Monday, September 03, 2012
I am a fan of just about any kind of music. I have a favorite country song right now by Dallas Smith called "Jumped Right In" I have listened to it about 5 times this morning so far.
It's a song about "back then" when we just ran into life at full speed with no fear.. nothing to lose. (Well thats what we thought anyway)
I love it because it reminds me of how brave I was back then - life hadnt kicked my ass yet and I was so unafraid to try anything even with the consequences that came with it.
Yes I made a ton of mistakes that I learned from, some I repeated a few times before I got it.. but I lived life-I lived my life full speed.
I have been living a half a life it seems this past few years - I didnt see what was happening to me, slowly closing myself off from fun, from adventure, from life.. I let myself shut down, hibernate, hide.
I started taking a peek outside of that when I joined Spark - slowly regaining that "Spark" inside me. That spark of life that never quite went out but was just a little dim for awhile.
I have found myself daydreaming this past week on and off.. making lists of what new things to try - reconnecting with people who have been jumping into life full speed and feeling myself opening up again after so many years.
Its not a bucket list.. its a list of right now - a list of things that I can do in the next month, the next six months, the next year.. attainable crazy fun "what the heck are you doing" kind of things that make my heart race just thinking about them.
Weight has been an issue yep. That is for sure.. but its coming off and my life is still ahead of me - bright and shining and full of moments of awesome.
I have written the one part of the song in my journal..its on a sticky on my fridge.. on my screen saver - to remind me that we are never too old.
I am ready and in the next few months I want you my Spark Friends to keep me accountable.. I am going to start my list here - and as I go I will get back here with pictures and let my life unfold with the friends here that have helped me find this spark again..
"...And we didnt know any better back then~well we ran full speed, and closed our eyes....and we jumped right in.."
Yeah.. we sure did... I want to always hold onto that and not forget it in the past.
Grab these moments big and small.... Run full speed.. Close my eyes and Jump right in..
Here I go xooxoxoxox