Sunday, January 27, 2013
So I don't want to jinx anything, but my work had the WORST food police ever! But I realized that they must have turned in their badges and moved on. I think part of this is due to some intense drama with a recent break up in the work place and that everyone is pre occupied with that (thank goodness!), but it even goes to before that.
In the last few weeks I have not heard any of the following:
Should you be eating that?
One cookie won't kill you!
Should you really be having a donut?
Well, it's okay to eat bad some of the time.
I get both ends of the spectrum. I have people that want to feed me and people who want to analyze everything I put in my mouth. I know for a fact there were many people wondering how long until I was "off the wagon" and I can confidently say 10 months in they've given up on me gaining my weight back.
The questions about "are you losing weight" have stopped and no one really comments on it anymore. That is a relief to me, compliments are always nice, but I like being back under the radar where I like to occupy most of my time. It's kind of like they have accepted 214-pound-Stephanie (give or take a few pounds) as the new Stephanie, and I like that a lot. I also haven't lost weight in a few months, and now that I am on the losing trend again, I kind of like that I will be able to lose probably another 20 pounds before anyone notices me getting smaller. I'd really like to fly under the radar until I get to 170 and then come in free dress one day that really shows my progress and just be like BAM, here I am. LOL. (We wear uniforms at work but have free dress on Sundays) But we'll see what happens.
I just wanted to share my joy, because being able to eat anything from broccoli to an ice cream cone and not be questioned is amazing in these parts!
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Yes, I'm becoming one of those people that blog more than once a day. And no offense if you are one of those people that blogs multiple times I day, I enjoy it, it gives me something to read.
Anyways, just my check in, nothing exciting but it is really helping me to see where I need improvement.
And the recap for January 16th - January 22nd
Track water and get a minimum of 8 glasses. 6/7 days.
Strength Training: 3/5 days (I keep skipping the days where it's lower body, but keep getting the arm days done. I will work on this)
Cardio: 7/7 days (Two "rest days" but include walking)
1000 Monthly Fitness Minutes: 873/1000
Track Food: 7/7 days
Stay In Range: 3/7 days I knew this wasn't going to be good, but I didn't realize how bad it truly was until just now. The good news is, when I was going over range previously, that could mean a 3000+ calorie day, I have significantly lowered that to where a "bad day" might be 2300. It's a step in the right direction but the #1 focus of this next week is going to be getting my eating back to what it needs to be.
Blog about goals once per week: This is it, so
Overall: 79%, definitely needs improvement and food choices and staying in calorie range are the main goals for this next week.
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Hey, Hot Stuff!
Okay, so I wouldn't normally call you hot stuff, but that picture was too cute to resist! So you haven't had me on your case for a while, and I'm sure you hoped you wouldn't be hearing from me. The thing is, I know you better than, well, anyone! You can't lie to me or try to downplay how you are feeling, because I know the truth!
Let me tell you how you are feeling. You are feeling so many conflicting emotions, I don't even know where to start. Let's start with frustration. I know right now you are frustrated with the fact that you have weighed about 214 since Halloween. We all know what happened, you got down to 212, claimed your 60 pounds lost , and within a matter of a few days shot right back up to 214. You thought about giving up your trophy but you figured you'd be right back to 212 soon enough. Well I got news for you, it's the end of January and you are still hovering around 214. So part of you is extremely frustrated to not be making any progress.
But on the flip side of that you are a little proud... proud because by now you would have given up! You are about 10 months into this journey, and while you have not lost any significant weight in the past few months, you haven't gained any either. You got up to 218 for a hot minute, but right back down. Then up to 216 and now back down to 214ish. For someone who was previously a quitter, that's pretty freakin cool. You very easily could have gained back 20-30 pounds in that time if you had thrown in the towel, but you didn't.
But even with some sense of accomplishment, I find that you are reminiscing about "the old you". You know the one, the 272 pound Stephanie who ate whatever she wanted and could have won the gold medal in the Couch Potato Olympics. That Stephanie got to eat large quantities of greasy, salty food and had fast food essentially everyday. That Stephanie never had to weigh or track her food. That girl never gave a thought to how many calories were in anything, that girl found nothing wrong with days consisting of sitting unless she absolutely HAD to get up and do something. That girl didn't have a care in the world.
But wait a minute, you are only remember HALF OF THE STORY!! That girl weighed 272 pounds, and was miserable because of her weight. She would lay in bed each night and wish she could lose this weight. In fact, she wasn't even comfortable in bed, she felt like her neck fat was swallowing her neck and even had trouble breathing because the weight on her chest was so heavy. Turning over in bed felt like an Olympic sport.
That girl tried every diet under the sun, only to come back even heavier. That girl hated going anywhere because she knew everyone was staring at her, and many times she could even hear the comments. So when you have thoughts of going back to that lifestyle, make sure you are looking at the BIG picture.
Yes, you can have days filled with being lazy, lounging all day and eating all sorts of delicious greasy foods, but with that comes weight gain, torment, physical exhaustion, emotional turmoil and many other things. So when you think about taking the "easy" way out, you need to think it through.
If you chose to go back to your old ways, you will NO LONGER BE ABLE TO:
Say that you have lost almost 60 pounds.
Walk up your stairs without feeling the need to rest.
Walk laps at work and not get tired after 1 or 2.
Receive compliments from people at how much progress you have made.
Wear the smaller clothes you have recently purchased.
Walk around at the grocery store or other place without getting sweaty.
Say that this is the first time on a weight loss journey that you haven't quit!
And you will NEVER be able to:
Reach Onederland and get that ipod touch!
Get to your goal weight!
Get out of plus size clothing.
Feel GREAT about yourself and look great while feeling great!
Get back your confidence you lost from gaining all this weight.
Truly be at peace with yourself and your body.
So the decision is yours. I know you, and you are a stubborn little thing. It doesn't matter anyone else says, because at the end of the day you will do whatever you want. So make your choice, but when you do it please remember that the 272-pound-Stephanie...
was not a very happy Stephanie. I trust you will make the right choice!
Friday, January 18, 2013
Yes, it is that time again where you will see some BLC 21 related posts from me. Some of our challenges include posting a blog about certain things, so I gotta do what I gotta do to represent the Sassy Sheriff's and get those points!
The round just started this Wednesday, and I am pretty excited. I am ready to push myself for the next 12 weeks. The last round was my first time participating in the BLC, and I lost a little over 14 pound during the 12 week challenge. While I am proud of what I accomplished, I also hit my major plateau and did not lose an ounce for a little over 4 weeks. It was really frustrating not to hit my goal of 18 pounds for the round, but hey, stuff happens.
I enjoyed the experience so much that I am back for my second round. My starting weight for the round is 216.8 and my goal is to lose 20 pounds. It may be a bit of a lofty goal for me, but I am determined to push full steam ahead to try to lose 20 pounds, and if I fall short what's the worst that happens, I lose 15 pounds instead? I will take it. I really would like to at least hit Onederland during this challenge. Besides, we all know I am chomping at the bit to get my hand on the Ipod Touch 5 right?! It is definitely on my mind. Maybe I should put a picture of it on my fridge as an added reminder.
Anyways, having a goal to lose 20 pounds is great, but how am I going to get it done? Okay, I can't lie... I already set my January goals, and essentially all my goals are the same. The ONLY difference is, to get the points for this challenge I will need 300 fitness minutes a week, so that is the only thing that is really changing... trying to get in MORE fitness minutes.
BLC goals (same as January goals):
Blog once a week on Tuesdays with results for accountability.
Track water intake and get at least 8 glasses.
Strength Training 3 days a week for upper body, 2 days for lower body.
7 days of cardio... with 2 days being just walking for the cardio.
Track all food.
Stay in calorie range!
Hit 300 fitness minutes a week (added for blc, and to have 1000 fitness minutes for January).
So there you have it, here is my starting pic that many of you have seen, and here is to having a significant difference in my "after photo" 12 weeks from now!
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
I wrote that last blog late last night (okay technically Tuesday morning) and I woke up to such amazing responses and I instantly started feeling better. I am going to respond to every single comment individually, you all are amazing. What touched me the most was how many of you shared YOUR personal feelings with me, and that in itself is priceless. It made me feel better to know that I wasn't alone in some of the thoughts I had. I honestly had no idea that so many people would respond saying that they could relate, and it made me feel like I'm not in this journey alone, which I knew already, but it was nice to be reminded. It was all nice to know that although this is a weight loss site, people genuinely care for me as a person (as I do with all of you), and not just about the weight loss aspect of my life/journey. So thank you all!
Today was a great day, I made an effort to get out of the house and to just keep busy. Walked through the mall for exercise with my fitbit, and when I saw the Fairy Godmother from Cinderella on clearance at The Disney Store, I couldn't resist!!
Doesn't she look FABULOUS in between my weight loss marble jars?!?! And I haven't been paying much attention to them, but the one on the left with the pounds gone is much fuller than the one with pounds to go, so that was a bright spot in the day.
I also am going to get crafty, I got these at Target, and I want to print out inspirational quotes and glue them on these foam hearts, flowers and stars and put them up in my house. If you have any good inspirational quotes, please throw them my way!
And the recap for January 9 - January 15th.
Track water and get a minimum of 8 glasses. 7/7 days.
Strength Training: 4/5 days
Cardio: 6/7 days (Two "rest days" but include walking)
1000 Monthly Fitness Minutes: 477/1000
Track Food: 7/7 days
Stay In Range: 5/7 days...The problem here is the 2 days over were WAY over. Strength training was my one that needed the most help, but now it's staying in range that is the main focus for the week!
Blog once per week: This is it, so
Overall: 88%, I'll take it!
BLC 21 starts tomorrow, and I am super excited. Accountability at it's finest. I am starting the round at 216.8 and am pushing for about 20 pounds in 12 weeks. I know I can do it if I try my hardest, and that is what I intend to do!
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