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Friday, January 04, 2013

I'm in a grumpy funk this morning so even though I got myself onto spark and it cheered me a bit to see some familiar faces around I decided not to post elsewhere. I'm just feeling like kind of an eeyore and figure no one needs more of that around! A lot of things in my life are going well but the small things that aren't have my mood all slanted.
So, mini goal this week for me is to work through some of my mental muck and try to get to a productive moving forward sort of head space.
Sending love to you all.

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SKYBLUEGIRL 1/4/2013 3:27PM

    It's ok - you can be grumpy. emoticon We will still be cheering you on out of the mental muck. Sometimes you just need to find your way back - before you can move on. emoticon emoticon

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STILLFLYIN 1/4/2013 2:43PM

    Everyone has crappy moods sometimes. Don't beat yourself up for it. We like you anyway and you will get past it when the time is right.
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Hello November

Friday, November 09, 2012

I feel bad about not being around spark much lately. Mr and I are still struggling with getting back into the normal life routine again and getting my computer space set up still isnt making the cut.
Yesterday I weeded and reseeded half our small back yard with "fluer de lawn" seed mix with the hopes that next year instead of a patch of weeds we might have a mini meadow with clover and wild flowers. It got rainy and I got burnt out on it mid day so the other half will have to wait for next week.
The second half of the day I finished up painting our second bedroom! This is huge because it's been sitting half done all through october and it wasn't just the walls but also the floor that needed to be painted. This is the room that will become our "office" so I'm hopeful than we can keep moving on it and get our computer zone settled finally.
I've been absolutely awful about most things health related. I'm in a bad dessert habit, havent seen the gym in months and am having trouble getting enough sleep, I wont look at the scale, it might not show any difference but I know better.. my only gold star is for using my bike a bit more despite the winter weather creeping in.
A lot of aspects of my life are going well but it's clear I've got a lot of thinking to do because the imbalances wont fix themselves and i already know I cant live like this.

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SKYBLUEGIRL 11/13/2012 9:38AM

    Focusing on one aspect of what you want to change has helped in the past and I know it can help again STELLAR! Cut back on the dessert OR get to the gym once this week OR make a point to get to bed early a couple of times this week. Don't look at it all at once - but break it down.The house and move was huge and working on that was what you had to do - plus it's fun! But we all know why we are here on Spark! Get healthy and get support to do that! Making some great friends along the way is another benefit! You can do it STELLAR! Just decide what the first step is and take it. emoticon

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SCRAPPINPOLLY 11/9/2012 9:58AM

    Just take it one day at a time. Sounds like you've had a lot on your plate.

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Time to get serious

Thursday, September 27, 2012

I very proud of myself for maintaining the weight I've lost for over a year. It's wonderful really! but I'm less than thrilled with my efforts to lose more.
Efforts may be the wrong word, because I know I haven't been committed to actually losing again in a long time. I spark, or I don't, I exercise.. some.. or not at all, I eat healthy.. or not and I read a fair amount about what works for other people. I am so grateful I found spark because I credit it with keeping me focused enough not to gain again. You all keep me coming back, keep me thinking about why I want this, keep me from writing off spark, or my body, or the importance of what we do here.
I'm going to spend today getting things done. Most of them having nothing to do with weight loss but tonight Mr and I will sit down and really talk about how we can live healthy. We have so many to live for.
I'm sure the dedication I feel just now will falter but if we can commit tonight our routine and our support net will keep us coming back.

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SKYBLUEGIRL 9/27/2012 7:57PM

    You should be proud of the weight loss you have maintained! emoticon That should be an encouragement to you. I totally understand the need to get back at it too. It's a battle for sure but not one that can't be won! You have been such an encouragement to many I only hope you can receive the same. You are here and you are Sparkin! We are all in this together! I hope you and the Mr. can get a few things in order that will work for you and towards living the healthy life that you deserve! emoticon emoticon

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DOTTY7267 9/27/2012 11:50AM

    emoticon You both will do well. Once you have placed the goals down, there is nothing that can stop you. There may be temporary setbacks, but no stopping. emoticon

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Where I'm at.

Sunday, July 01, 2012

I am officially done working six days a week!
whoo,I only did that for a month but it was rough. I actually will keep doing extra hours but now at least I have two days off each week. The days aren't next to each other and sadly I wont share either of them with my husband's weekend but we are able steal our moments together and the money is too good to turn down.
The house search continues, we are putting in a new offer tomorrow so we'll take any crossed fingers and good vibes that might be sent our way.
This week with celebrating both my returned personal freedom and our nations I'm hoping I can direct some of the extra time toward regrouping and catching up with all the things Ive been letting slide. I don't know yet if that is going to translate into being the spark team leader I'd like to be just yet but I am committed to getting back to it.
I have so much appreciation for the folks I know here on spark I could not forgive myself if I allow myself to melt away into the surf of inactive accounts.
I've still go a lot demanding my attention but I'm seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. Hope to be reaching it soon.

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STILLFLYIN 7/2/2012 11:33AM

    Touching base every so often for a while is fine and I'm glad you have been able to do so. I would think everyone on your teams would understand that life sometimes just becomes too full and the immediate needs overcome the want to do things.

I'm sending positive thoughts your way on the house.

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Shh, be very very quiet, I'm hunting

Sunday, June 17, 2012

House hunting in combination with extra shifts at work have got my spark attendance way down. Daily chores, social life, sleep habits, and my bank account are also suffering from the side effects.

This last week Mr and I finally got a chance to go into a place we've had our eye on for a long time! It is in a quiet neighbor hood but near to stores and buses, it was built as a home and a corner market so it has huge bonus rooms perfect for our crafting and it is even zoned so we could someday have a gallery in there someday! It has so much potential to meet all of our needs and many of our wants in a home.
The walk though was impressive, we are looking at the low end of the housing market and have been through a lot of junk properties. This place looked great, clean and livable, some things to work on but nothing too scary. We made an offer and the rest of the week has been a whirlwind of phone calls and paper work to get everything lined up for a smooth sale. We weren't nearly as ready as we had thought!
The inspection was Friday, and here is where the story turns. Yup, our heads were jerked out of the clouds because the house isn't solid or even finance-able. We are walking away, which is the smart decision but one that makes us very sad.

We've been working for years to get to a point where we could buy a home so when we found this space it felt like it was destined to be. After dreaming so hard about living there and scrambling all week to make this happen it is quite an adjustment to turn away and start hunting again.
What an emotional drain- but that's how buying a home is supposed to be isn't it?

The lemonade out of this particular lemon is that we are better prepared to move quickly on the next place we get excited about- and there will be a next place. The reality is that right now our entire lives including all our crafting are squashed into less than 500 sq feet so any home we find will feel spacious. We'll find something solid in a good location and make it ours.

Even through this last weeks stresses I'm pleased with most of my food choices. There were some incidents of "food coping" but not a spin out like I might have expected. Especially after the big disappointment I'm pleased that we didn't grab ice cream or pizza "to make dinner easy" on the way home (- perhaps a hidden benefit of the strained bank account?) We went to look at two new places this morning and could see our lives fitting in either of them almost as well. So there we are.
Wishing you all well in managing the challenges in your own lives. On we go.

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STILLFLYIN 6/19/2012 2:03PM

    You are not alone. My nephew went through a similar thing to you on the house. He just found and bought a house even better than the first! I'm hoping you have similar success.
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JUNEAU2010 6/17/2012 5:32PM

    I hope you find the perfect place very soon!

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