Sunday, October 28, 2012
So consistency is totally the key to me losing 55 pounds, and it will be the tool I continue to use to lose 37 more. I have been on Spark daily now for just over 7 months! That is the longest I have to stuck with any diet or lifestyle plan. 55 pounds is the most I've EVER lost during any weight loss attempt. 217 is the lowest weight I've seen in at least 5 years! I have bad days, I have noticed a trend of me having about 6 bad days a month. 6 sounds like a lot, it's almost a week, but it's amazing how if we hang in there and , we can just keep on going.
I am sort of tweaking some things right now, only just a bit. I now have a fitness goal of working out 5 days for sure, 6 if I'm up to it. I used to push myself so hard to meet these calories burned goals that were making me miserable. Why would I want to be miserable?
So the revamped plan is to burn 1320 calories per week. That number works out great for me.
My goals are now set to lose 1.4 pounds a week which has me at a max calorie range of 1720. Now that is some calories I can work with! I don't find myself eating extra just "because I can", but on those hungrier days I am happy to use them up.
With the Holidays coming and a vacation to my Grandma's house for 6 days out of my beautiful 24 day vacation (I can't freakin' wait you guys LOL ), there is going to be some buffet eating (she lives in Vegas baby). There is going to be some indulging, but at the end of the day consistency is what matters. What we do the majority of the time is what can get us to where we want to go, or stop us dead in our tracks. It took me so long to learn this, but now that I did I'm holding on tight!
Consistency took me from 272ISH:
To 217 (photo shows 227 but close enough, new pictures at 60lbs down for sure):
And I know it'll take me right down the road to Onederland!
Sunday, October 21, 2012
I am 6 weeks into the BLC 20, and the challenge is to look at what we've done so far and see how we are going to do things moving forward. I started the challenge at 227 and as of Wednesdays weigh in I am 217.4. My goal for this challenge was to lose 18 pounds during the 12 weeks. So I am still on target to reach my goal.
However this Wednesday I had decided that I would push super hard and go for 2 pounds this week. Well that's how this is going:
So we all know that 2 pounds a week means 1000 calorie deficit per day, sounds easy enough, right? WRONG. So my range was maxed out at 1550 and I tried to up my calories burned to 2800, which for me is quite a bit more than usual. Plus I added calorie cycling in the mix because I was going to dinner Friday and would need the extra calories. In theory this was a great plan.
Reality was that instead of the allotted 2000 I had for Friday, I went on an eating spree ending the day at 2900. I'm ending Saturday at 1850. But I was telling myself I needed to eat around 1200 for the next 3 days to "make up" for that horrible day. That was also a FAIL! As you can see, my 1850 was nowhere near 1200 and I have done this in the past. It leads me into a restrict/binge/restrict/binge cycle. Obviously, that is no good!
So my plan for the next 6 weeks of BLC (and beyond) is to have my calorie range set for 1.5 pounds a week. I have been losing between 1.2 and 1.5 pounds a week anyways, and I am pleased with the progress. As long as I am headed towards Onederland, then I am happy. This journey is all about trial and error and most importantly learning from our mistakes. So just like I am the first to toot my own horn after something good, I also want to the first to step up and say "something is not right here". So I'm just going to keep on pushing, right into Onederland.
Friday, October 19, 2012
This is totally just a tooting my own horn kind of blog, so if that's not your thing, turn away now!
My weekly weigh in is on Wednesdays because I'm part of BLC 20. I weighed in twice at 217.4 which I thought was great. Later on, even though I hadn't had any food or anything, I was 218. I was a little miffed and didn't really trust my scale at that point. But I had already recorded everything, and I thought no normal person would have gotten on it a 3rd time 30 minutes later, so I moved on.
This morning it told me 216! I got on again, 216. Then tried two more times, 216.2, okay what's the deal. My batteries shouldn't be old, and my scale is fairly accurate for the most part. It never changes numbers like that. When I went to the doctor in September my scale was within like 2 pounds of the doctors scale, then add on for the extra clothes.
So for piece of mind, I went into Target, and yes, I'm a rebel, but I snuck in a weigh in on a scale. The thing is if my scale was "that far off", I was going to go ahead and buy a new one. I weighed myself at home, fully clothed and after dinner 218.8 at home and 219 at Target. Close enough for me!
Sometimes we just have to accept the fact that we are awesome, and not "downplay" success because of a faulty scale or batteries or this or that. I am literally just SO excited. Oh, and don't get me wrong, I'm fully aware it is probably a fluctuation, and I ONLY record my official weight on Wednesdays for weigh in. But just to see that the scale has the potential to keep moving down is a victory to me.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
I'm going to take a guess that most of us on here have had quite a few weight loss attempts in the past, and in the long run those attempts have failed. What are you doing to make this time different?
I was just checking out this chart that Spark offers on it's report, and it's quite depressing.
October of 2010 I weighed in at 264 pounds, and as the chart shows I struggled. I got down to around 247 there for a minute. Then where it dips down really low is when I had a broken leg and I wasn't eating very much. I got down to 228, in July of 2011, woohoo! But then you can see the increase after that. Once I was "better" and was able to stuff myself full of fast food, that is exactly what I did. Watching that cute little chart climb back up to even new highs is just so heart breaking. All the way up to 262 in March of this year, and then I started my steady decline and that is the way I plan to keep this chart moving.
This time is different for me because:
: I am not on a PLAN. I am eating whatever I want and tracking everything. This behavior will continue to some extent forever. May I get to a point where I can start to "eyeball" 1/2 a cup of something accurately, maybe I will. But there will always be some form of tracking and monitoring my intake. For now that includes precise measurements.
: I will not slip back into my everyday fast food habit. It is now a rare treat, but not a way of life.
: I realize I have to exercise forever, not until. I used to think "I can't wait to get to XXX weight so that I can stop exercising." How silly is that. Now I tell myself "I can't wait to lose XX more pounds because my exercises will become easier.
: I no longer let one bad day, or even a bad week derail me. Luckily I haven't had a bad WEEK while starting this in March, but that may very well happen. But I now realize that one week of poor choices do not undo months of hard work.
: This is the first time I can SEE myself reaching Onederland, and going on to goal. This is the first time the plan I am using to lose weight will be the same as my maintenance plan. MAINTENANCE?! I never once thought about that on any previous attempt, this time is different.
: I have successful and amazing Spark friends who not only support me, but dazzle me with THEIR successes. It really keeps me motivated to keep on trucking.
So that is why this time is different for me. I am not going to eat better and exercise "until" I get to goal, this is the way of life and something I am learning to embrace. Sometimes I embrace it kicking and screaming, but 9 times out of 10, I get the job done. In fact, I'm currently not feeling 's and 's about this whole thing, which is the reason for this blog. A friendly reminder to myself if you will.
If you are up to it, I'd love to hear why this time is different for YOU!
Sunday, October 07, 2012
So first I gotta address the hypocrite status, because I'm fully aware that a little over a week ago I said I was stepping back from the blogs. So anyone that wants to throw rotten tomatoes, the floor is yours.
This is just for my select handful of Spark Friends that have asked how I was doing and stuff... and it makes me warm and fuzzy that you guys care about how I am doing.
So yesterday was just a terrible terrible day. I know the point of this blog was to share things with my Spark buddies, but to be honest there are some things I just have no desire to discuss. So let's just say it was a rough day, and I was at work. I am also on my TOM and the cramps are horrible. I am now starting birth control in hopes that it is going to help my cramps and all things associated with that girlie time. So fingers crossed for that one.
I had the HUGEST frozen yogurt from Yogurtland yesterday that was essentially my dinner. Bad, bad Stephanie. The worst part was, I didn't even care! Nope. Not one bit. I had oreos, reese's, cheesecake bites on top of it. I didn't track it and I didn't care. It scared me a little but I couldn't be bothered.
I am having some issues with the boy, they are not huge issues and we actually were just texting and things seem to be okay, but let's just say I am definitely going to walk around with my heart a lot more guarded in terms of this boy. I still can not 100% say what his intentions and stuff are, so that is a process. So that was bothering me in addition to the super personal stuff that I am not comfortable sharing. I'm not trying to be a tease by mentioning that again, I just want people to know that it's not like one tiny problem I'm blowing out of proportion. I've got some crap going on for sure LOL.
So I fully intended to stay in my pj's all day today, which NSV time. I found a fuzzy pair of jammie pants that I couldn't wear for a whiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiile, they are just an extra large. Of course they stretch like crazy, but THEY FIT. With my "bottom stomach" and "butt" being the largest part around, I can very easily need 1x or 2x stretchy things to get them to fit. So I am happy about that, they are so comfy!
I am going to watch some movies and I'm not going to lie, I'm going to have a good cry. I cried myself to sleep this morning (don't be alarmed) and it helped, so if I have to let any more out I will.
But here's the bad part. I fully woke up today thinking I was going to binge. In fact, I was going to binge and I didn't care about it. I wanted to drive to the one place, get a grilled cheese, patty melt, and chili cheese fries. I was going to eat the grilled cheese and half the fries for lunch and the rest for dinner.
I would love to sit here and tell you all that I woke up this morning and said to myself, "Stephanie, you are better than that! You are not going to harm your body, you are going to do what's right and you are going to fight for this weight loss you want so badly!" That did not happen. I was already thinking about what my order would be, but then I decided to peek ever so slightly at the scale. I saw....
218.6!!! I was 220.2 just last Wednesday. Could it be a fluctuation? Probably. Could that mean by this weigh in Wednesday that I'm back to 220.2, it could happen. But that made me not want to binge. Any port in a storm as my Gammie always says. So instead I am going to make a patty melt at home, and track all my calories.
I have an exercise streak with my girl Susan... 30 minutes of exercise a day and I think today will be day 16. I don't know if I can do it. I really don't, I am really struggling today, but we will see what happens.
So that is what is going on with me... I know that doesn't go into the juicy tidbits, but I just can't do it right now, but I heart everyone who has reached out to me and checked on me and you all keep me going even when I don't really want to.
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