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BLC Is Coming To A Close...

Monday, August 26, 2013

As BLC comes to a close, I am conflicted about how I feel. I have done great for the majority of the 12 weeks, but this last week has been a struggle and I may very well have to post my first gain on the final weigh in. To go 11 weeks without gaining only to mess it up in the last week really messes with me. I'm trying not to dwell on it because BLC doesn't change things, this is still LIFE and we all have our ups and downs. It happens to everyone and I have to keep my head up and just keep on pushing. My team has opted not to take 4 weeks "off" between rounds because this is a lifestyle change and we have to keep pushing towards our goal weights 24/7. I also have not been able to redo my fit test which has me bummed, but between the kittens and walking Sparky and other shenanigans it just wasn't my first priority unfortunately. :(

So let's focus on the positives...
I've lost 16ish pounds. I can't say for sure because right now I am 196 but hoping to get back to at least 195.something by weigh in. Eek.

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I can actually see differences in those photos which is always nice, my face has changed so much and my legs get smaller while my stomach just hangs there... but that's part of the process I guess lol. Next round I will wear the same clothes to get a more accurate comparison. :) Live and learn lol.

I really need to get my head in the game and get focused, I received my Hip Hop Abs and I am looking forward to getting more exercise other than walking into my routine. Someone pointed out that nutrition is more important when trying to get abs, so just for the record I am not looking to get abs, I am looking for a fun way to burn some extra calories. ;) I will never be small enough to SEE abs and that is not one of my goals, not even by a long shot. emoticon

  
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MAMACHAMBS 8/29/2013 7:18PM

    Stephanie, my dear, sweet friend, I'm afraid I totally disagree with you! I BELIEVE YOU WILL SEE YOUR ABS ONE DAY! And more importantly, I think you should believe it too!

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SIMONEKP 8/29/2013 11:37AM

    I'm joining the next round

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HEATHERFREE 8/27/2013 8:32PM

    ugh excuse me missy! Think more of yourself and your body!!!! YOU CAN TOTALLY GET SMALL ENOUGH TO SEE ABS! sheesh, after you get to your final goal weight and you get your long awaited tummy tuck you could totally see abs! lol Think big!

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AMARILYNH 8/27/2013 12:41PM

    You've made AWESOME progress and while I have my fingers crossed for you NOT to have to post a gain, its just one week out of the BIG picture of your life - and you are doing great!! It would be really nice if the journey of weight loss was a graph in which the line goes down in a straight diagonal, but for most of us that doesn't happen!!

But that's ok - I figure its kind of like an analogy I heard about the stock market - the 'trend' in the stock market is like walking up a set of stairs playing with a yo-yo - the trend remains UP but the reality is sometimes down.

So our weight loss is just the opposite - we are doing great as long as the TREND is DOWN!! And you are trending just fine!!

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MERRY_XMAS 8/27/2013 8:47AM

    You have come so far! As you said, we all have ups and downs, the important part is to get back on track as soon as possible!

PS. You should definitely wear skirts all the time! Your legs are amazing!

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BEANIES_MOM 8/27/2013 4:52AM

    You have made GREAT progress. We all hit the bumps I am still trying to get over my latest one. You are an inspiration!!!!! emoticon

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JACOBSBELOVED 8/27/2013 2:51AM

    It's hard not to dwell on this past week since it's been rough. You may have had a really good 11 weeks and one not so good week, but that one week stands out and it's hard to not let it get you down. I get it.

For what it's worth, though, your pictures look fantastic and you really seemed to have done a lot in these past 12 weeks.

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DANCINGFLAMES 8/27/2013 2:09AM

    Great job on the progress.

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JACKSGRAN 8/27/2013 2:07AM

    You have achieved so much! Don't be downhearted. The pictures say it all. I'm not brave enough to take them yet.....

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COCK-ROBIN 8/27/2013 1:44AM

    wonderful!

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MLJSPARK 8/27/2013 1:38AM

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Congrats on all of your achievements during the BLC!! To go 11 weeks without posting a gain is emoticon and a wonderful success despite how things turn out this week. I hope the weigh-in goes well for you and best wishes with caring for your temporary kittens!

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MARYBETH4884 8/26/2013 10:34PM

    Your flexibility has really improved!!

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Non-Spark-Related, Anyone have experience taming feral kittens?

Friday, August 23, 2013

Does anyone have any experience with feral cats? emoticon I think I got myself in over my head, and I am regretting it big time. I have my mom's help, but this just ugh...

Basically I've worked at my job over 5 years, there were 2 cats. A couple ladies there feed them. Over the years the momma cat has had litter after litter, and all the kittens would always end up dying. I should have done something about it then, but no one seemed to care so I ignored it. Well finally she had a litter of 3 cats survive. Which meant 5 full grown cats. 2 wandered off but 1 recently returned. Then both the momma cat and one of her full grown babies had a litter. One litter completely died, one had 3 survivors and are now 4 months old (give or take).

So of course everyone is complaining because there are 7 freakin cats, it's ridiculous. No one wanted to do anything about it so my mom and I are getting them fixed. The goal was to take home the 3 kittens, but we only caught 2. We have 2 adults fixed, still need to fix 2 adults, and the last kitten might end up just getting fixed and released. There is a Sgt there that wants to have the cats euthanized but I am not taking them to their deaths. I just fixed them, and released them. That has been their home and they are also doing their part to keep away any other cats. Apparently YEARS ago the same thing happened, and they had the cats taken away and these new ones moved in not long after.

I am just so frustrated because everything says after 4 months old you shouldn't try to tame them. I know I have to be patient, I know it takes time and it's only been 2 days. I read that you should have a spoon attached to something long, like chop sticks and try to get them to eat off the spoon through the crate and they refuse to even do that right now. Then on top of it, we gave them flea meds as soon as we got them but of course there are still fleas EVERYWHERE in that bedroom and it is the room with my guinea pigs. My mom is coming over in the afternoon and this is all just a mess. I vacuumed up a bunch of fleas but they are everywhere, and I don't want my guinea pigs getting eaten alive because I brought these stinkin kittens in.

I'm gonna watch some youtube videos on taming feral kittens and doing more research tomorrow, just curious if anyone had any experience with that? I guess I'm just looking for someone to say I did it and it was worth it, it just took time. My worry is that we do this for weeks and they don't get any better, and no one would adopt nasty cats, and I don't blame them. I am not even a cat person, isn't that funny? I guess I am just venting because I am just freaking out, especially over the fleas/guinea pig situation.

Sometimes I wonder why I do stupid crap like this, but I didn't want those cats to have 829038290 more cats and I know I've done the right thing, I love animals, I just wish the right thing didn't have to be so stressful!

Anyways, this is Lilo & Stitch *SIGHS*


I just wanted to say as a disclaimer, I am not freaking out because they haven't made progress in 2 days, I am prepared for this to take weeks, I think I'm just overwhelmed because I have 0 experience with this, plus the fleas/guinea pig thing is bothering me so much.

  
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MERRY_XMAS 8/24/2013 3:05AM

    I never had cats, always a dog person... I hope you'll sort things out! It's a great thing that you took care of the cats, but maybe you could try to put the cage in another room cos:
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DANCINGFLAMES 8/24/2013 2:18AM

    You have a lot of comments here with great information. If you can't get them to be more tame/people friendly, try to find someone who needs barn cats. Some shelters offer programs to get feral cats into enviroments where they will thrive.

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HEATHERFREE 8/24/2013 12:55AM

    Think of it as no different then your weight loss journey lol But with the fleas you HAVE to get that under control ASAP or you will end up like us! We finally went to the vet and got the advantage flea drops which are the ONLY ones that work. other than that vacuum vacuum vacuum and if you have to then get the foggers from the vet also. The fleas stuff from the store does NOT work

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STONECOT 8/23/2013 3:42PM

    While you're waiting for the flea meds to work, take guinea pigs OUT of the room overnight, and use a long acting flea spray like Acclaim on the floor. You want one of the sprays that kills fleas and stops eggs from hatching. One spray will last 6 months, and the guinea pigs can go back into the room in the morning.

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FINCHFEEDER80 8/23/2013 2:43PM

    Good luck with whatever you end up deciding to do! I have heard of TNR programs (from watching My Cat From Hell), and it seems like a good thing to do. I would adopt them all if I could! In fact, probably the only reason I'm not the crazy cat lady is because I recognized that I could only take care of the one I had, financially.

I wish Mr. Piggy luck as well!

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SIMONEKP 8/23/2013 1:03PM

    Not sure they can be tamed into house cats but they may make good outdoor cats if you live in warm weather.

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CARIOLA 8/23/2013 12:41PM

    My daughter works with a rescue group and has raised over 50 kittens for adoption. I took in an abandoned kitten last fall and raised him until he was adopted by a wonderful family. So there is hope and help!

The first thing you should do is see if there is a TNR (Trap-Neuter-Release) program in your area. They will help you to trap the kittens and adults; they will lend you the special traps that are needed. They will take care of the spaying and neutering and rabies shots, and the cats usually get an ear tipped so they can be identified as TNR cats. Some groups also test for FeLV and FEHIV. If the cats test positive for these diseases, they will likely be put down rather than released.

The younger the kittens, the easier it is to tame them. The three-week old I took in was totally dependent on me for his food—had to be fed with a syringe—so he saw me as Mama right away. It also helped that I had two cats of my own; they learn how to socialize from other cats. These guys are probably pretty set in their feral ways at four months. One helpful group, Alley Cat Allies, says that after five weeks, it is really hard to get feral kittens tame enough for adoption, so you may find that the best option is to get them fixed and release them. I know that my daughter has never had luck taming the older ones, despite all her experience. All the kittens she has raised were either born to pregnant mothers who were trapped and gave birth before being taken in for spaying, or kittens under six weeks who were abandoned. In the first instance, the mother and babies were kept in a cage until the kittens could eat on their own; then the mom was spayed and released and the babies socialized for adoption.

Here is the website for Alley Cat Allies, which may have some useful advice:

http://www.alleycat.
org/page.aspx?pid=289

You have done a good thing for these cats, even if you do have to release them. If they are fixed, you will be helping to reduce the feral cat population, and they will be less susceptible to getting injured in fights and won’t have as much competition for food. Good luck!


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STRONGDJ 8/23/2013 10:53AM

    Stephanie,
Ask the vet about something called Capstar. It helps reduce the flea population. The only thing is, it comes in a tablet form which might be a problem for your situation. Here's a description:

Capstar Flea Treatment Tablets are used to kill fleas on dogs and cats, which begins working within 30 minutes. Capstar will kill more than 90% of adult fleas within 4 hours on dogs and 6 hours on cats, and pets may temporarily scratch as a result of the fleas dying.

One year our entire neighborhood was having a terrible flea problem. Capstar helped us get it under control. You still have to use other flea treatments, but this stuff gives you a fighting chance.

Also SP member CATHUT runs a cat rescue, she might have some useful advice for you as far as the rehabilitation (or not) of the kittens.

Best of luck.
DJ



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AMARILYNH 8/23/2013 9:09AM

    emoticon I have no experience with this either but just want to say how I admire you for trying! And thanks for the giggle: "I didn't want those cats to have 829038290 more cats." Exactly!! Anyone who keeps animals around should be humane enough to have them fixed. Good luck!!

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MADEIT3 8/23/2013 8:58AM

    I wish I could give you some hope. Feral cats tend to remain feral. Even when they look tame for a while, they can turn "wild" on a dime. I don't know where you are, but In Kansas City, we have a wonderful no-kill shelter that has a special program for feral cats. They adopt the cats out as barn cats as long as folks agree to get them necessary shots and vet visits as needed, along with general feeding and watering. We have a barn cat and it's worked out well for us. I do not expect my barn kitty to be overly friendly with me - although he will come up and say help every once in a while. The good news is he keeps our barn free of mice and snakes. I applaud what you're doing, and I'd highly recommend that you look for a similar program or at least someone with an acreage willing to take on a spayed or neutered animal. The very best to you!!

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AMOS76 8/23/2013 8:58AM

    Keep us posted on their progress! I wish you all the luck in the world. You have a kind heart and breaking the cycle of death and reproduction is a start.

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CERTHIA 8/23/2013 8:52AM

    I just wanted to wish you good luck. You are very kind to care for the cats. I wish there were more people like you around!

I hate to be discouraging, but I would think they are probably best off if you let them out again if they don't seem to settle in (after having them fixed and vaccinated ofc). You could try to tame them long term by feeding them on the outside to gradually build trust before taking them in, but they will likely not be content living as indoor cats anytime soon..

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FABAT402009 8/23/2013 8:40AM

    Reach out to Spark member 3_GIANTS_4_ME, she's amazing and rescues cats and dogs.

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JACKSGRAN 8/23/2013 8:33AM

    I have no comforting words or experience sorry to say, but I'm sure it's possible given time. I'm sure there is someone here who knows, or knows someone who knows.... Hope you get the answer.

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COCK-ROBIN 8/23/2013 8:27AM

    May it go well with you.

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There Are No Season Passes To Onederland!

Tuesday, August 20, 2013


(^This is the Onederland sign I had in my Onederland pic. It hangs on my wall above my scale so I can look at it everyday to remind me that I worked to get here and have to work to stay here.)

As I said in my status yesterday, I was chatting with my BFF Susan, and we talked about how I had a couple rough days and what not, and being the sweetie she is "At least you are staying in Onederland, so that's the best part!" I told her I am finally realizing that there are no season passes to Onederland! It isn't buy a day get a year free! I wish that was the case, and there were a few times my mind started slipping and thinking I didn't have to work as hard.

When I first got to Onederland last month, it was so much fun, I couldn't believe I did it! I just squeaked on in at 199.6 and was worried that I might see 200 in some of my weighing adventures (because sometimes I get on more than once a week). But I was very lucky that I have not stepped a foot outside of Onederland since I first arrived. That is fine and dandy but it also gave me a little bit of complacency. When I first hit it I had 2 kind of "whatever days" and I recently had 2 more "whatever days", but I have to remember that I still need to DO WORK.

My mind plays tricks on me sometimes, it's like it tells me that "I've got this" and lulls me into this false sense of security where I feel like I don't have to work as hard. What drives me crazy about this is, when I started my journey this time, I was committed for life. This was the first time that I realized that you don't "diet UNTIL you get to your goal weight, then eat whatever you want." I realized I had to make permanent changes, that I could stick with forever. I knew that maintaining my weight would take the same (if not more) effort that I was using to lose weight, and I was fine with this. The kicker of course is that I am not even at maintenance. I honestly don't know when maintenance will be... I'm confident I will know it when I see it. I will wake up one day and FEEL that I am at a good weight for myself and that will be when I maintain. But even when that glorious day comes, I still need to DO WORK. My girl Susan is always good at reminding me I have to do the work. I can't let the little gremlins in my mind tell me it's okay to slack off because I've worked so hard for so long.



I am ready to kick this up a notch, I am ready to get the rest of this weight off, no matter how much weight that might be. I ordered Hip Hop Abs and I'm super excited to start that... it looks like a lot of fun and it's definitely my kind of exercise. I don't know if I have shared this publicly in a blog, but after getting to my mystical goal weight, and maintaining for a bit, I am going to have a tummy tuck. I already have the money saved up and it is a choice I have made based on my body, and the amount of hanging skin I seem to have. The "apron" as you will just continues to get worse and worse as I lose the weight. A lot of people say "you'll be fine, it'll go back up", but I can honestly say that seems very unlikely at this point. I was overweight my entire life, the skin is stretched to the point of no return in a lot of places. If I can get to goal and my body magically takes care of itself then yay, but I am prepared financially and emotionally for the inevitable and being privileged enough to have that as an option has taken a huge load off my mind. I don't know that I would be able to push forward as hard with this weight loss if I didn't have that option, because my stomach getting worse and worse would probably start to discourage me. So I'm ready emotionally and financially for that, but I'm not at my goal and so that is my focus to get the rest of this weight off once and for all. emoticon

  
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TRIXIETEXAS 8/27/2013 10:40AM

    You are doing great and you have the right mindset! I'd love to hear your review of Hip Hop Abs after you start it!

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KATHANN2 8/23/2013 3:47PM

    I know a lot of people love hip hops abs. But remember its your nutrition first before the abs will come out!

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SIMONEKP 8/23/2013 12:59PM

    I hear you. I tried Hip Hop Abs and it wasn't my cup of tea, too cheesy for my taste. Good for you re: the surgery. When I get to where I think I want to be, if I have the apron thing, it was be a must do for me as well.

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LYNNWANNABE 8/22/2013 7:48AM

    I'm trying not to focus on the hanging skin.. I probably won't have the money in the end to spend on it; plus, we've got other more important expenses that really, my husband needs before me [like new dentures, as he's using a temporary partial right now]. I already have sagging skin but won't give up because I know I'm going to feel better if I keep going. (I'm glad because of your youth that you planned and saved for it!!!) emoticon emoticon

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MERRY_XMAS 8/21/2013 5:10PM

    You reached a milestone and moving beyond that is always tough! But it seems you are determined to do so! You have come this far, I'm sure you can do it!

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MILLYDALLY 8/21/2013 1:53PM

    I hear ya!!
Good luck!!

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JESSYJAINES 8/21/2013 1:05PM

    Wonderful blog. I feel sometimes we hit plateau's in our mind. We feel awesome and motivated and then something happens and we have to re-motivate ourselves. Good for you, being prepared and knowing that this is your new lifestyle. You got this! emoticon emoticon

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MKLEINSC 8/21/2013 10:30AM

    Wonderful blog! I am so proud of your progress and your commitment to yourself! Keep up the hard work and you will get to that skin removal surgery!

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AMARILYNH 8/21/2013 9:41AM

    Another great blog, Stephanie!! You are SO right - there IS no 'Season Pass' to our weight goals. And YAY for planning ahead so you are ready for that tummy tuck if it is needed! You ROCK and you are SO inspiring to those of us out here in SparkLand who are following your journey!! emoticon emoticonYou are emoticon emoticon

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ZAPPATTACK 8/21/2013 9:15AM

    You can do it!!

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DEIDRESH 8/21/2013 8:40AM

    You've got this and you CAN and WILL reach your goals! emoticon emoticon

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MONKEYSTAR28 8/21/2013 8:17AM

    It is so true, it takes constant planning, work and dedication to get there and stay there. I love your sign above your scale. What a great visual reminder of your goal, and you achievement. emoticon

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JACKSGRAN 8/21/2013 2:09AM

    This is a first class post. Not only are you being honest, you are also showing that you have thought things through. I'm really looking forward to following your next steps and offering any support I can. GO FOR IT!

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COCK-ROBIN 8/21/2013 12:05AM

    Wonderful!

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DANCINGFLAMES 8/20/2013 11:19PM

    Great blog, we all need to be reminded that this is a life long committment and that we have to work for the things we really want.

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CIROHIO 8/20/2013 11:03PM

    Great blog! You are so right you can not relax and let them gremlims get the best of you. I to made it to onederland not to long ago maybe 3 weeks or so ago. I have not lost since then so I am being extra careful. Guess I have been lucky that with being on all these antibiotics and steroids for the past weeks that I have no gained. Thank goodness. Just stay focused and keep your eye on the prize!

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JUJIFRUIT 8/20/2013 10:47PM

    Great attitude!

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FITFRIT 8/20/2013 9:42PM

    For the longest time my goal was to get back below 230, and I did! Then it crept back up on me and I'm over it again. Time to recommit!

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MOTHEPRO 8/20/2013 7:53PM

    Good for you! I have a way to go before getting to my goal, but I worry about the extra skin. My stomach is not bad right now, but my arms and especially my thighs are sagging a lot. I'll have to start saving up so I can get it taken care of too.

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Shhh.... Be Quiet... Can You Hear That?

Friday, August 16, 2013

It's your body telling you what you need! If you truly listen, your body will tell you when it's hungry and when it's full! That may be common knowledge to you, and if it is, emoticon! But I will tell you I did not get up to 272 by listening to my body. I used to be like Monica Gellar from Friends, I thought I was always hungry!

If you've never seen "Friends", well shame on you! ;) Her mom comes to her on Thanksgiving and asks her to finish off the pies because there is no room left in the fridge. She goes to take them instinctively, but then says "No thank you!" and pushes them away. The dad then says "Judy, you did it, she's FINALLY full!" I can absolutely relate to that statement.

I used to think that full was that super uncomfortable, overly stuffed feeling, where you just want to undo the button on your pants for some relief. emoticon On the flip side of that, I thought hunger was when that super uncomfortable feeling went away, and you returned to normal and were no longer feeling bloated... that must mean it's time to eat until you are overly stuffed again, right? emoticon Oh how wrong that was. emoticon I think the first time I truly figured out what hunger was is when I did a fast for 24 hours. It was a huge eye opener of what the real hunger signals were, and also the realization that I wasn't going to drop dead if I didn't get food in that exact minute. I later learned that slowing down and really listening to your body can cut out soooooooooooo many unnecessary calories, and that bloated feeling became a thing of the past.

I no longer go by "dinner time", "snack time" etc. I stop and listen to my body. I know not everyone has that luxury, and at work I abide a little closer to those things... but when I am off I am free as a bird and I can eat dinner when my body tells me it's time. emoticon I also learned that just because I planned out my dinner and it'sin my range, doesn't mean I have to eat it ALL. *DOH* emoticon So simple, but before I would have just ate it because I was in range and I could have it.

I've learned that when I am hungry, I want food, I don't care what that food is, I just need something because my body is asking for it. When I want something specific, and my mind is saying go get some ice cream, chips, or something else specific, it just wants to eat. To that I respond "You want to eat just for the sake of eating, you can eat again tomorrow (or later when you're hungry), but now is not the time." Then I move on with my day.

I am big on tracking my food, I am big on portioning out stuff, but I am learning that if you just stop and listen to your body, it'll let you know when and how much to eat. So if you are stressing over calorie ranges, the new tracker vs. the old tracker... maybe try getting in tune with your body and see if that helps you at all.

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HEATHERFREE 8/21/2013 8:08PM

    thanks for this blog Steph, I knew all of this but actually just ignored the facts.....I just need to mindful!

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MRS.CARLY 8/19/2013 1:27PM

    Great blog! Do you still track calories? I'm trying to figure all this out myself...i'm definitely an emotional eater!

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SIMONEKP 8/19/2013 12:57PM

    awesome

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DRADDIE 8/17/2013 4:28PM

    Well said! Love the mention about lunchtime, dinnertime- even now into this journey how we often still let the time dictate our "hunger". Thanks for the great reminder!

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MERRY_XMAS 8/17/2013 8:51AM

    I have a very different approach and it works for me. It's exactly what they say: that you should try things so you can choose what is best for you.

I track my food ofc, and I have "breakfast time", "lunch time" etc. I eat even when I'm not hungry because most of the days I'm on my lowest end of my range so I must eat what I have planned. In addition, I know that if I don't eat it now (even if I don't feel hungry), I'm gonna be hungry in a few hours and I'll need to eat more than what I have planned. Bonus that sometimes I feel really full although I was totally in range.

You are doing a great job figuring out what is best for you and listening to your body! Well done!

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PUREHEART_315 8/17/2013 7:39AM

    I enjoyed reading this post. I especially liked the info on Physical Hunger vs. Emotional Hunger. Thank you for sharing. emoticon

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AMARILYNH 8/17/2013 7:01AM

    I can SO relate - AWESOME blog! Even when I began trying to 'listen' for true hunger signals it took a while to 'hear' them - I'd trained my body so well by keeping it full that it kind of 'forgot' how to recognize true hunger. And I'll add here - a growling stomach isn't always a sign of true hunger - it may just be the 'time' it has learned to expect food. Great idea to try the 'any food' clue - if a nice spinach salad (with fat free dressing) won't satisfy the hunger it probably ISN'T true hunger!

Its taken time for me to retrain my body (and more importantly my mind) as to what true hunger is. But it was SO worth the time!! emoticon emoticon

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POUTINGPEGGY 8/17/2013 5:20AM

    Great blog. Thanks for this.

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JACKSGRAN 8/17/2013 3:55AM

    Such a good and useful post. Thank you. It gives me hope that eventually I WILL get there.

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WEBEZE 8/17/2013 1:54AM

    Great Blog. You have learned so much and at a much younger age than I did. You are going to have so many more years ahead of you comfortable in your own body.
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EDDYMEESE 8/17/2013 1:07AM

    Great blog, so true :) I'll be thinking of this tomorrow...will give it a go.

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GEMINIGEM6 8/17/2013 12:46AM

    This is so true! I do the same thing. Of course now that I've cut out carbs for the most part I don't get near as hungry so that helps too. But you're so right! If just listen to our bodies we do ourselves a great service! Great blog girl!

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HEALTHYHEIDI12 8/17/2013 12:40AM

    Love this. Thanks for sharing!

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FITFRIT 8/16/2013 11:58PM

    I used to eat to that point ALL the time when I first married my husband..no wonder I put on 30 lbs in the 3 months before we got married and continued to pack it on after. I cannot remember the last time I was uncomfortably full because I stopped acting like an idiot!

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DANCINGFLAMES 8/16/2013 11:33PM

    Wonderful topic today, love the explination of eat for the sake of eating and eting when you are hungry.

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DIXIEDOLL87 8/16/2013 11:12PM

    Great Blog. I can totally relate

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MOTHEPRO 8/16/2013 11:09PM

    So true!

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COCK-ROBIN 8/16/2013 10:50PM

    Beautiful!

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CIROHIO 8/16/2013 10:30PM

    Hey Steph great blog. I know when I feel like eating I do ask myself are you ready hungry or are you bore. I listen to my body pretty much. You keep up the awesome job!

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SYELLICO 8/16/2013 10:28PM

    This is all so true and it there is a definite learning curve! Thanks for all the great info :)

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JACOBSBELOVED 8/16/2013 9:51PM

    This is definitely something that's hard to completely comprehend. It's hard to find the difference sometimes between hunger and cravings for me, so congrats on being able to know the difference! You're doing so good!

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MONKEYSTAR28 8/16/2013 9:34PM

    You are so right! It is something that you definitely learn. I started my journey at 268, so we are practically Spark twins! :) emoticon

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PLUGINALONG 8/16/2013 9:33PM

    Good points, thanks for sharing.

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The Good, The Bad and The Donut!

Monday, August 12, 2013

Let's start with The emoticon and just get it out of the way!


Yesterday, I ended up eating 2,000 calories on a 1200 calorie day. *GASPS* emoticon I am really not amused by this. I have been doing my calorie cycling in a 1400 calorie average, and doing great for weeks. The 1200 calorie days didn't bother me because I was at work and most of the time fully satisfied with what I was eating. Yesterday that was not the case. I had eaten my dinner, 1200 calories for the day, and I was still starving! emoticon The Krispy Kreme box had been taunting me all day, and in that moment of extreme hunger and weakness I ate a creme filled glaze. It was delicious, but the worst part is I inhaled it so quickly I didn't even enjoy it. On top of that it didn't do anything to help the hunger I was feeling, and I ended up eating some more food I had brought with me and ended up at my whopping 2,000 calories. emoticon

The Bad: Obviously the emoticon was part of the bad, the 2,000 calories was part of the bad. The stomach ache I had this morning was definitely part of the bad! emoticon Can I just say, that I used to eat 3,000+ calories on a regular day before I had this change in lifestyle, so the fact that my stomach is upset by 2,000 calories which contained one donut and all regular food I eat on a daily basis was quite a shocker. But maybe it was my bodies way of reminding me why I don't live that way anymore. emoticon

The Good: Part of the good was learning from my mistake, for accepting that I ate out of impulse and while I was truly hungry, the donut did nothing for me in terms of giving me the fuel my body was asking for. It also allowed me to reevaluate my calorie goals and I am trying for a 1500 calorie range. I am doing a lot better today and feeling more in control and not hungry like I was before. Maybe just a little bit of extra calories is what my body was asking for. emoticon

And the Super Good, is that I bought a new shirt and wore it to work for free dress. I got 3 people telling me how good I looked and that they thought my shirt was cute! emoticon

I haven't bought any new clothes in over a year with the exception of a pair of jeans here or there because I'm losing this weight and well, fat girl clothes are expensive. I recently bought this shirt and a couple of others and I'm glad I did. It makes me feel pretty and smaller to actually wear clothes that fit. Other than that I've been living in regular t shirts because even if those get a little big, you can still wear them. The compliments were great, but the way I felt was great and it came at the perfect time. It really reminded me of what was important and that one bad day can't derail me as long as I learn from it and move forward.

We all have good and bad days, none of us are perfect but it's what we do with the bad days and whether or not we learn from it and do our best to change it that counts.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

DANCINGFLAMES 8/16/2013 11:37PM

    1. I love that shirt, and I bet you rocked it.
2. Great attitude and outlook
3. This blog made me feel better about the bump in the road I hit recently.



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GEMINIGEM6 8/15/2013 1:48PM

    Great job girl! And I love that shirt! I want one! Lol.

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SIMONEKP 8/15/2013 12:52PM

    All part of the journey I guess

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JLEMUS1 8/15/2013 8:26AM

    AWESOME!!! We stumble but then we get up and kick butt!! We will not be denied!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JESSICA_STULTZ 8/14/2013 4:13PM

    I agree. We all have a bad day for calories. As long as we don't have those kind of days day after day we are ok. Glad things are looking up for you!

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CIROHIO 8/14/2013 9:23AM

    we learn from our mistakes! forget it and move on. today is a new day! emoticon Cathe

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HEATHERFREE 8/13/2013 11:48PM

    very cute shirt!!

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BOODIGGETY 8/13/2013 6:36PM

    Love it Steph. So true. The mistakes really do remind you how good you feel when you eat well. Glad you're picking yourself up and not beating yourself up. Keep on truckin'!

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ANTOF9 8/13/2013 9:40AM

    Love this blog entry! We do have a lot in common :) I'm with you on the new clothes -- I'm trying so hard not to buy new clothes, because frankly I don't want to waste the money on clothes for a size I'm not going to be in 5 months! But we can't go around in baggy t-shirts, either :) Good for you for buying and wearing your pretty new top! I bet that felt fabulous :)

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MERRY_XMAS 8/13/2013 4:59AM

    After a year in maintenance the only BIG difference is that I can now stop and think "Is it worth it?" before I binge. If I really feel that my body needs it, I go for it, no matter the extra calories. And I have learned to actually enjoy the extra food and not full myself with guilt.

It is a good thing that you had a little treat. We need it once in a while!

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DIRLI8 8/13/2013 12:04AM

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MABELL1WFTX 8/12/2013 9:17PM

    What a great blog. You certainly learned from your "bad" and that is what is important. It is sometimes difficult for us to do that instead of beating ourselves up. It was strong of you to stop at just one donut. Me - I could eat a whole box. Once upon a time, Sara Lee made 2 sizes of coffee cakes - a small and a large. I would buy one of each, eating the small one all by myself. Then I would take one small slice out of the big one so that my DH would think I was doing so good by eating one small slice. Well, the joke was on me and my behind.
Kudos to you and your learning.

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JACOBSBELOVED 8/12/2013 3:18PM

    First off, isn't it amazing that a bad day is 2,000 calories? Remember what a bad day used to consist of? I'm not trying to say that 2,000 isn't bad, but it just shows you how far you've come. :)


Second, I'm glad you feel like you learned from your mistake and you know what to do next time.

Third, I think you should put up pictures of you in your new clothes. That top is adorable and I think you should show it off on SP :D


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JACKSGRAN 8/12/2013 2:13PM

    I love the way you have dissected the good and the bad, and you were honest about it.

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SILVER_WOLF1221 8/12/2013 2:08PM

    Great post! It's good to see that you took your experience and learned from it instead of beating yourself up over the whole thing. But now I have a problem,.....mmmmmm donuts..... emoticon

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TIKITAMI 8/12/2013 10:53AM

   
Isn't it amazing how our body quickly reminds us that is doesn't actually like the crap we used to try and run it on.

Good for you for stopping at one and tracking even when you knew you were over.



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GSDMOMMA 8/12/2013 10:33AM

    Great blog! Donuts will do me in every time, but you have a great attitude about it and seemed to have gotten right back on track. Way to go!

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MOTHEPRO 8/12/2013 10:30AM

    emoticonGreat job getting right back on track!

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ZAPPATTACK 8/12/2013 10:11AM

    Thank you for writing this - exactly what I needed to read after derailing myself yesterday at a MLB game and then going out to the movies... I will keep in mind to forgive myself for what I've done and do better today.

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SYELLICO 8/12/2013 10:06AM

    Such a great attitude! emoticon

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LUCKYPRESENCE 8/12/2013 10:04AM

    UGH!! Donuts are sooo tempting. Keep your head up and move forward :)

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MONKEYSTAR28 8/12/2013 9:30AM

    Pesky donut! Today is a new day. You are on a fresh day! Keep on going! You are doing great! :)

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WEIGHTING4BABY 8/12/2013 9:16AM

    *thumbs up*

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AELI2468 8/12/2013 8:45AM

    I fear that all the KK/donut talk on the boards last week might have messed with you!
But kudos to keeping it to one, and recognizing how you felt afterwards!

And congrats on the compliments!!
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AMARILYNH 8/12/2013 7:45AM

    So you are still human? Glad to know it!! The GOOD I read here is that you stopped with ONE! I bet in the past (assuming there were more in the box) you'd have come back later for seconds. Am I right? How do I know (or guess) this? Because in the past I would have!

I personally DO NOT believe in allowing yourself to be hungry!! And other than that one donut you ate healthy food - that was (IMHO) the exact right thing to do!!

You are just amazing!! And YAY on the shirt and the compliments!! I also believe in buying clothes that fit along the journey - do you have any good thrift shops nearby? I've found some lovely things in them without breaking the bank.

Have a BLESSED, AWESOME week!! You've SO got this!! You SO inspire me!! That said, I'm off to walk! emoticon emoticon

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COOKIE_AT_51 8/12/2013 6:22AM

    Love the outcome ... and the wisdom gained. emoticon

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YMWONG22 8/12/2013 3:34AM

  Correct mentality. Tomorrow is brand new day to do things correctly.
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DESERTDREAMERS 8/12/2013 3:16AM

    Note it, regret it, then move on. emoticon

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COCK-ROBIN 8/12/2013 1:39AM

    I'm proud of you!

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