Sunday, February 21, 2010
This is my first blog entry in a looong time. To be honest I don't even remember the last time I was on SparkPeople. However, what I do remember is how bad I've been doing on my quest to lose weight. I have realized how being accountable (even if only logging on a few times a week) can really make a difference. When I was using SparkPeople before I went from around 155 to 149, but I felt like nothing was really working, I couldn't seem to make myself stay focused enough to follow the rules and thus I remained at 149. Well I can do fine on my own, I thought, plus I'm busy and don't have time to constantly log on and track food and exercise. Well I was flat out WRONG. I am now 156.4 pounds, which is 1.6 pounds higher than last time I started.
I may be busy and now working full time but I can't keep using it as an excuse because obviously it have gotten me nowhere except in a worse position. I am hoping to get back on track and this time stick with SparkPeople even if the going gets tough. I feel like I've hit rock bottom (again) and am tired of feeling sorry for myself, and feeling guilty because I brought this upon myself. I am going to lost this weight because:
I DO NOT want to be embarrassed of how I look in a bathing suit come summer.
I DO NOT want to look in the mirror and want to cry.
I DO NOT want to be the chubby friend.
I DO NOT want people to look surprised when I tell them I used to be the flyer on the cheerleading team.
I DO NOT want to avoid shopping for clothes because I can't stand that I can no longer even fit a leg into size 5/7 jeans.
So in order to do this I have come up with a game plan:
Step 1: Relearn the basics
-I am completely restarting the Spark program from day 1 to relearn the basics I skipped over or have forgotten.
Step 2: Start regularly exercising
-I am going to start a couch to 5K program which I installed an app for on my iphone (it has it set up into a week by week program and tells you when to run and when to walk while your music is playing. How cool is that??)
-I started doing walking dates with my mom. (We live 4.5 hours away but we both need to exercise so we set a time and date, then call each other and talk while we walk in separate cities)
Step 3: Reminding myself to cook
-Start making my own meals (With work I constantly eat out or pick something up on my way home because I'm so tired) and planning a weekly eating schedule.
After these steps who knows where it will lead but the most important thing to be is relearning the basic, fundamental way to get myself back on a healthy lifestyle track. I appreciate all suggestions, feedback and helpful tidbits :) Also if anyone is Tallahassee would like to go walking together I'd definitely be up for a walking partner just sparkmessage me if you're interested!!
Thursday, August 13, 2009
I first want to thank everyone who commented on my previous blog. Everyone was so much help, gave great tips, and made me want to try harder. I stayed on track yesterday with food and exercise until the very end of the day. I had some friends over to play poker and had a couple of beers but I didn't over indulge so I was super proud of myself. I've come to realize I can't give up everything I like, and the more I try to the more I get frustrated and give up. As many people said I need to do moderation. I don't have the willpower like others where I can completely give up my chicken wings on Sundays with Lorena or having a few beers with poker. What I need to do is have my occasionally indulges and then just hit the gym extra. Everything has a consequence so if I want my wings I get to go to the gym. The more I pressure myself to be perfect, the higher chance I'll fail. I need to accept right now (at the beginning) I can't give those things up now. I know now is the best time to do it but when it's leading me to failure because of guilt and frustration then I'm going to try and do this my way.
I also decided after looking at other people's pages I need a definite source of motivation. I needed to find a picture of what I'm working toward. Now I'd love to look like Angelina Jolie or Jessica Alba but I don't have their itty bitty hips to begin with. I always had a boy till I hit late high school and into college. So now I have huge love handles (well it feels that way to me). And around my hips is where I tend to hold my weight. I still can fit into medium shirts and occasionally smalls, but when it comes to jeans my size leaps up. So instead of picking someone who is stick straight, I went for Beyonce as my motivation. She has shown that you can have have wider hips, but still be in great shape and look awesome. I want to lose the excess love handle weight and then tone up like she has. I put her picture on my spark page and am going to print it out and put it on my bulletin board to remind myself what I can, no what I WILL, look like!
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