Saturday, June 30, 2012
I wasn't even going to bother posting it, but this is for you Lacey...;) In regards to your blog the other day, I just wanted you to know you are not the only one.
So I rely heavily on frozen food when I go to work. I usually bring 2 lean pockets and a bag of frozen veggies. That is put in one bag. My various "refridgerated" stuff in a separate bag. Today the contents of that bag were pretty scarce: Turkey burger patty, string cheese, sugar free jello, and that was it. It wasn't until I was all the way to work I realized I left the frozen bag (aka the majority of my "meals") at home. I just honestly, I was so angry. They had pizza and cheesecake last night at work on my day off, and my friend saved me one piece of cheesecake. That is why my amount of food and snacks was lower, so I could accommodate that cheesecake I really wanted to have.
Normal me would have said eff it, I'm going to eat a ton of the pizza that is in there, and I'll have the cheesecake and who really cares? At least there was pizza in there if I needed it, but I really didn't want it. Then top it off, they go for dinner at a burger place, which is fine, but there is no online site. So no menu, no nutrition etc. I managed to get a chicken pita and seasoned fries... I know the fries were bad for me but there are a ton of them and the plan is to throw out half. I'm glad I got the chicken pita instead of a burger, so I guess A for effort.
But the craziest part is, after all is said and done it still bugs me a little that I can't track it properly. It bugs me that I didn't have the food I meant to bring... but the thing that scares me is this... this sounds so silly to say out loud... but because of my addiction (for lack of a better word) for fast food, I am worried about getting back into a slippery slope. I guess the out of control part of me feels like I had "fast food" today, and that will continue on tomorrow and the next day and the next day, because this is what has happened in the past. It might sound really stupid, but that is my past behavior and that is why it worried me so much.
After I have calmed down I realize that this is something I need to learn to deal with, and to roll with the punches, life happens and I need to learn to adjust. I just have to remind myself that this time is different and doesn't have to wind up like all the times before. The fact that I'm not in the kitchen stuffing myself with pizza at this very moment is a victory in itself. :)
Friday, June 29, 2012
As I said at the beginning of June, I have always envied the people that put up their goals at the beginning of a month, and actually came back at the end of the month to show that they had accomplished something. I have never followed through... until now! My list may not be anything super exciting, but it was my list nonetheless:
Drink 8 glasses of water each day. : This has finally become so easy for me that I don't really have to monitor it, it just happens.
Walk 4 miles per week. :
This one was my greatest work. The first week I went on a trip to Vegas, did 4 miles. Week 2: 8.2 miles. Week 3: 13.74 miles. I should be finishing week 4 with 15.2 miles, maybe a little more. This goal was definitely my biggest accomplishment. :D
Do 60 minutes cardio per week. : This one is kind of wishy washy, it was hit and miss with me trying to do something other than walking, I did a lot of it, but considering I smashed my mileage goal I don't feel too bad about it.
Do 10 minutes of strength training 3x/week : This one is definitely still a work in progress, I'm doing okay but not enough to get the goal met icon. ;)
Track everything I eat no matter how bad. :
Lose 8 pounds by the end of June. (240.5) : 240.4, just squeaked by.
I am feeling confident enough in my lifestyle change that I don't feel the need to write it out for July, it's not cockiness, just a confidence that I know what I need to do and can continue to do it. Walking is definitely "my thing" and I can't wait to keep building up so I can walk farther and farther. :D
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
So I pretty much have no desire to get super dooper personal on here. I mean I will get crazy personal with weight loss related stuff, it's just the "extra" stuff that I only chose to share in small doses. I left the last blog with just saying there was no sparkle with that guy. Well I won't go into the long version, but the guy was a total creeper, true story lol. If I went in depth people would have been telling me to ditch him ASAP. So the good news is he is gone-sies, yay me. ;)
I have been feeling just so great, and I have no idea why. I haven't felt spark-ly in a long time, and I haven't felt like myself. Today on the way to work I was just in such a good mood, singing and dancing in my car. Even got a few weird looks, funny because I look at the people who *aren't* singing and dancing funny. ;) I feel like I have more energy, and I am just feeling good. I love this site and love seeing peoples progress, and I love all my spark friends. You guys rock so much and I am thankful for each and every one of you! :D
I am hoping the scale will join me in feeling spark-ly on Friday and at least let me go down a little, but I know that is just a number and for once I'm not stressing about it, and that is thanks to so many of you and your awesome reminders! :D
Saturday, June 23, 2012
The scale maintained this week. Actually, it gave me a lot of grief. It told me I was 10 pounds down. I never even thought "wow, could it be?" I knew it was wrong. I knew I was about on track to maintain this week since I already peeked at it the other day. I am thinking it needs new batteries, didn't make it to the store today, but will definitely get some before next weeks weigh in. I moved it over and stepped on it 2 more times and got the accurate reading, so at least I don't have to buy a new one. *PHEW*.
Normally I'd be absolutely floored by not losing anything this week, but I really am feeling this time is different. So many things have changed. In the last month and a half I have formed so many new habits and not given up which is huge for me. I walked 3 consecutive miles today which I haven't done... well EVER. I have walked just over 12 miles for the week, which blows my 4 mile a week goal for June out of the water. The biggest accomplishment for me is the food. I have pretty much been in my calories for the entire month of June so far, with the exception of buffet day when I went to Vegas at the beginning of the month. That was my one exception and I've pretty much stuck to it. I did have one other super bad day, but bounced back from it the very next day, so that was a victory. But I realized that I have not eaten fast food by myself this entire month so far. This is the girl who would eat fast food 5-10 times in a week. I have gone out to dinner with family on a few occasions, but I have tracked everything and been in range. I haven't hit up 2 drive thrus and ordered enormous amounts of food, which is something I did quite frequently.
I know old habits can spring up on us at any point, and I am not saying it's always easy, but I finally feel like I have myself in a comfortable routine. And as for the flippin' scale, he'll catch up eventually, and I'm not going to let him get me down in the mean time!
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
I never get super personal in these blogs, so this is a first but I'm not going to dive in too deep. But I had date #2 tonight. This is huge for me because I don't date. You are thinking oh she doesn't date a lot? No, I don't date, period. At the age of 26 I can count the guys I've dated on one hand, okay one hand and a pinky from the other hand. :p I've never had a serious boyfriend, oy vey.
Anyways, this had the potential to be a great date. Movies and then a walk on the Santa Monica Pier. They use that pier in so many movies, with the arcade and the roller coaster and the ferris wheel. The bad news is I was just super uncomfortable and not feeling any sparkle or any butterflies. My mom said she thinks I'm too picky, but I really just want this: A nice guy, who can make me laugh, that gives me at least tiny butterflies and it's someone that I just can't wait to see again. Unfortunately that isn't the case here. I don't even know how to tell him I'm really not feeling it, it's going to be hard because he is so good about telling me how much he likes me.
Okay, enough of that, because I feel weird talking about that stuff on here. And Kastastrophy, if you are reading this I meant to take a picture of me all "prettied up" but I forgot, I hope you can forgive me.
So we walked almost 2 miles, in my hooker boots and I was fine. The only thing was my poor pinky toe has a blister on it, but that's my fault of course. But I was amazed. I am a girl with a plate in my leg and 2 screws in my ankle from a nasty break (awesome xray in my photo album if you care to see), and also someone who has arthritis in both knees and used to have TONS of flare ups. I can't even go bowling because my knees swell the next day. If it wasn't for my pinky toe (these boots are super comfy btw), I could have went on forever. ;)
So on the way home I started to get a little said. I was really hoping I could really feel something for this boy and that maybe just maybe I would finally NOT be single, for the first time in 26 years. So that kind of bummed me out. Then it made me think about how I miss the person I dated before and the butterflies he gave me (ooh baby), and I just took a nose dive and just felt like crap.
So immediately my mind starts racing, you feel like crap, what's the solution, FOOD. I was already thinking in my head "You could get Tommy's chili cheese fries, then go next door to jack in the box and get stuffed jalapenos and a chicken sandwich..." I was ready to revert back to my old habits. Instead I called my mom and asked her to join me at Denny's. I know some people may think that's just as bad but here is why it was different. I had only eaten a small breakfast of 200 calories, and walked almost 2 miles on my date. I knew I wanted to eat something greasy, but couldn't trust myself to eat alone. I'd never eat that way in front of my mother. We went to Denny's and I dished about my date, and I had the Super Bird with fries. I tracked all the calories, and didn't eat all my fries. To me it was a success. To be in calories and still "get what I wanted" in terms of something nice and greasy was a good enough success for me. ;) Now if my blister can just go away, I'll be back in business. :D Good thing it's on the topish/outside of my toe and I can avoid shoes til Saturday. *PHEW*
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