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Sparky Won't Let Me Be Lazy! :D

Friday, July 05, 2013

I have had Sparky since the end of January, and somehow I think if I had him a year ago, I'd be at goal right now. emoticon I am off 3-4 days a week and I walk him each day off. When I am at work on the weekends, his Memaw (my mom) or his boyfriend (my brother, technically his uncle but I just called him his boyfriend from the beginning so too late LOL... but Sparky loves him a lot) come over and take him for his walk. So he knows, without fail, that at some point the leash and harness are coming out and he is getting to go for his walk. emoticon



I live across the street from a park with a huge firework display. emoticon I was so worried how Sparky would react, but he did so good. We played and we had fun while the fireworks were going off, and then when it got to the finale he got a little nervous and we snuggled on the couch until it was over. emoticon

He did so good and I was so proud of him, because it was super loud! I had decided we weren't going for a walk, because even though we go at night, we'd have to wait til all the people cleared out and it just wasn't worth it to go that late. As I am sitting on the couch, 11:00 last night, he casually walks over to his leash, that is sitting on top of a box and he sniffs it. I swear it was like he was saying "the leash is still here, what's the problem?!"



That's all it took. Before I knew it I told him we would go for one, a short one, but that he deserved to go. So off we went, a short walk for us is now a mile, which funnily enough I used to struggle to finish. We went almost 2 miles and came back home and he was just so happy! I love my little Sparky, and it's just a huge perk that he will not let me be lazy. I can skimp on other forms of exercise, I can eat poorly, but he makes sure that no matter how well or horrible I am doing, that I at least get in our walks... and for the most part when that is happening, the other parts of the puzzle (eating, exercise etc.) all work together.



I am confident with Sparky around, I'll never be allowed to be lazy, and I'm okay with that! emoticon

  
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DEBADEAU 7/8/2013 8:00PM

    He looks like one cool dude!!

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JESSICA_STULTZ 7/6/2013 6:51PM

    I think Sparky was definitely a good find for you! He will keep you nice and busy.. and help you get your exercise in too!

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HIDDENRUNES 7/6/2013 12:52PM

    Yay! That's why I love my dog too...he will sit in the doorway and just stare at you when it's time for his walk, great motivation.

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KBLASEN 7/6/2013 9:00AM

    Sparky friend emoticon

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MARYBETH4884 7/6/2013 6:48AM

    Sparky is just your personal trainer! He knows what you need to do! He's a cutie!

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MKLEINSC 7/6/2013 5:48AM

    Love it! I would love to have a dog, but I don't have anyone around that could help me out with it while I am doing my 12-16 hour shifts on my weekends.

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MERRY_XMAS 7/6/2013 5:25AM

    Thumbs up for your own personal trainer!!!

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WEBEZE 7/6/2013 12:32AM

    WTG Sparky. It is so nice to have a Spark to remind you to keep sparking.
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JACKIE542 7/5/2013 11:52PM

    Sparky is a great fitness buddy. emoticon

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 7/5/2013 10:30PM

    Ahhhh Yeah you and Sparky!! Loved this blog... You and Sparky just keep on walking! It's such a positive thing for both of you!

Annie

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IMSOOZEEQ 7/5/2013 10:21PM

    The Sparkmeister rules!!! He name suits him very well because he is the SPARK that keeps you moving! emoticon

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GEMINIGEM6 7/5/2013 9:54PM

    Sparky is the bomb diggity! Woot!

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MOTHEPRO 7/5/2013 9:35PM

    Yay for Sparky!

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DIETER27 7/5/2013 8:03PM

  Dogs are great and they always make sure you get in your exercise.

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RUNNING-LIFE 7/5/2013 7:57PM

    Dogs are awesome aren't they? I love the pics you added!

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The Binge Monster - I Thought I Had Beat It, But I Was Wrong :(

Wednesday, July 03, 2013



One minute I have it all together, things are emoticon's and emoticon's, and then something happens that is outside of my control, and I go running towards food. This is a process and I am learning a lot about myself... but I am learning that when I am hurt, even after all this time, I turn to food to soothe myself. Knowing that is half the battle, and I fought it for over 24 hours before I gave in.

I use the term binge loosely, and it seems everyone has different definitions of what constitutes a binge. I have heard stories of binging that are nothing like what I do... but what I do I consider it a binge. It is a conscious thing for me and it always involves fast food. It isn't a fridge full of food or anything, but it is still a large amount of food, always high in calories. The one that happened just an hour ago consisted of Chili cheese fries, jalapeno poppers and chicken nuggets. Definitely too much food for one meal, and too many calories for the day. Add on top of that I had already eaten my calories for the day and was not hungry when I did this, and that just spells out disaster. emoticon

I have been feeling hurt over something personal, but turning to food was never the answer and I knew that... but low and behold I did it anyways. I know that I am not perfect by any means, and "stuff happens", but this isn't something that happens to everyone. People who don't struggle with their weight and even those that do don't find themselves at the drive thru ordering a large amount of food when they aren't hungry because they are upset. It isn't one of those things that "everyone does" and that makes me really look into why I do it.

Sitting here now, I am still upset over the original issue, the food was so greasy that my stomach hurts, and I am disappointed in myself. I knew this would happen, and I did it anyways. I have spent some time journaling and that has helped, but I need to help myself BEFORE I binge next time, not after the damage is done.

I am prepared to move forward, and not beat myself up for it. From my past experiences, I know that beating myself up will lead to even more binges, and that is the last thing I need to do. I need to work on getting stronger a day at a time. I tracked my dreaded emoticon sticker that indicates a day I eat over 3,000 calories, and I am making it my goal for that to be the ONLY cupcake sticker in July. In June I only had one cupcake sticker and that wasn't for a binge, it was because I went to the buffet in Vegas and I just assumed it was a cupcake sticker kind of day lol. I was doing so well, and I can't afford another week or two off track.

I honestly can't believe how much I let outside forces (i.e. boys emoticon) have such an effect on me to the point where all I know to do is turn to food. I have come a long way, in that I never get a random feeling to binge or eat that way. It used to be a regular thing. It went from everyday that was my dinner, to a few times a month wanting to eat that way, and now it seems to just be an emotional response to something bad. I have at least gotten to a point where these encounters are few and far between, and if I continue to be accountable and continue to grow as a person, I can only hope they get even fewer and farther between.

This is just accountability for me... sometimes you guys tell me the nicest things that I'm such an inspiration or am doing so well and it is the sweetest thing... but I am also human and I fall and I like for people to see the good and the bad of things so that they know we all slip sometimes... we just have to remember to keep getting back up. emoticon emoticon

  
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DEBADEAU 7/8/2013 8:04PM

    The binge monster happens!! The good news is that it isn't the star if the show anymore, just a guest appearance. Emotional eating is so tough to deal with. You will bounce back for sure!

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JESSICA_STULTZ 7/6/2013 6:49PM

    The binging and emotional eating is how I got myself to my highest weight. I'd literally eat my emotions. Eat to celebrate, eat because I was fat and depressed.. (which just made things worse), eat to grieve, eat when I'm angry, eat cuz I'm bored, eat because everyone else is. I still do these from time to time.. but I'm working on them. Especially eating when I am bored, angry, or sad. Those are my worst ones. Wish there was some sort of big sign that would stop us from eating when we weren't really eating because we were hungry because a lot of times I do it without even noticing!

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 7/4/2013 12:01PM

    Oh lil' sister.. this so made me cry... I have been there.. binging... stuffing my emotions.. it's how I got up to 400lbs.. just know that I believe in you.. in the person you ARE right this moment... and know that you will not let yesterday's binge impact todays success.. be kind to yourself.. .

Annie

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JUSTLIKEALICE 7/4/2013 1:57AM

    You have got this. And you are absolutely right, keep trying to dig at that source! :)

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MARIANNE9855 7/4/2013 12:18AM

    The Binge Monster is a persistent foe but the fact that they are happening less is significant progress. We can't change how we learned to cope with our feelings overnight- relapse is a part of recovery- as long as the overall journey is making progress you will get there. I had a great 4-5 months losing weight and then I kind of slowed down- I haven't been binging per se but I have been eating more than I can and still lose weight. I'm gradually trying to work back down but its hard. I take comfort in the fact that what I am eating most of the time is much healthier than before and it will improve my health at the very least.
so just keep pushing we all understand and we are all hanging on together. emoticon

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JACKIE542 7/3/2013 10:14PM

    I agree we are human and we just have to keep getting back up. Looks like that is what you are doing, good job. emoticon

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LYNNWANNABE 7/3/2013 10:05PM

    I read this last night when I was struggling too [but was too tired to post] now I'm going to read through the responses you got; as by morning I over did it and ate all of today calories. emoticon (I tracked what I ate, it didn't leave me any room for ANYTHING today; so, though it will put me over I'm trying to eat very light.)

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JACOBSBELOVED 7/3/2013 7:12PM

    Like you said, you're human and you fall. You've fallen plenty of times, dusted yourself off, and moved forward. I know you're disappointed with how you dealt with your hurt feelings, but you're still looking for other ways to cope when something unexpected happens. Just because you've been doing this a while doesn't mean you're going to do it all perfectly.

You take that cupcake sticker, put it on the little square for today, and then you get back to doing what you've been doing. Pretty soon that cupcake will be days and then eventually weeks away. It will be all in the past and hopefully you won't be too hard on yourself because you're still learning. :)

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OCEANMISTCALI 7/3/2013 6:01PM

    I totally relate to you on this issue all to well. I am dealing with it too myself. so I sympathize completely with you and what you are dealing with. maybe we can helps each other

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JESUSLIGHTSMEUP 7/3/2013 5:58PM

  What I have learned so far and this is the third time back here on sparkpeople is that this is a spiritual battle.

Now, just meditate on this truth and go from there because I did and I am losing weight and am in control. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MERRY_XMAS 7/3/2013 4:58PM

    My definition of binge is eating whatever there is in the fridge (not freggies included ofc!) non-stop... I mean NON-STOP. I end up eating 15 slices of bread, 10 rusks, endless cheese and whatever sweet there is, like tablespoons of honey.

My trigger is "postponing things"... I usually distract myself from over-eating with the garden, talking to the phone with friends, watching TV series etc. But if there is something more important (like an upcoming test) and I postpone doing something about it, I use food to distract me from the stress and make me feel complete and happy.

We all have our "bad days", but as you said, the important part is that there are fewer times that we give in. And even if we do, we don't give up!

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JADED_CHICK19 7/3/2013 3:07PM

    I know exactly how you feel! I am also a fast food binger. I love the grease..I love the taste..and it makes ya feel full and warm inside...till the next morning..like you said it made you sick and thats what it does to me now that I've been eating healthy for over a month. Don't kick yourself over it..Learn from it! Find a vice other than FF that works and is a healthier option..possibly a bubblebath or a favorite movie..or maybe try and exercise and get that agression and hurt out!

You got this girl!

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MEGYSU 7/3/2013 2:58PM

    You mention that emotional eating isn't something everyone does - which is true, of course - but I think it's probably more common than you think. How often do we see people (particularly women) on TV reach for a pint of icecream when something bad happens? You are not alone and you have a really great attitude. Good for you for acknowledging the "oops" and moving on without beating yourself up too bad. Keep it up, girl, you're doing awesome!

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CHOCOHOLIC2276 7/3/2013 1:41PM

    Why must food be a source of comfort? I go through this too. I don't know what it is. It fills an emotional hole with a sense of physical fullness.

You're not alone in this battle. Know that it is something others deal with, like me. Journaling seems to help but sometimes the binge is stronger than you are. I hope you find a way to deal with it. You're doing good so far though, dropping the frequency down to once a month? I would consider this a victory emoticon

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WHOVIANGIRL23 7/3/2013 12:09PM

    Super duper emoticon . The binge monster is evil, I don't find myself in the fast food drive thru, but I have my "designated" foods. When I run to food and binge, ill generally buy a pint of ice cream, a package of cookies, and a candy bar. And sometimes a soda. I like the sweets.
Sorry to hear you're having a rough time. I'm here if you need to talk. Get back up, shake it off, and kick ass the rest of this week. emoticon

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ZELDABEE 7/3/2013 11:06AM

    I get it. I totally get it - my last encounter with the binge monster was a week ago today. Sometimes when I'm rocking my calories and workouts I feel like I've banished him for good but turns out I've only managed to wrangle him to back of my mine and he creeps up on me when I go to a dark place. I am an emotional eater, I always going to be an emotional eater and I'm learning that it's okay. What's not okay if letting it control my life and i think we are both on the same page there!

I know I'm like a country away but if you ever need someone to just listen you know where to find me. heck, we can even swap cell phone numbers for texting! I always love a new texting buddy.

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TIMELAG 7/3/2013 10:35AM

    I can relate to this so much, Stephanie. Please feel free to talk to me privately about this, if you like. We may be able to help each other!

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AMARILYNH 7/3/2013 10:19AM

    emoticon Steph, we are ALL human and for those of us with a weight issue sometimes we turn to food when we want comfort. You said it yourself - those times are becoming fewer!! That is PROGRESS my friend - and being able to look back and see that in the aftermath the food didn't truly comfort you..... I suspect it will become easier and easier to find another kind of comfort.

Interesting what you said about a 'binge' being different things to different people. They also change - my last 'binge' was two packages of Skinny Cow Dreamy clusters (120 cals each) and three pieces of Russell Stover Sugarfree Chocolate Mints (180 cals for the 3). Why? Because those were the only 'goodies' in the house and I live 9 miles from the nearest grocery store or fast food place!! LOL - one more blessing of living in the country!!

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CBLENS 7/3/2013 10:09AM

    We all have the binge monster within us. and yes it shows it's open mouth every now & then....I just get more exercise in when that happens.

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ADARKARA 7/3/2013 9:44AM

    Think of it this way: you didn't fall on your butt. You tripped. You saw the rock coming, and you lost your balance, but you didn't fall. You can keep going exactly from where you are. emoticon

Fortunately for me, I am not an emotional eater. In fact, I'm the opposite: I DON'T eat when I'm upset. I eat when I'm bored, which is far more often, LOL. But now I try to occupy myself with some other activity. Maybe the next time you are upset you could take your dog for a nice long walk? Leave the cash at home and you won't be tempted to buy anything!

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PUNKY100 7/3/2013 9:10AM

    UGH BOYS!!! AMIRITE?!?!?!

Sorry you had to contend with the binge monster last night. At least that boy you have whapped back into place! ;-) Good job keeping it to 1 cupcake day last month, that is AWESOME!!!! :-D

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NANA2PRINCESSES 7/3/2013 8:06AM

    The binge monster is a frequent visitor to my house as well. I think all of us who deal with emotional eating are well acquainted. The strategy of keeping low cal. filling foods at hand is a good one. The ultimate answer of course is figuring out the root cause and dealing with it, but that is easier said than done. I'm glad you are not beating yourself up over the issue, and moving ahead with your July goals.
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ELRIDDICK 7/3/2013 7:14AM

  Thanks for sharing

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JRAY864 7/3/2013 7:12AM

    Gotta hate that binge monster. He visits my house sometimes. I keep my favorite binge treat on hand - fat free popsicles. They have only 10 calories, so you can eat the whole box and not be in trouble. Also, keep personal size bags of plain popcorn and lots of fruit on hand at all times. Then - when the binge monster visits, feed it good things. Better yet, make a pact with a friend to meet for coffee instead of being home when the monster visits. emoticon

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GLUECIPHER 7/3/2013 7:12AM

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Vacation + Compliments from Gammie!

Sunday, June 30, 2013

emoticon emoticon As everyone knows, it's been flippin hot, especially in Vegas. It was 116 most days, which was fine because the only time spent outside was to get to and from the car. The bad news was that it NEVER cooled off. I was planning to walk Sparky at midnight even, but it was still 100 degrees! Sparky said, "it's too flipin hot, let's skip it!"


I am not making excuses, I could have done other exercises, but I can't lie to you... I enjoyed just relaxing! It was a relatively short trip, I got there Tuesday night and left Saturday night. I had the buffet on Wednesday as planned, but we also went out to dinner on Friday as well which wasn't planned. So my eating wasn't the best, but there was something so great about just having 3 days to relax and enjoy myself.



emoticon The biggest eye opener for me was that my "overeating" while on vacation was similar to how the 272-pound-Stephanie would eat on a normal day. My tummy actually hurt after the day at the buffet, and I didn't even stuff myself to the brim like I could have. emoticon It was a great eye opener just to see how different my life is now, and I have no desire to go back to my old ways!


^Sparky and Gammie were winners! emoticon

Instead of focusing on the fact I overate and didn't get to walk Sparky, let's focus on the good stuff.

emoticon I was on track for 6 weeks without a slip up prior to vacation. The old me would have said "you are going on vacation in a week, might as well wait to start your DIET when you come back from vacation." A week long vacation could easily turn into 2 months of me not pursuing my weight loss goals, not this time.

emoticon I am back on track the FIRST day of coming back. No easing back into this, because it isn't a diet, it's a lifestyle, and things that were okay for me on vacation are not okay now.

emoticon I am only up 2 pounds, and I know this will come right off! I spent a week in Vegas with my Gammie in the past and come back home up 7-9 pounds, so this is a huge victory for me.

emoticon My Gammie gave me a couple compliments, and they were so out of the blue that they meant that much more. One was "You don't realize how small you are getting!" And the other was about how I have a waist line. I have to admit, when you are still 200 pounds, you don't feel small. As far as I've come, I am still a big girl and sometimes I really have to remind myself that I am in a much better place... I do hope as I get closer to my goals that the little voice that stays "you are still big" eventually goes away. I'm working on it though. :)

All in all, I am happy about how I handled my vacation, and how I handled the days leading up to and after it. I have come a long way in accepting this is a lifestyle and I have learned to find balance between splurging and enjoying life, and getting healthier! emoticon

  
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CHICAT63 7/3/2013 4:54PM

    That's sound like a great vacation, minus the heat of course !

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JADED_CHICK19 7/3/2013 3:11PM

    So jealous you were in Vegas! I LOVE LOVE LOVE Vegas..Ive been there 4 times in the past 5 years and even went there for half of our honeymoon. Everything about it is amazing and I'm so glad to see you had an amazing time :)

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MEGYSU 7/2/2013 12:48PM

    Good for you. There is nothing wrong with being relaxed for a few days. I think it truly goes to show that you've made a lifestyle change that you can take a few days "off" and then go right back to healthy habits. Way to go! You are an inspiration.

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DEBADEAU 7/1/2013 9:53PM

    Welcome back Steph! Great to hear you got right back on track!

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MERRY_XMAS 7/1/2013 12:20PM

    "The biggest eye opener for me was that my "overeating" while on vacation was similar to how the 272-pound-Stephanie would eat on a normal day. "

You must be very proud!!! You are not only changing your body, but your whole lifestyle!

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MOTHEPRO 7/1/2013 11:51AM

    emoticonGreat job getting right back on track! I'm glad you had a great vacation!

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HEATHERFREE 7/1/2013 11:48AM

    Good job on the vacation!. Yeah that heat is ridiculous down there!!! We are FINALLY getting some heat this summer, the past couple years it has just been crap, not even warm enough to swim at most of the lakes! But boy it was hot yesterday and today I got up at 9am and it was already cookin outside. Your doing a great keep pushing forward!


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LYNNWANNABE 7/1/2013 5:27AM

    How about this for a complement, last night my brother said I use to look like the kid from A Christmas story that was all bundled up, where his arms stood out to the side, but now they hang down [my husband said, yes.. she's got a waist now]. I guess I went from this emoticon to this emoticon emoticon (OK, I'm still reaching for that last one.) emoticon

Anyway, having said all that, I'm glad you had a good time and didn't get heatstroke or anything, I heard it was miserable there with one person dying? (I feel bad for anyone that has to work outdoors in that kind of weather.)

Also, ARE you ready for a new month? You timed it perfectly, you can start a whole new calendar of stars. emoticon

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BEANIES_MOM 7/1/2013 4:52AM

    I'm glad you had a great vacation and got to relax! emoticon for getting right back on track.

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Sounds as though you had a great time - very well done. Small changes mean a lot.

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AFERARI 7/1/2013 1:18AM

    Glad you enjoyed your vacation! Great job getting right back on track (and mostly staying on track as well)! I enjoyed the pics.

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WEBEZE 7/1/2013 12:33AM

    Awesome vacation. Good job staying on track and getting right back to it when you got back. emoticon

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GEMINIGEM6 6/30/2013 10:16PM

    So happy for you! Sounds like you had fun. And nothing wrong w/ relaxing and enjoying life and not counting every calories and worrying about working out. You're back on the grind now so it's all good! And you have come a long way! I tell you all the time...you're def one of my heroes on here. :)

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MYHUBBYISMYHERO 6/30/2013 10:12PM

    Good for you Stephanie. Sounds like you are back on track. Yeah Stephanie!!! Have a good week.
Headed to bed, work tomorrow. Made 4 batches of whoopie pies today and had one crumb off the cookie sheet. Woo Hoo to me too.
sharon

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IMSOOZEEQ 6/30/2013 10:05PM

    Yep I knew you had this on lock down! I am so proud of all that you have accomplished! You could have just threw it all aside and gone gang busters in the food department but you didn't. I am glad you took time to relax and reboot to be ready to take on your work week on your return. You have changed so much in the last couple months! Oh let me say it like a mom...You are growing up so fast! lol

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NIKKICOLE83 6/30/2013 9:44PM

    I am glad you enjoyed yourself with your gram. Most people come back from Vegas with herpes so the fact that you only brought back two pounds is awesome!!!! emoticon

I know the feeling of realizing how far you have come but still being at a weight or size that reminds you how far you have to go. The good news is that we are only 30 or so pounds from our goal. We have already lost twice that! So this TOO can be done.

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SIMONEKP 6/30/2013 9:21PM

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JUSTLIKEALICE 6/30/2013 9:09PM

    look at you cutie pie! Glad you had a good vacation! You deserve it!

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Peaks & Valleys Of A Weight Loss Journey...

Sunday, June 16, 2013


I don't know about all of you, but my weight loss journey has not been one straight line of successes. I am almost at 15 months into this journey, and there have been many successes such as:

emoticon Losing 65 pounds! emoticon
emoticon Being able to walk 3 miles a day with my dog! emoticon
emoticon Having more energy and getting better sleep! emoticon
emoticon Making tons of awesome Spark Friends! emoticon
emoticon Not giving up in the face of the dreaded plateaus, 3 of them to be exact, and one of those I hit twice! emoticon
emoticon Still being here 15 months later (after coming and going over the years) and never giving up! emoticon


But it hasn't always been emoticon's and emoticon's. Some less-than-successful-moments include:

emoticon: Being on a terrible plateau and not losing ANY weight for almost 4 months. emoticon
emoticon: Getting frustrated and slacking off for 6 weeks which resulted in regaining 10 pounds. emoticon
emoticon: Feeling defeated because the scale wouldn't budge no matter what. emoticon
emoticon: Days where I have eaten everything in sight, upwards of 3000 calories. emoticon
emoticon: Days where I have not gotten off the couch. emoticon

The #1 question I get asked is how do you stay motivated? And the truth of the mater is that I am not ALWAYS motivated. It comes and it goes. It's all about the lifestyle, and forming healthy habits. For example I do the following AUTOMATICALLY without any thought:

emoticon Weigh and track all my food, ALWAYS. emoticon
emoticon Track my water. emoticon
emoticon Get in some form of exercise everyday (mainly walking for me, with Sparky or alone) emoticon
emoticon Log into Spark People every day. emoticon

I don't think about if I SHOULD track my food, or if I SHOULD exercise, I just do it. And if you do something long enough, you will get to the "sweet spot" where you are no longer thinking about what you should do, because you are just doing it. Keep your eye on the emoticon, and just remember it's all about this:



Time flies whether we realize it or not. That quote that "A year from now, you will wish you started today" is SO true and something to keep in mind. My 15 month journey has been about my consistent efforts not to give up. I was probably doing well 10 out of those 15 months, but in the end what you do MOST of the time is what wins. emoticon


  
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MEGYSU 6/26/2013 10:07AM

    Way to go. Keep up the good work!

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NIKKICOLE83 6/22/2013 1:31AM

    This blog could have been written by me. This is so very true. I am now at the point in my journey (13 months in) that my motivation changes throughout the day! I could have the best of intentions and one thing could sway the pendulum the other way. On the flip side, one scary thought of being back in my old body will have me off of my ass faster than if someone yelled "FIRE!!!" I thought my upcoming wedding would be motivation enough for me to kick it into high gear but it isn't. Sometimes you just get tired on this journey. But I will suffer through that and continue to push myself if it means I don't have to be as sad and unfulfilled as I was before.

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THESHELBSTER 6/20/2013 9:15PM

    I loved this blog. I could relate to everything you said. You are amazing.

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SIMONEKP 6/20/2013 5:57PM

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JESSICA_STULTZ 6/20/2013 5:00PM

    One things is for dang sure. You are a fighter! I like thinking about it this way, No matter what, the time will pass.. Do I want to be where I am at now in a year? Or do I want to see progress in that year? If I want to see progress.. I need to put in the work (tracking food, cutting back portions, exercising). If not, well.. I guess I don't need to put in the work? I don't really think about not wanting progress because I want to see that goal weight on the scale someday.. and sooner rather than later! PS.. I think that last picture is my favorite. Most times we try to be PERFECT 100% of the time when it isn't really realistic. It's kinda like we are all on a twisting, winding roller coaster (one that goes upside down and up and down HIGH hills.) Those upside down twists are our obstacles! One of these days our rollercoaster of weight loss will come to an end.. and then it will just be maintaining! I am terrified of the maintenance period!

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ZELDABEE 6/18/2013 8:50PM

    yay love this! This is so great and it's blogs like this that give me hope that i can do it too!

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IMSOOZEEQ 6/18/2013 3:47AM

    Well all I can say is that you have laid it all out very well. Although there have been moments of emoticon & emoticon you keep pushing like a trooper! Oh and you didn't say that there is a pain in your back side (me) that won't let you quit!!!!

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BEANIES_MOM 6/17/2013 4:23AM

    You are such an inspiration! I hope to keep my spark going strong for as long as you have. emoticon emoticon

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WEBEZE 6/17/2013 12:46AM

    Awesome Blog Stephanie. You have just described my last 15 months with the highs and lows. For realsies this time, the life style is going to stick. You are learning this so much younger than I did. emoticon

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TRUNKJUNK 6/16/2013 6:48PM

    Love your blog

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ANY010113 6/16/2013 1:09PM

    awesome

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DEBADEAU 6/16/2013 12:42PM

    emoticon emoticon you are so inspiring Steph!!!

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LOSIN_IT4GOOD 6/16/2013 10:45AM

    You are my hero. So real, so honest and such an inspiration. Thanks for checking on me...things are still going really well!
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SWEETNEEY 6/16/2013 9:51AM

    this was really great. Losing 65 to me = success. I wish it was me. I lost 15 and gained back 10 and I am faithful to Spark. But I'm still here trying - not given up yet.

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MOTHEPRO 6/16/2013 8:51AM

    Well said!
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AMARILYNH 6/16/2013 7:11AM

    Great blog and great journey!! Its HARD TO BEAT SOMEONE WHO NEVER GIVES UP!!! So congratulations for not throwing in the towel - this journey isn't easy but its SO worth it!! You ROCK!! emoticon

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NANA2PRINCESSES 6/16/2013 6:30AM

    Great enthusiasm and weight loss stats. It is indeed a journey.
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MYHUBBYISMYHERO 6/16/2013 6:28AM

    First, I love the sunflowers in your background.

It is so easy to start something with great desire to see it through and GIVE UP. Your journeling reveals that you may have low points, but you continue to head towards your goal. Good for you skinny face girl!!!!!! (Doesn't it make you feel so good when people say things like that to you? The magic of the power of words, rather for good or bad.)

Have a good week. I started off strong last week, but ended up poorly.
Sharon

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COOKIE_AT_51 6/16/2013 5:08AM

    Love your enthusiasm ... I feel so much of the same but need to get to the exercise point emoticon
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MERRY_XMAS 6/16/2013 5:05AM

    Thanks for the comment on my Sparkpage!
"A year from now, you will wish you started today" I have never heard of that quote and it's very very motivational! Thank you for sharing!

You are doing an amazing job!!!

PS. How is your friend from work? Does she continue the diet?

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MKLEINSC 6/16/2013 5:00AM

    Keep it up Steph! You're doing great and have a very realistic mindset about weight loss...good indications that it will stick! :)

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EOWYN2424 6/16/2013 3:02AM

    Keep on pushing! You can do this!

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GEMINIGEM6 6/16/2013 2:58AM

    Yep Steph! This is for realsies as you would say. Lol.! I mean this is the reality of a lifestyle change journey. It is just that, a journey and it has peaks and valleys. And you're doing it girl! I tell you all the time you're def one of my heroes on here. 65lbs? What? Yeah that's how it's done!

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BLC 22 Goals & Fit Test

Thursday, June 06, 2013

Can I just say how flippin excited I am for BLC? The reason I am so excited about this round specifically, is not only because I have an amazing team, emoticon but for the first time I am hitting my stride in between rounds. I have not been this excited and on point with food AND exercise since the beginning of my journey 14 months ago. This is my 3rd round of BLC, but the first round where I'm not using the round as a reason to get back on track, I'm already on track... and that track is running straight forward to Onederland! emoticon

My goal for this round is to make it my best yet, the first round I lost 14.4 pounds and I am looking to beat that. My goal is 16.6 pounds this round. That is a weird number but it will take me from 211.6 to 195, so let's rock this! emoticon

My Goals For BLC:
emoticon: Get in 300 fitness minutes per week (gotta get my points).
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emoticon: Get enough points to become a "Dutiful Deputy"!
emoticon: Be able to be PROUD of what I accomplish during these 12 weeks. Last round, well um, not so much LOL. emoticon
emoticon: Do exactly what I did the entire month of May which includes: Exercising daily, tracking/weighing all food and being in range and getting in my water.
emoticon: I also have a goal to WORK on the things that we did in the fitness test (below). I can't come back in 12 weeks and expect to be able to do more when I don't do those things regularly during the 12 weeks. I get that this time and the idea of "beating the record" sounds great!
emoticon Lose 16.6 pound (Goal weight of 195). This one is last because I can't control the exact amount of weight I lose, but I can control all of my habits listed above! emoticon


BLC Challenge:
Our gracious Cappy wanted us to take a photo of our flexibility so we could compare it in the coming weeks. Can we just say there is nothing flattering about this angle?



*BTW, my brother who took the picture refused to take it with me slumped all the way forward, with my gut pressed into my knees and reaching to my toes, he said that wasn't the proper way to stretch, so eff him LOL. So this is as good as HE would tolerate*
And Fitness Test Results:

1 Mile Walk: 19.37
Crunches: 50
Plank: 20 seconds
Wall Sit: 50 seconds
(Modified) Squats: 15
(Wall) Pushups: 25
(For Fun) Hula Hoop: 3 minutes (7 is my highest record but it's yet to be duplicated LOL)

  
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JUDY106 6/12/2013 12:11AM

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THESHELBSTER 6/8/2013 3:31PM

    You are going to do so amazing this round. Your excitement is contagious!!!

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JESSYJAINES 6/8/2013 11:14AM

    It's wonderful how organized and written down your goals are. Thanks for giving a little spark! emoticon

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JADED_CHICK19 6/8/2013 10:25AM

    Good Luck with BLC! I can't stretch very far either but I'm hoping that changes within the next year! :) Your goals are awesome! So happy to hear that you are so excited!

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GEMINIGEM6 6/8/2013 1:44AM

    You can do it girl!

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MAMACHAMBS 6/7/2013 9:32PM

    You ShamROCK!!!

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DEBADEAU 6/7/2013 7:46PM

    That's about how far I can reach too! Good luck with BLC! Took me a minute to figure out what that stood for, haha!

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IMSOOZEEQ 6/7/2013 6:34PM

    Look out T Police! You are going to blow that thing up this round!!!! I love the goals and I am going to write them down and keep you accountable! You are in trouble now Missy! lol

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JDUBLANKO 6/7/2013 4:24PM

    Really looking forward to seeing your progress :) Great goals...now go achieve!!!

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MOTHEPRO 6/7/2013 3:59PM

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CORTNEY-LEE 6/7/2013 4:16AM

    awesome goals!!

You can do it!

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MERRY_XMAS 6/7/2013 3:16AM

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HAWTGRANNY2014 6/7/2013 12:57AM

    emoticon Keep on pushing.

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LOSIN_IT4GOOD 6/7/2013 12:41AM

    This is emoticon !!!!
Your enthusiasm is infectious! WooHoo.
I am also in the BLC and hope to get to Onderland!
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ZELDABEE 6/6/2013 11:30PM

    Yay! This is so great! I have to do one of these too for my weekend challenge. Can I just say that I really do love that picture, it looks like sparky is checking out his flexibility with you! I know you got this! emoticon

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CHUNKYMONKEY36 6/6/2013 11:06PM

    Awesome goals! There is a great BLC vibe this round, should make for lots of competition. Best of luck to you!!!

Andrea -Silver Spies

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JO88BAKO 6/6/2013 10:49PM

    Good for you!! What team are you on? I'm an Outlaw. I'm very excited about this round also. Good luck and have a great weekend!

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