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Best Compliment Ever & Gaining Perspective...

Tuesday, March 05, 2013

Since my last blog it has been nothing but down hill, I have been eating so poorly and struggling to turn it around. That made today's compliment that much more special, because I really NEEDED to hear it today...

I came into work today, signed in and then went back outside. When I came back inside to log in to work, I had this email from my female supervisor (who also has lost a bit of weight recently)...
Subject: You just walked in...
And I wanted to tell you that you look AMAZING! You have for a while but today I didnít even know it was you when I saw you in the camera entering the door code. WOO HOO! You go girl!
I really needed that, especially today! Plus, I love the way that she did it, it didn't draw attention to me in front of others, it didn't make me feel awkward because she did it through email. On top of that she actually took the time to open an email and send that. SO sweet! emoticon Saying she didn't recognize me has to be one of the greatest compliments ever. I think sometimes things happen for a reason, and maybe she sensed I needed that today. It is helping me to get focused, get back on track, and continue doing this because my hard work IS paying off, even if I don't realize it sometimes. emoticon

And now for some fun, to put things into perspective, here are some things that weigh 60 pounds, which is what I've lost to date.

40 dozen eggs:

4 of these:

240 sticks of butter:

12 of these:

Whether you've lost 6, 60 or 100, you are amazing! Just remember that even when we feel stuck, we can't give up. Struggling is NEVER fun, but those of us that are struggling are still trying. When we give up, we are no longer struggling because we are no longer trying. So even if you aren't doing the best on your journey right now, give yourself credit for still trying and not giving up. emoticon emoticon

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THESHELBSTER 4/1/2013 1:04PM

    I love this blog. I really needed to read it because I have felt so down after gaining back 20 lbs but I have still manage to keep off 60 lbs which is all the things you took pictures of so that put things into perspective. I am super proud of you.

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 3/12/2013 11:31AM

    That is so fantastic! It's really wonderful to read. I really love the way you are soaring!

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BOGUSANNIE 3/9/2013 9:50PM

    So did you put a copy of that email into your woohoo jar!!!????

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MERRY_XMAS 3/9/2013 6:24AM

    Loved this entry! Thank you for sharing!
Have a great weekend!

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GEMINIGEM6 3/8/2013 1:19AM

    That is so cool! And I bet it did brighten your day! You deserve it b/c you've worked so hard! :)

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NIKKICOLE83 3/6/2013 9:50PM

    You have had such a transformation and I am glad that you got that boost of encouragement. You have seen yourself as your old self for so long that YOU don't recognize the woman you have become and I am glad someone brought it to your attention.

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STARSUB99 3/6/2013 6:19PM

    Way to go Steph- nee! You have the right attitude - and you are right that sometimes we just need a little pick me up - and your supervisors words were spot on!
We all struggle with the persitence and patience. Continue to do what you can everyday - practice the good habits - slug through the tough times and you will come out ahead of the game!

You have come so far - I am so motivated whenever I see your page - It makes me believe that I can do it to ! You are an inspiration to me!

Go get em!

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    This blog is the 'right word at the right time' for me today. I was feeling defeated and now im feeling inspired. Thank you for being so awesome!

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JUDY106 3/5/2013 9:51PM

    That has happen to me and I know what you are saying about how it makes you want to keep on keeping on. Hang in there and you have done so well. I think we are in a slope because of the weather. I feel I am on hold somewhat because the weather is so bad and I can see Spring is just around the corner, but still can't get out and do things that I want to do right now. So, I kinda been on hold, but I feel that I am going to be able to get moving any day now. You are right never stop the struggle.
I am so glad something happen and broke your stand still that was in your mind. You have encouraged me to do the same.

Hugs, judy

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RODRIGUEZ41508 3/5/2013 3:53PM

    AWESOME Blog !!!!!
Way to go and hang in there, like you said when we give up we are no longer Struggling because we are no longer Trying.....
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You Got This !!!!!!!!!

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FITBODME 3/5/2013 3:01PM

    I bet you were smiling all day too! What a great feeling to know all of our struggles do pay off....eventually. I've been struggling too yet still trying because most days are better than others. emoticon

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GRACEMCC45 3/5/2013 2:50PM

    Definitely the best compliment ever!

Love all your comparison pics to keep your weight loss amount in perspective!

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PRIZM96 3/5/2013 10:07AM

    That is amazing! I love it when someone says or does something at just the perfect time! Yay for her! And YaY for YOU! You are doing great!

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KJELLYBEAN15 3/5/2013 9:44AM

    Its so wonderful that someone can tell us just what we need to hear when we aren't feeling it ourselves. And what wonderful timing. You have done an amazing job.
Oh, and a friend of mine once sent me a weight comparison chart. 60 pounds is equivalent to the following:

- an elephant penis,
- the amount of cheese the average American eats in a year plus a sperm whale's brain plus a human brain plus an ostrich egg and a rack of baby back ribs
- an automobile tie plus a bald eagle plus a chihuahua, plus the amount of fat the average American consumes in a year.

I cant wait til I can say I have lost the equivalent to an elephant penis. Not sure if I could say it with a straight face but it would be funny. And I feel so thankful I am not a female elephant.

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MMDAHLEN 3/5/2013 6:20AM

    Great job Stephanie! I am so happy your boss made you feel good. All it takes is someone to notice that you have lost weight, to help you get back in your groove. I know because I am really struggling myself right now. I will be so happy when i can say I have lost 60lbs like you. You are amazing and strong woman. emoticon

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BEANIES_MOM 3/5/2013 5:40AM

    That is awesome!! I don't think a compliment can get any better! emoticon

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LRSILVER 3/5/2013 4:38AM

    WTG Stephanie. I know you will be in onederland very soon. Keep pushing.

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IMSOOZEEQ 3/5/2013 3:29AM

    I love the pic! These should be a good reminder to you of what you have accomplished. Look that struggle in the eye and laugh in it's face! You are the one in control here my friend and don't let yourself forget it!

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WEBEZE 3/5/2013 1:46AM

    That is so awesome. Sometimes timing means so much. Love your weight comparisons. Pictures are worth 1000 words.
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BETHIEBOOPS 3/5/2013 1:11AM

    Aw yay! Go co-worker! I'm so glad she said something in such a nice way. You are a rockstar!

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JACOBSBELOVED 3/5/2013 12:54AM

    How nice to get an email like that! Like you said, it didn't draw attention but it was still really flattering.

It's so nice to get the encouragement when we need it most. :)

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MELLABELLAS 3/5/2013 12:43AM

    Great job girlie. Love the weight comparisons!

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AHTRAP 3/5/2013 12:33AM

    Amazing what the right word at the right moment can do, isn't it?

Glad others are recognizing the efforts you've put in to date.

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February Recap & March Goals...

Friday, March 01, 2013

If you ask me how February went, I would tell you it went SO WELL!!
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But if you ask the scale, he will tell you it didn't go well at all.
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Here's my side of the story.

emoticon I exercised EVERY single day in February. emoticon

emoticon I vowed to walk Sparky every day I was off and only missed 1 day when I was out with friends. emoticon

emoticon I am ending February with a little over 1300 Fitness Minutes.

emoticon I only have two dreaded cupcake stickers in my planner for February, which meant I ate over 3,000 calories. One day was my birthday, the other was girls night out. Last month I had 5, EEK!!

emoticon Sparky and I started off doing a mile and being super tired, and now we are doing 2.1 miles and loving it.

emoticon This isn't JUST February but over the last 6 weeks I have lost 17 inches from all over my body.

emoticon I broke through the dreaded plateau of 212 that I haven't been able to get under since Halloween!

But if you ask the scale how February went, this is what he'll tell you...
emoticon Stephanie lost 2.8 pounds in the month of February.

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So to that I say ever so eloquently, the scale can suck it!! I can walk 2 miles without getting winded whereas before I went up my 7 stairs in my condo and needed a nap. My clothes are fitting better, I'm getting stronger, I have significantly cut down the amount of calories and processed food I have been eating, I have been eating more fruits and veggies, eating more frequently, what else do you want from me?

So instead of forming a pity party I am celebrating my NSV's and I am moving forward into March, and the scale can get with the program or not. For the sake of my BLC team I hope it does, but I am not letting that thing rule me any longer! emoticon

March Goals:

The main one that is different is adding something in addition to walking on my days off. I really think my body is at a point where walking isn't a huge deal. I am increasing my distance but I still think I need something else to get my heart rate up a little more a few days a week. And I need to put more consistency into my strength training for suresies.

Here is wishing everyone a fabulous March! emoticon

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ANYA_JADE 3/5/2013 3:40PM

    You've had so many NSV's it's amazing! Congratulations! I can't wait to see what March brings for you. Hopefully the scale will get with the program and match the way you feel! You are so close to onederland, congratulations! :D

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EATVEGAN 3/4/2013 2:20AM

    Great February! And March will be even better. The scale will move. It can't weigh something that isn't there. Attitude is everything and yours is great.

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STARSUB99 3/3/2013 8:08PM

    You had a great month - your body is just resetting itself before it gets back into gear to drop more poundage. You are right about the walking - you need to change things up every 4 - 5 weeks in your fitness routine to keep your body paying attention to the activity and changes.

March will be a shining month for you - more NSV's and a ticket to Onederland.... emoticon

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JUDY106 3/2/2013 10:01PM

    I am with you on the scale thing. I can do so much more, feel so much better, and my clothes are getting lose. The scale does not have to rule us. I do check weight my weight because if I don't I go up. It does help me to stay down and keep what i lost off, but it does not go down like it use to. I change my exercising routine and it really helped. lost 3 lbs but my Birthday and a short trip for my birthday helped me put 2 lbs. back on. After i came back I have been trying to get back to adding different exercise routine , but haven't got back to it yet. I done good to do my regular classes. I am OK with it because I do see and feel the difference in myself. I will get going soon. I am happy that I am doing the exercises that I am doing now. I know though that I will have to push myself a little more and soon . Wishing you the best in finding that little extra to get you going down again. emoticon


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HEATHERFREE 3/2/2013 10:01PM

    This is all awesome! If you have been strength training then I bet thats why the scale hasn't been going down, because your probably gaining muscle OBVIOUSLY if youve lost that many total inches thats great! And as for adding something to your walking I would do like a minute of INTENSE boxing while doing a squat and then continue walking fast. It seriously burns soo many more calories because of the thigh muscle getting worked while doing the boing and then you continue walking for five mins and do it again it keeps your heart rate up the whole time.

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MERRY_XMAS 3/2/2013 7:38AM

    Here's to a great March!!! emoticon


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BOOKWORM27S 3/2/2013 7:30AM

    Good luck in your weight loss journey!

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LYNNWANNABE 3/2/2013 4:00AM

    Losing 17 inches is amazing and increasing your walk.. that is total success! We all know muscle weighs more and your legs must be getting toned!
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GUCCI9300 3/1/2013 10:18PM

    Good Job!!! emoticon

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JESSICA_STULTZ 3/1/2013 2:38PM

    Anything lost when you are overweight is better than none is the way I think of it. If I can lose a half a pound in a month.. It's a half a pound lighter than last month. Plus, you are clearly getting more out of the exercise and diet (and I use that word as in the foods you eat.. not the way most people think of it) than the weight loss. You are feeling better, you are losing inches which shows you are losing fat, and you just seem happier overall. And those are just the changes I see online. I am sure you are feeling more energized too which is always a great feeling!

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AMARILYNH 3/1/2013 1:29PM

    WOW - I call that a VERY successful month!! Have you seen those pictures of a pound of fat? 2.8 pounds is a BIG ole blog of fat - GONE FOREVER!! The ability to walk 2 miles is HUGE - because if you can walk 2 miles you can walk as FAR as you choose to!! Including a marathon if that's what you want - just pick a long walk day and add a mile to it every week or two!! Its all in deciding to do it (or not if it doesn't float your boat!!) emoticon

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    Sounds to me like February was an excellent month for you! Way to go!

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LRSILVER 3/1/2013 6:01AM

    You lost almost 3 pounds
That is fantastic. You are doing great.

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BETHIEBOOPS 3/1/2013 5:01AM

    Ah! This is JUST WONDERFUL! YAY February! March- here Stef comes! Are you ready?

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LISAN0415 3/1/2013 4:48AM

    March is going to be awesome!

Keep it up girlie!!!

Lots of love,


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BEANIES_MOM 3/1/2013 4:43AM

    emoticon That's great progress!

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WEBEZE 3/1/2013 3:06AM

    Awesome February report and progress. Here's to March being even better. emoticon

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What A Difference A Year Makes...

Monday, February 25, 2013

The year for my healthy lifestyle journey isn't til next month, but I was looking back on this old picture, and it was taken January 17 of 2012, so I instantly found a picture taken January of this year to compare, and I was glad I did. The feelings of that day of the "fat picture" came rushing back to me. It was one of the best days ever, I got to go to a live taping of my favorite show, The Big Bang Theory, but it wasn't always emoticon's and emoticon's, there were a lot of not-so-good things about that day as well. emoticon

This is the episode we saw... emoticon

emoticon Kunal Nayyar (Raj) signed my program! emoticon

It was a loooooooooooooooong day, you had to get there super early and wait because admission wasn't guaranteed. We had a blast, but...

What they don't tell you is you have to walk across the street, waaaaaaaaaaay down to the last studio on the right to get there. emoticon emoticon I really thought I was going to die. Walking so far. It was awful. The majority of the people were average size, there was however one obese woman that had to take a golf cart ride to get there. I felt bad for her as I heard others commenting, snickering and staring.

Then we got in, and they have the smallest chairs. Like ONE butt cheek fits on the chair kind of chair. They were zip tied together so you could not move them. Now my friend Marisol and I were both big girls... she got to sit on the isle and I had to sit next to some skinny girl. But basically Marisol and I did not really fit. In fact I was kind of on her chair and she was kind of half on her chair as well, hanging off the edge. It was a terrible feeling. The poor obese woman had to sit in two chairs, and I know people were snickering about that.

Then they had audience participation, and they would do fun dance contests and stuff. This one girl, who was just chubby, certainly not fat, was dancing and I had to hear the skinny witches next to me snicker and comment about how she should not be up the dancing up there and other choice words. It was a great day based on going to see The Big Bang Theory, but it was not a good day for overweight people. Not only the uncomfortableness of the walking and sitting in the small chairs, but the judgement from others.

Then the ultimate blow. The picture above is us with our favorite radio DJ JoJo on the radio. I used to win stuff all the time on the radio, and met the DJ numerous times, I even had a nickname. So after the long day of Big Bang Theory we stopped at Bob's Big Boy and JoJo came in. I said hi and after I told him my nickname he cracked up and remembered me from years and years ago. HE insisted we take a picture and that he would tweet it. I remember being so excited about the photo, UNTIL I saw the outcome. That is just not a good picture of me no matter how you slice it. There is no good angle, there is no hiding behind someone else and it really killed me. I was so RELIEVED when I saw that HE disabled the comments so that no one could comment on the photo. He has many followers and I would have died if I had to see a comment about the "fat girls".

I did not start my journey that day or even that month, but I really think that was a huge reality check. It was everything, the photo, the not being able to walk a mere half mile or whatever it was without feeling like I was going to die, not fitting into the chair, the judgement from others, EVERYTHING just hit me like a ton of bricks. March 20, 2012 I started my journey at 262 pounds, and I have not looked back since.

Sometimes we forget why we are doing this. I really forgot how miserable 272 pound Stephanie was. She cried at night, she had trouble just rolling over in bed, let alone walking around the mall... she wasn't living life and she wasn't enjoying the one she had. So sometimes we just need to take a step back, and remember WHY we wanted to change in the first place. Our new weights can become our "new normal" and we lose sense of just how badly we wanted to change. We get caught up in how much farther we have to go and don't look back at all the progress we have made. Remember where you came from, and where you are going, but don't forget to be proud of you TODAY and EVERYDAY along your healthy journey. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MERRY_XMAS 3/2/2013 7:36AM

    I always wondered how it is to be part of the audience in these shows! Thanks for the feedback! I love Big Bang Theory!

You look great, no matter what angle it is! As for the "skinny witches", just ignore them... Food is a pleasure, they don't know what they miss... We Do know, and that is why we are so stronger than they think!


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EATVEGAN 3/2/2013 3:11AM

    And then there are lawn chairs just lying in wait to drop us on the ground in front of everyone. It will be so wonderful not to have to be careful which chair I sit in. You are doing great. emoticon

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IMSOOZEEQ 3/2/2013 1:33AM

    A good friend of mine shared this blog with me and I am glad she did! lol You are so right about the difference a year makes. I am not yet at the year mark but I can still agree because as you well know, I was shut in and not doing well and I can look back to this time last year and remember so many terrible anxiety attacks. Thanks to finding Sparkpeople, I don't have attacks like that any more (well they happen but aren't anywhere near as bad as a year ago).

You have come a long way my friend. I know that at times we whine about the current happenings (or not happenings) but when we look back farther, we can see that we have made lots of progress. We have grown in so many positive ways along the journey. We may not have lost the amount of weight that we thought we would have at this point but we can't dispute the progress we have made.

Thanks for reminding me that I need to look back farther than just a couple months and take an inventory of where I began and how far I have come.

Nope, it hasn't been emoticon 's and emoticon 's but it has been progress!!! emoticon

We are superstars!!! emoticon

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AHTRAP 3/1/2013 12:20AM

    Glad you made that call to switch things up, whatever the final straw might have been. It's a tiny bit sad that an otherwise positive memory (of watching the BBT taping, meeting a fave personality) is tinged by those associated negatives. Here's to getting yourself to where the next time you get to make a memory like that, you get to enjoy it unreservedly down the line.

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STARSUB99 2/27/2013 7:57PM

    You have come so far - it is good to look back over the year and see how much you have accomplished. So many small good decisions have made up your success so far... Focus on the positives - celebrate the success - as you pause in this journey to look around - and can see what you have left behind and look ahead to even more success.
You rock woman! emoticon

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HIKER-SQUIRREL 2/26/2013 10:35AM

    Thanks for sharing & congratulations on your progress! emoticon

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COOKIE_AT_51 2/26/2013 4:09AM

    Wow ... great insights! I can relate to your "new normal" it happens and we don't even realize it.
emoticon on your success so far emoticon to onederland ... I am so excited for you! I hope to be sharing the same story this time next year emoticon

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WEBEZE 2/26/2013 2:18AM

    As I read this I remembered so many similar situations that have happened to me in the past. You are doing so great. What a difference a year makes and how much you have changed. Keep pushing, you are rockin it.

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JESSICA_STULTZ 2/25/2013 5:29PM

    People really have no idea what it is like to be big when they start judging. Nobody WANTS to be big.. and most times there is also a story behind the weight. Then losing the weight is a whole other story. People judge before they know the story behind you. Some people are working at getting healthier, others may not be to that point yet. The emotion stress behind being overweight is just as bad as being judged too. I remember every laugh, look, etc made me think someone was talking about me. It was horrible. I wish more people would consider the feelings of others before they opened their mouths. That's cool you got to see the taping of The Big Bang Theory. I love that show! Sometimes I hate looking back at pictures of myself because I hate how big I got.. but then when I think about it, it's all just a part of my past. I will never let myself get back to that point.. and I am VERY happy with how far I have come. You should definitely be happy with how far you've come along as well. You can see you have lost alot of weight.. but I can tell you, you were just as beautiful at that weight as you are now! Do we get to know your nickname they gave you?

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HEATHERFREE 2/25/2013 3:35PM

    I love this blog, it is so crazy to hear the story behind that picture!!! Like really it makes me think of countless things I have gone to do and it was fun BUT now I am remembering all the BS that I had to deal with. without the story that picture would have made me think oh that's so cool she got to do that how fun...the end. But no you don't think about the getting their the seating...the rude people. And really in a perfect NICE world it would be fine going there because you'd think that everyone likes that show and would think about that fact....everyone here likes this show...everyone has that in no there's people being dumb and saying things that are POINTLESS!!! Props to that lady for going anyways she must have went home and cried that night.

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JACOBSBELOVED 2/25/2013 2:40PM

    First off, I can't believe the way some people conduct themselves. It amazes me when adults act that way. And for the over-weight girl that got up and danced: good for you! Get out there and do what makes you happy. I just hope she didn't hear any of those comments.

I get the small seat issue. Hubby and I love Angels games and the seats, especially the cheapo seats, are kind of small. I'm curious if you went back and saw another taping (that would be terrible, wouldn't it? ;)) how much of a difference there would be with these seats. Quite a bit, I'm sure.

That's pretty awesome that JoJo recognized you! I think he's a pretty well-known name in LA.

I'm so glad you found something that you can reflect on. How amazing is it too to think that you are moving so far away from ever having those feelings again. Of course there will be days where you might be uncomfortable (even 110 lb girls have fat days), but I'm glad you can have something else to measure your success by.

I'm so proud of you and so happy for you!

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CHICAT63 2/25/2013 1:02PM

    emoticon I have to agree what a difference a year makes ! You are rocking this and soon Onderland will be yours.

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PRETTYPITHY 2/25/2013 1:00PM

    Wow! Wonderful blog! I've heard Jojo on the Radio but never seen him -- cool! I think you're right, it is crucial to remain aware of why we started this in the first place. For me a photo served as a reality check but it wasn't enough. When I started experiencing health issues, I really began to understand that this was necessary for me to enjoy my life. And I am enjoying it! emoticon

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ATTACKFATCAT 2/25/2013 12:54PM

    Congrats on all the progress you have made! You look great and I have no doubt you will be able to reach your goal!

I am also super jealous of you visiting the BBT set. That's one of my favorite shows as well. You should make that a reward when you get back to your goal weight to see how different it is (if you can get back for another taping).

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AMARILYNH 2/25/2013 12:01PM

    Fabulous blog - and LOOK at you - LOOK how far you've come!! WTG, stepping back and looking to the past for inspiration for the future!! You've GOT this!! emoticon

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BEANIES_MOM 2/25/2013 7:13AM

    Thank you for sharing, you are truly an inspiration.

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AMCLELLAN 2/25/2013 6:56AM

    You have come a long way, and are looking fabulous. Keep up the great work. I have so many memories like this too. I only wish I could go see the Big Band Theory, jealous. lol

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DAJAMOGU1 2/25/2013 6:00AM

    I could so relate to the long walk and then sitting in the tiny chairs! And I always get put next to a really skinny person. I feel a need to apologize to them, but I don't.

Keep going on your amazing journey. You have inspired me!

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11 Months Without Quitting, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

I am jumping the gun by a day, but tomorrow, February 20th will mark 11 months that I have STAYED on this journey! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

As someone who has struggled with weight my entire life, and NEVER stuck with any of my various weight loss attempts for more than 3 months, this is the hugest NSV a girl can ask for! emoticon emoticon

For those that know me, know I have been a member of Sparkpeople since 8/21/09... I lost 40 pounds only to gain it back, I went back and forth on this site throughout the years, but it wasn't until March 20, 2012 that I really decided to make a change.

It hasn't always been easy, I have been on horrible plateaus...

I am still pushing through the dreaded 212 plateau from Halloween emoticon emoticon ... emoticon

I have dealt with disappointment of not hitting a specific weight goal by a certain time...

I desperately wanted 199 by the start of 2013 but it wasn't in the cards, and I am still pushing to get there...

I have had days where I have eaten everything in sight...

There were days I didn't exercise...

There were days where everything went wrong...

But there were happy days too, days with emoticon's and emoticon's, days of good eating, tracking calories and exercising. Days with good weigh ins, compliments and encouragement from others, and days of genuinely feeling good about myself. emoticon I am so proud to be able to sit here and say (well, type) it has been 11 months, and I have not and will not give up. I am pushing towards my goals and I will get to Onederland if it kills me! emoticon

My weight chart going all the way back to 2009:

This quote sums up my journey perfectly, and thanks to a fellow spark friend for introducing me to this quote:

This 11 months felt long at times, but it truly has flown by! Is there a part of me that wishes I would have lost more weight by this point? Sure, but I will get there in due time, as long as I keeping moving forward, I will get where I want to go, and so will you! Don't give up, take each day at it comes, and we will reach our goals together! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GEMINIGEM6 2/25/2013 2:36AM

    Girl I love the pics you use! Lol. So cute! And I am SO proud of you and happy for you that you have not quit. That is such an accomplishment and must really make you feel so good about yourself. You are a rock star and still one of the biggest inspirations to me from this lovely site. Much love girl! :)

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GRACEMCC45 2/23/2013 10:42AM

    You win!! So wonderful to see your progress and determination keeping strong!

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SIMONEKP 2/21/2013 9:02AM

    great job!

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LYNNWANNABE 2/21/2013 3:05AM

    Now THAT was a Celebration to be sure.. even I'm in a emoticon mood and ready to do a happy dance for you! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon .. and all to ready to come and share your joy next month .. when we'll all be giving you these!!! emoticon

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MERRY_XMAS 2/20/2013 1:03PM

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You have come really far! These 11 months you treated yourself with respect and consideration and that is what matters the most! You created a new, improved and healthy Steph!


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LAHUDSONCHEF 2/20/2013 10:58AM

    Steph, that is awesome! Stick-to-it-iveness! Most of us never had it before joining SP...I sure didn't! Keep it up, my friend, and you will find yourself pleased for life, because you didn't throw in the towel.


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WEBEZE 2/20/2013 2:24AM

    Awesome. You are such an inspiration. I am so proud of you. Not giving up is so hard at times and you are so moving in the right direction. I to am not going to hit my goal weight by my goal date (been stuck for 4 months), but that's OK. I am going to give it my all every day. I keep reminding myself that I am still healthier than I was before I started on this journey.
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CRAFTY1960 2/19/2013 11:25PM

    emoticon keep it up emoticon

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HEATHERFREE 2/19/2013 11:13PM

    Ah its so great to see your story, you are doing great! emoticon

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JUDY106 2/19/2013 6:18PM

    so happy for you and proud for you. I am hanging in longer than I have ever , too.
Wow! you are close to the one year mark. Love the quote at the end. That is what will keep us going.
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Hugs, Judy

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ELIZABETH5268 2/19/2013 5:04PM

    Very inspring. I love the quotes!

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IJUSTNEED10 2/19/2013 2:04PM

    Congratulations on staying on almost a year! I love your blog so entertaining!

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JACOBSBELOVED 2/19/2013 1:44PM

    Wow! 11 months! And look how much you have accomplished! I am so proud of you for sticking with it and I bet you are even more proud of yourself. :)

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JESSICA_STULTZ 2/19/2013 1:30PM

    April 15th will be my year since I really started my journey. Not sure when I started SP exactly since it was awhile before that. Will have to check it out. So many ups and downs in a weight loss journey but in the long run.. all that will matter is that you stuck with it. I'm excited for you! Plateaus suck. I am glad I haven't had one that was that long. It would be hard to stay motivated through that but you are doing it!

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PRETTYPITHY 2/19/2013 1:12PM

    emoticon I have a similar story, lost a lot of weight on Spark in 2009, gained a lot of it back in 2010/2011 and came back strong in 2012. I now realize this lifestyle change is permanent and for me, at least, Spark will always be a part of it! At the very least, I know I'll be tracking for the rest of my life, it helps me like nothing else! emoticon

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NEWSLKELL 2/19/2013 1:05PM

    Wow! Congrats on doing so well up to date! I'm hitting a lot of the same challenges so it's nice to see we're not alone! emoticon Keep it up! You rock!

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ATTACKFATCAT 2/19/2013 10:48AM

    Love the pictures! 11 months of consistency is a huuuuge accomplishment! Even if you've had rough moments, you just keep at it and because of that, you will get to where you want to be.

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    I too could have wrote this blog ! I started only a week ahead of you ! I love your pictures and I truly KNOW EXACTLY how you feel !! WE are sp twins !! HAHAHA !!
2013 will be OUR year and we get there !!


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KJELLYBEAN15 2/19/2013 8:28AM

    Wonderful post. It's reassuring to know that I am not alone in battling this sometimes nonworking weight loss. My weight chart graph is starting to look like an EKG. But no matter how slow it goes I know I am stronger and feeling better than before. And for that I am thankful. Have a great week.

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LRSILVER 2/19/2013 7:10AM

Great blog, I love the quotes. You are an amazing person and are doing so great. Changing habits and making healthy lifestyle choices is never a straight path, there are always ups and downs but you are moving successfully to make those changes.
Onward and Downward.

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AMCLELLAN 2/19/2013 6:44AM

    Yay! You are doing so amazing. You are looking great too.
I know the feeling, being in the same boat my entire life. Sometimes I don't believe myself when I realize I have been going non-stop for 13.5 months. I have never lasted that long before.

I too am striving for Onederland, a little farther away than you, but still nearing that goal. We will do it! We have not come all this way to give up now.

Keep up the amazing work!!!!!

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BEANIES_MOM 2/19/2013 6:08AM

    emoticon That is awesome! You are such an inspiration.

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FREELADY 2/19/2013 5:24AM

    I am beginning a long journey today. Your perseverance encourages me!

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MEGANAMENANA 2/19/2013 5:17AM

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Fitbit/HRM/Motivational Tools DO NOT MAKE You Lose Weight...

Saturday, February 16, 2013

YOU make you lose weight! What you eat, how you move, what YOU DO makes you lose weight! emoticon emoticon Now before you get all crazy on me, I love these gadgets and motivational tools. I think they can be very inspirational and help to motivate you to make smarter choices, but that alone does not make us lose weight.

I am so tired of seeing people say "Well I really need to make a new motivational poster, and THEN I will start seeing the scale go down again..." Are you ridiculous?! emoticon While a new motivational poster might help ignite your Spark, the only thing that is going to get the scale going down again is what you do AFTER. It might motivate you to get back on track or get you out exercising, but it is what you DO that creates the results.

Another example, months ago I told my friend I was getting a heart rate monitor so I could see how many calories I ACTUALLY burn while exercising, her immediate response was "I want one", and her very next question was "what is it?" She has a case of the "I want to have everything you have, because you have lost 60 pounds and I lost 20 only to regain it and then 5 additional pounds". The difference is NOT the gadgets I have, it is how hard I work at tracking my calories and making an effort to exercise that has done it. Getting a heart rate monitor and not using it, or using it to track your calorie burn while you sit on the couch isn't going to do you (or in this case her), any favors.

With that said, I think these gadgets and motivational tools are GREAT and I these are the ones I have, but I did not lose any more weight after getting these things.

Fitbit emoticon : I love it, I love that it tracks my steps, sometimes it gets me out walking more but not usually... I still have cases of the "I don't wannas" and it doesn't make my walks any easier.

Heart Rate Monitor: I loved this at first, I still do, but I really wanted to see how many calories I am burning while exercising. I burn a lot less than the online calculators claim. I admit I haven't been using it at much, partially because I have a decent understanding after using it about how many calories I burn doing various activities.

Motivational Marbles: I love these things, they are pretty to look at, but I hardly remember to move the marbles at this point. I do it every other month when I've lost a good amount of weight to keep it current.

Motivational Quotes: Love these, they are around my house, they are inspiring and great to look at, but sometimes I go into my fridge and over eat even when some of these are plastered ON my fridge.

Woohoo Jar: I love the emoticon jar, I love to put stuff in it, but I have to do the work to have the woohoo moments to put in the jar.

Sparky emoticon : I have an amazing dog that loves to walk, but if I don't get off my butt to do it, then it doesn't really help lol.

Planner: I put heart stickers on the day I exercise and cupcake stickers on the days I severely overeat. It is neat to see my progress and track it, but I very rarely pass up a high calorie day in fear of getting a dreaded cupcake sticker. emoticon

Sparkpeople: emoticon This is the biggest tool of all for me, and it is one that I use each and everyday. I have the most amazing Spark Friends and I am thankful for each and every one, but as much as they would love to reach through the computer and smack the cookie out of my hand, it still comes down to me. But I will say that the amount of love and support I have gotten from this site has allowed me to keep going when I might have otherwise given up. emoticon

My point is, it's all you baby! emoticon Your time might be better spent exercising or making a meal plan than pasting your head on Jennifer Anistons body for a motivational poster. However, everyone is different, and if you need that poster/quote/tool to get out and get the job done by all means go for it.

And on the flip side of that if you are losing weight and getting the job done, pat yourself on the back! You are doing this because you are awesome, not because of anything you have or any tools you have found it is because you do hard work day in and day out and you are amazing! emoticon emoticon emoticon

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ITISABOUTME 2/19/2013 1:06PM

    What a great reminder that we are the ones that can change"we" nobody or thing can do it for us!!!! Thanks for the great blog!!! emoticon

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PAULAROCKS3 2/19/2013 12:57PM

    Very true! This healthy lifestyle business is seriously hard work!

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PSCHIAVONE2 2/19/2013 11:54AM

    Very true, I can tell you that I get a much better workout when I use my heart rate monitor. I have set mine up to keep me in a workout zone. Between 145bpm and 165bpm. Also, when I look at my monitor I usually say "30 minutes was not that bad", and go on to do more. Without the monitor I usually dog it and only do 30 minutes. Sometimes technology can help.

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DIANNEMT 2/19/2013 8:26AM

    This is SO right!! I WISH I could find some magic way to lose the weight--or keep it off--but I have to not eat the cookie and I have to get up and move!!

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LISAN0415 2/19/2013 7:37AM

    I loved this blog, it should be a "Popular Blog Post"

One of my favorite quotes, and you pretty much said it here is:

"You are where you are today becauses of the choices you made or the choices you let others make for you" so choose wisely!

You are on the right track baby! Results are coming!!!

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JESSICA_STULTZ 2/18/2013 5:18PM

    I agree. It's not about the gadgets and motivation. You gotta do the work to get the results! I love the motivational things, but have to do the work even when I have no motivation at all. It really boils down to the fact that if you don't do the work, you will never see the results. I've been forcing myself to exercise lately.. even inside while it is yucky outside. I want so badly to see the scale drop. (Well.. this weekend was an indulging weekend so scale kind of went up.. but it'll be back down!) I thought about putting motivating things on the fridge.. but then decided that eventually it'd just be something that sits on my fridge that I don't even pay attention to or notice anymore because I am used to it being there. PS. Glad you got past that 212 mark. It's always good to see a drop after a long plateau like that!

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IJUSTNEED10 2/18/2013 3:31PM

    You are such a great attitude and you are also right a lot of people see on the surface what you are doing but not focus on all the work you are doing.

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SIMONEKP 2/18/2013 11:44AM

    You're right but take it easy on your friend. Try to remember how frustrating it can be to start or start over. Maybe you can invite her to workout with you and use your gadgets together.

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LOVESTOWALK49 2/18/2013 7:48AM

    I don't have expensive tools. I didn't have the gym until this year. Tools and access to a gym help, but the motivation comes from within. emoticon

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LYNNWANNABE 2/18/2013 7:25AM

    I liked the comments from your friends as much as I liked the blog itself.. it's very encouraging to keep pressing forward!

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JUDY106 2/17/2013 8:52PM

    This is true. I love the HRM because it shows how many calories you burn during and activity. It gets me moving more each time I do that activity. I push just a little harder each time.
I think using the SP tools are the biggest improvement to my change in my lifestyle. i love the people here at SP. No one else cares about how much food you eat or did not eat. Unless you are really serious about a change you could care less hearing about how someone is doing with their food plan. There are those out there that go to groups and claim to care, but don't, because they are not really eat the way they should or really not even trying, but go to the group to look good.
Here at SP you can find people that are really serious about how they eat and KNOW how hard it is to eat the right way when those other foods are calling you.

This has really helped me so much. I know it takes time and you are not moving when you are typing at the computer, but it is just as important to me as doing that exercising. They are both very important to my weight lost.

Oh, well i stop. Loved your blog.

Hugs, Judy

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    Yes, this is all true and you have an excellent point. Different things work for different people though, so I guess it is worth experimenting, trying different techniques, tools, and props.

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STARSUB99 2/17/2013 2:46PM

    You got it girlfriend - Its all about the connections we make - what we do day in and day out... you don't need no trinkets and tools - (although some are fun) - just a good stream of positive talk going through your head and the ongoing support of your friends inside and outside of sparkland.... You will succeed -

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JACOBSBELOVED 2/17/2013 1:12AM

    You hit the nail on the head: they are motivational tools. They will not suck the fat from your body (although that would be AWESOME!); you have to physically do it yourself. Of course there are tools out there that help us, and there's nothing wrong with using them, but don't expect the results to come solely from these gadgets like they have magical powers. Good blog. :)

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LRSILVER 2/16/2013 9:26PM

    Great blog. So True.

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HEATHERFREE 2/16/2013 8:08PM

    well said!

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    Great blog post.

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MAGGIEVAN 2/16/2013 6:50PM

    I agree with you 100%. thanks for sharing these thoughts.

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ANY010113 2/16/2013 6:17PM

    great blog, thanks for sharing,

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EMMAEKAY 2/16/2013 11:00AM

    They're all just tools - the marbles, the fitbit, the HRM, SP, everything. They're raw materials and how-to manuals. Unless you use them, and use them correctly, you go no where.

Amazing blog!

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RHONDALYN10 2/16/2013 10:04AM

    SO TRUE!!

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OLIVIANIGHT 2/16/2013 9:20AM

    I love all your gadgets and tools! But you're right, of course, in the end we have to get off our bums and move ourselves to get results.

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MELMOMOF4 2/16/2013 8:46AM

    very well said. thanks for sharing

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GRACEMCC45 2/16/2013 8:30AM

    Very true, Stephanie! All of it! These are all helpful tools, but a hammer and a screwdriver don't build a house - someone has to USE the tools to do it!

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ADARKARA 2/16/2013 7:57AM

    Very well said!

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AMCLELLAN 2/16/2013 7:08AM

    Wonderful Blog! So true!!! & you are doing an amazing job! Keep up the great work, you are amazing!!!

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DAJAMOGU1 2/16/2013 5:48AM

    I had to laugh at this one. I have some friends who rushed out and bought Fitbit after I got mine and they could see I was losing weight. They came to me months later saying the Fitbit didn't help them at all. THey hadn't lost a pound even though they tracked their steps. I asked how many steps they did per day and they said they were only getting about 2000. They didn't walk, didn't exercise, and didn't track food. Basically, they wore it and hoped it would suck calories out?????

Yes, it does work if you do! And I mean work! Fitbit motivates me to walk so I can more steps (and compete with friends online) and climb more stairs, but it does not move for me!

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BETHIEBOOPS 2/16/2013 4:16AM

    YOU ARE AWESOME! Such a brilliant post. So many times, I've heard others (and myself!) say "Oh I'll start eating better once I..." or "I just need to get a gym membership/new shoes/HRM etc to start exercising" but we don't NEED anything but to DO the things that need to be done (eat well, exercise). Such wise advice.

Thanks to pinterest, it's easier to look up work outs than it is to eat a cookie. But reading a workout is not the same thing as Doing the workout and not eating a cookie does not mean eating well.

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MERRY_XMAS 2/16/2013 3:39AM

    You are absolutely right! No matter what we do, if we don't put effort to it, technology can't help us. Even people who have surgeries gain all the weight back, because it's in our mind!
Nobody can help you but yourself!
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