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Back to Working Hard

Saturday, September 13, 2014

My goal for this summer was to maintain, and I completely, terribly failed. Actually, I began failing before summer. It started in May, then end of the school year. My healthy habits completely fell apart. Over the course of May, June, and July, I gained about 30 pounds and countless inches. When I was in the states this summer, I bought new clothes to fit my new body shape, and by the time I came back to Venezuela, those clothes did not fit like they were supposed to. :(

When I came back in August, I weighed 210 and figured that some of that weight would come off without much trying like last year. Wrong. A little did, I guess. I was able to get to 203 without much work (mainly travel weight), but not any further. So what did I do? Decide it's back to working hard.

Last year, I posted two blogs about the seasons of my life and how they affect what my body does. There are times were I need to make sure to put hard work in to maintain or lose. There have been times when it has come easily. Last year (when combined with culture shock and a huge lifestyle change that came with it), I didn't have to work too hard to lose weight and inches. I did work hard to continue some healthy habits, but that was it. This year, that isn't the case. It's time to get back to working hard.

This week, I worked to reestablish my healthy habits. I tracked my food two days. I made a schedule for exercising and followed it, even going for an extra, long walk with my friend. I made a better schedule for when I needed to wake up to take my medicine. Now I am spending more time learning about God during the extra time that I am awake before I can eat breakfast (I need to wait an hour for my medicine to work, and I can tell that I haven't been waiting by how extra tired I have become). I took time for myself to read and relax after I worked out at night. I started listing 3 good things about my day before I went to bed. These healthy habits are so necessary. I have felt so refreshed with them in place. It's hard work to follow all of them, but when I do, I can feel the difference.

Guess what? Today when I tracked, these healthy habits (mainly exercise on some of the days) made a big difference. I'm back to ONEderland! My inches already started changing! Hopefully more of my clothes will fit soon! My healthy habits are changing my life and making me feel better and energized. It's hard work, but so worth it.

What healthy habits do you need to add or fix in your life?

Current Weight: 199.6

  
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    Yay for you! Keep up the good work!

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One Year Ago Today...

Sunday, May 04, 2014

One year ago today, I ran my first half marathon. It was slow, especially the last few miles, but I did it. It took months of training to be ready for it, and I made it. It's an accomplishment that I still take pride in. If you want to read my post from then, it's here: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_j
ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=5365459.

Running a half marathon wasn't always a goal of mine, but as I started to change my lifestyle, I discovered that it sounded fun, challenging, and motivating. It was my motivation that kept me running and changing my life for seven months last spring. Even now, it's still motivation as I think, "Remember when I ran that half marathon? It took a lot of work, but I did it!"

Now a year later, a lot has changed. I've graduated college, moved to a different continent, and started a job. I'm in a completely different place in life than I was a year ago. Still, I continue to work on living a healthy lifestyle. I hope that I can always say that, no matter my location, age, or place in life.

I've been using SparkPeople consistently for two years this month. I've lost 70 pounds. Change is slow but steady, just like running that half marathon a year ago. This is a journey. It takes time, persistence, and motivation. There are ups and downs, but in the end, it's worth it. All that hard work and self control is worth it. No matter what, never give up!

May 2012: 250 lbs
May 2013: 208 lbs
May 2014: 180 lbs

  
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UWHK8STER 5/6/2014 2:18PM

    Wow - good for you! That's kind of how I felt about moving towards running. I just ran my first half on Sunday and was proud of how I did, but more proud of the work I'd put into it.

Keep up the great work and good luck in your upcoming year.

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144AUTUMN 5/4/2014 3:27PM

  Keep up the good work!!

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Processing and Accepting Weight Loss

Saturday, April 12, 2014

One thing that I find very difficult and not talked about often is how difficult it can be to process and accept weight loss for some people. As a naturally shy person who doesn't necessarily like to stick out of the crowd (although sometimes I like to surprise people), I have a hard time with people making comments about my weight loss. When someone says something, it makes me feel all squirmy inside and want to change the subject right away. Lately, I've been losing a lot of inches and needing new clothes. I know that when I go home I will look different and probably receive comments from people, so I've been working on processing the change in me so that I can graciously accept comments.

One thing that I've done is compare myself now to how I looked 2 years ago. I've done this by comparing pictures and comparing measurements. To compare the measurements, I've even taken out my tape measure and set it to how big I was and put that around me so that I can see visually how much more room there is now. It's unbelievable! I've seen the change slowly, every day. To think like someone who hasn't seen me in a while, I can understand how surprised they might be because I truly have lost a lot of inches. I'm at a lower weight now than I was in eighth grade. That's huge!

Another way I've been processing the change is by planning what clothes I'm going to buy. I need to get rid of my 18s and XLs this summer. I'd do it now, but I live in Venezuela and can't find clothes that are in my style here. I think I need to buy 14s and larges (or maybe some mediums). I've been making specific lists about what needs to go and what I need to buy. It's exciting to see that clothes aren't fitting.

Finally, I've been talking with people. Last night, I shared with my mom my lists of clothes to buy and get rid of. This is really hard for me to share because I get embarrassed easily and feel uncomfortable knowing that my parents really struggle with their weight. Why, I didn't even want to tell my parents when I signed up for a half marathon last year! I've also been talking with my roommates, which is easier since they all have shared their struggles with weight, food, and exercise (although, their struggles are very different from mine). It's hard to take the initiative to start conversations about weight with people in person (I blog about it very easily), but it is so necessary to help me process and accept my own weight loss.

Processing and accepting my own weight loss is an important part of this journey. When I think of my weight loss, I tend to think about how far I have to go, but I need to think more about how far I've come! That's what others see, and it's why they give me so many compliments. I've come far, and I'm still going! I need to stop hiding behind my weight and enjoy who I am at this moment! When people comment on it, I need to stop and smile and say thank you. This journey is a slow and steady process. It's not just about food, weight, and exercise; it's about a mindset change as well.

Current Weight: 181.8

  
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POSITIVE41 4/12/2014 7:43PM

    People say things because they are happy for you and want to see you succeed. I agree with the clothes being too big - that really helps put into perspective how your weight loss and getting in shape have progressed. Keep up the great work!

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AUNTRENEE 4/12/2014 8:32AM

    I hope that you find the size the size clothes you need soon.

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Plateaus and Progress

Monday, March 03, 2014

Sounds like a contradicting title, right? Well, it is, but it is also true that there is a lot of progress during plateaus.

I've been on a plateau again recently. I quickly lost my Christmas weight and got stuck right where I was stuck from October - December: 189. Actually, then I was at least able to get it down to 187. Now, I usually don't mind plateaus in my weight. I view them as times where I am able to learn to maintain before switching more things up and working extra hard to break that plateau. Learning to maintain is very important. If I can stay at 189, that's better than letting that number sneak up to 200. But lately, I've been kind of down about it, so when I had a suddenly unexpected long weekend (almost a week off school!), I decided it was the perfect time to refocus, conquer my gluttonous ways, and begin exercising more.

Every day I've been drinking lots of water, eating only if my stomach is growling (I was beginning to forget what it was like to actually be hungry!), working out, and staying active. That usually does the trick within a few day, but this time it didn't. Or so I thought. I've weighed myself faithfully every morning: 189.8, 189.4, 189.2, 189.4. The numbers were hardly changing! Then on the off chance, later one day, I went to take my measurements, and they were great!

This morning I officially logged my measurements (I always make sure to do it first thing in the morning before I eat or drink anything; consistency helps me see results). I may have not lost weight in numbers the past few day, but my body did lose several inches! Just from a little over a week ago (I don't usually measure that often unless I've seen change), my waist lost 0.75 inches, my thigh lost 0.25 inches, and my upper arm lost 0.25 inches! After I logged these, I love looking at the graphs (making sure to change the start date back to my beginning). I often forget how far I've come!

Was my waist really 50 inches? Was my thigh really 30 inches? I couldn't fathom these numbers, so I got out my tape measure again, set it to my starting numbers and watched it as it fell around me. Was I really that big? Did that much empty space between the tape measure and my belly used to be filled? It was unbelievable. Now wonder why some people continue to comment about my weight loss (one thing I'm still learning how to deal with); I truly have lost a lot of inches and probably look different to them!

Some months gets frustrating because I plateau with weight. Often I plateau with measurements (there's been half a year without change). Then, suddenly things will start to change. I just need to remember: my body isn't magic. It takes time and consistency to change. Also, strength training really helps the measurements. Recently I started Tae Bo, which very intentionally uses my muscles and does cardio. I love this combination! Your body won't change without using those muscles.

When was the last time you stopped to see how far you've come from the beginning? Not just with the graphs, but also with life. Remember when I had trouble walking a very small incline to class with my backpack? Now I walk a huge hill to and from school everyday! Remember when I couldn't run without coughing and lung issues? Now my lungs have adjusted, and I even trained for a half marathon! Remember when I ate five desserts in the school cafeteria? Now the thoughts make me sick (although, those were really good cookies). Stop look back, and enjoy the view. Think about progress you have made. Delight when others comment on your progress (this is hard for me). If you are just starting out, track consistently, so that you can go back and enjoy the view.

Starting Weight: 250
Current Weight: 189.4
Goal Weight: 145

Starting Waist: 50 inches
Current Waist: 42.5 inches

Starting Hips: 52 inches
Current Hips: 46.25 inches

Starting Thigh: 30 inches
Current Thigh: 26 inches

Starting Upper Arm: 15.5 inches
Current Upper Arm: 13 inches

Starting Pants Size: 18 or 20
Current Pants Size: 14 or 16
Goal Pants Size: 10 or 12

Starting Shirt Size: 1X or XL (occasionally)
Current Shirt Size: L
Goal Shirt Size: M

Even when I think I'm in a plateau, my body is still working. It's changing. I may see it or not see it, but it is still changing. I just need to stick with it. Look how far I've come. I still a ways to go, but seeing the change makes me stick with it. Slow and steady wins the race! Never give up, and always do things intentionally, even if that's gaining weight over Christmas. We can do it, and we will!

  
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DUMBBELLE84 3/3/2014 11:25AM

  You're doing great!

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POSITIVE41 3/3/2014 8:09AM

    Nice - all the other indicators are pointing in the right direction. Keep doing what you are doing and the scale will follow.


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PATSYB7 3/3/2014 6:12AM

    This is fabulous news! Congratulations and keep going!

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TRYINGHARD54 3/3/2014 6:02AM

    keep up the good work :-)

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Vacations and Culture Shock

Saturday, January 11, 2014

Living in Venezuela, I am able to maintain and lose fairly easily. This is due to several things:
-There are food shortages, where it is hard to find staples like flour, sugar, chicken, milk, ground beef, and eggs. Therefore, I treat these items like they are very special and am careful when I use them.
-I have to walk everywhere, including to the grocery store. Do I really want to have to carry that package of oreos home with everything else that I really need?
-Not only to I have to walk, but I live at the top of a hill. Imagine carrying your groceries up a giant hill. Plus, my school is on a different hill, so I walk uphill both ways to and from school.
-My body responds to culture shock by just trying to survive. I'm not sure if it's solely due to the facts above or if it just really fights to survive and loses a lot of weight. I'm pretty sure it's the latter.

Vacations are my downfall, and by vacations, I mean any time I'm not living on my own and buying and cooking my own food. I tend to treat myself too much, especially when I know it's something that I won't have again any time soon. At least, that's my excuse now. However, vacations have always been my downfall. Back in seventh grade, my family went on vacation, where we hiked a lot, but we also went out to eat a lot. In two weeks, I gained twenty pounds. I never lost that weight. Over my Christmas break this year, I went back to the United States. I found some old medical records, and one showed that I weighed over 200 pounds when I was in eighth grade. Eighth Grade! No wonder why I can't remember when I lasted weighed below 200. I wasn't even fully grown yet. It was so sad. Why didn't someone stop me? Anyways, I reached below 200 for the first time this past fall. I was down staying close by 187 for a month leading up to my Christmas break. My one goal for Christmas break was to stay under 200. I failed. I made it up to 203.

Vacation was terrible if I look at my nutrition and exercise. It was great every other way. As far as nutrition went, it was a good day if I waited to eat a Christmas treat until 10 in the morning. When I first came back, I ate a normal meal with my family and felt as stuffed as I normally would after Thanksgiving dinner. My stomach had shrunk so much! I quickly enlarged it, but I also spent too much time feeling overstuffed, when I should have known to stop eating. I need to make sure that when I go back this summer, I don't make the same mistake.

Now I've been back one week, and my body quickly went into culture/lifestyle shock mode. I've already lost 10 of my 16 vacation weight pounds without really trying. Part of this weight was also due to flying and water retention, and I understand that.

Interested in how my weight looks overall since I started on SparkPeople? Well, here's my weight graph from May 2012 - January 2014.



Like I mentioned in my last blog post, my weight definitely reflects where I was at during that time. During the time on this graph, I have lived four different places: Fort Wayne while student teaching, my University, my parents' house, and Venezuela. The hardest of these places is always my parents' house. I don't buy the food; it's just available to me whenever I want. Looking at the graph, I can see times when I have been there I typically go up (late December 2012, end of May - July 2013, end of December 2013). This summer, I will be living at my parents' house for about 5 weeks. Two of those weeks, I will probably be on vacation with them in Canada. I'm already thinking about and planning how I can make those weeks maintain weeks instead of gain. I'm fine with not losing all the time. Learning to maintain is one of the most important steps in this process, in my opinion. That means learning how to maintain in every circumstance. I probably won't always live by myself in Venezuela, so if this is the only place that I can be the weight I'm at, that is no good.

Also, for those of you new to SparkPeople with this new year, please look at my weight record and notice some details. I have gone weeks with staying just about the same weight (each of those little blue lines are one month). This was frustrating at the time, but how is it looking back? Fine. I'm actually very thankfully I had those chances to maintain. There are weeks where I gained, even giant jumps in gaining like over 10 pounds in two weeks. Yes, it could have been better those weeks, but overall, I'm still much lower than where I started. This journey is just that: a journey. It has its ups and downs. The key is to never give up. Never stop caring. Even when I make choices like I did this past Christmas break, I make them intentionally. I chose to eat and gain weight over Christmas. I knew it would happen, and I was okay with it. I knew what I could have done to prevent it but chose not to. Remember that you do have choices. Did I have to eat all of the steak my dad put on my plate? No, and the first night I didn't because I felt so full that I could puke. He respected me not eating more than I needed. Whatever you do, it's a choice. Every good step is one further than you've taken before. Take those steps.

All that to say, the hardest part of my journey is learning to have self-control in all situations. If I can't do that, the effort I'm putting in now won't matter because I will gain it back once I'm in a different situation, and I can't let that happen. Learning to maintain using self-control is the most important thing we can learn.

My current goal is to be at or under 170 by the beginning of May (my birthday). I will have to work to get there, and I'm getting ready to put that hard work in. This week, I started exercising more: playing volleyball, doing sit-ups, and some other easy strength activities. I already have plans for a few weekend hikes (I do live by/on mountains) in the coming weeks. I'm also trying to begin walking more to prepare for these hikes. I hate being the one who can't keep up.

My end goal of 145 is in sight, and I love that! Slow and steady wins the race! I'm excited to get back under 191 later this week, which puts me back into a BMI of overweight instead of obese.

We can do this! Keep making those good choices! It's all about baby steps! Self-control is key! Learn how to maintain!

Current Weight: 193.4

  
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JUDYAMK 1/11/2014 8:36AM

    what is the main food staple in your country? That is wonderful you are losing that extra weight you gained in 2 weeks. I am starting over for the last time. I can say that because I am looking at this whole thing in a different way
Take care
Judy

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PATSYB7 1/11/2014 8:24AM

    You are doing so great! Love how you have to walk uphill to school both ways! LOL Lifestyle does make a difference! Happy New Year and keep up the good work!
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