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First Day of School

Monday, January 09, 2012

Today was my first day as a full time student at Western Oregon University. It seems a little daunting, but I know I'll be able to do it and get good grades. I worked out at their gym today as well. It's amazing! I worked 60 minutes on the elliptical trainer, and I used three different weight machines. It felt so different being there. I guess I Just have to get used to it. I had been at Chemeketa for so long I and I wasn't really sure what to expect. I'm excited to go to the rest of my classes. I can definitely do the work.

After we got back into Salem, we went to have dinner, and I splurged and ate a Philly Cheese steak sub at Charley's with french fries. I ate over my calories, but I don't feel that bad considering it's been a crazy day. I also walked around a TON in addition to my workout at the gym today.
It's going to take some getting used to, but I know I'll be successful!

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JAYDEE16 1/24/2012 1:00PM

    Ah, I'm jealous! :) Wish I would have taken advantage of that "perk" of paying student fees when I was in school. Kudos for making the most of it!

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STARDUST2K4 1/10/2012 9:18AM

    There is an automatic charge for full time students in the tuition and miscellaneous fees. Basically it's "free" to any full time students with more of half of their tuition paid. I guess it's also open 24/7 too.

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RUNNERRACHEL 1/9/2012 11:51PM

    I'm excited for you!

Glad you like the gym! That sounds wonderful. It's included for all students? Doesn't cost extra? How cool... How great to have a gym with a variety of equipment. Gives you choices, and a way to workout on campus. That's great!

The celebratory meal sounds good! I always went out to school on the first day of school to celebrate, discuss how everything went, etc. Nice!


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Privacy Issues and Pure Insanity

Friday, January 06, 2012

Well most of my "faithful" readers know that in order to continue going to school full time, my fiance'e and myself had to move in with my parents. It's barely been a month and I am SO entirely frustrated! Because the house is full (no, there's no where else to go for either of us) there are no spare bedrooms. We basically sleep in the television room and just use the hide-a-bed. Yeah, there's a door separating it, but we can't lock it because the cat's litter box is in there.

We got rid of a lot of stuff, and property wise, we're down to a couple of plastic 3-drawer rolling dressers, our blankets, and a small cabinet to keep toiletries. There are 8 people living in the house plus 5 cats and a dog. It's a four bedroom house and isn't very big at all. Part of the cat issue is two of them belong to my sister. She moved back home with them when she broke up with her boyfriend a couple years ago. One of them belongs to me, and another one belongs to another sister. Basically it's a #ucking zoo.

Someone is always home. I haven't had much alone time with Adam since we've moved in. I gotta say it sucks, and it's frustrating. for once everyone was gone, and we finally had some alone time, and sure as $hit, within 5 minutes, my brother came home. On top of all that, he told me that the part he was replacing on my car was the wrong size. The company that we bought it from shipped the wrong one. School starts on Monday. I just bawled. I literally feel like I'm at the end of my rope. Yes, I can take the bus, but it feels like every time I get a little ahead, something pulls me back even further than where I started.
I know things are supposed to get better, but when the hell is it going to happen?! When is it going to be MY turn? Honestly, I'm surprised I've been able to eat within my calorie range. I'm amazed that I haven't torn out all of my hair or jumped into traffic. And I kid you not, one of the cats just barfed as I'm typing this.

(Cleaned up cat vomit)
On a good note, the walking has helped. That's really the only time Adam and I get any time alone. The only thing is we can't really be physical with each other like we used to be. I guess I just have to be patient and do REALLY well in school. I know we won't have enough money to move into our own place at least until September.

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RUNNERRACHEL 1/6/2012 9:23PM

    That sounds hard. You are doing so well in spite of the difficult circumstances and I admire your coping skills.

Hang in there! Keep doing things to relieve your stress, like taking walks and doing things that are relaxing to you.

Take care

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23KAIYA 1/6/2012 8:57PM

    emoticon hang in there

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ACYCLINGMIND 1/6/2012 8:25PM

    Ah, that's a long wait. I know the feeling; I was off to go traveling but, due to finances, am stuck living in the country with my dad and no car. Sympathy pains! I'm happy to not have 7 other people around me all the time, though. That really does sound like a zoo. Just keep on walking and do whatever you can to gather up the pocket change. And maybe some 2 AM showers with the fiance? good luck.

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Food Anxiety

Friday, January 06, 2012

I'm not sure why, but I'm freaking out just seeing Adam (my fiance'e) eat a large jack in the box meal. I already ate, and I am not physically hungry, but for some reason, seeing someone else eat fast food gives me some kind of anxiety. The old me would have gotten a meal too even though I wasn't hungry. I already ate a Whitman's 3 piece sugar free sampler pack, and I had 2 of his fries, so that was my treat for the day.
I'm not sure how to describe my relationship with fast food. There was a time when my usual fare at McDonald's was 2 mcdoubles, a large fry, and a large chocolate shake-all of which I would eat in bed while watching television. Thinking about it now makes me feel ashamed of that behavior. It's almost like...I feel left out if I see others eating and I'm not. It's almost like there's a slight panic. I don't know how to describe it any other way.

On a good note, me choosing NOT to get anything was a victory. That's about 900-1000 calories that I DIDN'T need or eat tonight. Sure, I had the chocolate, but my total calorie count for the day was less than 1900. I have to remind myself that every day I pass on the food when I'm not hungry is a day closer to my goal. I have to remind myself that this is a process. All of the positive choices I make add up, and hopefully by the end of the year, I'll be at my goal weight, or at least at a healthy weight below 200 pounds.
I feel better now that I've blogged about all this.

Well, it's 2:10 in the morning. Good night all.

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RUNNERRACHEL 1/6/2012 10:29AM

    I think it's great that you paid attention to the fact that you weren't hungry and despite what your head was telling you, you didn't give in. I think it will get easier. Fast food is manufactured to give us these intense cravings. Good job on not giving in to old habits. It's good you blogged about it. Keep listening to your true hunger and I think you'll find it easier next time.


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CONTESSA75 1/6/2012 8:23AM

  This to shall pass..... I was there about a year ago, my husband has Graves disease, he is not able to keep weight on. So he eats like there is no tommorrow...5 popsicles in 1 sitting is a breeze to him...and not an ounce gained. I tell myself, I am not him, I am strong, I can do this. Okay before all of that I ask him if it is really neccessary, but none the less....I hold fast and remember, there is no "Gaurantee to this weight loss thing, a healthier life all depends on me!" My prayers are with you, stay strong.

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    Good luck with reaching all your goals and more this year. +Mark

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Good So Far...

Thursday, January 05, 2012

These last couple of days have been great. I have managed to eat within my calorie range, and in spite of baking 20+ cupcakes yesterday, I only ate 1.5 because we were taste testing them. I have been going for walks, and I've actually burned about half of the calories I'm supposed to for this week. I'm really excited about everything now. I'm starting school on Monday. That makes me happy. I won't feel so useless, and I'll have access to a gym so I can strength train.
Today we're also getting our car fixed. That means we'll be able to drive to school and not rely on the bus anymore.
I am seriously SO excited! Yay for new beginnings!!

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PUNKIN175 1/5/2012 8:29PM

    Awesome!!! Great positive blog! I hope everything works out for you and good luck with the strength training!!!

(i love cupcakes... **sigh** I prolly would not have been able to stop at 1.5! You are a strong woman!!! ; )

Rock the goals!!!

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Real Day 1

Monday, January 02, 2012

Yesterday I went with Adam to his grandparents' house for a new year's brunch. I didn't eat as much as I could have, but I did eat a lot of fudge that they had there.
So far today, I have been doing really well with food intake. When I feel hungry, I drink a cup of green tea. I'm also going to go for a walk before I make dinner for myself. I am so excited to see the weight come off again. Yesterday I went for two 3+ mile walks. Once in the morning and once in the evening. We just went because that seems to be the only way we can spend time together. I'm hoping we can make it a regular thing when it's not raining too hard.
Today my dad came home from my aunt's house. He brought cake-really TASTY looking cake. I didn't even TOUCH it. I'm so proud of myself. I'm hoping to avoid it as much as possible, but like I said, one cheat meal a week won't undo my progress. Anyway, I guess I'm going to go for a walk now.

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RUNNERRACHEL 1/2/2012 10:34PM

    You're doing so well! Glad you had a nice time with your fiance's family and your family! That's emoticon keep up the great work!
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