Saturday, September 29, 2012
So I posted the A1C number on my last blog, and it was a 5.8. I knew instantly it wasn't good but upon more research I came to find out that it is indeed considered pre diabetes.
I'm not worried at all. Is that cocky or arrogant? Maybe it is. But here is why. All these things I've read have said the #1 way to reverse it is by losing weight and adding exercise. Well I've been doing that for 6 months. If I had been doing nothing about my health, that number would have thrown me for a loop and a lot of reevaluation on my part. But that isn't the case. I don't need to spring into action now, based on a number... I sprung into action 6 months ago when I dropped this 40 pounds.
Even my diabetic Dad who is completely obsessed with that kind of stuff (and rightfully so), he did not even lecture me for a second about the "alarming number". And let me tell you, he loves to lecture me, and well, ANYONE! He simply said that continuing what I've been doing for months would be what it takes to lower that number and make myself healthier in all counts.
Even for giggles, I let Spark People change my nutritional ticker for those with diabetes/pre diabetes, and it left my calories alone. It lowered my carbs, fat and protein. I put in a typical day of what I eat out of curiosity, and I was well within the diabetic ranges which were even a tad more strict than the regular Spark ranges.
So that is where I'm at at this point. I left my ticker on the diabetic settings, because I figured that is the best thing for my current situation. If the number stays the same or goes up when I go back next year, that will blow my mind, because I fully intend to lose 40-50 pounds in the next year (if it takes THAT long), and that will be a separate can of worms. But thank goodness everything I read said even losing 5-10% of your weight can reverse it, and I am going to double that. So according to everything I've read, that number should absolutely be a lot better by this time next year, after a loss of 40 or 50 pounds.
With that said, I am taking a huge step back from Spark for a little bit. Now time out... it's not what you think. I am still going to talk to my circle of friends on a daily basis, I am still going to comment on their blogs regularly, I am still going to log in everyday, log my fitness, track my calories. I am still going to continue to participate in the BLC 20... So I guess I mean I'm just going to step back from the blogging and the putting so much of myself out there. It seems that you can't put yourself out there without getting a shred of negativity from someone, and I can have 20 amazingly supportive comments, but 1 remark from someone that is... not so supportive can send me for a tailspin. So for the time being, the only blogs that are going to come from me will be BLC 20 related, OR milestone related (60 pounds lost, 70 pounds lost, NSV, etc). I think that is what is best for me at this point. :)
*And just to add, if you are one of my TRUE and fabulous Spark Friends, you can be assured this does not pertain to you. *
Friday, September 28, 2012
Okay, I'm a dork. Old news. But that is what came to mind when I had to go to my physical. So I haven't been in 3 years. I don't know, just not a fan of being told I'm fat and need to lose weight. I've known that since about age 12, and don't need some chick to tell me that again.
My dad (who has always been super active and healthy), my grandma and uncle all have diabetes... so I thought I should kind of figure out where I stand. So that was my main reason for going. I got so much stuff done, I feel a little violated LOL, my arm is still sore from the tetanus shot, and got a flu shot too.
So this was my first time getting the A1C, and I'm a 5.8. It was pretty confusing at first, because I read on one line that up to 6 is "normal range" and then the next line down on any given site says that is considered pre diabetes. From what I understand (and anyone who can correct me, PLEASE do. I am just now learning about all of this through google LOL), under 5.7 is considered a normal/healthy range and 5.7-6.4 is prediabetes with diabetes begins at 6.5.
That is definitely an eye opener, and it honestly wasn't shocking. Considering my weight issues and family history, I knew it wouldn't be an outstanding number or anything like that. So it now gives me something to work towards.
Everything else might I add was all good and in range! My cholesterol and things of that sort have dropped a lot since 2009. The weirdest thing is, I MUST be growing up (finally) LOL, because now I WANT to go back next year for my physical and "beat" my numbers. Before I was just thinking about the numbers on the scale, but now there are other numbers that are a factor.
I am very thankful for my health, especially with being as overweight as I was, and still am, and I am going to continue to fight to keep it that way. :)
Edit: After hours of reading, I do understand that it is considered pre diabetes. My blood glucose test came back beyond normal, so that part was good but I know according to the other test it is considered pre diabetes. The outstanding news is that everything I've read has said losing just 5-7% of your body weight can help reverse the problem. Since I fully intend to lose another 40-50 pounds, I am hopeful that I will be able to reverse this between now and next year.
Sunday, September 23, 2012
A challenge for the Biggest Loser Competition I'm in, so don't mind me. ;)
*Define The Number*
My goal weight is 180. There was a lot of thought into considering that goal, it wasn't a number I pulled out of the sky. I have not been under 200 pounds since before I was 18. So for me, a super tiny number didn't seem realistic, especially with my starting weight of 272. I felt and still feel that 180 is a place where I could be very happy and comfortable with my weight. I have recently thought about going to 170, but I figured I could decide when I get to my goal. I need a goal I can reach and feel like it is attainable. In the past I would make such lofty goals and I would never get there, but this time it isn't going to happen. The idea of hitting my goal and Onederland specifically will really make me feel like I have accomplished something great. To be able to look in the mirror and be proud of what I see will be huge for me.
For right now the short term goal is to get in a pair of size 18 jeans that I had purchased. I am currently in a size 20, down from a 24, and I just might be able to squeeze into those babies by the end of BLC 20.
Non scale Victories: I have had quiet a few, off the top of my head my ring that I am now able to wear after years of not being able to, fitting into clothes from 5 years ago that I couldn't fit into, going from a size 24 to a 20. Beating my fast food addiction, which was truly an addiction.
Friday, September 21, 2012
I have been on Spark off and on since 2009. I had to let go of a lot of success/failure, and the past is the past. So this journey that I am on started on March 20th of 2012. I started the journey at 262 pounds. Not my highest weight of 272, but pretty close to it. Since March 20th, I have gotten down to 222 (as of this morning, that isn't getting officially tracked until Wednesday though, so we will see what happens and I can celebrate a total of 50 pounds down for the first time ever). 40 pounds in 6 months I feel is a respectable amount. It isn't some mind blowing amount of weight for that time frame, but I am proud just the same. Slow and steady wins the race.
So this time is outstanding because...
I have NEVER gone more than 4 months without quitting. Currently 6 Months in, I have already blown that out of the water!
I have NEVER gotten to the 50 pound lost mark EVER. 40 pounds lost, 42 maybe even 44 pounds lost, but never the 50 mark. I should be celebrating that by next Wednesday.
I have NEVER truly believed that I would get to my goal weight in the past, but this time I KNOW I'm going to get there. I can picture myself at that weight, I feel like it is so close that I can almost touch it, despite it being about 42ish pounds away.
I have NEVER thought about how I was going to maintain in the past. This time, I am already thinking of what I will do to maintain and it's basically the same thing I am doing to lose the weight. This makes me happy.
NSV of the day:
Wearing the beautiful ring my mom got me at least 7 Christmases ago. It finally fits again and I'm a happy girl.
For the select lovely ladies requesting more info on my status about the boy... it is still too soon to tell. I don't want to get all gushy on here just to write back in a week that my heart was stomped on are anything, but here is the overview.
*I met this boy 4 years ago, we went on one date and never went out again. However we have kept in contact and have been chatting/texting buddies 4 years later.
*He has been trying to hang out with me for 2 years, but I just wouldn't go. It was nothing to do with him, it was strictly me and my self consciousness. With that said, I will explain to you all WHY that was, under one condition. I do not want any lecturing about this issue. I don't want to hear "self esteem and self confidence has to come from within you, and it has nothing to do with weight" or "if you don't love yourself, how can anyone else love you." Those comments will be deleted on the spot, and you will see why...
Here is what it was. He was once very overweight and he isn't anymore but he is very understanding of my weight "issue". When I met him 4 years ago, I was probably like 210ish. These last 2 years, when he was trying to hang out with me I was anywhere from 250-272. I mentioned to him I had gained a LOT of weight since he last saw me, and he said he didn't care. In fact, I know he didn't care, but I held myself back because I just felt so defeated and couldn't bare the thought of facing him at an even higher weight. I said I don't need the lecturing, because I have been working a LOT on my self confidence, self esteem and my life in general. I am a different person than I was the last 2 years and while it is still a work in progress, I am doing a lot better in all those areas. I am doing my best to understand that I am a pretty groovy chick, weight issues or not... but 2 years ago I was not able to separate weight from self worth. I still have my moments, but I have come leaps and bounds in separating those two things. So that was why I really don't need to hear it LOL.
That said, getting back down in the 220's, but MORE IMPORTANT than the number on the scale was me working on my self and my self confidence, I felt that I could see him and put my best foot forward.
So needless to say I hung out with him last Wednesday and Thursday and we had a lot of fun. I have not seen him this week and I'm a little bummed, but we each work 12 hour shifts, and on top of it we are currently exact opposites. I am working 5pm to 5am and he is working 430 am to 5pm. So it's definitely not ideal. I also have set days off and he doesn't and he works a lot of over time. We also don't live super close, we live maybe 35ish miles apart and if it's a time where there is traffic it can take a very long time to get over there. His job is very physically exhausting and he is not a good texter. He's just not and he hasn't been a very good texter in the past. But he is definitely making an effort and we aren't in contact everyday yet, but he is getting better.
I just don't want to get my hopes up, because it's a weird situation. It's hard because I feel like I've known him so long, and while it's partially true, it's still a very different situation because we only truly hung out that once many years ago, so it's still "new" in that regards.
Anyways, I am really opening up here and putting myself out there, and hopefully this won't have to be followed up with a blog where I get my heart clobbered. *Fingers crossed*
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