Wednesday, September 11, 2013
Okay, so my philosophy recently has been...
This journey is a long and hard one, especially when you want to lose 100+ pounds... so each victory no matter how small is a great way to get excited about this journey and keep us focused!
Today I am celebrating a big triumph on the BMI scale! With that said, I am not a big fan of the BMI scale. If you go by that chart, I mean no disrespect at all... but it definitely doesn't take into account muscles and the way our bodies are built and so it is not the end all be all for me. But on the flip side of that, when it says something in my favor, I think it's pretty darn awesome!! As of this morning I weighed 191 even, which means I am in the OVERWEIGHT category! At my highest weight I believe it was Class 3/Morbid Obesity, so to get down into the overweight category is a dream! I am super excited for my physical on the 19th, because it'll be the first time my doctor can't say "You are still in the obese category but I'm glad you are working on it!"
My goal weight of 170 will be 102 pounds lost and that is where I'm headed and then I am going to reevaluate things. I am thinking something more like 160, all I know is that even when I am at my goal and maintaining, if the BMI wants to call me overweight even then, it won't bother me. So call me fat, call me chunky, call me chubby, call me overweight, just don't call me obese.
One more NSV for the day, I wore my size 16 (down from 24) shorts today... the FIRST time wearing shorts public in over 10 years. You know what was amazing? Nobody gave a tiny rats butt if I was wearing shorts! No one laughed or snickered, no one even really looked my way. It is sad to think I waited 10 years to wear shorts because I was afraid of what others might say or do. It is often 100+ degrees here and I would just sweat it out in my jeans... so if you can relate to this, and you aren't wearing or doing something because of what others might think, JUST DO IT! If you are comfortable wearing something that is all that matters, and everyone else doesn't care about what we do nearly as much as we think they do! I can't believe I wasted 10 years melting in the sun, but those days are over!
Monday, September 09, 2013
This blog is for everyone, but it's especially for those on this journey with me that have a LOT of weight to lose. worrying about how long it might take to get this weight off, stop stressing over the numbers and how many pounds you have to lose each month to get there in a certain amount of time. When we have a loooooong way to go on this journey, it can get so overwhelming to know that it could take months or even years to get all of this weight off... but it'll be worth it in the end!
Every time I started a weight loss journey (and that is TONS of times over my 27 years), the first thing I'd do is crunch the numbers. Well I want to lose XXX amount of weight... so if I lose 2 pounds a week for XX amount of time, I will be to my goal by XX/XX/XX. But wait, what if I lose 3 pounds a week, and oh add in the fact I'll probably lose 5 the first week, so when can I get to my goal? How long it took was already overwhelming, but what was even worse is doing the math to figure out how to get a calorie deficit for 3 pounds a week. It usually resulted in "OMG, I'd have to eat 1200 calories AND burn over 1000 calories a day to get that deficit, I can't do that so I might as well give up!" *Cut to me, in the Jack In The Box Drive Thru, ordering enough food for 2-3 people.*
Now don't get me wrong, a huge part of goal setting is to put a time frame on it... and I understand why. Saying you will do it "someday" isn't good enough... but for me time specific goals didn't work. I wanted to be 199 by the end of 2012 and I didn't hit that milestone until July of this year. When I didn't get it by 12/31/12 I was devastated. I had to really rethink my journey and realize that weight loss isn't a simple lose 2 pounds every week kind of thing... we have to learn to adapt and change... and roll with the punches.
So be honest, when I tell you I've lost 80 pounds so far, what is your first thought? If it's not your first, it's at least your second, and that's "I wonder how long it took her!" Well I am here to tell you that it was not any steady consistent weight loss. There were plateaus and gains and all sorts of twists and turns along the way. I'm going to show you what my journey has looked like.
My highest weight was 272, I lost 10 pounds before starting my (3rd) journey on Spark People in March of 2012. I weighed weekly (more or less), but I will spare you and show it more as a monthly recap.
March 20, 2012: 262 (-10 from highest)
April 11, 2012: 256 (-6)
May 2, 2012: 252 (-4)
June 8, 2012: 246.8 (-5.2)
July 6, 2012: 239.4 (-7.4)
August 17, 2012: 230 (-9.4)
September 10, 2012: 227 (-3)
October 10, 2012: 218.8 (-8.2)
November 29, 2012: 214 (-4.8)
So this is where things get dicey... I hit a huge plateau, regained some weight, and genuinely had a hard time for a long time.
December 6, 2012: 212 (-2)
December 26, 2012: 212.4(+.4)
January 8, 213: 216.8 (+4.4)
February 13, 2013: 211.4 (-5.4)
March 6, 2013: 210 (-1.4)
April 8, 2013: 215 (+5)
May 8, 2013: 215.4 (+.4)
June 15, 2013: 211.6 (-3.8)
July 8, 2013: 204.4 (-7.2)
August 8, 2013: 195.2 (-9.2)
September 4, 2013: 191.8 (-3.4)
What isn't shown in here is there was a time in April or May where I actually got back up to 222, and had to start losing that weight again.
So if you haven't learned anything from this blog , and you are still doing the math, that is 70 pounds lost in 18 months, which is just under 4 pounds a month on average. That is not outstanding by any means, but it's proof that if you are consistent it will all add up in the end! There are two ways to look at my journey... One way is to look at all the time I wasted! If I had done a better job I would have already been to my goal by now. But the new me looks at it like this: I have been on this journey for 18 months, have a total weight loss of 80 pounds, I have never given up. There are many times where I gained weight back, lost the same weight over again, or been super stuck for weeks at a time. There were weeks I didn't exercise, weeks I ate everything in sight... but I never once threw in the towel. In all my previous attempts I never lasted more than 6 months or 40 pounds lost, so I have definitely changed in so many ways! I learned so much from plateaus and regaining some of the weight back, and I am stronger because of it! So the next time you want to be upset you only lost 1 pound, or you think this is just taking too long, remember to keep your eye on the , stay consistent, pick yourself back up when you fall down, and remember it will all add up in the end! We will get there when we get there! Just stay focused and put in the work and you can get to wherever you want to go!
Saturday, September 07, 2013
I adopted Sparky at the end of January of this year... and he has become like my child lol. I wish I could take credit for his awesome name, but it was already his name from his previous owners who could no longer keep him. If that wasn't a sign that he was meant to be my fur baby, I don't know what is.
Since then he has kept me accountable with our daily walks. On the days I work my brother or mom come over and make sure he gets his walk. So he knows, come 9-11 pm, someone will be there to take him for his walk. He also can sense when I might be getting lazy, because he will make sure to whimper if it's approaching 11pm and we haven't left yet. He gently reminds me that it's time to get off my tush!
Sparky eats in the afternoon when I wake up (since I work nights), and if I sleep in a little late he is patient to a point, and then if I push it too far, he let's me know that he's hungry. He gets excited to eat, he loves his food, he wags his tail and he gets to his bowl and he chows down. But his daily walk is the world to him. If he even begins to think I might be flaking, he will let me know, and get all crazy. One day he walked right over to his leash, sniffs it, as if he was saying "It's still here, so what's the problem?!"
So I am trying to take a page out of Sparky's book. I can like to eat, I can thoroughly enjoy it, I can eat yummy things and then move on with my day. But the real adventure is the ACTIVITY. It's more fun, it gets us moving, our hearts pumping, and we have a great sense of pride and accomplishment after we complete it!
For someone who was/is an emotional eater (and still battle it today), it was a huge thing to me to take a step back and realize that food doesn't need to be the highlight to my day. There is so much more to life than just the food, and the feeling I get after I take him for a walk or do my exercise can not compete with the momentary happiness from eating any food. Don't get me wrong, I still love food and I always will, but I've been embracing that and cooking some healthier options and really experimenting with what I want to eat. Yesterday I made a steak sandwich that was to die for.
So let's all take a lead from Sparky and get out there and be active today, and let's enjoy it while we're at it!
^Sparky if he doesn't get his walk.
Wednesday, September 04, 2013
First off, I apologize for being this highly obnoxious happy person that is celebrating everything! It is probably getting old, so I do apologize for that. I celebrated Onederland last month, this month I've been celebrating having one chin, you know, the finer things in life! But when you are on a journey to lose more than 100 pounds, it is a long hard road. If you don't take pride in all the little accomplishments, and continue to find new ways to motivate yourself, it is really hard to keep going.
I have never been big on the reward system, not because I don't think it's a great system (it's awesome), but it just was never a big deal to me. I bought myself some spiffy stuff for 50 pounds down, because in my entire life history of losing weight I never passed 40 lost. But after that, celebrating with my Spark Friends kind of became the reward. Instead of going out to buy something, I could post and celebrate with my closest Spark Friends and that would be enough!
This morning I weighed in at 191.8 which gave me my 80 pounds lost trophy. On a whim I decided to try out these size 16 shorts I bought that couldn't even zip up. On July 30th I posted the pic on the bottom, and the pic on top is today!
Sorry for the creepy pose, I was trying to show they were actually buttoned! Can I also say that I have not worn shorts in public in over 10 years, because I felt I was "too fat" to wear them. It took me a long time to realize I should never be ashamed of my body, no matter what it looks like, and I can wear whatever I feel comfortable with. I live in Los Angeles where it's often over 100 degrees, and would always wear jeans because I was simply too embarrassed. I have gone from a size 24 to a size 16 and I am going to wear these shorts, pasty legs and all, with PRIDE!
I just want to let anyone out there know, that there is nothing special about me. No matter how much weight you want to lose, you CAN lose it! You just have to be consistent, to dust yourself off when you fall down and get back to work. I've hit numerous plateaus and weeks of regaining 10 pounds, but you just have to keep pushing and keep turning it around. Turn to your Spark Friends for help and support when you are down, and turn to them to celebrate when you hit a milestone! Celebrate loud and celebrate often!
Tuesday, September 03, 2013
More than a year ago now, my girl Susan (IMSOOZEEQ) introduced me to the flying squirrels... no, not the little furry creature pictured above, but that pesky arm jiggle we tend to get under our arms! I had never heard that phrase before, but it totally described them perfectly.
So the other day, I started Hip Hop Abs with Shaun T (which I LOVE LOVE LOVE btw), and as I was doing a move that required me to pump my arms... I heard a weird *smack*. It startled me a bit but I kept on moving. All of a sudden two more *smack* *smack*. My dog Sparky didn't seem to be alarmed so I didn't think there was anyone at the door, or creeping around outside. I continued on and sure enough *smack* *smack* *smack*! It was the attack of the flying squirrels!
For a second it kind of bothered me... I've worked really hard, I've lost almost 80 pounds... I've dedicated a lot of time and energy into this journey... and I still had these flying squirrels just flapping away. I had a brief moment where I was a little upset about it, and what has happened to my body, but I quickly snapped out of it! I hadn't heard the flying squirrels *smack* around in a long time, and that reminded me that I was working out and working really hard to lose the rest of this weight. The flying squirrels never made noise while I was sitting on the couch, sitting in the fast food drive thru, or eating all that unhealthy food. They were smacking around and making noise because I was pushing myself out of my comfort zone, trying a new exercise, burning some calories and getting my sweat on! So to the flying squirrels I say FLAP on! They are nothing to be ashamed of, and I will flap mine with pride!
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