Friday, January 18, 2013
Yes, it is that time again where you will see some BLC 21 related posts from me. Some of our challenges include posting a blog about certain things, so I gotta do what I gotta do to represent the Sassy Sheriff's and get those points!
The round just started this Wednesday, and I am pretty excited. I am ready to push myself for the next 12 weeks. The last round was my first time participating in the BLC, and I lost a little over 14 pound during the 12 week challenge. While I am proud of what I accomplished, I also hit my major plateau and did not lose an ounce for a little over 4 weeks. It was really frustrating not to hit my goal of 18 pounds for the round, but hey, stuff happens.
I enjoyed the experience so much that I am back for my second round. My starting weight for the round is 216.8 and my goal is to lose 20 pounds. It may be a bit of a lofty goal for me, but I am determined to push full steam ahead to try to lose 20 pounds, and if I fall short what's the worst that happens, I lose 15 pounds instead? I will take it. I really would like to at least hit Onederland during this challenge. Besides, we all know I am chomping at the bit to get my hand on the Ipod Touch 5 right?! It is definitely on my mind. Maybe I should put a picture of it on my fridge as an added reminder.
Anyways, having a goal to lose 20 pounds is great, but how am I going to get it done? Okay, I can't lie... I already set my January goals, and essentially all my goals are the same. The ONLY difference is, to get the points for this challenge I will need 300 fitness minutes a week, so that is the only thing that is really changing... trying to get in MORE fitness minutes.
BLC goals (same as January goals):
Blog once a week on Tuesdays with results for accountability.
Track water intake and get at least 8 glasses.
Strength Training 3 days a week for upper body, 2 days for lower body.
7 days of cardio... with 2 days being just walking for the cardio.
Track all food.
Stay in calorie range!
Hit 300 fitness minutes a week (added for blc, and to have 1000 fitness minutes for January).
So there you have it, here is my starting pic that many of you have seen, and here is to having a significant difference in my "after photo" 12 weeks from now!
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
I wrote that last blog late last night (okay technically Tuesday morning) and I woke up to such amazing responses and I instantly started feeling better. I am going to respond to every single comment individually, you all are amazing. What touched me the most was how many of you shared YOUR personal feelings with me, and that in itself is priceless. It made me feel better to know that I wasn't alone in some of the thoughts I had. I honestly had no idea that so many people would respond saying that they could relate, and it made me feel like I'm not in this journey alone, which I knew already, but it was nice to be reminded. It was all nice to know that although this is a weight loss site, people genuinely care for me as a person (as I do with all of you), and not just about the weight loss aspect of my life/journey. So thank you all!
Today was a great day, I made an effort to get out of the house and to just keep busy. Walked through the mall for exercise with my fitbit, and when I saw the Fairy Godmother from Cinderella on clearance at The Disney Store, I couldn't resist!!
Doesn't she look FABULOUS in between my weight loss marble jars?!?! And I haven't been paying much attention to them, but the one on the left with the pounds gone is much fuller than the one with pounds to go, so that was a bright spot in the day.
I also am going to get crafty, I got these at Target, and I want to print out inspirational quotes and glue them on these foam hearts, flowers and stars and put them up in my house. If you have any good inspirational quotes, please throw them my way!
And the recap for January 9 - January 15th.
Track water and get a minimum of 8 glasses. 7/7 days.
Strength Training: 4/5 days
Cardio: 6/7 days (Two "rest days" but include walking)
1000 Monthly Fitness Minutes: 477/1000
Track Food: 7/7 days
Stay In Range: 5/7 days...The problem here is the 2 days over were WAY over. Strength training was my one that needed the most help, but now it's staying in range that is the main focus for the week!
Blog once per week: This is it, so
Overall: 88%, I'll take it!
BLC 21 starts tomorrow, and I am super excited. Accountability at it's finest. I am starting the round at 216.8 and am pushing for about 20 pounds in 12 weeks. I know I can do it if I try my hardest, and that is what I intend to do!
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
So first off I'm starting with a disclaimer. I have refrained from getting too personal in my blogs for sometime, because without fail, some random person will come and make some comment that will either rile me up, rub me the wrong way, or be just downright negative or hurtful. So with that said, if you don't have something nice to say, then get to steppin'.
On the flip side of that, anyone of my TRUE Spark Friends (you know who you are) have the liberty to say whatever they want. The know me, and I know whatever they may have to say comes from a good place and I am always happy to hear whatever that may be.
Okay, so I'm turning 27 (Feb 3).. now no one go all "that's not even old, get a life" on me, because that's pretty counter productive. I know I'm not old, and besides, we are only as old as we feel. And please don't think if you happen to be older than me that "If I'm worried about 27, I must think other people are ancient.", because I assure you that is not the case. I have friends in their 40's and I would never once have a glimmer of a thought that they were old.
This is a (mostly) irrational issue that I have. It pretty much started when I became 23. There is nothing special about the number 23, nor is there anything special about the number 27. I was happy to turn 21, I was fine with turning 22, but there was something about 23 that REALLY hit home that I am no longer a kid. You are definitely an adult, and then 24, 25, etc. really cemented in that fact.
The root of my Birthday Blues comes from the things that I am unhappy with in my life becoming front and center in my mind. There is something about "letting another year go by" without making changes, or falling into a rut so to speak.
In past years, these are the thoughts that I have had, and please, no harsh words on these things, I am letting you guys in to my deepest most feelings, so please handle them with care...
*You are the fattest you have ever been...
*You still live at home with your parents...
*You are not only single but you have nothing that even resembles a "love life"...
*You are going to end up an old maid...
*No one is ever going to love you...
Etc etc. I won't go on and on as a lot of the thoughts are similar, but you can understand the main idea. This isn't a daily thing, I am generally a pretty happy person, it is just something that comes with my birthday and the realization that I am another year older.
A large part of this stems from the fact that I really would like to be a mother SOMEDAY. I was explaining to a fellow Sparker how silly I felt, because I am in no way shape or form ready to be a wife and mother RIGHT NOW. I'm just not. I want that very badly to happen SOMEDAY but not right now. So it seems silly to kind of mourn the fact that I am not at that place in my life, when it's something I am not ready for.., So that is something I am working on figuring out and coming to terms with so that I can feel better. I think the best way to explain it is that I know there is a specific age window in which I would be able to become a mother, and with each year that passes the window gets smaller, and it scares me.
To get super dooper personal, I had made a decision a few years ago that if I am 40, and single with no potential to have a family, I would at that point adopt a child. I absolutely want to be a mother, and if I can't have my own child and have a family that I so desire, I think it would be quite fulfilling to adopt a child that does not have that family. You would think this would put my mind at ease a little, and at times it does, but it doesn't squash the desire that I have to have my own child someday.
I am doing my BEST to look at the positives, and the list that I use has significantly been cut down, and I am trying to focus on that, because...
*I am NOT the fattest I've ever been this year. In fact, I'm actually the smallest I have been in AT LEAST 5 years, and although I've been in a plateau and struggling lately, I have not given up.
*I do not live with my parents, I was blessed to buy a beautiful condo that I own a little over 3 years ago, and that has down wonders for my general happiness and sense of accomplishment.
*I have found a job that I love, that is going to be my career until the day I retire... unless there is some huge catastrophe that prevents this from happening.
*While I am still very single, I have gone on dates, and just put myself out there much more than I have in the past. I may not have found "the one" or had a boyfriend, but I have gone on dates and that is more than I can say for some of my previous years.
*I am working on myself from the inside out. I am trying to learn about myself and figure out the person I want to be, and I have come a long way in many areas.
So while I can sit here and tell you all these things, and be proud of certain accomplishments and logically know that despite getting a year older, I am much better off than I was in previous years, I still can't help and get a little case of the blues. With that said, I am doing my best not comfort myself with food, which has always been my "go to feel better thing", and while that is hit and miss, I am conscious of it and working at it.
I know this was long and boring, and unless you are my true Spark Friend I don't see many people wanting to read this, and that is okay. It was good for me to put it out there. I was so touched by the overwhelming support from my friends on my status that I thought I would explain myself for anyone who reached out to me and kind of asked what is wrong. I am so blessed to have such great Spark Friends, and you guys make me want to keep trying even when I don't feel like it, and I heart you all so much!
And I didn't forget about my week 2 check in, it's not 100% but I will post the good, bad and the ugly Tuesday night.
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Today was just a good day. Walked 2 miles at the mall with bro to get some exercise in, I'm in range, made some delicious turkey meatballs, today is definitely a good one.
I don't know if you guys have seen this idea floating around, apparently it's on facebook, pinterest and all of that. But I saw that a fellow sparker BogusAnnie is making a Woohoo jar! She has a vlog on it if you want to check out the details, it's basically a jar where you write down good or happy things that happen throughout the year. Then at the end of the year you can open it and read through all the good things that have happened. Or, if you are feeling down and need a pick me up, looking through the jar and reading it could be very inspiring. I think it would be a great way to record those NSV's and just happy things in everyday life that we feel good about in the moment but forget about them shortly after. I got some cute paper and stickers from the store, and I decided to use this candle holder I had at home. I love pumpkins because it reminds me of Fall/Halloween/Cinderella which I love love love, so that seems perfect for a jar!
I decided my reward for getting to Onederland was an Ipod Touch 5... Target had a deal where if you bought it this week, you could get a $30 Target gift card. I couldn't pass this up so I got it today. It is at my brothers house and he has strict orders not to give it to me until I get to 199, and he means business! I really want it, and I don't have a fancy smart phone so this is going to be my coolest gadget yet. Plus I will use it at work when I walk my laps, woohoo.
Got some new work shoes that are great for walking, super excited about that. It doesn't take much to make me happy these days.
I hope everyone is having a nice week!
Tuesday, January 08, 2013
So this year is not quite off to the start I was hoping for. It is definitely a work in progress with me revamping my whole exercise routine and adding strength training. I think I just thought I was a robot, and could turn it "on" just like that. Going from almost no strength training to 5 days a week is a process and I'm realizing I have to build up to it. I'm not going to change my goals, but you will see a lot of my goals aren't 5/5 or 7/7. I am definitely a work in progress but I don't want to lose sight of the goals I set, but I am learning to take it one step at a time.
Yesterday I was sick, and am still sick today but I am feeling 10 times better and I think this cold is on it's way out! Then on top of that, my weight is fluctuating big time and it's not adorable. As any of you know I have been struggling with gaining and losing the same 5 or so pounds and feeling like my body refuses to go under 212. But I'm not going to go into that because I have beat that to death in previous blogs and I don't want the focus to be solely on the scale. But I have accepted what's done is done and I am just continuing to move forward.
In other news though I am so looking forward to the start of BLC 21. My captain even reminded me that I need to stop getting caught up on the few pounds I've gained and just push forward. I can't keep moping about these newly "found" pounds, but I can work to get rid of them.
So here is the recap for January 2 - January 8th.
Track water and get a minimum of 8 glasses. 7/7 days.
Strength Training: 2/5 days (This is one that needs a lot of work)
Cardio: 5/7 days (Two "rest days" but include walking) This would have been 6 out of 7 before the blasted cold. Oh well. That's life lol.
1000 Monthly Fitness Minutes: 246/1000
(This goal was added after I realized I have not had a 1000 minute fitness month since October, eek!)
Track Food: 7/7 days
Stay In Range: 4/7 days (This is going to be my number one focus for the following week to get to 7/7!)
Blog once per week: This is it, so
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