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Thursday, November 11, 2010

It's not a coincidence. About a year ago I was being treated for an infection with a round of antibiotics. I noticed that most of my aches and pains that were caused by my lupus basically disappeared. I woke up in the morning, feeling spry, bouncy! I felt like I was ten years younger! I could barely contain my joy that I was "healed." Of course, after the cycle of pills was completed, a few days later, the aches and pains re-appeared. I thought it was a fluke, accepted the short-lived pain-free week and moved on. Not long after that, I had a kidney infection, received more antibiotics and felt the waves of relief again.

Yesterday, at the clinic (after I had a particular BAD reaction to Tramadol) I told the doctor that I believed I was getting a tooth infection and would like to be prescribed some Clindomycin or Erythromycin. (I really was, I wasn't lying just to get more meds!) I started the round of pills yesterday and today I am...


Well, ALMOST. But it's a definite improvement over how I've been feeling the last few weeks. So, this morning, I decided to investigate the possibility of there being a link between antibiotic treatments for lupus. So far, there IS! My specialist told me before that it is "suggested" that antibiotics help lupus but he is hesitant about long-term usage. But, according to The Road Back Foundation, "Thousands of patients have reported SUCCESSFULLY using antibiotics for conditions including rheumatoid arthritis, scleroderma, juvenile rheumatoid arthritis, LUPUS, dermatomyositis, ankylosing spondylitis, Lyme disease, Reiter's syndrome, mixed connective tissue disease, fibromyalgia and psoriatic arthritis. Results of an international survey of patients documented dramatic results including relief of pain, the lessening of swollen joints and an overall successful return of quality of life."


It's amazing! I need this!! Most people with lupus develop lots of infections anyways, especially strep and staph so it just makes sense to me that you would keep them on low-dose antibiotic treatment anyways, right?? Yeah! That's what I'm thinking!

Anyways, I'm going to whoop it up this week. I'm going to take my Erythromycin and clean my ceiling fans, do my hike tomorrow morning and just live it up. I'm going to pay Brian back for all the wedgies and "say UNCLE!S" he's given me, walk the dog, and just LIVE.

I think my doctor and I need to have a very long talk. In the meantime, I'm off to enjoy the great outdoors!

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GEEMAWEST 11/13/2010 9:06PM

    Interesting, very interesting. Let me know what your doctor says.

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ONEREALLYBIGDOG 11/13/2010 11:17AM

    That sounds like GREAT news!
I'm excited for you

I too have lots of aches and pains and have some medicine that helps but nothing that makes me feeling like tackling the world!

Enjoy getting even with Brian, and I might suggest that you

"get ahead of him" in the wedgies and "Uncle" routine LOL : )

just think of the fun you two will have

keep us informed as your progress
Enjoy your FUN filled weekend, make that week!

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DREMARGRL 11/12/2010 4:57PM

    emoticonHave a joyful weekend, gorgeous! Work and play hard. LIVE STRONG!!!!! XO MaryAnn emoticon

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PEGJOHN1997 11/12/2010 10:15AM

    Fantastic! I hope your doctor cooperates. Let me know how things turn out, I have an couple family members that could potentially be helped by this.

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CDAWN26 11/12/2010 9:02AM

    This sounds like a definite talk with the doctor. May you find the best soluntion for your discomfort. I'm all for getting anything to help to keep me moving. Hang in there! Have some fun and enjoy each day. Sending lots of love and hugs your way.

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JOOPRINCESS 11/12/2010 8:42AM

    Glad you're feeling better for now! Like others have said, don't overdo it! Easier said than done though, yes?


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LYNNEJ5 11/12/2010 1:56AM

    Hi Michelle
It is great to see you have your sense of humor back. I love reading your blogs when you are at the top of your game. I agree with all the other people who have commented. Enjoy the pain free weekend, but don't do too much and overdo it. I think you and your doctor need to sit down and have a talk and see if there isn't something you can come up with. I am sending you lots of gentle emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonand I feel sorry for Brian!!!!

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FLEMIDG 11/12/2010 12:04AM

    I am so glad you are back to your cheerful, funny self. Have a wonderful, pain-free weekend. Hope you can talk to your doctor and see what he can come up with for you. I feel sorry for Brian this weekend (lol).
God bless you. I'm sending you loads of gentle hugs and lots and lots of love.

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KATVHALE 11/11/2010 9:56PM

    It is unfortunate that is is only a temporary solution. My sister has RA and she gets steroid treatments which really give her cause to jump for joy but she can only get them like twice a year because of the long time results.... Auto Immune Diseases suck big time!

Enjoy your weekend and don't overdo it. Don't beat Brian up too bad. By the way, I love the pics of your dear vets!


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TRENTDREAMER 11/11/2010 8:05PM

    Glad to hear that you're feeling better :)

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DARLENEK04 11/11/2010 7:21PM

  Blessings honey, I am thankful you have figured out what
is helping your condition be less painful...
I havent noticed taking antibiotics helps my arthritis
but now that you have rung my bell, I will be keeping an
eye on the next infection to see if there is relief. I
can't take any more statins or arthritis drugs because of
the kidney problems. That is what caused my kidney problems
in the first place.

By the way puddin, I am sending you an email to read and
get your opinion on.....ok?


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OLDERDANDRT 11/11/2010 6:58PM

    Here's to hoping this is your magic spell with no side effects!!!! (Sorry, I watch too much Charmed)!
Have a great time outdoors and be careful not to overdo.....decreasing one problem you don't need to create any new ones!! Right?
emoticonand prayers for you !! Feel good, be well, have fun!!!

Get Brian with a super sneak attack wedgie!!!! THAT will be fun!!! hehe

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THEMIGHTYLEX 11/11/2010 6:21PM

    That is such wonderful news... I know it's not a permanent solution, but I'm ecstatic that you can have some relief from pain, and that many other lupus sufferers may have another tool to help them as well!!!

Lots of painless hugs to you!!!1
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ELYMWX 11/11/2010 5:29PM

    Awesome! Hopefully you and your doc can work something out...

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CARTOONB 11/11/2010 4:53PM

    Wow!! I hope that this is a real solution for you!! Long-term antibiotics is not something to take lightly, so enjoy this week and then discuss with your doctor. Good luck!!!!

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PJSTIME 11/11/2010 4:21PM

    I'm glad you are feeling better and think Brian probably does deserve that wedgie. I kind of agree with the SP person who is talking about priobiotics I was on antibiotics earlier this year for HPyloria bacteria infection and my stomach is still dealing me fits but the priobiotics seem to be helping.

Have a great weekend and enjoy feeling better. LOOK OUT BRIAN.

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STAYCXL-NOMORE 11/11/2010 3:48PM

    Great Blog your energy inspires me , to clean my fans !!! LOL not that really but glad your feeling better !! Enjoy the outdoors !

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BKNOCK 11/11/2010 3:25PM

    Wow, I love hearing the energy in your words! I hope that this "spell" lasts you for a long time. Tell your doc you really want to enjoy that family Christmas this year and to give you more!

Take care and have fun on that hike. It is so beautiful here!

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STARPESCADO 11/11/2010 3:11PM

    Hey Sweety,

I tend to get infections a lot and once had MAJOR problems with my teeth. Well, I have really bad teeth in general. Anyway, I had a root canal that got infected, took Clindomycin. Then right after had wisdom teeth out. They were coming in through my gums and sideways at that. Took Clindomycin.
A month later got an infection in gallbladder and took Clindomycin. I got a life threatening infection from over use of the antibiotic.
If you use Clindomycin, make sure to replace the "good bacteria" by eating yogurt and when you are done take probiotics.
I know everyone is different but I have a friend who had the same thing happen.
Right now I am taking a different antibiotic and its making me feel like a zombie!
Anyway, I am glad you are feeling better and am sending many blessings your way!

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CALIMAN1 11/11/2010 2:56PM

    That is pretty awesome news youngun! The great outdoors missed you, I'm Brian is the wedgie master is he???? Oh, I am thinking you should give him a super wedgie this week.....have a wonderful rambunctious week my friend...may God continue to bless and keep you..... emoticon

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HUZZAH39 11/11/2010 2:55PM

    Michelle, YOU are amazing!!!!! You sound so enthusiastic and game for life. I hope you have some really enjoyable times and that when the antibiotic round is over that you will remain pain free. I do hope that your doctor can give you some wise treatments in the days ahead. I will pray that God heals you completely. It is pure joy to hear you happy and energetic..... emoticon

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MAKEROOM4ME 11/11/2010 2:41PM

    Michelle, I am sorry to hear of your illness, but I am very happy to see that the antibiotics are doing Amazing things for you, mostly that you are full of energy. I pray you have a wonderful week/end ... and many more.

You are always in my prayers.

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AWOLF24 11/11/2010 2:14PM

    Wow - I'm glad you found something that helps and hope you and your doctor can work something out to make you feel better long term. In the meantime - definitely live it up!!!!!!!!!!! ENJOY!

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 11/11/2010 2:00PM

    When i read your blogs about having Lupus, I did some reading online to try to understand what it was. One of the things I read was that it's believed to be an infection in the nervous system. I didn't know if that was true but now, reading your blog it makes me stop and think. Isn't that interesting? I'm sure not a medically educated person but it does seem to add up. Wouldn't that be lovely if that was a solution?! Keep us posted!

And, give Brian a wedgie from me. Some how, being raised with a bunch of brothers, I have a feeling he might deserve it! (giggles)


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KAILYNSTAR 11/11/2010 1:50PM

    I know of a lady that is on a low dose of (microbid?). She seems to always get a bladder infection and that this helped her in the long run.

Definitely have that talk with the doctor.

Enjoy your days of feeling good!

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    Wow, that's great to know. It would seem like the doc would let you have a certain kind of antibiotic and then switch it with another so it doesn't become ineffective, as I've read can happen when you're on any one kind for too long or often. I've read that garlic is like an antibiotic, so I wonder if you could check into that too -experiment with it perhaps, at least 'til you get to see your doc? Just a thought that came to me.
Yes, thoroughly enjoy this pain free time of yours!

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ANNAMARIE1958 11/11/2010 1:43PM

    well...what ever it is making you feel good never know what tomorrow is going to back is a real out Brian!

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JILLWILSON2102 11/11/2010 1:11PM

    There are a lot of chronic health issues that recommend low-dose maintenance antibiotics. It is great that you have recognized the connection and I agree 100% that you and your doc need to have a heart to heart! In the meantime, feeling good is GOOD! emoticon

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    Michelle! I hope this lasts a while! How sad that you have to wait to be "sick" and be treated with antibiotics to feel better with the Lupus!

Have you heard anything about becoming immune should you take the antibiotics? Maybe that is one reason they're being so cautious? I know almost nothing about Lupus, so I'm just guessing.

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AZCUPCAKE 11/11/2010 12:56PM

    Oh Michelle, I am SO HAPPY to hear that your meds seem to be the ticket you have needed!!! No one can understand what it is like to be in chronic pain until it happens to them, and to have even a few days of freedom from pain is a feeling like no other. I certainly hope and pray that there is some way for you to continue using the antibiotics that help you without jeopardizing your long-term well-being. You are just the person to broach the subject to your doctor, and give your doctor some perspective on how these meds help you!! If ANYONE can voice an eloquent and descriptive opinion regarding a very important health topic, it would be YOU! emoticon

Sending you lots of hugs and prayers that your treatment continues to let you live your life, enjoy your hikes and your dog walks (SUPER important!!!), and just give you the freedom to be the SUPER-MICHELLE that you are every day! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LMB-ESQ 11/11/2010 12:54PM

    Tramadol? That's what you were taking? That's what I gave my dog when she was having post-surgery pain.

So what's the problem? There's a pain relief solution and the doc won't let you do it? Time to ask for a second opinion I think. This is why I really hate the medical establishment. I feel fortunate that I don't have chronic problems that keep me in doctors' offices. I really feel for you Michelle, having to deal with chronic health issues.

On the other hand, I can't really blame the doctors. After all, it is my chosen profession (sorry!) that has made everyone so fearful of being sued. Rest assured though, that is NOT the kind of law I want to practice! Medical malpractice, on either side **shudder**

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Animal House!

Friday, November 05, 2010

Last Friday I was sitting in my car just outside of Beanie's parking garage below her dorm, waiting for her to join me for the weekend. Imagine my joy when I saw her little beautiful face peek from around the corner wall and give me a huge smile. Then it disappeared and suddenly a large laundry bag came flying from the shadows. Smiling, I jumped out of my car and before I could get there, another landed with a thud beside it. Before I made it there, all-in-all, there were four laundry bags, a backpack, make-up bag, laptop, two purses and no Beanie. She had ran upstairs to grab her SUITCASE.

We were ten minutes down the road and she wanted to stop at McDonalds. Poor thing must have been hungry because she ordered the Big Mac Meal, an extra fry and a McFlurry. We were so excited to be with one another, that we hugged every five minutes and were constantly cutting off each other's sentences. By the time we arrived home, our cheeks hurt from laughing and we didn't feel like lugging her belongings inside.

She is so incredibly funny, witty and full of life. I expected her to crash on her bed and sleep the three days she was here, but she didn't. She did not want to run around with her hometown friends, but stayed right here with me and her Dad. One of the first things she wanted to do the first evening she was home was watch a scary movie since it was Halloween. We chose Jeepers Creepers and stayed up to watch BOTH of them. In case you don't know what Jeepers Creepers is about, it's about a man/beast who only comes out every 23 years to "feed." It eats unsuspecting people who has a body part it can use...stupid, I know, but it really was quite entertaining with Beanie's narratives along the way. At one point, there was a bus full of high school football players the beast was targeting and she shouted, "Look, Mom, MEALS ON WHEELS!" Brian had to get up from bed and tell us to pipe down and "Act your ages!" AS IF! Needless to say, the next morning the front room looked like the aftermath of a college party. Popcorn bags, diet soda cans, socks draping the furniture and drool spots on the couch cushions where we both fell asleep the night before. I woke up to her big toe touching the tip of my nose.

The next day we went shopping. We bought a butt-load of snacks and things that we didn't need. I still don't know why we bought the muscle-man magazine (cough, cough) but it's hid under my dresser for the next time she comes down. Brian was on to us when we walked in the door and he kept looking at the rectangle bulge in the front of my shirt. Because we couldn't stop giggling, he stayed with us so I had to make a mad dash to hide it before he found out! I made her favorite that day...chicken fajitas with extra cheese, just the way she likes them. Then it was another long night of movies, girl talk, Brian telling us to pipe down and stiff necks on the couch.

Did Brian get to spend time with her?? Yes. He got a few hours with her while he took her to his mother's for a little while. But that was all. She was mostly all mine!! :)

Sunday afternoon was sobering. We packed up her clean laundry and new things she had acquired since being home. She left with twice as much as what she came with. Once on campus, we made three trips up the three flight of stairs and I helped her unpack. Her room looked like it had been ransacked and I looked at her in surprise and fear...but no, it was just where she had not cleaned it...since she has been there. The Sun Chips bag I left there the last time I came to visit was still lying on her printer untouched.

She'll be back in another couple of weeks. I'm pleasantly surprised by how our relationship has changed...she will always be my little girl, but she just seems so grown-up now. We found ourselves having some really cool adult conversations while she was home. I'm SO PROUD of her (all "A's" and one "B" in her college classes)...and I can't wait until she comes again.

I may even share her with Brian this time!

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JDTHUMPER 11/9/2010 3:23PM

    So glad you had a great time with your daughter. So much fun in one weekend!!

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MINENA1 11/9/2010 2:45PM

    Aww! That's SO awesome that yall have such a close relationship like that. I love it! I hope me & my daughter are just like yall when she gets older. Glad yall had a fabulous time together.

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JUNIAATROME 11/9/2010 3:39AM

    See that's the trouble when you go and pick them up. You have no idea where all those clothes come from (most certainly they complain all the time they have NOTHING to wear). I found a cure though. Let them come by train and the luggage shrinks to one bag and computer back-pack... But I'm glad you had fun.

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AZCUPCAKE 11/8/2010 1:36PM

    Oh, oh, oh -- how I LOVED reading about your weekend escapades with your darling Beanie!! I had a lump in MY throat as you described packing her back up to go back to school.... emoticon BUT she will return, and you have so much to look forward to. Lucky Beanie, lucky YOU!!! She is one smart cookie who is going to continue to AMAZE and ASTOUND you -- best part is, her heart, mind and soul are a clear reflection of your own! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CDAWN26 11/6/2010 7:55PM

    It definitely sounds like a fun weekend to catch up! I know it goes by so quickly.

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TRENTDREAMER 11/6/2010 6:26AM

    "She is so incredibly funny, witty and full of life. I expected her to crash on her bed and sleep the three days she was here, but she didn't. "
* That's what skipping classes is for

"Jeepers Creepers is about, it's about a man/beast who only comes out every 23 years to "feed." It eats unsuspecting people who has a body part it can use..."
* Kind of like me if you replace
A) "years" with "minutes"
B) "unsuspecting can use" with "chocolate"

"At one point, there was a bus full of high school football players the beast was targeting and she shouted, "Look, Mom, MEALS ON WHEELS!""
* geez. And here I thought that only guys said that about women roller-skating. I need more female rlfs (real-life friends) to clue me in on this kind of stuff.

"..she will always be my little girl, but she just seems so grown-up now. We found ourselves having some really cool adult conversations while she was home. "
* It was weird for me how after a year and a half of college. 19 years of stuff that my dad had always said that didn't make sense suddenly did.

".and I can't wait until she comes again. "
* If you thought it was tough for you when she left for college. Imagine her poor campus when she graduates.

Glad you had a great weekend!!

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CHERIRIDDELL 11/6/2010 12:36AM

    What a wonderful blog this made my night!Bre sounds like such a lovely girl! I hope you are feeling much better .Just think of all the fun you will have when Bre visits again that is bound to perk you up!!!

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LIZZYP609 11/6/2010 12:04AM

    OH NO you Won't share her with Brian! LOL How great is that to have that kind of mother-daughter relationship! I could only pray that in another 10-12 years my daughter and I can do that (she is 7 :-)) Thanks for sharing your weekend with us!

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FLEMIDG 11/5/2010 11:46PM

    What a wonderful blog. I'm so glad you got to spend all that time with your daughter, in between doing laundry of course. It is amazing how our kids change once they grow up and get away from home for a while isn't it. I'm a little jealous of you because I don't have a daughter to spend time with, but I am lucky to be able to spend time with some of my boys, and they are great to be around too. Don't let Brian find that magazine. Have a wonderful weekend. God bless you.

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CARTOONB 11/5/2010 10:53PM

    No you won't! Share her that is! LOL! I'm glad to hear that you two got along so well. Hope you continue to do so!!! And hope the next few weeks fly by so you can see her again.

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PJSTIME 11/5/2010 9:00PM

    That sounds like an awesome weekend and It is so wonderful that you can relate to each other and have fun. She must be quite a young lady. I'm very jealous you know your relationship is so great with your daughter. Enjoy every minute, but let Brian have some fun too besides just telling you two to pipe down:)

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GEEMAWEST 11/5/2010 8:09PM

    How sweet. I know what you mean about how the relationship changes, but in a good way. I have some of the best talks with my youngest daughter when we are able to get together. Christmas won't be here soon enough.

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BKNOCK 11/5/2010 7:59PM

    Sounds like great fun! I am so happy to hear how great she is doing in school too! She is one smart cookie!

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DARLENEK04 11/5/2010 5:16PM

  Tell Bree hello when you talk with her next and tell we enjoyed reading about
you two and your escapades. I have that kind of relationship with my son, we
are great friends and have a blast, but my daughter has always tried to tell
me what to do and when to do it. It is just her nature and she is a control nut.
LOL.....but she is a great person in her own right............
Thanks for sharing your visit....

PS: You can have the scary movies.....LOL.....and you said something about
buying an educational magazine? right???????????????????????
>snicker, lol, grin

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OLDERDANDRT 11/5/2010 4:31PM

    Isn't great when we get to be friends with the kids we used to pull out hair out while trying to raise them??? My DD is going to be 30 this year (in a few weeks!) We are very good friends and have tons of fun together!! I'm so glad I didn't create a monster that can't stand me. She is my rock!! And best friend.
Brian better plan his time and stuff better next time so he might get a chance to enjoy his little girl b/c daily, that little girl is becoming her own woman. (But will really always be daddy's little girl......our DD is!)hehe!
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MUSTANG_SALLY2 11/5/2010 4:11PM

    Oh! I loved reading about your mother/daughter weekend. I'm so glad you got to spend time together. And, (clears throat) can i see the muscle mag??? LOL

what a great weekend! I miss those times with my mom. Maybe I can con her into a girls' outing when I go home again.


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HOT4FITNESS 11/5/2010 3:38PM

    What a special weekend!! Can't wait to read the posts abouth the next visit!

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CALIMAN1 11/5/2010 3:05PM

    Sounds like an awesome time....and it is amazing when all of a sudden, they are not only our kids, but oddly, our friends, and, dare to think it, our peers....

The fact that you love and respect your baby so much shows the influence that you and Brian had on her....and look how well she is doing! And, look how well YOU are doing.

I think she brought you up right! Jeepers Creepers???? and brave, too!

Love ya, sis...

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BLAKBIRD 11/5/2010 3:03PM


What a great way to spend a weekend.



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ANNAMARIE1958 11/5/2010 3:00PM

    You are so blessed to have such a beautiful daughter and a wonderful relationship with her. I'm blessed too with my boys...don't know what I would do with out them!

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DKELLEY35 11/5/2010 2:54PM

    Sounds like you had a wonderful weekend. Your very lucky.

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KEKEIKO 11/5/2010 2:38PM

    You're so fortunate to have a special bond with your daughter. She's blessed to have an incredible mother. No wonder she wanted to chill with her mom and have a wonderful time. Keep on making those wonderful memories to look back on in the future. Hugs, Keke

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KATVHALE 11/5/2010 2:29PM

    Awwww, you two had such a great time together and I am glad that you shared it with us. God has truly blessed you with wonderful, loving children and a great husband.

God didn't bless me with children of my own but He has blessed me in other ways. It pleases me to read and hear about others and their relationships with their children.

Love ya,


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BIKERBABE2BE 11/5/2010 2:20PM

    I'm so glad you had such fun. Sounds like the kind of weekend I'd love. Take care and rest up this weekend!!! emoticon

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AWOLF24 11/5/2010 2:12PM

    Awwww....what a great blog! I'm so glad you had so much fun and have such a wonderful daughter! HUGE credit to you for raising her to be that way!

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    Oh, how I loved this blog! A relationship with one's daughter is one of the greatest blessings God ever bestowed! I'm sorry I'm in a hurry and can't say more! Inlaws and daughter coming! emoticon

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LMB-ESQ 11/5/2010 2:07PM

    What a great weekend!! And what a far cry your kid is from mine! Mine comes home and disappears. He visits for awhile, goes to see Grandma, and the rest of the time he's out with his friends. I have to schedule a date just to have dinner with him! And the last time he was home, he stood me up!

Oh well, the story of growing up. At least he does his own laundry! (cough, cough)

And this is my last post of the day before I head out the door to spend the weekend in ... drum roll please... Athens!

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To All Of My SparkFriends...

Wednesday, November 03, 2010

The outpouring of love and support here on Spark is unbelievable. I happen to think that I have the BEST SparkFriends on this site. How I got to be so lucky I'll never question. I am so thankful for all of the words of awesome encouragement and the outpouring of support and prayer I've received over the last few days. It's overwhelming and an incredibly touching. If having incredible people surrounding you makes you rich, then I am the richest person in the world.

I'm going to try to get on and Spark a little each day until I feel up to par. I still feel a little yucky but I'm sure the pain in my butt illness is on its way down the road. So, before you know it, you'll be seeing my face on your pages with a smart-aleck comment and a hug in no time. But I want to thank everyone who has blessed me with their words, the Goodies, the comments, the uplifting spirit of love that you all have given me. I will do my best to thank you individually in time but wanted you all to know right now that it has made me feel so happy to know that I am part of the greatest circle of pals in the world. You can't get that anywhere else.

So, once I get myself together, I will blog and tell you how much "trouble" my daughter and I got into while she was home last weekend! We had a blast and we're already making plans to tear up the town when she gets home in another few short weeks from now.

God bless you ALL, dear friends. Each and every one of you has this big place in my heart. If I could give you all a big hug in person, I so would.

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ONEREALLYBIGDOG 11/10/2010 10:28PM

    You and Bre in trouble?

Sounds like I'll be seeing your pictures on one of those Wal-Mart Shoppers emails that go around from time to time, LOL

But Bre probably would be seen in W/M anymore after being at those big city stores in college


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LAVENDERLILY 11/5/2010 12:45AM

    Glad you are feeling better and I am looking forward to your future blogs.

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BLAKBIRD 11/4/2010 6:03PM


We miss your blogs, and feed updates, and can't wait until you're well enough to spill the beans on your recent activities - On the other hand PLEASE focus your energies on getting better.

xx (( hugs )) xx

PS. Will you quit bring tears to my eye's.

No matter what you write it's either full of emotion or you have my ROTFTSDMF

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 11/4/2010 3:47PM

    I've never known anyone who struggled with Lupus and I don't know very much about it. It sure doesn't sound like much fun! emoticon

I'm thinking of you and wishing you well. Hang in there sister! Sending loads of hugs. Please take care of yourself!

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AZCUPCAKE 11/4/2010 2:21PM

    You are the toughest, sweetest thing in human form, and I am so blessed to call you my friend. I hope you are feeling better every day -- those tiny increments add up to inches, feet and yards, but you can't rush it!! Please continue to take ultra-great care of yourself, and know you are LOVED!!!!! Hugs and prayers winging their way to you now and always!!!! But ESPECIALLY now!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
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KAILYNSTAR 11/4/2010 12:36PM

    Nice to know that you are feeling a bit better.

Still sending good thoughts and pausing for prayer for you.


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LYNNEJ5 11/4/2010 5:14AM

    Glad to hear you are feeling a little better. I'm like everyone else miss those entertaining blogs! Be good to yourself, you deserve it. You are in my thoughts and prayers. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonThere is a weeks worth of hugs for you. Love and God Bless Lynne

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CHERIRIDDELL 11/4/2010 12:57AM

    Take care of yourself we are all pulling for you to be feeling better and we look forward to hearing what you and Breanne got up to ! Hugs and get well wishes ,Cheri

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FLEMIDG 11/3/2010 11:51PM

    I so look forward to when you're feeling at your best again and can send all those wonderfully funny blogs. So glad you had a great time with your daughter. I'm looking forward to hearing all about it. Take care of yourself. God bless you. Lots and lots of love coming your way.


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GEEMAWEST 11/3/2010 11:18PM

    Ditto - What Barb said. emoticon

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CARTOONB 11/3/2010 10:07PM

    Hmmmm....daughter comes home and you get sick. Coincidence? I hope so! emoticon emoticon

Keep feeling better. I'll save you a spot on my page for that smart-alecky remark!

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TRENTDREAMER 11/3/2010 9:22PM

    "I'm going to try to get on and Spark a little each day until I feel up to par. I still feel a little yucky but I'm sure the pain in my butt illness is on its way down the road. "
* Hope that you feel better soon.

"God bless you ALL, dear friends. Each and every one of you has this big place in my heart. If I could give you all a big hug in person, I so would. "
* And we'd give you one right back

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DARLENEK04 11/3/2010 9:15PM

  Hey Babygirl,
Glad you are feeling more like yourself daily. I can hear the feisty
little scamp I love so much peeking back out.....

Seriously, take care of yourself and don't rush anything. I am praying
and I have asked others to pray for you also.....

Much love and standing on the Word for your healing....

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DONGR8NCHARNC 11/3/2010 8:51PM

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Glad you're feeling better! You've got so many friends because you are such a great friend.

Gentle hugs and many blessings to you,
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PEGJOHN1997 11/3/2010 6:30PM

    I'm glad you are feeling better then your earlier blog, still going to keep you in my prayers

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NANALD 11/3/2010 6:16PM

    I am so glad to hear you are feeling better! The wolf is just no match for you!! Take care! emoticon

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OLDERDANDRT 11/3/2010 5:55PM

    You are such a sweetie!! What's not to love???

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Glad you're feeling well enough to have posted and that you will be back to normal real soon!!

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STAYCXL-NOMORE 11/3/2010 3:41PM

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THEMIGHTYLEX 11/3/2010 2:45PM

    You are an amazing person and we are all enriched by your generosity of spirit! Looking forward to hearing about your exploits, and wishing the best for you and your family.


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TASOGAREBAN 11/3/2010 2:39PM

    Awww hugs backatcha lady!

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KATVHALE 11/3/2010 2:01PM

    Michelle you are so easy to love because of your sweet spirit and your overall love for your fellow human beings! I agree about all these great spark friends because I feel the same way about the wonderful friends I have made here.

You keeping resting and taking care of yourself and we will standby waiting to here about all those antics you and Beanie got into!

We love you!


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BKNOCK 11/3/2010 1:53PM

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Hugs right back at you! I am so happy to hear that you are starting to feel better!

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MOMFAN 11/3/2010 1:47PM

    Hugs and prayers, hope you feel better soon!

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    You only get what you deserve, dear friend! You are an awesome SparkFriend, yourself! A precious friend! emoticon

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JILLWILSON2102 11/3/2010 1:42PM

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PJSTIME 11/3/2010 1:32PM

    So glad to hear you are on the mend. Can't wait to hear from you again.

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    Glad to see you feeling a bit better to blog. Keep getting strong.

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Sending medical, sunshine, hot soup and hugs.

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FLY0NTHEWAL1 11/3/2010 1:20PM

    You know I love reading your blogs, they are so full of positivity and reflection even when you are feeling down. You're truly one of those beautiful inside-and-out people.
Much love and luck!

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ANNAMARIE1958 11/3/2010 1:19PM

    Glad you'r feeling a little better..I just read your other blogs and now I know why I haven't heard from you.....I will pray for you ...It will take time but you will get back to your old...oops I mean your self again... Take care Honey!
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DREMARGRL 11/3/2010 1:06PM

    So happy to hear you're feeling much better! It's great that you have such a good relationship with your daughter. That makes life so worth it! Have a lovely day. emoticon right back at you, beautiful. XO MaryAnn

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Glad you are on the road to recovery.

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HOT4FITNESS 11/3/2010 12:59PM

    You are one of the greatest!!! Can't wait to see you around more and look forward tofuture blogs.

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Walking on Freakin' Cloud Nine!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

It just keeps getting better and better these days! I am so excited that Breanna is coming home for the weekend and I could absolutely burst! I've been busy today cleaning house, doing laundry, making sure the refrigerator is full of her favorite foods and putting cool posters up on her wall. But I received an email from her just a little bit ago that just made me go over the top. Recently, she has been working on an essay for her English class and it could be a topic of her choice. She chose the topic of how the prison system's rehabilitation efforts aren't very effective according to the high re-entry rates. I've noticed the trend in her thinking for the last two years concerning the criminal law system and I was astonished, yet again, at the clarity of thought she has given to this subject.

But the last line of her email had me jumping excitedly from my chair....

"I AM REALLY thinking about going for a criminal justice degree, Mom. I'm starting it in Spring Quarter." OH! The Powers that Be HAVE to be feeling the waves of joy off of my freakin' aura right now! I think this is IT!! A mom just KNOWS, ya know??

She's always been interested in criminal law. Maybe it all started when she was nine-years old and we received her school pictures in the neat little white envelope they always come in. We had ordered quite a bit but we had so many family members who wanted a picture of her, Brian and I decided to take them to Zip Systems to get copies made. She stomped her little foot down and said, "YOU CAN'T DO THAT!" After Brian and I looked at one another in surprise, I asked her why NOT. She said, "BECAUSE, Mom, it's against the law to do that and you have to order more from the SCHOOL! That's robbery!" LOL! (Needless to say we DID get more from the school and decided not to pursue our desire to be fugitives from the law.)

She has told me recently that college has shown her more and more every day what she wants out of her life. She wants to do well, to make the Dean's List, to excel beyond excelling. She took a walk on the bike path at OU a few weeks ago, amidst the campus parties and the loud whoops of evening campus life. She said she saw a lady, strolling peacefully, walking her dog, and it struck a nerve in her. She told me, "Mom, I want that. I want to know at the end of every day that I have helped someone, that I have touched a life, and maybe even changed a life for the good. I want a simple life for myself. Just a simple, calm and peaceful life."

Oh, my dear sweet girl, that's what I want for you, too. And if I know my daughter like I think I do, that's exactly what she's going to do for herself.

I've never been more proud!

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CHERIRIDDELL 11/1/2010 11:15PM

    What a lovely blog Breanna is a daughter to be proud of but I am not really surprised she has a wonderful MUM!

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IAM_HIS2 10/29/2010 7:23PM

    Wow, what a beautiful gift from your love, patience and guidance as a mother. God blessed both of you. May I ask if you give parenting classes or answer questions? God knows how much help I sure do need!!!!!!!!!!!!

Enjoy every second of your visit with her. That deep burning love for justice is so lacking in our world...your daughter will be an answer to many prayers one day. May she be abundantly blessed by the Holy Spirit.

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AZCUPCAKE 10/29/2010 7:10PM

    I have JUST THE BOY for Breanna to meet....BUT he lives in Phoenix and has red hair (auburn, not orange!), plays a mean saxophone, is so so SO sweet, and is ONLY one year younger than she is!!!! Oh, AND his name is Bill. Yes, I know - I am very selfish....! emoticon

You have the BEST DAUGHTER!!!!!! emoticon Breanna has the BEST MOM!!!!!! emoticon

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PEGJOHN1997 10/29/2010 6:12PM

    I'm so happy for you and for your daughter!

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JUSTJO66 10/29/2010 12:18PM

    Have a wonderful visit with your daughter. Sounds like a girl with a level head and who will do great in whatever she decides to do.


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KATVHALE 10/29/2010 9:12AM

    As a former Police Officer myself and DH was also in Law Enforcement, we need all the help we can get! I got out of law enforcement because more and more police officers were no longer respected and treated like trash. The justice system is not what it used to be and becaue of politically correctness, too many bad people are not serving their time.

I admire Bre for pursuing her dream and I pray for much success for her. She has a good heart like her Mom and she will do very well. Enjoy your weekend with her!


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MUSIC66 10/29/2010 12:10AM

    awsome my son has nearly finished hi first year at uni he is doing drama and music .

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CARTOONB 10/29/2010 12:05AM

    Enjoy your weekend with your daughter...but remember to let her breathe!!

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FLEMIDG 10/28/2010 11:42PM

    I'm so happy to hear you will be spending some time with your daughter this weekend. Have a wonderful time.

It sure seems like Breanna knows what she wants to do. You and your DH should be so proud. She is such a thoughtful and caring young woman. What a joy. I can understand why you are doubly excited.

God bless all of you.


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LMB-ESQ 10/28/2010 11:08PM

    Wow.... how old did you say she was? At least 30 right?

Most people never figure that out. Good for her!! Congrats Mom!!

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AML05030 10/28/2010 10:24PM

    awwwwe :)

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GEEMAWEST 10/28/2010 9:33PM

    You should, of course, be very proud. When my daughter started going for her law degree she was more interested in environmental law and things like that. Now that she has been there a few months she is also thinking she wants to do criminal law.

Those young folks want to save the world. Well, someone has to do it. Might as well be our daughters, right? I'm very happy for you.

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PJSTIME 10/28/2010 8:29PM

    You should be bursting with pride. A young women who is pursuing her own goals and goals of helping others. Mom and Dad you have raised a wonderful daughter.

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    Oh, what a JOYFUL emoticonblog!!! Your daughter is full of life and energy, isn't she? I would be so proud, too! What a blessing! I sure wish we lived closer to each other! We would really have a lot of fun with each other, and our girls! emoticon emoticon

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WALKOFFWIN 10/28/2010 7:00PM

    No wonder you're on cloud nine! I think that somebody must have raised that girl right. Be proud! Be very proud!


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DARLENEK04 10/28/2010 6:25PM

  An " Awwwwwwww" moment. She will do big things and we will be here
rooting her on.
Michelle, you must be so proud of her....what a great kid.........


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THEMIGHTYLEX 10/28/2010 5:16PM

    That is so awesome

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BLAKBIRD 10/28/2010 4:47PM



Well done Mom AND Dad.

Extremely well done Ms. Breanna.

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LIZZYP609 10/28/2010 4:43PM

    That is so wonderful! You have a lot to be proud of! You and Brian did a great job raising her! I know that only takes them so far and then they need to make their own decisions from there, did good!

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STAYCXL-NOMORE 10/28/2010 4:04PM

    "The apples don't fall far from the tree " You should be proud , very smart young lady !!!

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STEVENGO2 10/28/2010 3:53PM

    Awesome! You have every right to be on cloud nine, and Breanna put you there. You can usually tell if a kid is brought up right by the way they handle life away from home their first year in college. Some think Others put hard work into what they are there for~an education!

My nephew Mike is in his Junior year of college and has done well making Deans list 2 or 3 times. He wants to teach High School Social Studies and he is also interested in the performing arts~plays and musicals.

Congrats on feeling great~one of the pleasures of being an amazing, awesome parent!!!


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JILLWILSON2102 10/28/2010 3:38PM

    Amazing! I can feel your energy all the way over here! Big hugs for her and for you mom in always encouraging her to think beyond... emoticon

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HOT4FITNESS 10/28/2010 3:22PM

    Awwwwww!! Don't are kids makes us proud!!! Your blog got me all excited!!! I am smiloing with ya. Have a fantastic visit!!

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AWOLF24 10/28/2010 3:09PM

    So nice!!! You have done a wonderful job raising a beautiful and motivated daughter!

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Tell Them How Much You Love Them

Sunday, October 24, 2010

I have so many things going on in my head right now. I don't know where to begin. This weekend was great. My husband and I went out to dinner today to celebrate our anniversary and we picked out a new mirror for our bathroom. I got started on the bathroom floor and so far it's looking pretty spiffy, if I say so myself! And I'm really excited because my daughter is coming home next weekend for three days, too. It will be the first time since leaving for Ohio University that she's been back home. She said she wanted mashed potatoes. I asked her what she wanted with them and she said she didn't care, she just wanted those. Apparently campus food isn't all it's cracked up to be, especially when you work in the dining hall and you see how the food is prepared!

Halloween has me fighting back the tears, though. Next weekend would have been when my brother Steve would have transformed his big garage into his annual Halloween Haunted House Bash for the neighborhood kids. He always put his whole heart into the occasion and it rivaled any other haunted house in town. He never charged money for the event either. Everything came out of his pocket, the decorations, the monsters, the extraordinary food, just so the local kids would have a place to go that evening instead of out-and-about causing trouble. He had such a soft heart for them. The kids absolutely adored him. I don't know who had the most fun...Steve getting it ready or the kids who came. And Steve was actually a big kid at heart. Christmas was the same way for him. Each year he would pick a family in need and buy them Christmas. The tree, the dinner, the presents, the works. It hurts so badly that there is a family out there who will not experience the love and extraordinary giving of my brother this year. My heart is in misery because HIS heart gave out on him January 2nd of this year. One minute he was gathering the brush to burn and fifteen minutes later he was gone. Oh, how I miss him! The whole community misses him! There has actually been a couple of times over the past few days I've had to excuse myself and go to the bathroom and cry. It all just seems so surreal, like a really bad movie that leaves you scratching your head in disbelief and sorrow.

I ran into my sister-in-law Rita, Steve's wife of 35 years, at Walmart the other day. I saw her sitting at the pharmacy. When I approached her, her face lit up and she stood with arms outstretched ready to give me a hug. She's been battling walking pneumonia. She is not the same woman. The twinkle is gone from her eyes and has been replaced with such deep sorrow. I don't think I've prayed as hard for anything that night...I asked God to give her some sort of comfort, some kind of understanding as to why things happen the way they do. Then I asked the same thing for myself because I don't understand either.

As I looked at Brian's face over dinner today, I wanted to reach across the table and stroke his cheek. It was all I could do to wait until we were in the car when I could lay my head on his chest, listening to the thumping of his heart, and wrap my arm around him on the way home. He quietly asked me what was wrong and I couldn't speak, just hold him tighter. Sensing that I couldn't talk, he firmly held me and said, "It's alright. I know you love me. I love you, too." I think he knows where my mind has been as of late.

I am blessed to have the love of my life today. I am SO blessed. But my heart is breaking for the ones who have lost theirs.

Please tell your husband or wife how much you love them today. And hold them close. Hold them really really close, okay?

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GREGGWEISBROD 11/19/2013 5:00PM

    This life of ours... so fragile... a treasure. Don't know if you read my post 'Dreaming with a Broken Heart' yet. It's not earth shattering, but the sad reality of loving with the deepest parts of who you are - which is of course, the only way to love - means that when the person you love is taken from this earth, the feeling of loss is crippling, and you never truly escape that pain. Time layers a soothing balm over top, but the heart is never the same. What an incredible post that you poured out here.

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CHRIS3215 10/27/2010 4:25PM

    WOW your Blog really hit my heart too.
Soo sorry for the loss of your brother .
Thanks for sharing such a heart filled Blog..

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AZCUPCAKE 10/27/2010 12:21PM

    You are an old soul in a wonderful, beautiful woman's body. I wish more than anything you could have Steve back.....

I am happy to hear about Paul's new lease on life, and how glorious it will be to be able to spend Christmas with him!!!! I am excited for you and want everything to be all right for him in the future. You have been there for him through thick and thin, and he is sure to show you that the past is gone, and his future is full of good, healthy, happy opportunities. He is in my prayers, just as your whole family is!

Mashed potatoes?! I just KNEW there was even MORE to love about that darling daughter of yours! I love them plain, plain, PLAIN! Talk about GOOD TASTE!

Belated happy anniversary wishes to you both, too! You and Brian are one heck of a tag team, and you are both very blessed to have found each other. Love conquers all - even bathroom remodeling jobs, right!?!? emoticon emoticon

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CDAWN26 10/27/2010 10:02AM

    What a heartfelt blog. I can understand the loss and do not take a day for granted. It can be gone in an instant. I'm thinking of you especially with the holidays and all the joy your brother brought to others during this time.

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 10/27/2010 9:52AM

    emoticon Shame on you for making me cry at work!

Ugh! I'm thinking of you today. I'm glad Brian is there for you and you for him.


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    Tearing up at my desk too! emoticon

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CARTOONB 10/25/2010 10:45PM

    Okay. Done. Every day.

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IAM_HIS2 10/25/2010 9:45PM

    Michelle you said it so heart hurts one minute than it rejoices the next because I know where he is. Then my heart hurts again for his wife, you and all those mourning his loss. May our Lord helps heal your hearts. God bless you and your sister-in-law.

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TRENTDREAMER 10/25/2010 9:14PM

    Apparently campus food isn't all it's cracked up to be, especially when you work in the dining hall and you see how the food is prepared!
* WH4T!!!!!!!????// say its not s0. lol

He will be allowed to come home for Christmas and it will be the first time in three years that our family will be able to spend a holiday together. I'm REALLY excited about that!
* w00t! im happy 4 u. i h0pe it works out 4 u as well.

My heart is in misery because HIS heart gave out on him January 2nd of last year. One minute he was gathering the brush to burn and fifteen minutes later he was gone. Oh, how I miss him! The whole community misses him! There has actually been a couple of times over the past few days I've had to excuse myself and go to the bathroom and cry.
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Please tell your husband or wife how much you love them today. And hold them close. Hold them really really close, okay?
* if i 3v3r am married i will.

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DARLENEK04 10/25/2010 7:47PM

  It isn't often when someone posts a heartfelt blog that I can say I truly know
how that person feels, but since I have lost both of my brothers, I can.
I know you still miss him punkin, you were so close....maybe you could invite
his wife over for the holidays or just for a meal and visit soon????
Be strong...and take care of Brian.


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JUSTJO66 10/25/2010 3:58PM

    A wonderful inspiring blog and so true. Thank you for sharing.

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PEGJOHN1997 10/25/2010 1:25PM

    Wow, great blog! You reminded me that I almost lost my husband to congestive heart failure 6 years ago. He made a miraculous recovery. I'll hug him tighter later tonight after he gets home from work.

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STAYCXL-NOMORE 10/25/2010 1:02PM

    Great Blog , you said it right !It's the now , cause later isn't guaranteed !!

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AWOLF24 10/25/2010 11:21AM

    I am sitting here at my desk getting all teary. What a great reminder and I will certainly do that today!!!!! emoticon

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BKNOCK 10/25/2010 10:47AM

I am sitting at my desk bawling after I read your blog! You know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers! It is so hard to lose loved ones! This weekend I missed Linda soooooooo much watching her beautiful baby get married. I know that they are in a better place and I guess we just have to try to be patient and understanding!

Love ya,

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KATVHALE 10/25/2010 8:46AM

    Michelle, I feel your pain as I have lost a husband and a sister to heart disease and diabetes. You never get over such a loss but knowing that they are with our creator is very uplifting because you know you will see them again. So try and think of your brother as being on assignment for God and that one day you too will get that assignment and you will meet up with him then.

I will be praying that all goes well with Paul and that you have a great family time during the upcoming holidays!

Enjoy your visit next weekend with your daughter!

love ya,


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LIZZYP609 10/25/2010 8:32AM

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PJSTIME 10/25/2010 7:29AM

    Michelle that you for sharing with us. Sometimes it helps just to talk about it. I hope your holiday plans all work out now what are you going to serve with those mashed potatoes. Meatloaf, chicken, steak,????????

Have a great day and I will be sending comforting prayers to you, your family and the neighborhood.

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DONNAORLENE 10/25/2010 1:38AM

    Happy Anniversary! And I'm so happy for you that Breanna is coming home. I have a niece that asked for mashed potato cake for her Birthday! That's how much she loves them. Too bad Breanna doesn't have the services at her college like where my nephew works. He's head she for Bon Appetite and the college hires them to cater three meals a day for the kids. You wouldn't believe the way these kids eat! It's unreal. I know what you mean about missing your brother. My oldest passed away very suddenly 3 years ago this November and I still can't get over it. They didn't have any children and my sister-in-law has really tough times still.I hope things work out for your holidays.And remember you are always in my heart and in my prayers.

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CHERIRIDDELL 10/25/2010 12:52AM

    What a wonderful blog ,I am sorry you have had so much on your plate. A Very happy anniversary to you! I can' t just reach out and hug my husband he is deployed to Afghanistan but your blog makes me realize how lucky I am to have Sparkfriends .I can't reach out and touch my husband when I choose but you reach out and touch me with your thoughtful blogs and you make me feel a part of a community . emoticon Cheri

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FLEMIDG 10/24/2010 11:49PM

    Oh, Michelle, my heart goes out to you. You are going through such emotional turmoil. I am so excited that you will have your family together for Christmas. I am praying for you that everything will go smoothly.
I can understand your sadness at the loss of your brother, too. I am so happy that you have such a wonderful husband there with you to wrap his arms around you and tell you he loves you. God bless you both. Know that I am thinking of you and praying for you. I love you to pieces.
I wish I were close so that I could give you a great big hug too.

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ANNAMARIE1958 10/24/2010 11:46PM

    I'm a true believer in telling your family how much you love them and to spend time with them. Life is so short you never know what tomorrow will bring. Nov.14 Is a bitter sweet day for my family, My son got married and My close neighbor was killed ..same day..same yr. Take the time to spend with your family.
This was a great blog..It made me cry. I lost my Father 2 yrs.ago and my mother 22 yrs. ago. O how I miss them both!

...God be with you....

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GEEMAWEST 10/24/2010 11:46PM

    You sure have had a lot going on this past year. Good thing you're such a strong woman. And remember, everything God puts you through makes you that much stronger.

Love ya, Cheryl

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LAVENDERLILY 10/24/2010 11:17PM

    Thank you for sharing your family with us.

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 10/24/2010 11:03PM

    Oh, my sweet friend... your blog said SO MUCH tonight, and I can't catch up with everything fast enough! I want to tell you that you mean so much to your SparkFriends, and I love you! When I'm stuck in bed after Wednesday, I hope I have time to Spark more. This blog response just doesn't say what's in my heart for you! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BLAKBIRD 10/24/2010 10:37PM

    PS. Thanks for offering your DH's help with my home maintenance projects, but I'd guess he'd much rather stay home and get hugged really, really tightly.


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HOT4FITNESS 10/24/2010 10:29PM

    Thanks for sharing. I will go tell my DH how much I love and appreciate him right now. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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LMB-ESQ 10/24/2010 10:27PM

    Wonderful blog... so true!

I was at my mother's yesterday and I went into her bedroom for something. I saw my dad's old winter cap sitting on the bedside table and reached out to touch it -- couldn't help myself and started bawling like a baby. Went and hid out in the bathroom! I sure do miss him! But at least I have the knowledge that he knew I loved him, because I told him so all the time, more and more often toward the end. And I tell my kids and my mother too. The nice thing is, my kids are finally at the age where they realize it's okay to say it to me first!

Make a mountain of mashed potatoes for Breanna, and I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for Paul's Christmas release. I don't know why he's there, but three years is sure a long time to be not allowed to go home! emoticon

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BLAKBIRD 10/24/2010 10:23PM

    Thank you 'Sis for an incredibly moving and Awesome blog


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KGRIMES371 10/24/2010 10:13PM

    Oh my gosh. What a post. Thank you for sharing.

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