Tuesday, June 18, 2013
I first have to say that I have hugged and kissed and squeezed Dawn Vlinder enough for the entire SPARKiverse :-). So for all of the instructions I received to 'hug Dawn for me', your wishes have been MORE than granted....lolol.
Seriously...she is LOVELY! That smile, that spirit, that energy you feel through the interwebs is for REAL!!! Meeting Dawn was like reuniting with a long lost Sister...my Sister indeed. I cried and I couldn't stop touching her and looking at her and being so grateful to have her with me. She is so very beautiful, inside and out! I hugged and kissed her DH and thanked him through tears for bringing her to me. Finally being with her in the real world was more than I could have hoped for and so much sweeter than I had imagined. I told her things I wanted to say to her face to face about the way she extended her hand to me on that first day I arrived in the Sparkisphere. She threw herself out to a stranger and pulled me from the depths of the pit I was in the day I showed up here. I know this is a relationship that I shall treasure for all the days of my life.
It reminds me of another relationship I am building with another woman. She has always been with me. She has guided me and saved me and talked me down from countless ledges during the tumult of the life I lived before I woke up in my early thirties. She has been a CONSTANT companion during the years since, while I rubbed oh, so much sleep from my eyes and stumbled along this this new road...learning about who I am...why I am here... what is real and what REALLY matters at the end of every day. She has ALWAYS loved me. She has ALWAYS wanted what was best for me. And she never EVER left me, even when I ignored her and overate to silence her and went against her better advice. That woman is the being I refer to as my higher self. She is the Divinity inside me...the part of me that is the Source...of all I am...and all I see and do not see...in this plane. I love her. I cannot stop looking at her. In every present moment, I wait for her wisdom to fill me and love me and save me. This relationship grows because my compulsive relationship with food has been put on pause by my daily willingness to recover:-).
Each and every day that I am willing to stop using food inappropriately, these amazing relationships grow. Don't even get me started on my DH...another day, another blog...but he and I had a weekend this past one, that reminded me of the days when we first met. No judgment, no attachment, no expectation of the other person...just the sheer gratitude that we had found one another and were falling in love.
I am grateful for SP...the people it has brought into my sphere...and the AMAZING connections I am forging as a result of my daily involvement here.
Thank you, Source! Thank you, Chris! Thank you SP! Thank you Dawn! And thank you to the One who has walked EVERY single step with me...my Lady from the Ledge!