Friday, January 04, 2013
I'm in a grumpy funk this morning so even though I got myself onto spark and it cheered me a bit to see some familiar faces around I decided not to post elsewhere. I'm just feeling like kind of an eeyore and figure no one needs more of that around! A lot of things in my life are going well but the small things that aren't have my mood all slanted.
So, mini goal this week for me is to work through some of my mental muck and try to get to a productive moving forward sort of head space.
Sending love to you all.
Thursday, September 27, 2012
I very proud of myself for maintaining the weight I've lost for over a year. It's wonderful really! but I'm less than thrilled with my efforts to lose more.
Efforts may be the wrong word, because I know I haven't been committed to actually losing again in a long time. I spark, or I don't, I exercise.. some.. or not at all, I eat healthy.. or not and I read a fair amount about what works for other people. I am so grateful I found spark because I credit it with keeping me focused enough not to gain again. You all keep me coming back, keep me thinking about why I want this, keep me from writing off spark, or my body, or the importance of what we do here.
I'm going to spend today getting things done. Most of them having nothing to do with weight loss but tonight Mr and I will sit down and really talk about how we can live healthy. We have so many to live for.
I'm sure the dedication I feel just now will falter but if we can commit tonight our routine and our support net will keep us coming back.
Sunday, June 17, 2012
House hunting in combination with extra shifts at work have got my spark attendance way down. Daily chores, social life, sleep habits, and my bank account are also suffering from the side effects.
This last week Mr and I finally got a chance to go into a place we've had our eye on for a long time! It is in a quiet neighbor hood but near to stores and buses, it was built as a home and a corner market so it has huge bonus rooms perfect for our crafting and it is even zoned so we could someday have a gallery in there someday! It has so much potential to meet all of our needs and many of our wants in a home.
The walk though was impressive, we are looking at the low end of the housing market and have been through a lot of junk properties. This place looked great, clean and livable, some things to work on but nothing too scary. We made an offer and the rest of the week has been a whirlwind of phone calls and paper work to get everything lined up for a smooth sale. We weren't nearly as ready as we had thought!
The inspection was Friday, and here is where the story turns. Yup, our heads were jerked out of the clouds because the house isn't solid or even finance-able. We are walking away, which is the smart decision but one that makes us very sad.
We've been working for years to get to a point where we could buy a home so when we found this space it felt like it was destined to be. After dreaming so hard about living there and scrambling all week to make this happen it is quite an adjustment to turn away and start hunting again.
What an emotional drain- but that's how buying a home is supposed to be isn't it?
The lemonade out of this particular lemon is that we are better prepared to move quickly on the next place we get excited about- and there will be a next place. The reality is that right now our entire lives including all our crafting are squashed into less than 500 sq feet so any home we find will feel spacious. We'll find something solid in a good location and make it ours.
Even through this last weeks stresses I'm pleased with most of my food choices. There were some incidents of "food coping" but not a spin out like I might have expected. Especially after the big disappointment I'm pleased that we didn't grab ice cream or pizza "to make dinner easy" on the way home (- perhaps a hidden benefit of the strained bank account?) We went to look at two new places this morning and could see our lives fitting in either of them almost as well. So there we are.
Wishing you all well in managing the challenges in your own lives. On we go.
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