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Anyone see the new MTV Show "I Used To Be Fat..."

Sunday, January 02, 2011

I just watched it's first episode on, and while I did enjoy watching the show, the girl on it lost 90 pounds in 111 days. Insanity!! She was doing intense exercise with a trainer everyday. Just thought it was a bit over the top I guess. She was just 18 years old, but I noticed it seemed the skin on her stomach was able to keep up and go back to where it should be. Just wondered if anyone here had seen the show, and if so what they thought of it.

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    It's taken me about 330 days to lost about my 100lbs, and I have no skin sagging anywhere (I still have fat sagging). I am going to go to the site and check this out!

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STEPH-KNEE 1/2/2011 3:39AM

    You are absolutely right. I know they mentioned portion sizes, but I wonder if they cut her calories an EXTREME amount to get that weight loss to happen. It'd be different if they said 'we are putting her on a 1200 calorie diet' or something so we would have an idea. That makes me skeptical because they didn't.

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    I was so disturbed when she lost 14 lbs in the first two weeks. Then I was jealous. But yeah, an insane personal trainer like that can obviously make a big impact. What also bothered me was that food was barely addressed once she started working out. She must've changed how she ate too, but I want to know what she did.

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STEPH-KNEE 1/2/2011 1:12AM

    I don't like the Biggest Loser either, especially because they are taken out of the real world. At least on this one I will give credit because she was at home... BUT she was also 18, was able to cut back her hours working and what not to balance her schedule. So definitely very different. Plus I also think the motivation of a show following your every move and not wanting to fail is huge in terms of that. And you are right, it seems maybe they don't want people immetating it, so they don't go into details? What I really want to know is an update, like what happened months later, and how is she doing now, without support of the show? Maybe it's on their site... hmmm..

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MORETA63 1/2/2011 1:07AM

    I could prbably lose weight like that if I had a personal trainer hovering over me everyday, weighing every crumb of food I put in my mouth. I don't like these types of reality shows. (don't like most of them anyway.) Especially those like this, that aim for the younger demographic. Some young girl may see it, and think, if she can, I can, and try to do it on her own, and either, try to do it on her own, get discouraged and give up, or take it to the other extreme, and either turn into an exercize junkie, or develop an eating disorder. I wish some one would do a show on the healthy ways to lose weight, with real life examples.

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DAISY-HIBANA 1/2/2011 12:46AM

    I wonder what kind of intensity they are going to take home after a show? I hope they are able to maintain a healthy perspective and help others with their new habits.

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THENEWSHANNON 1/2/2011 12:45AM

    I saw the same one. I had the same problem with it as I do with the Biggest Loser - they lose these extreme amounts of weight, yet don't really go into detail on how they do it. I think they leave the details out because they don't want people trying to lose that fast on their own, but yet the whole show is a promotion of losing weight that way. emoticonI was surprised at the lack of loose skin too, age or genetics working in her favor there, I guess!

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What I've Learned In 2010...

Saturday, December 25, 2010

On the downside, I don't have some incredible weight loss story. No awesome before and after pictures to show all that I've accomplished. But I do feel that I've learned a lot this year, and I am determined to make 2011 my year!

I've learned that...

*For me to be successful, I need to be on Spark. I need to log my food, there is no way around it for me.
*I need to lose weight for me, on my own terms, and it doesn't matter how anyone else feels about it.
*I need to make myself a priority in my life, and if that means rearranging life so that I can be number 1, then it must be done.
*I can not hide from food (temptation). It will always be around, and it is up to me and only me to make the best of it.
*I feel so much better when I'm exercising regularly, and I need it to become a way of life.
*I will NEVER be happy (body-wise) at an unhealthy weight. I despise getting winded so easily, I hate how my clothes fit, and I hate how sluggish I feel. I will not settle for this unhealthy body I am living in.

I have had a lot of ups and downs in 2010 (as does anyone), and I honestly feel there were more downs than anything. I do wish I handled them better, and had *more to show* for this year.

BUT, this time last year I weighed 272 (my highest weight EVER), and I am currently hovering around 258. While this is no great accomplishment, I know for a fact if I had not found Spark and at least attempted to become healthier throughout the year, I would be much higher than 272. To know I avoided hitting or getting even closer to the 300 pound mark is an accomplishment for me in a roundabout way.

Hopefully next year at this time I will have learned even more and weigh even less! :D

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ALWAYSCHANGING 12/27/2010 7:24PM

    You say that your weight loss is 'no great accomplishment' I say you are selling yourself short. Be glad for every pound of ounce lost, each is a step in the right direction. Congratulations to you as well for all you have learned and the knowledge you will carry into the New Year. I wish you much success!

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LYCABEL 12/26/2010 9:11PM

    You Go girl. Every baby step is a victory. You can make it happen.


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CHICAT63 12/26/2010 9:08AM

    Bring on 2011 as you can do this, lessons learned are great tools to move forward on. I have to agree tracking my food is a great help and of course anything that gets you moving helps too.

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Ups and Downs...

Friday, December 10, 2010

So I know we all go through ups and downs, but it's like I have gone through both in a matter of like 6 days! It's crazy. I wish I could just have one good week, so that I could build my confidence and remind myself that I ACTUALLY know how to do this. I started out the week great, as I often do, then I wanted to have fast food for one meal, and I said to myself, no problem... I this will be my "free" meal for the week. Then the next day I had fast food and the next day. It's like what is wrong with me? Before I was able to have one fast food meal a week, and I'd look forward to it, and after I had it I'd immediately get back on track. For some reason now, I am not strong enough to do that. It's like a get a taste of it, and I run amok.

I'm not going to lie, there is a HUGE part of me right now that just wants to accept my fate as a fatty. I know that is a horrible way to look at things, because I do know that I can lose weight, as I've done it before... I'm just being real here LOL!!

Oh, and I'm not looking for a pitty party or people to say 'don't worry' or anything... trust me... I'm not like that. I just decided last week that I would post my goals, and so this is my post saying I totally failed.

I don't want to give up, because I am so unhappy with my body. So what I've learned from this week, is that *right now*, I am not "sturdy" enough to have a fast food meal once a week, as it leads to more and more. So for this next week, I really just want to focus on calories and eating what I need to it. I know it's probably not the best to have an "all or nothing" outlook on my food at this point, but I'm running out of ideas. =/

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STEPH-KNEE 12/10/2010 6:36AM

    That makes sense, thanks! :D Especially right now, before once a week was no problem at all for me, but some reason it's totally throwing me for a loop. I will definitely try that, cuase I gotta try something... I just keep screwing around and going yo-yoing which is only doing me harm.

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    I have come to see fast food as gross, which makes it easier not to eat it (plus it makes me sick when I do eat it!) except for Subway. I treat myself..maybe once a month to go out to eat. So far I've gone out once this month but I did NOT do good and I felt horrible for it. I'll go out one more time with my friends for Christmas.

Focus on trying to do it once a month. Like a special day or something you look forward to.

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Have you ever thought about...

Sunday, December 05, 2010

how no one *really* cares whether you lose this weight or not? I know, silly question. I also don't want anyone to think that I genuinely mean that no one cares if we get healthy or not. I know my dad truly worries about my health from time to time, especially as diabetes runs in the family. But I just mean in general, day to day terms. Like, no one cares if I'm fat or not. It's just so funny to think, this is all me. Do I have a select few friends and family who know my struggles and that I want to lose weight? Sure. Do they encourage me? Sometimes. But I am realizing this is the one time in my life I neeeeeeeeeed to be selfish.

I think what I am struggling with the most, is not going on this journey with someone. I have Spark Friends, and even a real life bff who is trying to lose weight, but we are not doing it in the same ways, and live about an hour apart. The only time I lost a *good chunk* of weight through all my years of struggle, was when my mom and I went on Nutrisystem together. I lost 40 pounds relatively easily, my mom and I made our food, ate, and exercised together. Then, just like everything else, it fizzled out. I know that the Nutrisystem was absolutely not the main reason I lost the weight, it was because I had a partner in crime. I moved out a year ago and live alone, so it is definitely all me. My mom is at her heaviest weight (which I'd kill to weigh what she weighs at her heaviest weight LOL), but she doesn't seem to have any desire to do anything about it, which I totally understand. Part of me wishes she'd hop on the bandwagon so I wouldn't feel alone, but we don't live together anyways, so it'd still wouldn't be like it was before.

But I am honestly to my breaking point. I feel sooooo uncomfortable all the time. I can honestly say I hate my body. I despise it. I despise this ginormous behind that follows me wherever I go, and more than anything, I hate my two stomachs that I have to lug around. I want to lose enough weight so that me turning over in bed isn't considered an olympic sport. I need to make this time different, I need to commit to this lifestyle change, and I need to remember it's all about me-me-me when it comes to this. Let's rock this biz-nitch. ;)

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CARLA393 12/8/2010 10:19PM

    It is definitely good to be selfish when it comes to your health! And I just want you to know, that no matter how heavy you feel, or how bad about yourself you think, I would kill to be your weight! And I'm sure there's hundreds of others out there who feel the same way. We'll never be happy with our weight if we aren't healthy. That's the priority!

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FRAZZLEPOP 12/5/2010 5:08AM

    You're gonna rock this biz-nitch! :) Remember you're doing it for yourself -- whether or not people support you, in the end it's your body and your goals! Good luck!

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I'm Too Freakin Fat For This LOL!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

I find myself thinking that a lot these days. I get winded SO easily, and I am only 24... It shouldn't be like this. There are two sets of stairs in my house... a set leading up to the bathrooms/bedrooms and a set leading down to the garage. So while doing chores like cleaning, I am going up stairs to round up the laundry... down those stairs, then down the other stairs to start the laundry (back and forth up and down the stairs to put in dryer and later take them out of the dryer...) up and down the stairs to take out trash, bring home groceries etc etc. BUT THEY ARE JUST STAIRS! It's not climbing Mount Everest or anything! I am pretty sure my 67 year old grandma could out run me at this point.

When I bring home a ton of groceries and find myself about ready to pass out, I say to myself damn, I need a husband so he could help me with this, that'd make it easier. But eff that lol, all I need is to lose 100 pounds, and I wouldn't need anyones help;). I have said countless times how sick I am of being fat, so I'm not even going to go there this time...But I AM so sad I have let so many years slip by...

I am so overwhelmed at the idea of trying to lose at the VERY LEAST 80 pounds (in reality much more)... so the only focus I'm going to have right now so I don't freak myself out is to lose 20 pounds by Feb 1st. So here goes nothing!

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FIREBIRD3423 11/23/2010 9:49AM

    You will get there, one day you will be running around house and stop and go wow I just did all that and not even tired. I like the small goals not that 20 lbs is by any means a small goal! Its a LOT I know I have to pick up 20lb bags of dog food all the time.

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CHICAT63 11/20/2010 5:57PM

    You can do it and much more !!! The stairs will become easier..... emoticon

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    When I started out, I looked at losing each 10lbs. Like getting from 280 to 270, and so on and it made it a LOT easier. I didn't look at it as losing 137lbs.

Also, look at the stairs as a good thing - a form of exercise to help you. I am finding interesting things each day, that tell me I burn calories (I stand up at work for 9hrs, that's 565 calories!).

If I can do it - so can you!

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DAUNE447 11/20/2010 6:56AM

    Its great that you have lots of stairs in your house - so you can get up and exercise anytime you want!
Good luck with your journey!

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STEPH-KNEE 11/20/2010 6:55AM

    Thanks so much for the comment, that makes total sense. And congrats on all your success! :D

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KITKABOO 11/20/2010 6:35AM

    Set yourself 10% goals- lose 10% and only focus on that, no more. It's easier when you can see it in small chunks. Also try the healthy eating before introducing exercise- that way you'll more likely to stay on track rather than push yourself to the limit then lose motivation as you pushed too hard

If I can lose 181lbs anyone can believe me-I'm a former couch potato whose only exercise was walking to the car or up the stairs to bed!!


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