Saturday, May 04, 2013
I'm so grateful for SP :-). I'm so grateful for the energy and the evolution in the women I've met here! I feel so fortunate to be part of so much change and growth in my life and in the lives of all of you! Thank you, each of you, for the honesty and the openness you exhibit when you visit this site. It is the thing that keeps me on SP, that keeps me moving forward, that keeps me healing! I love where I am in my head and in my heart today. I love how my body feels right this moment.
I am whole today. I am healed today. And right this second...I am exactly the person I want to be.
Thank you SP! Thank you, Ladies. Thank you to The Source who put me here :-).
Friday, May 03, 2013
Today feels good. My life feels 'roomy'.
I sleep well now that I'm eating well. I am much more comfortable in my bed, a direct result of my body being smaller. Despite working seven days a week, eight to twelve hours a day, I get good rest and I feel alert throughout my day.
My clothes fit better. I look better in them. I like getting dressed in the morning knowing I'm not going to be uncomfortable all day long. I look in the mirror and I can smile at the woman looking back at me :-).
I am more focused now that the obsession with food has lifted. My mind is available again for the more important stuff in my life.
I have space to move and breathe and think and live. That is what abstinence gives me. What a gift!
Thursday, May 02, 2013
First, a huge thank you to all of you...really. On this site, I find courage and support and strength and comraderie. I run to the computer instead of the refrigerator. What a wonderful way to handle my life! You each amaze me. And in this place, with all of you, I am healed and I am saved:-). What a gift this SP is!!!!!
There has been a collective sigh at home. I find that uncertainty can often be harder than knowing the hardest truth. The uncertainty is gone and now, my wonderful man and I move toward dealing with our discovery. Time will tell, but at least we have a starting point from which to work. This helps me.
I know that as a result of what I'm doing here, as a result of RECOVERING, I have the presence I need to walk down this road with him. For today, food is not the answer. What a gift!!!
Wednesday, May 01, 2013
So there it was, last night, in the middle of the room, unearthed, for both of us to see. This thing that has shared our home and our relationship and our lives, all of this time. The thing around which we have slithered and slid for seven years...was suddenly hidden no more. It is BIG. It is REAL. It is HERE. And it can no longer be ignored. That's not to say it will be dealt with quickly or even successfully...but we shall NEVER AGAIN be able to act as if it does not exist. And despite the uncertainty surrounding its presence, its arrival IS progress. We both admitted to feeling better already, just seeing it...together...fully...out in the open.
I credit the clarity of abstinence for this revelation. I credit recovery for my acceptance of and surrender to its discovery. And I have faith that this too shall pass...
Today, I am taking care of myself :-). I shall be present for WHATEVER comes. Food is not my answer today! I could not possibly be more grateful for this reality.
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Today, I am incredibly grateful for SP. There is so very much happening in my life right now, on so many fronts. Changes and struggles I have not dealt with in such combination before, I am amazed that all of this can occur for one person, at once...lol. And yet, TODAY, I am free from compulsive eating. And THAT is a MIRACLE! Were it not for this program of recovery I work with all of you amazing and inspiring and wonderful and strong women, I would be eating every single doubt and fear and shred of uncertainty that has beat a path to my doorstep of late. I would be 19 pounds heavier, instead of 19 pounds lighter. I would be numb to the effects of all of this change, but I would also FAIL to be here for this experience. And isn't that why I'm here...why we're all here? I am not here to judge or anticipate or expect good or bad happenings; I am here to EXPERIENCE the thing that is right here before me in this moment. The haze of compulsive eating is gone. And good, bad or indifferent, I am experiencing...I am living...I am here...now. Today, I AM. And I love not having to finish that sentence. Abstinence permits me to simply, BE. I love it!
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