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So Here's The Problem... LOL!

Tuesday, September 16, 2014


This is totally one of this ridiculous "non problem problems"! emoticon I have been thinking a lot about everything. How I am still up 8ish pounds from my lowest weight... That I am still almost 30 pounds away from my goal weight and I was trying to really figure some things out. Before I think I was scared of the success... I think I'm to a point now where I'm not really scared and I'm definitely not self sabotaging as much, which is a huge step in the right direction! But there is obviously something keeping me around this weight for a year. I know part of it is lack of focus, I get really focused, drop 10 pounds. slack off, eat too much and gain it back. Sounds like a ridiculous cycle, and it pretty much is... but here is what I figured out about how I feel right now...



Okay, so that sounds awful, but it's how I feel! I am not at my goal, but I am a happy girl lately! I am getting out and having fun, I am enjoying places like Disneyland and the Zoo that I avoided for years because I weighed 90 pounds more than I do today and walking took such a physical toll on my body. I can do so much, and while I am still overweight, I can walk miles with ease, I can fit into all the rides at Disneyland and I feel confident in doing so! I even have my trip to Florida in November, and I've never traveled anywhere past Vegas. The idea of flying as an obese person sounded like so much work, and it held me back. Now I will have finally made it to the east coast and that is exciting! emoticon



In fact, I feel so confident that I bought tickets to Luke Bryan, well actually, I bought 1 ticket! I am going alone! I could have had someone go with me, but I would have had to buy nosebleed tickets for the same price as the good seat. So I got 1 ticket, and it's seat 1 which means it's an isle seat. A few months ago I was stressing about who was going to go with me to a concert, and now I have chosen to go alone. I also plan to head to Disneyland and the Zoo by myself. I was always so self conscious going places that I needed someone with me, but now I am confident enough to go by myself, and in some cases it might be even more fun. For example: Single rider lines at Disneyland are way shorter than the regular lines, BOOYAH! Better seat at a concert because it's 1 seat, SCORE! emoticon

With that said, I am not done with weight loss. When I told someone the other day I still had the last 30 pounds to go, they very sweetly said "You can do it! But even if you never lose another pound, you have accomplished SO much, and you should be proud! You look great and have come so far!" emoticon I graciously accepted such a wonderful compliment, but in my mind I thought to myself "I want to lose the last 30 pounds, I don't want to settle." So I know the desire is there, I want to accomplish my goals, which includes goal weight, maintenance, tummy tuck and life long maintenance. I am not going to short change myself after coming this far. But on the flip side of that, it's nice to feel like I have accomplished something great. It feels good to be proud and confident and to be out enjoying life instead of hiding at home because I'm ashamed of my weight.

So that is the problem... emoticon Trying to find the balance between being proud and enjoying things how they are now, but wanting to push myself that much farther to achieve the rest of my goals. I think when I was obese and truly miserable, there was this drive to lose the weight to become happier and to feel better physically... now that I've achieved that there is no desperation to get the rest of this weight off.

So as I said, it's a non problem problem and I am enjoying life and everything it has to offer! But I do have plans to go all the way and finish what I started. It is just clearly taking a lot longer than I hoped. emoticon

  
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SLIMLEAF 9/16/2014 6:44PM

    I understand what you mean.

I suggest you set yourself some small goals then take some 'baby steps' towards them. This might help inspire you to make the necessary effort to reach your target weight.

All the best!

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ICECUB 9/16/2014 6:38PM

    emoticon ENJOY THE CONCERT AND THE ZOO AND DISNEYLAND.

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SLLYONS51 9/16/2014 6:21PM

  Great blog. I have always wanted to go to Disney on my own because there is always someone in the family who brings the day down. This gives me some incentive to do something on my own. We really don't need anyone else to make our own happiness. Enjoy that concert!

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WHYTEBROWN 9/16/2014 6:10PM

    emoticon You go girl!! Celebrate being your emoticon self!! You HAVE achieved so much but as you said, no settling allowed!! emoticon emoticon

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LINDAK25 9/16/2014 4:21PM

    Check out that confidence! Woo Hoo! Good for you!

I get where you're coming from. The rest stop is over, now it's time to refocus, right?

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POLSKARENIA 9/16/2014 3:55PM

    Celebrate your success so far by keeping on!
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DSHONEYC 9/16/2014 2:55PM

    emoticon No problem...it's the anthem of today.

Enjoy today and emoticon

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POSITIVEHOPE 9/16/2014 1:48PM

    Yes. All the thing we were RUNNING away from have gotten to be such smaller problems in our lives. Smaller but not forgotten. It's harder to measure progress in the same way, now. You can walk 10 miles in a single day. Walking 11 miles in a day doesn't seem to be a factor of 10 bigger or that much more worthwhile.
What you want for your future self is real. You are moving toward a new reality. You want to see and feel exactly what it is like to be at your goal weight. It is the desired launching point for more travel and your tummy tuck. It will be interesting to see if the next 10 - 20 lb. Loss makes your knees feel better or increases your endurance. You want to get to goal and look in the mirror and confirm for yourself that you look fabulous at your goal weight.
You have already embraced the change in your personality by becoming comfortable going places alone. You are getting comfortable being all by yourself. Awesome!

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MCJOYFUL 9/16/2014 1:32PM

    You really have come so far and I love that you have more confidence now and are enjoying life! I know you can do anything you set your mind to. Those 30 pounds will be gone eventually!

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GRANJERRY1 9/16/2014 1:19PM

    emoticon I agree don't stop till you accomplish what you set out to...don't leave such a well done job incomplete....we are all rooting for you... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LIMOM2TWINS 9/16/2014 12:51PM

    I know you have had lots and lots of awesome responses - but I wanted to share my own with you! I cannot tell you how excited I am that you are going to see Luke Bryan on your own (never mind that he is an awesome singer) you see - back last winter Pink was in town by me - Instead of doing what you are doing - going on your own - I only wished I could go but never went! - I will always wish I saw her and maybe someday I will but you are living the dream and you deserve all this happiness. emoticon

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ANGELBELIEVER 9/16/2014 12:09PM

    Congrats. You are doing so well. I am proud of your accomplishments. emoticon emoticon

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BLUEJAY1969 9/16/2014 11:34AM

    You know I agree with LOVINSHERRY78 on this! You are a big inspiration to me and I am sure you will succeed in what you have set out to do!
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LOVINSHERRY78 9/16/2014 11:27AM

    u should def be proud and know that when its time..u will get rid of the other 30. maybe maintaining is all you need in your life and way to go for doing that too. so many would have put it all back on yet you keep yourself accountable and enjoy life in the now!
hold your head high b/c u r def an amazing woman and doing so much for yourself and those around u. :)

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WISHICOULDFLY 9/16/2014 11:12AM

    The way I see it is you were training and strengthening your "maintenance muscles" which we all have heard is even harder than losing. You absolutely should be proud of where you are now! When you are ready, you will head toward a different goal and undoubtedly WILL reach it. I think it is emoticon that you are celebrating NOW and LIVING LIFE in ways you could not before. I am very proud of you! You are quite young to have learned that you can and should do things by yourself rather than wait until someone can join you. Go Stephanie! emoticon

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SUBMOM2 9/16/2014 10:57AM

    You have come so far and you deserve to celebrate as you go. There's nothing wrong with that. Finding the balance between enjoying your current weight and working toward the end goal -- that's trickier, for me at least. I know you will figure it out. In the meantime, have fun at the zoo, and Disneyland, and the concert. Live your life every day!

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NASFKAB 9/16/2014 10:25AM

  lovely blog great you got a ticket for yourself only that is progress I think

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OMMAMA7 9/16/2014 9:54AM

    I LOVE this blog! I can relate to the general feelings though I still have MUCH to lose. I self sabotage. I had lost a lot of weight and was feeling totally awesome and somehow lost focus and regained all of it and more. You are doing great and I love your attitude!

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SUSIEMT 9/16/2014 9:40AM

    Stephanie it makes me so happy to see you happy! Yeah, you will get there when you are ready. Even if it is an ounce at a time (BTW it is an ounce at a time to get down there! I speak from experience!)! What is it "they" say? Enjoy the journey!!! Woo Hoo you!
My mother always used to say "Go by yourself! You'll have more fun!" As kids we never believed her but from your description it is true!
I love road trips by myself! I can sing loud and strong and off-key with no one telling me to shut up!!!

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STEPHM-ARATHON 9/16/2014 9:13AM

    I'm glad you're happy. Great blog :) Congratulations on all your success.

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MARITIMER3 9/16/2014 8:46AM

    One of the best things about your journey, I humbly suggest, is how much you are learning about yourself. I think that as well as being a happier, healthier person now, you are also much stronger emotionally, and you will have that strength for the rest of your life.

Continue to accept the compliments graciously, as you are doing, but continue on to your goal. You'r doing great!

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1CRAZYDOG 9/16/2014 8:45AM

    My dear, you have figured out something that is sooooooooo life altering and important. You CAN be happy right where you're at. Does that mean you are done with your goals? NO Ma'am. It just means you are HAPPY! That's wonderful, and you should be. You have accomplished a whole lot and more importantly have CHANGED FOR THE BETTER with these accomplishments.

Rock on, my dear. You'll reach your goal. HUGS

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BEANIES_MOM 9/16/2014 8:35AM

    That makes SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much sense!!!! Now I need to figure out what my problem is and why 2014 has been a year of maintaining for me.

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NANCYTUNBERG64 9/16/2014 8:28AM

    I am certainly in the same place. I am in the 180's still myself and have been at the low end and now the higher end for months now. I too think I am so much happier where I am today which I am grateful for but I do need to remind myself of the reasons that I want to lose another 20 lbs or so.

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WENDYANNE61 9/16/2014 8:23AM

    Have as much fun in exciting places as possible - I enjoy doing quite a number of activities on my own, because I can do them the way I fancy on the given day.... As you have your plan for a tummy tuck in place, you have a great reason to drop some more pounds on the way there. It is lovely to follow how your confidence is growing in yourself - and it should, because you are wonderful!

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RUNNING-TURTLE 9/16/2014 8:10AM

    You have come a long ways, I wish I had the confidence you surely have gained in your journey. Not wanting to settle is wonderful, because you know what....you should be settling when you reach the weight you are happy with.

I have been doing this for almost 2 years in a week I think, and I don't have a lot of weight to go, I think it's like 22 pounds, but I don't feel like it is that close. I feel as if I still have a huge mountain to climb. I hope by reading your blogs which I very often do that I can lift myself up with your wonderful enthusiasm, and reach for that last bit.

I hope you have a fantastic time at all those things you plan on going too. I've never gone to a real concert, although maybe one day I will.

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SANDICANE 9/16/2014 8:07AM

    You have done well and should celebrate where you are as well as where you came from! These are wonderful victories which have changed your life, however, never never never lose sight of your goal. We all know it takes focus and determination to get to our goals, and it's ok to stop and smell the roses along the way!

Cheers to you having a fabulous day!!!

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MANDYSCHELL 9/16/2014 7:58AM

    Steph, I understand what you are going through and I am not even there yet. I started my weight loss 3 years ago (before I go married). Lost 20 pounds and was "happy" with myself enough to stop losing for my wedding. However, I let myself go again, and I am back where I started before.

I am at the stage where I afraid of success. I am afraid of what losing the weight will do with my body. Yes, it will become smaller but will I have loose skin? Will I have stretch marks all over? And when I start thinking about those things, I get distracted and go off track.

It is a hard journey. You have came a long way and if you are happy now, enjoy it for a little while BUT do not stop what you are doing. The rest will come off when you are ready for it to come off. Think of right now as practice for when you get to your goal!!

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CAROLCRC 9/16/2014 7:58AM

    What my daughter calls "first world problems". But real for all that. Congratulations on all the attitude changes - they are a huge side benefit of the weight loss.

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BAHAMAMARG 9/16/2014 7:57AM

    Whatever you do, don't stop until YOU are comfortable with where you are. By everything I have read, that's one of the biggest fall downs and reasons why people put back on all the weight. It seems to be really important to be within 5lbs or so of your 'realistic ' target. I say 'realistic' since obviously maintaining a ridiculously low weight will never last! I say 'they say' as I've not been there myself yet!!! emoticon

I've only seriously been at this for 7 months and have lacked focus several times - just last week in fact - so I can not imagine how you keep it up for as long as you have! But good for you emoticon

Keep questioning and examining how you feel, set new goals and small targets and just keep pushing onwards - you WILL get there, I'm sure.

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MISSUSRIVERRAT 9/16/2014 7:55AM

    Well...do you need to firmly mentally establish the reasons you want to go the distance to get to the lower weight? You are currently reaping the rewards of losing the first 90 pounds because you are so much lighter and freer. What will it really mean to you to be 30 pounds lighter than you are now? What good will you gain, what bad will you get rid of ? What will it do for you in your everyday life more than you are experiencing right now
(besides having the satisfaction of achieving a number on the scale).

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BESSHAILE 9/16/2014 7:45AM

    Well my wise one - you are quite insightful. And these victories you speak of that are NOT weight victories - the permission you're giving yourself to go places and do things - are enormous prizes. They are the real reason you are on this journey anyway.

And oh boy do I know that experience. My total drop from 200 to 150 has been a long and undulating ride. Often it would take me a year to get 10 lbs down. Then another year to drop the next 10 lbs. Then I'd drop all of it - and then bounce back up to some weight or another. Then I'd put on my big girl panties and work my way back down again.

So admiring of you my dear friend. So so so admiring.

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REBIRTHDIVA 9/16/2014 7:40AM

    I can so relate to not being where you want to be, but being really proud of how far you have come. High Five on the solo concert ticket! I'm sure you will have a blast. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Opinions Are Like ________...

Friday, September 12, 2014



So every quote about opinions ended in something quite inappropriate... so I will just let you fill in the blank the word of your choice! emoticon

I am often open to hearing other people's ideas and opinions... a lot of the time I learn something new or different! I don't always agree with them, but I typically don't mind listening to what others have to say. I also do my best to remember that if they are speaking up, the most likely (not always, but usually) have good intentions and it's because they truly do care.

But every once in a while, you get that unsolicited opinion or advice that just rubs you the wrong way! Some people live their life very openly, where they tell everyone everything... and I think those people are the ones that often get the brunt of the unsolicited opinions. If you don't give people anything to go on, then they can't comment on it. ;)

When I started my job 6 years ago, I was an open book! I learned the hard way how quickly things could spread... which would have been okay if they were accurate. Things would get twisted and changed and it got to the point where I shut down. I wouldn't tell anyone anything... I knew they were going to talk about me regardless, but I figured if they were going to make up stories, they could make up the entire story, and that I wouldn't give them any words to twist.

I lost over 50 pounds before I'd even confirm the number. People would constantly ask me how many pounds I had lost and I would just say "quite a bit" or something else. I wasn't trying to be difficult, but it was hard to open back up after my prior experiences. I also knew there were the less-than-happy-for-you-coworkers that were secretly hoping that you would gain all your weight back... because that is what always happened to them!

At this point, I am open and honest about my weight loss to anyone who might ask... but it took a long time to get there. It is so much easier to share these things on Spark than it is with people in everyday life, and I think it's because here we are all working to achieve the same things. Weight loss is the one subject that I will just put out there for anyone who might want to know, but I am still guarded with most other things.

But opening up to others puts us in that magical place of hearing about what everyone thinks about you, your plans and your life. While the majority is nothing but supportive, some opinions just rub me the wrong way. In most cases, I don't think they mean any harm, but sometimes it just starts to bug me. emoticon

For me, I get the most opinions based on the fact that I want to have a tummy tuck next year. Most people wouldn't tell you they were going to have a tummy tuck or that they were thinking about it. They would go and do it, and maybe just maybe in the future they would tell you that they had one... and even then they might not say anything about it. At first I was keeping my planning to myself, but I eventually shared it here and in real life (at work). I feel like there is nothing to be ashamed of and that there is no reason for me to hide it. At work, they are going to know that I will be out for an extended period, so if I don't open up about what I am doing with that time off, that will leave them to guess... and I sure don't need them guessing! Lol!

My family is nothing but supportive, they have seen the state my stomach is currently in and they know it is necessary. I have saved up the $$, done my research, and know what to expect. I know that I want to be in the 160's and have a steady weight for 6 months. That is what *I* want. Other people want to lecture me about waiting til after I've had kids, or wait until I've been at my goal for over a year... the list goes on and on. But the thing is, you don't know my specific situation. You don't know that I've researched all about having kids after having a tummy tuck. You don't know that I've weighed the pros and the cons... You don't know that while I'm 28, I am not even in a relationship that might lead to having kids. In fact, I don't know that I will ever have children. I will not spend the next 10 years walking around with sagging skin because I "might" chose a certain path in my life. I used to say that I wanted to maintain my weight for a year before getting a tummy tuck, but that was before my stomach had become such a hazard. I don't have rashes yet, but I know it's coming. It is very uncomfortable and impairs my ability to do certain exercises. Not only that, but I've maintained my weight for a year. Granted it is not the weight I wanted to maintain, and I am not done losing, but I know myself and I know that I will not go through the pain, recovery, money and the mental struggle that comes from such a surgery and mess it all up by gaining my weight back. That might sound arrogant, but I think 2 1/2 years into this journey I know myself better than anyone. Doctors recommend you have a steady weight for 6 months, and that is my plan. Some doctors even recommend that you have your tummy tuck even if you have 10 or so more pounds to lose, because it might help and be added motivation to lose the last 10. With that said they recommend you be within at least 20 pounds of your goal weight before having surgery. My goal weight is 160, and if I'm in the 160's and can maintain then I am going for it.

This sagging skin and tummy takes a toll on me mentally and physically, and that is why I have chosen the path I have chosen. So all I ask when you voice your opinion to someone, think about how it might sound to the person you are giving it to. Think about if it will help that person to understand your thoughts, or if it might affect them negatively. Would you want the same person voicing that same opinion to you if situations were reversed? And if you are on the receiving end of such opinions, try to remember in most cases, they care and are trying to help, even if it doesn't come off that way. Most importantly, remember to make your own decisions, even if it's not the popular choice! emoticon


  
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LIVINGLOVINLIFE 9/16/2014 2:39PM

    Good for you. You are young and can financially do this. You feel that the benefits outweigh the possible problems. I certainly don't think it is any ones business but your own. Hugs Pat

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GODZDESIGN95 9/15/2014 4:02PM

    Girl it is your life do what is good for you. You know your body. If could get a lipo or a breast lift I would but it is not feasible for me to do so. I guess I have to go normal way. As for the boobs well I have had 3 kids and one breast feed and I am 54 lol. You get the picture. As long as I am ok with them well they are mine. Hubbie does not complain. Giggles. You do you!

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POLSKARENIA 9/15/2014 1:13PM

    I always try to support my friends and family, both before they decide upon a course of action, and once they have acted upon their decision.
I too am very careful what I share and whom with; there are just too many destructive people about!
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GRACED777 9/15/2014 1:55AM

    Anytime I try to change someone's mind, I am out of bounds. I'd rather encourage people or give them something to consider. We each stand before God on our choices, not before people, but that's hard for me to remember when on the receiving end of others' opinions at times, especially when people try to tell me how to spend my money, what to do in health or vocational areas, etc. We are to be resources for others, not The Answer Person.

I've learned to be careful what and where I share, as well. It got worse when my marriage got rocky. Everyone and his brother knew what I should do!

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WALNUTT1961 9/14/2014 9:49PM

    Great blog! It's your body, do what you want to!

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1STBUCKETITEM 9/14/2014 8:27PM

  emoticon Whether you are 28 or 63 (like I am), you know your body and you know what you want your body to be. Therefore, others should mind their "p's and q's" and let you make your decisions about your own body. emoticon

By the way, after I get to goal, I too intend to get rid of the excess skin as soon as I'm able, no matter how old I get! emoticon


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    emoticon Joining in the chorus. It takes discernment to know what to share with whom. Not just for your own sake, but for theirs. Lesson I've been working on a lot lately!

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    Great to see your blog featured in the Spark Mail.

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PATTIEMCD 9/13/2014 8:20PM

    I absolutely love this Blog !
I want to have a tummy tuck also but I haven't done any of the homework for it. I haven't even the slightest idea how much it will cost ! Hehehe
I just know I will get it done before I turn 60 (I'm 55 now).
I can totally relate about the ppl who are not capable of being happy for your weightloss. There are a handful of ppl at my job who lost weight and put it all back on plus some. Two of them still talk to me, the others just stare at me when I walk by them. Some ppl ask me how I did it but, when I tell them, their eyes glaze over. They don't understand how I can eat whatever I want to and not gain any of it back. No one wants to hear about portion control.... Lol


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DIANNEMT 9/13/2014 6:30PM

    Good for you!! You do what is right for YOU!! Sounds like you know what is going on with yourself!!

So proud of you for being down so much weight!!

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LCRUMLEY81 9/13/2014 4:59PM

  So very true thank you for the reminder

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JSEATTLE 9/13/2014 4:42PM

  This is an important lesson. Words are powerful and often it's not what you say, but how you say it. You're doing so well, I think you really have your head on straight!

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TINAJANE76 9/13/2014 12:49PM

    Why anyone would diss your desire to do this after all the work you've put in and how much you've thought it though is kind of beyond me, but it seems to me like you know what the right thing to do is, Steph.

I had also thought about having a tummy tuck, even went for a consultation, but ultimately decided it wasn't for me--but that was my personal choice based on a number of different factors. I know quite a few others who chose to go with the tummy tuck and have had great results, so I'm sure you will too if that's what you ultimately decide.


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MARMAERT 9/13/2014 11:59AM

    Steph - you are doing the right thing and to do it now rather than later. Depending on how much looseness you have, you could see a weight loss of 10 pounds or even more as a result! I will be interested in your progress as this will be something I will have to do in 2016. along with loose skin removal on my thighs and upper arms, too. check out Pookasluagh's SP page and read her blogs about her own surgeries. she posts pictures and lots of details! Good luck!

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MARYBETH4884 9/13/2014 9:04AM

    Like you said, you know yourself better than anyone!! It is a very personal decision and if you've done the research and talked to the real experts you are set!! There are to many self proclaimed "experts" who just need to put their 2cents into your business!

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JERICHO1991 9/13/2014 9:01AM

    Thanks for sharing.

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BALTOCHIC 9/13/2014 8:55AM

    You go, girl! I can relate to you in that you are someone who does their research and does not seem to make decisions lightly, so that can make it even more annoying when "well wishers" want to offer their .02. I've had people all my life telling me I'd regret certain decisions or I'd change my mind. I never have. I know you won't, either. Well done on your accomplishment! :-)

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    Thanks for putting yourself out there for us Stephanie!! I'm with you. I share very little, especially with coworkers. I'm 56 and also considering a tummy tuck. And a breast lift and augmentation. After losing almost 100 lbs (off for a couple of years now), my bits and pieces are um not where I'd like them to be:). The the reaction I get is "why bother at your age"! I tell them I might be 56 but I'm not dead yet!! My self esteem needs the boost (along with my body, lol). It's nobody's business but your own. Do what makes you happy and who cares what others think. I applauded your honesty!! At 28 you have your whole life ahead of you. Enjoy!!


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SHERYLP461 9/13/2014 8:28AM

    I see our role as giving support, not opinions. Sometimes the two things cross. Your decision not mine or anyone else's.

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NANCY- 9/13/2014 8:23AM

    Congrats on following your heart.

I am one of those that cautiously gives unsolicited advice. I preface it with that it is just for info and and not a directive, so it is a take it or leave it type thing.

We have to make our own decisions. I'm so sorry to hear that you have experienced hurtful situations. From your blog I can tell how wise you are.
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TRYINGHARD54 9/13/2014 8:09AM

    People are rude, to bad, but thats the facts of life. I guess they weren't taught how to behave as a child. You do what you want to do, Its your life and your body. Only you know whats best. and heck with others. i don't care what anyone else thinks. they can keep their opinions to themselves. emoticon emoticon

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PENOWOK 9/13/2014 7:52AM

    I am so sorry there are so many obnoxious, rude people who always think they know better than anyone else. I have someone in my life who is like that. She's always telling me what I should or should;t say and what I should do...it's pretty annoying. I bite my tongue quite a bit. "My way or the highway." In fact, before I took my current job, none of the other 26 people in the school district who were eligible for the job, was willing to take it because this person is so controlling. There's always at least one, right, but in your environment, in which I have also worked, there are lots of controlling, catty women. That's just how it is...So we smile, keep our little positive secrets and go on with being the best WE can be!! You ARE the best and you CAN make great decisions! Do what you believe is best and let no one deter you!

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MALAMI518 9/13/2014 7:10AM

    You are so right! I'm glad that you have the confidence to know what is right for you and to leave others' opinions behind when they are inappropriate.

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CHERYLHURT 9/13/2014 5:43AM

  Your life, your success, your tummy. You have done a GREAT job losing so much weight and if a tummy tuck is what you want, then go for it!

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SLLYONS51 9/13/2014 2:11AM

  emoticon Everyones journey is there own to do what they want to do with it. At 28 if I had sagging skin causing a health issue (rash, etc) I would have a tummy tuck too. Why not you have weighed the pros and cons and if this is what you want go for it.

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JUNEAU2010 9/12/2014 10:39PM

    You have my support!

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JAMER123 9/12/2014 10:24PM

    I certainly agree with you in your assessment of what others think you should do or not do. You are right in you know yourself well and know what's best for your situation just as I know my situation and options. Very good blog!! Your quotes are right on as well!
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Is The Glass 1/2 Empty Or 1/2 Full?

Monday, September 08, 2014

September 2014: 190ISH


July 2013:

^It may be only a few pounds difference, but I definitely see big changes in my face comparing those 2 photos!

I have to say, I can be very fickle, with just about everything! I change my mind, my plan, my goals, everything, all the time! emoticon But at the end of the day, there are things that I know that I want without a shadow of a doubt! I want to be healthy, happy, and I want to enjoy life. I want to reach my goal weight and learn the art of maintenance, I sure do plan on having my tummy tuck in October of 2015. Those are the things I know I want, and on any given day my thoughts are the same. But with other things I can be wishy washy.

I was realizing that where I'm at today can be viewed in two exact opposite ways! I can chose to feel down or I can chose to feel positive, and it really is a matter of perspective.

Let's start with how things would be if I chose to look at my journey with the glass 1/2 empty.

In nearly 2 1/2 years on my journey:

emoticon I have gained 10 pounds back on several occasions, then "wasted time" losing those same 10 pounds.

emoticon I have had days and even weeks of eating way off track.

emoticon I've had many times where I was a couch potato and not being as active as I should have.

emoticon The biggest "downer" is that I weigh about the same weight I was at this point last year. I have been down about 10 pounds lower, but right now I'm fighting the regain. That could totally be viewed as such a "wasted year" and could really defeat me, if I let it!

emoticon I could have been at my goal weight by now... if I didn't "slip up" so much I could have been at that weight for a while now.

emoticon Now let's take a look at the glass half full, which is how I'm choosing to look at things! emoticon

emoticon I weigh about the same as I did last year! How can this be a positive and a negative? Well I could have easily gained back 40-70 pounds in a year had a I stayed off track. But by getting back on track and working hard to be consistent, I managed to maintain (more or less) for a year. That'll come in handy down the road when I'm ready to start maintenance!

emoticon I am smaller than I was when I was 18 (I'm 28 now), and that is a great feeling!

emoticon I'm healthy! My blood work and blood pressure are fabulous!

emoticon I walked 9 miles at Disneyland, during an arthritis flare up, and still came home and walked my dog 2 miles! The icing on the cake? I wasn't in a ton of pain the next day.

emoticon Everything in the physical sense is easier. I no longer get winded walking up my 7 stairs to my bed room. Tying my shoes isn't a huge feat, and turning over in bed is no longer an Olympic Sport. Everyday life is that much easier, and I look forward to it getting even easier with the last 30 or so pounds lost.

emoticon I feel awesome... well, most of the time! I have my down days, where I'm down on myself or my body and wish it looked different or was smaller... but for the most part I am very happy with myself and my progress. I never truly believed I could do this, and I'm certainly proving myself wrong! emoticon

emoticon I know that I am in this for the long haul. I am not going anywhere, and no matter how many times I fall down, I have no doubt that I will get back up!

There are so many things that can be spun in a positive or negative direction, we just need to do our best to find the positives and go in that direction!

One of my Spark friends asked me how do I stay motivated everyday? My answer was that I don't. I wish I was always motivated, feeling awesome, and working hard, but that isn't how it has worked, at least not for me. I have bad days, weeks, regain 5-10 pounds and have to lose them all over again... but I'm consistent. I'm here, I'm trying, and even when I'm off track I am remembering why I need to get on track... and even more importantly that I WANT to get back on track. I want to be here, losing this weight and getting smaller and healthier! I don't always show that in my actions, especially when I'm having a rough week, but I always know what I need to do and I get back to it! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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ONTHEPATH2 9/16/2014 11:56AM

    Oh my gosh! did I need to read this today! Thank you thank you thank you!!!!!! I am just ending one of those 10 lb gains again - and struggling to turn things back around. You are so right, this is just one step in the journey. It's all about where we choose to focus. Thank you for helping me put things into perspective! You look great!!!

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RENATA144 9/12/2014 11:56PM

  Always positive. No room for negativity.

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WHYTEBROWN 9/12/2014 11:14PM

    emoticon emoticon blog!!! You've made me realize that I'm looking at the glass half-empty but from now on I'm gonna look at it half-full!! emoticon You truly are a emoticon Sparkfriend to have. emoticon emoticon

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JCMSMILE 9/12/2014 10:12PM

    Brava, brava!! emoticon emoticon

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WHITEANGEL4 9/12/2014 9:33PM

    Struggles make the end results a great triumph

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WOLFRUNNERONE 9/12/2014 4:59PM

    You can do it - I feel we all are rough judges on ourselves - maintaining is equal to losing - - you look lovely an your inspiration to many and too me -

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MOONGLOWSNANA 9/12/2014 1:36PM

  Cheers! Spark Cheers!

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NSCARNEY 9/12/2014 11:37AM

    Right on!

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PEANUT-M-MS 9/12/2014 10:37AM

    Good going, Steph-knee! Keep it up!

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MBTEPP 9/12/2014 9:47AM

    VERY emoticon .

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It is worth it.

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SUCHANUT 9/12/2014 9:39AM

    emoticon You go girl!

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WRITERWANNAB 9/12/2014 12:57AM

    Sounds like things many of us deal with, but you are handling it. emoticon

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EMMACORY 9/11/2014 9:53PM

    The "lens" we use to view the world does make a difference. Thanks for sharing. emoticon

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JERICHO1991 9/11/2014 9:34PM

    Definitely half, or more, full.

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MALAMI518 9/11/2014 9:03PM

    I think that you've definitely seen some body composition change over this last year. There may only be a few pounds difference in those two photos, but you look so different. Congratulations on the results of all that hard work. And I love your glass half full attitude!

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WOOFERCOALBOY 9/11/2014 7:30PM

    I can see the difference in your face too.

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APED7969 9/11/2014 7:21PM

    As someone who has been struggling with regain for about a year this is exactly what I needed to read :-)

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LADYGSC 9/11/2014 7:16PM

    emoticon keep on sparking!!

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AMBER461 9/11/2014 6:42PM

  Excellent blog, keep up the good works and thanks for sharing.

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LCRUMLEY81 9/11/2014 12:16PM

  Way to go

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SHARONCAPPS 9/11/2014 8:50AM

  Great blog. Thanks for sharing.

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ATHENAFOREVER81 9/11/2014 8:30AM

    Great post! I can relate, because I have been on the journey of gaining and losing the same 10 lbs myself. Trying to get them off now and it seems like its taking even longer. But your right, consistency is key. I have been going strong 5 weeks now, and even though there are days where its easier to quit, I keep persevering!! Way to go on staying consistent and not giving up!!!

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VAINVT 9/11/2014 7:53AM

  I always like comments that talk about both the positive and the negative, and this certainly does that!

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IDLETYME 9/11/2014 6:31AM

    Nice blog. Keep up the good work! emoticon

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KIM22211 9/11/2014 4:42AM

    I had gained almost 20, 17 to be exact....so I know what you mean!!!

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PJB145 9/11/2014 1:33AM

    "You are only a failure if you stop trying." From my perspective, you have had a pretty successful year. WTG.

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LILYPIXIE 9/10/2014 10:02PM

    You Rock!! emoticon

I love that you are so open about what drives you and the motivation that can be awesome or lacking at times. It's really nice to see pictures too and you can definitely see a difference.

Also I'm SOOOOO going to copy you and construct a "Onderland" sign to hold up. I might even do one for when I officially go from obese to overweight BMI wise which I'm hoping is soon emoticon .

Thanks for the blog and the cool ideas laced within, it was emoticon

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CHARTHESTAR 9/10/2014 9:02PM

    Great blog-

A lot went on this past year even though the weight stayed pretty even. It takes a while to for all the weight to evening distribute it self after losing a significant amount.

I would say not to have a tummy tuck until you are where you want to be and have been there for at least a year. It is a lot to go through.

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SUPERKARA36 9/10/2014 8:30PM

    emoticon if you ask me, there's just room for vodka in that glass

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AJB121299 9/10/2014 6:48PM

    nice

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KILIKI 9/10/2014 4:37PM

    Excellent post! Thank you! emoticon

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TANGYTANGERINE 9/10/2014 1:07PM

    Well said, I have always loved the scenario of the glass being half full/half empty and have used it a couple of times for myself too. I have been fighting the good fight for a while and know I am winning. You and I sound alot alike in our attitudes. Keep up the great work!!

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MAGGIEROSEBOWL 9/10/2014 12:35PM

    Well said! I too am in this for the long haul. Do we have a choice if we want to stay at a normal size? I know I don't. I am really proud of the fact that after maintaining below 160 lbs. for 2.5 years, I have reversed a regain trend that happened in the 7 months between Thanksgiving last year and this June. I got as high as 182 lbs., when I joined my first Dietbet. I was afraid I was on my way back to 328 lbs., and seemed to have lost all control. Where was my weight-loss/maintenance mojo? GONE! But the Dietbet helped me get it back and I have lost 20 of the those 32 pounds I put back on. This loss definitely makes my glass feel half-full, even though I am still 3 pounds from my 160-lb. goal weight and 13 pounds from that 150-lbs. that I like to stay pretty close to. I know I can get there now, and no matter how long it takes, I can do it! It doesn't matter how long it takes, we are on the right path!

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WORDWOMAN7 9/10/2014 11:45AM

    You're doing well and you look great! Stay positive and keep up the good work.

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PACKERMANN 9/10/2014 10:25AM

    What TinaJane said! :)

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Disneyland, The Zoo & 25,000 Step Badge, OH MY!

Friday, September 05, 2014



Wednesday was just an all around amazing day! emoticon I could go on and on for hours about how Disneyland wasn't really crowded, we rode about 15 rides and our longest wait was a mere 30 minutes! We met lots of characters and we walked an amazing 9 miles! So the fun part isn't Spark related, but let me repeat, we walked 9 miles! Not only did we walk 9 miles, I came home and walked Sparky 1 1/2. Then I paced in my living room til I hit 25,000 steps! I got my first ever 25,000 step badge!



Not only did I earn that badge, but my knee has been swollen for weeks due to an arthritis flare up. A flare up like this would've completely prevented me from being able to walk. It was just so painful, it was impossible! But since losing this weight, my flare ups are tolerable, and I am actually able to remain quite active. I have my moments where I'm sore or uncomfortable, but I can still walk... and apparently walk all over Disneyland!

It's amazing how much added weight can impact us not only physically but mentally as well. Not once at Disneyland did I stop to think "am I going to fit into this ride?"... I never wondered if anyone was looking at me because I was fat, or mocking me. In fact, I never once thought what anyone else might have thought about me at all! It really is a new attitude and a way of life... and I am so glad I went. I didn't even once think about the fact I didn't reach my original Disneyland goal, and I didn't feel guilty about going to Disneyland. In the picture above, it is proof of how far I have come. Do I still have a ways to go? Yes. Do I want to achieve my goals? Absolutely. I have big plans and I want to get it done, but I am not going to feel guilty for enjoying myself now! I worked hard and I deserve to have a little fun, I just need to make sure that fun isn't surrounded by food! emoticon

I also went to the Zoo on Tuesday! We got up close and personal with a giraffe that came over to visit. It truly was a blast. My precious Billy was getting exercise in! I am really starting to believe the Zoo is trying. There were 2 trainers, and they would take turns throwing him food so he would walk back and forth and get some exercise in, that made me feel warm and fuzzy inside!

So the girl who never took pictures has been on a picture spree the last two days, so here's all 9 million photos! emoticon emoticon







^Thor was smokin' hot! emoticon




^Pluto's dog bed at Mickey's house!



^Sourdough Mickey bread!
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^My beautiful baby!

^Too bad the glass is grimy, this little cutie was giving me a big smile!

  
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MRSRIGS1 9/16/2014 7:42PM

    emoticon You look AMAZING!!! Love the pictures! I notice you smile in them now emoticon

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    emoticon emoticon on such emoticon progress. You look like you had an emoticon time and you totally deserved it!! emoticon also on those 25000 steps!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MARGARITTM 9/9/2014 8:59PM

    Congrats well deserved. Looks like a great vacation.

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HYATTI1 9/9/2014 11:16AM

    Congratulations, loved the pictures you look awesome. Keep up the good work.

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REBESANCON 9/9/2014 10:39AM

    Congrats on the 25,000 steps! That's an incredible achievement. emoticon

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LJCANNON 9/8/2014 11:36PM

    emoticon Thank You for sharing your Disney Journey! ! What a wonderful experience, and Congratulations on all of the NSV'S! !

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DIAMOND102 9/8/2014 11:22PM

    Terrific!!! and you look great. emoticon

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PJB145 9/8/2014 2:37PM

    You look happy and that says it all. Good for you.

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NHES220 9/8/2014 1:29PM

    You look great and you look so happy! Keep up the great job with the steps!

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    emoticon A really awesome job on the steps!

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CATHIMOMMY 9/8/2014 10:10AM

    You go girl! I love my FITBIT and the extra motivation to move it it inspires! Keep at it!

Have a great week,
Cathimommy

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MSFROGGIE 9/8/2014 8:23AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon You Look emoticon !!

Keep up the GREAT work!!!

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NHEMBERGER 9/8/2014 8:09AM

    Way to go!
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WRITERWANNAB 9/8/2014 12:10AM

    It sounds like a great time! I can't wait to go again myself. emoticon

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    Awesome and congrats to you, such an accomplishment. emoticon

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1STBUCKETITEM 9/7/2014 9:40PM

  So-o-o glad you were able to go to Disneyland! Isn't it great to see how your mental attitude is changing? You are well on the way to getting to your goals and when you get there you'll have what it takes to maintain them.... Positive Mental Attitude! Keep up the good work! emoticon
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AMBER461 9/7/2014 9:33PM

  Congrats, 25000 is very good. Thanks for sharing,

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    emoticon emoticon YOU ROCK!!!!

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SPARKLINGME176 9/7/2014 7:58PM

    I love, love love the photos!!!!
I use to go to Disneyland almost monthly. Walking 10-12 miles sure adds up fast! Right? I was able to eat VERY well there! The plaza has green salads, Fried chicken breast (I take off all the fat & skin) & for desert I had a frozen banana! Black coffee helped me through the long nights! I also brought an apple & a 100 calorie pack kettle popcorn from Trader joe's & sliced almonds! I was able to release weight & reach my goal doing this! AMAZING!

How did you eat there?
Sparkles,
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BEAUTY_WITHIN 9/7/2014 6:11PM

    Looks like you had a blast! Congrats on the steps!

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    emoticon Looks like you had fun and you look great.

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FRABBIT 9/7/2014 1:25PM

  Way to go on the 25,000 steps. All of these pictures show how happy you are! Congrats! So glad you had a fabulous time!

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AMYG5025 9/7/2014 12:54PM

    What an amazing smile, and congratulations on your 25,000 step badge! That is fantastic! Keep up the great work! emoticon

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LEESA-B 9/7/2014 12:54PM

  You're looking awesome! Congrats! I don't think I've EVER had a 25K step day.

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JUNEAU2010 9/7/2014 12:21PM

    The best part is your zillion dollar smile!

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AMYSYOKO 9/7/2014 11:27AM

  you are so special, thanks for sharing your wonderful day [and journey] with us

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MARYINFL2000 9/7/2014 8:51AM

  Way to go! Fun AND 25,000 steps in the same day....awesome! I also enjoyed your photos. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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VAINVT 9/7/2014 8:35AM

  What fun! Like fitting into rides, I remember the first time I walked into a clothing store and asked what I wanted rather than what would look OK.
A great feeling!

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TIME-4-TINA 9/7/2014 8:06AM

    So glad you had fun! and so glad you were able to enjoy it without being concerned about your weight. I remember going to Disneyworld when the kids were little. We went a couple times. Once we went 2 months after I gave birth to my daughter. So I was pretty out of shape. We spent 4 days at the parks. I was hot, sweaty, exhausted and sore. No fun for me. I'm sure you were much more comfortable this time. who did you go with?

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REALITYCHECK86 9/7/2014 3:46AM

    I'm so glad you got to do your trip! I had to get caught up on your blogs because I had taken a short break from spark, but I read them all because I love reading them. Reading about your hopes and fears always resonates with me. The pictures are wonderful too, you have an amazing smile! During my short break from spark I've managed to put some weight back on. Ever since I started Thyroid medications, my weight seems to have started creeping back up despite making several drastic dietary changes. Reading your blogs gives me hope and reminds me that so many things are possible. Congrats on making 25,000 steps! Keep Sparkin lady!
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JIBBIE49 9/7/2014 12:18AM

    I love going to Disney World.

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WOOFERCOALBOY 9/6/2014 11:35PM

    25,000 steps! WOW!

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SWAN47 9/6/2014 11:07PM

    emoticon 25,000 steps is something to be very proud of - keep it up...you look great!

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LIVELYGIRL2 9/6/2014 10:27PM

  We've been holding our breathe and waiting for your award and trip. How did your friend do, you mentioned before....

I'm so FREAKING PROUD of you girlfriend.

Even if you didn't put in 25,000 steps, you've come a long- lo----------ng way.

I wish I could give ya a hug.

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CICELY360 9/6/2014 9:31PM

  Good for you.

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emoticon for sharing your Disneyland and zoo experience in photos!
You look fabulous!
I went a very long time ago and remembered getting a Belgian waffle with a character imprinted in it. They really know how to entertain in all ways!
Keep up the great work! You got this!


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SIZE8NOTSOMUCH 9/6/2014 9:14PM

    Good for you. Looks like a ton of fun AND 25,000 steps, that's crazy!!!!
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Sometimes You Just Gotta Do It Yourself...

Wednesday, September 03, 2014




Weight loss journeys are not easy, we need all the support and accountability we can get! In an ideal world, everyone in your household would hop on board, eat the same foods you do, and walk hand in hand with you as you embark on this healthy journey! Some are lucky enough to have that support, but that isn't the case for everyone. I have always admired anyone who can lose this weight in a household where healthy eating isn't something everyone wants to agree to.

I live alone, so I am really responsible for just myself. I would say that it's a blessing and a curse at the same time. It truly is a blessing because there is no one bringing unhealthy food into the house, or suggesting that we go out to dinner. I have always been grateful not to have to deal with those temptations. On the flip side of that, I have no partner in crime if you will. I don't have someone to say "maybe we should stick to the healthy dinner we have planned" or "maybe we don't need to buy any ice cream, it doesn't go along with our goals." But I am not complaining about it lol, not having the partner in crime isn't as bad as having a saboteur that lives with you... so I will count my blessings. emoticon

I think that is why I tried so hard to "do this" with my coworker. I want to see her do well and I want to achieve my goals. Her and I are so much alike it's almost scary. We have both already lost a good amount of weight, and are at the home stretch of 20-40 pounds to go. But I notice how easily we can fall back into our old habits. I joke about rubbing off on her, because when I do bad it seems she does bad. I tell her that I don't want to "take her down with me" but she assures me she is making her own choices. I know that I am not some great and powerful Oz that can make others make unhealthy choices, and I never suggest she does the same as I do... but it did seem like we were often off track together.

When I look at the bigger picture, we have both had our ups and downs. She has been off track while I was on track and vice versa. I guess just some of our "down times" happened to align. emoticon Either way, we keep saying "we need to get back on track." While that's true, I am learning that we can't always wait for someone else. Not just me waiting for her, but her waiting for me as well. While it is so nice to have that person beside you, working towards the same goals you are, that isn't always going to be the case. We have to make our own decisions and we have to do the best we can each day.

So I need to stop sitting on the sidelines waiting for "us" to get it back together, I need to get myself back on track, and hope she comes along for the ride. I wouldn't even mind if she sprinted full speed ahead in front of me... because I want to see her reach her goals as well! emoticon

emoticon I also wanted to say that the support I receive on Spark is so amazing and it really does help keep me focused on what I want! I am not downplaying the "digital support" we get from this site, because it truly is inspiring. It is just that sometimes having someone by your side physically can really be that extra push... or anchor as the case my be! emoticon emoticon

With my new September "plan" in place, I am going to try to blog weekly with a recap. Let me warn you in advance, that means it's going to be a SNOOZEFEST! Who the heck wants to read how many days I was in my calorie range, tracked food or exercised?! NO ONE! LOL Not even me. ;) But I think bringing back some form of structured accountability will be important for me. Since I am not participating in any challenges here on Spark at the moment (Biggest Loser, Camp WannaBeFit, etc.), I think some structure would be helpful.

I hope everyone is having a great week! emoticon

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MRSRIGS1 9/15/2014 7:37PM

    You ARE emoticon

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BLUEANGEL2293 9/13/2014 1:05PM

    YOU are AWESOME

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ERABEL 9/7/2014 4:33PM

    emoticon I like reading your blogs because they are so straight forward and you tell it like it is. Thanks Steph-Knee

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MAYBER 9/6/2014 12:46PM

    Thank you for your inspirational blog much appreciated
One day at a time love prayers peace God Bless
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SHOAPIE 9/5/2014 11:18PM

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MARITIMER3 9/5/2014 8:17PM

    When it comes right down to it, we are each on our own journey. We can share parts of it, and it really helps to have friends to help, or who help us, along the way, but it's up to us in the end.

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WRITERWANNAB 9/5/2014 1:44AM

    Well said!

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JSEATTLE 9/5/2014 1:43AM

  I know what you mean! You have a good plan, which is a great start. 10-minute streaks are doable and will fit in well.

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JIBBIE49 9/5/2014 12:25AM

    Hugs

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LUVTOBOWL 9/4/2014 9:57PM

    emoticon And yes count your blessings...I have the household that eats everything except what I'm eating. I love them though.

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We are all here to help you!!!

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BLPRETTYGIRL1 9/4/2014 7:37PM

    emoticon and we are all here to read your blogs and help you all we can.

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GRLTAZ 9/4/2014 7:25PM

    You have the right idea. Sometimes you are in the lead and sometimes you are bringing up the rear but there is always adventure and new views so push on !

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PATRICIAANN46 9/4/2014 6:40PM

  How can you go wrong with that POSITIVE attitude..........You Go Girl!!!

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NONNAOF2 9/4/2014 3:16PM

  In the end, we are all accountable for our own actions, unfortunately! :-)

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GRANNIEC1 9/4/2014 2:47PM

    So not a snooze-fest! And I know I'm right just look at all the comments! I really enjoy reading everyone's blog. It lets me know I'm not out there alone trying to win this journey of weight loss and obtain good health.
It's a peak into some one else's life. Just normal people like me. Fighting the same demons and winning. Sometimes backsliding, but picking themselves up again and moving forward instead of giving up and just calling themselves a failure. Please don't ever think you're not affecting someone else...you motivate others by just being human. Thank you for sharing this part of yourself.

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WHYTEBROWN 9/4/2014 12:40PM

    I hope that you DO get back on track and provide that needed impetus for your coworker so that you both can get back to soaring. emoticon emoticon

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MCJOYFUL 9/4/2014 12:07PM

    Good for you for not waiting until someone else is ready to join you back on the journey. When I started on SparkPeople a few months back, I decided that I was doing this for me and was going to do it no matter what my husband did. As it turns out, my determination and success has motivated him to start eating better and getting fit.

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SIMONEKP 9/4/2014 11:47AM

    you got this!

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MOONGLOWSNANA 9/4/2014 11:25AM

  The words of your September song are healthy ones and sure to make a difference somewhere. I hope I hear the melody and harmony as I pass by and catch the rhythm so that I can repeat each stanza and enjoy the chorus. To Life! emoticon

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REDSPIRALWOMAN 9/4/2014 10:54AM

    Blog, blog, blog that 'snooze fest' The act of thinking, considering and then blogging it is a tremendous support and actually, examining the ins and outs in detail on Spark is the perfect place to do it, because we all understand the import of such details. And finally, do it just 'cause you want to! Yes mam!! emoticon emoticon

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LR26104 9/4/2014 10:28AM

    One of my co-workers has been trying to GAIN weight for months now. So as I eat my lunch of an apple and protein bar she is munching away on chips and peanut butter fudge. Now my mother always says we all have our crosses to bear but why can't mine be the one that involves eating peanut butter fudge for lunch?
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SIZE8NOTSOMUCH 9/4/2014 9:44AM

    Get'rdone!

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LCRUMLEY81 9/4/2014 9:25AM

  Thank you for reminding us

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SHERYLP461 9/4/2014 9:24AM

    Your attitude can only bring success

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HMBROWN1 9/4/2014 8:26AM

    You will do awesome! I hope to have a better Sept too!

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SCRAPBECCA 9/4/2014 8:11AM

    go Steph go! emoticon

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MALAMI518 9/4/2014 8:07AM

    I have never been bored by one of your blogs. Even if you are just posting stats for the week, it gives me something and inspires me.

I am glad that you are finding your way back! September has been good for me. I know that it's only been 3 days so far, but that's the longest "streak" I've had recently. I do feel better for it, and it is feeling like a routine already. I shouldn't have fought against it so hard. But, as you said, I had to make up my mind and do it on my own. Also, I'm taking things a little slowly and not trying to be so perfect.

Here's to a great September! I look forward to your weekly updates.

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BFLOGRL 9/4/2014 7:44AM

    Your comments won't be a "snooze-fest," as you say.

You're taking a risk and putting yourself out in the universe.

You look terrific, really healthy. Keep up the good work! I'll look forward to reading your blog.


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    TRUE emoticon emoticon

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DIANNEMT 9/4/2014 7:41AM

    I know you are going to make ti!!

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PENOWOK 9/4/2014 7:15AM

    You are so funny! I'll bet once you are back on track, she will join you!! You are so good at being honest and open, people can't help but want to be there too!

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LRSILVER 9/4/2014 7:06AM

    Stephanie you are doing great. I know you will succeed.

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BROOKLYN_BORN 9/4/2014 5:44AM

    Yes, we need both our real and virtual friends for support. There are studies that show that what and how much we eat is affected by those that we associate with.


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SUSIEMT 9/3/2014 10:48PM

    I know you can do this Stephanie. I'm rootin for you!

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