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Leaving for vacation, and looking forward to 40lbs down...

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Tomorrow night I am leaving to spend a week at my Gammie's house... the best part is she lives in Vegas Baby! I go see her a lot, even more so now that she lives alone. We always have so much fun but the trip always revolves around food. Gammie is not to blame for this at all, it's all me. I just get into an "I'm on vacation, and I can eat whatever I want and I don't care" mode. That wouldn't be such an issue if I didn't go see her upwards of 4 times a year lol.

Last time we did okay, it was more towards the beginning of me "getting serious" about this, and I wasn't quite serious yet. This time I have big plans for our week. Day 1 we are going to the store so we can get the majority of our food there. I am also bringing my little George Foreman Grill with me. She is super supportive of me trying to lose weight, especially since she struggles with weight herself.

I am counting calories the entire week, except for one planned treat day and it's our free trip to the buffet. I actually don't stuff myself as full as you would imagine, and we usually wind up having that be just about our only meal, because who really wants to eat after they've been to the buffet? ;) Other than that we have one free dinner at the cafe (the casino is always sending her freebie's) and we are already prepared to split some sort of sandwich and fries and bring an appetizer or something home with us. Our third and finally outing (in terms of food) is when we go to spend the day at the mall. There is an Applebee's nearby and I am so excited to get something off their 550 and under menu.

The sad part is I will have no internet access, so no spark for a week. That bums me out, but I plan to keep a log of my food and put it in when I get back. We are also going to the mall by her house a few times so that I can get my walking in, in a nice air conditioned environment. I am not looking forward to the 107 degree heat, that is for sure.

When I get back (or shortly after), I am hoping to finally hit the 40 lbs lost mark. I am 2lbs away but it isn't going to happen before I leave. I am actually excited to take a 40 lbs down pic thanks to my spark friend BETHIEBOOPS... she gave me the push to do it and I found a shirt that I have in a pic at pretty much my highest weight, so I hope to be doing that when I get back.

I hope you all have a great week! emoticon emoticon

  
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KASTASTROPHY 8/1/2012 1:50PM

    HAVE AN AMAZING VACATION BUT HURRY HOME BECAUSE I MISS YOU!!!!

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BETHIEBOOPS 7/27/2012 11:41AM

    I am so glad you are going to take the pic! You will TOTALLY see a difference! Have a GREAT vacay staying on plan. REmember- it's a lifestyle!

So proud of you! Can't wait to hear back when you get back!

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HEATHERFREE 7/26/2012 10:43PM

    thanks for the comment on my blog, and I freaken am SO proud of you for having your vacation eating all planned! And walking planned too! Ugh I wish I was doing as good as you, you are totally rocking it!!!!

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JUSTLIKEALICE 7/25/2012 11:57PM

    You can do it!

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GRACEMCC45 7/25/2012 11:05PM

    Yay!! You are going to have a fantastic time! Can't WAIT to see the pics. 40lbs is AMAZING, you are awesome!

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IMSOOZEEQ 7/25/2012 10:40PM

    Have a great trip! Leave that weight in Vegas! What ever happens in Vegas STAYS in Vegas! lol

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CARLA393 7/25/2012 10:02PM

    Have fun on your trip! Can't wait to see your results when you're back!

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SWALSH329 7/25/2012 2:43PM

    I've never been to Vegas, I'd like to go though. I hope you have fun! :D

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DUMBBELLE84 7/25/2012 2:30PM

  I wish I had relatives in Vegas! Hope you have a fantastic time and can't wait to see those pics.

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ZELDABEE 7/25/2012 11:01AM

    Have fun on your vacation! I will miss you!

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CLHENDY1 7/25/2012 9:24AM

    Hope you have a really fun trip!!!

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MSNOMOREFLUFFY 7/25/2012 7:18AM

    Have a fabulous time!

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OLIVIANIGHT 7/25/2012 6:40AM

    I hope you have a great time : )

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JESSICA_STULTZ 7/25/2012 1:39AM

    Woo hoo! You can do it! Keep focused.. and more importantly enjoy your trip!

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JACOBSBELOVED 7/25/2012 1:34AM

    Vegas is the place to be, now isn't it? ;)

I totally have faith in you that you will still be losing weight and watching what you're eating while you're at Gammie's! I'm sure it makes all the difference too that she is so supportive. There's nothing worse than spending time, especially a week, with someone who is either unsupportive or tries to sabbotage what you're working towards. You'll probably even teach each other a few new tricks, which is always fun.

Have fun on vacation! Can't wait to see how you did and those 40 lbs lost pictures!

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Got off my butt, and I'm just doing it...

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Every time I have started a weight loss journey, I have sat down with a notebook and wrote pages about how "this time I have to do it". I have done this at least 6 times since I was 18 and I am 26 now. In fact it's probably closer to 10 or 15 times. I would then look back at what I wrote the year before, almost identical. Then I would talk about how much weight I have gained and how out of control I have gotten. Next would come the crazy dates and calculations... you know what I'm talking about, we've all done it. "If I can lose 2 pounds a week, I can lose 80 pounds in X amount of time"... and then "OMG, if I can lose 2.5 pounds a week" and on and on. Then of course I'd get to if I only lose 1 pound a week, it'll take fooooooooorever and is not even worth it. Then the calculations of how many calories can I burn and how I should eat 1200 calories etc etc.

I realized last night that this was the first time I didn't sit there and do that. Would I really like to lose the 36 pounds to get into Onderland by the end of the year? You but I would LOVE that, but I'm not obsessed with it. When I lose "only a pound", I celebrate it now that I am one step closer to where I need to be.

Like Nike and Lacey and a lot of people have said on here, JUST DO IT. That is finally what I am doing. I am not thinking about it, I am just doing it. I don't think about IF I want to exercise or not, I just do it. I always bring my food to work and never leave it to chance just to order whatever I want when they go out to get food.

I will admit I get on the scale a little too frequently and am working on that, but I think my state of mind is FINALLY in a good place, and I am really working hard to get that to continue.

I hope everyone is having a great weekend! :D emoticon

  
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STARSUB99 7/22/2012 1:49PM

    Good for you. Just get up and move. Just eat one healthy meal. One step one activity one thing at a time and you will get to wonderland.

I think it's like quitting smoking - at some point you just decide to do it and you do it.

Take it as it comes. Keep making more healthy choices more often than bad choices and the weight will come off - you'll tone up and you will be thrilled with yourself.

You can do this!!!!!!!! emoticon

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BETHIEBOOPS 7/22/2012 1:30AM

    I don't know how I missed this blog when you posted it! I LOVE your attitude! Just Do It. Wise words- it takes the "strategy" and "planning" out of the procrastination. Sometimes I get a little wrapped up in it - I had a "plan" to be under 100 kgs for my DR appointment in Sept, but it was totally unrealistic. The difference is, that I now I dont start over because I missed a goal. I just keep plodding on.

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KASTASTROPHY 7/21/2012 10:56AM

    this is why i'm throwing out my scale!!!! because i get focused on the number on the scale and try to find "cheats" when I KNOW what is going to work.. get up and go! just move! so i'm focusing on exercise instead of my scale!!! We will get there when we get there!!!! And ever step we take is a step in the right path!!! =D

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IMSOOZEEQ 7/18/2012 8:58PM

    Yep I can totally relate to all those calculations. Been there done that SO many times! Not doing it this time either!! New mindset!

We got this my friend! We got this!

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JULESM83 7/17/2012 10:32PM

    I can totally relate to everything you are saying. It's as if you read my mind! It can be difficult to not get focused on the length of time and such! I like your motto: Just do it!! emoticon

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JESSICA_STULTZ 7/17/2012 4:32PM

    I have a love hate relationship with my scale.. I love to get on it to see if I have went down.. but I got kind of obsessive of checking it every day, sometimes multiple times. Now I weigh myself maybe once or twice a week. Glad you are not stuck on that certain number to lose each week. I will admit I have goals to lose 1.5-2 pounds a week.. but I don't get down on it if I don't. I have a goal of being around my goal weight by middle of next year. If I stuck to the numbers of 1.5-2 pounds I could be around my goal weight by around march or april. I am not stuck on certain numbers per say. I will stop when I feel healthy and happy.. and by stop I mean weight loss. I plan on living the healthy lifestyle forever! Celebrate every bit of weight loss but don't get down on yourself when it stalls. Do what makes you happiest! :)

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ZELDABEE 7/16/2012 9:36AM

    YAY! I am so totally with you on this. It took me a long time to realize that my weight loss jouney was not and is not a race. I always though that my life wouldn't start until I reached my goal weight - then I could start living. My what I've come to discover (a little late but nevertheless) is that my life was slipping though my fingers. Regardless of our weight we need to start living now and just do it! I am so happy that I found you guys, your so amazing and I'm learning so much!

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CORNERKICK 7/16/2012 2:54AM

  Good luck to you...You can do it!

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HEATHERFREE 7/16/2012 1:28AM

    YES you got it right, Ive been working on that too just saying hey I AM doing it, not doing the calculations, and stressing over every little part and trying to "plan" what I should do because that NEVER EVER WORKS! Im really glad you didn't do all that this time, because you are doing great!

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KATHYGOULDSMITH 7/16/2012 12:44AM

    Like several others have said, I could have written this. Only I am 46 yrs old and I have done it over and over again. I just need to do it. I am in a bad place for the last few days and I have been "off the wagon" so to speak. Not really eating like crap, but not being as picky as I should be. I needed to read this right now. thank you!

KG

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THESHELBSTER 7/15/2012 10:57PM

    You are amazing. You are my hero in so many ways. I think you are a heaping dish of pure awesome sauce and I am proud of you every single day.

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JLJOYNT 7/15/2012 10:31PM

    I could have wrote this myself. I've done the same thing more times than I care to count only to find myself almost back to my highest weight ever. I didn't do it this time. I'm just taking it one day at a time and I'll be happy with whatever progress I make. Tomorrow will be week 1 weigh in!!!

Best of luck to you!

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NEPTUNE1939 7/15/2012 10:27PM

    I got acquainted with Tom Venuto's e-book "Burn the Fat Feed the Muscle". I learned more about nutrition from that author than any other source. Learning to eat healthy along with cardio exercises and strength training is the best way to keep our enemy "fat" from destroying our bodies and shortening our lives.

Forget about concentrating on pounds lost; it is better to measure fat loss with a good set of fat calipers and more rewarding to see your body shrinking to a comfortable size. Weight alone fluctuates and can be misleading causing doubt in plan.

I've learned that eating healthy takes work at first but when you see the results of "fat" fading you will eventually forget about consuming food that is harmful. God bless your progress, Earl

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SLUNDQUIS 7/15/2012 10:22PM

    Just keep putting one foot in front of the other until you excited to do it.

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CORTNEY-LEE 7/15/2012 10:22PM

    you have a great attitude.

you will do this.

you will be successful

you are a beautiful person inside and out and you deserve to be the happiest and healthiest you can be.

Best of luck my friend



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Trying To Lose Weight On The Downlow (Food Police)

Monday, July 09, 2012

Here are two old blogs that reference a little bit of what I was dealing with in 2010 at my workplace:


www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=3164396


www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=3142153


So this girl that has to comment when I eat healthy and how "if you don't do a super strict diet it's not going to work" (the one extreme diet included no sodium etc etc)...she is something else, that's for sure. Believe it or not I actually get along with her fairly well, which says a lot about the *actual* beyotches I work with lol. ;)

Anyways, her stupid boyfriend caught me tracking on spark the other day and my cover was blown! I always have updates about all the crap that people eat here and try and feed me... but if they know you are trying to lose weight, they will tie you down and force feed you cupcakes, I swear lol. These people seriously are not right in the head.

Anyways, so her stupid boyfriend blew my cover, and she just told me that it was great I was doing good or whatever.

UNTIL TODAY!

Dun Dun Dun! In her passive aggressive almost too sweet tone she said "do you want me to teach you my ways?" I played dumb "about what?" in the same sweet passive aggressive tone. She said "about food" and maintaining the tone I said "nooooo..." she responded with a "really?!" *cue whiny tone* and I knew exactly what she needed to hear to back off from me...

"I'm just not sturdy. I know your way is the best (insert internal eye roll), and that it really does work, but I'm just not sturdy." She seemed to understand that and left me with an "If you ever want to know or advice I am here"... then she knew I've been walking so she said how she walked 3 miles today... mind you I outweigh this chick by at least 60 pounds, probably more like 70... and said it was hard for her but it'll get easier. I just told her that was great, because it is great. I left out the part where my fat a$$ walked 4 miles the other day, booyah suck it! I was so tempted to tell her I was doing "just fine on my own" but it is not worth it. This place is a strange place, and not a good atmosphere in general. Don't get me wrong, I have a handful of actual friends at work who keep me sane, but the rest... don't even get me started.

So I continue on my road of doing it my way, on the downlow, not flaunting anything, hiding my food scale, and not tracking spark freely where others can see. Please don't confuse this with not being proud of what I am doing and please do not lecture me on how sharing our goals is helpful and I shouldn't have to do these things because you don't know what it's like in this shark tank. ;) In my actual life with my actual friends they know about my goals and my steps to become healthier, so it's not like I'm keeping it to myself entirely... it's just the sharks that don't need to smell the blood in the water. ;)

  
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WEBEZE 8/14/2012 1:40AM

    Co-workers can be so mean. Where I work they had a pizza party at lunch which I did not attend since I am watching my sodium and I got 3 phone calls about the food being upstairs and where was I, and a visit from my manager wanting to know why I didn't attend. When I explained I was watching my sodium his response was "It wasn't just pizza there was wings too". Really, wings are high in sodium also. I felt like I was being nagged to death when it was my lunch time to do with what I liked. Hold Strong and Steady to your Course you will leave them all in the dust. emoticon

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LAHUDSONCHEF 8/14/2012 1:25AM

    I actually have a co-worker who has tried to get me to take her diet pills. No thank you...I have better things to do than die of a heart attack from being hyped up on those things. Slow and steady wins the race. The things I'm doing now, I want to be things that I will incorporate into my lifestyle, not just to lose weight, but to live healthy for whatever time God gives me. And I blow raspberries at the food police...if I want a Sonic Blast, then I'll have one, if I've left room for it, or if I've planned for it.

Enjoying your posts...

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CORTNEY-LEE 7/15/2012 10:27PM

    sooo... what is her way exactly? Not eat anything at all and when she feels like she is going to pass out she eats a cube of cheese? (paraphrase from The Devil Wears Prada)

Seriously, I know what you mean. My co-workers are really great about everything, and have even gone as far as to buy healthy snacks that we can all enjoy.

Of course there are times when there is pizza, KFC, chips, cookies... whatever, but they totally respect my dietary restrictions and don't even offer. I guess they figure if I want it I will help myself.

It is much nicer that way

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TEMPESTKITTEN 7/12/2012 11:35PM

  I won't lecture you. Next time she starts kvetching and chirping .. throw cupcakes at her and her super crazy boring diet addled brain will snap, she will stuff them in her cheeks chipmunk style and ninja up a tree to savor them and out of your hair til she wants more cupcakes.

I used to be a food nazi to myself until I realized it was the lowest form of living. emoticon

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VICKYMARIEC 7/12/2012 1:25PM

    LOL...i love it! You know your environment so you are handling it the way you know fit. Keep going strong and eventually...hopefully...they'll shut up all together.

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CHICAT63 7/12/2012 1:10PM

    LOL Booyah, you can do this even with those people at work....inserting major eye roll and whatever talk to the hand !

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ZELDABEE 7/10/2012 9:43PM

    i totally understand, there are still certain people I dont want to talk to about my new healthy habits because they will try and force feed me their advice, because they know better then me. The thing is we know our bodies, we know what works and what doesn't and while it's awesome to home someone in your corner, rooting you on and to offer advice if asked -we are the ones that are changing and we have to take our own path.

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HEATHERFREE 7/10/2012 1:11PM

    pshahaha BOOYAH SUCK IT! I laughed sooo hard when I read that lol On one of my blogs I was gonna put those exact words but was like no....ppl will probably be like this chick is weird and un lady like haha. Glad I'm not the only one! Someone commented and said that every workplace has those kind of people......and I just thought about it...that is the ONE thing they don't do to me! They all know I'm changing my eating habits, and they talk me down when I want a soda, or some other snack I def should not have. And the bakery girl flat out yells at me if I go for a donut, which I do quite often, But by the time she tells me all the reasons why I shouldnt do it Im like yeah! It will pass! So I'm really thankful for that ONE thing that they are good for.....anything else work related..not so much haha

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IMSOOZEEQ 7/9/2012 3:29PM

    LOL I loved this. I was rollin' my eyes outwardly for you. I was thinkin'....OH HECK NO!!!! I hate it when people start gettin' all up in your koolaid and they don't know the flavor!

You Go girl! You got this!



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MSNOMOREFLUFFY 7/9/2012 2:23PM

    Hang in there. Haters are gonna hate.

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HEATHERHUNTER 7/9/2012 2:08PM

    I've got people like that. Only they live with me.

I loved this blog, and I think you dealt with mrs. Pushy-pants just beautifully.

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BETHIEBOOPS 7/9/2012 12:54PM

    Agreed! Spark is my tool for weightloss. It will lose it's magic if someone in "real life" found my account.

Good on you for sticking to your guns. People usually have good intentions, but still can be hurtful!

All that to say, I get it girl! Keep your chin up :) You are doing awesome!


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KATHYGOULDSMITH 7/9/2012 7:22AM

    I like to call them "food Nazis", "diet divas" or "Im better than you bullies". Every workplace has them!! emoticon It's not easy though and I am so happy that you have a found a way to deal with it while maintaining a sense of humor! More power to ya!


KG
PS. You totally made me laugh! I love that!

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KAESEA78 7/9/2012 1:38AM

    I completely know what you mean. There are certain people that I can't/don't tell because I don't want to hear what they have to say. For me, a few are because when I say that I am slowly, but consistently, losing-want to tell me what I am doing wrong and how to "miraculously" lose more, faster. The bigger portion of people that I am not sharing my journey with are the ones whom I feel I have told over and over again that "I am dieting and 'this time' I am going to be successful" and really, just don't want to look like a pathetic "non-loser"(lol) loser again!!! I want to be like BAM, look what I did when, this time, I succeed!

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JESSICA_STULTZ 7/9/2012 12:52AM

    Specific people in my life know that I use SP for tracking everything and I leave it at that.. I like having SP being my "secret life" where I share my successes and vent without feeling like I have to not say something because someone might be offended. I think it's easiest for me to have my SP world and home life separate. I still share my accomplishments and everything with others and will recommend SP to anyone who wants a good shot at losing weight but I like it the way it is. I feel like some people would half stalk me if they knew I used SP for blogging and they would bring me down. Nobody is gonna bring me down! :) Use SP as you like to.. and don't feel like you have to tell anyone exactly what you use to help you lose weight. I usually just tell people that I keep track of what I eat and I eat healthy and exercise and leave it at that. Hope you are seeing progress towards your goals!

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SCARJOWANNABE 7/9/2012 12:14AM

    Stay strong! I feel the same way with my work, I always hide SparkPeople whenever they are around. I don't want them to ask questions and make a big deal about it. emoticon

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Realization: It won't always be THIS hard...

Sunday, July 08, 2012

So this time around I have accepted that this is for, well, ever. There is no way around it. I will always have to exercise, and I will always have to track or at the very least monitor my food intake and calories. Plain and simple. But doing that in what was once a 272 pound body is not the easiest, especially the physical aspect.

I realized yesterday that even though this is never going to magically be easy, and the food particularly will always be a struggle for me... that I will be able to be doing this in a much smaller body! Even just the difference from recently being down to 240 from 260 I can already feel a little difference. I don't really *see* any difference, but I can feel it when I walk up and down the stairs, and when I exercise and just how I move in general.

My goal weight as of right now is 180. I think I could truly be content, maybe even happy at that weight. I may work on going even lower than that, and I realize just by "doing what I'm doing" and keeping it up I may continue to go lower just be trying to "maintain" that weight... but I just think of how much easier things will be for me when my body isn't quite so big, specifically the exercise. I also think right now sometimes I get the thoughts of "what does it matter if you lost X amount of weight, you are still fat!" But as I get smaller and smaller I will like the body I am in that much more and will want to fight that much harder to keep it.

I used to say that if someone could wave a magic wand and make me skinny, I would do ANYTHING to keep it that way.


But since it doesn't work that way, I am going to fight to get my body to a point where I am happy, and just continue to fight to keep it that way.
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HEATHERFREE 7/10/2012 12:58PM

    This is exactly what I've been thinking about lately...that this time was it! Its hard and its gonna be hard forever, and the difference is this time I dont care if its hard! we may whine and cry and not wanna do anything for exercise somedays....and make the wrong food choices another day, but we are making changes for the better and are going to keep doing it forever. emoticon

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GRACEMCC45 7/9/2012 5:11PM

    You can totally do this! It does get easier, I promise you!

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KASTASTROPHY 7/8/2012 10:07PM

    I can NOT wait to see a picture of you all hot and doing your THANG as a 180lb pretty princess!!!! You are TOTALLY interrupting my clothes folding so I could tell you that.. but i don't mind lol!!!!!

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IMSOOZEEQ 7/8/2012 2:56PM

    Great blog! You are on the right track my friend. I think that we will enjoy the journey and getting to our "destination" more because we worked at it. We planned it all out. We took the time to set small goal and add rewards along the way. It is a major project so we will be proud of each accomplishment. We will relish in the friends we met and the relationships we built traveling the road together. Hmm I think I might have the beginning of a blog going here. lol

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WEIGHTING4BABY 7/8/2012 1:53PM

    You're right! One day it will just be second nature!:)



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BETHIEBOOPS 7/8/2012 5:20AM

    Awesome! You are so right, it's tough now, but will get easier. It will never be easy, but you will learn your body, learn your temptations, learn exercises you love and it will be easier.

It's like when you start a new job. At first it's scary. Then it's stressful. You feel overwhelmed, and underqualified. Then suddenly, you realise you CAN do it. You CAN do this job competently. Then just as suddenly, you aren't so frightened of the boss. You know your work is good. You know you can kick ass. You are no longer afraid of failing.

I think weight loss will be the same. You will find your lard busting confidence. We will find the best way to love our bodies and lose weight! It won't always be frightening and stressful. Right now it is because we're making new habits, trying to remember things that will eventually be as simple as driving a car.

Hang in there sweetie. We're going to make it! (Plus I LOVE that our start weight and current weights are so similar. I started at 282 and am now at 246) We're SO in this together. And just wait for it- one day, you'll look at yourself and me all "WHOAH! Who is this lady in the mirror?!". It took me 32lbs to reach the point of seeing the changes in myself.

Are you taking measurements? If not you SHOULD be! It is a great way of seeing the results. For instance I have lost 3 inches in my waist (so I started looking there for changes and saw myself as smaller instantly. And my upper arms have lost like 4in and then I noticed how loose my sleeves felt). Sometimes having the numbers available makes it easier for us to see our bodies as they really are.

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KAESEA78 7/8/2012 5:00AM

    I love this lady!!!! Gosh, the realizations are awesome and enlightening yet it is still such a long, hard journey. You go girl 32 pounds is awesome and I am sure you can see a huge difference

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KATHYGOULDSMITH 7/8/2012 4:26AM

    Love this! Congrats on your weight loss! I hope to be there someday!

KG

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Focusing on what I'm doing right... now that's a change...

Friday, July 06, 2012

So my lost blog wasn't the best, it was about my mini freak out. I had a rough 24 hours, and I didn't make the best choices and there was a huge part of me that wanted to continue in those bad choices (but didn't). Don't ask me why the *third* month is always the kiss of death for me. I have never made it successfully to 4 months of weight loss on any plan. As you might have guessed, July was the start of month 3, followed by that little rough patch.

But today we will focus on the positives:
-After the 24 freak out that had many bad food choices, I immediately got back on track.
-It is the third month and I am aware and I am doing everything in my power to make it to the 4th month.
-I resisted SO MUCH temptation today at work. I worked the opposite shift I normally do which left me tired and cranky, which usually means I am in an "eat whatever I want mood"... today I did not eat one thing at work that I did not bring with me. Today alone, I turned down (and was actually bugged 3 times about eating a burger): Lemon cake, apple pie, brownies, hot dogs, hamburgers, fried chicken, chips, and potato salad. I even had a very successful 4th, I had 1 serving of my baked cheetos, the hamburger patty only, and 1/2 cup of potato salad.

I tend to focus on the negative and my "slip ups" and they seem to always be my number one focus. Okay okay, except for my tooting my own horn blog LOL. But I just mean on a daily basis my mind focuses on the negative and I am working to fix that.

I am super exhausted and do not want to work out, but thanks to Lacey's Just Do It Blog and Heather rocking her exercise EVEN when she has to get up early for work, I have no excuse now do I? So I'm gonna get my tushy off spark and get it up and moving thanks to you girls! :D

  
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HEATHERFREE 7/6/2012 8:46PM

    HECK YES Iam really in awe that you could turn down all those things! Where in the heck do you work with all these people bringing food and going out and stuff, I don't know if I could do it for a week let alone 3 months. You are doing great!

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GRACEMCC45 7/6/2012 6:24PM

    Awesome job! No way I could have resisted all that food! You are doing so great!

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ZELDABEE 7/6/2012 9:29AM

    I loved this! So often we tend to focus on all the things have done wrong or point out things we could have done better instead of enjoying the victories and accomplishments that we have achived. I think your doing amazing, turning down all the food is HUGE! Your going to blast though your forth month and I'll be here every step of the way cheering you on!

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NIXXI321 7/6/2012 8:23AM

    You know, the last few days for me haven't been the greatest weight wise either but I'm ready to get back on that horse too. So often we try to go from 0 to Perfect overnight. From the habits that got us fat to more food conscious than professional athletes. It's SO MUCH pressure to put on ourselves. Yes, we need a kick in the butt. Yes, we need better habits. But tearing ourselves down for slipping up or having a bad day (or bad couple of days) isn't going to help anything. Something I learned from the Biggest Loser is that stress ALWAYS effects our weight loss. When they are on the ranch all they have to do is focus on their diet and exercise. And they will pull huge numbers until they go home. They could do the same workout, eat the same food, but because they have to go home to real life and all it's stress, they are lucky to drop even one pound.

You have been doing great. Even if you had a bad day, you are teaching yourself good habits that you will carry for the rest of you life. You focus on that and the weight should fall off as a byproduct. emoticon

Now do me a favor and remind me of all this when I inevitably freak out someday myself. :D

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