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Sometimes you have to stop & say, "I'M AWESOME!"

Friday, October 19, 2012

This is totally just a tooting my own horn kind of blog, so if that's not your thing, turn away now! emoticon

My weekly weigh in is on Wednesdays because I'm part of BLC 20. I weighed in twice at 217.4 which I thought was great. Later on, even though I hadn't had any food or anything, I was 218. I was a little miffed and didn't really trust my scale at that point. But I had already recorded everything, and I thought no normal person would have gotten on it a 3rd time 30 minutes later, so I moved on.

This morning it told me 216! I got on again, 216. Then tried two more times, 216.2, okay what's the deal. My batteries shouldn't be old, and my scale is fairly accurate for the most part. It never changes numbers like that. When I went to the doctor in September my scale was within like 2 pounds of the doctors scale, then add on for the extra clothes.

So for piece of mind, I went into Target, and yes, I'm a rebel, but I snuck in a weigh in on a scale. The thing is if my scale was "that far off", I was going to go ahead and buy a new one. I weighed myself at home, fully clothed and after dinner 218.8 at home and 219 at Target. Close enough for me!

Sometimes we just have to accept the fact that we are awesome, and not "downplay" success because of a faulty scale or batteries or this or that. emoticon I am literally just SO excited. Oh, and don't get me wrong, I'm fully aware it is probably a fluctuation, and I ONLY record my official weight on Wednesdays for weigh in. But just to see that the scale has the potential to keep moving down is a victory to me. emoticon

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THESHELBSTER 10/28/2012 3:51PM

    Yep. You ARE awesome!

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GEMINIGEM6 10/23/2012 10:29PM

    That ROCKS! Yay!! Congrats! And yes you are AWESOME!

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SHRINK_U 10/21/2012 12:30PM

    You sure are awesome! No doubt about it :) You are!

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HEATHERFREE 10/20/2012 7:52PM

    You are doing so awesome!!! It WAS for realsies this time!!!! I am fallin behind again, just got my wisdom teeth out, had to have em surgically done, and ohhh my does it hurt! You rule! I'm still working on getting vlogs going again.....someday soon i hope!

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TEENY_BIKINI 10/20/2012 12:30PM

    Heck yeah!! You are AWESOME! Toot that horn, rock star!

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EATVEGAN 10/20/2012 12:54AM

    Love your victory pic! You rock, Miss Awesome. Happy for you that the scale is moving. Hate it when it gets stuck.

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ADARKARA 10/19/2012 10:00AM

    emoticon You ARE awesome!!!

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MAHGRET 10/19/2012 10:00AM

    I'm awesome too.
(that was hard for me, but thanks for the inspiration!)

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ANDREAG89 10/19/2012 9:47AM

    Oh sister, I am RIGHT THERE with you!!!! It's like you have to do a double-take when the number is lower than you expect. Then you step off the scale, do a happy dance. Step back on the scale, calculate how much you lost from the week before, and do another happy dance. Then you think "So what I'll do TOMORROW is..." so you can continue. It just really jazzes you up, doesn't it?!?!

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PUNKY100 10/19/2012 9:29AM

    Yes you are!!!! Just believe it and accept it, because it's reflecting all of your hard work!!! :-D

I always weigh myself 2-3 times in a row on Thursday mornings because I want to make sure I'm not straddling it across 2 different bathroom tiles (it actually affects it in my parents' bathroom) but I always log it, whether it's up or down. I figure it will always figure itself out, but if it goes REALLY wacky, that's when I change the batteries (I'm talking like 5-10 lbs).

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SONIA260 10/19/2012 9:22AM it! And yes, you are awesome!

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LRSILVER 10/19/2012 6:17AM

    You are amazing. Keep it up!

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CHICAT63 10/19/2012 5:06AM

    Oh yeah love this !!!! and the pic *lol* emoticon

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BETHIEBOOPS 10/19/2012 3:57AM

    You ARE amazing! GO YOU! I've had similar experiences on my Saturday weigh day, and they weren't fluctuation. Losing weight isn't an exact science- it doesn't all appear on the scale at the same time- so TOOT away!! Proud of you!

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GRACEMCC45 10/19/2012 3:47AM

    Yeah yeah!! Owned it!

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KAESEA78 10/19/2012 3:08AM

    I only tell you are awesome because you are!!!

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JESSICA_STULTZ 10/19/2012 2:00AM

    One thing I consider is if I move my scale at all or even the way we are standing on the scale each time we step on may set it off by a few ounces. Either way.. Any weight loss is better than none or a gain! Go you! I am with you on specific weigh in days.. Believe me.. I'd love to change my weight today.. but then Sunday is my weigh in and I'd be discouraged if I changed it midweek and then it went up or something. Well maybe not discouraged.. but it still sucks when you don't see it going down. Sundays only is when I track.. I weigh in first thing in the morning after I pee, before I've eaten/drank anything, and just in my underwear.. Maybe too much info but I figure that by doing it that way.. I don't ever have any variables like 'Well these clothes are heavier/I ate this/I drank that to have to consider." So glad to see you are doing so well and getting well past that dreaded 40 pound mark that we both had issues with. In that alone we should be proud!
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Are YOU Going To Make This Time Different? I Sure Am...

Thursday, October 11, 2012

I'm going to take a guess that most of us on here have had quite a few weight loss attempts in the past, and in the long run those attempts have failed. What are you doing to make this time different?

I was just checking out this chart that Spark offers on it's report, and it's quite depressing.

October of 2010 I weighed in at 264 pounds, and as the chart shows I struggled. I got down to around 247 there for a minute. Then where it dips down really low is when I had a broken leg and I wasn't eating very much. I got down to 228, in July of 2011, woohoo! But then you can see the increase after that. Once I was "better" and was able to stuff myself full of fast food, that is exactly what I did. Watching that cute little chart climb back up to even new highs is just so heart breaking. All the way up to 262 in March of this year, and then I started my steady decline and that is the way I plan to keep this chart moving.

This time is different for me because:
emoticon: I am not on a PLAN. I am eating whatever I want and tracking everything. This behavior will continue to some extent forever. May I get to a point where I can start to "eyeball" 1/2 a cup of something accurately, maybe I will. But there will always be some form of tracking and monitoring my intake. For now that includes precise measurements.

emoticon: I will not slip back into my everyday fast food habit. It is now a rare treat, but not a way of life.

emoticon: I realize I have to exercise forever, not until. I used to think "I can't wait to get to XXX weight so that I can stop exercising." How silly is that. Now I tell myself "I can't wait to lose XX more pounds because my exercises will become easier.

emoticon: I no longer let one bad day, or even a bad week derail me. Luckily I haven't had a bad WEEK while starting this in March, but that may very well happen. But I now realize that one week of poor choices do not undo months of hard work.

emoticon: This is the first time I can SEE myself reaching Onederland, and going on to goal. This is the first time the plan I am using to lose weight will be the same as my maintenance plan. MAINTENANCE?! I never once thought about that on any previous attempt, this time is different.

emoticon: I have successful and amazing Spark friends who not only support me, but dazzle me with THEIR successes. It really keeps me motivated to keep on trucking.

So that is why this time is different for me. I am not going to eat better and exercise "until" I get to goal, this is the way of life and something I am learning to embrace. Sometimes I embrace it kicking and screaming, but 9 times out of 10, I get the job done. In fact, I'm currently not feeling emoticon's and emoticon's about this whole thing, which is the reason for this blog. A friendly reminder to myself if you will. emoticon

If you are up to it, I'd love to hear why this time is different for YOU! emoticon emoticon

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DESERTJULZ 10/19/2012 12:18AM

    Congratulations on getting that chart moving steadily in the right direction. You will succeed!

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IMSOOZEEQ 10/18/2012 11:42PM

    You are such a star! I needed to read this today. I have been struggling with my attitude about my journey and I was almost at the point of saying meh, who cares any more. I have kept up with the streak (kicking and screaming) and I have been eating okay but I just don't feel the motivation. Thank you for this blog because it has given me some things to remember and think about.

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HDHAWK 10/14/2012 9:53PM

    Your chart is moving in the right direction! Way to go!

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TEENY_BIKINI 10/14/2012 9:28PM

    Oh, I just love it when you're feisty. Go get 'em, Tiger.


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GEMINIGEM6 10/14/2012 8:45PM

    Hey Stephanie! I love this! Your attitude is SO great....even though I know you don't feel that way all the time. None of us do! For me the reason why this time is different is is b/c of my health. It's not just about looking cute or for men or for any reason like that. It's b/c I really see how big of a role eating well and exercise play into your health. Even if a person is not overweight it plays a part. But for those of us who have struggled with extra weight, we make the issue worse than it has to be. It sucks. I can't explain why some ppl eat like crap and don't exercise and remain slim and some overweight ppl eat horribly and never have major health issues, but I am one who does have health issues. So that is my answer. I want to live....and I want to live longer. :)

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HEATHERFREE 10/13/2012 10:21PM

    Great blog! This time is different for me, because I have NEVER stuck to TRYING for this long, I have had bad weeks...heck even bad months this go around but I have never stopped trying and knowing that I am continuing this journey. It will be a year in December and Ive gone up and down but I have still kept my goal in sight and I have never done that before. I don't care how long it take or how slow the pounds come off I'm GOING to be thinner every year until I hit my last goal!

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AMARILYNH 10/13/2012 4:01PM

    Wow - I sure wish I'd joined SP back in 2008 when I just started losing! The graph is awesome, as is your attitude!!

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TIMELAG 10/13/2012 11:46AM

    Amen, sister!! You have it exactly right! I am so with you. You spoke everything that is going on in my mind right now as well. We will do this! See ya on the Sheriffs chat!

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IRONBLOSSOM 10/12/2012 12:59PM

    Very inspiring! I'm glad you've got your chart moving in the right direction!

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 10/12/2012 10:28AM

    You have so many valuable and insightful ideas and plans here. It really helped me and my motivation to read what you are saying. emoticon emoticon

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AMCLELLAN 10/12/2012 8:15AM

    emoticon Amazing Blog!!

This time is different for me because I have my reason right in front of me. My son! I know I need to do this for him. Not some future I am imagining, but the future I am creating.

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LRSILVER 10/12/2012 6:49AM

    You have the right mindset, and I know you will succeed!
Keep it up.

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WEBEZE 10/12/2012 2:07AM

    Love your Blog. Your mind set has changed, so this time will be different.

For me this time is different because I am not eating foods I don't like just to lose weight. Healthy choices are for foods I enjoy and can eat for a life time. I still can eat out and enjoy life by just being more careful of my choices and watching my portion sizes. I love to bake and still enjoy the treats guilt free because I know I am going to track everything and at the end of the week it will all balance out because of the healthy choices I have made that allow me a little extra once in awhile.

This time is also different because I am not starving myself to lose weight. Lower calories and more exercise only gets you so far. I would always drop my calories too low and it wouldn't matter if I ran around the planet I couldn't lose. My body was saying feed me or I won't let go of anything. So now I eat more and the weight is just dropping off.

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JACOBSBELOVED 10/12/2012 12:44AM

    I am so freakin' proud of you, girl!!!

I can't tell you how many times we have said this but THIS TIME IS DIFFERENT!

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LAHUDSONCHEF 10/12/2012 12:39AM

    You said it, "I am not on a PLAN. I am eating whatever I want and tracking everything. This behavior will continue to some extent forever. " My FB cover image says, "It's not a Diet, It's not a Phase, It's a permanent Lifestyle Change."

That's why this time is different. I'm purposely putting myself in situations to have to deal with all types of foods, and stretching myself to make wise choices when faced with options that wouldn't be on anyone's "weight loss plan". But, that's life, and I am training myself to take on LIFE, so that I can live, be social (instead of the inherent anti-social-ness of dieting), and still be healthy. It's new habits, a new "relationship to food", a new outlook, and a new drive. I really don't want to go down the diabetic, high blood pressure, hypothyroid route of many in my family. Hopefully, I am changing in time to derail those tendencies.

And now, back to my glass of Chardonnay... emoticon

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DUMBBELLE84 10/12/2012 12:13AM

  You just wait, missy. My version of this blog will come in 9 pounds... I've already been thinking about it. ;)

Isn't it nice to just know that you'll be successful?! With every day that you wake up renewing your commitment to yourself, with every healthy choice you make, every time you exercise... you know this is your new life, and you're loving it!

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My Mental Health Day

Sunday, October 07, 2012

So first I gotta address the hypocrite status, because I'm fully aware that a little over a week ago I said I was stepping back from the blogs. So anyone that wants to throw rotten tomatoes, the floor is yours. emoticon emoticon

This is just for my select handful of Spark Friends that have asked how I was doing and stuff... and it makes me warm and fuzzy that you guys care about how I am doing.

So yesterday was just a terrible terrible day. I know the point of this blog was to share things with my Spark buddies, but to be honest there are some things I just have no desire to discuss. So let's just say it was a rough day, and I was at work. I am also on my TOM and the cramps are horrible. I am now starting birth control in hopes that it is going to help my cramps and all things associated with that girlie time. So fingers crossed for that one.

I had the HUGEST frozen yogurt from Yogurtland yesterday that was essentially my dinner. Bad, bad Stephanie. The worst part was, I didn't even care! Nope. Not one bit. I had oreos, reese's, cheesecake bites on top of it. I didn't track it and I didn't care. It scared me a little but I couldn't be bothered.

I am having some issues with the boy, they are not huge issues and we actually were just texting and things seem to be okay, but let's just say I am definitely going to walk around with my heart a lot more guarded in terms of this boy. I still can not 100% say what his intentions and stuff are, so that is a process. So that was bothering me in addition to the super personal stuff that I am not comfortable sharing. I'm not trying to be a tease by mentioning that again, I just want people to know that it's not like one tiny problem I'm blowing out of proportion. I've got some crap going on for sure LOL.

So I fully intended to stay in my pj's all day today, which NSV time. I found a fuzzy pair of jammie pants that I couldn't wear for a whiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiile, they are just an extra large. Of course they stretch like crazy, but THEY FIT. With my "bottom stomach" and "butt" being the largest part around, I can very easily need 1x or 2x stretchy things to get them to fit. So I am happy about that, they are so comfy!

I am going to watch some movies and I'm not going to lie, I'm going to have a good cry. I cried myself to sleep this morning (don't be alarmed) and it helped, so if I have to let any more out I will.

But here's the bad part. I fully woke up today thinking I was going to binge. In fact, I was going to binge and I didn't care about it. I wanted to drive to the one place, get a grilled cheese, patty melt, and chili cheese fries. I was going to eat the grilled cheese and half the fries for lunch and the rest for dinner.

I would love to sit here and tell you all that I woke up this morning and said to myself, "Stephanie, you are better than that! You are not going to harm your body, you are going to do what's right and you are going to fight for this weight loss you want so badly!" That did not happen. I was already thinking about what my order would be, but then I decided to peek ever so slightly at the scale. I saw....

218.6!!! I was 220.2 just last Wednesday. Could it be a fluctuation? Probably. Could that mean by this weigh in Wednesday that I'm back to 220.2, it could happen. But that made me not want to binge. Any port in a storm as my Gammie always says. So instead I am going to make a patty melt at home, and track all my calories.

I have an exercise streak with my girl Susan... 30 minutes of exercise a day and I think today will be day 16. I don't know if I can do it. I really don't, I am really struggling today, but we will see what happens.

So that is what is going on with me... I know that doesn't go into the juicy tidbits, but I just can't do it right now, but I heart everyone who has reached out to me and checked on me and you all keep me going even when I don't really want to. emoticon

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PRINCESSAMY 10/16/2012 2:48PM

    Everyone has days like that. I would like something is wrong if you didn't.

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HEATHERFREE 10/10/2012 11:00PM

    VERY awesome, I don't know what all is happening with you since you wont give it up! But as far as the weightloss you are doing so flipping amazing!!! and really I'm not lieing when I say your journey and your progress is sometimes the ONLY reason I
ve kept hanging on. Zeldabee and Kassie too but sometimes your it kid! lol I think its because we both have similar things going on, we arent married no kids and have similar meal plans. well anywho your doing good, and for TOM nuva ring birth control is AMAZING for reducing the crazy moods and best of all cramps, I just havent had the money to keep on it. But believe me the last few Toms have made me want to get back on it.

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JESSICA_STULTZ 10/9/2012 9:29AM

    Glad you decided to stay home and track. Sometimes it's the little things that make big differences. I am sure you saved calories AND money by not going out to eat. I hope you can turn today around and make it a better one. We don't blame you for not wanting to share everything. It happens to us all. Haha. I wish there was a way to magically break the habit of emotional eating.. or even eating extra or for no reason. It would make this weight loss journey so much easier. Doesn't it feel good to almost be to One-derland? I am so excited to reach that. Made it hard to swallow that I was up 2 pounds this week. Ugh. Why are there so many delicious foods?? Anyways.. I just thought I'd let you know that you got this! You can make it past this obstacle just as you have made it past all the obstacles this far. One thing I've been told is that the struggles are what makes the accomplishment so great. Once you hit your goals you can look back and say "Look at all the crap I went through and I STILL hit my goals." You are stronger than you know!

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GEMINIGEM6 10/8/2012 9:26PM

    I swear I can relate to this SO much. I too have things that are just TOO personal to share and peeps have no idea just how much I'm dealing with on a daily basis. I really try to take it a day at a time...sometimes a moment at a time. It's hard. I just cried today. All I can say is what my mom always tells me 'this too shall pass'. I know that may not help a lot but it helps me sometimes. I hope the girlie stuff gets straightened out as welll as I also go through THAT as well. I think you're my long lost sister. Lol. And I hope 'the boy' situation reveals itself soon enough. It's always best to take those things slowly and really get to know the person. I really have learned that lesson the hard way one too many times unfortunately. I'm here for you girl. Inbox me if you ever wanna talk! :) And thanks so much for the comment on my vid blog again. So sweet. :) emoticon

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GRACEMCC45 10/8/2012 9:26PM

    You are doing awesome, woo hoo!!!

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_MOBII_ 10/8/2012 8:13PM

    Sometimes its the little nudges that yell the loudest 'Look at me!'
So happy to see that you 'decided to peek at the scale' Congratulations on the 1.6 pounds!
And glad to see that your fuzzy jammies turned out to be a NSV as well!

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BETHIEBOOPS 10/8/2012 10:22AM

    Look at those good choices you made! You are so awesome. And YAY for NSV! It won't be long until you're wearing a normal boring L or even M to bed! Can you imagine?!

I'm sorry to hear that things are tough right now. I totally get keeping certain things private- this is the internet afterall. But I really hope they pass quickly, and that your ship rights itself so you can keep plowing forward.

We're all on yourside! And just a private message away from a rant if you need :)


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    It was nice to hear from you!
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DUMBBELLE84 10/8/2012 1:29AM

  Hey, beautiful. Whatever is going on, just know that we support and care about you. So glad to hear that you're scale actually helped you today. Take care of yourself. Times get tough, but it'll pass. xoxo

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EATVEGAN 10/8/2012 1:19AM

    Congratulations, girl. You got past it and made some good choices. That sounds great in my book. I'm sorry you are going through distressing times. But even though we sometimes think we will feel better if we just EAT, when we've finished (and the food only lasts about 15 minutes) we are left with the regret to add to the distress we were already feeling. Don't beat yourself up about the yogurt. Instead congratulate yourself on the good steps you took today. emoticon

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IMSOOZEEQ 10/8/2012 12:07AM

    Okay so where do I start? I have to be honest that I feel bad that I wasn't around the last few days to be a support for you. Okay so the emoticon although the situation could have been different, I am glad you stepped on it and it stopped you from damaging all the hard work you have put in. Obviously, there is something going on to bring you to this place. I am sorry that you are having some issues. You know I am here! Okay so the last few days I haven't been but I was logging in and I sure would ALWAYS read your emails!

You had some great positives that you listed there and I really hope that you paid close attention to them. Getting into the pjs! emoticon Seeing 218.6 on the scale! emoticon Like can you see what I see? You are getting SO close to Onederland! It has to be like someone cooking in the kitchen and waking up to the smell of coffee or bacon. Okay sorry for the food reference but I know you know what I mean! It is SO SO SO close! Cooking your patty melt at home instead of going out, HUGE! That is emoticon You made the decision to track all your calories! That is another HUGE one! As are as the streak, I know you can do it. I have had a few days of just having to push and talk to myself the whole way through it. Now that being said, you know that I am NOT going to judge you if you have to begin again. I still emoticon ya! I will still be here to support you. You know I got you!

Hey girl, I know about the need for a mental health day. I am glad that you recognized the need for one and that you took it. Getting a hold of it now is better than trying to run after it as it snowballs. You are facing it now and that is great!!

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JACOBSBELOVED 10/7/2012 11:26PM

    I'm glad you blogged. I really think this helped you out a lot and you needed to put your problems out there, even if some of them were a bit vague. You know what was unspoken and I think it still helped to mention it, even if you didn't go into details. We have to keep some things to ourselves every now and then. There's nothing wrong with wanting to keep some things private. :)

218?! Like you said, it may be a fluctuation but what if it wasn't?? We'll see on Wednesday. That got me really excited!!

We all go through difficult times when it comes to eating, especially if we know it has the possibility to make us feel better emotionally. I know this isn't the beginning of a downward spiral or anything, especially since you prevented youself from going out and getting something to eat. You made your patty melt at home, which is always going to be better for you than getting it at a restaurant. I'm glad you peeked at the scale, too, even if it wasn't a weigh-in day. I think it did a lot of good for you.

I hope whatever it is you're going through gets better soon. I don't want you to hurt. :(

Keep us updated with everything (if you can/want)!

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My thoughts on life, prediabetes, spark, etc....

Saturday, September 29, 2012

So I posted the A1C number on my last blog, and it was a 5.8. I knew instantly it wasn't good but upon more research I came to find out that it is indeed considered pre diabetes.

I'm not worried at all. Is that cocky or arrogant? Maybe it is. But here is why. All these things I've read have said the #1 way to reverse it is by losing weight and adding exercise. Well I've been doing that for 6 months. If I had been doing nothing about my health, that number would have thrown me for a loop and a lot of reevaluation on my part. But that isn't the case. I don't need to spring into action now, based on a number... I sprung into action 6 months ago when I dropped this 40 pounds.

Even my diabetic Dad who is completely obsessed with that kind of stuff (and rightfully so), he did not even lecture me for a second about the "alarming number". And let me tell you, he loves to lecture me, and well, ANYONE! He simply said that continuing what I've been doing for months would be what it takes to lower that number and make myself healthier in all counts.

Even for giggles, I let Spark People change my nutritional ticker for those with diabetes/pre diabetes, and it left my calories alone. It lowered my carbs, fat and protein. I put in a typical day of what I eat out of curiosity, and I was well within the diabetic ranges which were even a tad more strict than the regular Spark ranges.

So that is where I'm at at this point. I left my ticker on the diabetic settings, because I figured that is the best thing for my current situation. If the number stays the same or goes up when I go back next year, that will blow my mind, because I fully intend to lose 40-50 pounds in the next year (if it takes THAT long), and that will be a separate can of worms. But thank goodness everything I read said even losing 5-10% of your weight can reverse it, and I am going to double that. So according to everything I've read, that number should absolutely be a lot better by this time next year, after a loss of 40 or 50 pounds.

With that said, I am taking a huge step back from Spark for a little bit. Now time out... it's not what you think. I am still going to talk to my circle of friends on a daily basis, I am still going to comment on their blogs regularly, I am still going to log in everyday, log my fitness, track my calories. I am still going to continue to participate in the BLC 20... So I guess I mean I'm just going to step back from the blogging and the putting so much of myself out there. It seems that you can't put yourself out there without getting a shred of negativity from someone, and I can have 20 amazingly supportive comments, but 1 remark from someone that is... not so supportive can send me for a tailspin. So for the time being, the only blogs that are going to come from me will be BLC 20 related, OR milestone related (60 pounds lost, 70 pounds lost, NSV, etc). I think that is what is best for me at this point. :)

*And just to add, if you are one of my TRUE and fabulous Spark Friends, you can be assured this does not pertain to you. emoticon *

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KASTASTROPHY 10/5/2012 10:31AM

    i COMPLETELY understand!!! oh I don't know how many times the only reason i didn't just flip out on someone was being negative was because of you! so I'm glad you are around and I plan on you being around me lol! and I'm here if you need me!

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HEATHERFREE 10/5/2012 12:28AM

    Oh ive missed you SO! lol

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SHRINK_U 10/3/2012 4:01PM

    I have had several negative comments and sparkmails.. I know exactly what you mean. It really brought me down and made me not want to spark as much. Keep up the great work!

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PRINCESSAMY 10/2/2012 9:36AM

    emoticon big hugs

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GEMINIGEM6 9/30/2012 8:06PM

    I love this. I am considered prediabetes too b/c I have PCOS. So I can totally relate to all of this. I didn't even think to set my settings that way. I may do that too! So glad you are going down a healthy path to ensure you will never become diabetic! :)

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DUMBBELLE84 9/30/2012 12:58PM

  You're on the right track, girl! Sorry that someone upset you...
Can't wait to be reading about your milestones and NSVs!!

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CANDOSUE52 9/30/2012 12:49PM

I enjoyed your blog. Thanks, and best wishes on your journey!

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JESSICA_STULTZ 9/29/2012 11:37PM

    Don't let anyone get you down. You are amazing.. and we all know you will lose that amount and beat the diabetes that was creeping into your life. Glad you already had a head start because that will probably make things a little easier for you in the long run. Keep up the good work you've done so far and you will hit your goals before you know it!

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LRSILVER 9/29/2012 8:15PM

    You are doing great looking into things and working on getting healthier!! emoticon

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_MOBII_ 9/29/2012 6:11PM

    Keep calm and carry on...because you were headed in the right direction to begin with! That is so great and I am glad you didn't get another lecture from your dad...I know how diabetic dads can be, lol!

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JACOBSBELOVED 9/29/2012 3:47PM

    You do what you need to do. If you think you need to take a break from blogging (with the exceptions you mentioned) then you do that and whatever else you feel like you need to do in order to keep your Spark space positive. This experience is hard enough without having to deal with comments that you feel aren't influencing you positively.

Not gonna lie, though, I was a little nervous when you said you were going to step back for a little bit, but then you said you were still going to track, chat, and be involved with your BLC group. I still want my blog comments, dang it! :)

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CRISSA1669 9/29/2012 12:55PM

    Whooo Hoo!! I can't tell you how thrilled I am to read your blog about this!!! Congratulations on NOT freaking out!!! You are doing what needs to be done to turn this is neither cocky or arrogant, it's the facts What you are doing is taking your health seriously because the statistic is 2 out of 3 is or will be pre-diabetic in the next 5-10 years. Keep on going!!! Your health and life is worth all of the effort you are putting in. :)

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MISHAMW 9/29/2012 12:08PM

    Congratulation on the losing the weight you have lost!!!

Just to let you know, losing weight sometimes doesn't always help. I lost twenty pounds in four months, went back to my doctor and found out my cholesterol is still high (had to be put on meds for that), and though my Metformin is helping my glucose levels ( I have pre-diabetes IR, or insulin resistance), I am in no way in the clear.

Everyone is different, and I can't stress this enough. Just because 90% of the pre-diabetics out there get better by losing weight, still means that 10% (like me won't).

Just be careful and continue to check your numbers. I hope that it (your numbers) get better fast!

Congrats again on the weight loss and your continual journey towards better health!

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NEELIXNKES 9/29/2012 10:17AM

    emoticon on the weight you have lost! emoticon and you will knock that A1C number down. I am currently using the SparkD prediabetes meal plans. emoticon

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BETHIEBOOPS 9/29/2012 9:49AM

    I am so glad that Spark has such a handy tool to use! And I am 100% on board with your non-panic solution, because you are right- you are already working on it! I am sad to hear that you are taking a step back. I need to also, but am thinking that instead, I'll make my page private. I want to be able to have the arena to share, but DON'T want the judgement that comes with an open page... It's something I'm thinking about...

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DEERLADY45 9/29/2012 8:08AM

    emoticon emoticon Your on the right track and when you eat healthier and excercise things really reverses for the better! Blessings ,BONNIE emoticon

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IMSOOZEEQ 9/29/2012 4:46AM

    I hear ya! Umm let me say that I am SO glad that I am in that circle of friends! I just couldn't stand to not hear from ya! That being said and out of the way. You ROCK!! I love that you are all over this and on top of researching things for yourself. You can do this because you are doing it! I totally understand you decision to pull back. I support you in that. I have been there before! Hmm recently in fact! lol

You just do what you have to do! I am right here with ya! emoticon

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Let's Get Physical, Physical!

Friday, September 28, 2012

Okay, I'm a dork. Old news. But that is what came to mind when I had to go to my physical. So I haven't been in 3 years. I don't know, just not a fan of being told I'm fat and need to lose weight. I've known that since about age 12, and don't need some chick to tell me that again.

My dad (who has always been super active and healthy), my grandma and uncle all have diabetes... so I thought I should kind of figure out where I stand. So that was my main reason for going. I got so much stuff done, I feel a little violated LOL, my arm is still sore from the tetanus shot, and got a flu shot too.

So this was my first time getting the A1C, and I'm a 5.8. It was pretty confusing at first, because I read on one line that up to 6 is "normal range" and then the next line down on any given site says that is considered pre diabetes. From what I understand (and anyone who can correct me, PLEASE do. I am just now learning about all of this through google LOL), under 5.7 is considered a normal/healthy range and 5.7-6.4 is prediabetes with diabetes begins at 6.5.

That is definitely an eye opener, and it honestly wasn't shocking. Considering my weight issues and family history, I knew it wouldn't be an outstanding number or anything like that. So it now gives me something to work towards.

Everything else might I add was all good and in range! My cholesterol and things of that sort have dropped a lot since 2009. The weirdest thing is, I MUST be growing up (finally) LOL, because now I WANT to go back next year for my physical and "beat" my numbers. Before I was just thinking about the numbers on the scale, but now there are other numbers that are a factor.

I am very thankful for my health, especially with being as overweight as I was, and still am, and I am going to continue to fight to keep it that way. :)

Edit: After hours of reading, I do understand that it is considered pre diabetes. My blood glucose test came back beyond normal, so that part was good but I know according to the other test it is considered pre diabetes. The outstanding news is that everything I've read has said losing just 5-7% of your body weight can help reverse the problem. Since I fully intend to lose another 40-50 pounds, I am hopeful that I will be able to reverse this between now and next year.

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LRSILVER 9/30/2012 2:46PM

    Great job in getting better numbers and making progress to better health!! emoticon

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EATVEGAN 9/29/2012 1:19AM

    Great report from the doctor. It should relieve your mind to know that things are not too bad and will keep on getting better. emoticon

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BISCO_ 9/29/2012 12:33AM

    I am walking your same path with the A1C. Mine came back 5.9 and yes I'm afraid. I'm a nurse and I know the toll diabetes takes on the body. Getting this number hasn't kicked my butt enough for me to want to exercise.....:(. My doc/lab said a 6.1 would be a diabetic diagnosis... so maybe it differs a tad depending on labs.. not sure. I appreciate Losin_It4good's explanation. I started SP in the 270s.. and it's been quite a while (with inconsistent participation) on SP...and only recently I was able to break the 270s mark... it's been years of yo-yoing that 10lb range and never entering the 260s.

I know it feels awesome to be down 50lbs from that weight. emoticon

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TEENY_BIKINI 9/28/2012 9:16PM

    Hugs. You can do it, rock star!! Just keep on going...

I hate going to the GP, even more than the gyno or getting a mammogram. I totally get it.

Keep on being fabulous, Ms. Thang ;)


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GEMINIGEM6 9/28/2012 3:39PM

    I'm so glad everything came back good for you. After going through soooooo much in my health...which is still happening...I really know what it means now to be in good health and how I took it for granted. Although my health wasn't perfect, it was WAY better than it is now. So it is such a blessing! My weight issues started around 11 years old. I swear we are so much alike. Lol. And thx for the comment on my page and blog. I aprpeciate it. :)

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JACOBSBELOVED 9/28/2012 2:26PM

    Haha! You must be growing up if you want to go back to the doctor!

I'm glad you now have something else to work towards, though. Diabetes runs in my family as well so I usually keep that fact in mind as well while I'm losing this weight. My mom has it and it is so expensive! I mean, I know it's also a disease but unfortunately the expense part speaks to me more than the health issue.

Imagine where you would be if you didn't lose this 50+ lbs? I don't know if you would go to the doctor, but who knows what kind of problems could have creeped in?

If you keep going, which I know you are, then your numbers will only get better and the risks go down, down, down. :)

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PRINCESSAMY 9/28/2012 1:49PM

    Very Motivating!!! I like going for my physicals. Every time I have went my numbers have drop... even if its just a little!

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 9/28/2012 1:02PM

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Wishing you a
fun and fit Weekend!!
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I am a diabetic Type 2 and I agree with what Losin'It says in response to your HA1C number. It's not a disastrous number but it's a number that gives you a clear call for lowering it. You now know that you are in the "borderland". Losing weight, keeping an eye on your blood glucose readings, and exercise can make all the difference.

Do you have a Blood Glucose monitor? You might want to invest in one and do some tracking (this will not take a lot of time nor a lot of money) and you can get a lot of great information about how your body responds and when it responds to certain foods, stress, time of day, etc.


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IMSOOZEEQ 9/28/2012 5:19AM

    I am so glad you put you first and got these tests done. I always hated to go to the doctor. I never wanted to hear that something was wrong. Now I think I have grown up because I think it is a good idea to know where you are health-wise and then use that information to make healthy decisions for ourselves and make sure that anything that wasn't stellar gets taken care of and those things that were, stay that way.

You are doing the things that you know make a positive difference in your health! I applaud you for that. Keep it up and next year you will see even better numbers!!

You got this!!

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LOSIN_IT4GOOD 9/28/2012 4:18AM

Your numbers are a little alarming. I work in a lab, and even though it says you are within the normal range, you are at the upper limit, and that's why the say "pre-diabetic".
The test measures the amount of glucose (sugar) that is attached to your hemoglobin (the stuff that makes up your red blood cells, and transports oxygen). Because the life of a red blood cell is 3 months, the A1C number is a measure of the average sugar over a 3 month period that is attached to your red blood cells. The average non-diabetic person usually runs around 4.0 or less. This is because they have the ability to metabolize sugar better via normal insulin release.
It might be in your best interest to follow a diabetic nutrition plan for 3 months and be rechecked. It is very likely that this can be corrected with diet. Hopefully, it can because insulin and supplies can cost hundreds of dollars a month, not to mention the problems that can result from this.
To much sugar in your blood causes it to be thicker (more syrupy) and is also the nutrient that bacteria and other organisms feed on. So sluggish blood flow can lead to vascular disease..kidney problems. Because it is a nutrient for bacteria, healing from infections can take longer and even become toxic.
I'm glad you are concerned and I wish you the best of luck.

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WEBEZE 9/28/2012 2:42AM

    Congrats on the good numbers. I went in March to have my physical after not going for 4 years and found out my blood pressure was extremely high and my cholesterol was also high. I go back in 2 weeks for my follow up and hope to have much better numbers this time. Next year your numbers should be awesome as you continue your journey to a healthier you.

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LAHUDSONCHEF 9/28/2012 1:10AM

    Congrats on the good numbers! Keep up the good work, and the numbers will get even better. I'm banking on that for me, too.

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DEBBY4576 9/28/2012 12:22AM

    Interesting stuff. Don't understand it all either tho. You sound further along in understanding. I've never had any of that done for diabetes.

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BETHIEBOOPS 9/28/2012 12:19AM

    You go girl! Way to face your situation with such positivity! I've read that a lower carb, clean diet does AMAZING things for your blood sugar - you should totally look into that! Good luck!

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DUMBBELLE84 9/28/2012 12:12AM

  I was just thinking that I should be getting this done as well. Your next year's numbers will rock, just keep it up!!

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