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Thursday, August 26, 2010

Okay...I was able to talk Breanna into allowing me to post ONE baby picture of her. If you remember, about a week ago (?) I said that I would like to post some baby pics of her because she was such a daggone cute kid (oh, still IS but C'MON, everyone loves baby pics). She had basically confiscated the photo albums and held them hostage until she THOUGHT I had forgotten about the idea. Nope...Momma didn't forget and after a few moments of debate she showed me the one she said I could show you. Looks like we're gonna have to wait until she leaves for college next Tuesday before I can go hog wild!



Note the ears. They have since laid flat to her head. But, isn't she just the cutest little booger??

We have been busy getting items together that she needs for college. A laptop, a printer, towels, bedspreads, curtains, rugs, etc...all this for a room that is no bigger than a walk-in closet and she has to share it with someone else. I found a crumpled up paper in the desk drawer today that had the list of items she needed carefully crossed out and each one exhausted. That kinda jabbed at my heart a little. It made everything seem so final. Five more days. Five more days and this little baby is walking the path to adulthood ON HER OWN. I know she's still going to need us. I know that she's going to call home and play her homesickness off like she's big and bad and can take on the world. That's what I did and she is sooo much like me. (However, I have to say, she exercises more patience than I ever will.) But this kid of mine is so stubborn, so smart, so hard-headed that she will excel in anything she sets her mind to in no time at all. I am grateful, too, for that. She has never had any trouble telling you like it is but has a love so deep for her fellow human, for God and for all things that are good and decent. She will make her/our world a better place. In her own small way, she will make a huge impact on someone's life. I guess it's everyone else's turn to be brightened by her shining soul, her brighter-than-the-sun smile...

I'm just being selfish for wanting to keep her with ME. But, for just a little bit longer? Is that really so bad?







  
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K8NJKSMOM 9/17/2010 3:01PM

    Hope you and Breanna are doing well.

When I left Kaitlin at university two weeks ago, I thought my heart would jump right out of my chest. She too, had her list of items to bring - three pages of highlighted items for her new and exciting life.

Our girls will do wonderfully - and their moms will start to learn to take deep breaths and smile when we think of how proud we are of them.



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MUSTANG_SALLY2 8/31/2010 9:50AM

    Oh you make me wanna cry! How do they grow up so fast. (sniffles) I'm sending you loads of hugs!

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DARLENEK04 8/27/2010 8:50PM

  What an adorable and beautiful baby...and gee whiz, she looks
just like her momma. What a beauty.
I know how you feel, babygirl, but I swore I would not cry
when mine flew the coop errrr nest, LOL, and I didn't. I am
happy they have become adults, thoughtful of others and just
nice people.
You must be proud of Bree, and let her spread her wings and
fly.....she will always be your baby....but you know you gave
her wisdom and the important teachings for her life to come...
So stand down momma, and watch your little bird go forward to
improve the world in her own way....
What a girl who has turned into such a special young woman.

Loveyou,
MommaD

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JANNYMACK 8/27/2010 12:28PM

    What a testament to your guiding her along life's way before launching her out...Job Well Done, Mom! In addition, she is one very gorgeous girl and a miracle in the making. From baby Girl to Womanhood, what a wonderful confidence to have that she's gonna make you even prouder!
BRAVO!

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JRDIAMOND4 8/27/2010 9:09AM

    "she is sooo much like me", All I can say is you have no worries. Both beautiful ladies. Such a cute baby!!

Letting go should not be part of a momma's vocabulary. Who says we have to. Although, we have to "Let Live". How proud you must feel that she is becoming her own and sharing this with you. You are a truly blessed!!

This is all part of the new chapters for both of you. She is going to start writing hers and you, my friend, are going to start a new one. May God's arms be wrapped around both of you as you begin.

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BKNOCK 8/27/2010 8:48AM

    Wow what a cutie she was! And now look at her, a beautiful, strong, loving, spiritual woman ready to take on the world! Stay strong my friend!

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MAMASHAWN 8/27/2010 7:55AM

    We did this a year ago. When we turned to walk back to our car without her... I could never have prepared myself for that feeling. If everyone knew about THAT profoundly empty feeling, people would seriously reconsider having children in the first place.

But it's good. Facebook and Skype became a regular part of our weeks. She came home for this Summer, but probably not next year. By then, she's planning to be on her own. I got a reprieve, and I'm better prepared this year (I'm telling myself).

Growing pains, friend... for both of us. Snuggle the heck out of her in the meantime and sniff her hair! Then send her off with the blessing of our Father.

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MAMASHAWN 8/27/2010 7:54AM

    We did this a year ago. When we turned to walk back to our car without her... I could never have prepared myself for that feeling. If everyone knew about THAT profoundly empty feeling, people would seriously reconsider having children in the first place.

But it's good. Facebook and Skype became a regular part of our weeks. She came home for this Summer, but probably not next year. By then, she's planning to be on her own. I got a reprieve, and I'm better prepared this year (I'm telling myself).

Growing pains, friend... for both of us. Snuggle the heck out of her in the meantime and sniff her hair! Then send her off with the blessing of our Father.

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MAMASHAWN 8/27/2010 7:54AM

    We did this a year ago. When we turned to walk back to our car without her... I could never have prepared myself for that feeling. If everyone knew about THAT profoundly empty feeling, people would seriously reconsider having children in the first place.

But it's good. Facebook and Skype became a regular part of our weeks. She came home for this Summer, but probably not next year. By then, she's planning to be on her own. I got a reprieve, and I'm better prepared this year (I'm telling myself).

Growing pains, friend... for both of us. Snuggle the heck out of her in the meantime and sniff her hair! Then send her off with the blessing of our Father.

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MAMASHAWN 8/27/2010 7:54AM

    We did this a year ago. When we turned to walk back to our car without her... I could never have prepared myself for that feeling. If everyone knew about THAT profoundly empty feeling, people would seriously reconsider having children in the first place.

But it's good. Facebook and Skype became a regular part of our weeks. She came home for this Summer, but probably not next year. By then, she's planning to be on her own. I got a reprieve, and I'm better prepared this year (I'm telling myself).

Growing pains, friend... for both of us. Snuggle the heck out of her in the meantime and sniff her hair! Then send her off with the blessing of our Father.

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VRADAA 8/27/2010 7:39AM

    What a wonderful blog! She is indeed a beautiful young woman. While what you are feeling is normal and you know that, you should be so proud of yourself for bringing up such a responsible warm hearted loving lady. She will be going places, doing things with her life because she had good parenting, raised with good values, encouraged by a loving family. So, pat yourself on the back Lady and smile.

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LMB-ESQ 8/27/2010 7:02AM

    Cute baby... beautiful girl!

Here's the thing. She isn't "leaving" you. She's entering into her own life. There will always be a place in it for you. Probably a big place, even if she ends up moving far away. And if you think she's a remarkable kid? Just wait till you see what kind of remarkable adult she will become! You said she will make a huge impact on somebody's life, but really, you have no idea. She will do amazing things that will shock and awe you with their intensity. You're bursting with pride now? Just wait... the reality of her adult life will outshine your expectations in ways you can't even imagine.

That said... here's something else you need to prepare for.... whenever she comes home, for a weekend, for a school break, she will be DIFFERENT. More grown up, more responsible, with new ideas, just MORE. Notice those things, and it will be like having another "childhood" to watch. People never stop growing, remember. In some ways, this flying the nest is an even bigger growing experience than their "little kid" childhoods. (Thinking about my own kids as I write this, and actually tearing up LOL)

I'm looking forward to reading not only about her accomplishments, but about your reactions to them!

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IAM_HIS2 8/27/2010 2:18AM

    Oh how fast they grow and leave the nest....Hold on to all those memories and pictures.

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SUGARPUNK52 8/27/2010 1:41AM

  A beautiful baby turned into a beautiful young lady.You're both blessed to have each other.I'm so happy for both of you.GOD bless.

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DUTCHIEKIWI 8/27/2010 12:44AM

    LOL, I can imagine how she must feel.....
Lucky my kids don't have a say in it yet ;0)

She was very cute, and by golly she still is.
Couldn't be any other way, as YOU are her mum!!

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Dutchie

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DUTCHIEKIWI 8/27/2010 12:43AM

    LOL, I can imagine how she must feel.....
Lucky my kids don't have a say in it yet ;0)

She was very cute, and by golly she still is.
Couldn't be any other way, as YOU are her mum!!

xxx

Dutchie

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DONNAORLENE 8/27/2010 12:36AM

    Reminds me of that song "You must have been a beautiful baby, 'cause baby look at you now!" She was and is beautiful. Let's see your baby pictures, I bet we'd see the similarities there too. She looks just like her momma and I'm sure she's going to miss you just as much as you'll miss her. That's the strange thing about growing up, you just keep getting closer! So hang in there and remember, she's in good hands and so are you! You'll both be in my prayers!



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MUSIC66 8/27/2010 12:32AM

    great baby photo , my kids want allow me to post any photo,s of them on my spark page at all.

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CARTOONB 8/27/2010 12:24AM

    Poor baby! Yes, I mean you, not her! LOL! She is a cute booger and was a cute booger and will continue to be a cute booger. I'll look forward to the bonanza of baby pictures once she is out of the house and can't stop you any more!

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 8/26/2010 11:55PM

    Your blog brought tears to my eyes, and I almost didn't want to keep reading it! My youngest is now a sophomore, then I have a junior, and two married daughters. What happened!?

I am so glad you've joined the Empty Nest team! I know you will fit right in and find the support that you no doubt will be needing!

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FLEMIDG 8/26/2010 11:38PM

    What a beautiful baby, and what a beautiful grown up young woman.
I know it's hard to let her go, but she will do well on her own. She is such a wonderfully giving young lady that I am sure everyone will love her. I agree that she will make the world a better place because she is in it. You are both blessed to have each other.
God bless you both as you go through these changes.
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0309COOKIE 8/26/2010 10:47PM

    Aaaww, what a sweet blog.

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GEEMAWEST 8/26/2010 10:35PM

    What a great smile!! In both pics. You're a blessed woman to have raised such a wonderful daughter. Tell her I said to keep her nose to the grindstone.

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Leave It To Me To Find A Life Lesson In Picking Corn

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Okay, I know this is really random, but my SIL called me earlier this evening and told me to come up and get some of her homegrown corn. She said there were sweet peppers, and homegrown green beans there, too. Before Brian could say, "Where do you THINK you're going?" I was out the door leaving skidmarks in my driveway. Burning rubber, I made the fourth mile journey to her house, salivating at the mouth and hitting every pothole in sight. OH, SHUT UP, I was hungry and I pitied the fool who got in my way.

Jumping from my car, I ferociously slapped my empty Walmart bag open and headed down to the pond where she was standing. A few quick hugs and "how-are-yous" were said and we were laughing our way to her fenced-in garden where the "stuff that dreams are made of" awaited. Mmmmm. First, though, there was the matter of opening her barbed-wire fence. (Many deers in this area...they'll eat YOU if you're not careful.) I don't know how, but as I was passing through, my hair got caught in it. As we stood there laughing, trying to unwind the tangled mess, my shoe sunk in a pit of mud and my foot came out. It successfully landed in another pit of mud. At least I think it was mud. It looked like mud. I wasn't going to smell it to find out.

Making our way through the maze of stalks, I got too close behind her and the leaves slapped me across the face, more than once. There was one particular hearty one, however, that hit me in the eye and dislocated my contact lens from the center of my pupil. I felt it slide underneath my eyelid and suction itself to the white part...not the best feeling. But as my eye grew red and the tears flowed, I became even more determined. She and I picked corn until our fingers hurt. We talked about Breanna's upcoming adventure, the persimmon tree that Steve loved, and the paintings that I had recently been doing. I promised her that I would do one of my brother's 1969 Plymouth Roadrunner so he could hang it in his garage.

It was a great time. I ended up spending more time there than what I had planned. I realized that I missed these times with her and privately promised myself to spend more time with her once Breanna spreads her wings and flies. And I had CORN. HOMEGROWN CORN! Getting it was difficult and a struggle but the pay-off was good! And I had sweet peppers and green beans, too. Cleaning up my foot and fixing my contact, I realized that life is kinda like that, too. You might get beat up a little along the way to a goal but the end result is good, especially when you do things with a pure heart. And that's the key...having a pure heart. Getting things any other way just wouldn't feel so good in the long run. Would it? There are no short-cuts in ANYTHING worth having, whether it be weight loss, our spirituality, our relationships or corn. Unless it's done right, it could leave a very weird taste in our mouths...and our souls.

Any of you wanna come over for dinner tomorrow?

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DIETSAFARI 4/17/2011 9:09AM

    An evangelist/farmer from South Africa, called Angus Buchan, spends his quiet time with the Lord on his back in the middle of a field of corn. He calls it his Green Cathedral.
You two could be unto something.
Must be something inspirational about that plant...
Love and Hugs

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PANFRIEDTROUT 8/28/2010 8:13PM

    You have a great way with words .... I felt as if I were there with you, sharing the adventure.

Most compelling of all though, is the gentle yet firm reminder about life & it literally made my heart "well up" (there must be something in my subconscious I don't want to face) .... but truth is truth & you express it very well.

Thank you.

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NANALD 8/26/2010 9:31PM

    Great blog! It is sad that too many of us don't take the time to treasure the sweetness of fresh vegetable OR everyday life! Thanks for reminding us to be grateful for and experience them both! Enjoy!

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JANNYMACK 8/26/2010 1:01PM

    Great Blog, entertaining and humorous writing, I loved it! Thanks.
Subscribing now.......

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ONEREALLYBIGDOG 8/26/2010 12:26PM

    I LOVE fresh corn




BUT



Don't know if it's worth the stuff on the shoes

LOL


You are a hoot

Thanks for making my day
I'm gonna have to scout the area corn fields for cow pies

What is your mailing address?

Have a wonderful day!

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LOLAINSC 8/26/2010 11:16AM

    Personally, I want to see a picture of that '69 Roadrunner painting when you're done.I agree totally with your blog, how profits a man to gain the world but lose his own soul?

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MOCACHOC 8/26/2010 10:19AM

    Funny, great blog. I know your hubby thought, what the heck is going on. I got a good laugh and I like my corn fresh, also. I love to shuck it, take it off the cob and fry it, bake it.

Peace

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JRDIAMOND4 8/26/2010 8:49AM

    You stepped in WHAT!!! (You crack me up) And you want to trade boots. Do know how much real "What" them boots have stepped in? lol

Isn't it true, the things that are the most strenuous to accomplish are the things we treasure most.

And If I was in Ohio, I would be there for dinner. Katie bar the door. lololol

Have a blessed day,
Jan



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WHEEZELO 8/26/2010 2:44AM

    Much like life, the best things come with adversity and work. Good for you Michelle, enjoy the last of the summer, and don't let too many days go by without visiting your sister-in-law again.

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BLAKBIRD 8/26/2010 2:12AM

    Great blog, almost felt the slap of the leaves in my face and smell the "mud" on my feet Love the way you bring a stroy to life, and especially the positive message you look to find in your experiences. Thank you for taking the time to share.

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DONNAORLENE 8/26/2010 12:56AM

    The corn is all yours...I've been eating fresh corn from my neighbor and nurse for the last two weeks. And you're right, there's nothing better! I used to grow everything...big garden...loved it...no can do anymore. Oh well, I do have a topsy turvy with tomatoes and an uppsy downsy with tomatoes...Yum-O! Anyway, loved the blog, you always make me laugh! Yes, out loud! Like I told Barb, what other way is there to laugh?!?!?! Take care and enjoy your corn!

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CARTOONB 8/25/2010 11:33PM

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CONCHALEA 8/25/2010 11:22PM

    Great tale of your exploits to get the nectar of the gods-sweet corn! I envy you all that luscious yellow goodness. Enjoy!

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FLEMIDG 8/25/2010 11:15PM

    Another wonderful blog, Michelle. You always manage to make life sound so interesting. Enjoy all those fresh vegetables, you earned them, and they're good for you. I'm planning on going to the Farmer's Market on Saturday to pick up some fresh veggies. There's nothing like the taste of vegetables right out of the garden.
Hope you are having a wonderful week.


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BKNOCK 8/25/2010 10:55PM

    What time is dinner? Yes, you will SHARE that corn!

You sure know how to make a person hungry!

When my SIL arrived at church tonight, Abby had my SIL's contact in a water bottle top with a bit of water. Her contact some how fell out while she was driving to Garner! You people and your fake eyes!

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DARLENEK04 8/25/2010 10:40PM

  Well since I cant run up to Ohio to get any of your corn, LOL......I
will do the next best thing and go to the Farmers Market tomorrow..
Tomatoes and fresh corn....yummo

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GEEMAWEST 8/25/2010 10:13PM

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USFBULL 8/25/2010 9:57PM

    emoticon Enjoy all that fresh sweet corn. woohoo!

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Veni, Vidi, Vici...

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

It's really not hard to get side-tracked. It's not difficult to lose sight of your goal, not only with weight loss or the road to better health, but also with the other things in your life. I was talking with Breanna the other night about college life and how easy it will be to allow other things to get in the way of her studies. I was a college student once, I know. It takes discipline and a stern train of thought to keep one's eye on the prize. Plus, it takes determination and a hunger for that prize to get there. If we could only do this without the doubts and the obstacles that are sure to accompany our dreams, without that little voice that whispers in our hearts, "Are you man/woman enough to grab hold and not let go? It's too hard! Give up now!"

But without these obstacles, we wouldn't find our strengths or weaknesses. We wouldn't learn of the "stuff" that makes us who we are. Would we? If our goals were easy to grasp, easy to accomplish, we would not be made stronger in character. We would not learn patience or perseverance. We would merely become unappreciative of our efforts and grow tired of the challenges before us. That is why we must always push through the veil, push through the hard times, and see the shining soul that we ALL have inside of us.

We have choices in this life. Each and everyone of us. We could do what is EASIEST, go where where we are most COMFORTABLE, stay in our OWN LITTLE SPACE. We could stay stagnant and just BE. Or we could FIGHT for what we want. We could FIGHT to make things better. That goes with our health, our friendships, our marriages, our spirituality. If things are not going well, if we're not satisfied with where we are in life, we have CHOICES. Give in, give up, or work harder.

I choose to work harder. Many changes have occurred in my life in the last year and a half. My dear brother passed away, I was handed an unwelcome illness, my daughter lost a child and I have a grandson that I have not held in my arms. I have caught myself countless times feeling very sorry for myself. But I have fought to remain optimistic. I have failed at times, but I've FOUGHT. However, the last month or so, I've felt my soul grow harder. I've grown selfish. I've allowed myself to act out of character in a number of ways. Now that I recognize it, what am I going to do about it?

Fight and claw my way out, THAT'S what! I WILL find myself again. Breanna is leaving for college next Tuesday. I have prepared myself for the torrent of emotions that will be bombarding us both that day. However, I will not wallow in sadness nor I will I allow it to determine the path to my own personal future. I will be sad, most likely crying to you all in a blog, but I won't allow it to determine bad choices that will beget more bad choices. I will cry, get over it, and move on. I raised a good kid. God is her lighthouse. She has said this to me. So the question is, what am "I" going to do? What steps am "I" going to take to get on with MY life, the kind of life I want to live, the kind that I can be PROUD of?

Well, I can cling tighter to my husband. Pray harder. Read the Word of God each and every day. Surround myself with my dearest friends. And give the devil a swift kick in the bum each and every time he comes knocking on my door. I'm not down for the count. I am determined to be better, to be stronger. I am determined to conquer the remnant of a woman I've become and come out with my guns blazing. There's a new chapter of me ready to be written...

and I am the author.



What's in YOUR next chapter? God bless you all.







  
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GREGGWEISBROD 11/16/2013 9:49AM

    I said recently in a post that I firmly believe the hard and sad moments in life simply serve to remind us of how incredible the joyful and happy moments are. I try to breathe both in, even though the bad moments are bitter and acidic. They don't breathe in so easily, but they all lead into making us stronger people, more capable of relating to others in their similar moments of darkness. And then when joy hits, well, it takes on more color and a greater taste then could ever have been imagined before. It doesn't make the hard times any less difficult, sadly, but it gives a small amount of perspective when I've felt lost.

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FLEMIDG 8/25/2010 11:35PM

    Michelle, You are a wonderful person and I know you will come out of this all right. Breanna has wonderful parents, and she will do well in school.
I have been praying for you and your DH to be able to cope with your daughter going away to school, and I prayed that you would find something that would give what you need to get on with your life. I know you will do a great job. I am sure you and Breanna will communicate a lot, and she will rely on you to be strong.
Know that I am there for you any time you want to vent or talk. You listened to me enough when I was going through some tough things.
Love you dear friend.
God bless you.

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DARLENEK04 8/25/2010 8:13PM

  I'm here for you sweetheart...
Loveyou,
Mommaa
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NANALD 8/25/2010 6:55PM

    You've been through a lot and I still remember the pangs of leaving my last child at a dorm that was nothing short of gross...nothing like the one on the tour I might add! He had to go to school 1,000 miles away from home to get where he wanted to be for his major. The last gaze we had still makes me cry. In hindsight I can say with a smile that the door that is opening to you is going to be just as special as what you are leaving behind. I'll be thinking of you and know just how hard it is but believe me you will not survive you will thrive and so will your relationship with your daughter. She has a good foundation mom and she will be just fine too!
Hugs,
Linda

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JRDIAMOND4 8/25/2010 1:03PM

    You are not alone. (I will lend you a hand to hold, a shoulder to cry and a ear to listen or space when needed.) So glad you let SP be apart of your book of life.

YOU inspire me!!

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LOLAINSC 8/25/2010 12:00PM

    I'm with you, the loss of a very special pastor who "spurred me on" resulted in a lazy downward slide, and it became apparent that if I didn't write the next chapter, nobody (good) would. I thought of Beth Moore's, "Satan is a party animal and he never passes up a good pity party," and realized she was talking about me, and just who was knocking at my door. Time to get up again and back into the fight. We can do it--nobody is counted a loser until after the point when she says, "I quit."

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MJMONE 8/25/2010 11:47AM

    You CAN do this!

one of my fave verses is 1Tim 6:6 "Now godliness with contentment is great gain". I'll never forget the moment that it HIT me, godliness came before contentment. And that is what I have been seeking since.

When my daughter left for college, I cried all the way home, 5 hours. We were/are very close, and I can't tell you how hard it was. BUT this is the period where I started scrapbooking and got a new kitten, to be my new 'baby'.

Blessings to you, and let God BE your strength!



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MUSTANG_SALLY2 8/25/2010 8:43AM

    I've been telling myself this very thing but for some reason, I'm not listening. I need to rewrite this life I'm living. I'm just not sure how to begin.

I loved reading your blog. I don't have any human children but have been really close to nieces and nephews and watching them change and grow into their own lives has been hard in some ways. I cannot imagine how hard this must be for you. I'll be thinking of you and sending you loads of hugs!

Quote: "I want to be the kind of woman that when my feet hit the floor in the morning, the devil says, 'Oh no! She's up!' " (unknown)

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LMB-ESQ 8/25/2010 6:39AM

    This is beautiful! And I love your title. I've had huge changes too and I'm entering a new chapter of my life as well. I'm trying to figure out how to fight and I'm slowly getting there. We'll do it together! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BKNOCK 8/25/2010 6:26AM

    This is the Michelle I know and love! We will be here for you when you need us! You have such a smart, level-headed, beautiful daughter and she will do great!

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GEEMAWEST 8/25/2010 12:19AM

    Nice Blog Michelle! I can relate on several levels. My youngest daughter is starting law school in New York this year. New York City!! OMG, that is a whole country away, plus I can not be there with her when she needs me. She is 10 years older than Breanna which makes it even scarier for me because I know that she has dabbled in the "dark side" of life. It 's funny though, she calls me and emails me all the time and we chat online several times a week. Her and I have really become much closer with distance. She respects my opinion which I never thought would happen.

I could go on and on but I am going to stop here. Bottom line is "Breanna will be fine because she has parents like you and Brian". Just be there to lend an ear and not judge. She will open up to you more and more each time.

Hugs, G-Ma

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DONGR8NCHARNC 8/25/2010 12:10AM

    With your positive outlook on life noone would know the trials you have and do face. The things that you do to counter the negatives are surely working; because, your aura shines through as pure, unadulterated joy (and it's contagious)!

Denise
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CARTOONB 8/25/2010 12:03AM

    Okay..I'm glad there is half a country separating us! You sound like you are coming out swinging and I do NOT want to ge caught in the fallout! Go get 'em!!!

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Stealing From Barb!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

I saw this on Barb's blog so I thought I would steal from her. OH, DON'T JUDGE ME! She stole it it from everyone else!

1) Available or Married?
Married. Not to Gerard Butler as previously planned, but to a guy that has a heart of gold so it's all good. He wishes he were married to Melanie Griffith. But that's a whole different blog in itself.

2) Book?
"Ghost Hunters of the South" by Alan Brown.

3) Cake or Pie?
OY! BOTH! Cheesecake and Pecan pie are my top two poisons, followed closely by carrot cake. And Red Velvet. And then there's the Rocky Road Ice Cream....

4) Drink of Choice?
If I had a CHOICE, it would be Mountain Dew. But since I've learned that it's basically arsenic in a can, I drink water and green tea.

5) Essential Item?
My fake eyelashes. Breanna repeatedly stomped on one the other day because she thought it was a bug on the floor.

6) Favorite Color?
GREEN. Loooove green!

7) Game to Play or Watch?
Oh, geez, let me think about that for a minute...um, maybe, shoot...could it be the Pittsburgh Steelers? The best games are the ones against the Cincinnati Bengals and watching Brian flip when the Steelers score against them! I get to do my smarty-pants dance!

8) Hometown?
A little teeny-tiny hick town in Southern Ohio. Where the bumper stickers and sleeveless shirts roam free.

9) Indulgence?
Riding my Harley and watching "Whacked Out Sports."

10) Job?
Aggravating the snot out of Brian, Breanna and driving my SparkFriends nuts with my blogs.

11) Kids?
Two very grown step-kids (28 and 27), one grown 21 year-old son, and a daughter that just turned 18 today. Wow, I'm old!

12) Life is Incomplete Without...?
Chocolate Mousse. I'm just sayin'....

13) Music Group or Singer?
Queen, HIM, Sent By Ravens, Mika, ShineDown, Rob Thomas and Credence Clearwater Revival.

14) Number of Siblings?
Two older sisters and three older brothers (RIP, Steve, I miss you so much...).

15) Oranges or Apples?
BOTH are good to hurl at Brian when he gets smart with me.

16) Phobias/Fears?
Sitting in the passenger seat of a moving car, dirt on the floor, and I don't like my feet coming out of the covers in bed!

17) Favorite Quote?
"If you rest, you rust." ~ Helen Hayes.

18) Reason to Smile?
Jesus loves me. Brian loves me. My kids (I think!) love me. What better reason is there than THAT? Oh, and Gerard Butler is HOT!

19) Season?
Fall. Definitely fall because it's not too hot and not too cold and I get to wear my chaps on the motorcycle!

20) Tattoos?
Yep. Two. One is a heart with me and Brian's name in the middle and the other is a butterfly. Can't and won't say where.

21) Unknown Fact About Me?
I don't think there's anything about me that you guys don't already know. I guess one thing might be that I'm insecure. I'm afraid of people not liking me. I'm afraid of losing the people I love.

22) Veggie I Love?
OH, heck YEAH! BROCCOLI! Mmmmm!

23) Worst Habit?
Speeding.

24) X-Rays I've Had?
Geesh, everywhere, everything, at least three times over. I glow in the freakin' dark.

25) Favorite Food?
Anything that isn't nailed down. (And Nutter Butters!)

26) Zodiac?
Capricorn, just like Barb. And we're BOTH PERFECTIONISTS, can you believe THAT?! LOL!

Have a great day, guys!

  
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AZCUPCAKE 8/23/2010 2:47PM

    Everything on this list is everything I love about you! One question, though: If you had a week with Gerard Butler, you know, like, to play Marathon Scrabble with (!), would you share him with me for just ONE day?? I don't want to be greedy! emoticon

Happy Birthday to Breanna! 18 is a huge milestone!!!! And college coming right up.....how does Breanna get older, Michelle, but you and I DON'T?!? emoticon Spoil the living heck out of that beautiful girl of yours before she leaves for school!!!!

Oh, and one more thing -- do you think that during that week you have with Gerard Butler, on that one day you may consider sharing him with me, could we put some Rocky Road ice cream on the cake of your choice while taking a break from our Marathon Scrabble Tournament?! emoticon

Last but NOT least, do you know how lovable you are?! Well, YOU ARE!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WALKOFFWIN 8/23/2010 12:12PM

    Another fun read Michelle! :o) You made me smile, even though I'm semi-comatose right now. I'd prefer to think you borrowed this, rather than stole it - and then you added to it to make it most definitely your own. TY for the fun! :o) BTW, the falsies look good on you! (meaning the eye lashes of course!) Lol

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TRENTDREAMER 8/22/2010 3:57PM

    "Two very grown step-kids (28 and 27), one grown 21 year-old son, and a daughter that just turned 18 today. Wow, I'm old! "

* Happy birthday to your daughter.

Thank you for the foundation for "What Would a Smart Alec Say to these Part 4"

Hope that you are having a great weekend!

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DUTCHIEKIWI 8/21/2010 2:07AM

    Ha!, hey there sexy... and don't you even forget for one minute IO can not remember those sexy curves...
seeing anyone lately???? ;0)


anyhoo, barb DID steal it from me, and I stole it too...

Cause I'm a thief... well you gotta excell at what you are good at, non?!?

my comments....

If I hadn't said enough already... ;0)

Tell the bugger you are married to, that he is lucky as he married a helluvalot better chick then Melanie Griffith!!!

Water and greeen tea ?!?!?! You gotta broaden your horizons cheeky chick!!!

Looooove the fake eyelashes, never had any, but come over and plant xome on me...
god knows I wpouldn't have a glue...ehhh clue how to get them on... One thing is for sure I'd made a helluvalot a mess lol

Since Queen was your first answer, i love you EVEN more...

by the way, I don;t see enough of ya!!!

I'm disappointed you won't tell me where your tattooos are... come on chica... you know you wnat to tell me !!! ;0)

I love ya,

make sure you don't lose me! ;0)

take care of yourself and yours.

Dutchie

xxxxx<
BR>


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LMB-ESQ 8/20/2010 5:57PM

    I love your #10 job! LOLOL

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DONGR8NCHARNC 8/19/2010 11:59PM

    Cute



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FLEMIDG 8/19/2010 11:53PM

    Another fun, great blog, Michelle. We do have one more thing in common, I love CCR too. Hope you had a wonderful day.

Bless you.



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GEEMAWEST 8/19/2010 11:45PM

    Let's see, Michelle who stole from Barb who stole from Dutchie who stole from..... I see a pattern here.

Woo Hoo!! Love Rob Thomas. His voice makes me melt. Also love CCR. We have more in common that I knew. Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Hmmmmm?

Also hate my feet coming out of the covers. DUH! That's why they're called "covers".

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CARTOONB 8/19/2010 11:35PM

    When someone has a good idea, it makes sense to use it! LOL!

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ONEREALLYBIGDOG 8/19/2010 10:17PM

    Well the cat is out of the bag!

I always thought that you wore falsies,
now we have it in black and white
Can't believe that you don't use the GREEN font on SP!

Sure glad you stole it from your sister, Barb, LOL

Thanks for putting smiles all across the US of A
and US today, but you do that on a daily basis.

Thanks for sharing with us OL' LADY

Bre' was born when you were 7

RIGHT?

I'm gonna give you a secret of MINE

My daughter is now known as my younger sister
It makes me MUCH younger than the other way around

Have a SPlendid Weekend!

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DOINFINE 8/19/2010 2:10PM

    You wear false eyelashes??? My oh my! I could use them too!

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DARLENEK04 8/19/2010 12:53PM

  Well, puddin', I reckon you will have toi come over to my blog, because I
gonna steal this one from you...................LOL

WH
O IS GERARD BUTLER?????????????????????????????
????????????????

Love from
Darlene

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K8NJKSMOM 8/19/2010 11:45AM

    Fun blog! Too funny - I'm with you on the feet having to be under the covers. It can be 100 degrees - no covers - except over my feet!!! emoticon

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CALIMAN1 8/19/2010 11:43AM

    Gerard Butler????? Since when did Woody Allen lose his place in your heart?

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JRDIAMOND4 8/19/2010 11:38AM

    Oh Girl!!! We have a lot more in common than you think. I tell my husband all the time the only reason Gerard Butler is not married yet is because he hasn't met me. lolololol

I absolutely love cheesecake and pecan pie. They are my favorites.

You ride hogs, I ride horses. Hey, horse power is horse power. lol

Same number of siblings. I have 2 older brothers and 3 younger sisters.

I live in a hick town in Florida, but my parents were born and raised in a hick town in Ohio. I have lots of family still there. lol Do you know any Lewis'?

This is just tooo funny. I will have to steal this from you when I have more time.

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 8/19/2010 11:31AM

    Favorite Color? shouldn't the answer to this be black and gold? I'm with Brian - I cheer for Orange and black!

I've never had anyone else say that they hate their feet coming out of the covers in bed - I told a friend that and she said she thought I was crazy. I said what's your point? LOL

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BKNOCK 8/19/2010 11:14AM

    See, you are a lovable hick! Great blog!

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TAKE MY SPOON!

Monday, August 16, 2010

If I had a nickel for every time I hated what I saw on the scale I'd be able to afford lipo. Scratch that...I'd be able to buy my own private island in the Bahamas and not give a crap WHAT I looked like to anybody. I am very ticked off. Oh, I have no one to blame but my own self. I seem to have made it a habit to drown my jitters and nerves in at least one sinful snack a day and for that I should be duly whipped. And as I say "whipped" I'm thinking of that white fluffy stuff that I like to drown my cherry pies in as I speak. My bad! My TOTAL bad!

Okay, I'm not only blaming myself for the four pounds, I'm going to blame the market, too, for selling it, for putting it at eye-level next to the coconut cream pies. I will blame the stock boy who saw me coming and hurried to make sure it was well-stocked by the time my squeaky cart made it over there. Then I'm going to blame the management for putting it on sale for forty cents off regular price. The mail man is getting it, too, for putting the coupons in my mailbox so I could take an additional twenty cents off. Then Brian is getting "nailed" for saying he needed nail clippers. Why? Because if he didn't say he needed nail clippers, I wouldn't have put the coupon in my purse, drove to the store next to where nail clippers were sold and by the whipped cream. Or the pie. Or the chocolate milk. These people are all on my list today and somebody is gonna pay!

Or...

....maybe I need to do some self-reflection. Right? I mean, I AM the one who put spoon to mouth, who allowed my old ways of self-medicating with food win over my spirit. I've been really ticked off at a "friend" lately, I'm nervous over Bre's departure and I've been having a lot of self-doubts about myself. WAIT! The OLD me did this kind of thing. The old me thought, "Oh, whatever. Let me eat. Who cares! I'm not trying to win any contests!" I knew something was up when the "muffin tops" returned above my jeans. While contemplating how they got there, I was inwardly wondering if there was any carrot cake left. It was then I recognized puffy Michelle and the old train of thought so I asked myself, "What's eating ME?"

Okay, the stock boy, managers, the post man and Brian are safe...for the time-being. I am on my way to slam the scale against the wall, throw out the crap that birthed these muffins on my sides and meditate. First things first, forgive myself. Then forgive the friend. THEN, if things go well, dig deep in this pile of rubble and find the real me who conquered the old me at one time and make peace. Do I REALLY want to have to lie down on the bed, suck my gut in and use a fork to pry the zipper up on jeans again? No. That could be dangerous for anybody, let alone ME. I need to get with it. I need to pray. I need to LOVE ME.

Today is the day to start over.



  
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GREGGWEISBROD 11/15/2013 4:25PM

    Perfect! :-D This next post plays greatly into my plan to write something witty and smile-worthy! lol, ok. First of all, hilarious post, as always. Secondly, I love the constant use of the word muffin-tops in reference to the female body (guys I guess always use love handles). I remember the first time my wife used that word to describe her body, I had never heard it referenced before. I laughed so hard that I choked a little on my own saliva. Then I went on a rant about how the muffin top is the absolute BEST part of the muffin! Everyone loves the muffin top! Well... not everyone, but all sane people love themselves a good muffin top, lol. So I find it hilarious that girls use that to refer to something negative. :-D Lastly, it's easy to look at that picture of you and say with a perfect clarity that you, simply put, were gorrrrrrgeous there... but I've learned from this journey that it really comes down to how we perceive ourselves, and learning to find that place where we're confident and comfortable in our own skin. So even though you were clearly slammin', I understand the frustration that comes with not being in your 'sweet spot'. The place where everything comes together perfectly. Oddly enough, for me, every day is like a new sweet spot, lol. I'm sure once I achieve a certain look, it'll become a standard to hold all other looks up to. For now though, I'm just enjoying the handsome stranger who looks back at me in the mirror, wondering where the heck he came from, lol. Hope you have a great weekend, hope your Steelers kick some butt! :-D

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DUTCHIEKIWI 8/17/2010 12:30AM

    First of all...
and trust me I'm not just saying that, as I'm not the person to 'just say that'...
The pic you posted is still bloody hot!!
Look at that waist, those curves woman.... I understand you are ticked off (read pissed) but no matter how awful you feel about the gain, you DO still look very attractive. I know I'm a woman, and I like... no LOVE men... but I can recognize a hot chick when i see one, it's true and I'm proud of that!

next comment...
( did I hear you say I talk too much??)

RESET BUTTON!!!!

press that reset button....

forgive yourself, and more then that, forget about all the things you have eaten over the last weeks... months

Just pretend you have short term memory loss and START OVER FRESH!!

It's a new day, a new beginning and all of us together supporting one another....
we can do this and baby...
WE ARE GOING FOR GOAL!!!!

Fold the jeans away.... in a safe place.
Get crackin' and before you know it you'll slide right back into them, smooth and silky!!!

Don't be mad...

get even!!!!

RESET!!!!

R>
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FLEMIDG 8/17/2010 12:21AM

    Oh, Michelle, I so look forward to reading your blogs. I can just see that scale flying across the room on fire. I hope you open the door first, though. Don't beat yourself up about what you have done wrong. Just start over. You know what you need to do, and I know you will be able to do it. I know it is frustrating with all that's on your mind. I know its hard to let go of your daughter, but you know that God is going to be there watching out for her, and He will watch over you too.
Keep plugging along dear friend. You know that all of us truly love you and we are there for you any time you need us.

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USFBULL 8/16/2010 11:43PM

    emoticon Rutrow emoticon Rutrow! Rutrow! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Rutrow! Rutrow! Rutrow! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Rutrow! ok, man this is a tough road, We can do it! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MUSIC66 8/16/2010 11:38PM

    sorry you feel of the wagon i know you will dust your self off and pick your slf up . emoticon.

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GEEMAWEST 8/16/2010 11:20PM

    I could have written this blog. Except that I'm not ticked at a friend, but I am ticked at things going on at work.

Let's both start new, shall we. I'll take your spoon and you take mine. But I don't think we should spoon together. That would be too weird. LOL

Here's to a new day!!

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WALKOFFWIN 8/16/2010 11:09PM

    OK, this is now the KING of emotional eating weighing in here... Look at me at my heaviest on my page, and you'll see where it got me. Being stressed and depressed have led to many a late night binge for me. But at least you still care enough to get upset about gaining 4 pounds right now, instead of giving in to a "fucidol"attitude for the next five years like I did. I don't blame you for feeling frustrated and angry as well as the painful sense of loss over Breanna leaving for school. I don't blame you for slipping into chocolate sugary whipped cream pie excess.

Because I know you have enough fight in you to fight back and do what you know you need to do. My money is on you, Michelle. I'd make a serious wager that you'll soon drop those four pounds as well as the mild overflow in those hourglass curves of yours. I know you can do it, because you're really a very strong person who won't let a minor setback derail you. Step up to the plate, Michelle... the one with your favorite salad on it.
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DONGR8NCHARNC 8/16/2010 7:45PM

    Take a deep breath.......exhale- scales can be expensive to replace (LOL! I just can't wait for the next news from the Williams Household!

Denise
Team Butterfly
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AZCUPCAKE 8/16/2010 4:24PM

    You are just too precious for WORDS, dear Michelle!! How did you know I tried on my "Hot-Rockin' Mama" blue jeans from four years ago THIS VERY MORNING and couldn't get them over my THIGHS?!? And believe me, I blamed every single person, place and THING (and a couple of PETS, too!) for this "overage of muffin-ness" to occur! It certainly wasn't ALL my own fault, now, was it?!?

Your idea to start over is the best thing to do. You are not alone in this constant back-and-forth tug of war that seems to be a lifelong battle for people like us who use food to self-medicate when we are feeling ANYTHING that makes us all wiggly inside (that can be GOOD OR BAD things, in my case!). I am right there with you - I will put down my fork and spoon until it is placed in front of a nutritious, healthy meal that will ultimately make me feel GOOD about choices I make, food-wise. Treats and whipped cream-covered pies are NOT our friends, but boy, they sure do have their allure! But we will be strong, right???? WE CAN DO THIS! We will be wearing our "rocking-hot mama" jeans in NO TIME if we heed this call of self-discipline!

Love you lots! Hugging the snotty goobers out of ya from all the way over HERE! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CALIMAN1 8/16/2010 3:45PM

    Well, I think many of us are struggling with this backsliding into weird eating behaviors....just yesterday I went to a going away celebration and lo and behold, someone baked cookies....oh, no, not just one kind, but several types...and they were sitting next to, mmm hmmm, brownies, devil's food cake, bean dip, spinach dip, and, oh, yeah, someone through vegetables in there...

And, no, not a single vegetable made it into my mouth...however, I am now a walking dictionary of all thing cookies.

Your blog was timely...I appreciate it...I appreciate how you tied it to being than more than just eating...and I greatly appreciate how honest you are about these struggles....we are not alone, are we? We'll be ok...all of us, together, we'll be ok.

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LEFTCIRCLES 8/16/2010 2:14PM

    I'm tellin ya, throw the scale away, use measurements and photos to measure your progress, SAVE YOUR SANITY!!!!

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GREENFROGGIE9 8/16/2010 1:31PM

    Hi Michelle,

I agree. It's terribly difficult to avoid sweet stuff when we're feeling stressed out. (I've been eating way too much chocolate lately--about 1/3 of my daily calories--no joke!!--and I know it's because I'm worrying about a zillion different things right now.)

Your suggestion to reflect rather than beat yourself up is the key.

Ask yourself what are you missing that the sugary stuff is replacing. Ask yourself why feeling what you're feeling is so bad that you have to numb yourself with sugary foods. (My confession? I hate letting go. I will do anything to keep myself from bawling, even if it means stuffing myself...it's like a frantic search to do ANYTHING to keep from crying, because I worry that if I start I will never stop. Of course that's not true, but that's what it FEELS like to me.) Ask yourself if eating the sugary stuff is giving yourself a sense of control. (Sometimes I feel so out of control that I over-eat because it is SOMETHING I CAN CONTROL....even if it's not good for me. Acknowledging that I choose to over eat allows me to acknowledge that I have the power to choose to not to over-eat.)

Remember that control is an illusion. God is in control. Trust in God and know that everything will be alright. We can't see the big picture. God can. Trust in Him that what's happening right now is GOOD even if it hurts, because God always wants what's good for us. Remember God is our Heavenly Father. Tell him how you feel...the good and the bad, and let him comfort you.

Remember children are not ours. They are a gift from God. He loans them to us for a while, asking us to raise them to the best of our ability. Then the time comes when we have to give them back to God. Trust that your teaching, your love, God's love, and all the good people in Bre's life will take care of her.

You are loved by all of us, and you will make it through this. It's just really hard.

Take care,
Catherine xo

PS. In some people's eyes, your pain is a blessing, because you were able to share your life with a beautiful daughter for 18 long years. You wouldn't be feeling this awful if you didn't love her so much. Lucky you to have had such a wonderful experience.


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VRADAA 8/16/2010 1:19PM

    Hey there,
One day at a time, you do have all the tools you need, just need to focus on the positive actions you CAN DO! You ARE beautiful and think of all of the things you have accomplished and CAN do!
BTW, I would give anything to have a body like yours.....some of us are still struggling being obese and above!! Love and be thankful for your body!!

Tina

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LNWOLF72 8/16/2010 1:16PM

    Michelle if thats you in the pic I will trade you any day of the week...your "muffin" for my "dinner rolls"...you look darn good! 4 lbs isnt so bad if you realize and learn from it. Try having a steroid shot and gaining 30 back...yes I said 30 :( Makes me want to leave a spoon imprint in my doctors head!

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NANALD 8/16/2010 12:49PM

    You need to be syndicated! The good news is that you know what the problem is. The bad news is that there are folks that will read this and think you are serious! I have no doubt that once you make the final decision the junk food will be banished and all those evil people better get out of your way!

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DARLENEK04 8/16/2010 12:44PM

  Babygirl, if I looked as good as you do, I'd be proud.
Personal email following this, and look to be slow, because our internet
service is down and of course the stinking repairman is on the way for
the last 4 hours..........BUT don't feel like the lone gainer here...I have put on
6 lbs and I am so sick at heart, I don't know what to do.
Anyway, I am off to email you but I am on the notebook so don't look for a
flying speed out of me til the regular is up and running....
MammaD

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BIKERBABE2BE 8/16/2010 12:13PM

    My friend if I had a nickle for everytime I've had this conversation with myself I could buy the island next to yours. So, forgive and move one. Meditation is a good idea and maybe a walk to get rid of some of those extra calories and to burn off some of that anger, anxiety, etc.

If I was there, I'd like to tell you'd I'd take the spoon away from you, but I'd probably just scooch in next to you and help you eat it.

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DISP770 8/16/2010 11:56AM

    Aw Michelle....you made me laugh and almost cry at the same time....for some reason I got a little teary reading it.

Why does this have to be so hard for us?? We all have our motivation, yet it does nothing for us. We all know what we need to do, yet we do the opposite. It scares me a little to think that this IS an addiction, and one that is just as difficult to beat, if we ever do, as drugs or alcohol.

I don't have any children yet, but I know when I do I'm going to make them crazy worrying just like my mother did to me. And family/friend stress...well that just keeps coming for me also lol.....(the "outlaws" drama!!)

And girl....if that IS you in that pic....WANNA TRADE????!!! LOL

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CARTOONB 8/16/2010 10:23AM

    Wouldn't it be easier to take it out on the managers, the post man and Brian? At least you recognize the problem even if you don't completely have the solution done. And knowing you, you have what it takes to conquer that old Michelle, hold her down and beat her to a pulp!! LOL!!

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LMB-ESQ 8/16/2010 10:04AM

    Hear hear!!! I'm up too, and I can't stand myself. I noticed the muffin top again too, only you're braver than me... no way on this earth or any other am I posting a pic of myself right now! On top of that, I have absolutely no motivation to work at taking off the poundage I packed on over the last three months. I sure hope this changes once school starts and I can back into a routine. So easy to blame somebody else, isn't it? But we can't **Sigh**

Say... do me a favor, and when you're done shooting and burning your scale, pass the gun and the matches this way, would you?

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ONEREALLYBIGDOG 8/16/2010 9:06AM

    What an entertaining way to start MY morning!

I loved the way you were able to SPread the blame around and even got in the poor mailman, but eSPecially Brian who needed a pair of nail clippers cause he was nervous enough to bite his nails over that coupon! LOL

I understand ALL about those SPoons too! I got tired of using forks, cause the food would drip off the fork between the tines, so a big SPoon is my choice too. My excuse is to measure the number of bites I take and log on the nutrition tracker that I ate 4 SPoons of that cream pie, my SPoons are the size of a corn ScooP!

I saw your photo at the end and agree with others that you look great. I'm your brother and if I said that you looked "HOT" or something crazy like that, well, that is NOTHING that a brother would say!

Hang in there Sis,
watch that fork in the zipper too!

I'll pray with you and we ALL love you too!

Have a great day
and let us know if that scale still works after it's SLAMMED UP AGAINST THE WALL!

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PATTIEDUNN 8/16/2010 8:51AM

    I loved reading your blog. You look hot in the picture too. Dont be so hard on yourself. emoticon

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BKNOCK 8/16/2010 8:42AM

    I love your honesty! I feel about the same way you do! I ate way too much on my vacations and now it is time to get serious. Let me know if I can help you in any way and maybe you can help me? But at least you know what to do and you have faced it!

Wow, I almost want some marshmallow fluff now! LOL!
Take care sweetie,
love ya,
Betsy

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MITCHNVA46 8/16/2010 8:41AM

    You can do it!!! Make today the first day of the rest of your life. You are sooo right, it is easy to blame others or even circumstances, but bottom line, we are the ones who hold the spoon. I know that you can do anything you set your mind to. Just get that fire burning, trust the Lord for strength, and reach your goals...set your goals higher than you think, because, with God on our side, there is nothing we can't accomplish. Stop making me laugh about the fork...lol...that was too funny. Now get your butt up and take charge!!! Remember you got a whole group of friends here, cheering you on!!!
You are a beautiful person, inside and out!!!
Mitch
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JDTHUMPER 8/16/2010 8:37AM

    OK you admitted your faults! Get over it and move on! Take your frustration out in the gym, abuse the tredmill, bike weights what ever your favorite routine is!
You and ONLY you can make this right! Not anyone else!

I know because I am fight the battle too! I love food or it allows me to love it! I use to love exercise and being a gym rat until I became pregnant now I am fat and sassy- lol.
I made myself a NEW VOW that I WILL MAKE CHANGES IN MY LIFE TO MAKE ME BETTER, THINNER, & A HEALTHIER MOTHER!!!!!!

Ok I am done yelling at you- you are beautiful and I know you can do this. An alcoholic isn't cured forever they struggle everyday, so someone like us addicted to sweets well we are never cured we will constantly struggle to resist this drug!!

When we put sugar in we get #'s back along with the fat. Well no more!!!!


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MUSTANG_SALLY2 8/16/2010 8:35AM

    Some days, self medicating with the ole standbys is hard to resist. Thank you for the reminder that we make mistakes and that we have to forgive ourselves and try again. Some days, that's really hard to do!

I got to hold a 6 mo. old baby girl this weekend and the dad was joking about when boys started to come calling (at least I hope he was joking! it involved punched noses) and all I could think about was how fast she'd be like Bre and ready to head to college. It seems only a heartbeat since several of my nieces and nephews were that size. That's enough stress for anybody! Ugh!

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