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Finding Positive In The Negatives...

Sunday, January 06, 2013



So my physical part of my weight loss journey has definitely stalled quite a bit. I believe there are several things contributing to that at the moment. Some of those things include a change in birth control, my body plateauing, etc. But I also contribute it to me slacking off a bit, I need to push harder and I think I am finally ready to really pump it up and make this my number one focus again. I have been 212-216 since Halloween, and that is definitely not how I wanted this to go. I wanted to be in Onederland by now or at least right on the cusp, but all I can do is move forward.

But while the physical part of my journey has stalled, my emotional/mental journey never stops. I never stop trying to understand my emotions and what leads me to emotionally eat at times when I know it's counterproductive to my journey. I am learning a lot about myself, and I have definitely changed as a person. I have definitely changed for the better and I am much kinder to myself. I am no longer putting myself down (with the exception of an occasional "oh god, you are so bloated your pants are tight" comment here or there), and I feel SO much better. My outside has changed, sure, but the changes on my inside are the true gift.

With that said I have been doing my best to find positives in the things that seem negative, but I am also not trying to sugar coat anything and make things seem emoticon's and emoticon's when they are actually emoticon & emoticon. I am finding that is a very delicate balance between trying not to beat yourself up for something, but also not sugar coating it to tell yourself that it's "no big deal". I don't want to sweep things under the rug, I want to face them head on, even if sometimes it gets difficult.

The fact that I have been within the same range since Halloween time is not okay with me. I wanted to be farther along in my journey, I am not content at 215ish pounds, and I refuse to settle for something I am not comfortable with. But on the other hand, the "old me" would have thrown in the towel at this point because I feel stuck. The old me would have gained anywhere from 10-25 pounds in the last 2ish months and would not be even attempting to try. So that is a positive. emoticon Another positive is that I now have some pretty excellent practice for maintenance. emoticon When I get to 180 (or possibly 170) I want a 5 pound range that is going to be my maintenance range and my weight loss journey is going to be the same as it is now, the only adjustment is getting to eat slightly more calories because I won't have to account for a deficit. So the fact that I did that for over 2 months and over the holidays at that shows me that I have definitely learned something about maintenance even if I didn't mean to. I am looking at the positives but while still pushing myself to reach my goals. I am finding it is so easy to get comfortable with where we are at when we've lost a decent amount of weight. It is a scary thought but just because I am happier and feeling better doesn't mean I am done pushing towards my goals.

So with that said, I am glad I have learned something about maintenance even if it wasn't planned, but now I want to push on to my goals so that I can get to my maintenance weight and put that knowledge to good use! Plus I have plenty of awesome Spark friends waiting for me in Onederland, I think I've kept them waiting long enough, so I promise to do my best to get there as soon as possible! Play time is over, and I need to remember to keep my eye on the emoticon!

I hope everyone is having a fabulous weekend and that they are starting off 2013 on the right foot! I had a bit of a stumble, but I'm feeling much more sturdy now! emoticon

  
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SKINNIESOMEDAY 1/10/2013 10:43AM

    Great blog and I totally understand every emotion you were talking about and have been through them all ! This weight loss thing is a journey ! It truly is and there's more to the mental part sometimes than most normal weight people will EVER understand !
I know one thing someone told me to help with plateus's is calorie cycling .....where you eat at the low end of your calorie range one day and the high end the next day also with carbs. High carbs one day and low carbs next...... I'lve found it to helpme in the past ... it s very restrictive and you do really have to plan but It does shake your body up and get it moving !!

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PRINCESSAMY 1/7/2013 12:20PM

    I know exactly how you feel! emoticon

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REVAMPINGMYLIFE 1/7/2013 12:15PM

    I really enjoyed your blog and identified with your feelings. I was doing well until December and then stalled. Actually, I regained 5 lbs over Christmas. But, hey, in the past I would normally gain 10 lbs during Nov-Dec and keep it on, so even this small gain is progress. And I did keep tracking most days. As you said, even these experiences contribute to our learning and growing healthier, which is the end goal, after all. Thanks for sharing. emoticon emoticon

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AMCLELLAN 1/7/2013 9:16AM

    You can do this!!! I have been feeling the same way lately. I too had to stop and rethink things to get myself back into weight loss mode.

I kept having this problem of not losing and figured maybe it was the mind set of just thinking about the 90lbs I lost in 2012. So I printed out my graph and taped it to the wall in the room my elliptical is in. That way I can always see what I did, but now can think of this last 40lbs as a new journey, not as an extension of last year. It is hard to explain what I had to put through my mind, but it worked and now I'm off and losing again.

You will too, you will reach your goals.

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HEATHERFREE 1/7/2013 3:37AM

    Sounds like you are doing great! you see what you have learned and it will pay off! I love the little Positive, patient and persistent thing at the end. I def need to do those three things and all will be better! I too can tell that this time is different just purely for the fact of just going up and down a few pounds during the holidays and that's it, because in the past it would be SO bad. I like how you ALWAYS add the (maybe 170 or possibly 170) after 180 lol You know you want the 170 and you will get it! emoticon

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BETHIEBOOPS 1/7/2013 2:41AM

    I just adore everything you've said here. Way to be brave and face things head on. It's not the easy thing to do- that's for sure! I'm proud of you for your objective approach to this sucky plateau- I don't hear any "I'm not losing because I'm too lazy" or "I can't lose because of my new birth control". There aren't any excuses here!

Two things:

1. Personally, I gave my hormonal BC a 6 month trial period. If it didn't work out, I tried something else. Don't be afraid to go back to your Dr and try something different. There are options!

2. What is your go forward plan to beat the plateau? While you may have become lax about your diet- and accidentally taking in more or less calories than you thought, you might also need a change. Sometimes getting stricter on your diet is counterproductive. So just watch and go and evaluate :)

We're all on your side- whether in Onederland or not! I'm especially excited for your onederland announcement since we were so insyc before :) But there is no pressure, only love!

You can go this girl!


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JESSICA_STULTZ 1/6/2013 11:19PM

    When I start to stall, my mom always tells me that I just need to keep at it and before you know it, the pounds will just fall off. Sometimes hard when it seems you have been stuck at the same weight for awhile. One of your best qualities is your persistence. I'm proud of you for not giving in. Sometimes it seems like giving up would just be easier.. but it definitely just makes things more frustrating for ourselves.
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DUMBBELLE84 1/6/2013 9:23PM

  I am sooo glad you are treating yourself better... you deserve to be! And I think it really makes a difference in our success. I am also very excited for you to reach onederland. It will be here before you know it, and then 210-215 will be a distant memory... just like 272!!

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JACOBSBELOVED 1/6/2013 9:18PM

    I'm glad you're not settling for things you don't really want. You want to push yourself more and get to that place you want to be in, and you are willing to do what it takes to get there.

It's really hard to push through the plateaus that your body gets stuck on. It seems like you've faced a couple of plateaus before and you've gotten past every single one of them. I have no doubt in my mind that you will blow right through this one. :)



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"2013, the year of Stephanie!" (Just Kidding!)

Wednesday, January 02, 2013

The title of my blog is a "Friends" reference, I love that show!


I have never been one to get caught up in all the New Year Resolutions and stuff, but this year I am just beyond excited! I want 2013 to be my goal year (180 and then possibly on to 170), but I am not going to be getting all crazy about it. All I know is that I will weigh less at the beginning of 2014 than I do right now, and that in itself makes me happy.

I have filled out my planner for the month of January with exercises specific to the day, and a very specific treat day plan in place and I am just ready for January! BLC 21 starts on the 16th and that is an added bonus that I am very much looking forward to!

So as I've mentioned many times, trying to make a goal of losing a certain amount of weight in a month is not the right kind of goal for me. So I am going to make my January goals measureable and attainable. Here goes...

January Goals
emoticon: Blog once a week with a progress report. For BLC, my weeks are going to run Wednesday-Tuesday so every Tuesday I will blog about the progress for the week. My weigh in will not be until Wednesday morning, so my blog won't contain that information. I will weigh in and change my ticker accordingly on Wednesdays, but I don't want the focus of my blog to be how much weight I did or didn't lose. I want it to be about the measureable goals. emoticon

emoticon: Track water intake! I am a Spark Points Ho, and I'm not ashamed to admit it. But I have been known to "track 8 glasses of water" each day just to get those 5 points. Shame on me! So I will be working on earning those points like a nice girl. ;) emoticon

emoticon: Strength training! I have hardly done any strength training throughout my journey. *GASPS* That is not good, not good at all. It has been very hit and miss. My plan in place for January is to do strength training for the upper body Mon, Wed, and Fri, and legs/lower body strength training Tue and Thu. emoticon

emoticon: Cardio! That one comes a lot more easier to me than some of the others. I have specific cardio plans for the month. Saturday and Sundays are considered my "rest days" but I still intend to walk leisurely at work and get some laps in to prevent me from being almost sedentary at work on those days. emoticon

emoticon: Track food! That one is easy peasy for me. I have been tracking religiously for over 9 months, so that is a no brainer. I have capped off my own personal range at 1700 with an understanding that I can go up to 1800. So focusing on staying in range is also the goal. emoticon

I am ready for this New Year. I am under no illusion that the year will be spotless, but I am prepared for the bumps in the road that come along with this journey, and I feel like I will be able to handle it. I hope everyone is as excited as I am and is ready to get some serious work done in 2013! emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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THETURTLEBEAR 1/3/2013 11:21AM

    Smart goals. I like the way you think!

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BETHIEBOOPS 1/3/2013 10:43AM

    LOVE friends!! Great plan too- you got this!!

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IMSOOZEEQ 1/2/2013 9:29PM

    Well I am not surprised by this blog (because I got the preview before) but I am so impressed with the way you have thought everything through. I am glad you are making your plan right for you and that you are focusing on what you need to focus on and not focusing on the things that can be a stumbling block! You are going to see some great successes this year and I am so glad to be along for the ride!!!

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LISAN0415 1/2/2013 8:31PM

    Those are great goals, and if you goal is to track your food daily, then the weight loss will come!

I wish you the best of luck!!

Lisa

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HEATHERFREE 1/2/2013 3:42PM

    yes AWESOME you are!!! Sounds like some great goals to me! Simple, yet will be what gets you to where you want to be! To me 2013 is the year of SIMPLE! lol When its simple...there is less stress, less derailing, less crazy, and plain old win/lose, right/wrong. We do what we planned or we don't, but we keep going and learn what works and what doesn't. Heres to 2013!
I think its awesome that you are going to be incorporating more workouts this year, and emoticon NICE....on the water tracking! lol Spark points ho is right! emoticon Also I am SO excited for the weekly progress reports, but you have been doing good with blog lately :) lots n lots of em!!! LOVE IT

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TRUNKJUNK 1/2/2013 2:23PM

    Steph what an awesome obtainable plan. I agree this is the year of Stephanie. Best wishes is all of your weight loss endeavors.

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PRINCESSAMY 1/2/2013 2:22PM

    I love that you have a detail outline on how you will lose the weight! Congrats on a wonderful blog.

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JESSICA_STULTZ 1/2/2013 1:47PM

    I'd say you definitely have attainable goals! Wish I could set specific days for specific things.. but I never know what is going on. Hoping the best for you this year! One thing I know.. is you are going to ROCK this year. I have a feeling you will easily hit goal plus some this year.

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DUMBBELLE84 1/2/2013 11:38AM

  This all sounds great, Stephanie! Looking forward to reading your updates. I know you will do well this year!

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TIMELAG 1/2/2013 10:24AM

    Great plan. I love that you are taking the focus off the scale. The scale will take care of itself when you do all the other things you mentioned! Keep up the great work!

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AMCLELLAN 1/2/2013 8:34AM

    Sounds like you have a great plan! You can do it!!!!!!

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MYHUBBYISMYHERO 1/2/2013 8:26AM

    Stephanie,
Sounds like specific, attainable goals. You can rock this year.
Sharon

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LRSILVER 1/2/2013 4:54AM

    Great plan for a new svelte you. Make it happen

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STRI23 1/2/2013 3:51AM

    Loved this post. I think it's very smart of you to not focus on the scale every month. Every time I make a plan I've tried to "schedule out" my weight loss and up disappointed because the scale doesn't always budge like I want it to. I think I'm going to take your lead and focus on my daily goals instead of lbs lost. It'll be hard not to obsess over the scale, but hopefully I'll get over it. Thanks for being my inspiration today. emoticon

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JACOBSBELOVED 1/2/2013 2:53AM

    Your enthusiasm is contagious and I love it!!!! You are definitely starting this year off right!

As always, I look forward to reading your blogs about your progress!

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WEBEZE 1/2/2013 1:46AM

    Love your goals for the year. I too am not big on New Years resolutions, but I did set some goals for myself this year. I really like that your goals are measurable and not scale related. You are focusing on healthy behaviors which will mean so much more than what the scale states. Keeping your focus on these will give you an awesome year.
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What I've Learned On Spark This Year & My Spark BFF!

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

First off, I want to say a huge THANK YOU to any of you that have encouraged me or reached out to me at any point, but more specifically recently when I was struggling!! It really meant so much to know that I have people here who support me and want to see me do well. This has been my most successful year on Spark, and I'm hoping to make 2013 even better!

What I've learned on SparkPeople this year:

emoticon: I need Spark People! emoticon That is probably the most important thing I've learned all year. I need the nutrition tracker, I need to be accountable for everything I eat, but more importantly I need the support system. I am the type of person that doesn't necessarily share my weight loss efforts with a ton of people in my "real life". I tell a select few but that's it, and most of the time the details are minimal. I also feel the need to encourage others. I get inspired by so many people here, and their success gets contagious.

emoticon: When I'm struggling, I have to speak up! In previous attempts, when the scale started creeping up, I would avoid this site like the plague. Who wants to admit they are starting to regain the weight they've lost? I realize now that if I would have been honest with my Spark Friends back in the day, I would have received the support that might have prevented a 5 pound gain from turning into regaining all of my weight lost (on more than one occasion). Coming clean about my recent gain, resetting my weight ticker to reflect the gain, and getting the support from you guys has given me a new found sense of control and has got me right back to where I need to be.

emoticon: My plan is MY plan, and no one elses. This has been very hard for me to learn, because I've always felt I needed to be on some conventional program to be successful. Nutrisystem, Jenny Craig, Atkins Diet, No Sodium diet, etc etc. It had to be "go big or go home." This is the first time that I haven't made any food "off limits", everything in moderation, and calories in calories out is the name of my game. Some people might cringe at what I chose to eat, but if I can lose 60 pounds eating what I want (more or less), then they can't really afford to argue with me. emoticon emoticon

emoticon: The scale can suck it! emoticon The scale has always been my #1 measure of success or failure, and it has ultimately caused me problems. Sometimes you can be doing everything right, and the scale refuses to budge. When that happens I've learned we just have to emoticon. That said I LOVE seeing the scale go down, but I a pay more attention to how my clothes fit or other NSV's.

emoticon: Plateaus are the pits!! That goes hand in hand with the scale not rewarding you for hard work at times... I plateaud at 250, 230, 214 (and I'm sure there's many more to come)... it happens! In the past that would have derailed me and sent me right back up to 270ville, but not this time.

emoticon: Time lines do not work for me, in fact, they stress me out!! Every previous attempt started with a pen and paper and this: "You weigh 272, you want to get to 180. So that's 92 pounds, if you lose 2 pounds per week, so it will take you 46 weeks which is about 11ish months... BUT maybe if you lose 5 the first week, and 2.5 a week..." Well, you get the idea. That was a recipe for disaster. 1/2 of those attempts would end with "well that's going to take forever, WHY EVEN BOTHER?!" The other half of those attempts would last maybe a month, or 3 months at best, and when I hadn't lost "10 pounds a month like I SHOULD be" I would throw in the towel. This is the FIRST time I didn't do that, and it was the BEST thing I could have done. I have gone from 262 to 212ish in 9 months which is by no means 2 pounds a week or any other "spectacular amount" of weight loss, but I sure am happy with the progress!

emoticon: Don't be so hard on yourself! This was a very hard one for me to learn. I would constantly beat myself "If you would have just stuck with it like you were supposed to, you could have been at goal by now". "You gained 5 pounds, what an idiot, I knew you would always be fat!" I would never in a million years speak like that to anyone else, so why was I allowing myself to treat myself so terribly? That has been a long hard process, but I have come a long way and continue to work on positive self talk.

I'm sure there are more things I have learned on my journey these past 9 months, but this was already far longer than I expected. In fact, if any of you poor saps actually read all the way to this point, let me know and I will shower you with a Spark Goodie! emoticon emoticon


I HAVE to give a huge shout out to my Spark BFF Susan (IMSOOZEEQ)! If you don't have the pleasure of knowing her, I suggest you check out her page, I'm just sayin! emoticon I am very blessed to have a handful of amazing Spark Friends that are absolutely amazing and know a lot about me. They are always there to offer support and advice, but this very special shout out to Susan is because she has single-handedly pulled me out of the pit of despair this past week! I was just sinking further and further down into the pit and the scale was just creeping up and up and she reached down and pulled me out! Without her I'd be back in 220ville instead of full steam ahead to Onederland! I seriously do not know what I'd do without you Susan, you are just too amazing for words! emoticon emoticon And to all my amazing Spark friends who have helped me throughout my journey and continued to support me, lots of hugs as well! emoticon

  
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MARETIDE 1/1/2013 4:21PM

    Loved your blog! Thanks for sharing! It was very helpful for me. I'm in much the same boat as you. I've been heavy as long as I can remember, and have hit 260 and want to change. Thank you for showing me it CAN be done.

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GEMINIGEM6 12/29/2012 7:28PM

    I love this. Once again I can def relate to all you wrote. Esp the part about timelines. Omg I was the queen of them, and then if I didn't do what I felt I should within that timeline I felt like I sucked. But I'm so happy for you. What a great you've had! :)

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LISAN0415 12/28/2012 2:01AM

    Great blog, and it's so great that you are reflecting and making plans and goals for yourself! 2013 is going to be great!

Lisa

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 12/27/2012 11:01PM

    What a great blog. It's filled with insight and sense. I wonder if I, too, dare to construct my own diet and have it work.

Thank you for the non-caloric food for thought.

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HEATHERFREE 12/27/2012 8:13PM

    You are awesome! You have been a blogging champ lately! I love it! I was going to do another vlog yesterday but I felt too blah! I love reading everything you have learned alot of it hits right at home with me and reminds me that there is a new year to do even better and learn new things on the way to onederland! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JESSICA_STULTZ 12/27/2012 1:49PM

    It's amazing how much things change from the beginning of the journey. You learn so many things. I don't think I'd be able to succeed without SparkPeople. It has really kept me on track this time. When I don't spark for the day.. I go out of my range and eat things I shouldn't. So I am sticking to it! Glad you are able to get back on track. You are so close to Onederland.. and while it is scary, it is an amazing feeling to finally hit it! I agree with you on the timeline thing too. At the beginning that was all I focused on. If I can lose 2 pounds a week I will be this weight by this date.. Definitely not realistic. I do use it sometimes as a range.. but don't focus on specifics. AND I kind of go by if I lose 1 pound a week.. I MAY be near this weight by this time. Like my anniversary.. I was kind of interested in where I'd be. I have 7 weeks.. So I figure I should be about 7 pounds lighter.. or more. But I don't let it get me down if I'm not.
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PRINCESSAMY 12/27/2012 11:17AM

    I love this blog!!!!

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TRUNKJUNK 12/27/2012 10:22AM

    What a great blog! You've definitely have learned the lessons and I know you will meet and or exceed all of your weight loss endeavors. Good Luck. I'm off to check out your friend's sparkpage.

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TRUNKJUNK 12/27/2012 10:22AM

    What a great blog! You've definitely have learned the lessons and I know you will meet and or exceed all of your weight loss endeavors. Good Luck. I'm off to check out your friend's sparkpage.

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MYHUBBYISMYHERO 12/27/2012 5:54AM

    Stephanie,
Good articulation on what you have learned the past 9 months. Sounds like you have learned a lot about yourself and what will work and not work for you.
It's good that you realize that you need to speak up and get support. I think that many do stop coming to the site and regain the weight. I feel sad knowing that when they need us the most, we can't give them the support that they need.
Have a good ending to the week. Now I will go and check out your friends page.
Sharon
PS: very nice picture

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LRSILVER 12/27/2012 3:46AM

    You have said it all. You have a realistic plan and are learning what works for you. You are strong and I know you will succeed. Keep it up Stephanie. You rock star. Woo hoo.

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BONNYSPARKGIRL 12/27/2012 3:41AM

    Wow, just what I needed to read. Thank you for sharing emoticon

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EATVEGAN 12/27/2012 2:38AM

    Love you blog. I read all the way through. Kudos to me. I haven't qualified for any in any other way. I've gained 10 lbs or so, haven't exercised, have eaten until I'm sick and haven't really cared. But that is far enough. Calling a halt. Must turn this ship around. I appreciate the things you've learned. I'm much better at encouraging than I am at asking for help. To be honest, I still just want to do it myself. And I agree with you...your plan is your plan, and mine is mine. Keep up the good work. emoticon

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BETHIEBOOPS 12/27/2012 2:01AM

    Woop! You HAVE grown a lot! And check out all the success it has awarded you. You are doing so so so well and I am so so so so so SO excited to see you hit your goal weight now that it is literally around the corner. :D Yipee!!!

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IMSOOZEEQ 12/27/2012 1:14AM

    You have learned so much and have put that learning to good work. The success you have had is evidence of that. You have developed a playbook of your own! emoticon

You know that you don't have to give me a shout out but thanks. I know you say that I have helped you but you help me just a much. I am so inspired and encouraged by you and your success. Your blogs bring me back on track more often that I could even count. They are sometimes the kick in the butt that I need to wake up and do what I know I need to do to have my own success!

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CRISSA1669 12/27/2012 1:04AM

    LOL.......I read the whole way through.........loved the lessons learned...they are personal to you but I could glean off of several of them, especially the "do not be so hard on yourself"'...I only recently let myself have a break...I thought I was going to press hard to loose the last 16-18 pounds or so BUT I actually chose to not focus on it right now and I have been enjoying the seasonal yummies...I'm still working out and whatnot but I really wanted to partake in some of the goodies...such as Peppermint Mocha coffee from 7-11...yep, from 7-11, it's just as good as Starbucks IMHO and it only cost $1.57 while Starbucks gouges me for close to 5 bucks...lol..and then there my favorite Walker Shortbread cookies...wow....and then there's.........haha, ok ok, you get the point....it's been nice to indulge a bit and not make myself crazy about it!! Looking forward to finishing off this journey and watching you kick butt in 2013!!! :) Clarissa

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JACOBSBELOVED 12/27/2012 1:00AM

    Aw I love all of it! I'm so happy you feel in control again! I absolutely hate that feeling, especially when it comes to my eating and exercise and whatnot. I am so happy for you to be feeling better about everything!

And props to Susan for pulling you out of the pit of despair! It's hard enough to get ourselves out, so I'm glad you had someone else helping pull you!

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DUMBBELLE84 12/26/2012 11:40PM

  Earl Nightingale - "Never give up on a dream just because of the time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway."



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CORTNEY-LEE 12/26/2012 11:36PM

    I love the cat pictures!!

You are doing such an awesome job!!

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9 Month (Sort Of) Spark-A-Versary!

Sunday, December 23, 2012

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So the reason for the "sort of" is because I have been on and off of this site since 2009. My weight chart in the last blog showed the roller coaster that has been my weight loss journey. From losing 40 pounds and gaining it back, losing 30 pounds and gaining it back and so on (from the end of 09 through 11). March 20 of 2012 I started Spark yet again, but this time I have stuck with it and I have no plans on stopping. I went from 262 to 212 during this 9 months, but am currently back up to 217ish.

I am so proud that I am still here and I am still trying. Despite a recent 5ish pound gain, I am still here and I am still pushing forward. For the first time in years I am confident that my 5 pound gain isn't going to spiral on to gaining back all of my lost weight.

I am thankful for the great Spark Friends I have, without such a great support system I don't think I'd still be here, fighting to get to my goal. I have firm plans in place for the rest of the month to prevent any further gains, and I am very much looking forward to the New Year and I am hoping to push super hard and make my 2013 my GOAL YEAR! I want to reach 180 pounds, declare victory emoticon emoticon (cuz that sounds awesome, doesn't it?!), and then possibly see about pushing on to 170. emoticon But that is just a glance into the future, and for right now I am just focused on the week ahead and the month of January, and I look forward to a Spark filled year with all of you! emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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GEMINIGEM6 12/26/2012 12:10AM

    Girl you rock! You are still here doing your thing! I am so happy for you! I swear though I still feel like I could have written some of the stuff you write. Our stories are so similar. I have been on and off SP since 07 or 08. I can't remember. I then deleted a couple profiles and then came back this last time in 2010. I was on and off since then too but just kept my profile this time. Lol. I lost and gained the same weight several times. This time is different b/c my MIND is different. Anywho..I just wanted you to know there are many of us out here who have stopped and started, repeat. Lol. So the only way we don't reach our goals is if we quit and we're not doing that this time! Yay for us! :)

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TEENY_BIKINI 12/25/2012 7:31PM

    Hm.. I feel like I've known you longer. Happy almost nine months!

2013 is YOURS, bay-beeeeeeee!

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HEATHERFREE 12/25/2012 2:42PM

    AWESOME! This is exactly what I was hoping to hear!!! You can do this!

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PUNKY100 12/24/2012 10:53PM

    Wow, it's only been 9 months?! That is awesome!!! For some reason it feels like longer...strange huh?! Well congrats on making it 9 months straight, I know how hard that is, and I KNOW that 2013 will be your goal year!!!! :-D

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PRINCESSAMY 12/24/2012 11:27AM

    As long as you don't give up then you are making progress! Congrats!

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EMMELINEE3 12/24/2012 9:51AM

    Your sticking with it, me too so we will just have to support each other and just keeping taking our steps one at a time. emoticon

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TRUNKJUNK 12/24/2012 9:11AM

    I'm glad you stuck around also and I know next year you will meet your goal of 180 and even surpass it. Hang in there I'm right there with you.

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IMSOOZEEQ 12/24/2012 12:37AM

    emoticon Happy emoticon emoticon with your weight loss. That 5 pounds thinks it is big and sassy right now but I happen to know that you have special plans to annihilate them and the rest of those pounds! You got this my friend and I am right there with ya every step of the way!

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JACOBSBELOVED 12/24/2012 12:34AM

    How exciting for your coworker to say something! It's always nice for others to notice our progress!

I am so proud of you and I look forward to seeing what you accomplish in 2013!

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BETHIEBOOPS 12/24/2012 12:12AM

    Happy 9 monthiversary! It's like you've just come through a healthy life gestation. You've spent the last 9 months growing and blossoming, and now you can sprint towards that finish line. But more importantly- you're growth as an individual is amazing. Your boldness, courage, and consistency have really inspired me- and I think it is those things that are keeping you going forward- and will help you take small speed wobbles in stride. You go girl!

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WEBEZE 12/23/2012 11:23PM

    Keep pushing and sticking with it. I am right there with you. We can do this. 2013 will be the year.

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DLDROST 12/23/2012 9:31PM

  Keep pushing

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DUMBBELLE84 12/23/2012 9:29PM

  You have come so far, you should be so proud of yourself! I can't wait to hear about your continued success in January and onward!

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JUSTLIKEALICE 12/23/2012 9:20PM

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Weights Of Christmases Past...

Thursday, December 20, 2012


It is no secret that I have been having a rough time lately, so I won't be going into that... but as a sort of motivational tool I decided to take a look at weights of Christmases past. I have been one of those people that have been and off of Spark for years, and while in some ways it is frustrating that I have yo yo-ed a lot, it is beneficial to be able to look back and have a record of everything.

emoticon 12.19.12: 214 lbs
emoticon 12.6.11: 246 lbs
emoticon 12.19.10: 259 lbs
emoticon 12.25.09: 260 lbs

This is very important for me to see and it reminds me that this time next year I want to be even lower. This chart really sums up my journey from 2009 until now. What a roller coaster.



So despite everything it, just reminds me that I'm going to continue to take this one day at a time, and continue on a downward trend. emoticon

  
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WIO_ALISA 12/24/2012 12:30PM

    Awesome to see that you've made progress each year.
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PRINCESSAMY 12/24/2012 11:24AM

    emoticon Merry Christmas!

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CHICAT63 12/23/2012 6:38AM

    You got this !!!! emoticon

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TEENY_BIKINI 12/22/2012 9:04PM

    You got this, gorgeous.

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JUSTLIKEALICE 12/21/2012 9:54PM

    YOU ROCK!!!

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MILLYDALLY 12/21/2012 2:03PM

    Awesome!!

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HEATHERFREE 12/20/2012 11:38PM

    YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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ERW001 12/20/2012 10:28PM

    That must be encouraging to see how your weight has dropped over the years. Best of luck in 2013! emoticon

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GEMINIGEM6 12/20/2012 9:45PM

    Girl you are doing great and you will be way below what you are now by next Christmas! You will be at your goal!

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IMSOOZEEQ 12/20/2012 7:28PM

    2013 will definitely be your year! We will both see great success in the new year!

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MAGGIEVAN 12/20/2012 3:30PM

    Congrats with your achievements. It is very good to have a record, I agree. Have a great Christmas.

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TRUNKJUNK 12/20/2012 12:15PM

    Great job. I know how it is you're up one year and down the next but all that yo-yoing is behind you. I think a 26 pound loss for a year is a good goal. Of course it's even better if you lose more. But as we all know Murphy's Law rears it's ugly head from time to time so I think 26 pounds allows for some slip ups. Ideally I think a pound a week but I want to be realistic and if you do achieve that then great. Good Luck.

I've subscribed to your blog to witness your progress and for you to inspire me.

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AELI2468 12/20/2012 10:46AM

    that chart is AWESOME! You have done such a great job this year. Don't let e few blips recently get you down.
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REVAMPINGMYLIFE 12/20/2012 9:18AM

    I noticed that not only have you lost weight every year, but the amount lost has increased each year. Thank you for sharing! You inspire us all to keep sparking bc it works. emoticon emoticon

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PEGGYO 12/20/2012 7:30AM

    impressive

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MYHUBBYISMYHERO 12/20/2012 6:36AM

    Keep up the good work (very hard work I might add.) Looking forward to helping you celebrate your new downward weight next Christmas. Enjoy the rest of your week.
Sharon

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LRSILVER 12/20/2012 4:48AM

    Great. I think 2013, Will be your year!

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DUMBBELLE84 12/20/2012 1:36AM

  Really goes to show when you make an effort and commit yourself, the results will come! Here's to a FABULOUS 2013, Steph!

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BETHIEBOOPS 12/20/2012 1:17AM

    Hell yeah! Check out that chart going down, down, down... WOO! I'm with Lisa, I think you'll be less than goal weight by Christmas 2013. How exciting is that?!?!?!

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LISAN0415 12/20/2012 1:02AM

    wooooohooo! Now- I want you to predict the weight at Christmas 2013.....
I predict 189

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