit smoking they have really spoke up and I am doing a poor job of conquering them as I have gained 15 pounds in the past 10 months since I quit smoking. Lately my plan has been having 1 meal a week that I eat what I want without worrying about salt, fat, calories. Within reason of course, that oh so stuffed feeling is not comfortable. I really enjoy salty the most when I binge so I always have popcorn on hand when I just want to eat uncontrollably. You can have a lot of popcorn with few calories and high fiber. Helps to fill me up so I won't eat everything in sight. Being 18 months into this journey I am trying to find a balance between my old life of eating anything and everything and my new of eating healthy. If everything is always no I will just get frustrated and want to go back to my old ways. You are so smart for wanting to have a plan in place when the binge moments hit. By having a plan you can lessen the damage and get back on track faster. Stay strong by Spark Friend.

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KML410 9/21/2013 7:54PM

    I too an am emotional eater. Sweets are the thing that gets me, usually right before I'm ready to go to bed. Two things I do - 1. If it's during the day I chew a mint flavored gum that helps keep the cravings a bay and also helps with my drinking water. If its at night I drink a hot cup of tea and allow myself a few chocolate chip morsels. That satisfies my sweet tooth and I don't overindulge. emoticon

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RAEMARIE13 9/21/2013 6:41PM

    Loved the post. I will try some of the suggestions. very informative. thanks emoticon

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BARBARAROSE54 9/21/2013 6:40PM

    I caved in after losing 75 lbs, its a daily battle, Stay strong.

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SIMONEKP 9/21/2013 3:32PM

    I'll think of some suggestions and come back and post

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ROZZIEOZZIE 9/21/2013 2:31PM

    I battle the binge monster too! He gets me usually when my emotions get the better of me, usually when someone pisses me off! And it's hard not to give in.....I drink water, take a walk, ride my bike - but even that sometimes doesn't help! When I really need something crunchy I have carrots, when it's something salty I use my air popper and air pop some popcorn. Sometimes you just have to have something more than a cup of tea or a glass of water. Good luck - he's really a devil to deal with!
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ADF1981 9/21/2013 2:13PM

    Hang in there! You have done so well and have come so far! Some things that have really helped me are the foods I eat, trying to avoid buying the bad stuff, reminding myself how far I have come, and planning. When I feel like I am wanting to snack on something but it's really not time to eat I will drink a big glass of water and make myself busy.

I thought that the theory of avoiding certain foods was bogus, but for me it works. I'm not on a low carb diet, because I don't think those are healthy but I chose to get my carbs from fruits and veggies instead of starchy foods and sugar. This really helped my cravings. Also, I make sure I eat foods that I like and pick a few things that are low in calories to bulk up my meals. I have found that if I enjoy my food and eat foods that really fill me up that saying no to the other stuff is easier.

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TWEETYKC00 9/21/2013 12:59PM

    Ah, the nasty binge monster, I know him well. Finding something to do can help alot, but I think finding the magic magnet in the fridge door and burying it in the yard would be great, too! lol Keeping a journal of how you feel can help, then you can spot a binge when it hits and maybe keep it from happening in the future.

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KATYDID412 9/21/2013 11:26AM

    I agree with the folks who mentioned keeping those trigger foods out of the house entirely. I have used the "wait 20 minutes" practice for years and sometimes it works for me. I love the idea of coming on SparkPeople during those times because of the support and strength you can get just b y visiting a few sparklers' pages.

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CERTHIA 9/21/2013 11:18AM

    Dynamic duo indeed! They have been visiting me lately, so they sure are keeping busy..

I really like your activity-list! You could add going for a walk to it?

When I get that salty urge I will usually have dried fish (Weird, I know..) or popcorn. Lately I have been craving popcorn like crazy, so I am actually considering getting an air-popper for damage-control!

I too make a point to track food when I overindulge. I feel better about it when I do. The truth hurts, but the shame I would feel otherwise would hurt me worse.

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SKINNYSTRUMMER 9/21/2013 10:59AM

    I like to use water and wait 10 minutes! And in that 10 minutes get distracted.....and get as from away from the kitchen as possible... Or I hear the food calling my name.

You have a good plan, and a healthy attitude about it. But remember the solution is not linear, and that it is gradual. Be kind to yourself !

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AMARILYNH 9/21/2013 10:47AM

    As for your list of things to do when in the midst of a craving, this is just me but I'd remove reading and watching a movie (for some reason both of those make me want to eat.)

For something to eat OTHER than 'goodies', first I'd do as others have suggested and keep trigger foods OUT of the house. Then how about eating something tasty but healthy like an apple, grapes, or other fruit? Or something crunchy like raw carrots? Or something I choose (because of the extra protein and because its pretty low carb) is the Dannon Light Greek Yogurt.

That said, I read through what Annie said and feel it has a lot of merit. I haven't gone full blown Paleo (yet) but I have cut way back on grains. I have a friend who suffers from both arthritis and gout and I recommended it to her (because I'd read here on Sparks of people getting relief from diseases that cause inflammation with it) and it has helped her AMAZINGLY! Just sayin'.....

Whatever you choose to do, I KNOW you are going to succeed because like me you have embraced Winston Churchill's quote: "Never, never, NEVER give up." And Babe Ruth's "Its hard to beat a person who never gives up!" emoticon emoticon

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KNYAGENYA 9/21/2013 10:03AM

    I am an emotional eater as well. My problem is that I let the emotions get to me rather than dealing with them. I do better if I deal with the feelings. I have also used knitting to help me manage it. I am keeping my hands and mind busy and the urge usually go away. Good luck.

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STONECOT 9/21/2013 9:26AM

    I am also a binger. I have come to the conclusion that it is part of my personality, and it has been with me since childhood. I don't binge often now, mostly I can distract myself by promising myself that I will eat that tomorrow, but I know then that a binge is coming. Therefore I plan it. I work out the things that I don't normally eat, and fancy, and I buy them. Salted roasted nuts usually, jam doughnuts, chocolate, beer. Whichever I chose. Then I sit back and eat them and enjoy them. Usually as if it was my main meal, so I have saved the calories of that. It's not as if I'm binging regularly anymore, so once in a while does no harm and is a 'release' of negative emotions. I need that safety valve, and I feel so much better if it's planned and I'm in control. the rest of the time I don't have these foods in the house.

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 9/21/2013 8:40AM

    Stephanie... this is probably not the answer you're looking for but it's my truth.. and so, I must share it with you.. I could have written your blog last year (without as much flare but the same content - wink).. I know you hear me taut eating along the Paleo guidelines but just give me one more listen.. please.. i have not had a visit from the binge monster since eating paleo.. could it be because I have not eaten the foods that chemists have *intentionally* combined the right amount of fat, sugar and salt to keep me addicted?? to keep me craving? to keep the binge monster coming to the trough?.. I used to think *I* was flawed.. that I just didn't have the same self control as the skinny girls.. that it was a character defect.. and finally I gave up and said "it's just something I'm going to have to battle for the rest of my life" but I was wrong.. eliminating sugar, grains and processed foods from my diet made me realize *I am not broken*.. it's not ME.. it's what I was eating.. and before you say "yeah, but....".. I am an emotional eater still.. but the cravings before were insurmountable.. it took SO much energy to resist.. that I would get worn down.. and then feel like a failure.. I've had none of that now.. I don't have strategies because I don't need them.. if I'm having an emotional day, then I eat healthy nutritious food and am satisfied.. un-freaking-believable.. and one more thing and I will stop (swear) .. but one of the tenets of eating the Paleo way is to reduce inflammation in the body (not just lose weight).. there are whole groups of people who eat Paleo NOT to lose weight but to treat their inflammatory disease - you know, inflammatory diseases like ARTHRITIS.. do you think it's a coincidence that you had a flare up right after you binged? I don't.. I think there is a *possibility* that you could control both the binge monster AND arthritis flare ups with Paleo.. or? I may be wrong cuz every "body" is different.. but it might be worth a 30 day try? I would not normally make this direct of a plea.. but you did ask.. and I do care... :-)

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MOLLIEJEAN2 9/21/2013 8:27AM

    I have the same problem that little monster sticks it head out now and then. So I have tried not to have the unhealthy things in the house and when I'm out I try to talk myself out of the stuff I'm craving. It isn't easy cause sometimes that ugly little monster gets in my head and says eat me it won't hurt you. Try to talk yourself out of it and if that doesn't help take a walk.

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JIBBIE49 9/21/2013 8:20AM

    I never have been a binge eater, but I did learn a lot from reading Roger Gould M.D.'s "SHRINK YOURSELF" and I recommend his web site. He has a 12 week course on emotional eating that many have taken and said it really helped.

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TAMNIOWA 9/21/2013 8:06AM

    I too suffer from the self saboteur. My salty suggestion to you is one that helps me when I need to slow down. I buy the snack size bags of microwave popcorn. Around 100 calories, but gives volume. For me the volume slows me down just enough to satisfy the urge to eat the emotions. Hang in there sounds like you are on the right track. emoticon

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POUTINGPEGGY 9/21/2013 7:59AM

    I haven't binged for 86 days, but I still know i could be ambushed at anytime and then the binge can last a few days. I am tracking everything I eat, I try not to have 'binge foods' in the house. I if I feel one starting I eat some protein. The only time I didn't binge was when I was following Atkins. I blew a whole year when I came off it for Christmas and was like an addict eating carbs. I gained a stone in just a few days. We are like alcoholics I think you just have to say I am in control one day at a time. I think you have done really fantastic. emoticon

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CHOCOHOLIC2276 9/21/2013 7:23AM

    You have some great ideas there! I am an emotional eater, stress, anger, sadness I eat. For me this is a work in progress but I have learned (not always) to just ride it out. Feel the emotion and repeat to myself a cheeseburger will not make me feel happy. They suggest you keep busy but when you're driving and these feelings overwhelm you and you spot a McD's you have to dig deep for that willpower and drive past and not hit the drive thru.

For me it's like going to the grocery store. If I don't put it in my cart I won't eat it because I won't have it.

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ZELLAZM 9/21/2013 7:05AM

    Well, it sounds like you already have good self-awareness and a pretty good plan of action. Two other things - I try not to keep those famous trigger foods in the house. I tend to binge on odd things - certain kinds of cereal, for example. Other types just don't do it for me, so I can be satisfied with one portion. Another thing that has helped me with the evening snacking thing (which can turn into a binge) is to make a cup of tea or hot cocoa (around 100 calories) and sip it slowly. I sometimes get "mouth hungry." Even the preparation helps slow me down so that I become more mindful of what I'm doing. I have a couple of favorite cups that make me smile and remind me that I'm worth it.

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So happy! (Dr's Appointment)

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Back from the doctor... I'm healthy and awesome according to the doc... That's right, she said emoticon! Can I say I love my 20 dollar scale?!? emoticon At home 194.6 at dr 194.4. Booyah! A little bummed that I blew the 191 for overweight the last few days but it is what it is! emoticon

She congratulated me on the 30 pound loss since the visit last year, and about how my blood work improved. emoticon I have this thing when I first get to the dr and I get nervous and my heart will pound while they take my blood pressure. She said it was okay but borderline high. I told her about my issue and asked if we could try again and she said of course. So I thought about emoticon's and emoticon's and when my reading came back they said it was perfect! I would have never spoken up about that 80 lbs ago. I would have just let them lecture me because I was obese and they must be right, right? emoticon But now I know my body and know when to speak up! Yay me! :)

  
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TERRIJ7 2/20/2014 12:09AM

    How thrilling! I hate going to the dr. because the first thing they want you to do is step on the scale! YUCK--it's bad enough that I know how much I weigh! But slow and steady, right?

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GRAMPIAN 11/12/2013 3:57PM

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DRTOVAH 11/2/2013 6:06PM

  congrats!

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VMMMAY 9/29/2013 1:30PM

    good golly, I get that way checking my blood pressure at home! it really works better if you get a few minutes to collect your thoughts and find your way to a bit of calm.

CONGRATS on the improving blood work! although my own blood work had not yet led the doc to begin to prescribe meds or talk tough about my weight and family history I knew each visit got me closer to that... which is why I am now sparking! and using my own little bp monitor occasionally I have already seen a big improvement so even though the scale is slower to move along I have confirmation of the results I feel each day.

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KAT808 9/28/2013 2:14PM

    Congrats!!! I get that way at the doctor too!! Good for you for speaking up!!
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WHITEANGEL4 9/27/2013 10:09PM

    Great blog....I have white coat syndrome and my doc is aware. They do my count when I come in and again later and then at the end of my consultation. Boy hat a difference in the readings

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AMBER461 9/24/2013 7:58PM

  Great job. Congratulations and continue the good work.

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KAB7801 9/24/2013 12:27AM

    Far out!

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CLAIREINPARIS 9/23/2013 10:39PM

    Woohoo, congratulations!!! Such an achievement... very happy for you!

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MRSRIGS1 9/23/2013 1:56PM

    Well done! emoticon

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IZZZ33 9/23/2013 10:21AM

    That's fantastic! Congratulations! It seems like your hard work has definitely paid off. :)

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1DRWOMAN 9/23/2013 1:09AM

    WHOO HOO!!!!!! well done!

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SUSANELAINE1956 9/22/2013 8:33PM

    Great news. I have white coat syndrome also, but the good news is that as your BP gets lower the affect at the doctor's office no longer matter because you are still in a good range. emoticon on such a great visit.

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KIMBERLY_Y 9/22/2013 8:26PM

    Great job! Congratulations!!!

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SANDYPUDOFF 9/22/2013 10:16AM

   
The doctor's office freaking out is a normal, common reaction which is called "white coat syndrome." You handled it perfectly with a little mind over matter meditation. Didn't know you could meditate did you? Thought you had to be some yogi or something? It's your body and you are in charge of it. Keep that in mind and you will win every time! emoticon

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SMILINGEYES2 9/21/2013 9:32PM

    You have every reason to be happy. Just think what the report will read next year as you continue this journey. Whoooo Hooooo.

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SMILINGEYES2 9/21/2013 9:31PM

    You have every reason to be happy. Just think what the report will read next year as you continue this journey. Whoooo Hooooo.

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AJB121299 9/21/2013 9:02PM

    nice

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FITFRIT 9/21/2013 7:03PM

    woohoo!

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CICELY360 9/21/2013 4:51PM

  Good blog

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DIETER27 9/21/2013 2:35PM

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SOAPSTRESS1 9/21/2013 9:57AM

    Just one word. emoticon and keep up the great work. It's great when you have confidence isn't it?

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NAVYMOM133 9/21/2013 9:28AM

    Keep Going!! You are rocking your plan!!
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SUZIPAM1 9/21/2013 9:13AM

    so how are you today?

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MOMMY445 9/21/2013 8:50AM

    that is wonderful news! congratulations!

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LKS2GAB2 9/21/2013 6:59AM

    Good job. Congrats on the great weight loss and health improvement!

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DREAMWEAVER1637 9/21/2013 6:56AM

    Good job!!! Keep up the great work.

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KIM22211 9/21/2013 4:39AM

    good for you!!

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LIVELYGIRL2 9/21/2013 1:43AM

  Oh this is wonderful! I hope she will be even more impressed next year. . I think you will blow her away. She might even have you write what you did and post it, next time. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MEDNICOLE84 9/21/2013 1:26AM

  Yay! You have done a great job :)

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KKLENNERT809 9/21/2013 1:22AM

    Yes, congrats to you and all of your hard work

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MARYJEANSL 9/21/2013 12:59AM

  Congrats! Nothing like coming out of a doctor's appointment happy!

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HEATHERFREE 9/20/2013 10:12PM

    dude that is so weird, my heart pounds everytime they take my blood pressure too lol

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FAIRHAVENQUEEN 9/20/2013 10:04PM

    I'm so happy for you! Way to go!

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TRYINGHARD54 9/20/2013 9:48PM

    well, good for you.. that's terrific....... clapping here. !!!!

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TONYAINTUCSON 9/20/2013 7:37PM

    Way to go!!!! I know you must feel SO proud to have actual, tangible results in those greatly improved numbers!!! Keep it up! That's so awesome! emoticon

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DUSTYPRAIRIE 9/20/2013 7:29PM

    Marvelous! This is a day to circle on your calendar! emoticon

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JSEATTLE 9/20/2013 6:44PM

  How wonderful for you!! Gold Star and Congratulations on your good report from the Doctor!!

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The Reverse Golden Rule

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

So we are all probably familiar with The Golden Rule: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Or treat others the way you want to be treated works pretty well too. Now of course not everyone follows this, but it's a pretty nice idea. emoticon

But what about the reverse of that? I think we need to remember to be kind to ourselves just as we would be kind to someone else. I think this rule definitely applies in the weight loss category, and Spark people is a perfect example of this!

emoticon Example 1: A Spark Friend posts how they totally messed up this week and they gained 1 lb! (Or maybe "only" lost 1 pound).

Reaction from Spark Friends: Don't worry! It happens to all of us! Just keep pushing forward and make this week a better week! Or if it was a case of "only" losing 1 pound, it would be: 1 pound is great! That is 1 less pound for you to lose in the future, you should be proud!

No matter what your reaction would be to the fellow Sparker, I am sure it would never be negative.

emoticon Example 2: A Spark Friend posts a blog about how they got attacked by the Binge Monster last night, and they totally derailed their progress.

Reaction from Spark Friends: I am so sorry to hear you had such a rough day! Today is a new day and a fresh start, and I know that you can make it a great day! emoticon

You would never tell a fellow Sparker: Oh man, what a piggy *oink oink*, how could you allow yourself to eat all of that food? You REALLY should have more self control!

So if we wouldn't respond to a fellow Sparker in such a negative way, why is it okay for us to to talk to ourselves that way? The answer to that is simple, it's not okay! But sometimes we forget that we need to treat ourselves with that same kindness, and we can get so down on ourselves.

I was guilty of that today. I had a horrible day Monday and despite blogging, venting, and even explaining to myself that food would not help my problems in any way, I still ended up with a visit from the Binge Monster. Today came all the negativity... Some of my questions to myself were valid: "Why would you allow yourself to do that?" "How do you feel after overeating?" I believe those questions were valid because I need to learn from my mistakes and work through the reasons I allow myself to eat that way from time to time. Getting in touch with my feelings was also helpful because I felt like crap physically and emotionally. So there was essentially no pay off from the "incident" yesterday. But then came the nasty comments: "This is why you will always be fat, you can't control yourself!" "What kind of a person would eat all of that food?" "Do you realize you ate enough calories for TWO days, how disgusting!"

But I finally had to step back and stop all the negativity. For me personally, that negativity creates a vicious circle that could lead me right into another binge. So I had to stop it, and turn it back around. I am still not proud of what happened yesterday, but I can chose to move forward and make today a better day and to make it a better week. I can continue to get stronger and take pride in the fact my Binge Monster days have become less and less over the last year and a half. I have gone from having several a month, to even skipping a month here or there or having 1-2. That is definitely progress, and it is something I will always have to work at and be conscious about, but it is definitely worth it!

So next time you are ready to beat yourself up about whatever it is that happened, stop and ask yourself what you would tell your fellow Spark Friends, and don't allow the negativity to creep in!

  
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LORIVIOLA 3/12/2014 8:40AM

    THIS IS A FANTASTIC POST.

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DRTOVAH 10/31/2013 8:30PM

  valid points, I agree with you!

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WHITEANGEL4 9/27/2013 9:34PM

    Thanks for the great blog,you are reinforcing the things that we all need to remember

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CORKYCORAL 9/21/2013 11:35PM

  emoticon Way to go everyone keep trying emoticon

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4RASCALS 9/21/2013 9:34AM

    Awesome blog, and so very true. Thank you for reminding me

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HEATHERFREE 9/20/2013 10:24PM

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MRSRIGS1 9/20/2013 8:12PM

    So, so true! We must remember kindness to thyself! emoticon

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ZAPPATTACK 9/20/2013 7:37PM

    I totally needed this! Thanks for sharing your feelings :)

Even though the Binge Monster (and the Drunk-at-Weddings Monster) have visited me a lot lately, I have to remember to look at the positives - that I'm here and willing to change.

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RAINA413 9/20/2013 9:16AM

    You make a very excellent point! We really can be too hard on ourselves and need to remember we are our own best friend too!

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CICELY360 9/20/2013 12:05AM

  Good point. I never thought of that.

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JSEATTLE 9/19/2013 11:47PM

  So true, we are hard on ourselves but need to remember we are our own best friend too!

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JOANNHUNT 9/19/2013 10:15PM

    AWESOME BLOG. SO VERY TRUE. THAT AWEFULL MEANY MONSTER STICKS IT'S HEAD IN WHERE IT DOESN'T BELONG. TOMORROWS ANOTHER DAY TO BE AWESOME.

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ONLYTEMPORARY 9/19/2013 9:10PM

    So true!

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AMARILYNH 9/19/2013 8:49PM

    YES!!! If we'd treat ourselves as we treat our friends we'd all be much happier!! The bible says "Love your neighbor as yourself"! So we NEED to LOVE ourselves!!

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JERICHO1991 9/19/2013 6:22PM

    yes

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    Super blog! emoticon

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MOTIVATIONFOUND 9/19/2013 3:20PM

    This is a fantastic blog...and so very true! I beat myself up over every little mistake or "weakness" but I would never do that to my Spark Friends. Why is it that it's so easy to remember we're only human when we're talking to someone else, but we can't cut ourselves the same break? I'm so glad you stopped those negative voices in your head and posted this blog. Thanks so much for posting!

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LCRUMLEY81 9/19/2013 3:03PM

  great post thank you

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BAMAJAM 9/19/2013 2:32PM

  What a valuable lesson here! It is time to become our own best friend, and time to become our own hero! Thank you for this message today----
Keep on Sparking!

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SIMONEKP 9/19/2013 2:04PM

    great thoughts, I often say the same things to myself when I catch myself being really on myself about something. I guess we can all sympathize with others but have a harder time giving ourselves a break!

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NONNAOF2 9/19/2013 1:55PM

  You are so right! We can only move forward and not let negativity take over! You should be proud of yourself for what you have accomplished and move on ahead! Good work! :-)

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IDICEM 9/19/2013 1:51PM

  We must believe in ourselves through the good and the bad. Thanks for the reminder.

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SUSIEMT 9/19/2013 1:10PM

    Good for you! You gots to do what you got to do! Great job on the steps! Keep up the good work but pay attention to your body!

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SUSIEMT 9/19/2013 1:04PM

    Another good blog Steph! Using spark coach our challenge yesterday was to ask ourselves whenever we were reaching for food " are you really hungry? Or is it something else?" I have to admit when I first read that I thought oh yeah! Like I am going to do that! Well, I actually did ask myself those questions. Go figure! I stayed within my calorie range and then some. Go Coach!! Keep up the wonderful job with your blogs. They mean a lot to your fellow sparkers!!

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DIANNEMT 9/19/2013 12:10PM

    Yep--we need to treat ourselves like we treat our friends.

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BARBARAROSE54 9/19/2013 12:10PM

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ROCKYCPA 9/19/2013 11:42AM

    Thanks for sharing - really good advice!

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PATRICIAANN46 9/19/2013 11:35AM

  Great advice..........Too often we are our own worst enemy!!!!! emoticon

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SHOAPIE 9/19/2013 10:54AM

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NEPTUNE1939 9/19/2013 10:38AM

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 9/19/2013 10:08AM

    So true. emoticon

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WORKNPROGRESS49 9/19/2013 9:52AM

    emoticon blog!!! emoticon

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GOOSIEMOON 9/19/2013 9:00AM

    Your blog posts are so honest and real and well written.
Thanks for sharing your insight and your journey.

This reminder was good to have today. emoticon emoticon

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MIMIDOT 9/19/2013 8:50AM

    Great blog! Thanks for sharing. I needed it today. I went away and came home 3 pounds heavier. Tho, I know most of it is salt. I gain every time I eat out, and I ate out a lot this past week. I still felt I let myself down.

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ADDIEPER 9/19/2013 7:38AM

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SANDYCRANE 9/19/2013 7:20AM

    Great advice.

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NEWTINK 9/19/2013 7:10AM

    Being kind to yourself is the hardest to learn but the most necessary to be a success . You are doing great !!!!

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WATERDIAMONDS 9/19/2013 6:52AM

    Great point of view and very encouraging. Thank you.

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PENOWOK 9/19/2013 6:37AM

    What can I say- you are so right!

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SHERYLP461 9/19/2013 6:26AM

    Yes, we must all learn to treat ourselves better and to know as the commercial says, "we are worth it!" Good reminder, thanks

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CARRIELYN56 9/19/2013 6:11AM

    Thank you! Good encouragement!

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NASFKAB 9/19/2013 5:37AM

  you are so right thanks

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JANUT57 9/19/2013 5:05AM

  Well said emoticon

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JBASKETT63 9/19/2013 5:01AM

    Great blog

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111BUTTERFLY111 9/19/2013 4:49AM

    emoticon and sooooo very true!!! Thanks so much for posting! You did a great job putting this together!

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RASPBERRY56 9/19/2013 4:35AM

    Thank you for sharing!

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