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Mick Jagger Was Right

Sunday, October 21, 2012

There is a song by the Rolling Stones that says, "You can't always get what you want. But if you try sometimes, you might just find, you get what you need." I'm pretty sure he was meaning it in a different context than what I am about to use here, but the premise is still the same.

I was very excited Thursday about finalizing my plans for Bridge Day in Fayetteville, West Virginia at the New River Gorge. It is a place for BASE jumpers, rappellers, and zipliners to exhibit their abundant love and appreciation for the open air and streak of dare devil that runs through their veins. I have enjoyed the thrill of ziplining yet seriously considered the thought of rappelling this time, maybe even doing a tandem jump. The organization that runs this event was offering ten tandems this year. Knowing my chances of getting one of those would be slim, I still entertained the notion that I might be one of them and spent the night in breathless wishful thinking...

Friday's forecast was not promising. No, they would not cancel the event unless the winds were horrendous but I was more worried about whether Brian would let me go. The temperature was not budging out of the low 50s, the rain was slamming our area and the winds were quick. I knew that riding my Harley down would probably be out of the question. Late Friday evening I received a text from Brian that made my heart drop. "Sorry, honey, I'm not letting you go. Maybe next year." I asked if we could drive. "No. Not this year. I'll make it up to you."

Saturday morning I was stiff-lipped but broken-hearted. Tears stinging my eyes I folded laundry and swept the kitchen. Brian entered the room and told me to get dressed, that he was taking me out for lunch. I gussied up with dress pants, did my hair and put on some make-up. Then he told me I was overdressed. "Slap on your jeans, throw the hair up and put some tennis shoes on. You're not going to meet the Queen."

Thirty miles into Chillicothe we neared Tumbleweeds, one of our favorite spots. He drove past it, a slight smile on his face. We neared Olive Garden where, once again, he whizzed by. Another 20 miles up the road and I noticed that we were entering Lancaster. What? That is where my son, whom I haven't seen in eight months, worked and lived. I looked at him quizzically and he glanced over, smiling broadly. "Don't say anything, Michelle, just go with the flow."

He pulled into the place where my son was employed, told me to stay in the car while he went in to see if he was there. A few minutes later he returned...with my son. I fell out of the seat with tears streaming down my face and into the arms of my boy. He looked so well, so handsome, so happy. This man-child, who has been to hell and back so many times, finally looked content and well-adjusted. A few weeks ago he and I had reconciled, presenting me with a new grandchild whom he named after me. Her middle name was mine. Nicole. We couldn't visit long, ten minutes at best and I asked if I could go see Sabrina and the baby but she was out of town at her mother's. We hurriedly made plans to meet again in a few weeks when we could all be together.

But that was not all. That would have been enough, but the day yielded more surprises. Brian made his way down the winding highway to Hocking Hills. It is well-known for its trails and rustic outdoor activities. That is where I've ziplined before, explored its many caves and beautiful landscapes. We got out of the car and Brian exclaimed, "Race you to the trail..." and took off with blinding speed. I beat the old man to the mouth of the trail and we breathlessly viewed the colorful neon leaves, encountered other hikers and breathed in the crisply scented air. Three hours. Three hours of us, exploration, climbing, fellowship with others. He was severely winded by the time we finished...but in-between gasps he stated, "Now I know why you do this... it's beautiful."

We ran into a little 50's diner, one of those round ones enclosed in aluminum and metal and took our meal there. Then we toured the flea markets, trading posts and craft barns. It was then we saw a little motorcycle shop nestled just off the wooded area and we both ran over top of each other to get there! (He said I kicked him in the shin to put him a few steps behind me but he lies so don't believe him. Seriously. He's bad news.) We were there a half hour when I realized Brian was gone but I found him quickly, cozied up at the counter talking to a woman. They were forehead to forehead, looking at something Brian had in his hand. Eyeing his butt up, I determined where my foot was going to land when I heard him say, "And this is one she did when she came back from Florida." He was showing her pictures of my paintings on his camera. Face turning red I approached them and smiled. The redheaded beauty smiled back broadly.

"Sweetie, I was just telling your husband that I have a proposal for you. Would you be interested in putting your paintings on my wall? I would, of course, take a commission on whatever you sell, but my rates are rock bottom. Just price them a little higher than what you normally sell them for...I want your business."

Yes? Yes, yes, yes!!

Returning to the car and beginning the drive back home Brian asked, "So how was your day?"
"It was wonderful. Thank you. So much."
"Still wish you had went to Bridge Day??"
"What's Bridge Day?"
Smiling he reached over and took my hand.

No, you can't always get what you want.

But if you try sometimes, you might just find, you get what you need. And sometimes, just sometimes, you'll find it is what your heart wanted in the first place.


Photo of a region nestled in Old Man's Cave, Hocking Hills. For more beautiful amazing pictures of this area, please visit: www.citrusmilo.com/hockinghills/hock
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JUNIAATROME 10/26/2012 1:53AM

    lovely!

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SHARON10002 10/25/2012 11:58PM

    Oh my gosh! So glad you reunited with your son! How wonderful is that!!! And you're going to see your new granddaughter in a few weeks!!!
What a fantastic husband you have - one who loves you very much!
I do bevel he's a keeper!!! emoticon Loved the pictures, and sent the link to my son who just moved to Dayton.
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What a perfect day!

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CHERIRIDDELL 10/25/2012 11:07PM

    What an awesome day I am so gtlad you had such a lovely time! hugs.Cheri

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MISHKALA 10/25/2012 10:42AM

    What a sweet, wonderful gesture! Your husband is a thoughtful, beautiful spirit - and you both are so blessed to have each other. And congratulations on seeing the other important man in your life! emoticon

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GETTINGFIT4HIM 10/23/2012 2:14AM

  Wow!!! You are very blessed to be married to this man who knows you so well and loves you so much. emoticon

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JERMADSON7 10/22/2012 11:23PM

    Very happy for you. Been to Hocking Hills myself and it is nice.

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 10/22/2012 12:28PM

    My best friend and I took our dogs to Hocking Hills once upon a time. It was such fun! I wouldn't do the caves tho. Ick. Too scary.

I'm so glad you got to see your son. I was excited that that would mean you got to hold your new baby. Alas, I will have to wait for that bit of excitement. Keep me posted tho. I wanna rock her so much. You'll have to do it for me.

I think that rotten weather is a blessing in disguise. Your real weekend seemed like way more fun to me than the one you were dreaming of! LOL

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ARUNNINGKAT 10/22/2012 12:27PM

    How sweet of your hubby! What a wonderful day for you!

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FAERY_FACE 10/22/2012 9:09AM

    What a great turn-around of a day. I am so glad it went that way. The blessings just keeps coming! I am truly happy for your sake!

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BKNOCK 10/22/2012 7:55AM

    Wow, what a great day! I am so happy to hear that Paul looks so good! Tell Brian he is an Okay Guy! Wow I am so excited to hear about your art being sold, that is so way cool! It is about time girl!

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NISSANGIRL 10/22/2012 6:42AM

    emoticon this was awesome! U have a wonderful Husband , what a wonderful thing to do to cheer u up! so glad u got to see your son and made some plans to get together with the family. emoticon on the grand baby! u don't look old enough to have a grandchild girl. And also emoticon on being able to sell your paintings in that diner! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BRADMILL2922 10/22/2012 12:08AM

    That was a really great story! I am so happy for you with seeing your son and the news on your art! How cool is that? Now I will consider Mick's words as even more wise now that I will associate them with your story! Glad your day went so well!

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CARTOONB 10/21/2012 10:57PM

    Sounds like you had a fantastic day! Better than Bridge day could have ever been!

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JADOMB 10/21/2012 7:37PM

    Sounds like a much more beautiful day than you had planned. God bless your family for loving you as much as they obviously do.

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GEEMAWEST 10/21/2012 6:58PM

    What an awesome day! Good for you and good for Brian!

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WALLAHALLA 10/21/2012 6:19PM

    Thanks for sharing your blessings...they are worth rejoicing over. I'm doing a happy dance for ya! emoticon

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AJDOVER1 10/21/2012 6:07PM

    Thanks for sharing these glimpses of your life. You are truly blessed.
Hugs,
Aurlie

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IAM_HIS2 10/21/2012 4:57PM

    Love this blog...thank you. I am glad we can't always get what we want!

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ALWYS-LKN-UP 10/21/2012 4:49PM

    You are an amazingly talented woman & how super cool of the hubster to share your pictures & it ending up with her wanting to sell them!

Mick Jagger was absolutely right & I'm so happy you had such a blessed day all the way around!

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BYTHEGRACE 10/21/2012 4:28PM

    How wonderful is all of that...I had tears in my eyes at the end...you are one blessed gal in so many ways!!!

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KATRINAKAT23 10/21/2012 3:44PM

  Beautiful blog!! Your hubby sounds awesome,
but then so do you.

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KAYOTIC 10/21/2012 3:41PM

    Great post! Thanks for sharing you're wonderful day....just what you need...

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Perhaps Hypnotism?

Thursday, October 18, 2012

My husband has always been slim...except for a little muffin around his middle, he has never been overweight. In fact, he's worn the same size jeans since we were married 20+ years ago. He can eat anything he wants, whenever he wants it and how much he wants OF it. I'm not saying that is good for him, as my advice seems to fall on deaf ears anyways, but he's just wired to burn calories as fast as he can put them in. There are times I just want to, well, be childish, pound my pillow with my fist and bellow out a "Whyyyyy??! NOT FAIR!"

Because I, on the other hand, have to steadfastly focus, making sure I don't go over, go under or go crazy. One side of the fridge is his, the other mine. Fruits, fresh veggies, Greek yogurt, stuff that I know is going to keep my mind and body in balance, usually goes into the drawers. Every now and then I will find a pack of bologna in with my grapes but I calmly take it out and put it in his designated area. What I REALLY want to do is stomp on it but I know I will have to clean up the mess afterwards.

When he offers me a bowl of his Moose Tracks I might take a few bites...okay, so what, I might take a bowl EVERY NOW AND THEN, but I've never heard him say, "Mmm. That lettuce is good! Can I have a WHOLE BOWL of it??" Or, "Since beans are so great for me, I will eat them proudly, not caring what my coworkers think!" I'm not beyond sneaking a few things into his diet when I can. I have significantly lightened up my lasagna, even sneaking spinach and other odd things into it, just to get him some nutritional value. Needless to say, other things have flopped. Such as the sugar-free Jello I packed into his lunch. "Why did that smell like tennis shoes when I opened it?"

Bre has even gotten into the act with, "Dad, you need to explore your options, open your mind. Would it help if I molded the tofu into the shape of a steak??" Umm, can't say I really blame him on that one...

Sigh. I've been racking my brain with other stuff to try. New recipes, new presentations, colorful varieties of hearty vegetables, broiled to perfection. I still believe I need to live by example. When he eats ice cream, I sit beside him with yogurt mixed with blueberries, strawberries. When he asks if I want a candy bar in the check-out line, I say, "Nope! I want a banana!" and watch in dismay as he grabs a Snickers. But I have hope. I believe he will see my way some day.

It will just take some time. He had a doctor's visit today to measure his cholesterol levels. His blood pressure was absolutely normal. Everything else, normal. I am thankful but I do wonder how long it will stay that way. He did have a heart attack six years ago, almost dying on the operating table. Twice. For awhile he ate like a pro, even lecturing ME on what I was putting in my mouth. But the old habits have returned, he IS getting older and it is always in the back of my mind. I also know that I cannot force my habits, or my desires for him to eat healthy on him, that it has to be a personal choice. But it just erks me to no end, seriously.

Perseverance is perhaps the key on my end. Armed with healthy cookbooks and a positive attitude, I forge ahead. There's bound to be SOMETHING I can do to help him, even if I have to sneakily do it. (I can be a ninja when it comes to that. Like black ops. S.W.A.T. Cat-like. Meow.) It's gonna happen, I tell ya. Or I'm just gonna sit on him and say, "Say 'Uncle,' Brian, you loooose. Now eat this green pepper! Open. Ooooopen..." It'll be kinda like giving a cat a pill and we all know that ain't pretty.

So much for not forcing him, huh?

If all else fails, I'll try hypnotism. It can't hurt.

Have a great evening, Sparklers. God bless. You are loved.
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SHARON10002 10/25/2012 11:43PM

    Here's a few lines for a starter:

You are getting sleeeepy . . .
You are wanting veggies . . .
Snickers taste creepy . . .
Moose Tracks make you sneeze . . .
It's your wife you want to please . . .

Now all you need is the pocket watch!

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GETTINGFIT4HIM 10/23/2012 2:08AM

  I can empathize with you for sure! I'm forever trying new ways of eating healthy and new foods and DH just wants to eat "normal" foods. Why do I need to eat quinoa, whole wheat pasta, Greek yogurt, cereal that looks like stuff you find on a forest floor of twigs, etc., and my favorite - you want me to eat HOW MUCH fiber per day? Are you TRYING to kill me?" No, honey. Trying to save you from yourself. Thankfully he does go along with many things such as whole wheat bread, dairy products without hormones in them and has been better about more well rounded meals. What gets me too is how fast he can lose weight when he tries to how painstakingly slow the progress has been going for me! emoticon

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ILIKETOZUMBA 10/20/2012 9:18PM

    Ooh, that's a tricky situation. I know you just want the best of health and longevity for your husband, but it's so hard to get somebody to change until they really want to do it themselves. I think you're doing great to try sneaking in healthier foods and lightening up recipes without telling him. At some point, though, he's going to have to give up some of that junk food. Not all of it - I would never advocate switching to a COMPLETELY healthy diet - I am a big fan of "everything in moderation" - but it does sound like he needs to be a bit more health-conscious in terms of diet. I don't know how to tell a person that, though. That's a tough one. I bet SP has some information or a message board post or something about this kind of situation, though. Best of luck and health to you and your husband!

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IAM_HIS2 10/20/2012 3:09PM

    He's got a great metabolism and you got a great feminine figure. God made you His way, the way that is best.

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TRENTDREAMER 10/20/2012 8:59AM

    "There are times I just want to, well, be childish, pound my pillow with my fist and bellow out a "Whyyyyy??! NOT FAIR!" "
* Wait, are you calling me childish for doing that?

"okay, so what, I might take a bowl EVERY NOW AND THEN, but I've never heard him say, "Mmm. That lettuce is good! Can I have a WHOLE BOWL of it??""
* That's because lettuce is not icecream.

"Sigh. I've been racking my brain with other stuff to try. New recipes, new presentations, colorful varieties of hearty vegetables, broiled to perfection. "
* Am an anti-vegetable guy as well. If we were offline friends, it would be the same with me. I have female friends who are always trying to get me to eat vegetables.

"I also know that I cannot force my habits, or my desires for him to eat healthy on him, that it has to be a personal choice. But it just erks me to no end, seriously. "
* You're right that perseverance is probably the key.

" It's gonna happen, I tell ya. Or I'm just gonna sit on him and say, "Say 'Uncle,' Brian, you loooose. Now eat this green pepper! Open. Ooooopen..." It'll be kinda like giving a cat a pill and we all know that ain't pretty. "
* Actually it's much less frustrating to get the cat to take the pill (again, I say this as an anti-veggie guy)

My suggestion is to puree the vegetables into sauces. I had a female friend who was a great cook who would do that with pasta sauce to get me to eat more vegetables (she admitted it later, but I kind of knew she was doing it).

Prep recipes that involve his favorite meats and carbs with vegetables that go well with them.

Growing up, my brother hated eggs and I hated green beans. yet my mom would cook this egg and greenbean casserole that both of us loved. The only other food that I can remember in it was onions (which was a food that I absolutely hated).

Hang in there. We anti-veggie people are really frustrating to those who care about our health.

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JUNIAATROME 10/20/2012 6:28AM

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JADOMB 10/19/2012 8:59PM

    You funny girl. Little do you know that he only does that in front of you. When he's away, he eats tofu and salad. LOL While he may have a faster metabolism, I am also guessing his job is a bit more demanding than normal. I know when I was actually working for a living I could eat anything also. But once I got that desk job and the kids got too old to chase around, my metabolism slowed down too.

I think you are doing fine and I'm sure he appreciates all your successes in getting him to eat good food. Don't give up on him.

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KEKEIKO 10/19/2012 3:51PM

    You're right! It's not fair. emoticon

Accidentally purchase frozen yogurt. Put a few peanuts and crunched up sugar free chocolate in it. Home made Moose tracks. emoticon

Save the Hypnotist for making him do the housework. emoticon

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STAYCXL-NOMORE 10/19/2012 10:15AM

    FUNNY some men have that ability ;( not fair
Stayc

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-MOJOJOJO- 10/19/2012 9:35AM

    I feel ya on this one! Although I cant say my bf is trim as he has gained a significant amount of weight. But yeah you can't tell them how to eat :/ he eats the worst and awful amounts of it too. It can be difficult watching him eat ice cream, pizza, pasta- all the naughty things I love but like you I hope one day he picks up on my eating habits and joins in (we can all dream, right? Haha) I wish my house was full off 100% healthy food and I didn't have to make 2 completely different meals because it does get tiring (my kitchen is messy more than it is clean!) I hope one day our men snap out of it and it doesn't take health scares but rather inspiration from us to change, if not just a teensy weensey bit! ~_~

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AJDOVER1 10/19/2012 9:08AM

    You are too cute! I have the same battle with my Guy! It's hard to convince him that I'm fighting FOR him, not WITH him.

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BKNOCK 10/19/2012 8:40AM

    Ha Ha, thanks for the laugh!

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FLEMIDG 10/19/2012 12:59AM

    Loved your blog. Hope you are able to get your dh to start eating healthy again.

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JERMADSON7 10/18/2012 11:49PM

    Hypnotism.

That's probably your best bet.
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BEAUTIFUL_REINA 10/18/2012 11:27PM

    Cute!

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CARTOONB 10/18/2012 11:25PM

    Hypnotism for him so he'll listen to you? Or hypnotism for you so you won't care? Either way, I hope it works!

BTW...my DH has finally started caring more about his health and eating more healthy foods. He still has room to improve, but we're working on it together. There *is* hope!

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DJ4HEALTH 10/18/2012 11:10PM

    If you make chili you can add grated carrots too and stuff like that, also drain and rinse the beef off after you brown it. That takes the grease off the food and he will not know the difference. Just a little tips that I have done with my family.

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BRADMILL2922 10/18/2012 11:03PM

    First of all, I just have to shake my head at people like that. I have to say, it drives me a little bit nuts that people can eat like that and not gain any weight! My brother was like that for a while but he hit 30 and not so much after that. My best friend is still like that. It is hard to be around them sometimes because I WANT SOME TOO! But glad all his numbers were ok! I hope it doesn't catch up with him anytime soon or maybe he will see your eating light and head that way. Like you said, live by example and maybe he will change his ways...why did a Michael Jackson song just flash in my head :)

Ohhh, Moose Tracks, how I miss thee! That is my favorite! Well, any combo of peanut butter & chocolate ice cream is the way to go! I'd probably have to sneak a bite every now and then also! But I do love Greek yogurt! I eat it every day.

If worse comes to worse, there are all kinds of recipes on the internet that sneak in ingredients into other foods. I am pretty sure Jerry Seinfeld's wife even published a book for parents to help with picky kids. You could always check out stuff like that. Then mix in a Flintstones vitamin or two and you will be making progress! Do they even make those anymore?

It sounds like you are trying to change some habits but it's hard unless they want too! Keep up the good fight!


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KAYE454 10/18/2012 11:00PM

  Great blog

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Screw The Past

Monday, October 15, 2012

I stopped talking to my mother-in-law six years ago, for reasons I won't disclose here. It was both sides, a refusal to admit our own parts in the problem that ultimately led to a breakdown in our relationship.

That being said, I learned the other day that she was in the hospital. At 78 years of age, it is almost never a good thing and to say that my heart didn't feel pangs of sorrow would be a lie. Suddenly the reason for not speaking with this woman didn't seem nearly as important as trying to made amends. When I heard that she was home, I hurriedly got myself together, grabbed Bre and made the drive to her house, not really thinking about the reception I would receive. But once there, I was slightly hesitant about going in. What if she told me to leave, that my part in her life was over, HAD been over for quite some time? I would be devastated. But I had to TRY.

Bre ran ahead of me and I followed, watching her enter the living room and go around the corner into the kitchen. I heard laughter as they embraced and said their hellos. I cautiously walked in and saw their loving encounter, tears coming to my eyes. Helen looked fragile, smaller, older. She glanced over Bre's shoulder and confusion touched her face as she saw me. I don't think she knew who I was. Letting loose of my daughter, she came around and stepped towards me as her eyes grew big. I held out my arms...

She fell into them. I grabbed her as tightly as I could and buried my face into her shoulder, gently patting her back as I took in her sweet warm scent. Then I felt her pull away, holding me at arm's length, as she exclaimed, "My goodness, where is the rest of you??!"

I was 80 pounds heavier the last time she saw me.

The next two hours were spent getting reacquainted with this woman, hugging, sharing, apologizing. We almost couldn't get our words out fast enough. We shared recipes, shared photos, held hands as she took me on a tour of her house, showing me her collection of glass birds and figurines that she dearly loved to collect.

Why didn't I do this sooner? Why did I wait so long to try to bury the hatchet? I came to realize that she was hurting just as much as I was at the severance of our relationship and didn't know how to take the first step towards making amends. She was blatantly honest about what it did to her soul because I was always seen as the "the daughter she never had."

I didn't realize how this was affecting me, not speaking with her. Because now I feel lighter. I feel like something is completed within me. I no longer have to stay home during Thanksgiving or Christmas while the rest of my family makes their rounds to her house. In fact, I'm going over and helping to prepare the mega-dinner she is planning for the whole entire family next month during the holidays.

It just feels good, ya know??

I've also just learned that I am a grandmother again. For years my youngest son has made very poor decisions in his life and wished to separate from the family dynamic while he went off to "find himself." I did not agree with the way he was doing that, yet did my best to let him know that I loved him through it all, that I would be here when he decided to come back to us. Then I received this picture on my phone last week...

The note that came with it said, "Mom. This is Klaire Nicole. We named her Nicole after your middle name. I married Sabrina like you said and am working. I am a supervisor now. I'm sorry. For everything. I miss you. Will you forgive me?"

Somehow I don't think that is going to be a problem, do you??

God bless you all today. If you CAN....forgive. It may not be a simple thing to do but it sure has made THIS girl feel alot better.
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ADARKARA 11/1/2012 12:26PM

    I'm really happy for you in mending your relationships =)

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TRIANGLE-WOMAN 11/1/2012 12:05PM

    Wow. Speechless...

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GETTINGFIT4HIM 10/23/2012 1:57AM

  God is good - ALL the time!! We recently had a sermon or two on how nothing happens by accident. We don't "just happen" to receive a text message from our son with news of a beautiful new grand baby. We don't "just happen" to hear the news our MIL has been ill and you were at a place you might not have been earlier to go over there and for her to be in the place she was to reciprocate the forgiveness and love. Such a beautiful story of God's mercies. Thank you for sharing. God bless!

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IRP1114 10/20/2012 12:47AM

    Good for you in taking the first step. So happy for all of you. I am sure the tension caused more than just you and her stress. I am all too familiar with situations like this where two people don't talk anymore so gatherings end up being awkward. I even had a short time of not talking to one of my sisters and like you I felt 1000 times better once we talked things out.
Congratulations on the new baby in the family! That is so exiting! Have fun cooking for the holidays. It's the beat part isn't it?
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BKNOCK 10/19/2012 8:16AM

    Wow, you are looking pretty good for an old Grandma! What a beautiful little girl. I hope that Paul is really okay!

I am so happy to hear that you will be spending Thanksgiving with the family.

Great blog! I am glad that you made John cry even after that fall!

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IAM_HIS2 10/19/2012 7:18AM

    Can't help but cry reading this beautiful blog. I am so very happy you opened your heart and are receiving the blessings that you so deserve. What a beautiful lesson for all of us to learn.

Congratulations on your beautiful granddaughter! God sure knows how to make things work out.

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SEPTEMBERSPIRIT 10/19/2012 4:12AM

    WOW - what a beautiful post and story... both of them. And what an adorable grandchild!

You are truly blessed and it's wonderful that you are letting go of past hurts to allow great love into your life.

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STAYCXL-NOMORE 10/18/2012 8:29PM

    Glad to hear you heard from your son and what a beautiful grandbaby you have , I have the same relationship with my mother -in law as you did many years have passed and now with all I am goin threw I know my DH is living with her and I hope she feels the pain that is has caused us all and hopefully giving her son some sound advice , glad to hear you can spend Christmas as a family again ENJOY those cherished moments my SF !
Stayc

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SHARON10002 10/18/2012 4:31PM

    Oh my gosh Michelle, this is like a story out of one of the "Chicken Soup for the Soul" books. Now that I've blasted through a box of Kleenex just reading this heart touching blog . . .
You have been working with God. Often we have to come to a place before God can intervene and work the miracles He has waiting for us. I am so very happy for all concerned, and isn't it wonderful that all of this is happening just in time for the holidays?! Congratulations on your new little gift from one new grandma to another! What an adorable little cutie pie she is!

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 10/18/2012 3:28PM

    What a beautiful girl! So much reconciliation in your life. I'm so happy (and teary eyed) for you. I have more than one I should forgive and let go. I just wish I knew how to begin. Sigh.

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GIRANIMAL 10/18/2012 2:18PM

    Wow! Two beautiful stories of loving connection. I am SO happy for you that you made amends with your mother-in-law so you don't have to live the rest of your life in guilt. My mom and her brother were barely speaking due to a fairly recent squabble when she died, and to this day (nearly 7 years later) I feel terribly sorry for him that he has to carry that around.

Your newest grandbaby is positively precious! Your son clearly came out of a confusing time in his life A-OK, and he had such a wonderfully loving and supportive mom to thank for that.

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CMBELISLE 10/18/2012 12:30PM

    Just beautiful! It sounds like everyone has come a long way toward healing.

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WONKYSOX 10/18/2012 11:44AM

    Wow! That's quite the touching story! I am so glad that you have managed to rekindle a relationship and congratulations on the new little grandbaby!

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MISHKALA 10/18/2012 12:22AM

    Oh my gosh! What a beautiful granddaughter! Angels come in all shapes and sizes, don't they? What a blessing! emoticon emoticon

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TRENTDREAMER 10/17/2012 8:09PM

    "God bless you all today. If you CAN....forgive. It may not be a simple thing to do but it sure has made THIS girl feel alot better. "
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ME_FIRST 10/17/2012 10:14AM

    How wonderful that you have 2 special people back into your life and a few special person too. Congratulations.

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JOHNTJ1 10/17/2012 8:47AM

    The past is over rated and you continue to be an inspiration in the present that guides us towards the future.

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FAERY_FACE 10/17/2012 2:43AM

    Wow, I am so glad that you have two restored relationships. Life is too short to stay angry at a loved one. Well done on having the courage to make the first move with your MIL. And I am so glad that your son is doing well too. What a beautiful baby! Congratulations! This is a real testimony of the grace of God when and where we least expect it.

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HICKOK-HALEY 10/17/2012 2:08AM

    What a wonderful week you had. Mending fences, and getting the note from your Son. Your Granddaughter is beautiful. I'm so glad all went well. emoticon

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CHRGRFAN 10/16/2012 11:34PM

  I am glad that I read this after I'd removed my mascara! Not that any would've been left after reading your story. Look how much good came out of you taking that really scary step of going to see your mother-in-law and your son sending you the picture of your granddaughter. Thanks for sharing that!

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AJDOVER1 10/16/2012 6:17PM

    I love hearing stories of amends healing families. You and your loved ones are blessed.

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GAMMY98 10/16/2012 6:15PM

    such a beautiful story. adorable granddaughter

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JUNIAATROME 10/16/2012 3:32PM

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JADOMB 10/16/2012 1:10PM

    I am so happy for you and your family.

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TRAINER_T 10/16/2012 12:21PM

    Tears are flowing....oh I am so happy that you got your family back together its all you really have in life that matters most. That child is adorable and your wisdom has obviously rubbed off on your son when you didn't think he was listening.

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TEENY2BEE 10/16/2012 12:09PM

    Oh my gosh...im so happy for you....i know you have such WEIGHT lifted off of your chest... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CATMAGNET 10/16/2012 11:42AM

    Thank you for such an uplifting blog! I'm so glad that multiple generations of your family were able to make amends and rekindle those relationships.

All the best to you! :)

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LANEYTHEGIRL 10/16/2012 1:24AM

    Oh wow. This brought tears to my eyes. I believe in life everything comes full circle. How wonderful for you that you are alive and well enough to enjoy this all.

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BRADMILL2922 10/15/2012 11:43PM

    That is quite a combination of occurrence's! First, it does feel good to make amends on something that you have been holding on to for so long. Your soul feels lighter! Really glad you had that moment with your mother-in-law and you guys are all good now!

Second, how cute is that baby? I'm with you, it doesn't seem like forgiving will be to difficult! Congrats Michelle on having another beautiful grandchild!

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SPARKENISTA 10/15/2012 11:34PM

    Congrats all around. It's great when everyone can let go of their anger and start fresh.

Adorable kid! Lots of luck to your son and his family. Good endings can and do happen.

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CARTOONB 10/15/2012 10:30PM

    Congratulations! On both making amends with your MIL and on the new grand baby. She's adorable!

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DARLY55 10/15/2012 8:40PM

    What a beautiful story. Thanks for sharing it with us. Better to get along, than possibly have regrets when it is too late to make amends. You did the best thing for both of you and for the rest of the family. Congrats on the new grandchild! What a cutie. The circle of life is truly amazing!

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LMB-ESQ 10/15/2012 8:03PM

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WISHICOULDFLY 10/15/2012 7:51PM

    Thank you for sharing such a beautiful experience. Congratulations on so much love coming back to you. You get to be a daughter again and a grandmother. Let's hope someone who has been afraid to take the first step will now find the courage after reading your story.

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CALIMAN1 10/15/2012 6:37PM

    dangit woman, that was a tear-jerker and a half...you have to warn macho guys when writing stuff like this. This, ALL of this, was so incredibly touching on so many levels. I don't know why it takes us so long to make amends, what's so hard about saying things like, "I'm sorry" and "I really miss you"...and sometimes even, "I am not sure what happened, but I am here now!"

Thank you for reminding me of the beauty of reconciliation and putting the past behind us while we move toward the future...

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GEEMAWEST 10/15/2012 6:22PM

    This is great! I am so happy that you made amends. I bet Brian is happy, too. How hard it must have been for him to go to his parents without you on the holidays.

That is one cute little girl! I'm glad Paul is finally listening to his mommy!

Love ya!

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JERMADSON7 10/15/2012 6:18PM

    HA! That kid is going to be spoiled, too, isn't she? I'm very happy for you, SK! I'm happy for your MIL, your son and your grandchild too. They just got an amazing woman back into their lives.

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ARUNNINGKAT 10/15/2012 6:02PM

    Thanks for sharing your story! I am so glad that you were able to mend some broken relationships. It will definitely make for some very wonderful holidays coming up! My family (mom, dad, siblings) pretty much haven't spoken to me since I got married seven years ago. I hope and pray that some day that will change. I have continued to send birthday cards, holiday cards and a few letters, but so far they seem unwilling to get over the fact that I married someone who was divorced. I don't know....your story makes me wonder if I should do more... but I am a little afraid. From all indications they still HATE my husband (although they really haven't spent any time with him) and I don't want to create havic with my marriage. You have given me food for thought......

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APACHESTEVE 10/15/2012 6:02PM

    Brought a tear to my eye as I envisioned the reunion. Glad it feels so right.

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KATRINAKAT23 10/15/2012 6:00PM

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Take care,

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Will It Ever Really Be Okay?

Tuesday, October 09, 2012

I seem to be having a difficult time today, feeling out-of-sorts, physically not up-to-par. My hike this a.m. didn't yield the desired results such as exhilaration or feeling refreshed. It was cold, damp, foggy; my body ached tremendously and still does. It is so defeating to me and my spirit. Sometimes it makes me want to give up physically, mentally and spiritually. It really does. I look at others who are able to do so much more and it is not for lack of trying that I don't do the same. I've tried, countless times, to run. To be the ultimate weight-lifter, to jog, to go long distances on my bike. I do well in the beginning but my body wants to break and scream at me for days thereafter.

It leaves me feeling like a broken person. I know that I have to take pride in my capabilities of what I CAN do but my heart has always wanted more. Often times I have asked God why He has given me lupus, a bad heart valve, yet a spirit that wants to run with the wind. I would be lying if I said it is something I accept because I don't. I don't feel sorry for myself and I DEFINITELY don't want pity. However, my pain turns to anger which turns to tears much of the time because I just want to be "normal." In my dreams I have no rash, my energy is ongoing, and my joints are moving flawlessly, rhythmically. There I can keep up with the best of them. And my heart, the physical side of it, is beating in a strong tempo, giving me the breath to endure the miles I see before me.

I don't do too bad with what I do have, though. So many people have greater disabilities, more challenges physically than I do right now...it could be worse so I do try to see the blessings that I do have. However, days like today? When it hurts just to get up out of the chair? I see the neighbor outside cutting wood, preparing for the cold nights ahead of him, the strength in his arms vibrating with each swing. Earlier today I watched a young couple jogging in town, laughing, and I WANTED THAT. The emotional toll is sometimes so intense that it is all I can do to go the bathroom or an empty room and hide my tears from others. (But I always strive to emerge with a smile saying, "Yes. I am fine.") I don't feel sorry for myself, again, I just want my body to be unchained from this cross I have to bear. I can imagine what I COULD do if I didn't have to be a slave to it. My heart-of-hearts would take me to the corners of this earth. It would prove to me what I know in my soul, that I am a strong person, capable of pushing myself to the limit, being free...to be the REAL me.

The reality is, I must work with what I have. I have accomplished so much since starting my SparkJourney. I have, all-in-all, lost 80 pounds. I might be regaining and re-losing the same five pounds here and there, but I have done it. I can't feel sorry for myself for that. I can't loathe the obstacles that I have overcome in my life. I've walked through hell and came out the other side a better person in some regards. Some experiences have made me guarded, thicker, not so trusting, but I think that is good in some ways. My heart has been broken many times because I love people, believe in them. Rejection has chipped away at me until I feel must guard my heart with my life now. I need to preserve what is left of me. I need to be thankful for who I have now, for WHAT I have now. I may be broken in some regards...

But I'm still a warrior. I'm still a fighter. I won't lie down and die, not just yet.

I just wish I could run.

I would never take that for granted.

Will it ever REALLY be okay?

Yes. One day it will all make sense. I know one day when I reach Heaven's Gate that I will burst through it like a thousand marathons. I will reach up to God's face, let Him take mine in His divine hands and smile down on me. For really, that is my ultimate goal. My ultimate destination. Where there is no more pain, mentally, emotionally NOR physically. That is where I will get my medal. My reward. That is where I will soar beyond my wildest imagination.

Thank you for allowing me to bare my soul. It helps me to get it out. This is my therapy. Tomorrow will be better. It always is.

I love you all so very much. You are truly a blessing to me.

  
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HDHAWK 10/17/2012 7:41PM

    emoticon You really have accomplished a lot. 80 lbs. Wow!

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JOHNTJ1 10/17/2012 8:52AM

    In her book Radical Acceptance, Tara Brach suggests that the way to true peace and balance in our lives is to "create space" for every experience inside of ourselves. In other words, dont fend off the painful ones, embrace them. Often they are very real feelings but simply not our true ones. When we create space for them we are accepting them and it is only then that we can find peace. Since I started living like this I've found a golden nugget. We cant improve anything until we accept where we are here and now.

Yes, some things remain very painful and hurtful and often too much to deal with but when we accept them as they are we begin to create seperation from them.

Be blessed today

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JUNIAATROME 10/16/2012 3:27PM

    I must work with what I have - that's the wisdom speaking. There is pain and happiness on all our ways; a perfect mix I guess to get us where God wants us so that we can figure out great truths like - I CAN work with what I've got. I can accomplish much. I can enjoy the life I have.

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TRAINER_T 10/16/2012 12:26PM

    You inspire and I dont know why you can't run, there are groups that teach you. Its about breathing and learning how to endour.

Everyone has an off day, and misty humid days kill my runs so just do the best YOU can do each day.

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LINDAMARIEZ1 10/15/2012 2:47PM

    You got up and ran gf! You did good!
love ya
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SHARON10002 10/13/2012 12:23AM

    Michelle, you are truly an inspiration to me! You accomplish so much and always turn your face to the sun.

I too wish I could run, but with an artificial hip that is not recommended. I am so envious of those on here who have gone from the couch to 5Ks, 10Ks, half marathons, marathons, and triathlons. They inspire me - you inspire me with your walks and the extent of your exercise.

"I seldom think of my limitations, and they never make me sad. Perhaps there is just a touch of yearning at times; but it is vague, like a breeze among flowers." ~ Helen Keller

Let your discouragement spur you on, and reignite your spark. Motivation is born of desire. The stronger the desire for something, the stronger the motivation. You’re searching for that diamond in the rough inside of you.

Keep your promise to yourself, I know you can do it!

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DENRNAJ 10/12/2012 4:54AM

    Wow- I don't think that I've ever read such despair and then in the same blog seen such courage of spirit. You inspire me to quit hiding from what I can be. Thank you for reminding everyone that there is a tomorrow, whether it is here or not.
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MUSTANG_SALLY2 10/10/2012 11:12AM

    I get so frustrated too. I don't have the same challenges as you but the ones I do have trip me up much more often than I would like.

I'm sending you lots and lots of hugs and wishing for you sunshine to fill up your soul. I get how these feelings can darken the day. I don't want that for you.

Hang in there and know that I'm cheering for you.

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STAYCXL-NOMORE 10/10/2012 11:12AM

    " I've walked through hell and came out the other side a better person in some regards. Some experiences have made me guarded, thicker, not so trusting, but I think that is good in some ways. My heart has been broken many times because I love people, believe in them. Rejection has chipped away at me until I feel must guard my heart with my life now. I need to preserve what is left of me. I need to be thankful for who I have now, for WHAT I have now. I may be broken in some regards...

But I'm still a warrior. I'm still a fighter. I won't lie down and die, not just yet. "

this paragraph really hit home for me today , I know his plan is bigger then mine and one day my heart will heal - it's just the not knowing WHEN that is the hardest part ! God Bless you SF , cause your right threw those Golden Gates out lives will be forever changed :)

Love U :)
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AJDOVER1 10/10/2012 9:50AM

    don't compare yourself to others! There is NO ONE like you! (but I'm trying)

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FLEMIDG 10/10/2012 12:27AM

    Lovely blog, Michelle. Sorry you are feeling so down. You are such a wonderful person and you have accomplished so much. You are an inspiration to all of us. I understand that you feel down sometimes, but don't stop trying. You can do this. You have done so much already. We're all here for you. Keep one foot in front of the other and you will come out ahead. God bless you. Sending you lots of love and lots of hugs.

Darlene

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DJ4HEALTH 10/9/2012 11:24PM

    What type of lupus do you have? I have SLE and have found that if I cut out wheat and most grains along with sugar and artificial sweeteners that I don't have all that pain and swelling that I get. My lupus affects my chest area, it build up fluids and makes it difficult to breathe at times and puts allot of pressure on my heart too.

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BRADMILL2922 10/9/2012 10:44PM

    Well, the first thing that comes to mind is that I would like to give you a big 'ol hug! I guess this wouldn't be much of a journey if we all didn't have our struggles, our tests. You are right, someday it will make sense but right now some things don't seem fair. I wish you the strength to make the best of what you can do and not to dwell on what you can't do!

You have come a long ways Michelle and for that you should be most proud! I know it is easier said than done most of the time, but really try to focus on the positive. Tomorrow is a new day and with it brings the chance to be a better you. You are strong and beautiful, inside and out, so don't forget that!

You bare your soul through your blogs and inspire us with your words. We are thankful for the person you are! You will be ok. Heck, you will be better than ok! You are, and will be great!

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IRP1114 10/9/2012 9:46PM

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Yes. Tomorrow is always better ;-)

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CARTOONB 10/9/2012 9:43PM

    I hope you can either meet your goal or be at peace with what you can do.

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KONRAD695 10/9/2012 9:23PM

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I wish I could soften life for you. I'm here whenever you need a friend.

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GEEMAWEST 10/9/2012 9:16PM

    I can so relate to how you feel. Between my back pain and the fibromyalgia I often have days like you had today. I certainly can't sit here and tell you that it will get better but I think you handle life pretty darn well. Just remember - the goal is to be a Tigger, not an Eeyore. And in my book you are definitely a Tigger!

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SPARKENISTA 10/9/2012 9:11PM

    Your blog is amazing. I felt the same way today. I dragged myself out for a walk but could not get into it. I have a lot of pain during the change of seasons. But I'll hang in there if you will!

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JERMADSON7 10/9/2012 9:04PM

    Hey kiddo. I get where you are coming from. I'm not going to tell you something that you don't already know but I feel the need to say it anyways. You are a beautiful person inside and out. But the inside is full of things that inspire us all. Alot of people look up to you and i am one of them. Not to mention that you are one of the strongest people I know. You have challenges, yes, but you challenge those challenges. That is strength.

Yes, sweetie, it's going to be okay. Keep looking up to your God and finding comfort where you can. We are here for you. You are a blessing to us and we love you too beyond measure. I hope that you feel better tomorrow. If not I can come down and take you for a ride in the Chevelle. You'd like that wouldn't you?
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1CRAZYDOG 10/9/2012 8:31PM

    I honestly don't blame you. I think ANYONE with challenges asks themself 2 one time or another "Why Me?" For sure.

BUT you have lost 80 lbs. despite your obstacles. That is incredible. Be proud of that, very proud.

It definitely takes it's toll when dealing with chronic problems. I am glad you blogged about it, though.



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KATRINAKAT23 10/9/2012 8:26PM

  Wow, you lost 80 lbs.!! That is a huge accomplishment.

I know you will come back stronger than ever.
You are a kind and beautiful person.

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Take care,
Kat

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WALLAHALLA 10/9/2012 8:13PM

    You can always run, dance, and even fly in your heart.
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LIZZYP609 10/9/2012 8:12PM

    emoticon sometimes i feel the same way and i have no challenges except for the little voice that tells me i can't.

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FEB_SHOWERS16 10/9/2012 7:32PM

    This made me cry!!! You are a beautiful person! emoticon

I'm praying you feel better tomorrow!

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JADOMB 10/9/2012 7:30PM

    You are loved and know love, what greater thing in life is that? Your accomplishments have been an inspiration to so many that are also struggling in their own ways. Stay strong and have faith, greater things are just around the corner. My prayers go out to you my friend.

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APACHESTEVE 10/9/2012 7:07PM

    Your blog brought more than one tear to my eye, not that I feel sorry for you, but more in empathy to your obviously deep running emotions. Know this: you are an inspiration to me in my journey to health. Seriously, it is my hope to look half as good in a swim suit as you do now. You inspire me to make better decisions on food, and to get out and exercise. Running again is perhaps a pipe dream for me because my knees are shot from being fat my entire life. Your inspiring me to be the best ME that I can be even if I never run, Id be blessed to go on a walk with you. If you don't see your strength, then let me be the mirror that you look in. Your strength inspires me to keep up my road that is so long.
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RICKISMOM1 10/9/2012 5:59PM

    This is a tremendous blog, well and honestly written. Disability (and many other challenges as well) is very much a two-sided thing. While it limits us, which your lupus is doing, it gives us the benefit of growth. And its fine to wish that you didn't have this challenge...
When I have gone through tough periods I imagine myself flying in the air towards my future, with G-d's support beneath me (and around me). May you have strength to live with your "wants", and I hope you can reach a bunch of them.....

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My Last Blog

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Until I get back from Florida, that is.
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Do you realize how long I've waited for this vacation to get here??? Sunday morning at 4 a.m. I am leaving to catch my plane. Hallelujah!

I'm only taking one bag. A DUFFEL bag. That's like, the first time EVER I've packed so light. Just the bare essentials this time. Like, travel size shampoos and soaps. No fancy crap either, like conditioner or socks. The old man is looking forlorn. I asked him what was wrong and I waited for the, "Oh honey, I'm going to miss you." What I GOT was, "What am I going to eat while you're gone???" Poor thang. I felt so bad for him that I went to the store and got some stuff that I could make and freeze for him.

Just as my luck would have it, my legs are in ugly shape, between getting tangled up in a briar patch the other day and getting ate up by chiggers. But WHO CARES. I will proudly lay on the beach and smile at the people as they look at them in disgust, because, quite frankly, I'll never have to see them again anyways. :)

I'm leaving the laptop at home. I'm not wearing make-up. I'm not doing my hair. I'm not doing anything but rise with the sun in the morning, taking a lone stroll on the shore, and talk to my God. Rest. Contemplation. Touching that peace that I need again. And eating at Angler's Bar and Grill. I hope that dark-haired waiter still works there...

That's him. I like him because he always gave me an extra big slice of Key Lime pie. :)

So, I bid you adieu in blog form until I come back refreshed and ready to hit the woodsy trail again, trading it for the warm white sand beneath my feet, for just awhile.

Take care. God bless.

  
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MARINEMAMA 10/7/2012 7:04PM

    Have a great time!!!M

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LINDAMARIEZ1 10/7/2012 3:41PM

    take me with you.....PLEASE!!!!!

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    Hope you are having a wonderful time on the beach. emoticon
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GEEMAWEST 10/2/2012 10:03PM

    As I write this I am sure you are having a great time. Can't wait to hear all about it!

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LUVS2BIKE101 9/30/2012 5:10PM

    WhooHoo! You go girl! You just inspired me to do the same.....I'm leaving this week to head west to visit sonny. Like you, I will pack very light and carry no make-up. I will contemplate as I line up face to face with the Grand Tetons. There I will do the things that brings me to realize just how great God is.
Thanks for opening my eyes to love life even more than I already do!
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LALMEIDA 9/30/2012 4:14PM

  emoticon Have a great vacation!

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FLY0NTHEWAL1 9/29/2012 2:30PM

    Have a great time!

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NO_SNOW_BODY 9/29/2012 12:49PM

    enjoy

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KONRAD695 9/29/2012 9:21AM

    If we had a leg contest, I think you would win. So when you're on the beach, know they can't be the worst on earth. emoticon I'll pray to my God for sunny skies and a wonderful trip. Please ask your God for my legs to hold together. Have a nice time unwinding. emoticon

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GETTINGFIT4HIM 9/29/2012 3:47AM

  Have an amazing time! Sounds lovely and I'm both excited for you and jealous for me LOL! Thanks for commenting on my friend feed the other day; miss you, too!

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SHARON10002 9/28/2012 11:36PM

    Michelle, I hope you have a terrific time, and that it feeds your needs spiritually, too. Soak up all that positive healing energy from the ocean and the air! Relax, refresh and rejuvenate . . .
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CARTOONB 9/28/2012 10:33PM

    Enjoy Florida! And that cute waiter. emoticon

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JADOMB 9/28/2012 1:16PM

    Have a great and safe time. It's always more fun when one actually leaves their junk behind. (NO, I'm not talking about your husband). I mean to travel light and enjoy God's creations instead of just transporting all the stuff you are trying to get away from.

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KARENE10 9/28/2012 11:51AM

    Have an awesome time!!! I loved this blog,I really did:) emoticon

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IAM_HIS2 9/28/2012 10:09AM

    Have a great time and enjoy appreciating your uniqueness and discovering your inner beauty more. Love ya.

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APACHESTEVE 9/28/2012 4:42AM

    Michelle have a blast on your vacation, sounds fun and soothing all at the same time! Looking forward to visiting with you about our health journey, but when you get back. Your plan to get far away from a computer is a good one! One small thing: I'd still enjoy looking at your bare legs!

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BEAR8MM 9/28/2012 3:23AM

    Have some quality "me time"! Wish I could walk the beach with you!

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IRP1114 9/28/2012 12:37AM

    Hope everything is perfect. Enjoy ;-)

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FLEMIDG 9/28/2012 12:16AM

    Have a wonderful time on your vacation. You've earned it. Enjoy yourself, get lots of rest and spend all the time you need with the Good Lord. Enjoy yourself and come back refreshed and relaxed. God bless you. Have a safe and enjoyable trip.

Darlene

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LOLAINSC 9/28/2012 12:00AM

    Sounds like a great vacation plan; hope you have the greatest time ever. Don't forget to wave as you fly over SC.
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EVWINGS 9/27/2012 11:39PM

    Enjoy yourself in the Sunshine state. Wish i knew you were coming earlier, we could have possibly had a meet up!!

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KATRINAKAT23 9/27/2012 11:33PM

  I am so happy for you!! Wish I could go with you.

I wouldn't come back. lol


Have fun and don't forget us back in
spark land.

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CHERIRIDDELL 9/27/2012 11:13PM

    You have a wonderful time you deserve it hugs,Cheri

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BRADMILL2922 9/27/2012 11:00PM

    Sounds like you are going to have a nice and relaxing trip! Good for you, you deserve it! Oh, and an extra big slice of key lime pie sounds fantastic! Look forward to hearing of you adventures in Florida! Safe travels my friend!

Don't forget the occasional hole in the sand!

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