Wednesday, May 02, 2012
I've learned some great lessons over the years. Some of them just recently. Like:
1) Don't listen to the advice from beauty experts, such as, when the gray hairs start coming in at the roots, use a little mascara to disguise them. What they DON'T tell you, when you run your fingers through your bangs mid-day, they stay in the stiff upright position. And when you scratch your upper lip after running your fingers through above-mentioned bangs, you have, what appears to be, a painted-on mustache.
2) Don't forget to check your pockets to your jeans after lighting a wood stove. Because when you forget to check your pockets, you don't get the lighter out of the back side one. When they are washed, if lighter doesn't fall out in the washing cycle, it comes out in the dryer. Then it promptly explodes thirty minutes later and you basically crap yourself.
3) Never laugh when one of your customer's kids gets his head stuck in the Wall of Balls cage...but if you do, don't let the parents see you. And DEFINITELY don't let them see you taking pictures with your cell phone.
4) When you get frustrated and ask God to give you a sign, some kind of sign, that He is real, don't ASK IT IN THE MIDDLE OF A LIGHTENING STORM. Because He will strike the tree next to the patio door in which you are standing. It's almost as if He is saying, "This real enough for you?????" while you're still feeling the static electricity buzzing through the stood-up hairs on your arms. Yep, I think that's good enough for me.
5) Don't forget about the potato that rolled underneath the cabinet six months ago.
6) NEVER tell one of your managers to break a leg. Because when he does, you look like you were involved.
7) This one is important. Don't keep the t.v. on when you go to bed. Especially on Showtime. You may have fallen asleep watching a documentary about penguins but when your husband comes home, the show "Gigolos" will be on. Try explaining your way out of that one. There's no way you really can.
8) I will never make my own coleslaw from scratch again. I couldn't feel my upper lip for days. And my old man slurred his speech for weeks.
9) Never buy a pair of shoes just because you think they are cute. And don't wear them during a nine-hour shift. The pain is equivalent to having hemorrhoids...on your feet. The same goes for underwear and push-up bras. All it takes is bending over the wrong way just one time and everything literally falls apart. Or out.
10) Don't text two people at once. You might accidentally send your Sunday School teacher the naughty picture of monkeys your sister sent to you the moment before. Then your actual reply a moment later to her contains the words, "Yes, I am doing MUCH better today!"
11) NEVER, and I repeat, NE-HEH-EEEV-ER, blog about the exercise "Bonking" when there is an alternative slang term with the same name. Yes, I bonked for a half hour this morning but not how YOU'RE thinking! Shame on you!
Okay, off for now...have a great evening, guys! God bless and love you all.
Sunday, April 22, 2012
I'm a person who scrutinizes just about everything. To put this into perspective, I'm the one who reads the fine print on life insurance policies, shampoo bottles and junk mail. I tend to scrutinize myself, too, in the mirror, and I tend to scrutinize my beliefs, my morals and ethics from time-to-time as well. I'm just hard-wired that way. I remember being a little girl and wondering why Barbie wasn't anatomically correct and it just bugged the CRAP out of me. (You should have seen me when I got my first KEN. I went ballistic. Mom had to take him away from me for awhile so I could calm down.)
Maybe that's why I look at my reflection and notice every bump and curvature. Not out of vanity but just curiosity. Why does my nose curve that way? Why do my eyebrows get sparse in some areas and thick in others? It's not as bad as it used to be. I've accepted my figure, my thick bottom and love handles, as part of me. Now, I'm looking more into the INSIDE and wondering why I have certain thoughts and feelings. Wondering why some things bother me more so than others now. I've gained some wisdom during my 43 years on this earth and I've noticed I've been questioning how I want to be remembered when I leave from here. I know, it sounds morbid in some aspects, but I really want to be remembered as someone who had "it" all together and who truly deeply cared about those around me.
But some days are more difficult than others to just feel comfortable with who I am. Some days I have less patience with those around me. Some days I want to grab that guy who is yelling at his kid in the middle of the store by the shoulders and say, "Ya know? That baby is going to remember that for the rest of his life and you are damaging him, somehow, someway, and I don't like you for that!" I want to get mad at the world for its selfishness. Some days I just don't feel comfortable BEING in this place. I don't measure up to its perfectionistic ways. I'm not a super model. I'm not a scientist. I don't make enough money to have three pools and a Rolls Royce on my 32-acre perfectly coiffed property. I am just me.
One who is just looking forward to going Home.
Maybe we all start feeling that way once we get to a certain point in our lives. Maybe some sooner than others. I have YET to find something that makes me want to stick around in this world FOREVER. Yes, I want to be here as long as I possibly can for my kids and grandkids, but eventually I just want to go Home and rest. I long for it. To snuggle deep into the arms of my Lord and feel his unconditional love for my soul BIG TIME. I know He loves me now and that He is watching over me, yes. But to be There and actually have those Arms around me and feeling His smile upon my face??? Ohh, yes, that is going to be a wondrous day. :)
I've been that person who had to have everything perfect and still do to some extent. But I've grown to realize, at the end of the day, what I've said to someone matters the most. What I've done for someone matters the most. Smiling at someone or not smiling at someone mattered the most. And if I didn't, while I was wrapped up in my own personal problem of the day, well, it bothers me. What if they needed that from someone, from anyone, to validate that they mattered to someone, to anyone, because they were possibly having the worst day of their lives??
So at the end of the day, I've scrutinized my actions. I've scrutinized what I did and did not do. And some days I fall miserably short. Then I remind myself I am human; but as long as I keep TRYING, as long as I keep STRIVING, then I will LEARN to be better. I may never be comfortable in my own skin but perhaps I'm not supposed to be. I SHOULDN'T be comfortable in this world. Because if I am, then I have nothing to STRIVE FOR, nothing to look forward to on the Other Side...
I don't care if my nose goes to one side more than the other.
I just want to be beautiful in God's eyes.
And I just want others to realize they are beautiful as well. Because they ARE. YOU are...no matter what size you are. No matter. At all.
Sooo, let me scrutinize. For this is MY path to Home.
Sunday, April 15, 2012
I thought maybe I should put something current out there so everyone will know I'm alive and "steelkickin." Things are well, I am getting back on top, so no need to worry!
Snafus (snaffoos?) crop up from time-to-time, tho, for everybody, don't they? Like, cars needing new parts, kids needing last minute money or being late for work. I've learned that there's no need to get all excited about snafus because they're just little reminders that we live in an imperfect world. We are imperfect beings who may get our undies in a twist when they happen. But they shall pass. A higher-than-normal bill, shingles blowing off your roof, dropping your phone in the toilet are all parts of life that we should expect to encounter and I've found it's usually best to just pause, breathe...and laugh if the occasion is laughable. Snafus are just temporary. Little hiccups in the journeys of life. They serve to remind us that we are just human and they won't really matter in the grand "scheme" of things.
I don't know. I think the older I get I'm beginning to realize that there are more things to "worry" about than breaking a heel or running out of moisturizer or finding a goober in my eye after a meeting with department heads. Such as coming to the side of someone who needs a shoulder to cry on. Or smiling at someone who desperately needs a smile. Maybe supplying that calm voice when things are running-amuck for a friend. Those things are what matters. Being there for your child even when they are making the worst decision of their life also tops that list. In other words, live your life as an example...even when you're aggravated that your magazine subscriptions didn't arrive on time. In the end, you're not going to be worrying about missing that sale at J.C. Penney's. Your life's movie projector is going to be jumping to the points when you could have been there, should have been there, for the ones who needed you the most.
But even if you DO get testy from-to-time, it's still okay. (It's REALLY okay if your old man leaves his muddy boots in the middle of the living room carpet again!) Just take a deep breath, regroup and focus on the next task at hand. As long as we are doing our best, that's what ultimately matters, right? Soooo, strive to do your best in everything that you do. That's not what I say, that's what the Lord says! 2 Timothy 2:15 states, "Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth."
God expects us to do all WE can, then HE will do what we cannot. He asked Moses one day, "What is that in THINE hand??" (It's in Exodus, Chapter Four. Read the story!) Do what YOU CAN DO, seek and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you, ask and ye shall receive. But if you don't go around looking, you're not going to find. Put your FEET into your prayers. Do what you can. Even through the snafus. Shake them off and do what God ultimately put us on this earth to do.
Serve others. To the best of our ability. Even when a storm comes and knocks out your power in the middle of that movie you've been dying to see. It will be on again. Eventually. Use that time to call someone who would love to hear your voice. Or pray for PATIENCE and understanding.
Okay, taking off for now. I love your notes and goodies that I have received over the last few weeks. They meant alot to me and made my heart feel wonderful! God bless each and every one of you and may the rest of your weekend be awesome! Love you all...
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Coming home tonight, I tossed my keys onto the bar and felt what energy I had left within me whiff away. Today was challenging. Tomorrow proves to be even more so. I'm tired. Work issues, home issues, issues, issues, issues...
But I am encouraged. I am hopeful. Somehow I've grown stronger in my faith. Around this time last year I was doubting my relationship with God, having "head-to-head" battles with Him, questioning His love and will for me. But the day I surrendered to Him, knelt before Him in quiet humbleness and told Him I was ready to receive His plan for me, a great burden was lifted from my shoulders. I don't have to weather the storms alone. I don't have to know why "things happen." I just have to know that I am not alone through them and that they are given to me to bear because there is a lesson within them. Ultimately there is a ray of sunshine in every turbulent moment...we can receive it, look at it as a passageway to even more strength or NOT see it because we are too focused on why it all had to happen in the first place...
But in the midst of chaos God is in control. We may be unsure of the outcome but He is NOT. He is not unsure of how He is going to take care of His children, He is not unsure of His endless love for us. We are safe. In all situations, we are safe even when it looks like everything around us is falling apart. Phillipians 4:19 says that "my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus." It doesn't say "some" or "most" it says "ALL." All situations. All of the time. Maybe not in the way we would like but in the way that is best for us, that God sees fit. So, that is where faith comes in.
That is where I have allowed myself to rest. There and in the warm arms of my Lord. My ultimate longing lies in the day I leave this world and fall at His feet, gazing up at His beautiful face. When I feel His arms wrap around me and I hear Him say, "You did it. Now you're Home and now it's time to rest." Until then I will listen to His words in my heart and be encouraged by His promises.
It is God who arms me with strength and keeps my way secure. He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he causes me to stand on the heights. He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze. You make your saving help my shield, and your right hand sustains me; your help has made me great. You provide a broad path for my feet, so that my ankles do not give way.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
NOTHING. NOTHING can separate us from the love of God. What beautiful, encouraging words.
I am going to bed now, to read a little more of the Good Book and talk to my Best Friend for awhile. Tomorrow will bring what it will bring but I am armored with the love of Jesus and His ultimate plan for my life.
Somehow I think I'm going to be able to sleep peacefully tonight.
Monday, March 12, 2012
Yesterday was gorgeous. It motivated me to get outside and do a few things, but not before taking my 883 for a little spin down the back roads. It wasn't a long ride...it's always twenty degrees cooler on the bike than what it really is...and it was 75' in the sun. But it felt wonderful to blow the cobwebs out of my brain even if for just a teeny bit.
Today is slightly cooler but the sun is trying to peek its lazy ways out of the few gray clouds that remain from the morning haze. I miss the hour that we lost this past weekend. It seems to make the day go just a tad quicker. But we will be richly rewarded with the extra hour of sunshine when the weather turns permanently warmer, sunnier, and cozier. Just wish it would hurry up a little more...
There is nothing major to report here. No life changes, no drama. In fact, today is just a normal, calm and uneventful day. No breakthroughs, no light bulbs going off in my head, no epiphanies. Dang. And I say "dang" as in "yay." I like days like this when my brain isn't twisting over itself and making that annoying grinding noise it does when I'm trying to understand something. I guess when you get to be my age, days like this are a blessing. I don't need to solve a life mystery today. I don't need to do something monumental. Today I just need to "be." Cook. Do a little dusting. Sway my hips to a little bit of John Mellancamp. And just hum to my inner calmness and live one moment at a time. It's nice when my brain isn't going into over-drive. I can hear myself breath.
Beanie is coming home for a week tomorrow. She is taking a final test tonight and packing up her car, boyfriend included, and heading home in the morning. I will get to see her before heading off to work, which is going much easier these days since cutting back on some of my hours. I can hardly wait to see her lovely face, smiling with vivid dark eyes, as she comes bursting through my front door. I am blessed to the max with this child...
But today I am going to walk slowly, breath deeply and linger broadly in whatever I choose to do. I may choose to do nothing at all here in just a bit. Maybe I will call my oldest son and chat it up with my grandgirls when they get home from school. I love hearing their little voices intermingle with exciting tales of their day.
God bless you all today. Find your lazy moment. Get lost in it. Breath deeply and slowly. Just slow down for awhile.
Some days lazy does a body good.
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