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Friday, September 10, 2010

Hi all. I wanted to say that I did well with my goals I set last week. I took my walks, mostly ate less than 2000 calories and drank 4 or more glasses of water most days. This week was a different story, however. My boyfriend and I went on a mini vacation and I ate pretty much whatever I wanted, but I did get a ton of walking in (we went to state parks and museums and such). This past week hasn't been much better, but I hit the reset button yesterday.

My mini goal is to be good this weekend and not eat whatever I want just because it's the weekend. It's harder on the weekends when you're not at work and there's not as much to distract you from eating. Evenings and weekends are my weak areas, it's easy to eat a good breakfast and lunch at work but dinner seems to be more difficult. Or, more specifically, dessert since I have a huge sweet tooth.

I'm going to set the same goals I had last time with only a small modification:

1) Take a 30 minute walk 3 times in the morning before work
2) Eat less than 2000 calories a day
3) Drink at least 4 glasses of water every day

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KAILIIA 9/10/2010 10:24AM

    A good set of goals to be sure and remember small changes are lasting ones :)

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On again off again

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Anyone who has been a spark friend for a while can tell you that I have an on again, off again relationship with dieting. I've had a weight problem since I can remember. I also know exactly how to lose weight. What kind of exercises to do, what kind of food to eat, and in what proportions. I also know that I've never been able to stick with it.

I understand perfectly that it has to be a lifestyle change in order to lose the weight and keep it off and to ultimately be healthier and happier. So, why haven't I been able to stick to it? I have no idea. It would take some self exploration to find out and I don't know that I'm ready to do that yet. What I do know is that I am ready to start being healthy again. My boyfriend has been at it for a little over a month and has lost probably around 10 lbs or so.

So, I'm starting off slow. Lifestyle changes. I hate working out. Cardio is boring. So I'm going to walk. Walk the neighborhood. It's pleasant when it's early in the morning. So here are my weekly goals, lets hope I can stick to them:

1) Take a 30 minute walk 3 times this week
2) Eat less than 2000 calories every day
3) Drink at least 4 glasses of water every day

Baby steps. How many days are you supposed to do something before it becomes habit? 10 or something?

Maybe this time it will stick.

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BILLALEX70 8/30/2010 5:42AM

    I'm with LIME; eventually things just click.

We all struggle from time to time, but we keep trying to lead a healthier lives. Keep trying and make things happen for YOU!

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KARLAMG86 8/29/2010 7:45PM

    Good luck! Consistency is a struggle for most of us; but the will to succeed and the ability to start small put you in the right place to make it happen this time!

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PATIENCE17 8/29/2010 7:22PM

    I feel the same day as well. I can go hard for months and then fall off for months. I think that it finally clicked for me and I am on track. The key is to have small goals and then work your way up. The worst thing is to have huge goals and then have them hard to reach. Little goals are the way to go and it doesn't set you up to fail. I think that the goals that you set are great! Once you feel you can do that, you can tweak it again. Before you know it, you will be doing this like a pro!

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    One day it will click . . . and the desire to be healthy and lose weight will finally outweigh that 'instant gratification' monster in our heads. :) I know you can do this. Because I was JUST where you are not too long ago. I promise. It will happen. :)

The best trick I allowed myself was to have one day off. One full day to eat anything I wanted . . .it gave me something to look forward to during the days I had to be "good" . . and gave me a weapon against that "instant gratification" monster.

You can do this!!

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Excuses (AKA get a cup of coffee if you're planning on reading the whole thing)

Saturday, February 20, 2010

I think that my main problem with weight is that I make excuses. I didn't reach any of the goals that I set for myself last week. In fact I only exercised once. And I could give you some excuses but none of them really matter. It all boils down to this: I didn't feel like it. And I should feel like it. I should want to be healthier. I don't like being over weight, and every time I think about how last year at this time I was 15 or more pounds lighter I feel... well not sad, really. More like disgusted. But even that feeling isn't enough to motivate me. I am more or less at a loss.

I like losing weight. I like the feeling of accomplishment that it gives me. I like how i feel after I work out. It makes me feel skinnier. Losing weight is about the only thing in the world that has such positive reinforcement but is so difficult to do, or to want to do, even.

I want to be motivated. I just don't know how. And I don't know why it's so difficult for me. It's like I just keep putting it off "I'll work out tomorrow" "I'll have a clean start next week". But tomorrow and next week never come. They are always tomorrow and next week. I try to make them now, but then someone brings in donuts to work. Or they cater Chicken Parmesan, Pasta, and Bread Sticks for lunch. And I eat it.

That one week where I lost 3.5 pounds was more or less easy. I packed my lunch and I said no to foods that would be bad for my diet. And then I didn't anymore. It wasn't really like there was a turning point, I just decided that what was so bad about eating the foods I wanted? Why deny myself that? I could always work out tomorrow to make up for it.

My boyfriend joined a gym last week (2 weeks?) ago. He's been working out nearly every day since then. He's lost 5 pounds. He looks and feels good. Should this not motivate me? I, however, feel less motivated because of it.

I told my mother (who is my boss at one of my jobs) that I wanted to quit. Working two jobs is wearing on me. It's not like either is particularly difficult, but doing them both is difficult. Especially working 10 hour days 4 days a week. I am thinking about going full time at my other job.

My other job is at a call center taking glass claims for insurance companies. Not exactly something that one needs a college degree for. But it's what I'm doing, and it's a job. The company (Safelite) is opening a call center in Phoenix, AZ. I put in that I wanted to move there. A change of scenery would be nice, and I would no longer be living with my mother. Not that I mind living with my mother, but I miss being on my own.

I keep thinking that I would really like to go to Phoenix. But I'm going to be staying in a job that I only sort of like and that, as previously stated, does not make use of my college degree. I suppose I could always look for another job once I get to AZ, but it's not like I was looking very hard for a new job here. I applied at a couple of places but nothing panned out.

Maybe it's a case of seasonal depression. I always get a little down in the winter. Or maybe it's just the lack of motivation. There is one thing that I know, though. I am still heavier than I have been in years and I still don't like it. But whether or not I don't like it enough to do something about it remains to be seen.

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150-HERE-I-COME 3/1/2010 2:58AM

    It's been a few days since you've posted this blog, so hopefully you've found the hitch to get back on your wagon, but I wanted to say that I've been there too.. We've all been there.. It's so frustrating that it takes so much more to get the weight off than it did/does to put it on.. To help motivate myself I got a copy of the Spark, and I've got to say, it's really helping me get back more firmly on the wagon. If you've read my most recent blogs I fell off quite a bit, but something sparked in me and helped me jump right back on. You should grab a copy of Chris's book. I bet it will help. Hopefully though, in the past week since you've posted this, you figured things out! I'm trying out yet another challenge (my Xmas one didn't go too great) for the month of March. Maybe setting up a challenge might be something that might work for you?
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BILLALEX70 2/20/2010 10:29PM


I have to say that I've lost some of my mojo this winter. I'm not usually a "glass half-full" type person, but this winter I'm really feeling unmotivated. Now, I've been going on so long that I know a bad run of time is just a blip on the road to to a healthier me.

What keeps me going is that I pack my food for the week and only take that to work. I have snacks in my desk or lunch box, plus lunch and that's it. I keep no money so that I'm not tempted by the vending machine. Also, I think that people at work "watch" if I'm grabbing a cookie or hand of candy, so that keeps me motivated as well; I doubt they're really watching though.

I hope that you can find something that works for you and stick with it. At this point I can't say I wouldn't want to move to AZ either. Damn winter!

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So, this would be week 4?

Monday, February 15, 2010

I didn't post anything last week because there wasn't much to report. I had another bad week eating wise, although I did exercise a little.

This past week I exercised more but still not enough! I did manage to lose another half pound, which is better than a gain but I know I can do better than that!

My boyfriend joined a gym near his work place and he loves it! He's been going 2 times a day(before and after work)! It's been making me feel lazy so I need to step up my game. Also I can already see the difference in his body. It's making me a little jealous! haha

So my goals this week are:
To work out a minimum of 5 days with Jillian(3 last week, okay but not good!).
Advance to level 2 by Thursday or Friday
Stay within my calorie ranges
Eat fewer sweets!

Stay Healthy!

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    You can do it!

and take that 'sweets' goal and make it concrete. Don't just say "fewer" . . that's pretty ambiguous. Set something static and stick to it. . . . like "I'll only have 'favorite sweet' on Friday afternoon as a treat, and only 3 pieces!" or something like that. Harder? Yep! But you'll also be more likely to stick to it . . cause you have it scheduled . . so you can look forward to it. :)

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Week 2

Monday, February 01, 2010

I regret to inform you that week 2 was no where as productive as week 1. I actually ended up gaining a pound back.

That said, it was a difficult week as far as controlling my appetite went. I think that was in part due to my cycle starting Friday. I did also mange to go to the gym twice. I also decided to cancel my gym membership. It's just not worth the $55 a month that I'm paying for it if I only go once or twice a week. And I hate going!

Friday I purchased 2 Biggest Loser work outs on the advice of one of my coworkers who is currently using one of them and she loves it. It's the 30 day shred with Jillian. I also got the Biggest Loser Boot Camp with Bob, so we'll see how those work out. They were both less than $10 so they're already cheaper than the gym and I will be more likely to use them because I don't have to drive 20 minutes there before I can work out.

My friend is getting married this Saturday. I still need to get a dress to wear to the wedding. Hopefully that won't prove too much of a challenge.

'til next week!

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BILLALEX70 2/1/2010 8:25PM

    All of our weight fluctuates from time to time, so don't let that get you down. I hate going to the gym also, but love the feeling I get afterwards. I'm not dedicated enough to not have a gym membership. I have DVDs, treadmill and various ST items, but most never get used.

Keep moving forward and you'll find the finish line!

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    Don't let the gain get you down . . . . keep pluggin along. :)

Great job on the videos . . . let me know if you like them!!!!

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