Thursday, August 15, 2013
Today was rough. I battled food thoughts all day and banished my inner superhero when they arose. I made a PURPOSEFUL decision to wallow. And that resulted in a very unwise dinner choice. I blew my calorie count out of the water today...all after 6:30pm.
Today, I gave in...I caved to uncertainty and frustration. The good news is...this is so different from the new life I live 99% of the time. This does not feel good. This is not where I want to wake up tomorrow. I have already begged The Blonde Bombshell to come back and issued a sincere apology for sending her away today.
I have been avoiding a particular calling of late...out of fear, embarrassment, doubt...or perhaps all three. But tonight I verbalized to Ray what's been going on inside of me and where I believe all of this awakening is leading me. I said it out loud to him and I'll say it out loud right here.
I am supposed to teach, to share, to lead the willing to the Light.
I actually do this already at the Soap Box, but with the prospect of that path coming to an end, I believe there is another path about to be revealed. One without a veil or a curtain covering the true intention of the Message. Soap is how I get them in the door...lolol. Then they get the light and love :-). Maybe it's time for the Light and Love to be at the forefront? I don't know. I actually have NO IDEA how this will be accomplished. But I also realize it's not my job to know...and it's not my job to accomplish it. To whom much is given, much shall be required... I have been given the keys to the Kingdom...as have we all. For me, this gift seems particularly acute. I do not believe that gift is to be wasted.
I practice 'doing not-doing' :-) I wait for the path to reveal itself. My job is to simply follow... And tonight, with tears in my eyes as I type, I accept and surrender...
I will stop fighting that direction. I will go where I am called, and I shall walk through whichever door opens.
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Today, I claim the purpose and power of my PRESENCE in this dimension.
My PATH is IMPERATIVE.
My WILLINGNESS is INFINITE.
My ABILITY is LIMITLESS.
My FAITH is IMMENSE.
My LOVE is UNCONDITIONAL!
I am READY...for WHATEVER comes!
Today, I accept and surrender :-).
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
I know who I am.
I know why I am here.
Because I know that about me, I know it about everyone.
And therein lies the answer to all of my questions.
Therein lies the ability to simply accept and surrender.
From there comes an abundance of peace and joy and love.
It was more so much more simple to awaken than I could have imagined, and It was inside of me the entire time.
I had to know that I did not know.
I had to see that I was blind.
I had to let go of the idea of self in order to discover my true Oneness and Identity.
The rest came in its appropriate time.
The Tao says:
In the pursuit of knowledge, every day something is added.
In the pursuit of wisdom, every day something is dropped.
Fly, fly away concepts, constructs and labels...fly, fly away... :-)
Burn it all down Firestar...burn it ALL to the ground!
Monday, August 12, 2013
Tonight, I am grateful for the FAITH I have in the inherent Wisdom of the Universe.
This faith permits me complete acceptance of and surrender to the way things are.
This gives me PEACE...a peace I cannot fathom.
It shields my JOY from the winds of change, that would seek to uproot its depths.
And it reinforces to me that LOVE is all I truly require, and the only thing of real worth I have to share.
Sunday, August 11, 2013
I have been recovering on Spark for four months :-).
I am GRATEFUL for this gift. I am GRATEFUL for YOU!
We are connected to one another and to our environment. Literally connected...really connected...as concretely as you are connected to the mouse, your chair, the ground...we are connected.
Spirituality has taught us this for centuries. Science is just beginning to prove this in the lab. I have know it for many years, simply as a result of my experience in this world. I can add SPARK to the list of experiences that have shown me, have PROVEN to me, our primal, literal connection to one another.
I could not do this without you. And I am grateful and humbled by your willingness to do it with me :-). Thank you SPARKERS. We are healing ourselves, we are healing each other, one expression of love at a time! :-)
I really, truly, infinitely LOVE YOU! :-)
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